June 5, 1994 - Sunday - Kristen digs in my pants

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May 23, 1994 - Monday - Kristen's basketball sex

Shari seems to be gone for good this time. I called her up
tonight after getting the answering machine at Ashley's and I left my
name with the guy who answered. It was her brother Chad and he asked if she has called me lately because no one has heard from her for a
week and a half. I was stunned for a few seconds after I hung up and
I could feel my heart pounding in disbelief. I laughed to myself
about how my mother has been telling me to take Shari to small claims court to get my ring back.

I then gave Sarah a call. She got off the other line and started
telling me what has been going on. She just got dumped by this guy
for his real girlfriend whom he had said he was going to dump. They
were then all at Despaparados and she was there and he wouldn't have
anything to do with Sarah. She was about ready to cry and was really
confused about the whole thing. I then told her the story about Shari
and how I felt all along and she was amazed at how similar my
situation was and how I have experienced exactly what she is going
through. She kept saying that over and over while I was telling my
story and was saying that it all seems the same. I told her that guys
can go through that kind of stuff, too, but women don't think we do
and she disagreed that she knows better.

She was asking me how long it took me to get over Shari and I
picked out feelings that were similar to the ones I knew she was
having right then and told her about those. She agreed with a lot of
them. She wa telling me that she needs to find somebody new real
quick and wants it to be someone she can actually talk to and all
that. I wondered to myself if she considers what we're doing
"talking" because most guys aren't nearly as sympathetic as me. I
started telling her things like, if you get desperate enough, make
sure you always remember me! I was also plugging college guys for
being more mature and all that and she agreed that she wants to get
back into that.

I have a way of dragging things out of her that she normally
wouldn't tell a guy. She laughed once and I finally got the story
out. She told me that she will really miss the sex and then she
laughed really hard and wondered why she was telling me this. I just
told her she'll have to find somebody better (me!). She was saying
that she'll miss that part of him a lot. She kept wanting to call him
really bad and then I explained to her why she shouldn't so he won't
get annoyed with her since he obviously wants the other girl. She is
a virgin and has started birth control so I used my magic and without
cutting down the other guy, I explained the facts of life. She kept
saying that she wondered if he was just using her for sex and I told
her that he was probably because this girl wouldn't have sex with him
and now that she will he'll probably stay with her for good. She's
smart and agreed partially with the logic.

She was also saying that it's been a week and a half since she's
had sex and she's used to it weekly so she's going nuts. I told her
how long my hiatus has been, and then said I'll have to start going
over there after work if she needs me. It was funny. I then joked
that she'll have to resort to good old fashioned fingers and she
laughed really hard and said that she's resorted to her fingers on
various occasions but it's just not as good! She then said, at least
she's being honest and we both remarked on how good a trait that is.
I then said that I am picturing her in what she was wearing in
Gainesville using her fingers and she started yelling at me to stop
thinking about her doing that while laughing all the time. It was
great.

We then stated talking about Gainesville and I was telling her
all about how our new dorms will be and she really seemed to like
that and said tat she really wants to go back up there. We were also
reminiscing about her trip up there and she said it was horrible but
I said it was cool because she bought me lunch and we started
laughing about all that. She also said something about olive green
paint and I wondered what the hell she was talking about. I then
realized that she actually remembered how we had been picking through
the paint on the wall and found green and then complimented her on
her good memory. I also told her how I saw Amanda a few weeks ago and
she said that she knows which means they've been talking. I mentioned
Amanda's boyfriend who looks like a little boy and she laughed hard
and agreed perfectly!

I was also telling her about Georgia and the vacation we are
supposed to take up there pretty soon. She pretty much knows about
the area and would love to come along. We were talking about our
schooling as well and I was telling her how there is a doctor in Blue
Ridge who might be looking for a young assistant to take under his
wing. She is starting to be pessimistic about being a dentist and I
told her she can come be a nurse for me and she laughed. I then
changed it to she can be a partner and she liked that.

She had cheered up dramatically and she had said that I make her
laugh which is really good. She had said that she'll probably cry
about it when she goes to bed and has dead time just to think about
it. She then said that she doesn't like to cry in an extremely cute
little voice and I laughed and she said it a few more times. I
started laughing and told her that she could be in a no-tears shampoo
commercial and that was really funny. I ended our call although she
wanted to talk to me some more just because she has a habit of
sometimes cutting off our calls in midstream because of another call
and I didn't want to push my luck.

I did tell her if she needs to talk anymore to feel free to call
and she almost seemed surprised that I said that. She asked if I
meant it and then reminded me that I have volunteered if she does
start crying to me. It was cute. I told her I always play the
psychiatrist and then said it always good to take advantage of a girl
just after a break up and then we both laughed as I said I am just
being honest. That was a really cool talk.

I then tried calling Ashley again and she was home. She laughed
that she was thinking about me today and wondered if the bozo would
call or not and that she was going to wait for me to since my mom
says she calls too much! We laughed. She then told me what had
happened over the weekend. There is this big field out in Brandon
where all of the kids hang out on the weekends and on Friday night a
guy there pulled a gun and shot and killed one guy and injured two
others. The past was of the Martinez family who are extremely close
to Daniel Vargas' family so she was with them all weekend. Daniel is
on his way home as we spoke to attend the wake and the funeral with
her.

She then said that she has to do all of this and then go to
Jana's wedding this weekend. I told her to say hello to Laura for me
and to give my best to Jana and Jamey. She then told me that he mom
and Grandma are on a two week vacation to Hawaii and then her mom and
dad are going to play golf at Saddlebrook when she gets back. Must be
nice. She also told me that it was Daniel's little sister's
eighteenth birthday on Saturday as well which was basically ruined.
She also told me that she has heard of Erin Wilcox, but doesn't know
why, perhaps she also went to her church nativity. We talked a little
while longer before getting off the phone because I was getting tired
and have to go to work in the morning.

I've started having a wild time with Kristen. It started on
Saturday night at Chris' party which wasn't that great. I arrived
before he even did and the thing didn't start until an hour later
than it was supposed to. I helped them set up and met his two
Jamaican roommates, Francis and Ed. Some cool people started showing
up and I actually held a conversation with Debbie from Congo Rides.
I've known her since I worked at Flume and pooled at the bumper cars
once. That was cool. They finally brought a keg of Ice Draft and I
downed four small glasses pretty quickly. Kerri was there in a cool
black lace top and I talked to her for a few minutes. She brought her
sister and I asked for a show of animals which I got. It was quite
amusing. She has a dorky little boyfriend and I was extremely
unimpressed.

I had these two girls that were really cute try to get me to
join in and dance with them but I really wasn't in the mood. I also
kept talking to Karen all night which was cool. I also ran into her
on lunch in the breakroom and she talked to me about her and Ryan's
problems like I was her best friend or something. I am really glad I
brought her that one cup of ice water and get to know her before she
transferred to Congo because we probably would have never met then.

Finally Kristen showed up with her friend Julie form Beatty
Towers [snip]. She doesn't drink much if at all and also is
a people watcher who likes to hang out in a corner. I told her at
work today that I have only had a buzz once in my life and really
don't drink that much, if an effort to similarize myself to her. We
ended up joking around and hanging on each other, constantly
touching, all night long. I had a great time and made some perverted
jokes that she loved. They split at around midnight and I left about
fifteen minutes later after talking with Kevin and Mike for a few
minutes. I saw Dayanara once and she was with a guy but she gave me a
really surprised look when she figured out it was me.

Chris and I had partially been making fun of Kristen while we
were on the platform, although it was mainly him but I was laughing,
too. Fortunately I had an opportunity to make up with her as we were
both unloading for the last two hours. There were no supervisors
around and thus we played the entire time. It was cool because we
were doing so in front of people such as Lisa, Shannon's friend, and
Randy. I was making her laugh and crumple over hysterically quite
often and I liked that.

We were talking about sex quite often and it got extremely
interesting. The highlight of the evening was when we made a joke
about Ronnie and she said something about him joking about sex all of
the time. I asked if I didn't and she told me that I joke a lot
differently than Ronnie does implying that I am more mature and
probably sensuous about the way I do it. I told her that I got over
the phase he is in when I was in junior high and she liked that. I
joke around in a way that spotlights the girl I'm talking to and not
myself, and don't make it obvious that I'm hitting on them like he
does.

It partially started because I kept saying things that could be
taken completely seriously or extremely pervertedly and she learned
quick to do the later, sometimes to my surprise. It was amazing. She
then was trying to make baskets with the guests' basketballs, both
real and plush. She could make the soft ones in, but the hard ones
kept bouncing out. I commented that she's OK with the soft ones but
still needs practice with the hard ones and she loved that. I then
was explaining that sometimes even a hard one doesn't want to just
get tossed in right away, it too needs a little extra encouragement
and so forth. It was great!

