I just performed what I think is the first kind act ever
directed by me towards a fellow male. A million and a half of us
headed over to Pleasure Island tonight and had just gotten in the
front gate when Matt started feeling really sick. He had been totally
wasted for a long time and really needed to head back home. He had
never before taken the shuttle back to Vista Way so I intended on
making sure he made it back home safe and sound. We did meet some
girls from Sweden as we waited for the bus and I almost went to the
grocery store with the two of them to buy alcohol and hang out with
them. I didn't have any money on me though and I didn't want to make
myself look that bad.
Friday, May 26, 1995
Monday, May 22, 1995
May 22, 1995 - Monday - Lara in my Lap
Today I started working at my new location for the very first
time. It's called Min and Bill's Dockside Diner and looks like a
silly little steamboat sitting in a pond. And most of the people I
work with are either middle aged lesbians or are in some way impaired
(so it seems). But I've been told not to worry because the cute girls
will be coming on the weekends and all summer as soon as school lets
out.
I had a pretty fun day overall and was somewhat impressed by the
way Disney runs a fast food establishment. It wasn't half as bad as I
feared it would be, or as Matt said it was for him over at the All
Star Resort on his first day.
It was partially because of the people I got to hang out with
all day, too. I met Rochelle who lives just around the corner from us
here in Vista Way when we were going through the second day of
traditions. She goes to Ball State in Indiana and only knows Clint
from when she met him at the airport after the plane ride here. She
seemed pretty bitter at first about having to work at food service,
and some other people got the same impression about her in general. I
was trying to be witty with her and eventually found out that she was
just dumped before leaving from a relationship that had been going
perfectly up until that day. That might explain just a little bit.
She showed up on the same bus that Keven and I rode in this
morning and sat just across from me. We ended up arriving an hour
early so we just hung out at some picnic table outside the break room
making fun of everybody. We joke around a lot and I've seen her cute
little smile quite a few times so I've quickly overcome thinking
she's a negative person. If only she didn't have brown eyes...
I ended up meeting her at lunch as well. She was with a Chinese
girl who goes to UF with me. Rochelle wanted to get some French fries
and since I was already in line at the grill, I saId I'd get them for
her. I then bought them for her and didn't let her pay me back,
although she didn't try very hard. I also encouraged her to let me
buy her a soda this morning during our cash handling break, and she
seemed appreciative. I consider them small monetary tools for kissing
someone's ass.
She kept telling me about this friend of hers with red hair who
is from England. I finally got to hear her accent at lunch and got to
meet her when she and Rochelle saw me in the unisex locker room. She
introduced herself to me and her name flew straight through me brain
for I was so enthralled by her beauty, especially for a redhead.
Keven met her earlier and said her name is Kirsten when we were on
the van home. I met a few more girls on the way back. One named Kelly
from Miami University in Ohio who is transferring to St. Louis in the
fall. The other's name is Kelly who's best friend rooms with
Rochelle.
My most promising and exciting venture so far came Saturday
night when we all decided to have dinner together. The girls upstairs
went out and bought the fixings to make spaghetti, al a chef Matt. I
offered the garlic powder to make the bread and washed a lot of the
dishes at the end to do my part. The food was delicious and I was
surprised because I don't normally like chunky sauce.
We checked out a VCR from the clubhouse after dinner so we could
watch Sleepless in Seattle. As I finished up the dishes, Jennifer who
was laying on the couch, offered to let me sit at her feet. Of course
such a trivial thing excited me and I would have let her through her
feet on me and even massage them had situations warranted. She passes
out pretty quick because of all the lifeguard classes. I woke her up
a little while later and she went ahead back upstairs, giving me the
full couch. By the very end of the movie, only Clint, Lara, and I
remained. I figured that she would be extremely prompt in leaving as
soon as the movie ended because Clint doesn't seem like the kind of
guy she would like to talk to and I just have low self esteem about
myself anyway.
We all started talking for a few minutes and I was painfully
waiting for her to say goodbye, but she didn't. We brought up grades
somewhere in there and Lara was ranked number four in her class and
was in the upper eleven hundreds on the SAT. Clint's were "worse". So
of course I had to brag without seeming like I was and really
impressed Clint with my 5.3.
Lara was telling us how they moved down from Pennsylvania early
during high school and she went from the biggest prep school in the
world to a school that was sixty percent black!!! Poor little girl.
She explained that they were the inner city kind and were really
tough and mean which scared the shit out of her. I don't blame her.
