I must say that March is well on its way to becoming a very exciting and eventful month. It began with a rekindling of activity between my old friend Ashley and me. She called me last night at about nine. I had an exam this morning in medical history that I had read for periodically over the weekend. I felt somewhat confidant, actually I felt really weird like I didn't know whether or not I cared that I had a midterm the next morning. I figure that I am usually so use to having to cram that actually knowing the stuff in advance baffled me. Anyway, I started cooking spaghetti early which takes forever and had just finished washing the dishes when Ashley called. What perfect timing!!!
She has a big test coming up in religion this week and said that she just can't study in her room with all of her roommates there. She asked me if I needed to study and whether or not I wanted to go study somewhere with her. Of course I did and jumped on the opportunity to study her alone in Turlington. Whoops! I meant study with her in Turlington! My bad! All of this right after Edward decreed that I should trim my hair and shave and try to start impressing Ashley because she'd be worth it. Of course my intentions are almost fully friendly but I leave little room for the unknown in Ashley's case.
We talked every once in a while about our relationships and I was coming up with some wonderful analyses of the problems in her relationship. We talked about Shar¡ and I as well and she made comments relating Ashley and my feelings towards each of our "lovers" as being very similar. We agreed how our emotions are both controlled by every whim that our significant others make. We fooled around quite a bit as well as I looked through my calendar and showed her things about Shar¡. She filled in a note on her birthday which I have already memorized and plan on doing something special for her. She also complained that I didn't have her middle name written down and told me that it is Michelle.
During one of our later breaks I think we were flirting just a little bit. She got up and was writing stuff on the chalkboard. She wrote "Hi Dan!" in big bubble letters and I joked that he probably won't get the message from where he is. She pouted very cutely and erased the exclamation mark and wrote my last initial. It was funny. She then erased that and wrote "I LOVE" and I looked at her as she paused and thought out an appropriate finish. She ended up drawing a giant question mark which really made me happy and relieved. We joked around and talked all of the way home and promised each other we'd study again tonight. I finished my test this morning somewhat confident of the material and bullshit mixture I spit out. As I was walking home Ashley's Jana walked up behind me and we walked home and talked. We both told each other that we had just finished an exam at the same time and we laughed about the jinx. We were talking about her and Jamee's wedding plans on May 28th after I let her know that I indeed knew about their existence. We had a rather good talk and I was glad.
That reminds me of my call to Ashley last Friday. During one part Laura got nosy and Ashley fooled her into thinking I was the other Daniel for a minute. We then were talking about Shar¡ for a second and I heard Laura ask if I was going out with that girl again. I said what does it matter to her because she would have never gone out with me in the first place. Ashley repeated the message to which Laura replied that I never asked!!! Oh well, I don't regret my choice in Shar¡ at all.
I rather enjoyed myself in lab today as my teacher handed back our unknown analysis schemes. I almost immediately filled out my form to do my unknown and he asked if I had any comments on my scheme and then he realized his error and said that I know what I am doing and sent me on my way. I did really well and was happy. I had a really good time observing Shar¡'s blond twin, especially her backside.
After dinner I napped for about fifteen minutes when the phone rang. I fully expected Ashley and was fantastically relieved to hear Shar¡'s beautiful relaxing voice on the other end!!! I had won my own mental battle!!! I had waited her out and let her call back without giving in to the extreme temptation to call her. I fully set myself up for the letdown in case she didn't after it seemed like she wasn't too thrilled to talk to me on Saturday and how usually she only called after being incited by me. I blabbed most of the time about stuff I have done lately and we joked around a little bit. I asked her which picture she wanted me to send in my letter and she said the one of me and Ashley because she wants to see what her competition looks like up here. It was funny but it seems like spring break might actually work........ No jinx please!!!!!
Ashley called during my conversation and I headed down to her room not long after Shar¡ and I hung up. I had started doubting Shar¡ a little today and was finding I might actually be able to live with that decision and she somehow knew to call at the perfect time. I was willing to go full out and tell Ashley all of my doubts about Shar¡ until a lot of them were erased by her call. I was so glad though that she called then and actually caught me at home so the waiting would be over and I wouldn't be worrying about it all night instead of studying. I actually studied for my chemistry exam which isn't until the Monday after spring break but I am being smart this time and am planning far in advance. I even told Shar¡ what I was doing.
I sat and chatted with all of her roommates for a little while and Jana went and showed me her town's newspaper announcement of her and Jamee's wedding plans. I brought Ashley a big article from the Tampa Tribune about the Phantom of the Opera which she really loves. Laura frowned that I didn't bring her anything. Ashley and I soon headed out. She always goes to the wrong door and I told her that she always undoes my attempts at getting the door for her. Once realizing she had she apologized and was better about that all night.
We were talking later about how I would fully expect to pick her up and walk her home next year if we study together, and said it's common courtesy. She stopped and said that it's just been such a long time since anybody has been courteous to her. I made the comment that it was the same for Shar¡ and that's why she's coming back for more. That was really sweet though what she said.
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Wednesday, March 2, 1994
Monday, February 14, 1994
February 14, 1994 - Monday - Ashley!, Shar¡'s trying!
Happy Valentine's Day!!!
I don't know why it matters because once again I have no Valentine of my very own. It's not that I couldn't have one. Leigh Anne has been begging me to forgive her all day long and to give her one more chance. She swears that we will never have to have this conversation again because she will dedicate her life to me. She also said that she would marry me tomorrow if I asked her to. I just want my first real Valentine to be special!!!
I slept last night under the study counter in the living room on my comforter with all my pillows and sheets. As soon as Marty was ready to leave at seven, Chris woke me and told me to come back into my own bed. Marty thanked me for letting them have the room and we said our farewells. I woke up at ten to meet Jana in front of the Fine Arts Building to give her the art history notes I had promised her from the day she missed class. We had our exam today at 12:50. Leigh Anne and I studied in Turlington until three in the morning last night and I got a lot done for my exam.
