It's late at night and I'm finally getting around to writing my journal. I've had a caffeine high for the past couple of hours. I took Kim to McDonalds and treated before taking her home. We had a pretty good time but I was just too tired. Our first `date' was the highlight of my day.
I was scheduled as cutback and had talked to Amanda about switching shifts but Sharlene called in so Andy let me take over her shift. I still had a while before I was due in and I figured that I'd find Amanda over in the lounge. I did so I sat down and talked with her for a while until Agnes showed up and Ray from Tidal Wave came over and sat down. Amanda just sat there, sort of excluded, as the three of us talked about the Olympians in the park and how we each felt about the professional basketball players being able to play. I believe that each country should be represented by it's best athletes in each sport. They felt that it should all be amateurs.
I was sent up to Lift 2 and had about fifteen minutes to talk with Kimmeth. I'm a little jealous of the fact that she and Mark are going to the beach today, with the possibility of her staying in St. Pete overnight. She was replaced by Amanda who didn't want to talk. I later ended up loading on platform with Kim, with Rebecca on panel, and Andy grouping. We were all talking and I kept walking around to the three of them, I was hyper and couldn't stand still. Amanda kept crying about unloading in the back and Andy and I were making cracks about her. I then asked Rebecca for some ice water. She kicked the door open and sarcastically told me to get it myself. I thus was forced to empty a quarter cup of freezing water all over her legs! It was funny. We seem to always be playing with each other that way lately.
After a while, Kim and I started throwing ice across the platform at each other. I got her in the butt, and she was jokingly opening her mouth for me to make a basket. I then threw a piece or two up at Rebecca and got a cute face back at me. I didn't leave before telling Kim what nice hair she has, and asking to touch it. I then relieved Agnes up at LIft 2 and called MichŠle who had just come in an hour ago. I go `¨Que pasa?' and couldn't figure out what she said back on my own. We started talking all about how to keep comfortable and stuff. It was the first time we talked alone on the phone and I didn't confuse her once. Go me!
I then went to lunch and had a turkey sandwich with lettuce, tomatoes, cheddar cheese, ketchup and mayonnaise. Afterwards I went to Spillway and talked to MichŠle for a few minutes. I got her big gorgeous smile and then she was asking me about shin splints. She was on the phone with Rebecca up at Lift 2 when I got there so I called her when MichŠle left. Right when I called she goes `shit!' because Amanda was coming up. My feelings exactly. But Amanda was finally in the mood to talk and we did for over half an hour about how we could smuggle softdrinks up into the lifts to drink. I called Agnes on platform twice and she hung up on me both times, not on purpose though.
At five Kim replaced Amanda and we started talking again. I was about ready to ask her if I was to be bestowed with the privilege of taking her home again when she asked me if I would. I said `I suppose,' and was very inwardly glad that I would get to. She also told me that she had a big turkey sandwich for lunch with Thousand Islands dressing. She told me I was gross for putting ketchup on my sandwich, and then I told her that her dressing was made partly of it. Later on, we both went down together, her to dinner, and I on break. When I got to the break room she was on the pay phone with someone. She was laughing and I feared it was Mark or some other guy, but I figured Mark. Damn it! Andy came in and sat with me. It seems that he likes her too somewhat and is always trying to talk to her when I do, and also seemed somewhat perturbed that she was so jovial on the phone. Like my big words? Now that I'm forgetting the Spanish I learned at Leto, I'm starting to pull all of my vocabulary back from my subconscious. Anyway, I sat there and folded up pieces of paper and flicked them at her. When I ran out of paper I just popped my head down onto the table and rested. I figured Kim would wake me up after my break was up.
Some black guy kept bothering her to get off the phone. She finally did when it was about time for me to go back. That's when I found out she was on dinner. I suddenly felt a light tapping on my head and tried to quickly grab her arm but couldn't. She was the phone with her best friend, Teresa. What a relief. She is the girl with the two year old son who is Kim's little beach bum. She told me that Teresa wanted to know if I would go out with someone older than me. I told her that every girl that I've gone out with has been older, but only by one year or so. She then tells me that that isn't much. I then realized that Nicole was actually younger by a month and I apologized for lying. I tried to leave the impression that I definitely would date someone older, even seven years older. Hint. Hint.
I got sent to the unloading brakes. There was a black guy from the Python who was working as the pool person so I talked to him. He just graduated from King with a 2.8 GPA. I found this out after bragging about being valedictorian and having a 5.3. We then were talking about the girls that work in the North area and which ones were good looking and all. I told him that he was just working with our best looker, MichŠle. We then were talking about the Dream Team and how they might possibly show up on the last day of the Olympic send off from Busch Gardens. I said how awesome it was that they just played in the Tournament of the Americas and won all of their games by an average of 57 points!
I feel pretty special today. How many valedictorians have a great job at Busch Gardens, a great tan, and good looks. I got two winks today from cute girls, a couple of long inviting looks, and One `you're hot!' And then I take a 24 year old out to dinner!