I noticed while we were talking that she would kind of stare off
between us a lot when she was talking and would talk to Clint with
the same look that she was giving the wall. But quite often when she
looked at me her eyes would flutter for an instant almost like she
was the slightest bit shy. I liked that a lot. We kept talking for a
while and it was over an hour and a half before Clint finally went to
bed just before two. I was again overcome by a fear that she would
leave me now so I sat up on the couch and told her to come sit with
me because she seemed to be moving around a lot on the floor. CLint
had been on the far side of the room and she was in the middle of
both of us, but that was no longer necessary with him gone. She
obliged!
The hourly chime on her watch seemed to beep like an alarm, it
went so fast and so often. It wasn't until after four thirty that we
finally called it a night!!! We talked about everything that has ever
pertained to either of our lives and I knew to take advantage of this
moment because it was one of the rare situations that I work best in.
I also say that all I need is a few hours alone, but preferably on
the phone, with someone to win them over. It almost sounds like a
game but it's not at all, for I was totally interested in everything
this girl had to say.
I almost orgasmed earlier when we were talking about movies
because she asked at one point if we had ever seen Stargate!!! I said
seven times and she went on to use every argument that I always do to
explain why it is such an awesome movie. I was impressed and told her
so. She also said something from Better Off Dead and I almost died. I
repeated something else back from the movie and she almost had the
same reaction. I have always loved that movie but have NEVER found
anyone who knew what it was until now. I was completely amazed and we
went on to talk about our uniquely similar taste in movies in more
detail.
She said, after talking about Stargate, that she would love more
than anything to go to Egypt and would really love one of those
nameplates using hieroglyphics. Chrissy knows how to write them so
I'm hoping I can at least get at written copy of her name soon. I
also saw THE military jacket and T-shirt worn by Lieutenant Kawalsky
(John Diehl) in Stargate at this shop at Pleasure Island selling such
things. I stopped standstill and just stared for the longest time,
wanting...
My search for happiness will be over the day I have Lara sitting
in my lap with nothing but Kawalsky's jacket on, watching Better Off
Dead...
time. It's called Min and Bill's Dockside Diner and looks like a
silly little steamboat sitting in a pond. And most of the people I
work with are either middle aged lesbians or are in some way impaired
(so it seems). But I've been told not to worry because the cute girls
will be coming on the weekends and all summer as soon as school lets
out.
I had a pretty fun day overall and was somewhat impressed by the
way Disney runs a fast food establishment. It wasn't half as bad as I
feared it would be, or as Matt said it was for him over at the All
Star Resort on his first day.
It was partially because of the people I got to hang out with
all day, too. I met Rochelle who lives just around the corner from us
here in Vista Way when we were going through the second day of
traditions. She goes to Ball State in Indiana and only knows Clint
from when she met him at the airport after the plane ride here. She
seemed pretty bitter at first about having to work at food service,
and some other people got the same impression about her in general. I
was trying to be witty with her and eventually found out that she was
just dumped before leaving from a relationship that had been going
perfectly up until that day. That might explain just a little bit.
She showed up on the same bus that Keven and I rode in this
morning and sat just across from me. We ended up arriving an hour
early so we just hung out at some picnic table outside the break room
making fun of everybody. We joke around a lot and I've seen her cute
little smile quite a few times so I've quickly overcome thinking
she's a negative person. If only she didn't have brown eyes...
I ended up meeting her at lunch as well. She was with a Chinese
girl who goes to UF with me. Rochelle wanted to get some French fries
and since I was already in line at the grill, I saId I'd get them for
her. I then bought them for her and didn't let her pay me back,
although she didn't try very hard. I also encouraged her to let me
buy her a soda this morning during our cash handling break, and she
seemed appreciative. I consider them small monetary tools for kissing
someone's ass.
She kept telling me about this friend of hers with red hair who
is from England. I finally got to hear her accent at lunch and got to
meet her when she and Rochelle saw me in the unisex locker room. She
introduced herself to me and her name flew straight through me brain
for I was so enthralled by her beauty, especially for a redhead.
Keven met her earlier and said her name is Kirsten when we were on
the van home. I met a few more girls on the way back. One named Kelly
from Miami University in Ohio who is transferring to St. Louis in the
fall. The other's name is Kelly who's best friend rooms with
Rochelle.
My most promising and exciting venture so far came Saturday
night when we all decided to have dinner together. The girls upstairs
went out and bought the fixings to make spaghetti, al a chef Matt. I
offered the garlic powder to make the bread and washed a lot of the
dishes at the end to do my part. The food was delicious and I was
surprised because I don't normally like chunky sauce.