We read the Love Lines in today's Alligator and neither of us had sent each other one. She claims that she did and will soon have a check to prove it. There was a check missing number on her balance sheet but there was no place where she had written down who she wrote the check out to. I told her it makes a good story, at least.
I also went to my Greek class today and wrote Shar¡ a letter about Mardi Gras and all of that. Leigh Anne had gotten a letter from her delinquent friend, John Jerico. This is the guy who sent her a giant green wax hand tossing off a big red penis candle for her birthday. He writes worse than Shar¡ and I often joke that he's her version of Shar¡. He's broken up with his girlfriend and it's really obvious that he wants Leigh Anne. His letter ended up with, "P.S. Words alone can not express the way I feel. So please ask for a free demonstration." That's an awesome line and I copied it down to use in my letter to Shar¡. I also had a cool conversation with Dana (whose name I don't know yet) in Greek class about our lives over the past week and looked at her a couple times very sensuously and she returned the favor. She has really pretty dark hazel eyes.
Despite being exhausted I went to the hospital to volunteer tonight at six. Chris, Jon and I had been talking about what I can take the last ten pictures I have on my roll of film of so I can get them developed. They are really eager to see them so Jon joked that he needs four pictures of his plate of spaghetti and so forth. It was funny. Anyway, I figured it would be cool to take a couple of pictures of Shands so that everybody can see where I volunteer. I took two exterior shots and then had the nurse take my picture holding a baby in one of the rooms. That was really cool. I signed in at six and signed out at the same time with nine. That way I could leave before nine and not have to return to the desk and I did end up leaving at eight.
Things timed beautifully. I always wear my volunteering apron and name tag when I come back to Beatty because the girls seem to be really impressed by that. I saw two girls coming in the door as we walked in the elevator and I held the door a little longer for them than I normally would. It turned out to be Laura and Ashley!!!!! Laura had just given blood in the mobile outside the towers. We exchanged our Happy Valentines with a hug from Ashley. Laura then noticed that I volunteer which is really cool. I then told them how tired I am because of Mardi Gras and they got excited and asked me how it was. Ashley asked if she gets any beads and I said of course because I had already planned on surprising her with some earlier.
I came upstairs and put all of them on and then went straight down, still dressed up. Ashley was glad to see me so soon and we talked all about Mardi Gras and Valentines Day. I also talked with Jessica for a little bit about our history class. I gave Ashley a big pair of gold beads which she really liked. She was dressed up really nicely in a red sweater but told me that she had been wearing black all day and denying Valentine's existence because Daniel hasn't called. She only dressed up for dinner at the sorority. All this after she sent him a pair of silk boxer shorts and a bunch of Hershey Kisses and other candy.
I asked her about ideas to use up film and she mentioned Century Tower which everyone else said, too. That's got to be the worst idea because there are so many postcards of the ugly thing. Plus I've already taken my share when I've needed to use up film before. I had the idea that I wanted to take her picture especially since she looked so pretty dressed up. I don't think I normally would have asked, but I got her to come upstairs and Jon took two of us together which was really cool! We then talked in my room for quite a while about everything some more.
Oh yeah, while I was volunteering, Shar¡ called. I wondered why for a second when Jon suddenly made me realize that it's Valentine's Day!!!!! That's awesome!!! She's called twice in a week, and once on Valentine's! I tried calling her back but she wasn't home. The guy kind of rudely said no, but then seemed a lot more at ease when I said it was me. That's funny but is probably nothing. Anyway, Ashley and I talked about that for a few minutes, too, as I wondered out loud what Shar¡'s intentions are. May I soon find out!
I don't know why it matters because once again I have no Valentine of my very own. It's not that I couldn't have one. Leigh Anne has been begging me to forgive her all day long and to give her one more chance. She swears that we will never have to have this conversation again because she will dedicate her life to me. She also said that she would marry me tomorrow if I asked her to. I just want my first real Valentine to be special!!!
I slept last night under the study counter in the living room on my comforter with all my pillows and sheets. As soon as Marty was ready to leave at seven, Chris woke me and told me to come back into my own bed. Marty thanked me for letting them have the room and we said our farewells. I woke up at ten to meet Jana in front of the Fine Arts Building to give her the art history notes I had promised her from the day she missed class. We had our exam today at 12:50. Leigh Anne and I studied in Turlington until three in the morning last night and I got a lot done for my exam.
We read the Love Lines in today's Alligator and neither of us had sent each other one. She claims that she did and will soon have a check to prove it. There was a check missing number on her balance sheet but there was no place where she had written down who she wrote the check out to. I told her it makes a good story, at least.
I also went to my Greek class today and wrote Shar¡ a letter about Mardi Gras and all of that. Leigh Anne had gotten a letter from her delinquent friend, John Jerico. This is the guy who sent her a giant green wax hand tossing off a big red penis candle for her birthday. He writes worse than Shar¡ and I often joke that he's her version of Shar¡. He's broken up with his girlfriend and it's really obvious that he wants Leigh Anne. His letter ended up with, "P.S. Words alone can not express the way I feel. So please ask for a free demonstration." That's an awesome line and I copied it down to use in my letter to Shar¡. I also had a cool conversation with Dana (whose name I don't know yet) in Greek class about our lives over the past week and looked at her a couple times very sensuously and she returned the favor. She has really pretty dark hazel eyes.
Despite being exhausted I went to the hospital to volunteer tonight at six. Chris, Jon and I had been talking about what I can take the last ten pictures I have on my roll of film of so I can get them developed. They are really eager to see them so Jon joked that he needs four pictures of his plate of spaghetti and so forth. It was funny. Anyway, I figured it would be cool to take a couple of pictures of Shands so that everybody can see where I volunteer. I took two exterior shots and then had the nurse take my picture holding a baby in one of the rooms. That was really cool. I signed in at six and signed out at the same time with nine. That way I could leave before nine and not have to return to the desk and I did end up leaving at eight.
