Nothing better than a drunken stupor to entice the best of journal entries. It's amazing how my fingers move so fast without my head much knowing what they are doing. This must be the best time to express myself... I just realized how the first two days of this Thanksgiving break, while Kristen is down in Tampa has been an extremely wondeful vacation. She would be rather upset to hear this
but I must say that it is so.
I just "stumbled" home from the Purple Porpoise, one of Gainesville's most famous college bars. I dressed up all spectacular not knowing what tp expect. I wore my black Levis, my Timberlands, my
best flannel shirt with blue in it to accent my eyes... etc. I was rather optemistic as I prepared myself. I packed a pen to write phone numbers, a Gold Circle condom, my pack of Marlboro lights, a lighter,
and any other essentials that I just can't imagine now. It's funny how it looks like I am typeing so fast but the entry is lengthening so slowly. And my fingers fall short of the desired key quite frequently.
I started my birthday celebration by having a full shot (at least!) of my newly aquired Goldschl„ger birthday present to myself. It came with a free candelabra wine/shot glass that was very nice and a symbol of my twety-first birthday. I wanted the huge jug of Malibu with the free mug, but could never have carried that on my backpack. I headed out and got a couple of looke from cute girls that appeared like they wanted me. I wish. I went to the bicycle shop where I bought a seat bolt in January and he let me return in no problem. that gave me an extra five bucks of guilt free spending money.
I toured the local used CD shops but nothing was very interesting. I wwnt as far as Specs but their prices were blown away by the mall today. I dreamt of going to Kaos tonight where they are having an UF-FSU amateur fight and then the famous hot body contest. I would have loved that, but walking or biking would have probably gotten me robbed by a black man. Such crimes are extremely frequent
these days as reported by the school newspaper. I consented to go to the Porpoise despite the fact that it would be much harder to make it out alive.
As the Goldscl„ger wore off, I got more and more nervous about going into a bar, which I know nothing about. I went in and the fool doorman said I am not twenty-one yet but let me in after I let him know how stupid he is. I went and stood by the bar like a fool and felt like everyone was laughing at me, but probably weren't. I finally got a seat and two bartenders passed up my stupid attempts to figure out what to drink. Eventually a gorgeous girl asked me and I had her tell me what was on draft since I couldn't read it from where I was/ I knew there was a special and opted for it... a pitcher of Miller, afraid that it was disgusting. I asked her if they still do birthday specials and she said yes and made me up the strongest, Sex on the Beach. It was good!
My pitcher turned out to be pretty tasty. A guy came and sat to might right and asked if that wasn't a lot of beer for one person. I admitted that it was but said I would try, and finished the whole
thing rather quickly. The Nebraska game soon ended and I realized that nothing could happen there like I wanted... so I headed home. Even now I can tilt my head back and feel fucking AMAZING!!! I'm going to lye down now and enjoy myself........
Showing posts with label Birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Birthday. Show all posts
Friday, November 24, 1995
Tuesday, March 22, 1994
March 22, 1994 - Tuesday - Roses for Ash's Birthday
March 22, 1994 - Tuesday
Today is Ashley Michelle Mansour's twentieth birthday!!! I did my best to make it as special as I could, being the wonderful person that I am. What was cool was that I was the very first person to wish her happy birthday since I alone was with her at midnight...
I wanted so very much to do something awesome for Ashley's birthday so after class on Monday I headed out to a florist down by Eckerd's at the corner of campus. I had spent a long time earlier going through every coupon book I could find trying to find a good deal on flowers and had come up with a good one. I first stopped in at Burger King on the way and had two Whoppers and a chocolate milkshake. It's so awesome that they're only 99› right now (this is for a price comparison in the future!). There's this African fellow whom I have dubbed Nigel (a nice African name!) who made my hamburgers and they were the best ones I have ever had up here. Good boy! This other big black guy just doesn't know the meaning of extra mayonnaise, but oh well.
I went to the florist where this nice younger guy helped me out and told me about all of the prices and arrangements they have. They also had this coupon where you can get a free rose per month with no purchase required. That's awesome!!! He gave me this little business card to use instead of the flimsy coupon and gave me a beautiful long stemmed magenta rose for this month. Once again I have found a free way to make a girl really happy! Talk about lucking out and taking advantage of opportunities. I'm so good at it! I then said I'd be back in the morning and parted. I picked up a card for her at Eckerds that said: "A Happy Birthday wish from the heart, because that's where all good wishes start!" It was a sophisticated trendy looking card that I really liked.