We checked out a VCR from the clubhouse after dinner so we could
watch Sleepless in Seattle. As I finished up the dishes, Jennifer who
was laying on the couch, offered to let me sit at her feet. Of course
such a trivial thing excited me and I would have let her through her
feet on me and even massage them had situations warranted. She passes
out pretty quick because of all the lifeguard classes. I woke her up
a little while later and she went ahead back upstairs, giving me the
full couch. By the very end of the movie, only Clint, Lara, and I
remained. I figured that she would be extremely prompt in leaving as
soon as the movie ended because Clint doesn't seem like the kind of
guy she would like to talk to and I just have low self esteem about
myself anyway.
We all started talking for a few minutes and I was painfully
waiting for her to say goodbye, but she didn't. We brought up grades
somewhere in there and Lara was ranked number four in her class and
was in the upper eleven hundreds on the SAT. Clint's were "worse". So
of course I had to brag without seeming like I was and really
impressed Clint with my 5.3.
Lara was telling us how they moved down from Pennsylvania early
during high school and she went from the biggest prep school in the
world to a school that was sixty percent black!!! Poor little girl.
She explained that they were the inner city kind and were really
tough and mean which scared the shit out of her. I don't blame her.
I noticed while we were talking that she would kind of stare off
between us a lot when she was talking and would talk to Clint with
the same look that she was giving the wall. But quite often when she
looked at me her eyes would flutter for an instant almost like she
was the slightest bit shy. I liked that a lot. We kept talking for a
while and it was over an hour and a half before Clint finally went to
bed just before two. I was again overcome by a fear that she would
leave me now so I sat up on the couch and told her to come sit with
me because she seemed to be moving around a lot on the floor. CLint
had been on the far side of the room and she was in the middle of
both of us, but that was no longer necessary with him gone. She
obliged!
The hourly chime on her watch seemed to beep like an alarm, it
went so fast and so often. It wasn't until after four thirty that we
finally called it a night!!! We talked about everything that has ever
pertained to either of our lives and I knew to take advantage of this
moment because it was one of the rare situations that I work best in.
I also say that all I need is a few hours alone, but preferably on
the phone, with someone to win them over. It almost sounds like a
game but it's not at all, for I was totally interested in everything
this girl had to say.
I almost orgasmed earlier when we were talking about movies
because she asked at one point if we had ever seen Stargate!!! I said
seven times and she went on to use every argument that I always do to
explain why it is such an awesome movie. I was impressed and told her
so. She also said something from Better Off Dead and I almost died. I
repeated something else back from the movie and she almost had the
same reaction. I have always loved that movie but have NEVER found
anyone who knew what it was until now. I was completely amazed and we
went on to talk about our uniquely similar taste in movies in more
detail.
She said, after talking about Stargate, that she would love more
than anything to go to Egypt and would really love one of those
nameplates using hieroglyphics. Chrissy knows how to write them so
I'm hoping I can at least get at written copy of her name soon. I
also saw THE military jacket and T-shirt worn by Lieutenant Kawalsky
(John Diehl) in Stargate at this shop at Pleasure Island selling such
things. I stopped standstill and just stared for the longest time,
wanting...
My search for happiness will be over the day I have Lara sitting
in my lap with nothing but Kawalsky's jacket on, watching Better Off
Dead...
Wednesday, May 17, 1995
May 17, 1995 - Wednesday - Vista Way
I've finally made it to Disney World against all of my
pessimistic expectations. CJ returned my call the very next day last
Thursday telling me she had found my paperwork. I thanked her
profusely but still had a bit of fear that someone had screwed up and
signed me up for the fall. I decided to just wait things out and hold
my breath until I got up here to see whether or not everything would
work out.
Meanwhile I kept insisting to Kristen that I was so pissed at
Disney altogether for not taking an interest in my problem that I was
ready not to even bother showing up at all. In part this was true,
just in case, but I didn't bother to ever tell her that they called
me back. I was very prepared to get a job at Kmart or Walmart, or
maybe even both, and just bike over there all of the time. I figured
I could make and save up some pretty impressive bucks by doing so,
and meet some local girls to mess around with. Kristen was pretty
freaked out by the whole facade until finally I gave in and told her
at about midnight just before I'd be leaving in the morning for
Orlando. She was mad at me while at the same time glad I was going
which made it fun to hear her try to spit out what she felt.