At one point she was hugging one of the poles waiting for the
next coaster and looking at me really sensuously. I told her that
she's pretty affectionate with the pole and said it's because she
likes to hold on to things that are big referring to cuddling with a
guy rather than a penis but she took it wrong. We both really seemed
to be having a lot of fun. One of my favorite parts is that all of
this involves a lot of soft yet physical touching of each other and
we both are completely comfortable with doing so. We also will look
at each other extremely sensual and will sometimes have our faces
only inches apart. It's awesome!

She then got serious and was asking how much do I think she
actually knows. I told her that I don't know her that well but she's a
smart person and I know that I know she can figure a lot out on her
own. She then said that she can, but she still has a lot of
questions. I said that she can ask me anything she'd like whenever
she needs to and I'll try to explain them in terms of soft and hard
basketballs as best as possible, but she said not all things can be
explained with them......... I like her.

I also had a lot of fun hitting on Jennifer Sheppard on Sunday.
She just broke up with some guy but likes another who works on the
train. I was trying to convince her over to my side for a long time
and had her hanging all over me, too.

There was also the little girls today. One group of older ones
kept calling my name every time they went by and called me over to
the Bumper Cars' queue when I was walking to lunch. There was another
little group. One of the girls rode a few times before taking off her
shirt revealing her bikini top. I smiled and cheered and said how
happy I was because she was undressing and she laughed and told all
of her friends! Another of the little girls also complimented me on
my eyes!

And today was Cathleen's ninth birthday!!!

May 11, 1994 - Wednesday - Bank of Melissa, Kristen

What!!!??? Good. I swore I heard the phone ring as I started
typing this. There was a good song on the radio and I'm really not in
the mood to listen to anybody blab right now. It could just be a
chord in the song that sounds like the phone. It's always a pain in
Gainesville when I'm playing the stereo really loud and a song comes
on that every few seconds sounds like our faint little phone is
ringing.

Ashley called me back this evening as she had promised. She had
actually called earlier and told Chrissy that she'd call back. They
wanted to know why she keeps calling me and figured that she was
calling me to tell me to leave her alone. Cute. She told me that she
had called the honors department up in Gainesville. They said that
the specific requirements about biology weren't mentioned in our
course guide which is the bible according to the year you entered.
That may turn out to be really cool, I'll have to see. We then
chatted for a little while and she told me how she almost got in an
accident today on the way home from work that scared her into about
twenty minutes of numbness afterwards.

I arrived early to work and waited for Shannon to show up and
she looked at me when I said hello but just walked right on by. I
waited a few minutes to follow her and found her sitting on a bench
on boardwalk. I just realized that perhaps the sun was in her eyes
and she didn't see me because she wouldn't have really been looking
for me. I wish. I sat down with her and commented on how horribly
tired she looks and she said that she actually got too much sleep
last night, for she went to bed at nine and got up at a quarter til
seven. We sat there and the sun felt damn good. I had just closed my
eyes and leant back as she was saying that and I full agreed and wish
I could have been naked on a beach with her somewhere.

Kristen and I got along well all day long today. We chatted
briefly early in the day and eventually Ronnie and I worked across
from her on the platform. Ronnie and I were being very sexist and
were joking that we had better be careful so we don't get charged
with sexual harassment. There was this one GORGEOUS girl with the
perfect tan and the nicest breasts who had an earring loop through
her eyelid. We were also making rather perverted remarks to and about
Kristen. One time Ronnie and I were laughing pretty hard and she
wanted to know what we were saying. He said that it's just guy talk
and that we don't need her so she smiled and pouted and walked back
up to her position. I called for her to come back saying that maybe
Ronnie doesn't need her but I sure as hell do. I then told him she'll
be back and he laughed and said that you have to treat them like shit
to get them to keep coming back. That was funny. He then wondered why
they think they're the smarter sex!

Kristen came back the very next ride and I told her that we knew
that she would. It was cute. Ronnie was wise to put out a disclaimer
that we were teasing her because she works with us and were flirting
with the guests, just so she wouldn't get upset and think we were
genuinely being mean towards her. He was talking about all of the
things she could go and use on her boyfriend this weekend, mainly
strawberry lotion. I found out that he lives in Starke where the
state prison is and I asked her how soon until he gets fried. Ronnie
was mentioning other tasty lubricants and finally said baby oil. I
quickly corrected him and said that one leaves a bad taste on your
tongue and he cracked up and she made a look of disgust. It was
pretty funny.

We also were talking about Busch Gardens dress code because she
only had the top button of her shirt undone. I told her it was
against the dress code to have her shirt buttoned up that high and
she must undo another one. I then said that it is illegal not to look
comfortable in front of the guests. Ronnie thought that was great but
we could never convince her to unbutton her shirt. Kristen threw a
guests's cap one time to Ronnie and the brim made a thunk as it hit
Ronnie in the head and she and I started cracking up. I told her that
rules out playing frisbee with her up in gainesville and she said
that she was aiming for his head so we still can.

Later on I was heading out to break and Kristen waited up for
me. She was relieving Jamey for his break and she laughed and pulled
my sleeve to get me closer and told me that this is payback for what
Ronnie and I were saying. Cute. I then had the upmost fortune of
listening to Jamey blab for fifteen minutes. I later took height
stick and Kristen kept coming up and talking to me for rather long
periods of time which was cool. We then had to do a final track run
for the night and she has never done one so she called out for me to
wait up and said that she was coming with me. We each found a little
bit of money. Part of the trip included hopping off of a four foot
wall and she told me to come back and put her hands on my shoulders
and I put my hands on her sides as I lifted her down. That was cute.
We then walked to our cars together and talked a little bit more
about Gainesville.

Ryan was being rather funny today as well. He came up to those
of us on platform in the morning and told us that there are some VIPs
in the park so if we see anybody in white shirts and ties, then we
need to look like were about ready to have an orgasm! He also came
out and pointed out a woman with huge "titties" to me on boardwalk
and told me to go check her out. I told him we had seen her before
and had been joking to Ronnie that each one was bigger than my head!

Shannon was kind enough to let me park patrol in the morning
even though she had wanted to. I told her I was kind of planning on
it because I forgot my breakfast money. I promised to buy her a drink
if I found enough change and she said not to worry about it because
she raided Dick's wallet this morning. Later on we were all up on
boardwalk talking and she told me to get the earring out of my ear
and I asked her if the park was open yet and Jimmy kind of laughed
and I had gotten my point across. She was then making fun of me and I
asked her what she had said since she has called every other guy with
an earring a faggot. She said she was just making fun of my hoopy
loop and does so because she doesn't really like earrings on guys,
and then said it is nothing personal. She also said that she doesn't
like long hair, she likes her guys plain. That really surprised me
and I suddenly realized that I had been stereotyping her against
Shar¡. But maybe she is like Shar¡, just older. I'll just have to
wait and see how Shar¡ turns out when she grows up.

Shannon made Jamey wait for me so we could all go on break and
she bragged that they had even waited for me and I thanked them
graciously. It was funny. I was in panel later on when Jimmy was
filling out the break schedule. He had Jamey's name under mine and I
asked if Shannon's shouldn't be before him. He laughed and said that
I am definitely right, since Jamey did come in late for work, thus he
scheduled it so Shannon and I could go together, however he thought
he was just fixing it so I wouldn't have to go with Jamey. Shannon
and I were talking earlier and she had hoped that she doesn't have to
eat with fat boy, and after I said I wanted to eat with Melissa, she
looked at me funny and I admitted that I'd much rather eat with her.

Well, Jimmy, not knowing his error, sent me with Melissa, which
worked out because I suddenly realized I had forgotten my wallet so
she drove us to Wendy's and spotted me, and then told me every detail
of her up and coming wedding.

May 7, 1994 - Saturday - Shari was home!, Ashley

I know now that Shar¡ truly is a thing of the past. Could it be
because I talked to her for the first time since spring break a
little while ago, and had a decent friendly conversation, and the
excitement of meeting Shannon and relaying such a event to my journal
far outshone any thoughts about my old slut. I could have used the
word cunt as well, but both words are used as completely meaningless
in my attitude towards her now. I called her and she was finally
home, or at least she answered the phone because she was on the phone
with her dad. She quickly called me back but we didn't talk for too
long. She has Cord for the weekend and she put him on for a few
minutes and was then bragging about how well he is talking and doing,
despite him living with two deafs. She said that she got a job at the
Firestation as a waitress for a couple of weeks but quit.

I quickly told her I got her message a couple of weeks ago but
knew I was coming home and thus waited so I wouldn't have to pay to
talk to her. She was surprised that I am already working at Busch
Gardens and bitched when she realized I had been home for a week and
was only now calling her. She was glad to find out that Christina was
fired or "laid off" because everybody hates her rather than an
abundance of people existed. Christina got kicked out of her house by
her mom because she found a joint in her room and is now under pretty
strict quarantine by her dad which erases her from the picture.