Things timed beautifully. I always wear my volunteering apron and name tag when I come back to Beatty because the girls seem to be really impressed by that. I saw two girls coming in the door as we walked in the elevator and I held the door a little longer for them than I normally would. It turned out to be Laura and Ashley!!!!! Laura had just given blood in the mobile outside the towers. We exchanged our Happy Valentines with a hug from Ashley. Laura then noticed that I volunteer which is really cool. I then told them how tired I am because of Mardi Gras and they got excited and asked me how it was. Ashley asked if she gets any beads and I said of course because I had already planned on surprising her with some earlier.
I came upstairs and put all of them on and then went straight down, still dressed up. Ashley was glad to see me so soon and we talked all about Mardi Gras and Valentines Day. I also talked with Jessica for a little bit about our history class. I gave Ashley a big pair of gold beads which she really liked. She was dressed up really nicely in a red sweater but told me that she had been wearing black all day and denying Valentine's existence because Daniel hasn't called. She only dressed up for dinner at the sorority. All this after she sent him a pair of silk boxer shorts and a bunch of Hershey Kisses and other candy.
I asked her about ideas to use up film and she mentioned Century Tower which everyone else said, too. That's got to be the worst idea because there are so many postcards of the ugly thing. Plus I've already taken my share when I've needed to use up film before. I had the idea that I wanted to take her picture especially since she looked so pretty dressed up. I don't think I normally would have asked, but I got her to come upstairs and Jon took two of us together which was really cool! We then talked in my room for quite a while about everything some more.
Oh yeah, while I was volunteering, Shar¡ called. I wondered why for a second when Jon suddenly made me realize that it's Valentine's Day!!!!! That's awesome!!! She's called twice in a week, and once on Valentine's! I tried calling her back but she wasn't home. The guy kind of rudely said no, but then seemed a lot more at ease when I said it was me. That's funny but is probably nothing. Anyway, Ashley and I talked about that for a few minutes, too, as I wondered out loud what Shar¡'s intentions are. May I soon find out!
Wednesday, January 5, 1994
January 5, 1994 - Wednesday - Shar¡ calls too late...
Shar¡ finally called me on Sunday night at ten to fulfill her promise that we'd get to see each other again before I left. I had been the one who said that if things didn't work out over the weekend, then Sunday would be OK. When she called she was waiting for Christina to get to her house to pick her up. She said she had one of her roommates drive her up to a payphone so she could call me but told him she was calling her mother. She called me back a few minutes later and said they were going to Fatsos first to play a few games of pool and then were going out to Talley Hos. As she was explaining how to get to Fatsos, Christina heard and got pissed that she always has to take Shar¡ around so she can see me. Shar¡ had failed to tell Christina beforehand that I was coming so she said she'd talk Christina out of it and then call me back. Stupid me jumped the gun and then got dressed, and then finished packing my car.
When Shar¡ had first called she asked me what I was doing and I said packing. She suddenly sounded upset and asked if that meant I couldn't go out. I said no that I really wanted to go and she quickly perked up and told me what was up. I then told her that I'm not promising anything and might back out. She laughed and said sarcastically that I will go and I laughed and told her that I know! It was funny how much she knows she has me wrapped around her finger. Cool thing is, it seems like she's still kind of wrapped as well.
She and Christina ended up taking off and playing pool first and then called me from Mulligans at midnight. I had essentially given up and had just undressed and had my mother start cooking me some dinner. She said that she stayed up to make sure I didn't run off really late because we both knew I would in a heartbeat. I called Talley Hos once before she got there and also had the idea of just going out there and waiting for her to show up. That would have actually been the smartest thing. I also, since I was already dressed, had very strong urges to go and burn Christina's apartment to the ground!!!, but I decided to eat dinner instead.
When she called she seemed happy and said that she talked to Christina on the way over and she just wanted some time for the two of them to hang out alone to begin with and then she would be more than happy to see me. Shar¡ also said that she really wanted to call me back so that I wouldn't get pissed off at her and that showed to me that she cares a little and impressed me. It was very smart of her, too, because I was definitely starting to get pissed. She asked me if I was ready to come out. I remembered from before how bad the weekend ended that time when I went out with them late and even though the circumstances are completely different, they haunted me.
I told her that since she called back so late, and since I'm leaving early in the morning, I decided against going all the way over there. My ears couldn't believe my mouth!!! I did tell her that I was really looking forward to seeing her that night but it just couldn't happen. She said that she really wanted to see me again, too, but she understands. She then said that she'll write me soon and we'll have to make sure we get together the next time to come down. We then said goodbye and I was very happy at the way things worked out.
Laura and Ashley stopped by to see me Monday night when the got home but I was at the grocery store with Ed and Roswitha. I later talked to Laura on the phone before I went to study with Chris. As we returned home and were walking up to Beaty there appeared Ashley returning from her sorority. I backed up for a second like I was avoiding her and she said, "Fine!," and then I reached out my arm and put it around her. She quickly wrapped her arm around me, which surprised me a little, and we walked like that all the way to the doors which I pulled away form her and opened for her. She had claimed that she was cold, which is why we walked holding on to each other. We talked quite a bit in the elevator and I then called her for a few minutes when I got upstairs.
We said how much we are going to miss our mornings and she agreed, saying that she's going to miss me, but we will have to study and go to Taco Hell every once in a while.
Leigh Anne's been a silly little bitch lately as well. I almost didn't include her in my journal but I guess she was apart of my life and I can't hide hr forever. When she knocked at the door Monday night I was instantly wonderful and asked her all about her break despite the fact that we hated each other when we last spoke on the phone. She was nice back and we all talked for quite a while. We ended up being wonderful to each other for quite a while and ended up kissing which progressed to our taking a shower together. We didn't have sex though because she is sick and on her period and didn't feel very well at all.
I then started avoiding her. She was manic depressive again a little while ago and was all ready to go home and I made it clear that I wanted her to but didn't believe a word she was saying. She then called her mom who talked her out of it and we chatted before I told her we will just have to end up being friends and nothing more. I'm completely in the mood for something new and have sen all of the amazing possibilities walking around campus lately.
