Wednesday, November 22, 1995

November 22, 1995 - Wednesday - Smiles return with Nedda


     I finally had a good day after such a long time of emotional distress. I can't remember being this genuinely excited about life in quite some time. It's horrible to think that I wasted so much of one
of my last undergraduate semesters deserted by happiness.

I don't even know where to begin... so much has been happening but I haven't felt good enough about any of it until now to write about it.

     I've met this fabulous girl named Nedda Salehi, originally born here in St. Augustine, but has an Iranian ethnicity. Her family returned to Iran after her birth and didn't return until she was around nine.

 I had noticed her a few times before I ever met her during one of my morning classes. She had a mystical appeal to her. Her hair is extremely long down to at least the small in her back. She is
somewhat petite but carries herself very well... almost floats.

    And look at this new annoying habit... of pausing as I write... kind of like the infamous pause acting by Captain Kirk of the starship Enterprise... I picked it up from Kristen's cousin Marcy,
whom is another story entirely...

     Nedda... There was an exam today in Eukaryotic Cell Structure which I basically had to ace to salvage my grade in that class. Parasitology was cancelled because of Turkey Day, which gave me an
extra hour. I headed to the library early with Shari and Kristen as they walked to their education classes on the far side of campus. Just as we passed the computer lab, Laura LaRussa walked out and I waved and said hi, but kept on. Moments later Kristen said that girl tried to walk up behind us like she was going to talk to me and was surprised when I said it was Laura. It's so strange to think back
about the decisions I made that summer and the consequences that resulted...

     It figured that some shit had beat me to the library, just minutes after it had opened, and checked out the sample test material I needed. I headed to class and studied until it was exam time. Something interesting happened during the test... it was proctered by three of the major microbiology professors! A lot of people were impressed to see them all together at once. Dr. Achey from last semester even came up and asked how I was doing... he then said that he sees a lot of familiar faces that look one year older. He then asked if he looks one year younger and I said of course. He thanked
me and went on...

     Many unhappy people were forced to remain on campus because Dr. Duggan refused to cancel his microbial genetics class. He cited that we have many important things to cover despite the fact that he spent two days talking about cancer which will never be on the exam. I have started making a point to sit by this group of girls in the Alpha Delta Phi sorority. I am in particular love with Molly McButter... no, Addison. One of the group, unfortunately the least appealing, is a scrawny blonde with a funny shaped face that tries to talk football with us guys in parasitology lab. Her name is Jennifer L. Anderson (although I do not know this). She has finally begun to accept me as someone to sit next to and has done so for the past few days. Today she even borrowed my pencil... WOW! (severe sarcasm). that's actually good because she accepts me as at least a normal person and not a
freak, hopefully.

     Only Jenn and Molly showed today, and then Nedda sat on their far side and we said hi to each other. Jenn wanted to suddenly move to the back so they could leave as soon as role was taken. I quickly (and to my own amazement) became happy that Molly left! I can't believe I felt that way. Nedda moved over to talk for a minute... We hadn't even said hello in a long time until last Friday for a brief minute. We started talking and she ended up getting her stuff and staying with me.

     When I told her I wasn't going home for Thanksgiving, she was all surprised and seemed to feel bad for me. I told her it is because I want to complete my medical applications. She said I could do so at home but I said my computer is up here. She then said that she would have invited me to HER house if she had known that!!! I WISH!!! She lives in Ocala, by the way. I felt quite a glow inside at that comment. When I told her that it's my birthday, too, she seemed even more surprised that I was going to be alone. We mentioned the UF-FSU game briefly, and talked about how she's never been to a game yet.

     She asked me at one point if I wanted to listen to Duggan and take notes, or talk... and guess what I opted for? He always yells at people and I was quite pleases that he didn't yell at us when we
ended up talking all period, especially since a third of the class was gone. She started telling me about volunteering in the surgical pathology department. I mentioned a four week old baby that had dies
of full cardiac arrest in the ER last week. I also mentioned the suspected anal abuse... very sad.