She remembered that I had exams and seemed happy that I had done
so well. She gave me her beeper number: 226-9477, since I always
bitch that she is never home, and won't leave a message on her
machine. I told her to call me sometime because she knows where I am
and we said see ya.

I called Ashley on Wednesday night like I was supposed to and we
caught up kind of quick. She ended up never going out that Friday
night after her exams because she was entirely exhausted. That after
she had been saying all week how she was going to get trashed. She
said that she ended up just staring at the walls forever before
finally just passing out. She kind of likes her work and all and was
glad to hear that I got Kumba like I so dearly wanted. She was
babysitting five kids because her parents were throwing a dinner
party so she said she'd call me back on Thursday, or if she didn't it
meant she lost my number and to call her on Friday.

Well, she didn't but I decided to wait until Sunday because I
was exhausted. I worked this morning for a couple of hours moving
super heavy tables after a night function last night. I worked with
Chris, and Brian and Ryan took the other half. Puny Ronnie did the
chairs. We worked our asses off but finished pretty quick. Chris and
I then flirted with girls and rode the Kumba once after I shook hands
with Jennifer, met a couple of new girls, and said hi to Nilsa whom I
had talked to for quite a while yesterday about school and all which
was cool. We then headed out.

I had wanted to go trade my shorts in for a smaller pair, and go
to Adventure Island, but I was exhausted and just wanted to come home
and sleep and finish these journals before everything gets lost. What
was cool was when the phone rang, and Ashley was the voice who
answered back. She was surprised because I picked up the phone before
she even heard it ring because I was right there. We talked about
work and she said that Laura loves me for not telling Ronnie she
really was home for a few days. We then talked about grades and she
ended up with a B+ in religion that she was so worried about and I
congratulated her. She called me names because she only made a 3.56
but she has fifteen credits and thus made Dean's List.

I had to eat and I laughed because she always calls when I'm
getting ready to eat, so she concluded that I must eat all of the
time. I soon called her back but we didn't talk too long because she
was going to work out with her mother. she told me that sometime when
I have a weekend off we really have to go to the Dali museum which is
cool. She also said that she got a letter and card from Daniel and he
said some really sweet things in it that made her cry. I'm really
happy for her (but I can't explain why)! She did tell me how she had
gone to Daniel's house on Thursday because his dad had bitched at her
for not visiting them all week since she had been home. she then had
to bring Tisha to her house to work on scholarship applications
because her typewriter had broken. At 10:30 she remembered me and
said shit, she was supposed to call Dan, but didn't want to call so
late. I did tell her that she can call here any time until midnight
if she'd like because the phone's on my end of the house. We soon
said goodbye. She's such a sweetheart!!!

I've seen a lot of people I know at Busch in the past few days.
It's cool when I'm with somebody and everybody keeps saying hi to me.
It happened when I was with Shannon. Dave in food service, Karen from
the gift shops, and so forth. There were a ton of them and I felt
really special. It was a cool way for her to see right off that I am
accepted pretty much and well known which might have influenced her
opening up to me, at least subconsciously. It also happened when I
was walking around with Brian which was cool. I saw Sue Conefry and
her family the other day and said hi and she recognized me even
without hair. It's cool that we finally get along after all of these
years. I also was at control panel and heard someone screaming my
name and it was Amanda, Sarah's friend, but she was with her
boyfriend and another girl, but she looked much better now that she's
"developing."

April 23, 1994 - Saturday - Ashley up a tree, ESP

It's been another fun filled Saturday night cracking the books, and yet another night of imperviously searching for a place where we ARE allowed to study on campus for the upcoming final exams. It seems quite ridiculous that we get kicked out of the buildings before midnight and the libraries at one. Why not have the two security guards that stand outside of Turlington's elevator making sure that nobody gets in do something constructive, like watch over the rooms while students are studying in them if all they're worried about is us vandalizing the building. However, if their concern is the concentration of students late at night to prevent lonely wanderers from becoming easy targets for crime, then I respect that. That aspect finally became apparent to me last night as for the first time, the guard asked Ashley and I if we would like for him to call an escort for us to get home. That's a good policy they've taken in that regard.

I called Ashley this evening after I talked to my mommy and after eating dinner. I was cooking while I was on the phone and heard all about how Chrissy has been eagerly driving my Mustang and that she really likes it. They kept thinking it might upset me but seemed happy that I am open minded and realistic enough to know that the best way to keep my car running is to keep it running! Kostas and Marty then came home and he was yelling and getting in my way and I ended up burning my fried eggs for my sandwich. My mother felt guilty because she said I burned them because I was talking to her. It was funny. Marty felt bad for me and both she and Chris offered me more eggs after I told my mom I was going to starve. I laughed and got off the phone with my mom to eat everything else. I thanked them and said that I just didn't want to take the time to cook anything else because my other food would get cold. The whole ordeal was quite a funny mess.

Anyway, I called Ashley and she told me that she had also just finished eating dinner. I then asked her if she was enjoying winter, for it had rained and turned unseasonably cold and miserable today. She agreed and said that she slept until noon and went outside for the first time just a little while ago. She then said that she had been putting all of next season's football games into her planner. She said that she had noticed my birthday and had just thought about me and realized that she needed to call me, but I called. I could have easily turned it into that conversation where you try to pick up someone by saying that your minds are working and thinking alike. I think that's worked out in every relationship I've ever had, most rememberable was Shar¡'s, and I think it has a lot to do with my extremely good perception that allows me to correctly guess what someone will do or say and then do it myself at the same time.

But since Ashley is falling for Daniel again, I left her alone. There was a little hesitation in our conversation at that point as I think we both realized talking about us was a little awkward. It seemed like after she first told me that she and Daniel were on good terms again, she was not sure how I would react. It was like she had hesitated because she had picked up on my subtle advances when she would talk of possibly moving on with her life. Now that she has seen that I still want to do things with her and we can continue to have fun regardless, things quickly got much better. I'm a little paranoid right now because I left my history of medicine notes with Jessica last night and Ashley said the two of them were busy deciphering them today as Jessica hand copied them. I have a bad habit of writing my true feelings down sometimes in my notes, or doodling someone's name for nor real reason, and I hoped I didn't write anything truly offensive.

Ashley called me yesterday and asked what I was doing for the evening. She then said she decided to study and wanted to know if I wanted to come along, otherwise she'd just go to the house. I said of course, and I soon headed down to her room. Jessica answered. We are always polite to each other but rarely talk, including in class. We did however on Thursday morning even though it was only about the exam, but we did walk out together. I brought up the class last night and we started talking about it in her room while Ashley was quickly cleaning up and getting ready. I was completely oblivious to Ashley as I became more and more amazed at the length of Jessica and my conversation. She ended up letting me borrow her Freud book for the night that I had yet to obtain or read. That was cool so I gave her my notes. I just loved seeing her tell me a story with a big smile on her face and a bit of excitement in her voice. I love that more than anything. I'll call it a social high from listening.

Ashley and I stopped by the fine arts building first to drop off some books at the library and there were a lot of freaks out there doing some strange presentations with multimedia and art. I wondered where Timothy Leary was hiding! It was really scary and we walked around looking at it. We also looked a a big display case of art reprints and I recognized a lot of them and felt special. She really likes Salvidor Dali and I really want to go to the museum in St. Pete now. I was talking to Jana today in art class about him because our teacher showed us one of his works. Some gorgeous chick named Ashley sat next to me in class and we both made sarcastic remarks every once in a while and we were crossing our legs way into each others' space. We also kept looking at each other while the other was looking partially away, but we knew. It really seemed like she was flirting back quite a bit. I looked at her name as she signed the roll, and she watched me sign mine as well. It was quite funny.

Ashley and I then went to Turlington and the conference room was open. We talked for a long time and joked around quite a bit. I even treated us to a soft drink for the caffeine during our study session. four hours later we were kicked out. We had a lot of energy at the time so we decided to head over to one of the two buildings where socialized late night studying existed. We talked a lot on the way over. We then wandered around Matherly looking at all of the full classrooms. She didn't want to go to the auditorium because we can't talk in there. We then broke into Bryan Hall which is very nice but all of the interior doors were locked. We joked that we were taking the middle of the night campus tour.

We finally went to the plaza in front of Criser Hall because even though it is outside, and it was midnight, it seemed brighter than day because of the intense white lights. We each sat on the wide brick railing that lines these big outdoor stairs and studied. I thought it was the funnies thing in the world and wondered out loud how few people have ever done this. I finished outlining an eight hundred page book in one night and then decided we could leave sometime before two.

We stopped to read the base of the statue because we had wondered who it was. It is Albert McCarthy, whom we think is the first president of UF. It was put up in 1946! We both thought it was neat that Albert the Alligator, our mascot, was named after the first president. There was white paint on his crotch where somebody had defaced him and she stood up on the base and touched it to see what it was. I laughed and said that would be a perfect picture! We then walked home and were talking and laughing about all of the weird things we kept seeing. We came to a giant oak tree in the middle of a field on the way home (we were no longer using sidewalks or roads). We were talking about how easy it would be to climb it, so she tried and we had a good laugh. I like Ashley. Smile.