I didn't find anybody to give the rose to on the way home and I couldn't give it to Laura because that would just ruin the surprise of Ashley's flowers. I did like the look that some of the girls gave me once again as I walked along carrying a rose. I knocked on Leigh Anne's door and gave it to her. She was so surprised and happy beyond belief. Michelle saw me give it to her and thought it was the sweetest thing as well. I jokingly apologized to Michelle for Leigh Anne grabbing her rose from me and said I'll just have to get her another one sometime. That really cheered up Leigh Anne which were my only intentions but confused her a lot as well as to what my intentions really were. It's been fun. It's definitely not to get into her pants because I could do that anytime I wanted and she knows it.
I called home at about eight and after talking to my mom for half an hour, she asked me why I wasn't at the hospital. I had entirely forgotten which really sucked. I talked to father to begin with and he told me he replaced the voltage regulator and fixed my battery and my car is cranking beautifully with the cables plugged in!!! That's awesome!!! Ashley called me out of the blue and that was cool because I got to brag that she has been calling me. I called her back after I got off the phone with my parents and she wanted to know if I would like to go study with her. Of course my dear. It was funny because Chris had asked me earlier what I was going to do and I just said that I'd probably study with Ashley although I really didn't think I would. It was also cool because Leigh Anne had gone shopping with her friend Jason and I would get to brag that I studied with Ashley when I got back.
Cecil called before I went downstairs and I chatted with him for a little while about everything including Shar¡ whom he asked about. I then went to Ashley's room. Laura was gluing a mirror together and we were joking together and I was complimenting her. She then took me in her room and showed me what she had gotten for Ashley for her birthday. She also showed me that she was Alpha Chi's new pledge of the week which was cool. Ashley had to brag that she got a sign, too, but her's said Happy Birthday. I tried to steal back the blue giraffe but Laura wouldn't let me, unless I gave her the pig! It looks like it has sad eyes and she said that it's begging me to leave him with her. I said no, it's begging me to save him and we laughed.
Ashley and I then took off together to Turlington Hall to study. Once we had gotten there we really weren't in the mood to study, especially her, and we talked almost three quarters of the time we were there. She kept telling me to just tell her to shut up so I could study but I told her I was more than happy to listen to her stories and talk to her which was definitely true. She asked to borrow my calculator and asked if I had read her letter. I wondered what she was talking about and took it back from her. Apparently she really had written something that night she was playing with it when Laura was with us! And it was for me!!! I figured she had just written something like "Ashley loves Daniel!" or something similar, but my pessimism would soon be shattered.
I listed all of the variables in the calculator and quickly found what I was looking for when I spotted ASHLEY in the list. I loaded it and read this:
PROGRAM:ASHLEY
:Hi Dan
:WHATS UP
:THANKS For GOING
:TO THE CONCERT
:WITH ME and
:THANKS A BUNCH
:For BEING SUCH
:AN AWESOME FRIEND...
I MISS 2ND HOUR BIO
:WITH YOU HOPE WE
:CAN SUFFER AGAIN TOG
ETHER NEXT FALL...CAL
L ANYTIME IF YA
:NEED A FRIEND or
:SOMEONE TO TALK TO o
r JUST TO LISTEN THAN
KS For BEING THERE Fo
r ME and PUTTING UP W
ITH ME REMEMBER I WIL
L ALWAYS BE HERE For
YOU TOO.....
:LOVE ASHLEY.
WOW!!!!! I am still amazed at how much she typed in such a short amount of time and told her so. She says she has a calculator like mine and that makes sense. It just so sweet what she said and that she even said it at all. Wow.....
It was forty-five minutes after midnight when we were walking home and I wished her a happy birthday and gave her a hug. I was excited to be the first person to say happy birthday and the only person to be with her when her birthday rolled around. I was alone with Ashley when her birthday started... heh heh...
As I walked in the door the telephone rang. I picked it up fully expecting Karen for Jon since it was so late. Shar¡ said hello and I almost pissed on myself!!! I was in shock!!! She apparently had gotten my letter for she mentioned it but didn't bring anything up. We talked for half an hour until we didn't really have anything else to say. The coolest things were that she called on her own because I haven't even tried since spring break and that she was paying for it!!! She did talk a little more openly about Jeff and we seemed to be talking and trusting each other as friends which is a damn good start. I was really happy that she had called.
Leigh Anne called soon after that and I went over and visited for a while because I had planned on staying up all night. We laid in her bed and talked and she made numerous sexual advances and didn't understand why I didn't want any part of it. She even said once that I have no choice and she was going to take over and I wouldn't let her. I left at about three and came home. The funny thing was that somewhere during our conversation, she asked me when the last time I talked to Shar¡ was, and I told her that she had just called.