     She told me how she has seen and played with lymph nodes that were removed due to cancer, a kidney, and liver tissue, and quite a few stones. She told me how tumorous tissue looks pretty disgusting, and how human skin is really hard to cut with a scalpel and dulls the blade much more quickly than one would suspect. She was drawing little pictures of everything on her paper and it was getting quite detailed. I joked that he has to go back and label everything now, and we did it together.

     She thought I was laughing at her at one point about telling me all of this because of the way I was smiling at her. I told her I was definitely not, and she then explained how she likes talking to me about this because I am the only one who will listen to her about it and she wants to talk about it. I suddenly experienced a second ball of warmth... I've always loved hearing a girl say how much she likes talking to me because I'll actually listen. I later asked her if that was really such a good thing.. that we both like dead tissue?

     At one point he yelled at the people a few rows ahead of us to shut up so people around them can learn. She asked if he was talking to us on the paper and I asked her what? She then wrote asking if I
can read? Her grammar wasn't perfect so I said yes, I can read ENGLISH. She then wrote "English" in Arabic. I've always thought Arabic is a beautiful written language and asked her if she could
write her name, since I saw that she wasn't fluent. She did and then explained how words are written backwards, but numbers aren't. And the books are read from the "back to the front" of the book.

     I was trying to show interest and she seemed surprised and glad that I was. She started trying to remember the alphabet and write it down. I asked her about the letters in her name and she explained them to me, and then wrote the names of the letters above each one in her alphabet. At the end of class I asked her if I could have that page. She seemed surprised that I wanted it and said she would have written a nicer copy if she had known. I then said I had wanted the whole page with the drawings, too, so when she is famous I can say she drew this when... and we laughed.

      As class ended some dork came up and asked her how the test was. I refused to lose her again like the first time we walked together to biochemistry and was persistent. When he was done, he
asked if her name was Nedda and seemed proud that he remembered it... I almost felt embarrassed for him. We then started walking. I told her I wasn't going to biochem, and she scolded me. I said I was
hungry and was going home for lunch. Unfortunately, I only had an hour to eat and get ready before Kristen was driving me to Shands to volunteer as she headed home to Tampa. I never wished more that I didn't have to meet her to say goodbye, because I would have gone on one of my infamous walks like in the days of old.

     It's so hard to be nice with Nedda, though, because she will always try to walk as far as possible with me, while I am doing the same thing with her. She is too easy like that with me. She quickly
decided that he should go to her car and get her lunch and I smiled. If I didn't have to meet Kristen I would have gone with her... SHIT. She mentioned something about having to arrive an hour early to get a parking space, and then sits in her car and waits for class. It reminded me of how anal I am about being early and often used to sit in my Mustang once I got to work and all. But I didn't admit that because the similarity might only be in MY head.

     I asked her what she does for Thanksgiving if anything. Her mom cooks a big turkey dinner with all of the classic fixins like sweet potatoes (which she doesn't like because potatoes aren't supposed to
be sweet). I told her that if she has any leftovers that I'd be very happy if she brought me some... but I don't know if she thinks I was serious. I hope she does.

     We were talking about the body more. I brought up how amazing I thin it is that all of those organs are packed so neatly in such a tight little space as I looked at her tiny little chest. She agreed
and we were talking about where things are. I explained the trick about finding your stomach, and she said why you have to be careful performing CPR so the bottom of the sternum won't puncture your
liver! We were also talking about he orientation of your kidneys because she got that wrong when the doctor in pathology asked her if she knew...

     I was quite turned on by her when she was touching herself pointing out her organs. When she found her lower ribs to find her stomach, I especially liked it. She was wearing a very classy outfit
today and looked very nice. It was a long v-neck emerald sweater with a very sexy lacy undershirt... YUM!    