April 19, 1994 - Tuesday - Ashley, off limits again

Daniel showed up and stayed for over three hours. Ashley got the encouraging talk she has long been waiting for. Ashley is off limits once again... I'm happy for her though because this will help her get through her exams far better than the reverse would have. This will also keep her attached all summer I'm hoping and prevent her from starting to date anybody new while we're home. Hey, I'm being optimistic! It's the only healthy thing to do. I truly am happy for her because she is happy and it's the first time I have felt like this for someone I have feelings for. Now our friendship can continue to grow.

I stayed home tonight just in case she came out of all this upset and needed me to be here. I organized all of my class notes so I can study most effectively now before my exams. I wondered whether or not she would call me even if things did turn out right for her. As it passed eleven I gave up on that idea. There was a floor meeting at nine and I had thought about meeting Jon down there. I got absorbed in my organizing and time slipped away from me. When Jon came upstairs he told me that I missed out because Ashley was down there with all of his roommates. He later told me that she had seemed rather happy when she enthusiastically said hi to him.

At eleven thirty her call came and I was quite relieved to hear her voice. She burned me on why I didn't come to the floor meeting and accused me of not wanting to see her. On the contrary... I then told her what had happened in chemistry lab before she started her story about what had happened. He actually paid his friend to take off and have dinner. That was cool. She was happy at the outcome of the whole thing but it seemed like she was hesitating at first about telling me what was up to make just I didn't get hurt by it, just in case... She joked later that she's finally not bitching to me and apologized for bitching so much for so long. I told her that I don't see it as that. I see it as the two of us talking to each other, conversing, and she thanked me for that a couple of times. I did also tell her that I stayed home for her just in case.

Roswitha soon showed up from studying downstairs and called her mommy. Today is her birthday and she bragged that one of Ed's roommates had baked her a cake with M&Ms all over it. That was cool. I also had the chance to talk to Eva from the tubing trip again today. She was waiting with me for the elevator and I provoked a conversation out of her about finals and all that. That was cool.

Earlier today I walked into lab fully prepared to tackle the extra credit unknowns to try and get enough points to make an A without the final or at least to ease the amount I need to get on the final. Today was locker check out and I chatted with the coordinator of lab for a second which is cool. I then ran around and found all of the extra test tubes and vials form all of the previous lab sections because those are always the most valuable possessions at the end because everybody, including myself, breaks them through the semester. I ended up with extras which meant I didn't have to pay thus I was very happy.

Greg, our teacher, then walked in and called me by name and asked if I was ready to get out of there. I told him I still have to do an unknown to raise my points. He then surprised the fuck out of me by saying that he thinks I already have an A!!!!!!!!! He then showed me in the grade book how I have 914.5 and all you need is 900. There was an A already penciled in next to that number and he told me to get my ass out of there! To suddenly go from knowing you have to do an unknown, one of the most dreaded experiences of lab, to not, it causes an amazing elation. All I use to hear last year was how unknowns sucked and I saw how depressed they were after doing one. I actually found them challenging and fun. I also love the chemistry department now and bragged about how my chemistry teacher did me right.

After telling Chris that I love the chemistry department, and yesterday telling him how I'm not looking forward to this semester ending, he must think I'm nuts! I've just been having too much fun. I like laying out at the pool, I've been getting great mental satisfaction through all of my studying, and have been enjoying my freedom lately.

April 18, 1994 - Monday - Ashley comes up to talk

Let me try this journal thing again... last time Kostas called just as I started and invited me out to study in CSE and I met him out there a few minutes later. I only stayed for a little over an hour because I had initially brushed tonight off as a no study night anyway because of all of the other shit I needed to take care of. I ended up getting everything done today: from going to classes, laying out, going to Shands, taking a nap, baking a cake, watching Jeopardy, talking to Ashley for an hour and so forth with plenty of time to spare. I was rather impressed by my successful time management.

I baked my last chocolate cake of the semester because tomorrow is Roswitha's twenty-first birthday. I was originally going to make it over the weekend but I figured this would be far more special since she always very graciously helps me eat my chocolate cake because she loves it so much. I the spelled out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSWITHA" with mini M&Ms and then outlined the letters with chocolate frosting to make them stand out. It turned out rather nicely and I'm sure my effort will be very much appreciated and recognized.

I finished watching Jeopardy with Ed and Roswitha and had debated whether or not to head straight down to the library with them or to wait for a while {in case Ashley calls}. I actually had that thought but greatly doubted its occurrence and it was only fleeting. Ed was in a hurry as usual and I wasn't dressed so I decided to wait a while to start studying and to decorate the cake while Roswitha was downstairs. Minutes after they left, Ashley called!!!

She asked me if she could come over and she sounded pretty upset. I started to ask why but I very quickly changed it to a yes and to go ahead. She asked if I was sure and I said of course. She was soon in my room and looked rather nice because she was still dressed from dinner at the house. She leant against the counter where I was sitting on my stool and I could tell that this was going to take a while so I told her to sit down and we assumed the normal position facing each other. I left the door propped wide open in case any curious neighbors wanted to find out that I did indeed have Ashley in my room again.

She started out by telling me that she had gone to Walmart last night to buy some stuff for Laura since she is her guardian angel for Alpha Chi Omega. She then went over to a good friend of hers named Kevin. Only when she returned home did she discover that Daniel had dropped by last night for about twenty minutes to see her before taking off for Tampa!!! That would have been the first time they have seen each other in two and a half months.

She then had just talked on the phone with him for a while and was telling them that they really need to talk tomorrow when he comes by to see her. He was complaining that he'll be with his friend and doesn't want to make him wait. That really pissed off Ashley because he has been avoiding talking to her seriously now for a long time and said that his friend is grown and can find something to do for the hour they need together. He asked her if she was getting pissed and soon said he has to go. She told him that she loves him. He then said bye and hung up!!! That really upset her and she almost cried.

He had been asking her earlier if she has found a new boyfriend yet and so forth and was being a real dick. It parallels the way I treated Leigh Anne so much and I told Ashley that. It really seems like he's brushing her off way too much. She's finally starting to see that and said that if things don't work out tomorrow she's really going to start thinking about dropping him for good and getting on with her life. She mentioned that numerous times. He just treats her like worthless shit and Ashley deserves so much more than that. HEr mom didn't help her situation either because she doesn't much like Daniel anymore and was asking why she wanted to see him for anyway and was glad she didn't see him last night. All this with exams coming up.

She was really hurting and I know exactly how she feels. She kept saying that she just doesn't know what she's going to do. It's the same completely helpless feeling I had with Shar¡ and as I have discovered, it will finally go away. She has to realize that perhaps they truly aren't going to work out but it will take time. I'm just glad that once again I am someone she turns to first in times like this. I told her as she was getting ready to go that through the week if she ever does study her physics, that she can call me here of find me downstairs any time she wants and I'll help her out. Shar¡ knows I will but she seemed pleased again that I so generously offered my help.

I had been thinking about Saturday night's party and about the people I met through Ashley. I had wanted to mention her sisters to her and how everybody's names just slipped away as quick as I learned them. All I remembered was a "Becky" and the fellow named Casey Taylor. I also had been thinking about the girl drinking water and had realized that she looked like the same girl who came with Ashley when she came to talk to me that day at the reggae festival. I figured I wouldn't get the chance to talk to her about the party because she would be too absorbed by her project that we wouldn't talk during the beginning of the week. I was wrong and since she was here, I inquired and talked to her about such things.

I first asked her about her friend. She said her name is Lisa and she in fact was coming over tonight to do some paper on Ashley's computer. Ashley was on beeper duty tonight and had to stick around her room anyway. She said that Lisa had brought me up and had said that she hoped she hadn't acted like a bitch to me but was sorry if she did. I laughed and told Ashley that I was too worried about trying not to act drunk when I was talking to her to notice, and she returned my humor. I just thought it was funny how that situation turned out because I really was trying as hard as I could even though I was buzzing to try and not do anything stupid to offend her. I remember listening to her complain as to what her friends were doing and how inconsiderate they were being. I agreed with her and I guess she found me acceptable. Cool.

I then asked if there had been a Becky and she said yes. That was this really cute blonde, sensuous with very pretty eyes. I then asked her if she remembered Casey Taylor and told her what I had done for Lisa and how she hadn't known what was going on. It was funny. Ashley apologized and said that she was sorry because she would quite often talk to someone she knows and would only then remember me and introduce me. I told her that I didn't really know the difference because I was buzzing hard and she laughed about that.

I called and talked to Jenn tonight which was the first in a long time and extended our friendship until the beginning of the fall semester at least, which is cool.

April 16, 1994 - Saturday - Best party!, Buzz Buzz!!