I had been asking her how she feels about me over the last few
days before we came up here. I wanted to know exactly where she
stands so I could understand and treat her better instead of so
sarcastically. I also wanted to know what it was like for her to be
around me the entire time after breaking up, unlike Shar¡ and I which
apparently was much harder being apart. She ended up breaking down
and telling me that she definitely still loves me, something which I
knew already. I actually told her that I love her, too, but in the
sense that I care about her very strongly as a best friend and
someone to talk with regardless of who is having problems.
I headed out of Tampa with Father just after dropping Chrissy
off at the bus stop in the morning. It only took us about an hour and
a half which left us a little while to explore Lake Buena Vista
before we were allowed to check in to the apartments. I soon found
myself in a very nice clubhouse praying as a woman searched through a
file for my name, AND SHE FOUND IT!!! One woman actually said she
knew my name already because she had received two papers on me! That
means they DID get them both and someone was really screwing up on
me. I signed my paperwork and then headed into another room to get my
room information. This country boy ahead of me asked me when my
seminars were and I immediately thought that he was a pretty nice
guy. When I received my room agreement I notice that the guy was in
my room so I walked up to him and said, "Hello roommate!" and we
introduced ourselves.
The guy, Matt, is from North Carolina, home of the Tar Heels,
and comes from a town of thirty-five thousand called Morganton near
Ashville. I ended up beating him to the room where I met Heath
Mitchell from the Texas flatlands. Heath goes to Texas Tech and is a
lifeguard as is his roommate, another Matt. I thought that was pretty
cool figuring they'd be be bringing over quite a few girls, and when
they turned out to be jerks, Attentive Dan would be the want they
want. Clint, from Ball State in Ohio, picked up on the fact last
night after seeing me at work. He asked me if I'm the silent yet
deadly type and I strongly agreed that I am. Clint vows to have me
changed by the end of the summer so that the girls will be coming to
me rather than me going after them. We'll see.
I picked a bedroom and as soon as Matt showed up I had him room
with me. I figured it would be easy to get along with a fellow hick
especially when it comes to country music. He also offered to sleep
out on the couch any time I wanted to bring a girl over for which I
was very grateful and will also respect towards him. The last
roommate's name is Keven and he turns out to go to the University of
Florida with me. That was weird because Rick promised not to do that
but oh well. He's the biggest nerd of the bunch but he's still pretty
cool. Everybody here is.
Kristen and I planned to meet up at four just before our meeting
but I went to an early one and thus was free for the rest of the day.
The second one was at five but I decided to check and see if she'd be
there anyway. If not I was going to be pretty pissed and not worry
about her until she found me. I checked both meeting places and just
as I did, her mom's car drove by and they noticed me. They made me
get in the car and took me back to Kristen's apartment. They had just
gone to the grocery store and had taken Jen, Kristen's roommate from
Bowling Green, Ohio. Jen is perhaps the most gorgeous girl I have met
so far and I have already let Kristen know it She's been a little
lacking on the personality side but claims that's just because she's
been really tired after the plane trip and all.
Kristen's physical roommate is Sally from Alabama who is in
Delta Zeta which I have already dubbed "DiZzy" or maybe even "DitZy".
She has an awesome southern accent but seemed like a total bitch. I
ended up meeting all of the other roommates and then we all decided
to go out to some bars to hang out. There were free drinks for ladies
at the Baja at Crossroads so everyone over twenty-one wanted to go
there while we all went to Johnny's. Kristen, Jen and I decided to
head back to the apartment early because Kristen hadn't eaten yet and
there was nothing really for us to do, especially with Kristen
around. On the way back some girls at a party on the third floor were
yelling hello out the window. Some guys behind us yelled back but the
girls said they weren't talking to them and then pointed at me! I
felt special, for a second.
The others stepped back by the room and Sally stopped at he
counter and stared at Kristen for a second and I told Kristen how sad
Sally looks now that we left her as the only person under twenty-one!
When Kristen realized that we did leave her she freaked out and
became very apologetic. I knew that wasn't really on Sally's mind but
it did cause her to suddenly open up with us and we had an awesome
time talking and hanging out for the next couple of hours. She's a TV
freak and knows all kinds of trivia. She also practically has every
episode of Beavis and Butthead memorized which I have never seen a
girl do before. I guess her sorority doesn't quite take up all of her
time. She's also strongly for the death penalty and we agreed
perfectly on a lot of other extremist ideas. Kristen was shocked that
our personalities matched so exactly and of course I loved it. After
Sally went to bed, Kristen and I actually messed around for a little
while in front of an open window, and then I had Kristen shave my
neck in the bathroom.