 I also brought up a conversation Kristen and I were having this morning. I told her it is domestic violence awareness week and asked her if she's hit anyone at home yet to celebrate. She laughed in
surprise, and I explained myself. People celebrate black history month in order to learn black history and put it to use. So violence week means you have to hit someone in order to appreciate not doing
so all the time. I asked how we should celebrate AIDS week, perhaps running around all week trying to get it by having sex. She suggested that we just have a sex week... and took her turn surprising me... I just didn't expect to hear something like that from her...

     We soon parted near the parking lot, unfortunately...
    

Monday, October 2, 1995

October 2, 1995 - Monday

     Kristen tried her hardest to get us in trouble this weekend. Snip...

Wednesday, September 27, 1995

September 27, 1995 - Wednesday - Meeting Nedda Salehi

     I made an attempt to be seen today and wanted to look as good as possible doing so. It was volunteer day so I got to "dress up" in jeans (tight!) and white shirt anyway. I had a test second period and I tried a new seat in the front left corner. Some little weirdo hick girl kept talking to me which was good, because the girl of interest was just behind me. I don't know anything about her except she's similar in style to Jen Merritt from over the summer. She's of a bigger build, not at all fat, with gorgeous hair and an overall very sensuous look. I got to hear her talk today... but nothing special,
her voice wasn't music to my ears or any magical bullshit like that.

     I eventually moved on to biochemistry where I spoke with a guy about our exam scores. I've known him for along time and he knows me from organic as being able to study for two nights and blow away a test. I did the same on this one, only missing four of fifty with a class average of 64.32! There ended up being one empty seat next to me and that unfortunately meant the two cute girls that have sat next to and talked to me wouldn't this time. I was well prepared to tell all the little Chinese kids and other dorks that the seat was saved waiting for the first (cute) girl to ask for it.

     But up popped one of my duo! It was the one that I would have never expected to sit with me on her own because I couldn't answer any of her questions before the exam and I have never really talked to her much besides that. And it was the one that I most wanted to brag to about my exam score and was afraid I wouldn't get the chance. When she told me she missed seventeen, I felt kind of bad for her, especially after telling her I only studied those few days. She seemed "amazed" that I got the entire set of sequencing problems right when I had just learned how to do them before the test.

     She seemed compelled to prove to me that she's not stupid, which is more of what I had imagined her personality to be like. She said that she had gotten a 93 of the anatomy and physiology exam the day before and an A on her analytical chemistry exam. She told me that she is in the college of pharmacy. She went on telling me about the brain doctor she worked with when she was at Florida State and how his specialty was the internal time clock mechanisms. I told herabout the brain surgery I viewed last semester.

     She then mentioned something about her friend Lisa and asked if I knew her. I think she assumed that we knew each other because Lisa always sat by me and talked to me during class. I said no, and asked if it was the one who always brings everything to class (lunchbag, violin, etc.) and she laughed and agreed. She said that Lisa was sitting further back and I was even more surprised that they didn't
sit together. I then asked her name and I believe she replied with Marilyn but for some reason I heard Maryland.

     I ran into Marinka before class and we joked around for a few minutes. She asked if I would mind if she came over and got me inebriated sometime next week and I said not at all. She claims it's
for an experiment where the person has to react to objects in a black box, but I'm not so sure...

     I met up with Kristen and we clocked in at the emergency room. There was a girl at the desk who looked like a young doctor until I realized that it was a girl from one of my classes wearing a PSO
coat. She was talking about Jeff, saying that he has three of the same classes as she and to our surprise I have not only the same three, but biochemistry as well! She said that she made quite a few
stupid mistakes on the biochem exam but I never found out her score. When Jeff arrived we compare answers from our exam this morning and suddenly we all were friends. How cute.