I went to my history of Western medicine class yesterday morning and was joined by Ashley and Laura's roommate, Jessica. We never seem to talk much but did at least for a few minutes. There were a hell of a lot of attractive girls in there and I loved it. The class seems really interesting as well and I'm glad to have finally gotten it after trying and failing to last semester. Both LAura and Ashley later told me that Jessica had already told them we have a class together. Laura joked that I'm making my rounds through all of her roommates, but what about her. Actually, we did have chemistry together but didn't know so.
My art experience class also seems pretty cool in the way it is taught plus the abundance of women. I was kind of afraid of having to be in there with Leigh Anne alone until I saw Jana from high school. I was busy flirting with all of the really hot girls outside before approaching her. She seemed surprised to see me and quickly said that she was going to come and sit with me. That was cool. I made sure to be really nice and listen to everything she said and to be concerned with her since I did use to be way too egotistical when I used to know her in high school. I introduced Leigh Anne to her as my next door neighbor which kind of pissed Leigh Anne off but I had pre warned her that I was going to do so. She and I were talking about her (ex)boyfriend (me!) as if he were some other guy in front of JAna and that conversation was really funny. I told her she should just dump him and go out with me and so forth. I liked it.
By the way, Happy New Year!!!!!
When Shar¡ had first called she asked me what I was doing and I said packing. She suddenly sounded upset and asked if that meant I couldn't go out. I said no that I really wanted to go and she quickly perked up and told me what was up. I then told her that I'm not promising anything and might back out. She laughed and said sarcastically that I will go and I laughed and told her that I know! It was funny how much she knows she has me wrapped around her finger. Cool thing is, it seems like she's still kind of wrapped as well.
She and Christina ended up taking off and playing pool first and then called me from Mulligans at midnight. I had essentially given up and had just undressed and had my mother start cooking me some dinner. She said that she stayed up to make sure I didn't run off really late because we both knew I would in a heartbeat. I called Talley Hos once before she got there and also had the idea of just going out there and waiting for her to show up. That would have actually been the smartest thing. I also, since I was already dressed, had very strong urges to go and burn Christina's apartment to the ground!!!, but I decided to eat dinner instead.
When she called she seemed happy and said that she talked to Christina on the way over and she just wanted some time for the two of them to hang out alone to begin with and then she would be more than happy to see me. Shar¡ also said that she really wanted to call me back so that I wouldn't get pissed off at her and that showed to me that she cares a little and impressed me. It was very smart of her, too, because I was definitely starting to get pissed. She asked me if I was ready to come out. I remembered from before how bad the weekend ended that time when I went out with them late and even though the circumstances are completely different, they haunted me.
I told her that since she called back so late, and since I'm leaving early in the morning, I decided against going all the way over there. My ears couldn't believe my mouth!!! I did tell her that I was really looking forward to seeing her that night but it just couldn't happen. She said that she really wanted to see me again, too, but she understands. She then said that she'll write me soon and we'll have to make sure we get together the next time to come down. We then said goodbye and I was very happy at the way things worked out.
Laura and Ashley stopped by to see me Monday night when the got home but I was at the grocery store with Ed and Roswitha. I later talked to Laura on the phone before I went to study with Chris. As we returned home and were walking up to Beaty there appeared Ashley returning from her sorority. I backed up for a second like I was avoiding her and she said, "Fine!," and then I reached out my arm and put it around her. She quickly wrapped her arm around me, which surprised me a little, and we walked like that all the way to the doors which I pulled away form her and opened for her. She had claimed that she was cold, which is why we walked holding on to each other. We talked quite a bit in the elevator and I then called her for a few minutes when I got upstairs.
We said how much we are going to miss our mornings and she agreed, saying that she's going to miss me, but we will have to study and go to Taco Hell every once in a while.
Leigh Anne's been a silly little bitch lately as well. I almost didn't include her in my journal but I guess she was apart of my life and I can't hide hr forever. When she knocked at the door Monday night I was instantly wonderful and asked her all about her break despite the fact that we hated each other when we last spoke on the phone. She was nice back and we all talked for quite a while. We ended up being wonderful to each other for quite a while and ended up kissing which progressed to our taking a shower together. We didn't have sex though because she is sick and on her period and didn't feel very well at all.
I then started avoiding her. She was manic depressive again a little while ago and was all ready to go home and I made it clear that I wanted her to but didn't believe a word she was saying. She then called her mom who talked her out of it and we chatted before I told her we will just have to end up being friends and nothing more. I'm completely in the mood for something new and have sen all of the amazing possibilities walking around campus lately.
I went to my history of Western medicine class yesterday morning and was joined by Ashley and Laura's roommate, Jessica. We never seem to talk much but did at least for a few minutes. There were a hell of a lot of attractive girls in there and I loved it. The class seems really interesting as well and I'm glad to have finally gotten it after trying and failing to last semester. Both LAura and Ashley later told me that Jessica had already told them we have a class together. Laura joked that I'm making my rounds through all of her roommates, but what about her. Actually, we did have chemistry together but didn't know so.
My art experience class also seems pretty cool in the way it is taught plus the abundance of women. I was kind of afraid of having to be in there with Leigh Anne alone until I saw Jana from high school. I was busy flirting with all of the really hot girls outside before approaching her. She seemed surprised to see me and quickly said that she was going to come and sit with me. That was cool. I made sure to be really nice and listen to everything she said and to be concerned with her since I did use to be way too egotistical when I used to know her in high school. I introduced Leigh Anne to her as my next door neighbor which kind of pissed Leigh Anne off but I had pre warned her that I was going to do so. She and I were talking about her (ex)boyfriend (me!) as if he were some other guy in front of JAna and that conversation was really funny. I told her she should just dump him and go out with me and so forth. I liked it.
By the way, Happy New Year!!!!!
Tuesday, December 28, 1993
December 28, 1993 - Tuesday - Run in w/ Shar¡!, Laura!
Life is cool. Life sucks. And playing God is fun.
Heh heh, heh heh, heh heh!