I headed home after that hoping the guys would have girls over
and I wasn't disappointed. They were all sitting around the table
playing drinking games when I walked in, except for Keven who was
watching. I sat down for a few minutes and this one girl kept talking
top me trying to find out what I had done and was asking if it would
have been more fun if she was there. I thought she, another Jennifer,
was pretty good looking and so was her friend, Lara (Clara without
the C, as she apparently introduced herself earlier). I soon found
myself sitting on the countertop overlooking there game and chugged a
Michelob Light before joining in. I placed myself very stealthily
right in between Lara and Jennifer as we started playing a variety of
card games headed by Clint.
Fortunately the two buzzing girls at my side didn't know how to
play poker so I got to "teach" them. There was a third girl there
named Kendra from New Mexico whom the guys like but I think is
disgusting. The opinions of Lara are completely reversed because I
love her and they all think she's a fucking bitch. I helped Jennifer
win a hand of poker just before getting twenty-one in a game of the
same name myself.
Jennifer had been talking about this racist joke her dad had
told her when she told him she had two black roommates but didn't
want to tell it because she didn't know anyone that well yet, etc.
Clint was constantly begging her to tell it and then I tried. Two
minutes later she agreed but said we'd have to go outside and we did.
Lara came too because she was mad that Jennifer wouldn't even tell
her, her own roommate. I looked back at the desperate bunch of guys
and apologized for stealing their women so quickly, for Kendra had
already gone home. Jennifer told us the classic bowling balls as
n..... eggs joke. She then kept asking if I'd think badly of her now
and I said definitely not, and that I respect her more for being
truthful now rather than later.
After we had headed back in, Clint was asking us how long we
have known each other and I put my arm around her and said for years
and she smiled and agreed. I later admitted that I'd only known her
for ten minutes and he (they) were upset that she told me and none of
them. Tough break guys. We then played a betting game and needed some
coins. Everyone was scrounging for pennies and I just happen to have
a baggie full from when I was cleaning up at home so I got a big
cheer from everyone when I dumped them on the table.
As the beer ran out, the guys started getting hungry and were
making some nasty shit. I asked the girls if they wanted some ice
cream and they didn't know how that would be after so much alcohol. I
said that was Ok and I would just wait and they both yelled that I
didn't need to. Jennifer offered to help me eat some and Lara offered
to fix it for me! I guess that's partially why I don't see her as big
a bitch as the others. I heard she had offered Heath the front seat
earlier since he was so tall but the reneged saying that she was a
girl and was in a skirt so she got the front. He hated that a lot and
I think he's holding a little bit of a grudge.
We were talking about middle names at one point and Jennifer
said to guess hers and I said Ann, and I was right! Yet another
brownie point. We then started making designs with the pennies as we
talked with each other about ourselves. By this time I was alone with
the girls at the table and thought to myself that only I can come in,
steal all of the girls, and turn it into a sensuous (even nerdy)
intellectual talk. I soon really started falling in love as Jennifer
told me that she is studying biomedical technology at Texas A&M with
the intentions of becoming a dentist. She has to take the DAT soon
and has even suggested that I could maybe help her after telling her
my experiences with Kostas. Lara is from Wellington, North Carolina
and goes to the same school as Matt does. She wants to be a doctor
specializing in premature infants!!! I was surrounded by prosperous
people and thus had to brag about my own interest in joining the
medical field.
After finishing up the ice cream we all took pictures together
and I made sure I was as close as possible to Jennifer as often as I
could be. They then headed home at about three and we all crashed for
a good long time. I was quite proud of my first day's accomplishments
and knew that this is going to be a fucking wild summer!
pessimistic expectations. CJ returned my call the very next day last
Thursday telling me she had found my paperwork. I thanked her
profusely but still had a bit of fear that someone had screwed up and
signed me up for the fall. I decided to just wait things out and hold
my breath until I got up here to see whether or not everything would
work out.
Meanwhile I kept insisting to Kristen that I was so pissed at
Disney altogether for not taking an interest in my problem that I was
ready not to even bother showing up at all. In part this was true,
just in case, but I didn't bother to ever tell her that they called
me back. I was very prepared to get a job at Kmart or Walmart, or
maybe even both, and just bike over there all of the time. I figured
I could make and save up some pretty impressive bucks by doing so,
and meet some local girls to mess around with. Kristen was pretty
freaked out by the whole facade until finally I gave in and told her
at about midnight just before I'd be leaving in the morning for
Orlando. She was mad at me while at the same time glad I was going
which made it fun to hear her try to spit out what she felt.