April 16, 1994 - Saturday
I received a phone call while I was making dinner tonight and Karen informed me that it is a girl! I got excited and it was a good laugh for Ashley and all of us as well. Ashley and I haven't talked this week because I have been off studying and she has been at the house doing initiation stuff. She said that she was calling just to say hello because nobody is at home with her when I jokingly asked her what she wanted. She asked me if I enjoyed laying out today because she had seen me while she was on the way to the library.

I was cooking black eyed peas, rice, and popcorn bread, and brought that up to her. I then had the profound pleasure of explaining what popcorn bread is. She said she wanted to try it and I told her she probably wouldn't like it plain. We eventually started talking about this project she has to do for art class: create something beautiful. She has the choice of doing a paper instead which is ten pages long and really doesn't want to.

I started suggesting all kinds of things that she knows about and was telling her ways that she could bullshit as to why they are beautiful to her. Any of them could have been pulled off but she's a little bit pessimistic. She thinks she's not that creative and I have been trying to tell her that she is. One idea suggested by the teacher was to plan and prepare a meal and I suggested to try that one because she knows a lot about food. As I made a few suggestions about how to go about it, she got more and more interested in the idea. I told her that I had to go and eat and she quickly said to come down when I am finished if I'd like. That was cool! I gladly said yes and went and ate.

As I left the room, I said goodbye to Jon and Karen and told them that I hope I won't be seeing them in five minutes, because hopefully Ashley will keep me longer than that and they laughed. I carried two pieces of popcorn bread down to Ashley on her advisement just so she could see what it is. She immediately said that she was hungry and asked if she could try it. I told her I wouldn't because it is bland and needs something with it. With that in mind, she ate it, said it was really good and finished off the whole piece. I was surprised. She smelled part of it and said that it does smell like popcorn, which I had noticed earlier at dinner.

I then looked around in the rooms with her just because I haven't rooted down there in a while. We eventually started talking about how she should go about this meal thing. I gave her a lot of ideas and she finally started writing them down just to compile them for later use. That was smart. She then was planning out what she would say and do in the video she would make and quite a few times she really liked my ideas and scratched out hers and wrote down mine. That was cool to see someone else use my ideas word for word. Especially this one time when I thought she wasn't paying attention to me until she wrote down exactly what I had said. That was cool. We both came up with some really good ideas.

She started getting hungry after all of this talk about food and she was asking where you could get a good chicken sandwich. She thought about Chic Filet but it was already eight. I told her that she had plenty of time and then said that I would go with her. She seemed to jump at that and we were soon heading off to the mall.

Once we had gotten home, Ashley asked me if I wanted to go to this big party and I said yes. We were going to walk there in the same tradition that she and Laura had walked there from Tolbert last year. The party was supposedly thrown by the water polo team with seven bands, sixty kegs and so forth. I came upstairs while she showered and got ready. I called Kimmeth while I waited and told her what was up. We only talked for a few minutes because she was heading out to the movies. She told me that he was wondering wether or not I had the common sense to call her or not. She also told me that she was talking about me to a friend last night. He is twenty-six and was debating on whether or not to pick up this seventeen year old he knows. She then told him about her seventeen year old (ME!!!) except that I'm nineteen now. She was saying something about how I taught her how wonderful youngsters can be and I was complimenting her earlier in the same way. When her ride came she came back to the phone and called me honey!!! as she asked me if I'd call her back sometime soon. That was cool!


Welcome to Danland!!! I'm butt assed wasted and love it!!! This
is the first time in my life I've been truly drunk and I owe it all
to Ashley. She knows it too, and knew what she was doing. I think I
went to the same big party the same time last year and it was so much
easier this year because I had a girl getting my beer for me. And it
tasted so good!!! We joked that it was bad that our sole goal for the
night was to fond another keg and get there in time to tap it before
it went dry. Wow. I'm so ready to pass out it's not even funny. My
head is spinning. Nontheless, Ashley and I went and found Ed in the
downstairs library and he convinced us into playing pool. Damn.......
I'm going to sleep now.

The above is not edited for spelling or grammar to catch the pure emotional bliss of the moment. Heh heh

April 12, 1994 - Tuesday - Chemistry is working out

April 12, 1994 - Tuesday
I've been in a good mood but it just seems like I have to force myself to write in my journal for the past few days. It's mostly because I've just been too busy doing things like studying to just sit down and organize my thoughts.

I took my big chemistry exam last night that determined whether or not I have a chance to save my ass in that class. I felt somewhat confident about it after I finished and came home and talked about some of the problems with Chris. I went to class today and sat up front again next to these two really cute girls, one with the awesome dolphin tattoo that I fell in love with last Thursday. I then went and checked my test score and found that I had missed only four and two of them had been from the easier ones. The problems that I had actually gone through and logically reasoned out, I got right! Cool. That put me in a good mood and I was looking at the total scores needed for each grade with the girl sitting next to me.

I then went to lab and prepared for my unknowns. Our teacher put up a correct scheme on the board which was awesome and then handed us back our schemes. Mine was essentially correct and I was the first to be on my way. The guy behind the cabinet told me that I'm going to miss all of mine and I looked at him funny and he laughed. I figured I got the hardest ones and he said that the colors can be confusing. Well fuck him because I ended up getting mine entirely right except I substituted HSO4(-) for SO4(2-) incorrectly which was a very minor mistake. My teacher said I did a really good job and helped me figure out my grade and I am reasonably close to having an A for the semester.

Considering one of my unknowns looked like soft mint gel Crest, I was very pleased with myself. I also went through an extremely unsystematic way of determining my unknowns that only a brain as logical and able to construct truth tables accurately could do. I probably couldn't explain what I had done if I tried. All I know is that all of my personal tests wove together and gave me the right answers in the end, and that's all that matters! I even spoke at the gorgeous girl who looks like Shar¡! I was very happy on my trip home!

Ashley just called me a little while ago and we caught up since we haven't talked since Saturday when we studied. She's been at her house a lot because of initiations and her studying for her physics exam today. She said that she's maybe been home for two hours in the past three days. When she got home tonight she said that she called her mommy and daddy and then called me, which is cool because that gives me a feeling of importance. I really like her.

April 5, 1994 - Tuesday - Easter cake a success!

I'm having a sudden academic rush just like I got back in high school when reality hit me that I could become valedictorian. I knew it would come sooner or later and I think this is it. I've gone to all of my classes for the past two weeks and have stayed awake and paId full attention taking elaborate notes in all of them. I even went to Chris' organic chemistry class today just to get an idea of what is in store for me. I actually was interested in the lecture and followed it better than both Chris and Phil because I explained something to Chris to his surprise when he got confused during the lecture. He even turned to me again later to ask another question but it was review for their test and I couldn't help them. Minh came in and sat next to me and I talked to Karen after class.

I then stayed in the third row for my own chemistry class which was the following period and sat between two decent girls. I was happy.

Jon borrowed my camera on Saturday night to take pictures of Caribsa before the talent show. He returned my camera along with a new roll of film. He picked up the pictures last night after I dropped them off for him earlier in the day. I then picked out the few of them that were mine from the beginning of the roll: spring break with Shar¡... There is a fuzzy one of Shar¡ pulling off her jean shorts at Daytona Beach to change into mine. Then there's one of us holding onto each other once she was in her wet white underwear and I instantly could remember what she looked like naked in the shower that night at Christina's house.

Shar¡ took a couple of pictures in her apartment, one of me which came out decent. Then there is my favorite, one of Shar¡ sitting in my car at night outside her apartment. She is in bum clothes and socks and is smiling beautifully. It's an awesome picture. Chris and I compared the beach pictures with ones of her before and it's amazing how crappy she looks now. I hope that someday I'll be able to show her how bad she got for a while, if she doesn't just continue to get worse. There is one of me at the reggae sunsplash up here that Leigh Anne took. I have a dark tan and really like that picture. I also took one of the dozen roses and mylar balloon bouquet that I gave Ashley for her birthday.

Well, everyone loved my cake. I made sure to disperse this one as wide as I could: Michelle, Aimee, Delisa, Chris, Marty, Jon, Roswitha, Ed and maybe Ashley if any is left. But she has seen it and tasted the other one. Roswitha has enjoyed the both of them so much and had admired my personality enough to offer to make me a cake this weekend. She even asked me what kind I would like. After I said chocolate, of course, she said perhaps she'll make me a German chocolate cake. That would be awesome!!!

Ashley warned me Sunday night that she had a meeting after chapter at Alpha Chi Omega Monday night and that if we did go study, it would be later. She finally called me at ten and said that after she got home, a really good friend of hers from Colorado called whom she hasn't spoken with for nine months. She knows that is perfectly fine with me and for once in my life it is.