Anyway when I went back up to Spillway I was replacing Agnes. She asked me what was going on between Kim and I. I told her that I didn't know yet. I then asked her why she hung on me earlier. She said she didn't mean to but was getting calls on the other phone. She also reminded me that I called her yesterday and when I found out it was her I told her that I didn't want to talk to her. I just remembered why! I was calling Bryan to tell him about some gorgeous girls going on the ride! Anyway, she laughingly dumped her cup of ice water at me. I tried to get her with some water from the ice chest but I missed. I then called and talked to Amanda for awhile. I told her all about the awards I have won and about my GPA and it really seemed to impress her. Brad picked up once, he keeps seeming to pick up all the time to find me on the phone with someone. It's funny. Kim called at eight to tell us the last boat number. She said something like `Hey you guys...' and seemed a tiny bit distracted by the fact that Amanda and I were talking away. Amanda had called down a few minutes earlier to ask what was taking so long, and I ws still on the phone, so when Kim picked up I go `Hi sexy!' I'm not sure if she even heard me because she didn't say anything abotut it.
When I went down she kept talking to Brad, almost seeming to get back at me, but I don't know. We went over to the water fountain and splashed cold water on each other. Then, as we were sitting at the light on 30th we hear a horn honking to the side. It was Brad and he waved. I don't quite think he expected to see Kim with me and I laughed and am glad he did. We stopped into McDonalds and Kim ordered chicken nuggets and a drink. She paid for it and I quickly paid her back for it citing how wonderful I am. I ordered a Big Mac, large fries, and large drink. We sat facing the window looking out at the sunset over the Busch beer plant. How romantic! There were a bunch of little black kids with a couple of ladies eating. She told them that we worked where they saw the zebras today and if they didn't behave, we'd have the zebras come and get them. It was funny. She then asked us if we wanted some kids.
After declining her offer we kept talking. We then started tossing french fries at each other and almost mouth feeding them, I tried. We then started tickling each other almost off the seats. It was fun. I then drove her home and got to say hi to her brother, Dan, as I dropped her off in her driveway. It was a really interesting day, but I wish I hadn't of been so sleepy with Kim. I hope it all helped, I really think it has.
I think I am in love. I'm at a loss for words right now. My thoughts are swirling and my emotions are starting to take over my life again. Everything and anything can happen in my life in the next few months. I've fallen in love with Kim. Seven years older. I keep thinking about when she asked me if I would date an older woman. I haven't learned to control this new power of attracting women that seems to have fallen on me. I have never had that much of a self image, if any at all. I don't know what I look like. Of course I have looked in a mirror, but I don't know how others see me. I'm starting to realize that I'm in no way ugly, and am starting to use this new self confidence to my advantage. It just irks me that I can seemingly lure in a very wonderful 24 year old who is not at a loss for friends. I very much want to make her happy and I want us to have fun together. I have found myself not bragging about myself to her at all. I haven't told her about all of my awards, and I haven't let my ego come out at all. Our relationship seems to be entirely based on our thoughts about life, and our looks, my blue eyes and her beautiful brown hair. I haven't tried or felt like I've needed to try and impress her with my accomplishments. She's amazing, it's like the adult world is so much more beautiful and enticing than our hectic youth, which I am still in, which scares me. It is almost like I shouldn't be feeling this way. I am also scared about what is soon going to happen if I go to Gainesville and tear all of the bonds I have made just recently. Time is a necessity which I do not possess.
I keep seeing Agnes ask me with her cute foreign accent, `What's going on with you and Kim?' I will tell them tomorrow that I took her home and we stopped to eat on the way. I don't care if I repeat anything that I said earlier, these are my thoughts now. I wonder where she is now. I would give anything to know that she is home, safe and sound, at this very moment. It is all just so overwhelming. I'm playing with a young woman now and I don't know how to act. I don't know whether I should try to act more mature, or if I should keep up my youthful jovial actions. Kim had lived with a boyfriend of hers for a while, she has shared a condo with three guys, and has lived in Jamaica for a month. She went to college for two years in Ft. Lauderdale. It almost sounds completely against all of my sexist philosophies to even more than casually talk to her. What happened to marrying a girl with high goals and money and such, like I said, our relationship has nothing to do whatsoever on what we have. I just need to see and talk to her again.
Love seems to have stomped it's huge crushing foot straight down in front of me, and before I could turn, I ran smack into it.
Why save your kisses for a rainy day?
Baby let the moment take you're heart away.
Have you ever needed someone so bad?
Have you ever wanted someone,
You just couldn't have?
Did you ever try so hard,
That you're world just fell apart?
Have you ever needed someone so bad?
And to the girl I've gotta have,
I've gotta have you baby, yeah...
To give out such crazy love,
It must be some kind of drug.
And if my time don't ever come,
For me you're still the one.
Damned if I don't,
Damned if I do,
I've gotta get a fix on you.
Have you ever needed someone so bad?
Have you ever wanted someone,
You just couldn't have... Def Leppard
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