I then took it upon myself to be at the New Residence Facility dorms this morning at 5:30 to pick up a waiting number for getting housing so that Chris could come and get us a room for four when the sign up started at 9:30. I can't sign up until tomorrow so I felt it essential to be as close to the front as possible to get one of the few rooms entirely empty. And that was indeed the case when Chris went with my number four! later on. I went home and slept for a couple of hours and missed the first hour of medical history but made it to the second.
I then walked out to Eckerds and looked at the foil balloons which ended up being only two dollars there instead of three at the florist. That was cool. I then went and bought a dozen roses, six magenta and six light pink. They were very pretty and the guy that arranged them for me was the same guy that helped me yesterday. t was especially cool because I'm sure that a lot of people who say they will come back never do and I proved myself trustful. I then went back to Eckerds and had Bertha fill me up two different Happy Birthday balloons and then bag everything up for me. Bertha is this very nice black woman whom I always see there and is always very sweet. Chris remembers her because she always reads the cards you buy. She asked me if the balloons are for my girlfriend and when I said no she seemed surprised as she noticed that I had bought roses for just a friend. I thought it was funny but that did make me a little nervous when the time came to give them to her as to whether or not I had gone too far.
I then took the long route home through the sororities so that I could approach Beaty Towers from the side. I didn't want Leigh Anne to see me with the flowers from the front because she'd just start bitching and I didn't want any of Ashley's roommates to see them from the back. In the card I wrote "Lucky you that your birthday fell during a time when I am in a good mood where doing something nice for a friend as wonderful as you takes precedence over everything else. Love ya and Happy Birthday!!! - Dan." I also wrote that I hope this all makes up for me forgetting her parking decal! She thought that was really cute when she saw that.
I called her later and took everything down for her. I had the ribbons of the balloons wrapped around the base of the roses and it looked very nice. She seemed really happy and I think they were the first flowers she had gotten so far. She did say that Daniel had called real quick in the morning before her class. Of course she told me this on the phone before I came down. She just kept thanking me and hugging me and said once that she was going to cry. What made it worse was that her roommates were all there and I was embarrassed up the ass!!! She then thanked me some more. It was really cool how happy she seemed and it was well worth it.
Her roommates were heading out to the mall to get her something for her birthday and Jana asked her what she wanted, something tangible, food, music, or what? I suggested they get her a Joe Diffie CD and Jana told me that she already has one. Ashley, Laura and I all started laughing as I told Jana that "I" have one and Laura told her that she was just borrowing mine. It was funny. I left soon afterwards to head off to chemistry lab.
I was in such a good mood, I ended up having an awesome time in lab. Instead of partially working with this guy next to me, who is pretty smart and all right to talk to, we worked entirely together and kicked lab ten's ass in less than one lab period and finished lab eight. That was damn quick!!! and all we have to do now is two unknowns and our lab semester is over. There are still people on lab four!!! I also had a lot of interesting glances form the gorgeous girl with big tits. I see her as the Shar¡ who stayed in school and never got pregnant. I then noticed a glimpse of the tattoo on her left shoulder and melted!!! We flirted a little. One time she was standing in front of my lab table waiting for Greg, or teacher, to sign her book and she started straightening my supplies on my workspace with me standing right next to her. It was kind of funny and definitely cute. I want her!!!
Once again... Happy Birthday my friend...!!!!!
Today is Ashley Michelle Mansour's twentieth birthday!!! I did my best to make it as special as I could, being the wonderful person that I am. What was cool was that I was the very first person to wish her happy birthday since I alone was with her at midnight...
I wanted so very much to do something awesome for Ashley's birthday so after class on Monday I headed out to a florist down by Eckerd's at the corner of campus. I had spent a long time earlier going through every coupon book I could find trying to find a good deal on flowers and had come up with a good one. I first stopped in at Burger King on the way and had two Whoppers and a chocolate milkshake. It's so awesome that they're only 99› right now (this is for a price comparison in the future!). There's this African fellow whom I have dubbed Nigel (a nice African name!) who made my hamburgers and they were the best ones I have ever had up here. Good boy! This other big black guy just doesn't know the meaning of extra mayonnaise, but oh well.
I went to the florist where this nice younger guy helped me out and told me about all of the prices and arrangements they have. They also had this coupon where you can get a free rose per month with no purchase required. That's awesome!!! He gave me this little business card to use instead of the flimsy coupon and gave me a beautiful long stemmed magenta rose for this month. Once again I have found a free way to make a girl really happy! Talk about lucking out and taking advantage of opportunities. I'm so good at it! I then said I'd be back in the morning and parted. I picked up a card for her at Eckerds that said: "A Happy Birthday wish from the heart, because that's where all good wishes start!" It was a sophisticated trendy looking card that I really liked.
