Showing posts with label Kimmeth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Kimmeth. Show all posts
Monday, May 8, 1995
May 8, 1995 - Monday - Dealing with Disney
Life has been horribly stressful lately. I'm finally back in
Tampa but am still dazed and confused, for I still don't know whether
or not I will have a job at Disney this summer. I pray I won't have
to sit on my ass at home all summer either waiting until the girls
get out of school to work at Busch or getting some measly little
shithead job around here. I guess I could bike to a local job if I
really needed to, like Kmart or something, but probably not.
When I called Disney last Monday night to verify the receipt of
my job confirmation form and the money order for the housing deposit,
they said that it had not yet arrived. I mailed the damn thing
priority mail back on April thirteenth and I was suddenly scared to
death. She didn't really know what to tell me except that hopefully
it will soon arrive (they will find it!!!). I put out a mail trace
the next morning and called Disney back. This time a different woman
told me that she would go ahead and verbally accept me (whatever that
means) and have my file processed. It especially sucked because I
might not get the type of housing I wanted or the particular business
seminars that interested me. And to think I worked so hard to get it
mailed back to them in the first place.
Marlon and I set up his computer to receive a fax and then
called Disney back. It was yet another woman who called up my name on
the computer and said that I was indeed verbally accepted (relief, to
show that the other girl wasn't just saying that) and faxed me
another copy of the form so I could get the faculty advisor signature
again. They asked if I would be able to send another money order and
I quickly said that it wouldn't be a problem. A few minutes later
Marlon's phone rang and they transmitted the form. He printed it out
and I took it to the copy center to enlarge it. After getting Doctor
Reiskind to sign it again, I went to the bank and bought another
money order, while putting a trace on the first one. that way they
will refund it to me after sixty days, or send me a cancelled
photocopy of the money order showing who endorsed it.
I'm impatiently waiting until I can again call Disney and see if
I'm ready to go. I hate to even imagine what might have happened if
they never received my forms and I got up there next Tuesday, only to
be turned away. Believe me, I would raise hell. I will be prepared
with photocopies of everything I have mailed when I arrive just in
case. Kristen went with her family and some relatives to Universal
Studios on Saturday with a side trip through Vista Way, the apartment
complex. She said it looks very nice, and has a smaller grocery store
called Food Lot just across the way. It all sounds so wonderful that
I hate to get my hopes up until I'm in my apartment, for I have said
all along that I won't believe that it's true until that point in
time.
As I left the post office that afternoon I ran across a street
to see someone waving at me in a car to come closer. It ended up
being Jamie who told me to get in and asked me where I was going. I
was so relieved not to have to walk all of the way home then, and I'm
afraid she will never know how much I appreciated her generosity
right then. It really cheered me up just to get to talk to someone
besides Kristen about all that happened. We joked about why she never
came and saw my room before and I came really close to asking her up
for a few minutes but she seemed like she was in such a hurry.
Besides, I already knew some guy was coming to spend the night with
her so I didn't want to waste her time. We ran into each other
Thursday night again and she yelled at me to stop following her
around everywhere. It was cute.
All of this "flirting" I have done with Jamie lately has really
freaked Kristen out quite a bit. She's not entirely jealous, she just
doesn't understand how I can possibly want to be nice to Jamie.
Kristen thinks Jamie is one of the meanest people and explains quite
often how Jamie was friends with everyone in their hall in the
beginning, and now everyone hates her. She even compared her to Leigh
Anne, from as much as she learned about her through reading my
journal. I just like her a lot because she's just as sarcastic as I
am, but still seems quite caring inside. I've explained to Kristen
that I also don't have to hate Jamie just because she doesn't really
like her, I'm not that kind of person.
I was afraid once again and had been for a while that I might
have lost yet another wonderful friend from my life. I hadn't talked
with Kimmeth since December and I had been the last to call. I
started being more optimistic though, that if she wasn't dead or
married, that everything would be all right and we could easily catch
up after only a four month hiatus, considering we live so far apart
at the moment. On the weekend before exams I arrived home to find a
message from the goddess herself asking what I'm up to and to please
give her a call tomorrow (Sunday). Kristen was over both days and as
we started making spaghetti on Sunday night, she headed down to the
community ovens to bake the garlic bread. I took the opportunity to
call Kim, and she was home and sounded quite happy to hear from me.
She shared all of the latest stories about her life with me,
including the latest strange dreams she's had. I pouted at one point,
wondering why she doesn't have any wild dreams about me. She tried
quickly to remember any recent ones but said that as soon as she has
a juicy one, she'll let me know. And besides, they usually come true!
I was surprised at how much I was talking about myself, way more that
normal. She sounded very excited about my volunteering in the
operating and emergency rooms at the hospital and loved my stories
about the surgeries I have seen.
She offered to help me find a job if I needed to come down there
for the summer (if Disney doesn't work out) which would be awesome.
They're paid ten dollars an hour to clean boats and I'd work damn
hard for her. We were also briefly talking about us, and how she
needs to get a boyfriend quick so I can steal her away from him, in
reference to my normal style. I also said that we had our chance that
summer and she left me. She agreed that we came really close but
unfortunately she wasn't happy in Tampa but reassured me quite a bit
that it wasn't because of me at all. She sounded sincere enough to
make me wonder (and regret) things a little bit. Had I only stayed in
Tampa and gone to USF... (I'm not really that bad, but it's
definitely a thought worth pondering).
It was just so good to talk to her again, and to reinforce one
of the tiny bits of consistency in my life.
Saturday, March 12, 1994
March 12, 1994 - Saturday - Here's the deal Shari...
Dear Shar¡,
OK friend, I'm going to let you in on a pattern in my life. I have always gotten a rush out of splitting up couples. It's a huge turn on and takes up a lot of my social time up here in Gainesville. I love to become friends with a girl who is in a relationship and then mentally, or sometimes physically, convince them that their man is worthless. I've done this so many times in the past few years it's not really funny.
I'll go in and just start talking to a girl making them believe I only want to be friends. I have always had good advice and am a good listener so the girls will tell me all of their problems without much convincing. I then start pointing out all of the bad aspects of the relationship while hiding the fact of what I am really trying to do. I never toot my own horn and try to make myself look better than the guy. I let the girl realize how right I am on her own and a lot of the times the girl will fall for me on her own. It's a lot of fun and I have become quite good at it.
I have quite a few impressive victories under my belt. There was a girl named Melissa my first year up here who was about four years older than me. She had been dating this guy very seriously for over three years and had just started having trouble when I met her. The girl was gorgeous and was getting ready to go to Yale on full scholarship! I felt like she was way out of my league but I was very eager to take the challenge. It took me a month but the rewards were cool and quite a few people were surprised that I accomplished that one.
There was this guy named Clint at Busch Gardens over the summer and we were pretty good friends. Christina knows him. Clit's gorgeous little girlfriend Sarah dropped by to see him at work one day and the fool introduced her to me. I immediately picked up on her and started ragging on him right in front of him. I did it in a way that he didn't really catch on and was laughing along with us. Nobody ever said he was smart. I then went on break and walked her out and gave her my phone number. The very next night I received my call and started convincing her to axe Clit it happened very easily. It was almost so easy that the fun was taken away along with the excitement. It also helped that I had just met you. Anyway Sarah wants to be a dentist and wanted to see Gainesville so she is the one I told you came up the weekend after you were here. Her two friends told me that all she kept saying on the drive up was how she was going to rape me when she got here. Unfortunately for her I was in love with you and for some reason didn't want a thing to do with her. She left very pissed and I didn't talk to her again until long after you an I broke up.
Leigh Anne... I finally told the neighbor why I had gone out with her a couple of days before Spring break. It was only because I had just been hurt by you and needed a close and convenient way to keep my mind off you so I wouldn't get depressed because exams were coming up. She was pissed. She was stupid though because she knew how much I cared about you because I used to talk to her about you almost every day when you and I were going out. And then she suddenly thought that I liked her only a week after you dumped me??? There's a nut for you! Back to subject. Not only was Leigh Anne close and convenient, but she had a boyfriend who lived with her in the dorm!!! there argued a lot and she used to slam the door and sit in the hallway. On one occasion I took her in a gave her a massage and almost fucked her the first night. You know what a good massage can do to someone, and hers was only about half of what you used to let me give you. Well, four days later, her boyfriend was gone and I was in......... IN HELL!!! But that's another story and you know it I think.
You have been the only girl that I have dated since eighth grade who didn't have a boyfriend when I fell for them. Or at least I don't think you did, you never seem to tell me these things (JEFF!!!!!).For some reason I think your looks made me think you were too good for me at the start and that set up the challenge. Once I got to know you I fell for you. I still can't tell you why I fell as much as I did and that's something I really wonder about a lot. It feels like I'll never find someone else that I will feel that strongly about which is why I still haven't entirely let go five months later. I think I'll always save a little place in my heart for you that would swallow you up if you ever give it the chance and will never allow me to hate you no matter what you do or say to me. That's also why I asked if you had gotten YOUR ring back. Even if I eventually get it back, I will always associate it with you and will never let another w
Back to topic. There was this girl named Abby in high school who "fell in love" with me after being friends with me for six months. She just told me this Wednesday night over Spring break but I had figured it out in high school. The girl used to skip her classes at the end of my senior year and come to mine and give me back massages!!! It was the funniest thing. I never was interested in her but I kept her around because she was useful. She finally figured this out and started dating some guy. When I came back from Gainesville that following Thanksgiving I figured their relationship had grown strong enough so I started picking it apart. I was screwing her in the ocean at Sand Key and at a park later that same night. We had sex one other time at Christmas but we called it off because I was too far away and her boyfriend was starting to get suspicious.
The bad part is, almost every one of my relationships have ended because one of the two people move away and we then couldn't handle the long distance. Most of the time it was me who was doing the leaving and it seems like every time I have to leave again, there is someone new I'll have to hurt in the process. I left my best friend Kim the first year and we would have ended up together had I not left. We have been friends now for a very long time and have decided that it is better left at just friends as not to take the chance of ruining our friendship.
I never felt more guilty in my life than the night I left you on your doorstep as I left for college. I was leaving one of the best things that had ever happened in my life and knew deep in my heart that leaving would cause the end of us. I just never had any one person that could make me so happy by just being with them. You wouldn't believe the relief I felt when you wrote that first letter telling me how you felt and I will never regret what happened as a result of that. But I still left, and that once again ruined something perfect in my life. Bummer.
AND NOW FOR THE POINT!!!!! I bet you didn't think there was one! You asked me on the phone if it upsets me when you talk about Jeff, and you have made some other references to that before. My life revolves around listening to girls talk about their lovers as you have seen so far. I want to know what is going on and I want to hear it from you, not from Christina. That way I can rise to the challenge and know who I am up against!!! (smile) That's also a part of being friends. I don't want to hear the edited version of your life just because you think I might get upset about something. That's bullshit! I am truly interested in everything that goes on in your life and more importantly I want to hear it from you, even if it's about the guy you're dating or whatever.
As for wanting you. Christina said that you told her that I don't understand that you just want us to be friends. That's fine with me, but until I hear it from YOUR mouth I will assume nothing. I view you as a prospect. A special prospect because we are already friends, but that's not my point. I will try to hit on you as much as any other girl I like, despite what has happened to us in the past. The present is the only thing that matters and I view you as a woman who is truly worth the time and effort. You also have a lover.... how exciting!!!!! J/K!!! I've started over concerning you and want to see where life will take me in that respect. If I am wrong in thinking this way, tell me so, if not, then tell me so...
We talked about this on the phone, but..... I just hope you aren't too mad at me for my bargaining over money with you for your Daytona trip. I just wanted to see how you would react when you would have to give up something important (Jeff's ring or sex to me). You held your ground and I was very impressed and gained a higher respect for you that I had never felt before. Perhaps you really do have a moral or two buried in that gorgeous little head of yours. J/K!!! Either that or you just find me so repulsive that sex is entirely out of the picture.
Had you said yes, I would have gone as far as gotten you undressed and turned on. I then planned on dropping the money on your chest or back and then I would have walked out... very disappointed. Also, there used to be a time when you knew me well enough to know I feel about sex. It's important but never important enough to ruin a friendship (or whatever we have) over. That's why I've done so so sparingly in my life. Sadly I blew all of my morals when I kept having sex with Leigh Anne. My only reason at the time was to be able to better please you if we ever got back together. I realize how much like bullshit that may sound, but it's really not... One final thing, I just wanted to thank you for what you did and didn't choose to do with me while I was down here. However, the shower wasn't as HOT as they used to be..... (frown).
Write me soon, if this doesn't warrant a response, I give up on figuring out what does! Take care sweetheart... and smoke a big one for me!
OK friend, I'm going to let you in on a pattern in my life. I have always gotten a rush out of splitting up couples. It's a huge turn on and takes up a lot of my social time up here in Gainesville. I love to become friends with a girl who is in a relationship and then mentally, or sometimes physically, convince them that their man is worthless. I've done this so many times in the past few years it's not really funny.
I'll go in and just start talking to a girl making them believe I only want to be friends. I have always had good advice and am a good listener so the girls will tell me all of their problems without much convincing. I then start pointing out all of the bad aspects of the relationship while hiding the fact of what I am really trying to do. I never toot my own horn and try to make myself look better than the guy. I let the girl realize how right I am on her own and a lot of the times the girl will fall for me on her own. It's a lot of fun and I have become quite good at it.
I have quite a few impressive victories under my belt. There was a girl named Melissa my first year up here who was about four years older than me. She had been dating this guy very seriously for over three years and had just started having trouble when I met her. The girl was gorgeous and was getting ready to go to Yale on full scholarship! I felt like she was way out of my league but I was very eager to take the challenge. It took me a month but the rewards were cool and quite a few people were surprised that I accomplished that one.
There was this guy named Clint at Busch Gardens over the summer and we were pretty good friends. Christina knows him. Clit's gorgeous little girlfriend Sarah dropped by to see him at work one day and the fool introduced her to me. I immediately picked up on her and started ragging on him right in front of him. I did it in a way that he didn't really catch on and was laughing along with us. Nobody ever said he was smart. I then went on break and walked her out and gave her my phone number. The very next night I received my call and started convincing her to axe Clit it happened very easily. It was almost so easy that the fun was taken away along with the excitement. It also helped that I had just met you. Anyway Sarah wants to be a dentist and wanted to see Gainesville so she is the one I told you came up the weekend after you were here. Her two friends told me that all she kept saying on the drive up was how she was going to rape me when she got here. Unfortunately for her I was in love with you and for some reason didn't want a thing to do with her. She left very pissed and I didn't talk to her again until long after you an I broke up.
Leigh Anne... I finally told the neighbor why I had gone out with her a couple of days before Spring break. It was only because I had just been hurt by you and needed a close and convenient way to keep my mind off you so I wouldn't get depressed because exams were coming up. She was pissed. She was stupid though because she knew how much I cared about you because I used to talk to her about you almost every day when you and I were going out. And then she suddenly thought that I liked her only a week after you dumped me??? There's a nut for you! Back to subject. Not only was Leigh Anne close and convenient, but she had a boyfriend who lived with her in the dorm!!! there argued a lot and she used to slam the door and sit in the hallway. On one occasion I took her in a gave her a massage and almost fucked her the first night. You know what a good massage can do to someone, and hers was only about half of what you used to let me give you. Well, four days later, her boyfriend was gone and I was in......... IN HELL!!! But that's another story and you know it I think.
You have been the only girl that I have dated since eighth grade who didn't have a boyfriend when I fell for them. Or at least I don't think you did, you never seem to tell me these things (JEFF!!!!!).For some reason I think your looks made me think you were too good for me at the start and that set up the challenge. Once I got to know you I fell for you. I still can't tell you why I fell as much as I did and that's something I really wonder about a lot. It feels like I'll never find someone else that I will feel that strongly about which is why I still haven't entirely let go five months later. I think I'll always save a little place in my heart for you that would swallow you up if you ever give it the chance and will never allow me to hate you no matter what you do or say to me. That's also why I asked if you had gotten YOUR ring back. Even if I eventually get it back, I will always associate it with you and will never let another w
Back to topic. There was this girl named Abby in high school who "fell in love" with me after being friends with me for six months. She just told me this Wednesday night over Spring break but I had figured it out in high school. The girl used to skip her classes at the end of my senior year and come to mine and give me back massages!!! It was the funniest thing. I never was interested in her but I kept her around because she was useful. She finally figured this out and started dating some guy. When I came back from Gainesville that following Thanksgiving I figured their relationship had grown strong enough so I started picking it apart. I was screwing her in the ocean at Sand Key and at a park later that same night. We had sex one other time at Christmas but we called it off because I was too far away and her boyfriend was starting to get suspicious.
The bad part is, almost every one of my relationships have ended because one of the two people move away and we then couldn't handle the long distance. Most of the time it was me who was doing the leaving and it seems like every time I have to leave again, there is someone new I'll have to hurt in the process. I left my best friend Kim the first year and we would have ended up together had I not left. We have been friends now for a very long time and have decided that it is better left at just friends as not to take the chance of ruining our friendship.
I never felt more guilty in my life than the night I left you on your doorstep as I left for college. I was leaving one of the best things that had ever happened in my life and knew deep in my heart that leaving would cause the end of us. I just never had any one person that could make me so happy by just being with them. You wouldn't believe the relief I felt when you wrote that first letter telling me how you felt and I will never regret what happened as a result of that. But I still left, and that once again ruined something perfect in my life. Bummer.
AND NOW FOR THE POINT!!!!! I bet you didn't think there was one! You asked me on the phone if it upsets me when you talk about Jeff, and you have made some other references to that before. My life revolves around listening to girls talk about their lovers as you have seen so far. I want to know what is going on and I want to hear it from you, not from Christina. That way I can rise to the challenge and know who I am up against!!! (smile) That's also a part of being friends. I don't want to hear the edited version of your life just because you think I might get upset about something. That's bullshit! I am truly interested in everything that goes on in your life and more importantly I want to hear it from you, even if it's about the guy you're dating or whatever.
As for wanting you. Christina said that you told her that I don't understand that you just want us to be friends. That's fine with me, but until I hear it from YOUR mouth I will assume nothing. I view you as a prospect. A special prospect because we are already friends, but that's not my point. I will try to hit on you as much as any other girl I like, despite what has happened to us in the past. The present is the only thing that matters and I view you as a woman who is truly worth the time and effort. You also have a lover.... how exciting!!!!! J/K!!! I've started over concerning you and want to see where life will take me in that respect. If I am wrong in thinking this way, tell me so, if not, then tell me so...