     Her name is Nedda Salehi and was born in St. Augustine but lived her first eight years in Iran, where her parents are from. She has very long and pretty brown hair. We talked the entire time and were running around doing things together. It was pretty neat to have a partner and I think we'll get to see some cool stuff together if we keep this up. It was also neat how well we got along and kept talking on and on. I got to tell her about working at Busch Gardens and Disney and my interest in zoology. She really seemed to like that and was saying how she even likes parasitology quite a bit which is unusual for a girl. I was also pleased with myself for coming up with some pretty witty jokes, making both of them laugh. And best of all was when Jeff started making fun of her name after I had been serious the whole time. I don't think she appreciated that and I laughed as he scored negative brownie points.

     It also just now starting to settle in as to what I really did this summer. I'm starting to appreciate it for the amazing opportunity that it was. I actually LIVED in Disney World!!! I was able to roam the world for free and enjoy it at my leisure in a manner that most people could only dream about. I think as soon as I get my photo album together, the summer will take on even more meaning and I will realize how wonderful it was as a whole, and not as how pathetic my actual work location was.

Tuesday, September 26, 1995

September 26, 1995 - Tuesday - Christalee Itchetucknee

     I walked down the ramp of the stadium with my three freshly acquired football tickets in my hand. I glanced up and thought I saw a familiar face but the sun was in my eyes and I couldn't yet tell. I
bowed my head and prayed. Not today. I have a cold. I looked like crap because I only have one class this morning. Oh please be her! And then she called my name and a very large smile appeared across my face.

     Erin Wilcox. We moved to hug each other, hesitated a frightening moment, and then carried through. She looked very good and I made time to walk with her most of the way to her class. How ironic it was that Kristen changed plans on me at the last minute because of a lab
she had to do when it was actually her turn to get the tickets. Does one recall twists of fate? Read.
  
  I spoke as if I didn't already know where she lived or what her phone number is. Instead she mentioned her e-mail account and told me to write her if I get a chance. In desperate fashion, she had a message just hours later. It's just been so long since I've played with her.

     She hates everyone from work pretty much but was telling the few of them she has run into lately. Nilsa in a grocery store, and Brian lives right by her boyfriend (YUK!). I mentioned how I saw everyone over the summer at Pleasure Island on Nilsa's birthday, making sure she knew I had moved on to Disney. She did get "excited" and said it is much better there, for she had always been the one that wanted to work at Disney far more than Busch. In fact, she was the first person who put the idea of college program in my head.

     Meanwhile at home, Kristen and I have made good friends with one of her roommates, Christalee Michelle Catherine Muller. Krista is a local hick with dreams of becoming either a doctor or a highly
acclaimed researcher. She went to the last football game with us and that night, she and I talked for five hours! while Kristen lay sleeping on the couch. She said that it was really good to talk to
someone who actually had a clue what she was talking about philosophically and could actually talk back without sitting there staring blankly. It was pretty refreshing and we learned a lot about
each other that "first" day.

     Krista was upset after her biology exam the other day so Kristen came and got me from the downstairs library so we could cheer her up by having milkshakes. The day after our talk, I had given Krista all of my Discover magazines, my Garth Brooks zoomer CD, and my blender to make shakes. I had said I would, but she was surprised I did so quickly. This was all in lieu of her saying I could have her National geographic collection which ended up being a good size boxful that filled a good number of spaces. Anyway, we used my blender to make blackberry-cookies-n-cream shakes and proceeded to raise her spirits quite a bit.

     Kristen had to run to my room at one point and Krista had yet to tell me what she had scored. I knew I could get her to tell me if we were alone, so I urged Kristen on. I then quickly found out her score and told her how poorly I had done on the same test. It turned out working very well because I later found out that she had told Kristen that he didn't want to tell, me her score because I might think she's stupid! I felt like a psychologist again and was so glad to see her in a better mood.

     We all went to Ichetucknee this Sunday and had a pretty good time tubing although it was overcast and the girls got very cold. It was quite nipply and thus a very pleasant experience for me. I was out of my tube most  of the way, either swimming or walking the bottom of the river. It was really pretty. We later stopped in High Springs where Krista had grown up and went to all of the antique shops and saw a lot of cool stuff.