I didn't find anybody to give the rose to on the way home and I couldn't give it to Laura because that would just ruin the surprise of Ashley's flowers. I did like the look that some of the girls gave me once again as I walked along carrying a rose. I knocked on Leigh Anne's door and gave it to her. She was so surprised and happy beyond belief. Michelle saw me give it to her and thought it was the sweetest thing as well. I jokingly apologized to Michelle for Leigh Anne grabbing her rose from me and said I'll just have to get her another one sometime. That really cheered up Leigh Anne which were my only intentions but confused her a lot as well as to what my intentions really were. It's been fun. It's definitely not to get into her pants because I could do that anytime I wanted and she knows it.
I called home at about eight and after talking to my mom for half an hour, she asked me why I wasn't at the hospital. I had entirely forgotten which really sucked. I talked to father to begin with and he told me he replaced the voltage regulator and fixed my battery and my car is cranking beautifully with the cables plugged in!!! That's awesome!!! Ashley called me out of the blue and that was cool because I got to brag that she has been calling me. I called her back after I got off the phone with my parents and she wanted to know if I would like to go study with her. Of course my dear. It was funny because Chris had asked me earlier what I was going to do and I just said that I'd probably study with Ashley although I really didn't think I would. It was also cool because Leigh Anne had gone shopping with her friend Jason and I would get to brag that I studied with Ashley when I got back.
Cecil called before I went downstairs and I chatted with him for a little while about everything including Shar¡ whom he asked about. I then went to Ashley's room. Laura was gluing a mirror together and we were joking together and I was complimenting her. She then took me in her room and showed me what she had gotten for Ashley for her birthday. She also showed me that she was Alpha Chi's new pledge of the week which was cool. Ashley had to brag that she got a sign, too, but her's said Happy Birthday. I tried to steal back the blue giraffe but Laura wouldn't let me, unless I gave her the pig! It looks like it has sad eyes and she said that it's begging me to leave him with her. I said no, it's begging me to save him and we laughed.
Ashley and I then took off together to Turlington Hall to study. Once we had gotten there we really weren't in the mood to study, especially her, and we talked almost three quarters of the time we were there. She kept telling me to just tell her to shut up so I could study but I told her I was more than happy to listen to her stories and talk to her which was definitely true. She asked to borrow my calculator and asked if I had read her letter. I wondered what she was talking about and took it back from her. Apparently she really had written something that night she was playing with it when Laura was with us! And it was for me!!! I figured she had just written something like "Ashley loves Daniel!" or something similar, but my pessimism would soon be shattered.
I listed all of the variables in the calculator and quickly found what I was looking for when I spotted ASHLEY in the list. I loaded it and read this:
PROGRAM:ASHLEY
:Hi Dan
:WHATS UP
:THANKS For GOING
:TO THE CONCERT
:WITH ME and
:THANKS A BUNCH
:For BEING SUCH
:AN AWESOME FRIEND...
I MISS 2ND HOUR BIO
:WITH YOU HOPE WE
:CAN SUFFER AGAIN TOG
ETHER NEXT FALL...CAL
L ANYTIME IF YA
:NEED A FRIEND or
:SOMEONE TO TALK TO o
r JUST TO LISTEN THAN
KS For BEING THERE Fo
r ME and PUTTING UP W
ITH ME REMEMBER I WIL
L ALWAYS BE HERE For
YOU TOO.....
:LOVE ASHLEY.
WOW!!!!! I am still amazed at how much she typed in such a short amount of time and told her so. She says she has a calculator like mine and that makes sense. It just so sweet what she said and that she even said it at all. Wow.....
It was forty-five minutes after midnight when we were walking home and I wished her a happy birthday and gave her a hug. I was excited to be the first person to say happy birthday and the only person to be with her when her birthday rolled around. I was alone with Ashley when her birthday started... heh heh...
As I walked in the door the telephone rang. I picked it up fully expecting Karen for Jon since it was so late. Shar¡ said hello and I almost pissed on myself!!! I was in shock!!! She apparently had gotten my letter for she mentioned it but didn't bring anything up. We talked for half an hour until we didn't really have anything else to say. The coolest things were that she called on her own because I haven't even tried since spring break and that she was paying for it!!! She did talk a little more openly about Jeff and we seemed to be talking and trusting each other as friends which is a damn good start. I was really happy that she had called.
Leigh Anne called soon after that and I went over and visited for a while because I had planned on staying up all night. We laid in her bed and talked and she made numerous sexual advances and didn't understand why I didn't want any part of it. She even said once that I have no choice and she was going to take over and I wouldn't let her. I left at about three and came home. The funny thing was that somewhere during our conversation, she asked me when the last time I talked to Shar¡ was, and I told her that she had just called.