We talked about this on the phone, but..... I just hope you aren't too mad at me for my bargaining over money with you for your Daytona trip. I just wanted to see how you would react when you would have to give up something important (Jeff's ring or sex to me). You held your ground and I was very impressed and gained a higher respect for you that I had never felt before. Perhaps you really do have a moral or two buried in that gorgeous little head of yours. J/K!!! Either that or you just find me so repulsive that sex is entirely out of the picture.
Had you said yes, I would have gone as far as gotten you undressed and turned on. I then planned on dropping the money on your chest or back and then I would have walked out... very disappointed. Also, there used to be a time when you knew me well enough to know I feel about sex. It's important but never important enough to ruin a friendship (or whatever we have) over. That's why I've done so so sparingly in my life. Sadly I blew all of my morals when I kept having sex with Leigh Anne. My only reason at the time was to be able to better please you if we ever got back together. I realize how much like bullshit that may sound, but it's really not... One final thing, I just wanted to thank you for what you did and didn't choose to do with me while I was down here. However, the shower wasn't as HOT as they used to be..... (frown).
Write me soon, if this doesn't warrant a response, I give up on figuring out what does! Take care sweetheart... and smoke a big one for me!
Friday, February 25, 1994
February 25, 1994 - Friday - An old letter arrives!!!
Shar¡'s letter that she keeps asking about finally arrived today. At first I wondered why she had said that she didn't write me a new one but then realized it was the really old one. She said she had given it to her grandmother to mail and said the other day she would call her to make sure she finally did. The thing is dated February first which is a week before she called me the first time. I was really curious as to what she said back then before everything that has happened to us over the phone since Valentine's Day.
Dan,
Feb. 1, 1994
Hey this is Shari, like you didn't know right. Well this is the first at 2:38 AM in the morning and I am realy wasted. Sorry it took me so long to write but alot of shit has happened since Christmas. Well first of all you know that Craig and I was on bad terms right. Anyway we ended up as friends and every now and then we associate or talk to each other. Well as of today I am moving in to a 2 bed room apt. with my cousin Jimmy and Cord will just share a room with me. The apt. complex has a weight room so I'll be in there everyday after work. I am planing on getting a job at T.G.I. Frydays or CDB's. "oops" "oops" {after two scribbled out mistakes} You can tell I am fucked up right??? My cigarett is burning away........ Anyway I am going to get a job and get my shit together, but um........... Oh!!! I'll get your ring next "oops" {another scribble} time I go over to my Dad's house, if that's all right to you??? If not you can get it next time you come into town. By the way when will that be??? We will be getting a phone soon so I'll write and give you the # when we do. I would have wrote you but a week after you left Craig and I broke up and I didn't know when or where I was going to move. I didn't want to write and then a week later leave, then he would have gotten the mail and not have given it to me. But at this address I will get it. So how is every thing up there and when are you going to transfer?????????????? That would be so cool if you moved to USF so I wouldn't have to look at the picture of you in bed to see you. That is my favorite picture because you look so cute in it. My big baby!!! When I get a job and a babysitter for the weekend I want to come and see ya before you transfer to USF. (right) Well all I can really do is wish¡ for that to come true....... Another cute one is when you are leaning on the cabnet in the kitchen looking at the paper. I'd like to do all this if it's cool with you, or if you want to tell me to get lost because of someone else or because what happened last time that's also cool with me. But hopefully you won't or atleast I can write sexy letters to you and be friends. Guess what???? The weather is so awesome down here, BEACH'N IT starting this Friday. I am going with my x roommate Rob and Cord and probly his roommate now Jason. We are going to have a house warming party, drink some, smoke some, and a little bit of what ever. When you come down for the weekend you can stay at my place one night or even the whole weekend. My cousin is way cool, the only thing you would have to sleep with me in my room on an awesome most comfortable couch. (ah darn) HA! HA! God I want to see you so bad!!!! I am tired of looking at pictures, I want to see the real thing. I want to touch and kiss the real thing. Baby I think about you all the time, and when I do I just go into my room and look at your cute face and fine body in a picture.
!!! Smoke break !!!
It's 2:15 AM now and I can't go to sleep, I wish I could hear your voice. I kinda wish that I wouldn't have lost our baby but then in a way I am glad I did because neither of us is ready for that big a step. Especially not me..... not right yet atleast, I shouldn't have fucked up and left instead of telling you what was realy up. I really didn't know what you would of said or did and I've already had one person left me stranded with a child. Don't get me wrong I love Cord with more than all my heart but also I wish I would have waited for him too. By the way Cord is doing good, I am very proud of him. He is 2 and 3 months old, potty trained, speaks full sentences, and feeds himself. Plus he's a bright intelligent little boy, I'd give the world to him if I could. Anyway it's six cigaretts and 1« hrs. later. I have to get some sleep to put up with the little monster. Please write back A.S.A.P. don't wait as long as I did. Once again I am sorry for waiting so long. Well sweet dreams and goodnight.
P.S. Cord says Hey!!!
Love Allways,
Shar¡ {heart accent}
On the outside of the envelope it said: Had any good choclate lately??? Sealed with a kiss cause a lick wouldn't stick. "Sorry so late," and had a face drawn on it.
Well, her letter ended up being everything I had hoped it would be. She practically was begging for me back and hadn't even talked to me yet.
Last night on the phone she she brought up that she had been thinking about what I had said about buying her a Christmas present. She said that we weren't really talking at Christmas, sure she called me a few times but it hadn't gotten serious. She said that she liked that I had been thinking about her enough even then to buy her something, although she doesn't yet know what it is. I explained how I had been really looking forward to Christmas for a long time to get stuff for her and Cord, but that never happened and then how I was helping everybody else pick out presents for their girlfriends and I felt really left out so I got something for her. I asked her what size she is and she either said six or seven. I asked what that was in words and she said medium. Cool! I guessed right. I kept giving her hints and finally said something like she could find it on page fourteen of the Victoria's Secret catalog. I then joked that she'd run out and look as soon as she could and she said that she definitely would. Of course that page number was arbitrary.
I ended up trying to explain it in a way that would still leave a little bit of mystery to it. I also asked her if she could see know why I didn't want to mail it to her, because I don't want her using lingerie from me with anybody else. She was kind of quiet for a second hopefully because she wouldn't want to use it with anybody else and was surprised I said that. She wanted to know if I was going to give it to her over spring break and I said definitely.
She also was telling me again but in moire detail how Craig had reacted that day when we were all at her dad's house. She said he is an asshole because she told him to get out and come talk to me but he wouldn't because he didn't walk to talk me because she had fucked me! That's pretty damn immature, we both agreed.
Kimmeth called me tonight and we had a great talk for almost two hours about all kinds of stuff.
Dan,
Feb. 1, 1994
Hey this is Shari, like you didn't know right. Well this is the first at 2:38 AM in the morning and I am realy wasted. Sorry it took me so long to write but alot of shit has happened since Christmas. Well first of all you know that Craig and I was on bad terms right. Anyway we ended up as friends and every now and then we associate or talk to each other. Well as of today I am moving in to a 2 bed room apt. with my cousin Jimmy and Cord will just share a room with me. The apt. complex has a weight room so I'll be in there everyday after work. I am planing on getting a job at T.G.I. Frydays or CDB's. "oops" "oops" {after two scribbled out mistakes} You can tell I am fucked up right??? My cigarett is burning away........ Anyway I am going to get a job and get my shit together, but um........... Oh!!! I'll get your ring next "oops" {another scribble} time I go over to my Dad's house, if that's all right to you??? If not you can get it next time you come into town. By the way when will that be??? We will be getting a phone soon so I'll write and give you the # when we do. I would have wrote you but a week after you left Craig and I broke up and I didn't know when or where I was going to move. I didn't want to write and then a week later leave, then he would have gotten the mail and not have given it to me. But at this address I will get it. So how is every thing up there and when are you going to transfer?????????????? That would be so cool if you moved to USF so I wouldn't have to look at the picture of you in bed to see you. That is my favorite picture because you look so cute in it. My big baby!!! When I get a job and a babysitter for the weekend I want to come and see ya before you transfer to USF. (right) Well all I can really do is wish¡ for that to come true....... Another cute one is when you are leaning on the cabnet in the kitchen looking at the paper. I'd like to do all this if it's cool with you, or if you want to tell me to get lost because of someone else or because what happened last time that's also cool with me. But hopefully you won't or atleast I can write sexy letters to you and be friends. Guess what???? The weather is so awesome down here, BEACH'N IT starting this Friday. I am going with my x roommate Rob and Cord and probly his roommate now Jason. We are going to have a house warming party, drink some, smoke some, and a little bit of what ever. When you come down for the weekend you can stay at my place one night or even the whole weekend. My cousin is way cool, the only thing you would have to sleep with me in my room on an awesome most comfortable couch. (ah darn) HA! HA! God I want to see you so bad!!!! I am tired of looking at pictures, I want to see the real thing. I want to touch and kiss the real thing. Baby I think about you all the time, and when I do I just go into my room and look at your cute face and fine body in a picture.
!!! Smoke break !!!
It's 2:15 AM now and I can't go to sleep, I wish I could hear your voice. I kinda wish that I wouldn't have lost our baby but then in a way I am glad I did because neither of us is ready for that big a step. Especially not me..... not right yet atleast, I shouldn't have fucked up and left instead of telling you what was realy up. I really didn't know what you would of said or did and I've already had one person left me stranded with a child. Don't get me wrong I love Cord with more than all my heart but also I wish I would have waited for him too. By the way Cord is doing good, I am very proud of him. He is 2 and 3 months old, potty trained, speaks full sentences, and feeds himself. Plus he's a bright intelligent little boy, I'd give the world to him if I could. Anyway it's six cigaretts and 1« hrs. later. I have to get some sleep to put up with the little monster. Please write back A.S.A.P. don't wait as long as I did. Once again I am sorry for waiting so long. Well sweet dreams and goodnight.
P.S. Cord says Hey!!!
Love Allways,
Shar¡ {heart accent}
On the outside of the envelope it said: Had any good choclate lately??? Sealed with a kiss cause a lick wouldn't stick. "Sorry so late," and had a face drawn on it.
Well, her letter ended up being everything I had hoped it would be. She practically was begging for me back and hadn't even talked to me yet.
Last night on the phone she she brought up that she had been thinking about what I had said about buying her a Christmas present. She said that we weren't really talking at Christmas, sure she called me a few times but it hadn't gotten serious. She said that she liked that I had been thinking about her enough even then to buy her something, although she doesn't yet know what it is. I explained how I had been really looking forward to Christmas for a long time to get stuff for her and Cord, but that never happened and then how I was helping everybody else pick out presents for their girlfriends and I felt really left out so I got something for her. I asked her what size she is and she either said six or seven. I asked what that was in words and she said medium. Cool! I guessed right. I kept giving her hints and finally said something like she could find it on page fourteen of the Victoria's Secret catalog. I then joked that she'd run out and look as soon as she could and she said that she definitely would. Of course that page number was arbitrary.
I ended up trying to explain it in a way that would still leave a little bit of mystery to it. I also asked her if she could see know why I didn't want to mail it to her, because I don't want her using lingerie from me with anybody else. She was kind of quiet for a second hopefully because she wouldn't want to use it with anybody else and was surprised I said that. She wanted to know if I was going to give it to her over spring break and I said definitely.
She also was telling me again but in moire detail how Craig had reacted that day when we were all at her dad's house. She said he is an asshole because she told him to get out and come talk to me but he wouldn't because he didn't walk to talk me because she had fucked me! That's pretty damn immature, we both agreed.
Kimmeth called me tonight and we had a great talk for almost two hours about all kinds of stuff.
Tuesday, February 8, 1994
February 8, 1994 - Tuesday - Shari calls!!!!!, Cord!
Leigh Anne cooked me mushroom and rice meatballs for dinner after I got home from chemistry lab tonight. That was fun because of the gorgeous girls and my very complimenting teacher. Because I mixed the very first lab, I worked harder to catch up and ended up being at the same place as my classmates last week. I then got to make up the first lab in an entirely empty lab section where I didn't have to wait in any lines for the equipment or the chemicals. Well, he was impressed that I am moving along so quickly and is starting to get the idea that I know what I am talking about. I am actually amaze myself that I understand everything that I have done so far. It's an awesome feeling. My teacher was even bragging to the other section's teacher that he has a student already on the fourth lab. It' snot that big a deal but I liked the attention.
I flirted with the gorgeous girl for a little bit today and also with the blonde who has Shar¡'s face. This girl named Wendy introduced herself to me and that was cool. I also exchanged a big smile and hello with this girl named Cheree that Leigh Anne has introduced me to. I always pronounce her name as Shar¡ and Leigh Anne to pissed because it's supposed to be Sherry. I always argue that there was a girl at Busch Gardens with that same spelling who pronounced it as Shar¡ did.
Before lab, Leigh Anne, Michelle, and Aimee all went down to the pit with me to lay out for a couple of hours. There was some awesome hot sun and I have a dark line around my previously single colored leg. There were gorgeous girls everywhere and I was flirting hard with the two on each of our sides. One kept staring at me and would quickly look away when I turned towards her, so I returned the favor. She had a really nice body and I was really impressed. Oh how I love the summer and miss the beach!
While Leigh Anne was cooking me dinner, I came home and tried calling Kimmeth. I got the machine again and tried one more time. This time she answered and said that she was just about ready to hop into the shower because she's going to a Robert (Cray?) jazz concert. I hadn't heard of him so she told me that she's not done with my education yet then. We talked for about fifteen minutes until she had to go. I wished her a belated birthday and told her how I hadn't left a message on her machine the times I did try to call since it's my turn to pay. Marty knocked on the door and I let her in just as Kimmeth and I were deciding that I'd call her back tomorrow night. Marty had come up to see Chris for the night and we talked for a minute before I went downstairs to the library to tell him she was here.
I then went and had dinner with Leigh Anne. It seemed as if the phone wouldn't stop ringing all night long and it was doing so again towards the end of our meal. Somebody hung up on my machine and tried calling again. I figured it might be important since I was with Leigh Anne and knew it wasn't her. I ran over and the answering machine had just got it...
"Hey what's up?! Long time no hear! This is Shar¡..."!!!!!!! I grabbed the phone and yelled out to Leigh Anne that I'd be back in a few minutes hoping she hadn't heard who it was. Well, it turns out that my ex-lover has moved out of Craig's and into an apartment with her cousin Jimmy out near USF. She said that she had written me a letter about three weeks ago but packed it with all of her stuff when she moved out and never unpacked it. She sounded a hell of a lot better for some reason than she did over Christmas break. She told me that she and Cord kept alternatingly getting sick at Craig's and it wasn't worth it.
I told her about Leigh Anne and how we've been having sex with no relationship and I emphasized that fact and she thought it was cool. I told her that I've just been keeping in shape and building my skills!!! I've wanted her to understand that for a long time that I can indeed get sex but like it so much more when it's with her.
She said that Cord's talking really well and he was. She put him on the phone with me for a minute before taking it back from him. She them exclaimed that he said, "I called Dad!" as he walked away from the phone!!! If he did, I love him more than anything!!! She told whoever was there that he used to call me "Dadda." I was pessimistic and said that he doesn't really remember and she said, "What!?!," like she really believes he does and couldn't believe I had said that. I then told her I hope he does and if so, at least he has some common sense!!! She replied with a, "Hey.," and I asked her if I don't at least have the right to be sarcastic once about the whole thing. She agreed that I did.
She hit the phone once and I said if she wanted to hang up on me then go ahead and she told me if she didn't want to talk to me then she never would have called. She also said that she had wanted to call me before but couldn't because there was no phone she could use. I asked her if she got out of Craig's trailer with our pictures and she said that she definitely had even after he ended up throwing his old ones away!!! I told her how I had hoped she would get out of Craig's house soon but didn't think that he ever would.
She asked a couple of times about when I'd be coming home again so I could come and see her and do something. She ended up saying that we should go to the beach for old times' sake and for the memories. I asked her if she has a job yet and she laughed and said no, but she wants to get one as a waitress somewhere. She insisted that I write down her address now and phone number:
It impressed me that she still has or remembers my phone number up here. That was cool. She was there with Chrissy and Cord and was rolling her last joint. She told me that she was smoking it in honor of me and repeated that a couple of times. Boy, I'm special...
Oh yeah, she told me that she is still wearing my ying yang. I asked her if she cleaned it since it was yellow from tobacco last time and she said yes, a couple of times, but it still gets dirty really quick. At least she still has it on.
I flirted with the gorgeous girl for a little bit today and also with the blonde who has Shar¡'s face. This girl named Wendy introduced herself to me and that was cool. I also exchanged a big smile and hello with this girl named Cheree that Leigh Anne has introduced me to. I always pronounce her name as Shar¡ and Leigh Anne to pissed because it's supposed to be Sherry. I always argue that there was a girl at Busch Gardens with that same spelling who pronounced it as Shar¡ did.
Before lab, Leigh Anne, Michelle, and Aimee all went down to the pit with me to lay out for a couple of hours. There was some awesome hot sun and I have a dark line around my previously single colored leg. There were gorgeous girls everywhere and I was flirting hard with the two on each of our sides. One kept staring at me and would quickly look away when I turned towards her, so I returned the favor. She had a really nice body and I was really impressed. Oh how I love the summer and miss the beach!
While Leigh Anne was cooking me dinner, I came home and tried calling Kimmeth. I got the machine again and tried one more time. This time she answered and said that she was just about ready to hop into the shower because she's going to a Robert (Cray?) jazz concert. I hadn't heard of him so she told me that she's not done with my education yet then. We talked for about fifteen minutes until she had to go. I wished her a belated birthday and told her how I hadn't left a message on her machine the times I did try to call since it's my turn to pay. Marty knocked on the door and I let her in just as Kimmeth and I were deciding that I'd call her back tomorrow night. Marty had come up to see Chris for the night and we talked for a minute before I went downstairs to the library to tell him she was here.
I then went and had dinner with Leigh Anne. It seemed as if the phone wouldn't stop ringing all night long and it was doing so again towards the end of our meal. Somebody hung up on my machine and tried calling again. I figured it might be important since I was with Leigh Anne and knew it wasn't her. I ran over and the answering machine had just got it...