Shar¡ called me last night at midnight just as I had settled down for a long winter's nap. Mother answered and came and got me. The voice was a little heavy and I was expecting Leigh Anne after an earlier call, but instead it was Shar¡! She was at a pool bar somewhere which is why she could call and we talked for just a few minutes. She asked when I would be going back to school and when I told her not until Sunday she got all happy that she still has a week to get together with me. She asked if I'd like to do something like come down and shoot pool, maybe on Friday night and I said yes, of course. She then told me that I'll be surprised when I see her because she looks a lot different, "as white as a ghost" as she put it. SHe said she' shave to talk to Christina about it but thinks she'll agree because she likes me, and we laughed.
I told her about the pictures I had developed and she said she'd really like to see them. She then told me how she visited the family for Christmas and got a bunch of toys and clothes for Cord and how her dad had given her fifty dollars. She asked about mine and I told her I worked and had just gotten home when she called the other night. She thought that sucked. She had to go before long and she said that she'd call me sometime soon, maybe today.
I had called Buffy earlier in the day and asked when a good time to come and pick up my ring would be. She agreed that this afternoon would be cool but to give her a call before I come over. We then talked about Shar¡ for a while. She said that she hasn't talked to her since I'd called last time but Chad, Shar¡'s brother, has. He said that Shar¡ looks like shit right now and her face is all broken out. He said that they live in a real shithole trailer with cardboard over the broken windows. She said he saw Cord running around in very few clothes in the freezing cold and that pissed Buffy off because she had given Shar¡ a bunch of stuff for him. I told her how Shar¡ has been trying to call me and we talked for a few minutes on Christmas and Buffy said that even though Shar¡ is supposedly "dedicated" to this guy, how come she keeps calling everybody else? She also told me that Shar¡ just got out of the hospital for both a liver and kidney infection. She also complained about how Ernie gave Shar¡ money for food and we both know where that's going to go... and she mentioned a desire to call HRS on Shar¡ as well which I fully support.
I talked to mother later and she told me that a liver infection usually means hepatitis!!! I also was talking with her about all of my girlfriends and why I liked Shar¡ so much. I realized that I am a creative person that likes to make things and Shar¡ was the perfect raw material after attempting suicide. I wanted to mold and influence her into the perfect girlfriend and was doing damn well until I left. I am always going to regret having to leave her. She was getting goals and actually was starting to carry them through. It was all so perfect for a while.
I arrived at Busch Gardens early this morning and waited a while to get a spot in the public parking lot. I was at the fountain by the main entrance a little before ten and waited for Laura. I even ran inside once and looked around in the shop before going back out. at 10:17 I saw her and was glad she wasn't very late, for she did tell me she probably would be but she impressed me. I very easily could have taken her not showing up after some of the abuse I've let myself go through in the past year. We headed in and then went straight for the rides.
I then headed over to Buffy's house to find this cute little note on the door.
I pulled away from the house pissed off and suddenly wondering how I was going to explain any of this to my parents. I was pissed at Shar¡ and figured she wouldn't call me anymore since she knew I was supposed to try and get my ring today and would find out, if she had indeed taken it. I got around the corner only to look into the passing car as I always do and saw Shar¡ wave at me. I had just been thinking earlier how I had never driven out to her house before without the full intentions of seeing her, and I also was wondering how I could find out where this guys trailer is and what car he drives. Well two wishes were suddenly fulfilled. He was in an old white Trans Am with a red stripe. I pulled around the corner and headed back to Buffy's house.
There were a lot of funny things, though. Buffy had said that Shar¡ hasn't talked to her since I last called her, so why the hell is Shar¡ all of the sudden stopping by to see her. I also had told Shar¡ last night that I was going over, but later on, and I was there kind of early. I wonder if she was trying to get there before me. It's also an amazing coincidence that I even saw her because it happened at the last second as they drove by and all I saw were the hands and then went on the hunch. The timing had to be perfect for us to run into each other like that. I also realized how close Shar¡ came to finding the note before I did, which might have been better now that I think about it. I also wonder now if the guy driving the car is just one of her roommates, as she calls them, or Craig. I also thought it might be her older brother for a second but I really don't think so.
I drove up behind them as she was trying to ring on the doorbell and I told her where Buffy was. She came and asked what's up and then said that they were going to get gas and come back. I left too and ran by Ashley's house but she wasn't home. I then went back and waited in the driveway and before long Shar¡ returned and the guy parked right behind me, blocking me in. That actually scared me a little bit and I got my knife ready and had a quick way out of the situation straight through the yard. After a little while, Shar¡ finally got out of her car and came up to my window again to start talking to me. I had just pulled out the pictures and was sorting through the ones she could see. She got excited when she saw that and wanted to look at them.
Shar¡ herself did look really bad. I have never seen her wear shitty clothes before but she was doing so. She was in these soft shorts that one would wear pregnant if her jean shorts didn't fit her anymore, but I couldn't really tell anything at all. Her face was all broken out, and my mother later told me your face breaks out and you lose some weight when you get pregnant! Great. But it happens by smoking pot every day, too. She had Cord come out too and he looked puny just because I haven't seen him in so long. I also noticed the necklace stilled tied around her neck that I gave her, and I think I remember the bracelet still being there as well. That was cool.
She looked at the pictures of her and laughed at some of them really hard. She wanted to see the ones of me as well and went through those. She pulled out this one of me lying in bed after I just woke up and told me that it looks really good. She realized what a fucking stupid face she was making in this one with the stickers on her nipples and also laughed about the one where she was running downstairs for a smoke break. She asked if there were any more and I showed her the two of us playing pool and she really liked the one of her in her black zipper outfit and thinks it was the best of them all. I agreed and said that I think the one of her in a sheet is really cute, too. She then said something about not being able to get the black shorts on anymore because she's getting too fat and we both looked at each other and laughed. That was really weird and I realized soon after that it might have been another pregnancy hint!!!