I had been asking her how she feels about me over the last few
days before we came up here. I wanted to know exactly where she
stands so I could understand and treat her better instead of so
sarcastically. I also wanted to know what it was like for her to be
around me the entire time after breaking up, unlike Shar¡ and I which
apparently was much harder being apart. She ended up breaking down
and telling me that she definitely still loves me, something which I
knew already. I actually told her that I love her, too, but in the
sense that I care about her very strongly as a best friend and
someone to talk with regardless of who is having problems.
I headed out of Tampa with Father just after dropping Chrissy
off at the bus stop in the morning. It only took us about an hour and
a half which left us a little while to explore Lake Buena Vista
before we were allowed to check in to the apartments. I soon found
myself in a very nice clubhouse praying as a woman searched through a
file for my name, AND SHE FOUND IT!!! One woman actually said she
knew my name already because she had received two papers on me! That
means they DID get them both and someone was really screwing up on
me. I signed my paperwork and then headed into another room to get my
room information. This country boy ahead of me asked me when my
seminars were and I immediately thought that he was a pretty nice
guy. When I received my room agreement I notice that the guy was in
my room so I walked up to him and said, "Hello roommate!" and we
introduced ourselves.
The guy, Matt, is from North Carolina, home of the Tar Heels,
and comes from a town of thirty-five thousand called Morganton near
Ashville. I ended up beating him to the room where I met Heath
Mitchell from the Texas flatlands. Heath goes to Texas Tech and is a
lifeguard as is his roommate, another Matt. I thought that was pretty
cool figuring they'd be be bringing over quite a few girls, and when
they turned out to be jerks, Attentive Dan would be the want they
want. Clint, from Ball State in Ohio, picked up on the fact last
night after seeing me at work. He asked me if I'm the silent yet
deadly type and I strongly agreed that I am. Clint vows to have me
changed by the end of the summer so that the girls will be coming to
me rather than me going after them. We'll see.
I picked a bedroom and as soon as Matt showed up I had him room
with me. I figured it would be easy to get along with a fellow hick
especially when it comes to country music. He also offered to sleep
out on the couch any time I wanted to bring a girl over for which I
was very grateful and will also respect towards him. The last
roommate's name is Keven and he turns out to go to the University of
Florida with me. That was weird because Rick promised not to do that
but oh well. He's the biggest nerd of the bunch but he's still pretty
cool. Everybody here is.
Kristen and I planned to meet up at four just before our meeting
but I went to an early one and thus was free for the rest of the day.
The second one was at five but I decided to check and see if she'd be
there anyway. If not I was going to be pretty pissed and not worry
about her until she found me. I checked both meeting places and just
as I did, her mom's car drove by and they noticed me. They made me
get in the car and took me back to Kristen's apartment. They had just
gone to the grocery store and had taken Jen, Kristen's roommate from
Bowling Green, Ohio. Jen is perhaps the most gorgeous girl I have met
so far and I have already let Kristen know it She's been a little
lacking on the personality side but claims that's just because she's
been really tired after the plane trip and all.
Kristen's physical roommate is Sally from Alabama who is in
Delta Zeta which I have already dubbed "DiZzy" or maybe even "DitZy".
She has an awesome southern accent but seemed like a total bitch. I
ended up meeting all of the other roommates and then we all decided
to go out to some bars to hang out. There were free drinks for ladies
at the Baja at Crossroads so everyone over twenty-one wanted to go
there while we all went to Johnny's. Kristen, Jen and I decided to
head back to the apartment early because Kristen hadn't eaten yet and
there was nothing really for us to do, especially with Kristen
around. On the way back some girls at a party on the third floor were
yelling hello out the window. Some guys behind us yelled back but the
girls said they weren't talking to them and then pointed at me! I
felt special, for a second.
The others stepped back by the room and Sally stopped at he
counter and stared at Kristen for a second and I told Kristen how sad
Sally looks now that we left her as the only person under twenty-one!
When Kristen realized that we did leave her she freaked out and
became very apologetic. I knew that wasn't really on Sally's mind but
it did cause her to suddenly open up with us and we had an awesome
time talking and hanging out for the next couple of hours. She's a TV
freak and knows all kinds of trivia. She also practically has every
episode of Beavis and Butthead memorized which I have never seen a
girl do before. I guess her sorority doesn't quite take up all of her
time. She's also strongly for the death penalty and we agreed
perfectly on a lot of other extremist ideas. Kristen was shocked that
our personalities matched so exactly and of course I loved it. After
Sally went to bed, Kristen and I actually messed around for a little
while in front of an open window, and then I had Kristen shave my
neck in the bathroom.