"Hey what's up?! Long time no hear! This is Shar¡..."!!!!!!! I grabbed the phone and yelled out to Leigh Anne that I'd be back in a few minutes hoping she hadn't heard who it was. Well, it turns out that my ex-lover has moved out of Craig's and into an apartment with her cousin Jimmy out near USF. She said that she had written me a letter about three weeks ago but packed it with all of her stuff when she moved out and never unpacked it. She sounded a hell of a lot better for some reason than she did over Christmas break. She told me that she and Cord kept alternatingly getting sick at Craig's and it wasn't worth it.
I told her about Leigh Anne and how we've been having sex with no relationship and I emphasized that fact and she thought it was cool. I told her that I've just been keeping in shape and building my skills!!! I've wanted her to understand that for a long time that I can indeed get sex but like it so much more when it's with her.
She said that Cord's talking really well and he was. She put him on the phone with me for a minute before taking it back from him. She them exclaimed that he said, "I called Dad!" as he walked away from the phone!!! If he did, I love him more than anything!!! She told whoever was there that he used to call me "Dadda." I was pessimistic and said that he doesn't really remember and she said, "What!?!," like she really believes he does and couldn't believe I had said that. I then told her I hope he does and if so, at least he has some common sense!!! She replied with a, "Hey.," and I asked her if I don't at least have the right to be sarcastic once about the whole thing. She agreed that I did.
She hit the phone once and I said if she wanted to hang up on me then go ahead and she told me if she didn't want to talk to me then she never would have called. She also said that she had wanted to call me before but couldn't because there was no phone she could use. I asked her if she got out of Craig's trailer with our pictures and she said that she definitely had even after he ended up throwing his old ones away!!! I told her how I had hoped she would get out of Craig's house soon but didn't think that he ever would.
She asked a couple of times about when I'd be coming home again so I could come and see her and do something. She ended up saying that we should go to the beach for old times' sake and for the memories. I asked her if she has a job yet and she laughed and said no, but she wants to get one as a waitress somewhere. She insisted that I write down her address now and phone number:
It impressed me that she still has or remembers my phone number up here. That was cool. She was there with Chrissy and Cord and was rolling her last joint. She told me that she was smoking it in honor of me and repeated that a couple of times. Boy, I'm special...
Oh yeah, she told me that she is still wearing my ying yang. I asked her if she cleaned it since it was yellow from tobacco last time and she said yes, a couple of times, but it still gets dirty really quick. At least she still has it on.
Wednesday, February 2, 1994
February 2, 1994 - Wednesday - Collectable girl habit
What a sigh of relief to finally have Leigh Anne out of my hair. I don't know where she is right now but I don't care as long as she's not with me or making a big deal about not being with me. It's so peaceful and I actually have free time to get things done that have needed attention for quite a while in my life.
I found a piece of paper from back in October where I had written a note down after a phone call to Shar¡. All it says is that she told me that she had already bought me a cake for when I came down (for my birthday). Unfortunately circumstances didn't work out but it was cool that she had made the gesture. It reminds me now of how she made me that chocolate cake and then got Buffy to go along with her in saying that everybody got a hold of it and ate it already. I really felt like shit after that only to be surprised when she pulled the entire chocolate cake out of the oven. I can't quite remember if anything was written on it... I doubt it.
I also have been finding all of the little trinkets that I have collected that remind me of her. This isn't pathetic, it's just a habit I've always had. I have a napkin from where Kimmeth and I went to the Gators restaurant, the original Busch Gardens napkin when I first got her phone number, a pair of her socks that got stained by her leather shoes once, and even a piece of fishing wire that had some significance to us at one time or another. As for Shar¡, I have a plastic bag of Cord's baby wipes, one of his tiny socks, the rest of the cord to the ying yang necklace when I cut it to fit her neck, and even half a bottle of pills for her throat infection. I still love how she was wearing my necklace and bracelet at Christmas... but where is my ring???
It's unfortunate how the burden has kept me out of contact with women at the beginning of the semester and has thus screwed those precious moments when many girls are available at the beginning of each term. The fact that I missed the first week of lab kind of killed my chances in there as well. There are two extremely worthwhile ones in there. One looks European with long blonde hair and Shar¡'s face. The other is God's gift and I want to ask her so much if she realizes how blessed she is. She has huge perfect breasts. You could not ask for anything better!!! Anything smaller, larger would make them worse. It's amazing! She also has long beautiful shiny brunette hair and I am truly in lust. I've seen her in class and she is relaxed, putting her feet up on the chair in front of her, and that impresses me. We finally talked, if only about lab, for a few minutes on Tuesday as I explained how I did something in the lab that she couldn't figure out.
I called home today and my mom says she has sent me a nine hundred dollar check to throw my balance back over a thousand to avoid charges. She wanted to know how my volunteering was on Monday and a couple of other things. I went grocery shopping with Chris tonight just to keep him company and to pick up the few things I had forgotten on Saturday.
I found a piece of paper from back in October where I had written a note down after a phone call to Shar¡. All it says is that she told me that she had already bought me a cake for when I came down (for my birthday). Unfortunately circumstances didn't work out but it was cool that she had made the gesture. It reminds me now of how she made me that chocolate cake and then got Buffy to go along with her in saying that everybody got a hold of it and ate it already. I really felt like shit after that only to be surprised when she pulled the entire chocolate cake out of the oven. I can't quite remember if anything was written on it... I doubt it.
I also have been finding all of the little trinkets that I have collected that remind me of her. This isn't pathetic, it's just a habit I've always had. I have a napkin from where Kimmeth and I went to the Gators restaurant, the original Busch Gardens napkin when I first got her phone number, a pair of her socks that got stained by her leather shoes once, and even a piece of fishing wire that had some significance to us at one time or another. As for Shar¡, I have a plastic bag of Cord's baby wipes, one of his tiny socks, the rest of the cord to the ying yang necklace when I cut it to fit her neck, and even half a bottle of pills for her throat infection. I still love how she was wearing my necklace and bracelet at Christmas... but where is my ring???
It's unfortunate how the burden has kept me out of contact with women at the beginning of the semester and has thus screwed those precious moments when many girls are available at the beginning of each term. The fact that I missed the first week of lab kind of killed my chances in there as well. There are two extremely worthwhile ones in there. One looks European with long blonde hair and Shar¡'s face. The other is God's gift and I want to ask her so much if she realizes how blessed she is. She has huge perfect breasts. You could not ask for anything better!!! Anything smaller, larger would make them worse. It's amazing! She also has long beautiful shiny brunette hair and I am truly in lust. I've seen her in class and she is relaxed, putting her feet up on the chair in front of her, and that impresses me. We finally talked, if only about lab, for a few minutes on Tuesday as I explained how I did something in the lab that she couldn't figure out.
I called home today and my mom says she has sent me a nine hundred dollar check to throw my balance back over a thousand to avoid charges. She wanted to know how my volunteering was on Monday and a couple of other things. I went grocery shopping with Chris tonight just to keep him company and to pick up the few things I had forgotten on Saturday.
Friday, December 24, 1993
December 24, 1993 - Friday - Kelly!, Kimmeth!, Sarah
Work is actually turning out to be pretty cool. It just seems to be getting better and better. I worked on the bar starting at noon and staying until closing. This guy named Matt was up there with me and he is the biggest faggot I have ever seen. He's pretty cool though and I've made it perfectly clear what my preferences are.
I was looking for attractive women all day long and actually saw a few today. I wore my glasses this time so I could get a clear view of the entire restaurant. There is this really cute tall and skinny girl with long straight auburn hair. I would normally call it light brown but I picked up the new color from the fag. I really like this girl and noticed her staring a lot at me from the gift shop where she works while I was walking around in grounds on Wednesday. I have been impressed ever since.
I bought a pizza later during a break and walked into the basement lounge and she and some hospitality guy were the only two people in the room. I sat facing away from her by the door so she couldn't watch me eat. I first ran off to the bathroom and started at her hard while I walked back in. The guy soon left and she then got up and washed her hands, arching her butt right at my face while doing so. She then ran off to the bathroom. I kind of wondered why she washed her hands in front of me if she was going to run off so quick to the restroom. She then came back and sat down. As soon as I was done, she got up and followed me out and headed towards the elevator until I turned for the stairs and along she came. I handed her the door and then held the door open for her upstairs and she and I both smiled and laughed as she told me she was still going up, but she did thank me. I walked into the office to sign back in from break only to see her walking back to her shop... why the fifteen second detour upstairs? Matt and I were talking about her later because he knows her. She walked by once and he called out to her and after a short exchange he called out something like, "I want you!" or something. I then said about half as loud, "I love you!" and he looked at me with a laugh. It was funny. He says she's really sweet. I'd really like to find out.
Later on there was a group of three really good looking girls that came and ate dinner at a table towards the far side of the bar and I kind of hung out there and stared for a long time. It wasn't crowded so it didn't matter. One girl was eating strawberry shortcake and I suddenly blurted out that there much better things to do with whipped cream than that. Matt looked at me really quick in surprise until he realized what I meant. I really think they could have heard me, and who cares because I kind of wanted them to! When it was time for me to go on break, I joked that I know exactly where I want to be on my break and hinted at that third empty chair. I then looked and flirted hard as I walked by their table repeatedly. It was fun.
I had quite a bit of fun with Kelly, too. We stop to talk to each other all of the time and we both seem to give each other these awesome love me puppy dog faces. Mine are perfect and it's kind of funny. We have a really good time talking, too. Yesterday we had a really good time because this forty year old guy just stayed and talked to her forever after she served him his beer. It was really obvious that he was in some perverted way trying to hit on her and I told her after he left. She thought that was really funny and said that she doesn't pick up on things like that and then I was mocking what he had said and we were laughing really hard.
We also joke around with each other a lot and I'm always really talkative when she comes around. For some reason we were talking about dating and she told me that she hasn't been on a date since August. I acted surprised and told her that we'll have to go on one before I leave and she said that she'd really like to. I suggested dinner and she said that sounds good, she eats dinner! I then added my own sarcasm and said that's great because I like to eat dinner, too, and it's so hard to find people that do nowadays. I then asked what she likes better, Burger King of McDonalds, and then remembered she likes Kentucky Fried Chicken! It was funny but I would like to go out with her once and maybe write letters or something. Cool!
I called Sarah on my break for a few minutes and again later tonight but we only talked for a little while. It seems so much like she doesn't give half a shit most for the time but then she'll do something good like call me a bunch long distance or a bunch of times down here. I don't know.
Kimmeth called me last night!!! I'm kind of glad she put of coming home right now because I don't think I'm quite ready for her yet. We talked a long time about things and I let her in a little more on Shar¡ and she seemed very wise and picked up things about Shar¡ very intuitively which impressed me immensely, seriously. I was really glad to talk to her. Her psychic told her that she has a year before she'll want a definite commitment and I joked once again that she can date around for a year and then we'll have to get together. She laughed and then asked me what about myself, for she had a dream about Tobin screwing every girl in Fort LAuderdale and then remembered it stemmed from something I told her. I then said that I'll finish up everything between now and then and she liked that. She also got my Kim Exposed card from Spencers and said that she really liked it and it worked very effectively because the way she ripped it opened, the title was the first thing she saw and it scared her for a second. Cute.
I was looking for attractive women all day long and actually saw a few today. I wore my glasses this time so I could get a clear view of the entire restaurant. There is this really cute tall and skinny girl with long straight auburn hair. I would normally call it light brown but I picked up the new color from the fag. I really like this girl and noticed her staring a lot at me from the gift shop where she works while I was walking around in grounds on Wednesday. I have been impressed ever since.
I bought a pizza later during a break and walked into the basement lounge and she and some hospitality guy were the only two people in the room. I sat facing away from her by the door so she couldn't watch me eat. I first ran off to the bathroom and started at her hard while I walked back in. The guy soon left and she then got up and washed her hands, arching her butt right at my face while doing so. She then ran off to the bathroom. I kind of wondered why she washed her hands in front of me if she was going to run off so quick to the restroom. She then came back and sat down. As soon as I was done, she got up and followed me out and headed towards the elevator until I turned for the stairs and along she came. I handed her the door and then held the door open for her upstairs and she and I both smiled and laughed as she told me she was still going up, but she did thank me. I walked into the office to sign back in from break only to see her walking back to her shop... why the fifteen second detour upstairs? Matt and I were talking about her later because he knows her. She walked by once and he called out to her and after a short exchange he called out something like, "I want you!" or something. I then said about half as loud, "I love you!" and he looked at me with a laugh. It was funny. He says she's really sweet. I'd really like to find out.
Later on there was a group of three really good looking girls that came and ate dinner at a table towards the far side of the bar and I kind of hung out there and stared for a long time. It wasn't crowded so it didn't matter. One girl was eating strawberry shortcake and I suddenly blurted out that there much better things to do with whipped cream than that. Matt looked at me really quick in surprise until he realized what I meant. I really think they could have heard me, and who cares because I kind of wanted them to! When it was time for me to go on break, I joked that I know exactly where I want to be on my break and hinted at that third empty chair. I then looked and flirted hard as I walked by their table repeatedly. It was fun.
I had quite a bit of fun with Kelly, too. We stop to talk to each other all of the time and we both seem to give each other these awesome love me puppy dog faces. Mine are perfect and it's kind of funny. We have a really good time talking, too. Yesterday we had a really good time because this forty year old guy just stayed and talked to her forever after she served him his beer. It was really obvious that he was in some perverted way trying to hit on her and I told her after he left. She thought that was really funny and said that she doesn't pick up on things like that and then I was mocking what he had said and we were laughing really hard.
We also joke around with each other a lot and I'm always really talkative when she comes around. For some reason we were talking about dating and she told me that she hasn't been on a date since August. I acted surprised and told her that we'll have to go on one before I leave and she said that she'd really like to. I suggested dinner and she said that sounds good, she eats dinner! I then added my own sarcasm and said that's great because I like to eat dinner, too, and it's so hard to find people that do nowadays. I then asked what she likes better, Burger King of McDonalds, and then remembered she likes Kentucky Fried Chicken! It was funny but I would like to go out with her once and maybe write letters or something. Cool!
I called Sarah on my break for a few minutes and again later tonight but we only talked for a little while. It seems so much like she doesn't give half a shit most for the time but then she'll do something good like call me a bunch long distance or a bunch of times down here. I don't know.
Kimmeth called me last night!!! I'm kind of glad she put of coming home right now because I don't think I'm quite ready for her yet. We talked a long time about things and I let her in a little more on Shar¡ and she seemed very wise and picked up things about Shar¡ very intuitively which impressed me immensely, seriously. I was really glad to talk to her. Her psychic told her that she has a year before she'll want a definite commitment and I joked once again that she can date around for a year and then we'll have to get together. She laughed and then asked me what about myself, for she had a dream about Tobin screwing every girl in Fort LAuderdale and then remembered it stemmed from something I told her. I then said that I'll finish up everything between now and then and she liked that. She also got my Kim Exposed card from Spencers and said that she really liked it and it worked very effectively because the way she ripped it opened, the title was the first thing she saw and it scared her for a second. Cute.
Monday, December 13, 1993
December 13, 1993 - Monday - Last fling w/ Leigh Anne
I've actually had a pretty eventful day, despite the disappointing setback of my car not working worth a shit. I slept over at Leigh Anne's last night and yes we had sex again. We had sex the night before as well for the first time since that Monday night when I dumped her. Marty was with with Chris for the weekend which is why I went with Leigh Anne, otherwise I would have been alone, like I will be tonight. Michelle walked in on us last night while we were having sex and Leigh Anne made a big deal out of it. I just rolled over since I was letting her do all of the work anyway and started to go to sleep. After Michelle settled in up on the top bunk, she went at it again. I decided to take advantage of the situation and asked her to finish a blow job she had started. I have never orgasmed into anyone's mouth before and have always really wanted to.
She was really unsure about being able to do so but I moved my hips to help myself out and after a while I did come inside her mouth and the feel of her sucking the come out of my dick was pure bliss!!! That felt awesome. It's a shame it had to be with her. Sometimes through the night I tried to picture that I was lying with Shar¡ but I just couldn't even though it was dark, there are just too many physical differences as well. It's weird, but it's almost as if Shar¡ is less dense than Leigh Anne, if that makes any sense. It's like Leigh Anne's aura is absorbing the life out of me while Shar¡ was filling me full.
I didn't wake up until 12:30 when I quickly split to run the day's errands. Jon wanted to come with Chris and I. Cecil was over and we dropped him off at an exam before heading over to check out my car. The problems seem to be deeper than just the battery now which sucks! We then headed to Wal Mart where I bought Christmas cards for Kimmeth, Carey Ann and Mema. I received two cards in the mail today before we left, one from Carey Ann and one from Mema with five dollars inside to buy snacks for exam week. I thought that was really funny because I complained sarcastically to my mom the other day that both Laura and Ashley's parents love them enough to send them baskets, but mine don't. I know that my mom ended up telling Mema that which is why she sent me money. I thought that was really sweet and my mom agreed tonight that it really happened that way and Mema didn't tell her that she sent the card until after she had already mailed it. carey Ann's card was really sweet and told me how she thinks constantly about our fun summer together and so forth.
We then went to Publix and bought a dozen glazed doughnuts. Chris and I picked out three additional fifty cent a piece doughnuts and she gave them to us for free. She was fat and we joked that she gave them to us because we flirted with her. The cashier was gorgeous, however, and I really enjoyed looking at her. We then headed home only to find a message on the answering machine! It was for me!!! It was my beautiful Sarah, and I thought she had forgotten about me! Thank God she hasn't! I didn't ever return her call today, though, but I will really soon. I also called Shands Hospital and made an interview appointment for the spring semester to be a cuddler for infants and small children. That should be fun.
Chris, Jon and I later headed out to the mall to do a little Christmas shopping and had a good time. I suggested that we stop by and pick up Cecil which we did. We ran all over the mall and had fun and found so much stuff to buy. I found this awesome semi-pornographic card that is personalized with Kim's name that she ought to love. I'll remind her of how much she bragged about going to the male strip club that time. I hope she likes it. I also bought a little black mouse.