Tuesday, August 22, 1995

August 22, 1995 - Thursday - Adventures

     School has started once again and a whole new set of adventures
has sprung up for Kristen and I to experience. Snip...

Wednesday, July 12, 1995

July 12, 1995 - Wednesday - Random flirtatious nonsense

     I've tried taking back over my life from the boring monotonous routine that I became trapped into. With the help of a refreshed tan (a sign of happiness) I have regained some confidence and have
rereleased my flirtatious nature. My body and mind are now in the process of getting back in shape with my spirit.

     I stepped back and realized I was letting too many little things bother me that I shouldn't. I wasn't really in the mood to be friendly, especially with girls. I was just having too many bad encounters to really enjoy myself, until suddenly now I don't even care. I had been getting upset when the love of my life, Jennifer, only would sit with me if randomly forced to. Today I let a new girl sit with me and saved the other seat for Alli. That way I wouldn't set myself up for a letdown, even though none was probably intended.

     I did walk into the breakroom last night on the way to wardrobe with Dana only to have all three women in the room call out my name practically at once, and none had anything to do with each other. One was Letitia from work who just got married who was talking to Matthew, Dana and my ride home, so that was nothing special. The second was the sixteen year old virgin, Mica-Marya Wenner from our sister buffeteria. She's actually really cute when she wants to be and I like her best out of the little kids in our area. She was talking to two hispanic guys and I completely blew her off by acknowledging Rochelle instead. She walked with me into the locker room and we had a good little chat. I actually think it would be fun to hook up with her here being that she got dumped at the end of summer and all. She's pretty nice but I just can't figure out how to get to be in the same place with her for any length of time.

     When I walked back in the breakroom, Mica made sure I saw her this time. I also had a fan club (of the criticizing sorts) when I went into currency operations with Dana to drop the banks. All of the
girls from the front of the park that work with Keven were there and Jennifer was making a big deal out of me being there. She's the one that called my name out from the pool that day I was walking by with Kristen, which made the latter jealous. Kimberly form the front is one of my new favorite people. We were at lunch collectively the other day until everyone but she and I were there alone. Both Keven and Danielle have individually told me that she is quite and were surprised when I told them how much she ran her mouth at lunch with me that day.

     She came by the boat the other day in plain clothes with a Delta Gamma girl, and she looked fucking amazing!!! I stood there in utter awe which was immediately noticed by my coworkers. And then they all saw Kim recognize me and wave. I was so happy that everyone saw, for it is far and few between when such a beautiful girl acknowledges me on her own accord.
    

Saturday, July 1, 1995

July 1, 1995 - Saturday - Galavanting around Disney World!

     I realized last night how little direction my life has when Matt could not figure out at all what he thought I should be. He had a good idea for everyone else but just didn't think being a doctor was
quite right for me. He finally placed me as the person who writes all of the material for the president to speak and indirectly runs the country. Kristen piped up and said I would never go for that because
I would want all of the credit. He then went on to finish by saying that I would write a book exposing everything when I was through, and Kristen and I laughed, agreeing at how true that part really was.

     I attempted today to get a little bit of n...... back into me, for it's been a long time since I've peeled off my clothes and just shriveled like a raisin out in the hot Florida sun. It felt amazing. I've even started a new fad with myself by wearing a pair of sunglasses, something I have never done before. They are those almost new Oakleys I found on the Kumba that time that were in perfect condition. I also found and put back in an earring today for the first time in quite a while. I'm positive that Kristen will be disappointed after how many times she noticed and complimented me for not having one in.