I headed home after that hoping the guys would have girls over
and I wasn't disappointed. They were all sitting around the table
playing drinking games when I walked in, except for Keven who was
watching. I sat down for a few minutes and this one girl kept talking
top me trying to find out what I had done and was asking if it would
have been more fun if she was there. I thought she, another Jennifer,
was pretty good looking and so was her friend, Lara (Clara without
the C, as she apparently introduced herself earlier). I soon found
myself sitting on the countertop overlooking there game and chugged a
Michelob Light before joining in. I placed myself very stealthily
right in between Lara and Jennifer as we started playing a variety of
card games headed by Clint.
Fortunately the two buzzing girls at my side didn't know how to
play poker so I got to "teach" them. There was a third girl there
named Kendra from New Mexico whom the guys like but I think is
disgusting. The opinions of Lara are completely reversed because I
love her and they all think she's a fucking bitch. I helped Jennifer
win a hand of poker just before getting twenty-one in a game of the
same name myself.
Jennifer had been talking about this racist joke her dad had
told her when she told him she had two black roommates but didn't
want to tell it because she didn't know anyone that well yet, etc.
Clint was constantly begging her to tell it and then I tried. Two
minutes later she agreed but said we'd have to go outside and we did.
Lara came too because she was mad that Jennifer wouldn't even tell
her, her own roommate. I looked back at the desperate bunch of guys
and apologized for stealing their women so quickly, for Kendra had
already gone home. Jennifer told us the classic bowling balls as
n..... eggs joke. She then kept asking if I'd think badly of her now
and I said definitely not, and that I respect her more for being
truthful now rather than later.
After we had headed back in, Clint was asking us how long we
have known each other and I put my arm around her and said for years
and she smiled and agreed. I later admitted that I'd only known her
for ten minutes and he (they) were upset that she told me and none of
them. Tough break guys. We then played a betting game and needed some
coins. Everyone was scrounging for pennies and I just happen to have
a baggie full from when I was cleaning up at home so I got a big
cheer from everyone when I dumped them on the table.
As the beer ran out, the guys started getting hungry and were
making some nasty shit. I asked the girls if they wanted some ice
cream and they didn't know how that would be after so much alcohol. I
said that was Ok and I would just wait and they both yelled that I
didn't need to. Jennifer offered to help me eat some and Lara offered
to fix it for me! I guess that's partially why I don't see her as big
a bitch as the others. I heard she had offered Heath the front seat
earlier since he was so tall but the reneged saying that she was a
girl and was in a skirt so she got the front. He hated that a lot and
I think he's holding a little bit of a grudge.
We were talking about middle names at one point and Jennifer
said to guess hers and I said Ann, and I was right! Yet another
brownie point. We then started making designs with the pennies as we
talked with each other about ourselves. By this time I was alone with
the girls at the table and thought to myself that only I can come in,
steal all of the girls, and turn it into a sensuous (even nerdy)
intellectual talk. I soon really started falling in love as Jennifer
told me that she is studying biomedical technology at Texas A&M with
the intentions of becoming a dentist. She has to take the DAT soon
and has even suggested that I could maybe help her after telling her
my experiences with Kostas. Lara is from Wellington, North Carolina
and goes to the same school as Matt does. She wants to be a doctor
specializing in premature infants!!! I was surrounded by prosperous
people and thus had to brag about my own interest in joining the
medical field.
After finishing up the ice cream we all took pictures together
and I made sure I was as close as possible to Jennifer as often as I
could be. They then headed home at about three and we all crashed for
a good long time. I was quite proud of my first day's accomplishments
and knew that this is going to be a fucking wild summer!
Monday, May 8, 1995
May 8, 1995 - Monday - Dealing with Disney
Life has been horribly stressful lately. I'm finally back in
Tampa but am still dazed and confused, for I still don't know whether
or not I will have a job at Disney this summer. I pray I won't have
to sit on my ass at home all summer either waiting until the girls
get out of school to work at Busch or getting some measly little
shithead job around here. I guess I could bike to a local job if I
really needed to, like Kmart or something, but probably not.
When I called Disney last Monday night to verify the receipt of
my job confirmation form and the money order for the housing deposit,
they said that it had not yet arrived. I mailed the damn thing
priority mail back on April thirteenth and I was suddenly scared to
death. She didn't really know what to tell me except that hopefully
it will soon arrive (they will find it!!!). I put out a mail trace
the next morning and called Disney back. This time a different woman
told me that she would go ahead and verbally accept me (whatever that
means) and have my file processed. It especially sucked because I
might not get the type of housing I wanted or the particular business
seminars that interested me. And to think I worked so hard to get it
mailed back to them in the first place.