I made spaghetti tonight and even gave some to Leigh Anne. It was delicious and we also made twisty bread sticks that came out really well. I ran downstairs with a small plate of hamburger after I browned it to give to Laura and they all thought that was pretty funny. I also had I called home to tell them about my car predicament and to brag about how good my spaghetti was. My mom told me that Shar¡ called the other day and Chrissy talked to her. She said that she wanted(or needs???) to talk to me! She thought that I would be home by then and my sister told her I'd be another week. That would explain why she didn't write to me... I'm really scared right now...
She was really unsure about being able to do so but I moved my hips to help myself out and after a while I did come inside her mouth and the feel of her sucking the come out of my dick was pure bliss!!! That felt awesome. It's a shame it had to be with her. Sometimes through the night I tried to picture that I was lying with Shar¡ but I just couldn't even though it was dark, there are just too many physical differences as well. It's weird, but it's almost as if Shar¡ is less dense than Leigh Anne, if that makes any sense. It's like Leigh Anne's aura is absorbing the life out of me while Shar¡ was filling me full.
I didn't wake up until 12:30 when I quickly split to run the day's errands. Jon wanted to come with Chris and I. Cecil was over and we dropped him off at an exam before heading over to check out my car. The problems seem to be deeper than just the battery now which sucks! We then headed to Wal Mart where I bought Christmas cards for Kimmeth, Carey Ann and Mema. I received two cards in the mail today before we left, one from Carey Ann and one from Mema with five dollars inside to buy snacks for exam week. I thought that was really funny because I complained sarcastically to my mom the other day that both Laura and Ashley's parents love them enough to send them baskets, but mine don't. I know that my mom ended up telling Mema that which is why she sent me money. I thought that was really sweet and my mom agreed tonight that it really happened that way and Mema didn't tell her that she sent the card until after she had already mailed it. carey Ann's card was really sweet and told me how she thinks constantly about our fun summer together and so forth.
We then went to Publix and bought a dozen glazed doughnuts. Chris and I picked out three additional fifty cent a piece doughnuts and she gave them to us for free. She was fat and we joked that she gave them to us because we flirted with her. The cashier was gorgeous, however, and I really enjoyed looking at her. We then headed home only to find a message on the answering machine! It was for me!!! It was my beautiful Sarah, and I thought she had forgotten about me! Thank God she hasn't! I didn't ever return her call today, though, but I will really soon. I also called Shands Hospital and made an interview appointment for the spring semester to be a cuddler for infants and small children. That should be fun.
Chris, Jon and I later headed out to the mall to do a little Christmas shopping and had a good time. I suggested that we stop by and pick up Cecil which we did. We ran all over the mall and had fun and found so much stuff to buy. I found this awesome semi-pornographic card that is personalized with Kim's name that she ought to love. I'll remind her of how much she bragged about going to the male strip club that time. I hope she likes it. I also bought a little black mouse.
I made spaghetti tonight and even gave some to Leigh Anne. It was delicious and we also made twisty bread sticks that came out really well. I ran downstairs with a small plate of hamburger after I browned it to give to Laura and they all thought that was pretty funny. I also had I called home to tell them about my car predicament and to brag about how good my spaghetti was. My mom told me that Shar¡ called the other day and Chrissy talked to her. She said that she wanted(or needs???) to talk to me! She thought that I would be home by then and my sister told her I'd be another week. That would explain why she didn't write to me... I'm really scared right now...
Tuesday, November 23, 1993
November 23, 1993 - Tuesday - Laura's dream!, Kimmeth!
It's been quite a while since I've written in my journal and so much stuff has happened during my period of neglect. I should really be studying for my German culture exam right now, and my brain is going nuts trying to force me to, but sometimes there are more important things in life that have to be taken care of first. Tomorrow I am going down to Tampa with Jon and his cousin for Thanksgiving vacation as soon as I get home from this exam. I've pretty much packed everything and am ready although it would mean the world to me if I could only have an extra week of time thrown in right about now. I'd like to write my little sister a nice long letter because she hasn't heard from me since the events during Homecoming week.
I just went downstairs and had Ashley replace my starter earring with my gold half inch hoop. It was a real pain in the ass the other day when I tried to get it in, and she had just as bad a time but she finally came through. I repeatedly told her how much I appreciated her helping me because I know that I often neglect to let people know what they really need to hear, and I just wanted to make sure she knew. I was originally going to have Delisa, the fat one next door, do it but she didn't answer the door. I'm glad now that I let Ashley because I trust her and she did an awesome job. She cleaned my ear with hydrogen peroxide because it started to bleed when she accidentally ripped the starter out, and it felt good that she didn't cringe away from my bodily fluids, and instead nursed my ear back to health. I was very impressed and she said that she has had practice with Daniel's ear a couple of times.
I talked to Laura for a few minutes, and Rob, who were watching the movie, Alive. Some guy named Eric who used to work at Busch Gardens called Laura and was wanting a ride home and she asked if he knew me, and he said yes, "Big Dan!" Laura asked why he called me that (like it's not obvious!) and I told her that he knows things she doesn't. She complained about that later and asked something about finding out! I wish!!! I really do! We wished each other a happy Thanksgiving and Ashley remembered to say Happy Birthday as I left.
Ashley and I have kind of been stressing out all weekend about a big biology exam that we finally took this morning. We decided ahead of time last week that we were going to buy the A Plus notes this time and skipped class under my discretion to go and get them. We didn't realize the place opened at nine, so we had about half an hour to kill. I treated us to chocolate milkshakes at McDonalds and we sat out on the patio and talked. We had a decent time and then picked up the notes on the way to the gym, where I dropped her off and headed to my other classes. I talked to her early on Saturday and we discussed when I would drop off the notes, and she told me to ask Laura if she would like some ground beef the next time I see her. She told me not to ask why, but just to do it.
Well, I stopped by Sunday night and caught Ashley, Laura, and Jana just finishing up dinner. Jana was exceptionally nice and talkative to me and was telling me stories about things that have happened lately. I was surprised that she suddenly seems to like me so much now. I joked with Ashley a little bit before asking laura about the ground beef. She got a little embarrassed but didn't hesitate a bit to tell me the story behind it. It is something that I never would expect someone to tell another person either, especially when that someone is the subject...
She told me that she had a dream that Jana was in the kitchen browning ground beef on the stove, and I was in there with her, visiting for some reason. She said that she was lying in bed and I eventually picked up the pan of beef and came into her room and dumped a big scoopful onto the middle of her floor. She got mad at me and then I held a scoop up under her chin and she said it only felt warm, not hot, but it did later leave a burn mark. She said that when she got up to wash herself off, I climbed into one of their beds and by that time she was really frustrated and went to clean up the beef off of the floor. She then said that she screamed my name at me and woke up at that instant. She said that Jana was rolling around when she did and she thinks that she really yelled out my name!!! Of course everybody teased her about that, but I kind of like it. I left saying, "Sweet dreams!" and they all liked that. She told me just a little while ago that she'll be dreaming about me. I told Leigh Anne and she didn't like that very much.
I just happened to answer the phone the other day on Sunday, which is a rarity, only to here Kimmeth's voice!!! I was quite happy to say the least!!! Of course I had told Leigh Anne that I needed to study and couldn't time with her so she got pissed that I was on the phone with Kim, especially for the length of time that I stayed on. Fuck her! I got rid of her and would again before cutting a call with Kim off early.
We had an awesome talk, too, for we both seem much happier about life lately. She got my letter and told me that she kind of figured out what was going on for that time there with Shar¡ and really liked my cute little references of how studly I was being over the summmer. She wants me to come and see her so bad and a feasible solution may have presented itself for Christmas break, but I'd hate to jinx things.
Jon and I were joking a little while ago about what my parents will say when they se my earring. I said, "I thought you were broke!," and he really liked that and said his would say the same thing!
Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne!
I just went downstairs and had Ashley replace my starter earring with my gold half inch hoop. It was a real pain in the ass the other day when I tried to get it in, and she had just as bad a time but she finally came through. I repeatedly told her how much I appreciated her helping me because I know that I often neglect to let people know what they really need to hear, and I just wanted to make sure she knew. I was originally going to have Delisa, the fat one next door, do it but she didn't answer the door. I'm glad now that I let Ashley because I trust her and she did an awesome job. She cleaned my ear with hydrogen peroxide because it started to bleed when she accidentally ripped the starter out, and it felt good that she didn't cringe away from my bodily fluids, and instead nursed my ear back to health. I was very impressed and she said that she has had practice with Daniel's ear a couple of times.
I talked to Laura for a few minutes, and Rob, who were watching the movie, Alive. Some guy named Eric who used to work at Busch Gardens called Laura and was wanting a ride home and she asked if he knew me, and he said yes, "Big Dan!" Laura asked why he called me that (like it's not obvious!) and I told her that he knows things she doesn't. She complained about that later and asked something about finding out! I wish!!! I really do! We wished each other a happy Thanksgiving and Ashley remembered to say Happy Birthday as I left.
Ashley and I have kind of been stressing out all weekend about a big biology exam that we finally took this morning. We decided ahead of time last week that we were going to buy the A Plus notes this time and skipped class under my discretion to go and get them. We didn't realize the place opened at nine, so we had about half an hour to kill. I treated us to chocolate milkshakes at McDonalds and we sat out on the patio and talked. We had a decent time and then picked up the notes on the way to the gym, where I dropped her off and headed to my other classes. I talked to her early on Saturday and we discussed when I would drop off the notes, and she told me to ask Laura if she would like some ground beef the next time I see her. She told me not to ask why, but just to do it.
Well, I stopped by Sunday night and caught Ashley, Laura, and Jana just finishing up dinner. Jana was exceptionally nice and talkative to me and was telling me stories about things that have happened lately. I was surprised that she suddenly seems to like me so much now. I joked with Ashley a little bit before asking laura about the ground beef. She got a little embarrassed but didn't hesitate a bit to tell me the story behind it. It is something that I never would expect someone to tell another person either, especially when that someone is the subject...
She told me that she had a dream that Jana was in the kitchen browning ground beef on the stove, and I was in there with her, visiting for some reason. She said that she was lying in bed and I eventually picked up the pan of beef and came into her room and dumped a big scoopful onto the middle of her floor. She got mad at me and then I held a scoop up under her chin and she said it only felt warm, not hot, but it did later leave a burn mark. She said that when she got up to wash herself off, I climbed into one of their beds and by that time she was really frustrated and went to clean up the beef off of the floor. She then said that she screamed my name at me and woke up at that instant. She said that Jana was rolling around when she did and she thinks that she really yelled out my name!!! Of course everybody teased her about that, but I kind of like it. I left saying, "Sweet dreams!" and they all liked that. She told me just a little while ago that she'll be dreaming about me. I told Leigh Anne and she didn't like that very much.
I just happened to answer the phone the other day on Sunday, which is a rarity, only to here Kimmeth's voice!!! I was quite happy to say the least!!! Of course I had told Leigh Anne that I needed to study and couldn't time with her so she got pissed that I was on the phone with Kim, especially for the length of time that I stayed on. Fuck her! I got rid of her and would again before cutting a call with Kim off early.
We had an awesome talk, too, for we both seem much happier about life lately. She got my letter and told me that she kind of figured out what was going on for that time there with Shar¡ and really liked my cute little references of how studly I was being over the summmer. She wants me to come and see her so bad and a feasible solution may have presented itself for Christmas break, but I'd hate to jinx things.
Jon and I were joking a little while ago about what my parents will say when they se my earring. I said, "I thought you were broke!," and he really liked that and said his would say the same thing!
Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne!
Monday, November 1, 1993
November 1, 1993 - Monday - It all begins!, Kimmeth!
Happy, happy, joy, joy, happy... I just woke up from the best nap I've had in along time, and have the Ren and Stimpy theme running through my head for no apparent reason. Things aren't that great yet, but nothing has really been going wrong either.
I finally gave way to my grave superstitions and created my end of the chain letter that Ashley and I read some time ago. I went about it in a very ritualistic way as well. I first scanned it into a computer with the text grabber in the architecture building and then proceeded to make tons of copies. I methodically folded them, signed them with Kimmeth's traditional (peace, love & happiness) symbols, and sealed them each with a sticker. I then placed them throughout the mailboxes of the girls' rooms at exactly midnight on All Hallow's Eve.
What urged me on was the fact that everything around me seemed to be crashing down lately (although I was amazingly still standing unscathed) and I was getting really tired of it. I got up early Saturday morning to go make copies of my schedule and paid fees to send home to my mother for insurance purposes. It was eleven when I left but I was definitely fooled because it seemed so dark. I was watching the TV before and they issued a tornado watch for north central Florida but it didn't bother me at all because that used to happen all of the time at home. The fact that is was lighting and raining urged me on even more because I love being in whether like th
at so much. When I walked outside the tower doors, I was almost blown away by the strength of the wind. I decided to head into the commons for a moment only to see an emergency broadcast in progress. This is the thing that always makes a horrible racket on TV as they announce that, "This is only a test...," except this time it was real. I was kind of happy to finally see that annoying thing being put to use! There were very few people in Gainesville this weekend anyway, and I could have easily gone and partied with Kostas in Jacksonville if I didn't have a pretty important psychology exam today. Thus the girl behind the counter and I were the only two people down there. She asked me if I would stay with her because she was scared shitless and of course I obliged, anything to be in a position to take advantage of a girl when she's vulnerable.
At one point she asked me my name, and after telling her, I reminded her that I beat her in a game of pool during last years little tournament. Her name is Riena and she said that she remembers, and has held a grudge against me until this very day, but now all is forgiven. That was cool and I'm glad I wasted the time. The wind did get really nasty and they announced that a tornado had been spotted in southwestern Alachua County!!! I found out later that it did damage to the area around our mall up near the interstate and also did a lot of damage to the house of my English professor's neighbor. That was pretty damn close now that I think about it.
I always love to scare people in times of crisis and I did so with her by telling her, truthfully, that Beaty probably wouldn't stand much of a chance in a real tornado. I admitted that we weren't any better off there because we would be right under the falling debris. I then was telling her that storms like this are kind of common in Tampa and I am use to them from Busch Gardens and told her a few stories from there. The entire time, people kept calling from upstairs and asking if they were safe, and she kept calling her superiors to find out if she should tell the people to get out or not. It was pretty interesting. I also found out that she lives in Boca Raton...
After the apparent threat had passed, I continued on towards the library and thoroughly enjoyed the rain. I couldn't help thinking how the feel of it hitting my face brings a very sensual feeling to me. I find it funny when people tell me the rainy weather depresses them, because the effect is far opposite for me. Hey, I like to be clean! He he. I wrote my mother a letter in the library and then headed home. Ed's mom had called so I figured I'd better call home just to let them know that I'm all right. I ended up talking to her for another hour about all kinds of stuff. I did make sure to tell her, however, that my major means of communication would be letter from now on. I also let her know of my less than wonderful achievements in my classrooms plus the fact that I'm broke...
I had this really stupid notion Sunday morning that perhaps Michael Brown (and hell, maybe even Shar¡) might be in town because the Alachua County Fair is in town. Ed put the whole idea into my head on Saturday night because I guess he remembers Shar¡'s background and I was quite impressed that he remembered such a trivial thing. The possibility, of course, is almost zero, but so many things just barely happened to get our relationship going in the first place that I had to look into it. I bought a newspaper on the way to the library to study on Sunday morning, and was sitting there reading when I came to the horoscopes. I was already thinking about Shar¡ because I had read the article about Guavaween and remembered that she said she'd be there. I want so much just to know whether or not she's still in Tampa...
Anyway, my horoscope said, "Don't stay too long at the fair," and hers said that, "some will say, `Don't stay away so long next time!' Sagittarian plays paramount role." That really freaked me out... enough that I packed right up and braved the freezing cold again all of the way home just to find out exactly when and where this fair is. I called Jessica, Ashley's roommate, because I heard that they were going to go. I finally found out that it doesn't start until next Friday, which is cool, and maybe they'll take me along with them.
It wasn't long before I gave Kimmeth a call. I was going to wait until later in the evening but had been planing for quite some time to call her this weekend. I was surprised that she was home in the middle of the day. She asked me if I had received her letter, and I said no in a somewhat surprised tone. She asked why and I said that I was overwhelmed that she actually wrote me a letter and was really happy. I was! I was suddenly extremely glad that I called when I did so she wouldn't think I was just doing so because she wanted me to. I made it in just the nick of time!
She told me a lot about how her life is going and I did the same for her. I then broke down and told her about Shar¡ at about the same time she told me about a little fling of hers. I let her know that Shar¡ was the reason behind me feeling the way I was the last time she called. She told me that she hasn't talked to this guy for two weeks now and said that she thinks they're done for good. She told me that they were arguing and he told her that she hasn't even seen him acting like a jerk yet, and she replied by asking him why he thought she was going to stick around for the credits!!! That was awesome and really made me laugh! She also told me an awesome way to conclude a relationship: a handshake and a, "It was a pleasure doing business with you." That was hilarious, too! She always knows when to stick a little something in for me just to make me feel better. She'll always say that, "you probably don't care, but," when she's going to tell me about Stuart or some other guy.
We were talking about needing to get together soon and I joked that I really wish I could go down and see her over Thanksgiving although it would be practically impossible. She was telling me that I really should come but her apartment is small so she'd just have to shack me up with one of her friends somewhere. My mind just kind of stopped in it's tracks and then she perked up and said just kidding!!! Bitch... really had me going there for a second. She told me that she does have a queen size bed but I wouldn't fit on it and we then started talking about how I sleep. I told her that I've learned to sleep in a fetal position after years of short beds and she really liked that.
We were talking about our little relationships again and I was making some very creative generalizations about them. I told her that what we both ended up doing was just keeping us in practice and she really liked that. I also admitted that dating a married woman is pretty much a once in a lifetime thing, for one learns from his mistakes. She fully agrees that it's a learning experience for she dated a married guy once, and has vowed never to do so again. I think it's kind of funny that Shar¡ pretty much summed up every possible trait that I always vowed never to go out with, including the fact that Kimmeth and I once told each other that we'd never go out with a smoker. But that's really not that important, just funny. I told Kimmeth that Shar¡ did come up one weekend and Kim laughed and told me that she's sure glad that she didn't decide to surprise me by showing up that weekend. That would have been bad, and I should have told her that I would have had to send Shar¡ home. I am beginning to fully understand Chris' point that perhaps by having a different girl, Kim will see that I'm capable and my like for her will seem more real and not just because of the fact that she talks to me...