I then took it upon myself to be at the New Residence Facility dorms this morning at 5:30 to pick up a waiting number for getting housing so that Chris could come and get us a room for four when the sign up started at 9:30. I can't sign up until tomorrow so I felt it essential to be as close to the front as possible to get one of the few rooms entirely empty. And that was indeed the case when Chris went with my number four! later on. I went home and slept for a couple of hours and missed the first hour of medical history but made it to the second.
I then walked out to Eckerds and looked at the foil balloons which ended up being only two dollars there instead of three at the florist. That was cool. I then went and bought a dozen roses, six magenta and six light pink. They were very pretty and the guy that arranged them for me was the same guy that helped me yesterday. t was especially cool because I'm sure that a lot of people who say they will come back never do and I proved myself trustful. I then went back to Eckerds and had Bertha fill me up two different Happy Birthday balloons and then bag everything up for me. Bertha is this very nice black woman whom I always see there and is always very sweet. Chris remembers her because she always reads the cards you buy. She asked me if the balloons are for my girlfriend and when I said no she seemed surprised as she noticed that I had bought roses for just a friend. I thought it was funny but that did make me a little nervous when the time came to give them to her as to whether or not I had gone too far.
I then took the long route home through the sororities so that I could approach Beaty Towers from the side. I didn't want Leigh Anne to see me with the flowers from the front because she'd just start bitching and I didn't want any of Ashley's roommates to see them from the back. In the card I wrote "Lucky you that your birthday fell during a time when I am in a good mood where doing something nice for a friend as wonderful as you takes precedence over everything else. Love ya and Happy Birthday!!! - Dan." I also wrote that I hope this all makes up for me forgetting her parking decal! She thought that was really cute when she saw that.
I called her later and took everything down for her. I had the ribbons of the balloons wrapped around the base of the roses and it looked very nice. She seemed really happy and I think they were the first flowers she had gotten so far. She did say that Daniel had called real quick in the morning before her class. Of course she told me this on the phone before I came down. She just kept thanking me and hugging me and said once that she was going to cry. What made it worse was that her roommates were all there and I was embarrassed up the ass!!! She then thanked me some more. It was really cool how happy she seemed and it was well worth it.
Her roommates were heading out to the mall to get her something for her birthday and Jana asked her what she wanted, something tangible, food, music, or what? I suggested they get her a Joe Diffie CD and Jana told me that she already has one. Ashley, Laura and I all started laughing as I told Jana that "I" have one and Laura told her that she was just borrowing mine. It was funny. I left soon afterwards to head off to chemistry lab.
I was in such a good mood, I ended up having an awesome time in lab. Instead of partially working with this guy next to me, who is pretty smart and all right to talk to, we worked entirely together and kicked lab ten's ass in less than one lab period and finished lab eight. That was damn quick!!! and all we have to do now is two unknowns and our lab semester is over. There are still people on lab four!!! I also had a lot of interesting glances form the gorgeous girl with big tits. I see her as the Shar¡ who stayed in school and never got pregnant. I then noticed a glimpse of the tattoo on her left shoulder and melted!!! We flirted a little. One time she was standing in front of my lab table waiting for Greg, or teacher, to sign her book and she started straightening my supplies on my workspace with me standing right next to her. It was kind of funny and definitely cute. I want her!!!
Once again... Happy Birthday my friend...!!!!!
Wednesday, November 24, 1993
November 24, 1993 - Thursday - Shari!!! was pregnant!!!
(January 31, 1994 - Today's journal was written on Thanksgiving weekend at home over the holiday and is taken word for word from the handwritten copy.)
I finally started making the phone calls at nine that had been one of the only reasons that I came home to Tampa for the weekend. I had been talking to mom and Chrissy about Shar¡ for a while and told them about the first day we met, and my mom reminded me every once in a while how she up and left me. Thanks. So Christina was the first one I called, and she seemed damn happy to hear from me. We caught up real quick and she ended up telling me that she got pregnant about three weeks ago and told me the story behind that. I pouted to her that it sucks that she's not a free woman anymore and she laughed. She then told me that Shar¡, (Tracy)?, and I are the only ones who know. She then told me that she was going over to Shar¡'s to pick her up! She said that they were just going to hang out for a while. She also told me that Shar¡ has been a real bitch to everybody lately and said that it is because she is living on her own now with her boyfriend so she thinks she is the shit. I hat that fucking expression!!! But that had been the only real reason I called, to get the latest scoop on Shar¡. She then asked if she could call me back at 10:30 after she got Shar¡. That's an hour an fifteen minutes and I tried to get an idea of where Shar¡ was staying.
I then talked with my family, but I paced with the same reckless heartbeat that I used to get waiting for Shar¡ to call. I had this fantasy that Shar¡ would be the one who calls me back, but realized that I was definitely in for a letdown.