I laid out by the pool after art class yesterday and was extremely well rewarded. First came this beautiful girl with Shar¡'s body idealized. She was awesome. She was in a string bikini and the way she was leaning on her elbows to study her chemistry caused the bottoms of her bra to pull way up over her tan line. That's one of the most stimulating sights for me. It raised a good two inches higher than it should have been and you could read how close it was coming to her nipple. AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Then this girl who looked like she was about fifteen came up right next to me to lay out. She was actually older but was just petite. She went and laid on the edge of the pool perpendicular to me and just three feet away from my head. I was on my stomach with my head up and she still came that close. Better yet, she was wearing a midriff THIN cotton WHITE tank top with nothing underneath it. You could see the color of her nipples and the shape and form before she started laying out and then she started sweating!!!!! I could so readily imagine how easily my hands could gently slip up that top and have the times of their lives! I was definitely turned on and wanted so bad to have a camera with me to be able to savor that moment forever.

She also kept looking in my direction. I slid into the pool (yes, the deep end!) right next to her and made sure I was looking in her direction as I popped out of the water only to meet her eyes dead on for she had leant up and was watching me under the water. WOW!!!

Summer commeth!!!

April 3, 1994 - Sunday - Dinner at Chilis, Ashley

I received my best Easter surprise this evening when Ashley gave me a call and asked what's up. I quickly filled her in on everything I have done this weekend and asked the same question of her. She told me that she went and saw Schindler's List and really liked it. I brought up the fact that she signed up for Spanish and she asked how I knew. I told her how I had run into Laura on the way home from Fruit class the other day and we talked for a little while. She then told me the clincher. Daniel got assigned to a special duty that requires him to leave for anywhere from a week to three months to an undisclosed destination where he won't be allowed to call or write anybody! Poor Ashley. Daniel's dad was saying that they are probably going to Korea, or something. Ashley was pretty upset and I could tell she was on the brink of crying. Laura's mom called so she said she'd call me back but I expected her at my door very shortly.

I was in the process of making a special Easter cake for my wonderful next door neighbors. Leigh Anne has a new boyfriend and is in South Carolina tonight which is all the better because I can influence her roommates as much as I want without her influence. As I came upstairs from doing laundry today, their door opened and both Michelle and Aimee called out my name in their long whiny voices like they always do. They asked if I was still going to make them a cake because I had promised them all individually that I would. I said of course after first joking that I didn't have time to. I was only waiting until Michelle could eat some since Passover officially ends at sundown tonight. They then kept coming over every once in a while, especially Aimee, to see how I was doing. They came over together once and I told them I had yet to start and they volunteered again to help me make it. I then opened the refrigerator to show them the fully baked and cooling cake. They were happy and seemed impressed that I had already done everything myself without very much convincing on their part.

Ashley came up as I was decorating the cake and told me that I was doing a really good job. I had used Jon's decorating kit and had squeezed out frosting buttons around the perimeter of the cake and then had used them to form a bunny's head in the middle. I then framed these frosting lines with mini M&M's which came out looking very nice. Ashley told me I should take a picture (I had already planned on it) so I grabbed the camera and aimed with her fully in the picture. She jumped thinking she looked bad and I finally convinced her to at least angle the cake up so I could get a good picture of it.

We then started talking and she was telling me how she really doesn't know what to do or how to think right now. She's really scared which is the main factor in her uncertainty. She also was saying that they haven't been on the best of terms and she's afraid that he doesn't know how much she loves him. We talked and I listened for about an hour. We also were talking about how good it was that we studied so much last week and how we should keep it up. She also told me that as she got ready to walk out the door, Laura asked her where she was going and she said upstairs. She then said that her roommates must think she's a bitch because she walked out on all of them to come and talk to me about her problems. I'm more than happy that she did and does that. She apologized for crying to me so much just as a formality at the end and I told her not to be and that I am always here for her to come to.

When Aimee came home, I called her and let her be the first to see my creation. I knew that this whole idea would impress Aimee the most and it seems to be working. She seemed very excited when she saw it and asked if I had done it all by myself. She said she likes it a lot and also is very impressed because she could never do anything like that. She sat in a chair by me and we talked for a few minutes before she went back to her homework. She did tell me that Delisa had bragged to Leigh Anne that I was making them a cake and Leigh Anne told them to be careful that I don't put anything in it. Delisa then told Leigh Anne that I am making the cake for THEM, and not for HER so they have nothing to worry about!!! Go Delisa!!! Aimee said that Leigh Anne just pouted but it was obvious that Aimee got a real kick out of it. She's really sweet and cute in her own little way that I like a lot.

Cecil showed up for the weekend and we had a Mardi Gras reunion as Kostas, Hector, Dave, Cecil and I all headed out on Friday night to hang with the guys. Marty actually let Chris go out instead of tagging along and "crimping our style." That was very considerate of her. We headed to this reggae dance party at the Orange & Brew with this live band that was really good. There were a lot of fine women there and we sat up on the bar surrounding the dance floor near the speakers. We deafened ourselves as we watched the dancing. I had a really good time especially since it was my first night out in a really long time. I had almost not gone but then figured what the hell as Chris and Cecil talked me into it. We also hit this party out in the Pines Apartments. There were a couple of girls there getting rather wasted that I would have gladly done as the night progressed but the party just wasn't happening so we headed back for more reggae.

Last night Kostas, marty and I convinced Cecil to stay in Gainesville an extra night and attend the VISA international talent show with us. I had gone last year and had a really good time. We got balcony seats for the student rate of fifty cents a piece which I paId for at the beginning. it was a good show and we all had a really good time. We then went to Chili's for dinner and to catch the end of the Final Four Gator basketball semifinal game. We lost to Duke. The night and weekend could have been the party weekend from hell to remember for all time but it instantly turned into a mellow dinner with friends. We did end up having a really good dinner and a good time as well.

I had convinced them into going to Chilis because Chris really disliked Fridays when he and Marty had gone before because of the minute portions of food. I remember liking Chilis because Kimmeth and I used to go there. Chilis serves portions that fill me perfectly and are very (I dare say extremely) delicious. Marty agreed with my choice in full and directed us there. She took the liberty to order drinks and a blooming onion (like Kim and I had) as an appetizer. They then ordered their entrees and I took the unconventional route and ordered another appetizer, the cheese fries which are extra long mozzarella sticks with awesome marinara sauce, and a dessert of carrot cake. I haven't had carrot cake for the longest time and used to love it a lot so I figured I'd give it a try. At first the cheese sticks seemed too few and the piece of cake looked a little boring, but my first opinion was soon shattered. Both were delicious and the cake was awesome!!! and both were very filling.

Chris and Marty had ordered tortillas for two and two Caesar salads. Mart got full quick and offered her salad to me. I'm not too keen on that kind of salad, I'd take a make your own salad bar any day, but this one was really good and I finished the entire thing. I really enjoyed myself. This was perpetuated by the very gorgeous waitress in the short skirt who climbed up on the opposite table to open a shutter before the night was over. We all started in delight because Marty had gone to the restroom. Yum. I kept joking about wanting a second dessert, the waitress! I also kept smiling nicely at her and was very courteous to her when she would do something for me.

We ran into Phil, this snobby friend of Chris' whom both he and Marty thinks has a very disgruntled outlook on life. He was with his father, a friend, his friend's girlfriend, and her friend. The lone girl's name was Maria and she is a younger looking but very pretty young Greek girl. I kept flirting with her and was receiving and reciprocating smiles.

Chris was chatting with Phil's father as we went to say hello on our way out. Their meal was finishing up and the girls were digging in their purses for money to pay their share. They had all been a part of the talent show which was a big event for them, both Phil and his father are extremely well off, and Phil is trying to hook up with Maria. I found it extremely rude and disgusting that they would allow the girls to pay on an evening as such. My respect for both of them plummeted into the depths of hell at that moment and it almost made me sick. The boyfriend had been at the bathroom and upon returning asked her what she was doing and said he was paying for her. That still left Maria open and posed the perfect opportunity for either Phil, especially Phil, to pick up the tab. He didn't although it was obvious he was aware of what was going on.

If I had enough money with me, and I wished so bad that I did despite any financial burden it would have place on me later, I would have paid for her bill in a heartbeat and embarrassed the fucking hell out of Phil! I mentioned that in the car later and both Chris and Marty piped up simultaneously saying that had watched that in the same utter disgust. Phil... you fucked up big time.

He also introduced himself to me at the talent show when he, Marty and I were talking. Both Marty and I said that he should already know me and he was extremely embarrassed. He came up and remembered Cecil at Chilis and I commented to Cecil that at least he remembers him. Especially after what had happened at the end, I refused to said goodbye to Phil leaving him with nothing but a fleeting cold stare. Fucking heartless bastard. Now let me go eat cake with my beautiful neighbors.

March 30, 1994 - Wednesday - CA$H!!!, Shari's letter

March 30, 1994 - Wednesday
Voules vous coucher avec moi se soir?

Are you sleeping with me tonight?

This beautiful little phrase suddenly appeared on the blackboard in Turlington Monday night by the cunning hand of Ashley herself. I of course didn't have a clue as to what it meant and answered yes!!! She laughed and said no and then told me what it means. I thought to myself that my answer was indeed right!