She was telling me about a lot of weird dreams she's been having lately and one kind of stood out in my mind. She told me that she dreamt she was up north and was dating a guy with shorter dark hair, and so on. She said something about it making her kind of happy. I pretended not to catch on, or just didn't want to make any stupid assumptions, but the last time she saw me I had just gotten my "too short" haircut and I do live "up north." We were also talking about selective breeding again. She said that she had a dream where she married a guy who already had three kids and said that it probably has something to do with her new neighbor who has a little girl. I told her that she shouldn't marry into a family with too many kids (and I just realized that Stuart has two!!!) because then she might be putting her wonderful genes to waste. She always likes that and agreed fully. I told her after asking about Stuart's kids that my son was almost two and the girls up here were calling me Daddy Dan for a while. It was almost funny.
Well, I ended up talking to her for well over two hours but she is more than worth it. I accidentally pulled the cord out of the answering machine twice and had to call her back. That used to be a big joke between us about hanging up on people and she said that she didn't want to talk to me anymore since I had hung up on her twice! She did tell me a little about Lucinda and how they have drifted so far apart as friends and Lucinda just doesn't listen to her much anymore and doesn't really care how Kim feels when she gives her advice. I stuck up for Lucinda a little bit, making some really good remarks about the distance and the fact that she does care about her or she wouldn't give advice at all. Kim was saying that she just doesn't always have anybody she can dump her problems on and said that she really enjoys talking to me (in a sense, I was so overwhelmed I don't quite remember exactly). That was really cool though and I think my phone call did an amazing amount of good exactly when I needed to. If I had called while she was dating Tobin, the thinks I said might not have been taken as deeply as perhaps they were...
Well, I was happy after that and my Halloween became even better as my lovely neighbor came over to the room with Jon and greeted me by saying, "Hi sexy!" What she doesn't know yet is that I've had sex with every girl that's ever called me that... he he. She then told us that her "boyfriend" has decided to leave now thinking that's it's better before they get attached. Well, i'm happy to see him go and feel that it's time to start slowly working deeper into the girl. It's time to be serious...
I also got a call last night before I went out to study from Ashley. She was late for a sorority function but just wanted to let me know that she made it back all right and really wanted to thank me for being there for her. She also told me that Daniel was released from the hospital and had a broken collarbone, not neck. I essentially told her that I'll always be there for her, and reminded her that she was often there listening to me cry about Shar¡, so it was the least I could do. I didn't tell her how happy it made me that it was I whom she called to tell her problems to.
I saved Karen a seat again in psychology for our exam. She came in bitching about a cold she had caught and how the weather wasn't doing much to help. I quickly picked up that she's the kind that likes to be babied when she's sick, and she happily agreed. I keep picking up all kinds of useful information on the girl and she really seems to like talking to me, as well. I finished my exam before her, and got an amazing twenty-eight out of thirty. I was damn happy, although I wanted a perfect score... I looked up at Karen and couldn't help but think how cute she looked sitting up there and blew her a kiss just after she passed out of eyesight.
I arrived home to find my beautiful and promised letter from Kimmeth! Her new address is:
643 N.E. 18th Ave.
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33304-3451
She writes (on graph paper, no less):
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Dan... hello earth calling Dan!
I hope you are doing much better than when last we spoke - I would assume since you've not called.
I am doing well, work is boring and tedious as ever, and as ever I endure, just one more paycheck I think again and again. I miss my responsible-less, meager paychecks, they were so easy to come by and so easy to blow away. But I have a new habit to support - ME!
I'm, scary enough, quite into the domestic scene to throw pillows, finding the right patio chairs, collecting and primping plants. Ah the good life. Well at the very least my boss is comforted by the charade. HA HA.
In international news - I spoke to Stuart {I can finally spell his name!!!} again recently. I know so what, right!? As fun as ever speaking to him but no new news to report since I fought off the last violent urge to hop on a plane to England. He still says he intends to come here... I believe it when I see it I guess. Oh hold on someone's at the door... - Just kidding.
So the ugly truth is I've been (been as in has been) seeing someone, yes I had even referred to him as my "boyfriend," and yes I wasn't even thinking of seeing someone else - for a while there. Quite conflicted about the question of Stuart showing up out of the blue I must admit but not thinking of any one else but this guy.... Okay his name is Tobin... there I said it. Any way things were going great! Then they were going?! good - then well, I don't know where exactly things turned odd but we haven't spoken for about two weeks now. Hmm? Yes it's that age old game people play - it's their turn to call... then they don't call... Well I'M NOT going to call THEM.... Why aren't they calling?... Maybe I should call? NO! Fuck them if they want to talk they will call! I AM NOT GOING TO CALL THEM!!! SO FUCKING CALL ALREADY!!! {I was rather interested in her use of the pronoun "they" and was extremely glad that I called her before I got her letter!!!}
How did, of all people, I get duped into playing this jerky immature game? Peer pressure that's how, it really sucks cause he's about as stubborn if not more stubborn than I am. Fuck that I'M more stubborn damn IT!
So any way like I was saying that's all over with. I think. How am I supposed to know any way? That jerk!
Haven't been to any Dolphins games lately - kinda bummed out about Dan Marino's leg injury, I may actually have a team worth rooting for.
I signed up for a stained glass making class one night a week that I will be SO excited about if there are enough people enrolled when class starts to have a class. I've always wanted to work in stained glass. In fact last night I dreamed about stained glass!
How are classes going? And how are the lower class you call your friends (just a little snob humor there)?
Actually went out for a drink with a friend the other night.... the band sucked, I went home sober.
And that concludes this random collection of senseless dribble - I await your reply.
(peace)(love)(happiness) Kimmeth
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She then drew a rather large picture of the northern hemisphere of the earth with an arrow pointing to Gainesville with a "YOU ARE HERE" sign attached. It was rather interesting.
I finally gave way to my grave superstitions and created my end of the chain letter that Ashley and I read some time ago. I went about it in a very ritualistic way as well. I first scanned it into a computer with the text grabber in the architecture building and then proceeded to make tons of copies. I methodically folded them, signed them with Kimmeth's traditional (peace, love & happiness) symbols, and sealed them each with a sticker. I then placed them throughout the mailboxes of the girls' rooms at exactly midnight on All Hallow's Eve.
What urged me on was the fact that everything around me seemed to be crashing down lately (although I was amazingly still standing unscathed) and I was getting really tired of it. I got up early Saturday morning to go make copies of my schedule and paid fees to send home to my mother for insurance purposes. It was eleven when I left but I was definitely fooled because it seemed so dark. I was watching the TV before and they issued a tornado watch for north central Florida but it didn't bother me at all because that used to happen all of the time at home. The fact that is was lighting and raining urged me on even more because I love being in whether like th
at so much. When I walked outside the tower doors, I was almost blown away by the strength of the wind. I decided to head into the commons for a moment only to see an emergency broadcast in progress. This is the thing that always makes a horrible racket on TV as they announce that, "This is only a test...," except this time it was real. I was kind of happy to finally see that annoying thing being put to use! There were very few people in Gainesville this weekend anyway, and I could have easily gone and partied with Kostas in Jacksonville if I didn't have a pretty important psychology exam today. Thus the girl behind the counter and I were the only two people down there. She asked me if I would stay with her because she was scared shitless and of course I obliged, anything to be in a position to take advantage of a girl when she's vulnerable.
At one point she asked me my name, and after telling her, I reminded her that I beat her in a game of pool during last years little tournament. Her name is Riena and she said that she remembers, and has held a grudge against me until this very day, but now all is forgiven. That was cool and I'm glad I wasted the time. The wind did get really nasty and they announced that a tornado had been spotted in southwestern Alachua County!!! I found out later that it did damage to the area around our mall up near the interstate and also did a lot of damage to the house of my English professor's neighbor. That was pretty damn close now that I think about it.
I always love to scare people in times of crisis and I did so with her by telling her, truthfully, that Beaty probably wouldn't stand much of a chance in a real tornado. I admitted that we weren't any better off there because we would be right under the falling debris. I then was telling her that storms like this are kind of common in Tampa and I am use to them from Busch Gardens and told her a few stories from there. The entire time, people kept calling from upstairs and asking if they were safe, and she kept calling her superiors to find out if she should tell the people to get out or not. It was pretty interesting. I also found out that she lives in Boca Raton...
After the apparent threat had passed, I continued on towards the library and thoroughly enjoyed the rain. I couldn't help thinking how the feel of it hitting my face brings a very sensual feeling to me. I find it funny when people tell me the rainy weather depresses them, because the effect is far opposite for me. Hey, I like to be clean! He he. I wrote my mother a letter in the library and then headed home. Ed's mom had called so I figured I'd better call home just to let them know that I'm all right. I ended up talking to her for another hour about all kinds of stuff. I did make sure to tell her, however, that my major means of communication would be letter from now on. I also let her know of my less than wonderful achievements in my classrooms plus the fact that I'm broke...
I had this really stupid notion Sunday morning that perhaps Michael Brown (and hell, maybe even Shar¡) might be in town because the Alachua County Fair is in town. Ed put the whole idea into my head on Saturday night because I guess he remembers Shar¡'s background and I was quite impressed that he remembered such a trivial thing. The possibility, of course, is almost zero, but so many things just barely happened to get our relationship going in the first place that I had to look into it. I bought a newspaper on the way to the library to study on Sunday morning, and was sitting there reading when I came to the horoscopes. I was already thinking about Shar¡ because I had read the article about Guavaween and remembered that she said she'd be there. I want so much just to know whether or not she's still in Tampa...
Anyway, my horoscope said, "Don't stay too long at the fair," and hers said that, "some will say, `Don't stay away so long next time!' Sagittarian plays paramount role." That really freaked me out... enough that I packed right up and braved the freezing cold again all of the way home just to find out exactly when and where this fair is. I called Jessica, Ashley's roommate, because I heard that they were going to go. I finally found out that it doesn't start until next Friday, which is cool, and maybe they'll take me along with them.
It wasn't long before I gave Kimmeth a call. I was going to wait until later in the evening but had been planing for quite some time to call her this weekend. I was surprised that she was home in the middle of the day. She asked me if I had received her letter, and I said no in a somewhat surprised tone. She asked why and I said that I was overwhelmed that she actually wrote me a letter and was really happy. I was! I was suddenly extremely glad that I called when I did so she wouldn't think I was just doing so because she wanted me to. I made it in just the nick of time!
She told me a lot about how her life is going and I did the same for her. I then broke down and told her about Shar¡ at about the same time she told me about a little fling of hers. I let her know that Shar¡ was the reason behind me feeling the way I was the last time she called. She told me that she hasn't talked to this guy for two weeks now and said that she thinks they're done for good. She told me that they were arguing and he told her that she hasn't even seen him acting like a jerk yet, and she replied by asking him why he thought she was going to stick around for the credits!!! That was awesome and really made me laugh! She also told me an awesome way to conclude a relationship: a handshake and a, "It was a pleasure doing business with you." That was hilarious, too! She always knows when to stick a little something in for me just to make me feel better. She'll always say that, "you probably don't care, but," when she's going to tell me about Stuart or some other guy.
We were talking about needing to get together soon and I joked that I really wish I could go down and see her over Thanksgiving although it would be practically impossible. She was telling me that I really should come but her apartment is small so she'd just have to shack me up with one of her friends somewhere. My mind just kind of stopped in it's tracks and then she perked up and said just kidding!!! Bitch... really had me going there for a second. She told me that she does have a queen size bed but I wouldn't fit on it and we then started talking about how I sleep. I told her that I've learned to sleep in a fetal position after years of short beds and she really liked that.
We were talking about our little relationships again and I was making some very creative generalizations about them. I told her that what we both ended up doing was just keeping us in practice and she really liked that. I also admitted that dating a married woman is pretty much a once in a lifetime thing, for one learns from his mistakes. She fully agrees that it's a learning experience for she dated a married guy once, and has vowed never to do so again. I think it's kind of funny that Shar¡ pretty much summed up every possible trait that I always vowed never to go out with, including the fact that Kimmeth and I once told each other that we'd never go out with a smoker. But that's really not that important, just funny. I told Kimmeth that Shar¡ did come up one weekend and Kim laughed and told me that she's sure glad that she didn't decide to surprise me by showing up that weekend. That would have been bad, and I should have told her that I would have had to send Shar¡ home. I am beginning to fully understand Chris' point that perhaps by having a different girl, Kim will see that I'm capable and my like for her will seem more real and not just because of the fact that she talks to me...
She was telling me about a lot of weird dreams she's been having lately and one kind of stood out in my mind. She told me that she dreamt she was up north and was dating a guy with shorter dark hair, and so on. She said something about it making her kind of happy. I pretended not to catch on, or just didn't want to make any stupid assumptions, but the last time she saw me I had just gotten my "too short" haircut and I do live "up north." We were also talking about selective breeding again. She said that she had a dream where she married a guy who already had three kids and said that it probably has something to do with her new neighbor who has a little girl. I told her that she shouldn't marry into a family with too many kids (and I just realized that Stuart has two!!!) because then she might be putting her wonderful genes to waste. She always likes that and agreed fully. I told her after asking about Stuart's kids that my son was almost two and the girls up here were calling me Daddy Dan for a while. It was almost funny.
Well, I ended up talking to her for well over two hours but she is more than worth it. I accidentally pulled the cord out of the answering machine twice and had to call her back. That used to be a big joke between us about hanging up on people and she said that she didn't want to talk to me anymore since I had hung up on her twice! She did tell me a little about Lucinda and how they have drifted so far apart as friends and Lucinda just doesn't listen to her much anymore and doesn't really care how Kim feels when she gives her advice. I stuck up for Lucinda a little bit, making some really good remarks about the distance and the fact that she does care about her or she wouldn't give advice at all. Kim was saying that she just doesn't always have anybody she can dump her problems on and said that she really enjoys talking to me (in a sense, I was so overwhelmed I don't quite remember exactly). That was really cool though and I think my phone call did an amazing amount of good exactly when I needed to. If I had called while she was dating Tobin, the thinks I said might not have been taken as deeply as perhaps they were...
Well, I was happy after that and my Halloween became even better as my lovely neighbor came over to the room with Jon and greeted me by saying, "Hi sexy!" What she doesn't know yet is that I've had sex with every girl that's ever called me that... he he. She then told us that her "boyfriend" has decided to leave now thinking that's it's better before they get attached. Well, i'm happy to see him go and feel that it's time to start slowly working deeper into the girl. It's time to be serious...
I also got a call last night before I went out to study from Ashley. She was late for a sorority function but just wanted to let me know that she made it back all right and really wanted to thank me for being there for her. She also told me that Daniel was released from the hospital and had a broken collarbone, not neck. I essentially told her that I'll always be there for her, and reminded her that she was often there listening to me cry about Shar¡, so it was the least I could do. I didn't tell her how happy it made me that it was I whom she called to tell her problems to.
I saved Karen a seat again in psychology for our exam. She came in bitching about a cold she had caught and how the weather wasn't doing much to help. I quickly picked up that she's the kind that likes to be babied when she's sick, and she happily agreed. I keep picking up all kinds of useful information on the girl and she really seems to like talking to me, as well. I finished my exam before her, and got an amazing twenty-eight out of thirty. I was damn happy, although I wanted a perfect score... I looked up at Karen and couldn't help but think how cute she looked sitting up there and blew her a kiss just after she passed out of eyesight.
I arrived home to find my beautiful and promised letter from Kimmeth! Her new address is:
643 N.E. 18th Ave.
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33304-3451
She writes (on graph paper, no less):
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Dan... hello earth calling Dan!
I hope you are doing much better than when last we spoke - I would assume since you've not called.
I am doing well, work is boring and tedious as ever, and as ever I endure, just one more paycheck I think again and again. I miss my responsible-less, meager paychecks, they were so easy to come by and so easy to blow away. But I have a new habit to support - ME!
I'm, scary enough, quite into the domestic scene to throw pillows, finding the right patio chairs, collecting and primping plants. Ah the good life. Well at the very least my boss is comforted by the charade. HA HA.
In international news - I spoke to Stuart {I can finally spell his name!!!} again recently. I know so what, right!? As fun as ever speaking to him but no new news to report since I fought off the last violent urge to hop on a plane to England. He still says he intends to come here... I believe it when I see it I guess. Oh hold on someone's at the door... - Just kidding.
So the ugly truth is I've been (been as in has been) seeing someone, yes I had even referred to him as my "boyfriend," and yes I wasn't even thinking of seeing someone else - for a while there. Quite conflicted about the question of Stuart showing up out of the blue I must admit but not thinking of any one else but this guy.... Okay his name is Tobin... there I said it. Any way things were going great! Then they were going?! good - then well, I don't know where exactly things turned odd but we haven't spoken for about two weeks now. Hmm? Yes it's that age old game people play - it's their turn to call... then they don't call... Well I'M NOT going to call THEM.... Why aren't they calling?... Maybe I should call? NO! Fuck them if they want to talk they will call! I AM NOT GOING TO CALL THEM!!! SO FUCKING CALL ALREADY!!! {I was rather interested in her use of the pronoun "they" and was extremely glad that I called her before I got her letter!!!}
How did, of all people, I get duped into playing this jerky immature game? Peer pressure that's how, it really sucks cause he's about as stubborn if not more stubborn than I am. Fuck that I'M more stubborn damn IT!
So any way like I was saying that's all over with. I think. How am I supposed to know any way? That jerk!
Haven't been to any Dolphins games lately - kinda bummed out about Dan Marino's leg injury, I may actually have a team worth rooting for.
I signed up for a stained glass making class one night a week that I will be SO excited about if there are enough people enrolled when class starts to have a class. I've always wanted to work in stained glass. In fact last night I dreamed about stained glass!
How are classes going? And how are the lower class you call your friends (just a little snob humor there)?
Actually went out for a drink with a friend the other night.... the band sucked, I went home sober.
And that concludes this random collection of senseless dribble - I await your reply.
(peace)(love)(happiness) Kimmeth
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She then drew a rather large picture of the northern hemisphere of the earth with an arrow pointing to Gainesville with a "YOU ARE HERE" sign attached. It was rather interesting.