At 10:50 Shar¡ called!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....
We talked for just a minute and she called me back a few minutes later. We talked again for a few minutes and she did say Happy Birthday! She then asked if I would come over for a few minutes just to show my face even though I think she's a bitch. I resisted a little because I was afraid to see her face to face and choke up. I found out she did get my letter from her dad after she repeatedly asked me if I got her last one. She then said that she just wanted to explain things and I told her that he didn't have to. She stopped me and told me that there's more than that and she wants to talk to me./ Christina then got on and told me to come, and I convinced a car into my possession rather quickly as I parted.
I was expecting Shar¡ to have gotten bigger from sitting around, hoping for any reason to help me forget about her. She was waiting outside with a beer, and looked gorgeous!!! We hugged and went inside, where I hugged Christina and then went and sat on the couch next to Shar¡. I also said hello to Cord who is getting bigger, cuter, and talks even more now. We caught up on stuff kind of quick and she did notice my earring, which is the SOLE reason I bought it!!! Christina was sick and puked once. Shar¡ said that she was being a bitch and she wouldn't be hanging out with her later on if that kept up. Christina then laughed about how they'd be cute if they were both pregnant and ran around together. By that time I thought I knew that Shar¡ had gotten pregnant from me, and had probably gotten an abortion, although she swore she was against it, but I wouldn't put it past her. She then said that she would have had hers first anyway and I thought that was real cute {extremely sarcastic!!!}. We started talking about smoking pot while pregnant and so forth.
They were getting ready to head back to Shar¡'s pretty soon so Christina kept going to the bathroom to get ready. Shar¡ and I finally got to the point we so much needed to talk about. It took her a long time to spit it that she had gotten pregnant a month and two weeks ago. I used to think if we ever came to this that I would get to explain that it was mine and all would be better! She then told me that she had a (miscarriage??) (or an abortion!!!???) and that she was at the doctor's two weeks ago for a kidney infection and told him what happened and he said that she might still be pregnant.
I of course had to ask whose she thinks it is (was?) and she almost jokingly asked whose did I think. She then told me that she never fucked around on me when we were together. She told me at the beginning that the reason she stopped calling me was not because of me. I was afraid of something worse, but then she told me that I have my college to look forward to and she didn't want her to be the one who fucked up my life. I then told her how I figured this out a long time ago and had told Chris. I also said I called her that day and she wanted to know why I didn't say anything. That's just not something you come up and say if you're not sure, I thought. After that we were kind of quiet for a while and she asked me what I was thinking after I had looked at her and slowly shook my head. I said nothing important. She later told me to smile and I gave her a small one, she then tried to tickle me on the side but it didn't do much. It was funny how we would shut up every time Christina would come into the room. Christina asked her once if she had told me and Shar¡ said no and I quickly figured out that she had lied and there wasn't anything else to tell me.
We talked some more about nothings after that. I rested my chin on my fist once and just stared off into space for a minute and I know she noticed. She told me that my legs have gained weight since she's seen me and I objected that I've actually lost quite a bit of weight.
Anyway, I actually got up and said that I was going to take off before they were ready to leave. Shar¡ directed me to go say goodbye to Christina and I told her to call me before I go. She told me that I was really lucky I even caught her at home and gave me her beeper number. Cord gave me hugs goodbye. Shar¡ then said she'd walk me to my car. I said one joke before we left that made us all laugh and that was cool.
We hugged before I sat down in the car. I then told her that I don't think she's a bitch at all, and if she is I'm just way too forgiving. She had called herself one again for not telling me sooner, and she mentioned again about not wanting to screw up my life. I told her I would rather that she had. She then asked if I want to know if she is still pregnant and I said definitely. I had already asked on the walk out if she would call me this weekend and she said yes, and bragged that she had been the one who remembered my phone number.
She really looked like she was going to cry and I think I did, too. We then hugged long and hard and I kissed her shoulder as she stood up and she said that she'll definitely call as she quickly turned away. I wonder if she did cry... or needed to. I drove home with a new view to life. My mom said my horoscope said I would get back with an old fling, I thought Kim, she swore Shar¡.
Happy birthday to me.