She took the pictures back to the guy in the car and told him in a somewhat singy voice to look at "me and Dan!" That kind of made me curious as well, and made me wonder if it was really Craig in the car. If I were a girls boyfriend and she did what I was doing right then, I would have kicked her ass. She's showing him pictures of her in her underwear, plus the ones of me. When she came back she asked if she gets too keep them and I asked if she wanted them all. She said yes, including the ones of me. I asked whys he wants them, and if she still has the others. She said definitely and that she still looks at them every once in a while. It might sound too overconfident but she might have said all of the time, I can't quite remember.
She then asked me if I was going to throw away the ones of her and I said no, that I always keep crap like that and smiled really big and she laughed and said, "Crap, huh?!" and smiled as she pretended to whap me with the pictures in her hand. I wish now that I would have told her that I always like to remember the things that make me happy... She then grabbed the two pool pictures from between my legs that I had taken out of my album for her.
I then asked her if she has been in the hospital lately and she looked at me with a very surprised look and asked me how I knew! I smiled and wouldn't tell her but said that I knew it was for both kidney and liver infections. She agreed and then I asked her if she knew that a liver infection is just a nice name for hepatitis. She argued that it's not because hepatitis kills you and I used my dad as an example. She then admitted that she's supposed to go back in for blood tests really soon to see if it is either an early of late stage of hepatitis that she has. I then fed her some scary bull about it being a dangerous disease and how it can come back at any time once you have it. She believes me because I'm supposed to become a doctor and I love it. I then called her a walking venereal disease and she said that I'm probably glad that I'm rid of her now that I know this...
We talked a little while longer and she asked how I did in my classes and I told her how she made me fail biology by not letting me study that weekend. She said it wasn't really her fault but I told her that she makes a damn good excuse for my parents and anybody else who asks. She thought that was just great. We talked a little longer before I told her that I was going to split before long. She agreed and went back to her car about five minutes later. I wanted her to come back up for a second so I could tell her I work Friday night and also to write me if I don't see her again over the break, but oh well. I kind of chased them out of Bloomingdale West before we made our parting ways.
Shar¡ :
Are you pregnant?
Who was the guy in the car?
Heh heh, heh heh, heh heh!
Shar¡ called me last night at midnight just as I had settled down for a long winter's nap. Mother answered and came and got me. The voice was a little heavy and I was expecting Leigh Anne after an earlier call, but instead it was Shar¡! She was at a pool bar somewhere which is why she could call and we talked for just a few minutes. She asked when I would be going back to school and when I told her not until Sunday she got all happy that she still has a week to get together with me. She asked if I'd like to do something like come down and shoot pool, maybe on Friday night and I said yes, of course. She then told me that I'll be surprised when I see her because she looks a lot different, "as white as a ghost" as she put it. SHe said she' shave to talk to Christina about it but thinks she'll agree because she likes me, and we laughed.
I told her about the pictures I had developed and she said she'd really like to see them. She then told me how she visited the family for Christmas and got a bunch of toys and clothes for Cord and how her dad had given her fifty dollars. She asked about mine and I told her I worked and had just gotten home when she called the other night. She thought that sucked. She had to go before long and she said that she'd call me sometime soon, maybe today.
I had called Buffy earlier in the day and asked when a good time to come and pick up my ring would be. She agreed that this afternoon would be cool but to give her a call before I come over. We then talked about Shar¡ for a while. She said that she hasn't talked to her since I'd called last time but Chad, Shar¡'s brother, has. He said that Shar¡ looks like shit right now and her face is all broken out. He said that they live in a real shithole trailer with cardboard over the broken windows. She said he saw Cord running around in very few clothes in the freezing cold and that pissed Buffy off because she had given Shar¡ a bunch of stuff for him. I told her how Shar¡ has been trying to call me and we talked for a few minutes on Christmas and Buffy said that even though Shar¡ is supposedly "dedicated" to this guy, how come she keeps calling everybody else? She also told me that Shar¡ just got out of the hospital for both a liver and kidney infection. She also complained about how Ernie gave Shar¡ money for food and we both know where that's going to go... and she mentioned a desire to call HRS on Shar¡ as well which I fully support.
I talked to mother later and she told me that a liver infection usually means hepatitis!!! I also was talking with her about all of my girlfriends and why I liked Shar¡ so much. I realized that I am a creative person that likes to make things and Shar¡ was the perfect raw material after attempting suicide. I wanted to mold and influence her into the perfect girlfriend and was doing damn well until I left. I am always going to regret having to leave her. She was getting goals and actually was starting to carry them through. It was all so perfect for a while.
I arrived at Busch Gardens early this morning and waited a while to get a spot in the public parking lot. I was at the fountain by the main entrance a little before ten and waited for Laura. I even ran inside once and looked around in the shop before going back out. at 10:17 I saw her and was glad she wasn't very late, for she did tell me she probably would be but she impressed me. I very easily could have taken her not showing up after some of the abuse I've let myself go through in the past year. We headed in and then went straight for the rides.
I then headed over to Buffy's house to find this cute little note on the door.
I pulled away from the house pissed off and suddenly wondering how I was going to explain any of this to my parents. I was pissed at Shar¡ and figured she wouldn't call me anymore since she knew I was supposed to try and get my ring today and would find out, if she had indeed taken it. I got around the corner only to look into the passing car as I always do and saw Shar¡ wave at me. I had just been thinking earlier how I had never driven out to her house before without the full intentions of seeing her, and I also was wondering how I could find out where this guys trailer is and what car he drives. Well two wishes were suddenly fulfilled. He was in an old white Trans Am with a red stripe. I pulled around the corner and headed back to Buffy's house.
There were a lot of funny things, though. Buffy had said that Shar¡ hasn't talked to her since I last called her, so why the hell is Shar¡ all of the sudden stopping by to see her. I also had told Shar¡ last night that I was going over, but later on, and I was there kind of early. I wonder if she was trying to get there before me. It's also an amazing coincidence that I even saw her because it happened at the last second as they drove by and all I saw were the hands and then went on the hunch. The timing had to be perfect for us to run into each other like that. I also realized how close Shar¡ came to finding the note before I did, which might have been better now that I think about it. I also wonder now if the guy driving the car is just one of her roommates, as she calls them, or Craig. I also thought it might be her older brother for a second but I really don't think so.