Thursday, July 22, 1993
July 22, 1993 - Thursday - Shari at AI!!!, Picture
What a wonderful, beautiful woman!!! I'm growing more and more fond of that girl every chance I get to spend more time with her! She called yesterday afternoon to talk for a little while before she had to go to do her laundry. I then ended up telling my family all of those things about her that I had kept quite so far. Cathleen already knew about Cord, and she was a good little girl for not telling anybody like I asked her. Thank you! I also told them about her still being married, and Mother figured out that she had dropped out of school, but I still didn't tell her how early. They didn't take it too hard. Mother told me that it's all right as long as the kid isn't mine!
Kimmeth then gave me a call at 6:30 just to say hello and to tell me she wouldn't be coming home this weekend, so don't wait up for her. She kind of wanted me to come down today to see a Marlin's game with her and to hang out for the weekend. I told her that I really couldn't make it, unfortunately. She also found out how soon I'll be going back to Gainesville. We then talked until 8:20! I was really surprised she wanted to talk that long after we had just talked a few nights earlier. I finally starting worrying that Shar¡ might try to call so I went ahead and cut off our conversation, telling her I had to go and eat. I still was really glad to talk to her for so long. I did tell her about Shar¡, kind of. Just that I met a girl who is married and has a kid who wanted to go out. I figured it was safe leaving things at that.
Shar¡ called me a little while later to talk some more. She had cleaned her room for a while and was playing with Cord right then. She asked me why I had stayed home all day and I told her that I had really wanted to do something with her! She asked me why I hadn't said anything and I told her that I couldn't have just up and called her and she laughed and agreed. She said that she really wants to move out into a place of her own so she can give her friends her phone number.
She also told me that she wants to go back to night school to either be a nurse's assistant or maybe work with something electronic. We also had talked about what I want to be and I told her that she should go for nurse's assistant so that I can hire her when I get my practice! I asked her where she wanted to live in the long run and she said that she wants to move up North where it snows sometimes. I was turned off by that a little bit but then remembered that she is kind of a country girl and asked her how far north she meant. She said maybe North Carolina! We both then talked about traveling in that area and why we like smaller towns and stuff. I knew Mother would like that because she wants me to become a doctor in a small town (like Blue Ridge) to start off and now that idea is becoming quite attractive. Shar¡ joked about how funny it would be if we ended up working together.
She asked me what I was doing today. I told her that I wanted to go to the beach! She was surprised that I had off. I thought she worked all day but she then told me she doesn't start until four. She asked if I wanted to do something with her. We decided that she'd call in the morning so that we can go to Adventure Island. She went to file for state assisted medical insurance and daycare for Cord today. She called me after ten and I was already ready to go. I decided that it's be easiest for us to meet at the McDonalds in front of Busch Gardens. They showed up a little late, but it wasn't that bad. Amazingly, Christina volunteered to babysit Cord for Shar¡ while we went to Adventure Island together alone!!! We were so surprised that she would actually let us be alone when both she and Cord could come with us for free!
I had just finished drinking a Coke float when they pulled up. Shar¡ ran inside to go to the bathroom and I talked to Christina for a few seconds. Shar¡ told me that she hadn't been able to find a red golf shirt for her first day at Boston Chicken, so she wanted to try and call them to see if they'd let her start tomorrow instead. That would have also given us more time together. Every phone book ended up having that page ripped out of it, even the one's at Busch Gardens!!! I decided that it'd be quicker to just hurry and drive over there, so we did. We then went to Adventure Island. One of my main goals was to get our picture taken when we walked in, and fortunately the guy was still there. We put our arms around each other and smiled.
We went and rode the Caribbean Corkscrew and then went on one other corkscrew slide. The lines were kind of long and we were screwing around in them. We took a shower together when we first got there at the bottom of the stairs and joked that we could brag about this to Christina. I noticed another tattoo on her right outside ankle the other night when we were watching the movie and brought it up today. It's a skull climbing out of a hole in her leg. We were talking about getting that Mike tattoo off of her arm. It looks so much smaller now than it did in my mind when I first saw it. I remembered that Cord's middle name is Michael and told her that she can just tell people that it's her son's name! She said that she liked that and had never thought about that before.
We then went swimming half way around the Rambling Bayou. We were splashing each other and screwing around some more. It was a lot of fun. We then walked over to the employee line and I bought a Coke for us. We drank it on the way up to the flumes. We met these two little girls behind us in line who kept wanting to talk to us. They were about ten or eleven. They wanted to know about the slides and I joked that it's scarier than the Kumba. Shar¡ then told them about me working over there and all of that stuff. They told us that they kept meeting older people in the park through the day. The one the told us that they had seen us walking around earlier. We kind of looked at each other pretty weirdly. It was funny. After Shar¡ had departed, they asked our names and told me theirs.
I had to admit my not knowing how to swim when Shar¡ wanted to cliff dive. I let her go as I messed around in the five foot pool. I said hello to this girl named Jennifer today who works there in grounds. She is a really cute freckle face who I have seen before when I came with Cathy. I always thought she was really cute. I looked up Monday on the Mamba to see her standing at the exit waiting for someone. She looked a little younger then, but I asked her if she worked there anyway. We then started talking about going off to school and everything. I was glad to meet her and told her that I'd say hi the next time I was at Adventure Island. She brought up something from our other conversation today when I saw her so she definitely remembered me. That was cool. Ron Jones was making fun of me for hitting on all of the girls that day after he saw us. It was funny.
I also thought that I saw Xenia Batres little sister today because we smiled and started at each other for a few minutes. I later saw Stephanie Baker in the wave pool and said hello to her and we both asked what's up. I made sure that she saw Shar¡. It would make sense, too, because Xenia and Stephanie were good friends in high school. I also just remembered that I was unloading with Dayanara on the Kumba once on Tuesday. We were trying to be very seductive to each other, and were making it seem like each other's touch was the quest of life. It was fun. I was looking at her with my eyes the way I do when I try to make them sparkle. She stopped me and told me that I have really pretty eyes! Cool.
Anyway, Shar¡ and I went in the wave pool for a while and swam out to the deep part. We playfully dunked each other a couple of times and were also holding on to each other a lot. It was funny because we kept getting hit by rafts from all sides. We also were splashing each other. We then went to hang out and watch the volleyball games for a few minutes. By this time we were holding hands and each other quite a bit. We stopped and sat down where these two games were going on. One was all girls and the other all guys, something for each of us to watch. I was really hoping that maybe Sarah would be there but I couldn't see her.
We walked out soon afterward and went to look at our pictures. They had a yellow tint to them for some reason, but she looks gorgeous in them!!! I was really smiling only in one of them, and I let her have it. We joked that now we never have to talk to each other again since we have our own little pictures of us! I then drove her home and we kissed as she was getting out of the car. Now it's time to show off my new little picture!!!
Kimmeth then gave me a call at 6:30 just to say hello and to tell me she wouldn't be coming home this weekend, so don't wait up for her. She kind of wanted me to come down today to see a Marlin's game with her and to hang out for the weekend. I told her that I really couldn't make it, unfortunately. She also found out how soon I'll be going back to Gainesville. We then talked until 8:20! I was really surprised she wanted to talk that long after we had just talked a few nights earlier. I finally starting worrying that Shar¡ might try to call so I went ahead and cut off our conversation, telling her I had to go and eat. I still was really glad to talk to her for so long. I did tell her about Shar¡, kind of. Just that I met a girl who is married and has a kid who wanted to go out. I figured it was safe leaving things at that.
Shar¡ called me a little while later to talk some more. She had cleaned her room for a while and was playing with Cord right then. She asked me why I had stayed home all day and I told her that I had really wanted to do something with her! She asked me why I hadn't said anything and I told her that I couldn't have just up and called her and she laughed and agreed. She said that she really wants to move out into a place of her own so she can give her friends her phone number.
She also told me that she wants to go back to night school to either be a nurse's assistant or maybe work with something electronic. We also had talked about what I want to be and I told her that she should go for nurse's assistant so that I can hire her when I get my practice! I asked her where she wanted to live in the long run and she said that she wants to move up North where it snows sometimes. I was turned off by that a little bit but then remembered that she is kind of a country girl and asked her how far north she meant. She said maybe North Carolina! We both then talked about traveling in that area and why we like smaller towns and stuff. I knew Mother would like that because she wants me to become a doctor in a small town (like Blue Ridge) to start off and now that idea is becoming quite attractive. Shar¡ joked about how funny it would be if we ended up working together.
She asked me what I was doing today. I told her that I wanted to go to the beach! She was surprised that I had off. I thought she worked all day but she then told me she doesn't start until four. She asked if I wanted to do something with her. We decided that she'd call in the morning so that we can go to Adventure Island. She went to file for state assisted medical insurance and daycare for Cord today. She called me after ten and I was already ready to go. I decided that it's be easiest for us to meet at the McDonalds in front of Busch Gardens. They showed up a little late, but it wasn't that bad. Amazingly, Christina volunteered to babysit Cord for Shar¡ while we went to Adventure Island together alone!!! We were so surprised that she would actually let us be alone when both she and Cord could come with us for free!
I had just finished drinking a Coke float when they pulled up. Shar¡ ran inside to go to the bathroom and I talked to Christina for a few seconds. Shar¡ told me that she hadn't been able to find a red golf shirt for her first day at Boston Chicken, so she wanted to try and call them to see if they'd let her start tomorrow instead. That would have also given us more time together. Every phone book ended up having that page ripped out of it, even the one's at Busch Gardens!!! I decided that it'd be quicker to just hurry and drive over there, so we did. We then went to Adventure Island. One of my main goals was to get our picture taken when we walked in, and fortunately the guy was still there. We put our arms around each other and smiled.
We went and rode the Caribbean Corkscrew and then went on one other corkscrew slide. The lines were kind of long and we were screwing around in them. We took a shower together when we first got there at the bottom of the stairs and joked that we could brag about this to Christina. I noticed another tattoo on her right outside ankle the other night when we were watching the movie and brought it up today. It's a skull climbing out of a hole in her leg. We were talking about getting that Mike tattoo off of her arm. It looks so much smaller now than it did in my mind when I first saw it. I remembered that Cord's middle name is Michael and told her that she can just tell people that it's her son's name! She said that she liked that and had never thought about that before.
We then went swimming half way around the Rambling Bayou. We were splashing each other and screwing around some more. It was a lot of fun. We then walked over to the employee line and I bought a Coke for us. We drank it on the way up to the flumes. We met these two little girls behind us in line who kept wanting to talk to us. They were about ten or eleven. They wanted to know about the slides and I joked that it's scarier than the Kumba. Shar¡ then told them about me working over there and all of that stuff. They told us that they kept meeting older people in the park through the day. The one the told us that they had seen us walking around earlier. We kind of looked at each other pretty weirdly. It was funny. After Shar¡ had departed, they asked our names and told me theirs.
I had to admit my not knowing how to swim when Shar¡ wanted to cliff dive. I let her go as I messed around in the five foot pool. I said hello to this girl named Jennifer today who works there in grounds. She is a really cute freckle face who I have seen before when I came with Cathy. I always thought she was really cute. I looked up Monday on the Mamba to see her standing at the exit waiting for someone. She looked a little younger then, but I asked her if she worked there anyway. We then started talking about going off to school and everything. I was glad to meet her and told her that I'd say hi the next time I was at Adventure Island. She brought up something from our other conversation today when I saw her so she definitely remembered me. That was cool. Ron Jones was making fun of me for hitting on all of the girls that day after he saw us. It was funny.
I also thought that I saw Xenia Batres little sister today because we smiled and started at each other for a few minutes. I later saw Stephanie Baker in the wave pool and said hello to her and we both asked what's up. I made sure that she saw Shar¡. It would make sense, too, because Xenia and Stephanie were good friends in high school. I also just remembered that I was unloading with Dayanara on the Kumba once on Tuesday. We were trying to be very seductive to each other, and were making it seem like each other's touch was the quest of life. It was fun. I was looking at her with my eyes the way I do when I try to make them sparkle. She stopped me and told me that I have really pretty eyes! Cool.
Anyway, Shar¡ and I went in the wave pool for a while and swam out to the deep part. We playfully dunked each other a couple of times and were also holding on to each other a lot. It was funny because we kept getting hit by rafts from all sides. We also were splashing each other. We then went to hang out and watch the volleyball games for a few minutes. By this time we were holding hands and each other quite a bit. We stopped and sat down where these two games were going on. One was all girls and the other all guys, something for each of us to watch. I was really hoping that maybe Sarah would be there but I couldn't see her.
We walked out soon afterward and went to look at our pictures. They had a yellow tint to them for some reason, but she looks gorgeous in them!!! I was really smiling only in one of them, and I let her have it. We joked that now we never have to talk to each other again since we have our own little pictures of us! I then drove her home and we kissed as she was getting out of the car. Now it's time to show off my new little picture!!!
Wednesday, July 21, 1993
July 21, 1993 - Wednesday - Shari!!, Kimmeth!, Carey
July 21, 1993 - Wednesday
Shar¡ called me Monday morning just after I left for work. She had already told me that she and Christina were going out that night. I was sick and barely had a voice all day as I closed on the Mamba. I worked with Ron and he was training two new employees. I told him about Shar¡ and when he found out that the party was our first date, he was extremely surprised that we were sucking face like that already. He said that she was definitely cute. One of the new employee's names is Jennifer. She's a seventeen year old blonde from King. I met her with Steve on the Python the other day. She's the type that will come to hate you really fast if you make fun of her. She already didn't like Stephen, and I was next. Ron and I were being vicious. Fortunately I have a talent for ass kissing and I had won her friendship back soon afterwards so that I was the only one she would talk to on the ride. She's even pretty cute.
I was getting a fever and headache when I got home, so I went straight to bed. I awoke at eleven to receive a phone call from Kimmeth! We talked for an hour and a half! She just got fired from her job and wanted to tell me all about it. She also kept saying that a couple of her friends told her with all seriousness hat she needs a man, so she decided to call me! We had a really cool talk and I was so happy that she called.
I worked on the Kumba on Tuesday with a bunch of the ladies. I sat in the breakroom with Stephanie, Karim, Dayanara, and some others before work. The conversation did turn to Shar¡ and I. Karim said that they noticed how the two of us were stuck together all night with our tongues down each others' throats! I was glad they were all talking. They all were dumfounded when they found out that was our first date! I think that's funny. Stephanie was saying that she was all over me. I talked alone with her later at the height stick. I told her the `bad' things about Shari and she just got more and more shocked. She was laughing that I really didn't seem the type! I then told her about the situation with Kimmeth, and how I really like Laura and that's why I was really concerned about taking Shar¡ to that party. She said that she could see why! I knew that anything I told her would be spread, but I didn't care. I stopped to say hello to this really cute girl coming out of the exit. She grabbed my arm and said if I left her that she would tell the girl I already have eight girlfriends. It was really funny.
Karim knows some of the stuff, too. We were also flirting very hard with all the cute members of the opposite sex. We were telling each other which ones we like. It was great. She showed me how she bends over to show off her tits to the cute guys and I was joking about how to grab a girls tits while she's sitting on the coaster. It was really cool. I thus benefited greatly at work in another way due to Shar¡ being at the party. Now all of the girls realize that I can get a girl much more pretty than they are and now they seem much more interested in playing around for some reason. It's funny! It's really cool, too! I saw Mark and he was mentioning his reaction when Shar¡ and I walked into the party. He said that I definitely claimed my territory from the start and he knew that she was off limits. Good!
Jennifer came into the park that day with her boyfriend. He was pretty cool. It started pouring just as they got under the height stick sign. Jennifer and I got entirely soaked. We were flirting kind of and talked most of the time. I talked to her boyfriend too and he was talking pretty mean about her. I told her later if I had said those things, she would have killed me, and she admitted that he's been an asshole lately. She said that they'd been fighting all day. We were making jokes about her taking off her wet clothes. She did have a bikini underneath but was kind of embarrassed.
When I got home I found out that only Sarah had called. After sleeping for five minutes, Shar¡ called. We talked for a long time and she said that she had taken her last days at Publix off to spend them with Cord. She was kind of tired and didn't know if she wanted to go out, but wanted to do something. She was making cord dinner and somehow she thought of ice cream and said that she really wanted something sweet. I asked her if she meant besides me, and we laughed. We talked seriously for a while. She finally told me how Christina was trying to deter her form going out with me the first time. She said that somebody on Kumba was telling her all about my girlfriend and also said that I only wanted her for sex. She then went too far over the edge and told Shar¡ that somebody told her that I forced myself on a girl one time. I was willing to kill the fat bitch right then, because how strong can someone's trust be with bullshit like that being fed into her head.
This all happened before our party! I thought for a second what happened to win her trust because she obviously wasn't too worried about it at the party. She then told me about that night we all three wayed on the telephone. She said that she came back from getting her laundry that time and Christina and I were talking together. Christina was trying to dig out of me that I only want Christina for sex. I knew that anything I said right then would be told to Shar¡. I said that I didn't, there's much more than that, and that's Christina problem for not realizing that! Shar¡ told me that she had picked up the phone early and had listened to that conversation! She also said that I really seemed much nicer than any of the things Christina had said. Her eavesdropping was the reason why she realized that Christina was so full of shit and she was laughing to herself each time Christina called to tell her something new. I hate that our entire relationship working so easily was based on such a slim chance of Shar¡ listening to us talk, but I'm really glad it happened!!!
She also told me that Christina did pull the `break up their friendship' shit. They actually hung up on each other but Christina called back ten minutes later. Shar¡ said that she was going out with me no matter what Christina decided to do. Nice.
It was my turn for an idea, so I asked her if she wanted to make an ice cream run. I said I could pick up all the stuff at a grocery store and she asked about seeing a movie on the VCR. We decided on Pet Cemetery. I went to Kash n Karry and bought a half gallon cookies and cream, a quart of Edy's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream for her, a can of whipped cream, and some really good hot chocolate topping. When I got there, her mom answered and said she was on the phone. We took the ice cream to the kitchen and put it away. I apologized to her for being so quiet at Tally Hos. We then talked about a movie on TV called Bump In the Night about a child being kidnapped. I think I had seen a bit of it in Gainesville. We watched it for about fifteen minutes through the best scenes in the movie. It was cool to be able to talk to her like that. During a commercial she went and told Shar¡ to get off of the phone. She came out in her Daisy Duke cut off jeans and a cut off Anthrax shirt. She looked good. She had just taken a shower and her hair was really pretty. We still talk all of the time about the fact that she should keep her hair straight.