I finally started making the phone calls at nine that had been one of the only reasons that I came home to Tampa for the weekend. I had been talking to mom and Chrissy about Shar¡ for a while and told them about the first day we met, and my mom reminded me every once in a while how she up and left me. Thanks. So Christina was the first one I called, and she seemed damn happy to hear from me. We caught up real quick and she ended up telling me that she got pregnant about three weeks ago and told me the story behind that. I pouted to her that it sucks that she's not a free woman anymore and she laughed. She then told me that Shar¡, (Tracy)?, and I are the only ones who know. She then told me that she was going over to Shar¡'s to pick her up! She said that they were just going to hang out for a while. She also told me that Shar¡ has been a real bitch to everybody lately and said that it is because she is living on her own now with her boyfriend so she thinks she is the shit. I hat that fucking expression!!! But that had been the only real reason I called, to get the latest scoop on Shar¡. She then asked if she could call me back at 10:30 after she got Shar¡. That's an hour an fifteen minutes and I tried to get an idea of where Shar¡ was staying.
I then talked with my family, but I paced with the same reckless heartbeat that I used to get waiting for Shar¡ to call. I had this fantasy that Shar¡ would be the one who calls me back, but realized that I was definitely in for a letdown.
At 10:50 Shar¡ called!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....
We talked for just a minute and she called me back a few minutes later. We talked again for a few minutes and she did say Happy Birthday! She then asked if I would come over for a few minutes just to show my face even though I think she's a bitch. I resisted a little because I was afraid to see her face to face and choke up. I found out she did get my letter from her dad after she repeatedly asked me if I got her last one. She then said that she just wanted to explain things and I told her that he didn't have to. She stopped me and told me that there's more than that and she wants to talk to me./ Christina then got on and told me to come, and I convinced a car into my possession rather quickly as I parted.
I was expecting Shar¡ to have gotten bigger from sitting around, hoping for any reason to help me forget about her. She was waiting outside with a beer, and looked gorgeous!!! We hugged and went inside, where I hugged Christina and then went and sat on the couch next to Shar¡. I also said hello to Cord who is getting bigger, cuter, and talks even more now. We caught up on stuff kind of quick and she did notice my earring, which is the SOLE reason I bought it!!! Christina was sick and puked once. Shar¡ said that she was being a bitch and she wouldn't be hanging out with her later on if that kept up. Christina then laughed about how they'd be cute if they were both pregnant and ran around together. By that time I thought I knew that Shar¡ had gotten pregnant from me, and had probably gotten an abortion, although she swore she was against it, but I wouldn't put it past her. She then said that she would have had hers first anyway and I thought that was real cute {extremely sarcastic!!!}. We started talking about smoking pot while pregnant and so forth.
They were getting ready to head back to Shar¡'s pretty soon so Christina kept going to the bathroom to get ready. Shar¡ and I finally got to the point we so much needed to talk about. It took her a long time to spit it that she had gotten pregnant a month and two weeks ago. I used to think if we ever came to this that I would get to explain that it was mine and all would be better! She then told me that she had a (miscarriage??) (or an abortion!!!???) and that she was at the doctor's two weeks ago for a kidney infection and told him what happened and he said that she might still be pregnant.
I of course had to ask whose she thinks it is (was?) and she almost jokingly asked whose did I think. She then told me that she never fucked around on me when we were together. She told me at the beginning that the reason she stopped calling me was not because of me. I was afraid of something worse, but then she told me that I have my college to look forward to and she didn't want her to be the one who fucked up my life. I then told her how I figured this out a long time ago and had told Chris. I also said I called her that day and she wanted to know why I didn't say anything. That's just not something you come up and say if you're not sure, I thought. After that we were kind of quiet for a while and she asked me what I was thinking after I had looked at her and slowly shook my head. I said nothing important. She later told me to smile and I gave her a small one, she then tried to tickle me on the side but it didn't do much. It was funny how we would shut up every time Christina would come into the room. Christina asked her once if she had told me and Shar¡ said no and I quickly figured out that she had lied and there wasn't anything else to tell me.
We talked some more about nothings after that. I rested my chin on my fist once and just stared off into space for a minute and I know she noticed. She told me that my legs have gained weight since she's seen me and I objected that I've actually lost quite a bit of weight.
Anyway, I actually got up and said that I was going to take off before they were ready to leave. Shar¡ directed me to go say goodbye to Christina and I told her to call me before I go. She told me that I was really lucky I even caught her at home and gave me her beeper number. Cord gave me hugs goodbye. Shar¡ then said she'd walk me to my car. I said one joke before we left that made us all laugh and that was cool.
We hugged before I sat down in the car. I then told her that I don't think she's a bitch at all, and if she is I'm just way too forgiving. She had called herself one again for not telling me sooner, and she mentioned again about not wanting to screw up my life. I told her I would rather that she had. She then asked if I want to know if she is still pregnant and I said definitely. I had already asked on the walk out if she would call me this weekend and she said yes, and bragged that she had been the one who remembered my phone number.