I drove up behind them as she was trying to ring on the doorbell and I told her where Buffy was. She came and asked what's up and then said that they were going to get gas and come back. I left too and ran by Ashley's house but she wasn't home. I then went back and waited in the driveway and before long Shar¡ returned and the guy parked right behind me, blocking me in. That actually scared me a little bit and I got my knife ready and had a quick way out of the situation straight through the yard. After a little while, Shar¡ finally got out of her car and came up to my window again to start talking to me. I had just pulled out the pictures and was sorting through the ones she could see. She got excited when she saw that and wanted to look at them.
Shar¡ herself did look really bad. I have never seen her wear shitty clothes before but she was doing so. She was in these soft shorts that one would wear pregnant if her jean shorts didn't fit her anymore, but I couldn't really tell anything at all. Her face was all broken out, and my mother later told me your face breaks out and you lose some weight when you get pregnant! Great. But it happens by smoking pot every day, too. She had Cord come out too and he looked puny just because I haven't seen him in so long. I also noticed the necklace stilled tied around her neck that I gave her, and I think I remember the bracelet still being there as well. That was cool.
She looked at the pictures of her and laughed at some of them really hard. She wanted to see the ones of me as well and went through those. She pulled out this one of me lying in bed after I just woke up and told me that it looks really good. She realized what a fucking stupid face she was making in this one with the stickers on her nipples and also laughed about the one where she was running downstairs for a smoke break. She asked if there were any more and I showed her the two of us playing pool and she really liked the one of her in her black zipper outfit and thinks it was the best of them all. I agreed and said that I think the one of her in a sheet is really cute, too. She then said something about not being able to get the black shorts on anymore because she's getting too fat and we both looked at each other and laughed. That was really weird and I realized soon after that it might have been another pregnancy hint!!!
She took the pictures back to the guy in the car and told him in a somewhat singy voice to look at "me and Dan!" That kind of made me curious as well, and made me wonder if it was really Craig in the car. If I were a girls boyfriend and she did what I was doing right then, I would have kicked her ass. She's showing him pictures of her in her underwear, plus the ones of me. When she came back she asked if she gets too keep them and I asked if she wanted them all. She said yes, including the ones of me. I asked whys he wants them, and if she still has the others. She said definitely and that she still looks at them every once in a while. It might sound too overconfident but she might have said all of the time, I can't quite remember.
She then asked me if I was going to throw away the ones of her and I said no, that I always keep crap like that and smiled really big and she laughed and said, "Crap, huh?!" and smiled as she pretended to whap me with the pictures in her hand. I wish now that I would have told her that I always like to remember the things that make me happy... She then grabbed the two pool pictures from between my legs that I had taken out of my album for her.
I then asked her if she has been in the hospital lately and she looked at me with a very surprised look and asked me how I knew! I smiled and wouldn't tell her but said that I knew it was for both kidney and liver infections. She agreed and then I asked her if she knew that a liver infection is just a nice name for hepatitis. She argued that it's not because hepatitis kills you and I used my dad as an example. She then admitted that she's supposed to go back in for blood tests really soon to see if it is either an early of late stage of hepatitis that she has. I then fed her some scary bull about it being a dangerous disease and how it can come back at any time once you have it. She believes me because I'm supposed to become a doctor and I love it. I then called her a walking venereal disease and she said that I'm probably glad that I'm rid of her now that I know this...
We talked a little while longer and she asked how I did in my classes and I told her how she made me fail biology by not letting me study that weekend. She said it wasn't really her fault but I told her that she makes a damn good excuse for my parents and anybody else who asks. She thought that was just great. We talked a little longer before I told her that I was going to split before long. She agreed and went back to her car about five minutes later. I wanted her to come back up for a second so I could tell her I work Friday night and also to write me if I don't see her again over the break, but oh well. I kind of chased them out of Bloomingdale West before we made our parting ways.
Shar¡ :
Are you pregnant?
Who was the guy in the car?
Friday, December 17, 1993
December 17, 1993 - Friday - Accepting Shari, Busch!
I just talked to Christina and learned a few things that aren't really new or important. She was worried that this guy, Josh, gave her a disease and just found out that he didn't after he visited the hospital. The guy who got her pregnant also is threatening that she will get an abortion, with or without violence so she's planning on staying with an Aunt in Daytona starting at the beginning of the new year. There goes my only connection with Shar¡. I changed the subject to Shar¡, and Christina complained that it seems like she keeps giving Josh these looks like she likes him. She also was joking about how much Shar¡ and I pissed her off back when we started going out. I joked about wanting to have sex with her now and she really liked that a lot. I told her that she didn't really miss anything but she said that she doesn't know that and I could be awesome in bed because Shar¡ never talked about us having sex to her. I really like that. I told her that either way I have been practicing a lot lately and we laughed.
Christina claims that Shar¡ definitely lost our baby. I tried to help her figure out why but she doesn't know. I asked about Livestock but she said that Shar¡ didn't go to Livestock because they were together that weekend...??????? I asked and she told me that Shar¡ has known for about two months and she was telling me again how much she thought Shar¡ should have told me from the beginning and how they used to talk about that. They are going out to Mulligans tonight and I asked her to please tell Shar¡ to call me and she said she would. I made a few cute jokes that will almost assure that she does.
What sucks is that my life suddenly feels so empty right now. I had a dream two nights ago about this confrontation between Shar¡ and I and she told me that she was having triplets!!! but then disappeared and didn't have much to do with me for the rest of the dream. It was my mind fearing that even if she does have my baby, that she'll stay with the other guy. I think triplets stemmed from my want of twins, plus Cord. I really feel that I was taken for a ride by Shar¡ and was meddling with something I wasn't ever meant to understand. I tried to change so much for her and that probably isn't right. That empty feeling inside just dreads having to start everything all over again.
It's weird I feel that way because I have Leigh Anne who wants to marry me and is pushing sex down my throat, Sarah seems pretty promising, Kimmeth is still a really good friend, Laura and I are on improving terms, and Ashley and I are better friends than ever. I've never had such an abundance of good women, and for so long it has been overshadowed by the love of the one bad one. Everything that could possibly be wrong was... love must be the strongest thing in the universe.