     I went with Kristen gallivanting all around the World yesterday. We started by heading over to the casting building to complete a little task presented to us during our seminars on Wednesday. I asked
her to try and get the same assignment that I had gotten so we could do them together. We had to answer a lot of questions about the new employee recruitment process including its challenges and the way the building it is done in is presented. I was actually amazed by the place for it was an extremely imposing and grandeur work of architecture that made you feel puny compared to the almighty Walt Disney Company. I brought a camera with me to get a lot of the memories I've been waiting to capture on film since the summer started, and we started here by having one of the employees take on of us together on the entrance ramp to the main desk and lobby.

     On the was there a pretty cute girl had been sitting at the bus stop with Kristen when I arrived. I made eye contact with this girl and slightly smiled as I walked up, but nothing unusual. As we boarded the van, Kristen said this girl seemed extremely eager to get in front of her and sit right next to me. I was rather pleased. I even joked to Kristen this morning that if she wasn't nice to me, I
would go and ride that same van all day until the girl came back. I also had her thank me for not making conversation with this girl in the first place which I very well could have. Especially how Clint was saying that I'm so easy to have a conversation with, after he was amazed hat I always insight something to talk about.

     I didn't really think much about the whole deal until the same girl came and sat in one of the closest lounges to me this morning at the pool. I had never seen this girl before yesterday and suddenly she's popping up everywhere like some kind of beautiful omen... or fate? She has a very attractive body, but didn't take of her Umbros when she was laying out hinting at thighs on the larger side.

     Kristen and I walked over to the Sunbank when we were done at casting so I could cash my paycheck and buy some two dollar bills, of which they only had nine. We then went into the Disney Village Marketplace where they sell the best soft pretzels I've seen on Disney property. Kristen bought one and I decided to finally buy one of the cinnamon ones that I had always wanted to try. It ended up being even more delicious that hers, so I didn't much mind the dollar seventy-five price tag.

     We switched over to mass guest transportation and headed in towards the Magic Kingdom. There were what seemed like fifty million people waiting in line for the monorail there but none for the
resorts one, which stops at the same Magic Kingdom station as the other one. We walked right on past the herds and even rode in the very front with the operator which excited Kristen a lot. It was only my second time doing that so I thought it was pretty cool, too.

     We knew it would pretty much be too crowded to ride the stuff that we've already been on fifty times anyway so we took advantage of the sun and her mom's expensive camera while we had it. We figured we'd just take pictures, eat and shop. We got a few good ones at the front of the park including one of her holding a giant bouquet of balloons that a cast member was selling. We ate at the employee breakroom that I had just found out about the other day during the college program publicity photos. We bought the exact same pizza sold in the park for well over three dollars for a dollar thirty. We ate with the guests, though, overlooking a lake and Cinderella's castle.

     We shopped out at property control where we receive our seventy-five percent discount but only found a cool little CD with hits from 1978. It was awesome because it is some of the earliest music that I can remember, for both Kristen and Matt don't. We then ran around the park for a while longer getting some really good pictures, quite a few where a guests would offer to take one of us together which was really nice and really cool. I also cornered Meeko, everyone's favorite raccoon from Pocahontas, and we both had our picture taken with John Smith and the Powhatan princess herself.

     We had a huge spool of cotton candy and watched the runoff election between Winnie the Pooh and Captain Hook in the Main Street town square before heading off to Epcot. We enjoyed a romantic little ferry ride across the lake followed by a two and a half mile monorail trip to the park entrance. Once inside, we headed towards the world showcase had a gorgeous blonde named Nicole guide us around the world in a replica of a London bus. We got off at France and headed out the
back of the park over to the Yacht and Beach Club resorts and wandered around taking pictures for a while. We had a security guard named John tell us all about how to look inconspicuous when sneaking into the pools there which are reminiscent of a typical water park's.

     We played a little ski ball and air hockey at the arcade before swinging on the beach of the lake for a little while. We took the river walk back to Epcot and found good seats for IllumiNations,
which neither of us had ever seen before. I was amazed. It was the best show I have yet to see at Disney complete with lasers, spotlights, fireworks and music.