We went and made us each a big sundae and ate it as we started watching the movie at eleven. Shar¡ sat on the rocking chair with me on the couch with her mom. Her mom went to sleep right after the movie started. Shar¡ eventually came over and took the other half of the couch. She's really cool because she likes to talk about the stuff happening in the movie. I hate the quite types. We got really tired before the end of the movie and decided to finish it later. It was already 12:30. We didn't kiss goodnight. I'm not sure if I was just tired or upset about finding out exactly what Christina had said about me that made me keep my distance.
I traded with Bob to work on the Mamba today. I was supposed to be on the bumper cars but there's no way in hell I'd work there. I was with Scott and a new guy named Jeff who was training. I was closing the harnesses when I kept hearing someone call my name. I looked up to see Carrie!, the girl from Orlando who took my picture on the Kumba a couple of weeks back. We said hello and talked for a little while there. Stephanie had relieved Scott for a break, so she saw me with yet another girl! Carey pulled out two really good pictures. One of me smiling from across the Kumba, and one of her and Nicole at Python. The one of me says: `You're lucky I didn't snap the picture when you ducked!! This is a much better picture anyways. Smile always!! Please!!' The other said: `You are a great friend!! I'm glad we got to meet & talk to you!! Stay sweet and don't ever forget us!! Friends forever, Carey Ann Harness.'
She told me that she was mad that Bob hadn't ever written her, because she had given him her address last time. I then told her that I was jealous that she gave him her address, and that I would have written. She really seemed to like that and hurried to write it down for me: `Write me or else!!
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I was really glad she gave it to me and had told Bob before that I probably wouldn't write her unless she gave me the address herself when he was going to give it to me.
They kept coming back all day to ride and I would always talk a long time with Carey. Christina was supposed to bring Shar¡ and Cord to Busch Gardens today and I kept thinking that they were going to show up while Carrie and Nicole were there. That would have sucked!!! Scott was laughing that he wanted to see a confrontation! Carey wanted another picture of me and was going to take it as I walked to the exit gate. I kept telling her to wait and kept turning around until she did. She wanted to know why and I said that it's be much better if we were both in it!! She liked that! She came and leant on the gate from the front and I was behind it. Our hands touched on the bar and we kept them there for a few minutes while we talked afterwards.
They came back one last time in the evening to say goodbye. Carey made me sign the back of my picture for her scrapbook. I wrote that I am really glad that we met and hope that we keep in touch for a very long time! When they got off the ride, it was time to say goodbye. Her upper lip was twitching like mine used to when I got nervous. I had noticed it once earlier when we were looking at each other funnily. I really think she likes me. She told me to make sure that I write and maybe I can visit sometime during the year. We hugged goodbye and I came an inch away from kissing her on the cheek! What a cool new friendship I've made!!!
I sat with Jennifer during lunch today and we talked quite a bit. She was scared to get on the Kumba yesterday when they finally made it to the end of the queue and crossed over to the exit. She said that he mouthed, `Fuck you!' to her as the coaster went by her and she stomped off. She said that she was really pissed and they almost broke up. She said she was ready to walk home. I told her next time, I'd take her home. We kept talking for a while. She's really cool, but she get's kind of nervous talking. She can't look at me very long in the eyes if she's telling me a story. I looked to the side once when we were being quite only to watch her stare at my eyes the entire time. She kept blinking kind of rapidly to be ready to turn away when I looked back. It was funny. Stephanie came in and patted me on the back and smiled as she made accusing noises at me, knowing that I was hitting on Jennifer!
I also kept flirting with all of the girls on the ride. There was a gorgeous redhead with her two younger brothers on the ride. I made them sit together once, but she rode separately the next time. As I walked by she asked if I wanted to ride. I told her that I really wanted to, but couldn't. Scott told me that he would have let me because we had the trainee there. I told her when she got back and said that I really missed out. We were both being pretty seductive. It was really cool. I also had another set of girls take my picture again! I got a phone call just before eight and answered as usual, `Mamba, Dan.' She then goes, `Hey sexy! What's up?' We talked for a couple of seconds but I couldn't figure out who it was and didn't want to piss her off. I acted like I knew, though. I though at first that it might have been Stephanie, or hopefully Jennifer, but I just realized that it was probably either Karim or Laura. I don't know but I'd really like to.
If Shar¡ had come, she would have parked out front so I did as well. They said it would be later in the day and I knew they'd wait for me until closing so I could go with them. I even stole a little stuffed fish for Cord from a guy that left it in a gondola. I wanted to hurry and leave so I could catch the Skyride but Lewanda kept making me stay. Laura and karim came up. Karim parked out front as well and asked Laura to drive her up there. I then asked, too. We drove up there and all they talked about were the cute guys in the park. Dorks. I thanked her when she dropped me off and we parted.
I got a phone call froM Christina at about 9:45. She was at a payphone and I asked where they were. They said at Busch Gardens! and I asked them why. She said that Shar¡ made her drive them to Treetops to wait for me to get off of work!!!!! First of all I've never had a girl go out of her way like that just to find me. I felt awesome for that alone!!! She said that Shar¡ remembered that I closed. They sat on the bench by the guard station and waited with Cord. I asked Shar¡ If they were looking for my car, and then explained what happened. I though it was ironic that we both went way out of way to find the other, and we both screwed up! It sucked that we hadn't seen each other when I walked out, though. The employee tram had just pulled in and blocked both of our views and that's how I walked right in front of her. That's funny! They were at the Hess gas station on Busch when they called and wanted me to come go out with them.
I could hear everything Shar¡ said even though she wasn't on the phone. She said something mean and I said, `Fuck her!' Christina relayed the message, with much more seriousness though as Shar¡ later told me. Shar¡ said no way and so I told Christina to tell her that I'd see her around. She said bye, and so did I. I then said I wasn't going and Christina asked me if I'd come to at least see her. By that time Shar¡ thought something was up and she grabbed the phone and told me that she was only playing with me. I told her that I knew, and I was doing the same but I could see how it got confusing with the fat bitch in the middle! It was funny. They decided we'd meet at the big park out at the end of Waters. they were there when I showed up half an hour later. They were going to let Cord play in the playground. It was closed like I told them it would be and besides, I didn't want to get killed.
We drove across the street to the parking lot for this big baseball field. We just hung out and messed around for a while. Christina's dad is an electrician and they were going through the stuff in his truck. Shar¡ was set on making a bong and almost found all of the perfect parts to do so! We had an ice fight and were all wrestling around a little bit. Shar¡ and I sat up on the roof of my car and held hands while Christina kept complaining that she was going to leave. She said that she needed to at least get gas. We laughed as I said that the gas isn't going anywhere if you just let the truck sit there! She had to pee, too, though. We drove back to Hess!!!, and Shar¡ and I were joking around while Christina got the gas.
Shar¡ then told me that she has a really good reason for me to come to her house tomorrow. I told her if she's there, that's enough and I don't need any other reason. She finally said so that she could pay me back two dollars for the two I was going to let her borrow right then for cigarettes. I laughed that I was going to be supporting her smoking and she knew I didn't like it. I also knew that I only had two dollars in my wallet and I could use that to make her feel guilty. I pulled out my wallet and opened to let them both see that Shar¡ was taking the last of my money. Christina and I joked that there goes my lunch money. I told her that I still have a little change so I can buy a soda and a dinner roll and it worked. it was funny. I told her to go buy her cigarettes and I played with Cord for a second. We then drove back to the baseball field.
We talked a few minutes and decided that I'd take Shar¡ and Cord so that we could do some more while Christina went home. After we had Cord in my car, Shar¡ was looking for his cup (his dink!) and thought it was still in the truck. Christina was already at the stop sign way out at the road. Shar¡ told me to honk my horn but I just yelled loudly and clearly for her to come back. She laughed and said that would work, too, as Christina U-turned and drove back over. I went to look in Cord's car seat for it and it was in his hand. I told her and then realized he was awake. I asked him if he has his cup and he said no. I then asked him what was in his hand and he looked at it and smiled really big and he stuck it out to show me. It was really cute. I the told him that he has a very pretty cup and he squealed and told me something. He's such a cute little kid.
Shar¡'s mom was at home so we didn't want to go there so soon. I didn't want to risk getting killed in that area any longer so I suggested USF. There was nothing! No cool places to hang out at night just to park like in Gainesville. What a shitty place. The dorms look like a prison, all the same shape and color. It was gross! I told her that I have two dollars so we could run into Steak and Shake and get a milkshake. I then said, `Oh...,' with a big smile on my face and she quickly caught on that she had already spent those two dollars. It was funny. We then were joking about really running into the store, right through the windows. It was hilarious the way I kept going on and she was really laughing. That was really cool. We had been joking all night about hallucinating and seeing things that aren't really there. That was really funny, too. I stopped at the ATM and took out some money and we went to the drive through. The shake was smaller than if we had gone inside and we joked that we were going to ask him if we could run inside and get a bigger one instead!
We drove to the back of the parking lot and laughed that we finally can park somewhere safe because we are customers. We parked facing the restaurant so we could keep an eye on any people around us. Cord woke up right then and was fussing so she took him from the car seat and put him on her lap to sleep. We talked quite a bit and started getting really silly as we got more and more tired. It was really cool! We were making each other laugh quite a bit. We were also talking really seriously some of the times. She couldn't come to me to kiss because of Cord so she had to wait until I did so. She was looking at me with those gorgeous eyes. I leant over and kissed her. We started making out for a little while and were really getting our tongue's way into it. It made me realize how lacking Nicole was because she has such a short tongue!
We stopped once and were talking a little more. She asked me if I had every gone out with someone with a kid before. I said no, but I was enjoying it, especially if the kid's as cute as Cord. She admitted that Cord really tamed her down and I told her I figured that when she first told me that day at Busch Gardens. It is a different experience. It shows me so much maturity, though, which is what I think I really like. She seems oh so much older than eighteen. She's been breaking out a little bit lately. I told her it's because she keeps touching her face. Christina told her she's glad, because maybe that'll make me stop going out with her. We laughed. She told me her birthday was on June 18th. She's a really young eighteen!
We then started making out again. At about 1:30 I drove her home with Cord passed out on her lap. We talked about doing something tomorrow. We then quietly snuck the stuff inside because her grandfather was asleep on the couch. She whispered that she'll call me and we said goodbye. I really like her a lot!
Shar¡ called me Monday morning just after I left for work. She had already told me that she and Christina were going out that night. I was sick and barely had a voice all day as I closed on the Mamba. I worked with Ron and he was training two new employees. I told him about Shar¡ and when he found out that the party was our first date, he was extremely surprised that we were sucking face like that already. He said that she was definitely cute. One of the new employee's names is Jennifer. She's a seventeen year old blonde from King. I met her with Steve on the Python the other day. She's the type that will come to hate you really fast if you make fun of her. She already didn't like Stephen, and I was next. Ron and I were being vicious. Fortunately I have a talent for ass kissing and I had won her friendship back soon afterwards so that I was the only one she would talk to on the ride. She's even pretty cute.
I was getting a fever and headache when I got home, so I went straight to bed. I awoke at eleven to receive a phone call from Kimmeth! We talked for an hour and a half! She just got fired from her job and wanted to tell me all about it. She also kept saying that a couple of her friends told her with all seriousness hat she needs a man, so she decided to call me! We had a really cool talk and I was so happy that she called.
I worked on the Kumba on Tuesday with a bunch of the ladies. I sat in the breakroom with Stephanie, Karim, Dayanara, and some others before work. The conversation did turn to Shar¡ and I. Karim said that they noticed how the two of us were stuck together all night with our tongues down each others' throats! I was glad they were all talking. They all were dumfounded when they found out that was our first date! I think that's funny. Stephanie was saying that she was all over me. I talked alone with her later at the height stick. I told her the `bad' things about Shari and she just got more and more shocked. She was laughing that I really didn't seem the type! I then told her about the situation with Kimmeth, and how I really like Laura and that's why I was really concerned about taking Shar¡ to that party. She said that she could see why! I knew that anything I told her would be spread, but I didn't care. I stopped to say hello to this really cute girl coming out of the exit. She grabbed my arm and said if I left her that she would tell the girl I already have eight girlfriends. It was really funny.
Karim knows some of the stuff, too. We were also flirting very hard with all the cute members of the opposite sex. We were telling each other which ones we like. It was great. She showed me how she bends over to show off her tits to the cute guys and I was joking about how to grab a girls tits while she's sitting on the coaster. It was really cool. I thus benefited greatly at work in another way due to Shar¡ being at the party. Now all of the girls realize that I can get a girl much more pretty than they are and now they seem much more interested in playing around for some reason. It's funny! It's really cool, too! I saw Mark and he was mentioning his reaction when Shar¡ and I walked into the party. He said that I definitely claimed my territory from the start and he knew that she was off limits. Good!
Jennifer came into the park that day with her boyfriend. He was pretty cool. It started pouring just as they got under the height stick sign. Jennifer and I got entirely soaked. We were flirting kind of and talked most of the time. I talked to her boyfriend too and he was talking pretty mean about her. I told her later if I had said those things, she would have killed me, and she admitted that he's been an asshole lately. She said that they'd been fighting all day. We were making jokes about her taking off her wet clothes. She did have a bikini underneath but was kind of embarrassed.
When I got home I found out that only Sarah had called. After sleeping for five minutes, Shar¡ called. We talked for a long time and she said that she had taken her last days at Publix off to spend them with Cord. She was kind of tired and didn't know if she wanted to go out, but wanted to do something. She was making cord dinner and somehow she thought of ice cream and said that she really wanted something sweet. I asked her if she meant besides me, and we laughed. We talked seriously for a while. She finally told me how Christina was trying to deter her form going out with me the first time. She said that somebody on Kumba was telling her all about my girlfriend and also said that I only wanted her for sex. She then went too far over the edge and told Shar¡ that somebody told her that I forced myself on a girl one time. I was willing to kill the fat bitch right then, because how strong can someone's trust be with bullshit like that being fed into her head.
This all happened before our party! I thought for a second what happened to win her trust because she obviously wasn't too worried about it at the party. She then told me about that night we all three wayed on the telephone. She said that she came back from getting her laundry that time and Christina and I were talking together. Christina was trying to dig out of me that I only want Christina for sex. I knew that anything I said right then would be told to Shar¡. I said that I didn't, there's much more than that, and that's Christina problem for not realizing that! Shar¡ told me that she had picked up the phone early and had listened to that conversation! She also said that I really seemed much nicer than any of the things Christina had said. Her eavesdropping was the reason why she realized that Christina was so full of shit and she was laughing to herself each time Christina called to tell her something new. I hate that our entire relationship working so easily was based on such a slim chance of Shar¡ listening to us talk, but I'm really glad it happened!!!
She also told me that Christina did pull the `break up their friendship' shit. They actually hung up on each other but Christina called back ten minutes later. Shar¡ said that she was going out with me no matter what Christina decided to do. Nice.
It was my turn for an idea, so I asked her if she wanted to make an ice cream run. I said I could pick up all the stuff at a grocery store and she asked about seeing a movie on the VCR. We decided on Pet Cemetery. I went to Kash n Karry and bought a half gallon cookies and cream, a quart of Edy's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream for her, a can of whipped cream, and some really good hot chocolate topping. When I got there, her mom answered and said she was on the phone. We took the ice cream to the kitchen and put it away. I apologized to her for being so quiet at Tally Hos. We then talked about a movie on TV called Bump In the Night about a child being kidnapped. I think I had seen a bit of it in Gainesville. We watched it for about fifteen minutes through the best scenes in the movie. It was cool to be able to talk to her like that. During a commercial she went and told Shar¡ to get off of the phone. She came out in her Daisy Duke cut off jeans and a cut off Anthrax shirt. She looked good. She had just taken a shower and her hair was really pretty. We still talk all of the time about the fact that she should keep her hair straight.
We went and made us each a big sundae and ate it as we started watching the movie at eleven. Shar¡ sat on the rocking chair with me on the couch with her mom. Her mom went to sleep right after the movie started. Shar¡ eventually came over and took the other half of the couch. She's really cool because she likes to talk about the stuff happening in the movie. I hate the quite types. We got really tired before the end of the movie and decided to finish it later. It was already 12:30. We didn't kiss goodnight. I'm not sure if I was just tired or upset about finding out exactly what Christina had said about me that made me keep my distance.
I traded with Bob to work on the Mamba today. I was supposed to be on the bumper cars but there's no way in hell I'd work there. I was with Scott and a new guy named Jeff who was training. I was closing the harnesses when I kept hearing someone call my name. I looked up to see Carrie!, the girl from Orlando who took my picture on the Kumba a couple of weeks back. We said hello and talked for a little while there. Stephanie had relieved Scott for a break, so she saw me with yet another girl! Carey pulled out two really good pictures. One of me smiling from across the Kumba, and one of her and Nicole at Python. The one of me says: `You're lucky I didn't snap the picture when you ducked!! This is a much better picture anyways. Smile always!! Please!!' The other said: `You are a great friend!! I'm glad we got to meet & talk to you!! Stay sweet and don't ever forget us!! Friends forever, Carey Ann Harness.'
She told me that she was mad that Bob hadn't ever written her, because she had given him her address last time. I then told her that I was jealous that she gave him her address, and that I would have written. She really seemed to like that and hurried to write it down for me: `Write me or else!!
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I was really glad she gave it to me and had told Bob before that I probably wouldn't write her unless she gave me the address herself when he was going to give it to me.
They kept coming back all day to ride and I would always talk a long time with Carey. Christina was supposed to bring Shar¡ and Cord to Busch Gardens today and I kept thinking that they were going to show up while Carrie and Nicole were there. That would have sucked!!! Scott was laughing that he wanted to see a confrontation! Carey wanted another picture of me and was going to take it as I walked to the exit gate. I kept telling her to wait and kept turning around until she did. She wanted to know why and I said that it's be much better if we were both in it!! She liked that! She came and leant on the gate from the front and I was behind it. Our hands touched on the bar and we kept them there for a few minutes while we talked afterwards.
They came back one last time in the evening to say goodbye. Carey made me sign the back of my picture for her scrapbook. I wrote that I am really glad that we met and hope that we keep in touch for a very long time! When they got off the ride, it was time to say goodbye. Her upper lip was twitching like mine used to when I got nervous. I had noticed it once earlier when we were looking at each other funnily. I really think she likes me. She told me to make sure that I write and maybe I can visit sometime during the year. We hugged goodbye and I came an inch away from kissing her on the cheek! What a cool new friendship I've made!!!