Previously we had been recalling the various ways to say fuck and we came up with one for French, German, and a Hungarian version al la Maryanne. The whole conversation accrued from our negotiations over our schedules for next semester and how we can arrange them to be as similar as possible.



CCCCCC AAAAAA SSSSSS HH HH !! !! !!
CC CC AA AA SS SS HH HH !! !! !!
CC CC AA AA SS SS HH HH !! !! !!
CC AA AA SS HH HH !! !! !!
CC AAAAAAAAAA SSSSS HHHHHHHHHH !! !! !!
CC AA AA SS HH HH !! !! !!
CC CC AA AA SS SS HH HH !! !! !!
CC CC AA AA SS SS HH HH !! !! !!
CCCCCC AA AA SSSSSS HH HH .. .. ..

FINALLY!!!!! Financial aid looks to finally come through!!!

Now to add confusion to such beautiful and estatic times:


Dan, {Sometime around March 1st}

Hey it's me!!!! I finally went and bought some paper and got a
chance to sit down peacefully and write you. It's Sunday night, very
cold and I am sitting in my room writing in candle light burning a
"HOOTER" with Christy. She came over earlier and now her car won't
start, the battery is dead. I have to get up early tomorrow to do
laundry. (ya right) It will get done when I decide to get up. So what
do ya wanna do when you come down for spring break??? Hopefully I'll
have a baithing suite and it's hot enough to go to the beach so you
can get a nice tan and go back to Gainesville looking all hot and
sexy. Wait a minute you are supposed to look all hot and sexy down
here when you're with me. What's up with that shit????!!!! I'll just
look at the picture of you laying in bed all cozzey. I love that
picture it's my favorite one. With a tan you look fine as hell, but
I'll stop so I don't build your ego to much. Christy is sitting here
beging me to go to the store with her. That would mean get out of my
warm spot on the cusion bed that I have, and get out of my warm bed
clothes and go outside out of my warm apt. into the cold and freeze.
I don't think so, you are askeing the wrong chick. That's what I told
her. To top it all off it's 3:20 AM in the morning and I am stoned
and tired. She is sitting here chain smoking saying "Shari put on a
jacket and jeans and go to the store." She says "I'll buy you
anything you want." Anyway I was gonna call you today but I woke up
about 11:00 AM and sat around wakeing up till about 1 PM then I
started cleaning, moping, painting, hanging shit, dishes, any other
constructive thing I could find to do. The only thing I didn't do and
I never do is clean my room. It will get done one day, I went to see
my mom yesterday and she gave me a bunch of shit for me and Cord so it is a total wreck. Hey you know what??? We were comeing down Bush where that Honor bank is and a bunch of cops were there. There was a car with everything open and they were takeing pictures of it. Then later on that night I got home I saw on the news that someone got robed and shot. They were DOA punk!!! Well I am really tired so let me go and give me a call as soon as you get into town. Maybe this spring break you'll get more that you bargain for!!!

Love SharI {heart}
P.S. Write back before you leave okay
Good night Honey {underlined}

Good bye Honey..........

March 26, 1994 - Saturday - Golden Key, NeRF room

So far three people have complimented me on how tan I am getting in the past twenty four hours!!! That's awesome. First it was Marty who arrived last night and then it was Karen who came later on. Our residence advisor, Nick, then commented on it as we were getting onto the elevator. Even better was when I saw Holly getting off of the elevator. Nothing better to cheer me up!, not that I'm down or anything.

I've just come back upstairs from over three hours out at the pool It was an awesome day and I roasted darker than ever. It's awesome. There were all kinds of cute girls out there that kept my attention as I lusted over them. And of course I had to go swimming in the pool to help my blonde highlights along and to keep myself from completely dehydrating. At least they have a water fountain out there and I keep myself full.

Ashley and I had made arrangements to go and study on Wednesday sometime earlier. I just remember that she had asked me and said that she would wait for me to get home from my inductions if I wanted her to. I said yes and she wanted a yes or no answer, and of course I said yes. I just liked the way she subtly demanded an answer out of me and actually got one.

I asked Leigh Anne to tag along to my Golden Key National Honor Society inductions at the University Centre Hotel. We ran into Sherry, the girl that drove us to Mardi Gras on the way to one of our classes and Leigh Anne mentioned that I was being inducted. She sounded all impressed and made a big deal out of it, congratulating me repeatedly. That was pretty cool. I think Leigh Anne was a bit surprised at the compliments and said that I am smarter than I look. Cool, I don't look like the fucking nerd genius that I am. Cool.

I told her she could come along at least to take pictures, to be my photographer and she didn't like that to much. I just wanted company and she was looking forward to making fun of everybody with me. We sat through the rather lame ceremony which was much less impressive than Phi Eta Sigma and that was only a freshman honor society. I was disappointed. At least we got to eat at the stale reception. Susanne Conefry is an officer in the club and we saw each other but never said hi. There were quite a few attractive girls there that I lusted over in front of Leigh Anne which was fun. And of course she was pissed as I ditched her to go study with Ashley, but I don't care.

Ashley was ready to go when I got home and we soon headed out. We were both extremely tired already and were a little more somber than usual but still got a good deal of talking in. We also have been saying how we need to make sure and get the same sections in our classes next semester because we probably will be in three of the same classes!!!!! That will be awesome!!! There's nobody I want more to work with than somebody as emotionally and physically attractive, and intelligent as Ashley to work alongside me.

That morning I had gone back to NeRF to sign up for my room and didn't wake up until eight thirty. I knew I should have gotten up at six again but I didn't really care that much. I figured my name penciled in would save me, or what if it didn't. I kind of wanted to be forced back into Beaty so I'd be close to Ashley. I was number 39 when I got there. I ran into Tom, this guy who lives across the hall from us in Beaty, and he was number one in line. By the way, Jon just told Karen that I write a journal and then st

arted spelling her last name. I joked that I'd tell everybody what a horrible drug addict she is. She frowned. I then changed it to this: Karen is the most wonderful person at USF and is a great influence on everybody at UF when she comes to visit. Jon laughed and said that one got a good response!

Anyway, I waited over an hour and flirted with some awesome girls in the process. It's cool that they will be living in the area, too. There are these two twins that live in Beaty now that I find intriguing. I found out their names are Joanne and Allison and they were born on April fool's day, 1974! That's pretty cool! Better yet, their room is in building five, room 203, and ours is supposed to be room 302 in the same building. Cool! Closeness! A girl was then allowed in front of me just to check on her name and found out she had been bumped and couldn't sign up with her roommate. She got hysterical and really pissed and called her friend and was bitching. That really sucks and made me nervous. To my great relief, my name was still there and I got my room quickly with no problems. They say that the girls' rooms fill up quicker anyway because more of them stay on campus than guys do.

On the walk over I walked through Turlington plaza. I had decided to walk this time to look at every girl I could along the way. I saw this gorgeous blonde sitting near a tree and I went out of my way to walk in front of her just to get a closer look. Suddenly she yelled out my name!!!!! and after overcoming the surprise, I realized it was Christina from my German class that I ran into as Adventure Island. We did some quick catching up before I took off but it was really cool to get a chance to talk to her again. She was the one who use to compliment my eyes all of the time...

On the way home I ran into Jenn and we talked for quite a while. She thinks it's so awesome that my roommates and I are living together again and we thought about what a rare chance it is for us all to get along as well as we have. That's when I realized how truly amazing and rare it is and think it will be cool to tell the story later in life. We've almost become our own little family of sorts. How could you not when you will have lived together for at least three years! Jenn told me that I need to hurry and call her so we can do something and I agreed.

I then came across Roswitha walking Ed's bicycle. The thing get's rather pissy if you don't take it on a walk every morning. J/K!!! She was taking it to the music building for Ed so I decided to walk her there. I told her about getting housing and everything and was glad to get to talk to her. I was at the pool later with Leigh Anne on Thursday afternoon and we had just gotten in the pool. Holly was there in her bikini and I was in love!!! Leigh Anne noticed that Roswitha was walking by so I called out her name and waved. I only expected a wave back, but she actually found the gate and came in and sat on the edge of the pool next to me. She had just gotten some pictures developed that she wanted to show me which was cool and I got to lead Leigh Anne into thinking that Roswitha really does go out of her way to talk to me. It's funny because Leigh Anne is starting to think I'm trying to steal Ed's girlfriend again!

March 22, 1994 - Tuesday - Roses for Ash's Birthday

March 22, 1994 - Tuesday
Today is Ashley Michelle Mansour's twentieth birthday!!! I did my best to make it as special as I could, being the wonderful person that I am. What was cool was that I was the very first person to wish her happy birthday since I alone was with her at midnight...