Marlon and I set up his computer to receive a fax and then
called Disney back. It was yet another woman who called up my name on
the computer and said that I was indeed verbally accepted (relief, to
show that the other girl wasn't just saying that) and faxed me
another copy of the form so I could get the faculty advisor signature
again. They asked if I would be able to send another money order and
I quickly said that it wouldn't be a problem. A few minutes later
Marlon's phone rang and they transmitted the form. He printed it out
and I took it to the copy center to enlarge it. After getting Doctor
Reiskind to sign it again, I went to the bank and bought another
money order, while putting a trace on the first one. that way they
will refund it to me after sixty days, or send me a cancelled
photocopy of the money order showing who endorsed it.
I'm impatiently waiting until I can again call Disney and see if
I'm ready to go. I hate to even imagine what might have happened if
they never received my forms and I got up there next Tuesday, only to
be turned away. Believe me, I would raise hell. I will be prepared
with photocopies of everything I have mailed when I arrive just in
case. Kristen went with her family and some relatives to Universal
Studios on Saturday with a side trip through Vista Way, the apartment
complex. She said it looks very nice, and has a smaller grocery store
called Food Lot just across the way. It all sounds so wonderful that
I hate to get my hopes up until I'm in my apartment, for I have said
all along that I won't believe that it's true until that point in
time.
As I left the post office that afternoon I ran across a street
to see someone waving at me in a car to come closer. It ended up
being Jamie who told me to get in and asked me where I was going. I
was so relieved not to have to walk all of the way home then, and I'm
afraid she will never know how much I appreciated her generosity
right then. It really cheered me up just to get to talk to someone
besides Kristen about all that happened. We joked about why she never
came and saw my room before and I came really close to asking her up
for a few minutes but she seemed like she was in such a hurry.
Besides, I already knew some guy was coming to spend the night with
her so I didn't want to waste her time. We ran into each other
Thursday night again and she yelled at me to stop following her
around everywhere. It was cute.
All of this "flirting" I have done with Jamie lately has really
freaked Kristen out quite a bit. She's not entirely jealous, she just
doesn't understand how I can possibly want to be nice to Jamie.
Kristen thinks Jamie is one of the meanest people and explains quite
often how Jamie was friends with everyone in their hall in the
beginning, and now everyone hates her. She even compared her to Leigh
Anne, from as much as she learned about her through reading my
journal. I just like her a lot because she's just as sarcastic as I
am, but still seems quite caring inside. I've explained to Kristen
that I also don't have to hate Jamie just because she doesn't really
like her, I'm not that kind of person.
I was afraid once again and had been for a while that I might
have lost yet another wonderful friend from my life. I hadn't talked
with Kimmeth since December and I had been the last to call. I
started being more optimistic though, that if she wasn't dead or
married, that everything would be all right and we could easily catch
up after only a four month hiatus, considering we live so far apart
at the moment. On the weekend before exams I arrived home to find a
message from the goddess herself asking what I'm up to and to please
give her a call tomorrow (Sunday). Kristen was over both days and as
we started making spaghetti on Sunday night, she headed down to the
community ovens to bake the garlic bread. I took the opportunity to
call Kim, and she was home and sounded quite happy to hear from me.
She shared all of the latest stories about her life with me,
including the latest strange dreams she's had. I pouted at one point,
wondering why she doesn't have any wild dreams about me. She tried
quickly to remember any recent ones but said that as soon as she has
a juicy one, she'll let me know. And besides, they usually come true!
I was surprised at how much I was talking about myself, way more that
normal. She sounded very excited about my volunteering in the
operating and emergency rooms at the hospital and loved my stories
about the surgeries I have seen.
She offered to help me find a job if I needed to come down there
for the summer (if Disney doesn't work out) which would be awesome.
They're paid ten dollars an hour to clean boats and I'd work damn
hard for her. We were also briefly talking about us, and how she
needs to get a boyfriend quick so I can steal her away from him, in
reference to my normal style. I also said that we had our chance that
summer and she left me. She agreed that we came really close but
unfortunately she wasn't happy in Tampa but reassured me quite a bit
that it wasn't because of me at all. She sounded sincere enough to
make me wonder (and regret) things a little bit. Had I only stayed in
Tampa and gone to USF... (I'm not really that bad, but it's
definitely a thought worth pondering).
It was just so good to talk to her again, and to reinforce one
of the tiny bits of consistency in my life.