She really looked like she was going to cry and I think I did, too. We then hugged long and hard and I kissed her shoulder as she stood up and she said that she'll definitely call as she quickly turned away. I wonder if she did cry... or needed to. I drove home with a new view to life. My mom said my horoscope said I would get back with an old fling, I thought Kim, she swore Shar¡.
Happy birthday to me.
Tuesday, November 24, 1992
November 24, 1992 - Tuesday - Melissa Moosehead!, Bday
Happy birthday to me!!! I am finally a legal adult, but is that really good?!? Oh well! My most favorite person in the world pulled a little surprise on me and it worked very well in her favor. I was a bit early to German class so I walked out to the plaza in front of Little Hall just to see if anybody was out there studying for our little quiz. As I did, I saw Melissa walking out of the convenience store with her daily bagel and drink. I walked around so that we reached the stairway at the same time. When she saw me she told me happy birthday and asked me how my day was going so far. I said it was fine and, a little suspiciously asked her about hers. She did seem a little happier than usual. We then walked up to the room and she jumped in front of me and opened the door. I backed up to let her go in first, because that's the gentleman I am, and I didn't want to seem too egotistical by accepting any special treatment so graciously. We stood out there and laughingly argued each telling the other to go ahead and go in. Finally she told me that I have to go in first. I looked and only saw three people and knew there wasn't any real danger so I walked in. There on my desk was a great big present!!!!! I was very surprised and overwhelmed with joy, as I later told her.
Of course the present was a six pack of imported Moosehead Beer, only the best. You could tell that it was a six pack of something and she joked that it was Cappio for a second. We were both being really funny and were joking around a lot until we got home. I had a lot of fun with her today. Halfway through class Melissa told Elaine that today is my birthday, so she was all surprised and told the entire class. She asked me how old I am, and when I told her eighteen, she said something about how young I am. Of course, almost everything we were saying was in German. She also had some of the other people in the class ask me how old I am and had the entire class wish me Happy Birthday in German. It was funny. On the way home I brought up our joke about what good friends we really are since we give each other beer. She told me that she is giving these to me for my enjoyment, but I gave her the one because she was depressed and we laughed. We also joked about her contributing to the delinquency of a minor and all. As we were walking, I was holding my present up high and flaunting it. She joked that I shouldn't show off too much because there still is a law about a minor possessing alcohol. I told her that it's my birthday and if I want to bask in the joy of it all, then I can and we laughed. We were being very silly. As we parted I said 'Many thanks, well actually six thanks!' and she really liked that.
I was thinking about how perfectly her little surprise worked because I could have walked in while she was gone and it just wouldn't have been the same. She still doesn't know what she's doing for Thanksgiving. I told her that if it's bad weather in tampa, and I come back early, I'll give her a call and check on her well being.
Fran‡oise even wrote me a cute little note in class that was shaped like a birthday card. On the front it said `Herzlichen Glckwunch zum Geburstag!!' and had a bunch of smiley faces, balloons, and a cake with an 18 on top. On the back it said `German is fun!' Inside she wrote:
I hope you have a
great day and get a
plethora of presents
Happy Birthday {heart}
Fran!
{smile}
Of course the present was a six pack of imported Moosehead Beer, only the best. You could tell that it was a six pack of something and she joked that it was Cappio for a second. We were both being really funny and were joking around a lot until we got home. I had a lot of fun with her today. Halfway through class Melissa told Elaine that today is my birthday, so she was all surprised and told the entire class. She asked me how old I am, and when I told her eighteen, she said something about how young I am. Of course, almost everything we were saying was in German. She also had some of the other people in the class ask me how old I am and had the entire class wish me Happy Birthday in German. It was funny. On the way home I brought up our joke about what good friends we really are since we give each other beer. She told me that she is giving these to me for my enjoyment, but I gave her the one because she was depressed and we laughed. We also joked about her contributing to the delinquency of a minor and all. As we were walking, I was holding my present up high and flaunting it. She joked that I shouldn't show off too much because there still is a law about a minor possessing alcohol. I told her that it's my birthday and if I want to bask in the joy of it all, then I can and we laughed. We were being very silly. As we parted I said 'Many thanks, well actually six thanks!' and she really liked that.
I was thinking about how perfectly her little surprise worked because I could have walked in while she was gone and it just wouldn't have been the same. She still doesn't know what she's doing for Thanksgiving. I told her that if it's bad weather in tampa, and I come back early, I'll give her a call and check on her well being.
Fran‡oise even wrote me a cute little note in class that was shaped like a birthday card. On the front it said `Herzlichen Glckwunch zum Geburstag!!' and had a bunch of smiley faces, balloons, and a cake with an 18 on top. On the back it said `German is fun!' Inside she wrote:
I hope you have a
great day and get a
plethora of presents
Happy Birthday {heart}
Fran!
{smile}