I wanted so very much to do something awesome for Ashley's birthday so after class on Monday I headed out to a florist down by Eckerd's at the corner of campus. I had spent a long time earlier going through every coupon book I could find trying to find a good deal on flowers and had come up with a good one. I first stopped in at Burger King on the way and had two Whoppers and a chocolate milkshake. It's so awesome that they're only 99› right now (this is for a price comparison in the future!). There's this African fellow whom I have dubbed Nigel (a nice African name!) who made my hamburgers and they were the best ones I have ever had up here. Good boy! This other big black guy just doesn't know the meaning of extra mayonnaise, but oh well.

I went to the florist where this nice younger guy helped me out and told me about all of the prices and arrangements they have. They also had this coupon where you can get a free rose per month with no purchase required. That's awesome!!! He gave me this little business card to use instead of the flimsy coupon and gave me a beautiful long stemmed magenta rose for this month. Once again I have found a free way to make a girl really happy! Talk about lucking out and taking advantage of opportunities. I'm so good at it! I then said I'd be back in the morning and parted. I picked up a card for her at Eckerds that said: "A Happy Birthday wish from the heart, because that's where all good wishes start!" It was a sophisticated trendy looking card that I really liked.

I didn't find anybody to give the rose to on the way home and I couldn't give it to Laura because that would just ruin the surprise of Ashley's flowers. I did like the look that some of the girls gave me once again as I walked along carrying a rose. I knocked on Leigh Anne's door and gave it to her. She was so surprised and happy beyond belief. Michelle saw me give it to her and thought it was the sweetest thing as well. I jokingly apologized to Michelle for Leigh Anne grabbing her rose from me and said I'll just have to get her another one sometime. That really cheered up Leigh Anne which were my only intentions but confused her a lot as well as to what my intentions really were. It's been fun. It's definitely not to get into her pants because I could do that anytime I wanted and she knows it.

I called home at about eight and after talking to my mom for half an hour, she asked me why I wasn't at the hospital. I had entirely forgotten which really sucked. I talked to father to begin with and he told me he replaced the voltage regulator and fixed my battery and my car is cranking beautifully with the cables plugged in!!! That's awesome!!! Ashley called me out of the blue and that was cool because I got to brag that she has been calling me. I called her back after I got off the phone with my parents and she wanted to know if I would like to go study with her. Of course my dear. It was funny because Chris had asked me earlier what I was going to do and I just said that I'd probably study with Ashley although I really didn't think I would. It was also cool because Leigh Anne had gone shopping with her friend Jason and I would get to brag that I studied with Ashley when I got back.

Cecil called before I went downstairs and I chatted with him for a little while about everything including Shar¡ whom he asked about. I then went to Ashley's room. Laura was gluing a mirror together and we were joking together and I was complimenting her. She then took me in her room and showed me what she had gotten for Ashley for her birthday. She also showed me that she was Alpha Chi's new pledge of the week which was cool. Ashley had to brag that she got a sign, too, but her's said Happy Birthday. I tried to steal back the blue giraffe but Laura wouldn't let me, unless I gave her the pig! It looks like it has sad eyes and she said that it's begging me to leave him with her. I said no, it's begging me to save him and we laughed.

Ashley and I then took off together to Turlington Hall to study. Once we had gotten there we really weren't in the mood to study, especially her, and we talked almost three quarters of the time we were there. She kept telling me to just tell her to shut up so I could study but I told her I was more than happy to listen to her stories and talk to her which was definitely true. She asked to borrow my calculator and asked if I had read her letter. I wondered what she was talking about and took it back from her. Apparently she really had written something that night she was playing with it when Laura was with us! And it was for me!!! I figured she had just written something like "Ashley loves Daniel!" or something similar, but my pessimism would soon be shattered.

I listed all of the variables in the calculator and quickly found what I was looking for when I spotted ASHLEY in the list. I loaded it and read this:


PROGRAM:ASHLEY
:Hi Dan
:WHATS UP
:THANKS For GOING
:TO THE CONCERT
:WITH ME and
:THANKS A BUNCH
:For BEING SUCH
:AN AWESOME FRIEND...
I MISS 2ND HOUR BIO
:WITH YOU HOPE WE
:CAN SUFFER AGAIN TOG
ETHER NEXT FALL...CAL
L ANYTIME IF YA
:NEED A FRIEND or
:SOMEONE TO TALK TO o
r JUST TO LISTEN THAN
KS For BEING THERE Fo
r ME and PUTTING UP W
ITH ME REMEMBER I WIL
L ALWAYS BE HERE For
YOU TOO.....
:LOVE ASHLEY.

WOW!!!!! I am still amazed at how much she typed in such a short amount of time and told her so. She says she has a calculator like mine and that makes sense. It just so sweet what she said and that she even said it at all. Wow.....

It was forty-five minutes after midnight when we were walking home and I wished her a happy birthday and gave her a hug. I was excited to be the first person to say happy birthday and the only person to be with her when her birthday rolled around. I was alone with Ashley when her birthday started... heh heh...

As I walked in the door the telephone rang. I picked it up fully expecting Karen for Jon since it was so late. Shar¡ said hello and I almost pissed on myself!!! I was in shock!!! She apparently had gotten my letter for she mentioned it but didn't bring anything up. We talked for half an hour until we didn't really have anything else to say. The coolest things were that she called on her own because I haven't even tried since spring break and that she was paying for it!!! She did talk a little more openly about Jeff and we seemed to be talking and trusting each other as friends which is a damn good start. I was really happy that she had called.

Leigh Anne called soon after that and I went over and visited for a while because I had planned on staying up all night. We laid in her bed and talked and she made numerous sexual advances and didn't understand why I didn't want any part of it. She even said once that I have no choice and she was going to take over and I wouldn't let her. I left at about three and came home. The funny thing was that somewhere during our conversation, she asked me when the last time I talked to Shar¡ was, and I told her that she had just called.

I then took it upon myself to be at the New Residence Facility dorms this morning at 5:30 to pick up a waiting number for getting housing so that Chris could come and get us a room for four when the sign up started at 9:30. I can't sign up until tomorrow so I felt it essential to be as close to the front as possible to get one of the few rooms entirely empty. And that was indeed the case when Chris went with my number four! later on. I went home and slept for a couple of hours and missed the first hour of medical history but made it to the second.

I then walked out to Eckerds and looked at the foil balloons which ended up being only two dollars there instead of three at the florist. That was cool. I then went and bought a dozen roses, six magenta and six light pink. They were very pretty and the guy that arranged them for me was the same guy that helped me yesterday. t was especially cool because I'm sure that a lot of people who say they will come back never do and I proved myself trustful. I then went back to Eckerds and had Bertha fill me up two different Happy Birthday balloons and then bag everything up for me. Bertha is this very nice black woman whom I always see there and is always very sweet. Chris remembers her because she always reads the cards you buy. She asked me if the balloons are for my girlfriend and when I said no she seemed surprised as she noticed that I had bought roses for just a friend. I thought it was funny but that did make me a little nervous when the time came to give them to her as to whether or not I had gone too far.

I then took the long route home through the sororities so that I could approach Beaty Towers from the side. I didn't want Leigh Anne to see me with the flowers from the front because she'd just start bitching and I didn't want any of Ashley's roommates to see them from the back. In the card I wrote "Lucky you that your birthday fell during a time when I am in a good mood where doing something nice for a friend as wonderful as you takes precedence over everything else. Love ya and Happy Birthday!!! - Dan." I also wrote that I hope this all makes up for me forgetting her parking decal! She thought that was really cute when she saw that.

I called her later and took everything down for her. I had the ribbons of the balloons wrapped around the base of the roses and it looked very nice. She seemed really happy and I think they were the first flowers she had gotten so far. She did say that Daniel had called real quick in the morning before her class. Of course she told me this on the phone before I came down. She just kept thanking me and hugging me and said once that she was going to cry. What made it worse was that her roommates were all there and I was embarrassed up the ass!!! She then thanked me some more. It was really cool how happy she seemed and it was well worth it.

Her roommates were heading out to the mall to get her something for her birthday and Jana asked her what she wanted, something tangible, food, music, or what? I suggested they get her a Joe Diffie CD and Jana told me that she already has one. Ashley, Laura and I all started laughing as I told Jana that "I" have one and Laura told her that she was just borrowing mine. It was funny. I left soon afterwards to head off to chemistry lab.

I was in such a good mood, I ended up having an awesome time in lab. Instead of partially working with this guy next to me, who is pretty smart and all right to talk to, we worked entirely together and kicked lab ten's ass in less than one lab period and finished lab eight. That was damn quick!!! and all we have to do now is two unknowns and our lab semester is over. There are still people on lab four!!! I also had a lot of interesting glances form the gorgeous girl with big tits. I see her as the Shar¡ who stayed in school and never got pregnant. I then noticed a glimpse of the tattoo on her left shoulder and melted!!! We flirted a little. One time she was standing in front of my lab table waiting for Greg, or teacher, to sign her book and she started straightening my supplies on my workspace with me standing right next to her. It was kind of funny and definitely cute. I want her!!!

Once again... Happy Birthday my friend...!!!!!