I sat with Jennifer during lunch today and we talked quite a bit. She was scared to get on the Kumba yesterday when they finally made it to the end of the queue and crossed over to the exit. She said that he mouthed, `Fuck you!' to her as the coaster went by her and she stomped off. She said that she was really pissed and they almost broke up. She said she was ready to walk home. I told her next time, I'd take her home. We kept talking for a while. She's really cool, but she get's kind of nervous talking. She can't look at me very long in the eyes if she's telling me a story. I looked to the side once when we were being quite only to watch her stare at my eyes the entire time. She kept blinking kind of rapidly to be ready to turn away when I looked back. It was funny. Stephanie came in and patted me on the back and smiled as she made accusing noises at me, knowing that I was hitting on Jennifer!
I also kept flirting with all of the girls on the ride. There was a gorgeous redhead with her two younger brothers on the ride. I made them sit together once, but she rode separately the next time. As I walked by she asked if I wanted to ride. I told her that I really wanted to, but couldn't. Scott told me that he would have let me because we had the trainee there. I told her when she got back and said that I really missed out. We were both being pretty seductive. It was really cool. I also had another set of girls take my picture again! I got a phone call just before eight and answered as usual, `Mamba, Dan.' She then goes, `Hey sexy! What's up?' We talked for a couple of seconds but I couldn't figure out who it was and didn't want to piss her off. I acted like I knew, though. I though at first that it might have been Stephanie, or hopefully Jennifer, but I just realized that it was probably either Karim or Laura. I don't know but I'd really like to.
If Shar¡ had come, she would have parked out front so I did as well. They said it would be later in the day and I knew they'd wait for me until closing so I could go with them. I even stole a little stuffed fish for Cord from a guy that left it in a gondola. I wanted to hurry and leave so I could catch the Skyride but Lewanda kept making me stay. Laura and karim came up. Karim parked out front as well and asked Laura to drive her up there. I then asked, too. We drove up there and all they talked about were the cute guys in the park. Dorks. I thanked her when she dropped me off and we parted.
I got a phone call froM Christina at about 9:45. She was at a payphone and I asked where they were. They said at Busch Gardens! and I asked them why. She said that Shar¡ made her drive them to Treetops to wait for me to get off of work!!!!! First of all I've never had a girl go out of her way like that just to find me. I felt awesome for that alone!!! She said that Shar¡ remembered that I closed. They sat on the bench by the guard station and waited with Cord. I asked Shar¡ If they were looking for my car, and then explained what happened. I though it was ironic that we both went way out of way to find the other, and we both screwed up! It sucked that we hadn't seen each other when I walked out, though. The employee tram had just pulled in and blocked both of our views and that's how I walked right in front of her. That's funny! They were at the Hess gas station on Busch when they called and wanted me to come go out with them.
I could hear everything Shar¡ said even though she wasn't on the phone. She said something mean and I said, `Fuck her!' Christina relayed the message, with much more seriousness though as Shar¡ later told me. Shar¡ said no way and so I told Christina to tell her that I'd see her around. She said bye, and so did I. I then said I wasn't going and Christina asked me if I'd come to at least see her. By that time Shar¡ thought something was up and she grabbed the phone and told me that she was only playing with me. I told her that I knew, and I was doing the same but I could see how it got confusing with the fat bitch in the middle! It was funny. They decided we'd meet at the big park out at the end of Waters. they were there when I showed up half an hour later. They were going to let Cord play in the playground. It was closed like I told them it would be and besides, I didn't want to get killed.
We drove across the street to the parking lot for this big baseball field. We just hung out and messed around for a while. Christina's dad is an electrician and they were going through the stuff in his truck. Shar¡ was set on making a bong and almost found all of the perfect parts to do so! We had an ice fight and were all wrestling around a little bit. Shar¡ and I sat up on the roof of my car and held hands while Christina kept complaining that she was going to leave. She said that she needed to at least get gas. We laughed as I said that the gas isn't going anywhere if you just let the truck sit there! She had to pee, too, though. We drove back to Hess!!!, and Shar¡ and I were joking around while Christina got the gas.
Shar¡ then told me that she has a really good reason for me to come to her house tomorrow. I told her if she's there, that's enough and I don't need any other reason. She finally said so that she could pay me back two dollars for the two I was going to let her borrow right then for cigarettes. I laughed that I was going to be supporting her smoking and she knew I didn't like it. I also knew that I only had two dollars in my wallet and I could use that to make her feel guilty. I pulled out my wallet and opened to let them both see that Shar¡ was taking the last of my money. Christina and I joked that there goes my lunch money. I told her that I still have a little change so I can buy a soda and a dinner roll and it worked. it was funny. I told her to go buy her cigarettes and I played with Cord for a second. We then drove back to the baseball field.
We talked a few minutes and decided that I'd take Shar¡ and Cord so that we could do some more while Christina went home. After we had Cord in my car, Shar¡ was looking for his cup (his dink!) and thought it was still in the truck. Christina was already at the stop sign way out at the road. Shar¡ told me to honk my horn but I just yelled loudly and clearly for her to come back. She laughed and said that would work, too, as Christina U-turned and drove back over. I went to look in Cord's car seat for it and it was in his hand. I told her and then realized he was awake. I asked him if he has his cup and he said no. I then asked him what was in his hand and he looked at it and smiled really big and he stuck it out to show me. It was really cute. I the told him that he has a very pretty cup and he squealed and told me something. He's such a cute little kid.
Shar¡'s mom was at home so we didn't want to go there so soon. I didn't want to risk getting killed in that area any longer so I suggested USF. There was nothing! No cool places to hang out at night just to park like in Gainesville. What a shitty place. The dorms look like a prison, all the same shape and color. It was gross! I told her that I have two dollars so we could run into Steak and Shake and get a milkshake. I then said, `Oh...,' with a big smile on my face and she quickly caught on that she had already spent those two dollars. It was funny. We then were joking about really running into the store, right through the windows. It was hilarious the way I kept going on and she was really laughing. That was really cool. We had been joking all night about hallucinating and seeing things that aren't really there. That was really funny, too. I stopped at the ATM and took out some money and we went to the drive through. The shake was smaller than if we had gone inside and we joked that we were going to ask him if we could run inside and get a bigger one instead!
We drove to the back of the parking lot and laughed that we finally can park somewhere safe because we are customers. We parked facing the restaurant so we could keep an eye on any people around us. Cord woke up right then and was fussing so she took him from the car seat and put him on her lap to sleep. We talked quite a bit and started getting really silly as we got more and more tired. It was really cool! We were making each other laugh quite a bit. We were also talking really seriously some of the times. She couldn't come to me to kiss because of Cord so she had to wait until I did so. She was looking at me with those gorgeous eyes. I leant over and kissed her. We started making out for a little while and were really getting our tongue's way into it. It made me realize how lacking Nicole was because she has such a short tongue!
We stopped once and were talking a little more. She asked me if I had every gone out with someone with a kid before. I said no, but I was enjoying it, especially if the kid's as cute as Cord. She admitted that Cord really tamed her down and I told her I figured that when she first told me that day at Busch Gardens. It is a different experience. It shows me so much maturity, though, which is what I think I really like. She seems oh so much older than eighteen. She's been breaking out a little bit lately. I told her it's because she keeps touching her face. Christina told her she's glad, because maybe that'll make me stop going out with her. We laughed. She told me her birthday was on June 18th. She's a really young eighteen!
We then started making out again. At about 1:30 I drove her home with Cord passed out on her lap. We talked about doing something tomorrow. We then quietly snuck the stuff inside because her grandfather was asleep on the couch. She whispered that she'll call me and we said goodbye. I really like her a lot!
Tuesday, June 29, 1993
June 29, 1993 - Tuesday - Compatible with Kimmeth?
I was rudely awakened last night at eleven o'clock from really deep sleep. Now that I think about I had no idea why mother came into my room. She finally got it through my head that Kimmeth was on the phone! She's still in Jim and Tiffany's old apartment. She's been going out a little bit, to movies by herself and a few bars, but not very much. She told me about guys that hit on her but she would have nothing to do with. She's also still at the job she had just gotten when we talked last time. We talked until almost twelve-thirty and both had tons of stuff to tell each other. We never did run out of things to say and break down into that philosophical blabber that we sometimes do.
She was joking about wondering where she's going to move off to this time when she's saved up enough money. I then asked her where she's going to take me. She told me that I have to come down to Ft. Lauderdale first for a `compatibility test!' Gladly! We were talking about moving off to Europe somewhere. Kostas had just recently told me to say hello to Kim for him, so I did. She told me that she really wants me to take a weekend off soon and come down to see her. It was really great to hear from her, and I loved the way we were talking to each other as we were closing up. It was obvious that we both really wanted to talk to each other so much more, but it was late and we were both tired. We've learned to hang up a little quicker than we used to be able to, fortunately.
I also had a little realization today. I remember being a little perturbed about her `infatuations' over Stuart and even Andy. I realized that Kimmeth is my biggest infatuation, but another girl could come along that I could love just as much and go out with. The same is true for her, and with that, most of my jealousy involving Kim flew out the window. Hurrah.
I worked on the Kumba today, but didn't have to be there until 3:15. I went to the lounge a little bit early and brought a drink. I said hello to Sean and August. I also talked with Dayanara. Their table was full so I sat right behind them as James came in. HE asked me how the rest of my evening at Questor was. I told him I had a great time. I said that I really liked that girl, Linda, who came in when he left. He knew exactly who I was talking about, because he dated her for a little while!!! He said that I was right about her wearing blue contacts, although her eyes are a light blue-green. He asked me if I really liked her and then said that he'd put in a good word for me tonight because he's going to a party that she's helping to throw!!! That's really cool! James is awesome! She went to the Academy of Holy Names and is going to gainesville in the Fall!!! Oh the possibilities!
After James left, Karim came in all dressed up nice. She had just taken her Senior pictures for her yearbook. I found out that she's planing on going to FSU, worthless bitch. I also talked to Terri for a little while and was being all sweet to her. While we were in there, they suddenly received a code two thousand from Kumba. That means the ride has stopped and people are on the ride. It turns out that one coaster kept stopping on the upper break. Every time the mechanic would get the thing going again, we would all pray that it would stop again, and it would! We were shut down for almost an hour and a half! I talked to Martin, Karim, and Bridgette for quite a while at the height stick.
There was a line and we kept talking to the people and convincing them to experience other attractions and come back later. It was fun. I the went down with Karim to the photo shop and talked to both Lori and Laurie. We joked around for quite a long time. I saw Stephanie and made a surprised face and stretched out my arms> She returned the gesture and we hugged. She came and talked to us and we had a good old time making fun of people. Darby and Damien's little sister came in and we ragged on them hard. She's been dubbed a stupid blonde already. When we finally reopened I stayed on the boardwalk until seven o'clock! I was having fun talking to the girls in the food and merchandise shops. I saw Stephen a couple of times and we were looking over these awesome girls. They had slightly unhappy looks on their faces and he asked them what's wrong. One looked at us and said that she was cold! We brushed off the urge and joked that we'd love to warm them up! It was great! I also had these girls just up and say hi when I passed by them on a bench. I wasn't really paying attention and it took me by surprise.
I leant Stephanie fifty cents later on. I had to change a dollar at the gift shop and the girl said that I owe her now. She was rather ugly and Stephanie made a boy-you're-lucky-now sound towards me. We joked that that favor will come back to haunt me! It was funny. I told her that she had to bring me back a swallow, and she did. Good girl. I rode the coaster three times on my break in the front seat as did Tony. He was off, and wanted to ride but needed a bit of encouragement before he'd cut the line with supervisors around. It was no big deal because I had already gotten approval from Jimmy. I had Stephanie take our nametags and she put them all on her shirt. She then climbed up on my harness and was pushing it up and down. She could have been screwing me if that damn harness weren't there! I asked her if she could do that some more and we laughed. We did a track run as soon as I came back from break. Stephanie and I walked down through the Cobra Roll and I showed her how to look for money. She stomped her foot down on the first nickel as I went to pick it up, so I picked up her leg and she gave in. I wasn't really trying, but did find a quarter. She was complaining that she didn't. I worked with Karim in the front of the coaster for the last hour. We talked quite a bit, mainly about being pissed off that upper management let a little kid ride just because he bitched enough. That was fucking stupid. How can they expect us to stick to the rules if they don't, and make it so blatantly obvious. Jimmy said that we could ride on the last coaster. I asked KArim where she wanted to sit, and she said the back. We ran back there and I had to yell at Willie to get out of my seat next to her. I like the front more, and Stephanie agrees with me.
Karim and I walked towards Cobra Roll after our final ride to look for someone's lost Oakley's. He also sent Stephanie with us. She seemed surprised that all three of us were going to the same area. I told her that we can't do a good track run without her! She ran up behind me and jumped on my back, I shifted and grabbed a hold of her legs and carried her a little ways. We then were looking for money again. She said that she wanted one more nickel so she could make a phone call. I looked at the ground and asked her what that is after throwing down the nickel she had stepped on earlier. She asked where and I picked it up and handed it to her. She then realized that I had just thrown it down and started laughing at that. She waited for me to run and get my raincoat at the height stick and then we walked out the back way. We ran into Lori and we all talked as we walked to the parking lot and departed for the evening.
She was joking about wondering where she's going to move off to this time when she's saved up enough money. I then asked her where she's going to take me. She told me that I have to come down to Ft. Lauderdale first for a `compatibility test!' Gladly! We were talking about moving off to Europe somewhere. Kostas had just recently told me to say hello to Kim for him, so I did. She told me that she really wants me to take a weekend off soon and come down to see her. It was really great to hear from her, and I loved the way we were talking to each other as we were closing up. It was obvious that we both really wanted to talk to each other so much more, but it was late and we were both tired. We've learned to hang up a little quicker than we used to be able to, fortunately.
I also had a little realization today. I remember being a little perturbed about her `infatuations' over Stuart and even Andy. I realized that Kimmeth is my biggest infatuation, but another girl could come along that I could love just as much and go out with. The same is true for her, and with that, most of my jealousy involving Kim flew out the window. Hurrah.
I worked on the Kumba today, but didn't have to be there until 3:15. I went to the lounge a little bit early and brought a drink. I said hello to Sean and August. I also talked with Dayanara. Their table was full so I sat right behind them as James came in. HE asked me how the rest of my evening at Questor was. I told him I had a great time. I said that I really liked that girl, Linda, who came in when he left. He knew exactly who I was talking about, because he dated her for a little while!!! He said that I was right about her wearing blue contacts, although her eyes are a light blue-green. He asked me if I really liked her and then said that he'd put in a good word for me tonight because he's going to a party that she's helping to throw!!! That's really cool! James is awesome! She went to the Academy of Holy Names and is going to gainesville in the Fall!!! Oh the possibilities!
After James left, Karim came in all dressed up nice. She had just taken her Senior pictures for her yearbook. I found out that she's planing on going to FSU, worthless bitch. I also talked to Terri for a little while and was being all sweet to her. While we were in there, they suddenly received a code two thousand from Kumba. That means the ride has stopped and people are on the ride. It turns out that one coaster kept stopping on the upper break. Every time the mechanic would get the thing going again, we would all pray that it would stop again, and it would! We were shut down for almost an hour and a half! I talked to Martin, Karim, and Bridgette for quite a while at the height stick.
There was a line and we kept talking to the people and convincing them to experience other attractions and come back later. It was fun. I the went down with Karim to the photo shop and talked to both Lori and Laurie. We joked around for quite a long time. I saw Stephanie and made a surprised face and stretched out my arms> She returned the gesture and we hugged. She came and talked to us and we had a good old time making fun of people. Darby and Damien's little sister came in and we ragged on them hard. She's been dubbed a stupid blonde already. When we finally reopened I stayed on the boardwalk until seven o'clock! I was having fun talking to the girls in the food and merchandise shops. I saw Stephen a couple of times and we were looking over these awesome girls. They had slightly unhappy looks on their faces and he asked them what's wrong. One looked at us and said that she was cold! We brushed off the urge and joked that we'd love to warm them up! It was great! I also had these girls just up and say hi when I passed by them on a bench. I wasn't really paying attention and it took me by surprise.
I leant Stephanie fifty cents later on. I had to change a dollar at the gift shop and the girl said that I owe her now. She was rather ugly and Stephanie made a boy-you're-lucky-now sound towards me. We joked that that favor will come back to haunt me! It was funny. I told her that she had to bring me back a swallow, and she did. Good girl. I rode the coaster three times on my break in the front seat as did Tony. He was off, and wanted to ride but needed a bit of encouragement before he'd cut the line with supervisors around. It was no big deal because I had already gotten approval from Jimmy. I had Stephanie take our nametags and she put them all on her shirt. She then climbed up on my harness and was pushing it up and down. She could have been screwing me if that damn harness weren't there! I asked her if she could do that some more and we laughed. We did a track run as soon as I came back from break. Stephanie and I walked down through the Cobra Roll and I showed her how to look for money. She stomped her foot down on the first nickel as I went to pick it up, so I picked up her leg and she gave in. I wasn't really trying, but did find a quarter. She was complaining that she didn't. I worked with Karim in the front of the coaster for the last hour. We talked quite a bit, mainly about being pissed off that upper management let a little kid ride just because he bitched enough. That was fucking stupid. How can they expect us to stick to the rules if they don't, and make it so blatantly obvious. Jimmy said that we could ride on the last coaster. I asked KArim where she wanted to sit, and she said the back. We ran back there and I had to yell at Willie to get out of my seat next to her. I like the front more, and Stephanie agrees with me.
Karim and I walked towards Cobra Roll after our final ride to look for someone's lost Oakley's. He also sent Stephanie with us. She seemed surprised that all three of us were going to the same area. I told her that we can't do a good track run without her! She ran up behind me and jumped on my back, I shifted and grabbed a hold of her legs and carried her a little ways. We then were looking for money again. She said that she wanted one more nickel so she could make a phone call. I looked at the ground and asked her what that is after throwing down the nickel she had stepped on earlier. She asked where and I picked it up and handed it to her. She then realized that I had just thrown it down and started laughing at that. She waited for me to run and get my raincoat at the height stick and then we walked out the back way. We ran into Lori and we all talked as we walked to the parking lot and departed for the evening.