Monday, April 18, 1994

April 18, 1994 - Monday - Ashley comes up to talk

Let me try this journal thing again... last time Kostas called just as I started and invited me out to study in CSE and I met him out there a few minutes later. I only stayed for a little over an hour because I had initially brushed tonight off as a no study night anyway because of all of the other shit I needed to take care of. I ended up getting everything done today: from going to classes, laying out, going to Shands, taking a nap, baking a cake, watching Jeopardy, talking to Ashley for an hour and so forth with plenty of time to spare. I was rather impressed by my successful time management.

I baked my last chocolate cake of the semester because tomorrow is Roswitha's twenty-first birthday. I was originally going to make it over the weekend but I figured this would be far more special since she always very graciously helps me eat my chocolate cake because she loves it so much. I the spelled out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSWITHA" with mini M&Ms and then outlined the letters with chocolate frosting to make them stand out. It turned out rather nicely and I'm sure my effort will be very much appreciated and recognized.

I finished watching Jeopardy with Ed and Roswitha and had debated whether or not to head straight down to the library with them or to wait for a while {in case Ashley calls}. I actually had that thought but greatly doubted its occurrence and it was only fleeting. Ed was in a hurry as usual and I wasn't dressed so I decided to wait a while to start studying and to decorate the cake while Roswitha was downstairs. Minutes after they left, Ashley called!!!

She asked me if she could come over and she sounded pretty upset. I started to ask why but I very quickly changed it to a yes and to go ahead. She asked if I was sure and I said of course. She was soon in my room and looked rather nice because she was still dressed from dinner at the house. She leant against the counter where I was sitting on my stool and I could tell that this was going to take a while so I told her to sit down and we assumed the normal position facing each other. I left the door propped wide open in case any curious neighbors wanted to find out that I did indeed have Ashley in my room again.

She started out by telling me that she had gone to Walmart last night to buy some stuff for Laura since she is her guardian angel for Alpha Chi Omega. She then went over to a good friend of hers named Kevin. Only when she returned home did she discover that Daniel had dropped by last night for about twenty minutes to see her before taking off for Tampa!!! That would have been the first time they have seen each other in two and a half months.

She then had just talked on the phone with him for a while and was telling them that they really need to talk tomorrow when he comes by to see her. He was complaining that he'll be with his friend and doesn't want to make him wait. That really pissed off Ashley because he has been avoiding talking to her seriously now for a long time and said that his friend is grown and can find something to do for the hour they need together. He asked her if she was getting pissed and soon said he has to go. She told him that she loves him. He then said bye and hung up!!! That really upset her and she almost cried.

He had been asking her earlier if she has found a new boyfriend yet and so forth and was being a real dick. It parallels the way I treated Leigh Anne so much and I told Ashley that. It really seems like he's brushing her off way too much. She's finally starting to see that and said that if things don't work out tomorrow she's really going to start thinking about dropping him for good and getting on with her life. She mentioned that numerous times. He just treats her like worthless shit and Ashley deserves so much more than that. HEr mom didn't help her situation either because she doesn't much like Daniel anymore and was asking why she wanted to see him for anyway and was glad she didn't see him last night. All this with exams coming up.

She was really hurting and I know exactly how she feels. She kept saying that she just doesn't know what she's going to do. It's the same completely helpless feeling I had with Shar¡ and as I have discovered, it will finally go away. She has to realize that perhaps they truly aren't going to work out but it will take time. I'm just glad that once again I am someone she turns to first in times like this. I told her as she was getting ready to go that through the week if she ever does study her physics, that she can call me here of find me downstairs any time she wants and I'll help her out. Shar¡ knows I will but she seemed pleased again that I so generously offered my help.

I had been thinking about Saturday night's party and about the people I met through Ashley. I had wanted to mention her sisters to her and how everybody's names just slipped away as quick as I learned them. All I remembered was a "Becky" and the fellow named Casey Taylor. I also had been thinking about the girl drinking water and had realized that she looked like the same girl who came with Ashley when she came to talk to me that day at the reggae festival. I figured I wouldn't get the chance to talk to her about the party because she would be too absorbed by her project that we wouldn't talk during the beginning of the week. I was wrong and since she was here, I inquired and talked to her about such things.

I first asked her about her friend. She said her name is Lisa and she in fact was coming over tonight to do some paper on Ashley's computer. Ashley was on beeper duty tonight and had to stick around her room anyway. She said that Lisa had brought me up and had said that she hoped she hadn't acted like a bitch to me but was sorry if she did. I laughed and told Ashley that I was too worried about trying not to act drunk when I was talking to her to notice, and she returned my humor. I just thought it was funny how that situation turned out because I really was trying as hard as I could even though I was buzzing to try and not do anything stupid to offend her. I remember listening to her complain as to what her friends were doing and how inconsiderate they were being. I agreed with her and I guess she found me acceptable. Cool.

I then asked if there had been a Becky and she said yes. That was this really cute blonde, sensuous with very pretty eyes. I then asked her if she remembered Casey Taylor and told her what I had done for Lisa and how she hadn't known what was going on. It was funny. Ashley apologized and said that she was sorry because she would quite often talk to someone she knows and would only then remember me and introduce me. I told her that I didn't really know the difference because I was buzzing hard and she laughed about that.

I called and talked to Jenn tonight which was the first in a long time and extended our friendship until the beginning of the fall semester at least, which is cool.

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