Ashley and I met downstairs at seven on Wednesday morning to walk to our Biology exam. She had stayed at her sorority house for the night to study. We went and took the test and I waited afterwards for her outside. I met up with Fran‡oise and we talked for a while. It turns out that she and Leigh Anne were next door neighbors last year. Anyway, Ashley and I cried about the exam afterwards on our trip home.
I took advantage of the little spare time I had to mail Christmas cards. I bought one for Granny, Kimmeth and Carey Ann before buying another much better one for Kim at the mall. The one I had originally picked out for her was really mushy and talked about how special our friendship is. I tried to rearrange the cards so that I could give them to four different people, not knowing how Kim would like two. It suddenly hit me how appropriate Ashley would be as a recipient of the friendship card. I filled it out and told her to give me a call in Tampa (that's another reason I gave it to her, to give myself an excuse to give her my home phone number!). It was really sweet. I only felt bad about not giving Laura anything. I then had the person downstairs put the card in Ashley's mailbox to formalize the whole thing.
I got a call from Ashley later on that night and she started off the conversation in a way that I wasn't sure if she had gotten the card. She finally thanked me for it and you could tell that he really liked it, a lot!!! She's the kind of girl that really appreciates sentimental things. I also had been worried about how I could keep our friendship going strong next semester and I think I did a damn good job of solidifying it. We talked for forty-five minutes until her phone battery started going dead.
She then invited me down and I stayed for over an hour. She gave me a Jolt cola and a bag full of candy. We talked a lot and a couple of times when I would say I was about ready to go just to make sure I wasn't imposing, she would whine and say that I have to stay to keep her company. Laura, Jessica and Rob showed up from seeing the movie, Jurassic Park and we all talked for a while longer. Jessica started an art collage due the next day that consisted of pictures from 1974. She kept holding up pictures and asking us who they were and I answered almost every one right and she was really impressed.
Laura and I were getting along really well, too. She kept cutting down Rob. One time I complained about the Muppet Christmas music, and he then agreed. Laura told him if he didn't like it he could leave and he jokingly complained that she was picking on him and not me. She then said that I am a real friend and came over and gave me a hug! I really liked that. We recommitted our engagement with a ring made out of a piece of Ashley's artificial Christmas tree. It was really cute. We also talked about our presumed date to Busch Gardens some more. Ashley and I have a little date planned for lunch when I come out to Brandon to pick up my ring as well.
Ashley then gave me a call last night from Tampa!!!
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Leigh Anne and my final words:
L - I'm tired of hearing about her, tell it to someone who cares...
D - I'm tired of hearing about us, tell it to someone who cares...
Christina claims that Shar¡ definitely lost our baby. I tried to help her figure out why but she doesn't know. I asked about Livestock but she said that Shar¡ didn't go to Livestock because they were together that weekend...??????? I asked and she told me that Shar¡ has known for about two months and she was telling me again how much she thought Shar¡ should have told me from the beginning and how they used to talk about that. They are going out to Mulligans tonight and I asked her to please tell Shar¡ to call me and she said she would. I made a few cute jokes that will almost assure that she does.
What sucks is that my life suddenly feels so empty right now. I had a dream two nights ago about this confrontation between Shar¡ and I and she told me that she was having triplets!!! but then disappeared and didn't have much to do with me for the rest of the dream. It was my mind fearing that even if she does have my baby, that she'll stay with the other guy. I think triplets stemmed from my want of twins, plus Cord. I really feel that I was taken for a ride by Shar¡ and was meddling with something I wasn't ever meant to understand. I tried to change so much for her and that probably isn't right. That empty feeling inside just dreads having to start everything all over again.
It's weird I feel that way because I have Leigh Anne who wants to marry me and is pushing sex down my throat, Sarah seems pretty promising, Kimmeth is still a really good friend, Laura and I are on improving terms, and Ashley and I are better friends than ever. I've never had such an abundance of good women, and for so long it has been overshadowed by the love of the one bad one. Everything that could possibly be wrong was... love must be the strongest thing in the universe.
Ashley and I met downstairs at seven on Wednesday morning to walk to our Biology exam. She had stayed at her sorority house for the night to study. We went and took the test and I waited afterwards for her outside. I met up with Fran‡oise and we talked for a while. It turns out that she and Leigh Anne were next door neighbors last year. Anyway, Ashley and I cried about the exam afterwards on our trip home.
I took advantage of the little spare time I had to mail Christmas cards. I bought one for Granny, Kimmeth and Carey Ann before buying another much better one for Kim at the mall. The one I had originally picked out for her was really mushy and talked about how special our friendship is. I tried to rearrange the cards so that I could give them to four different people, not knowing how Kim would like two. It suddenly hit me how appropriate Ashley would be as a recipient of the friendship card. I filled it out and told her to give me a call in Tampa (that's another reason I gave it to her, to give myself an excuse to give her my home phone number!). It was really sweet. I only felt bad about not giving Laura anything. I then had the person downstairs put the card in Ashley's mailbox to formalize the whole thing.
I got a call from Ashley later on that night and she started off the conversation in a way that I wasn't sure if she had gotten the card. She finally thanked me for it and you could tell that he really liked it, a lot!!! She's the kind of girl that really appreciates sentimental things. I also had been worried about how I could keep our friendship going strong next semester and I think I did a damn good job of solidifying it. We talked for forty-five minutes until her phone battery started going dead.
She then invited me down and I stayed for over an hour. She gave me a Jolt cola and a bag full of candy. We talked a lot and a couple of times when I would say I was about ready to go just to make sure I wasn't imposing, she would whine and say that I have to stay to keep her company. Laura, Jessica and Rob showed up from seeing the movie, Jurassic Park and we all talked for a while longer. Jessica started an art collage due the next day that consisted of pictures from 1974. She kept holding up pictures and asking us who they were and I answered almost every one right and she was really impressed.
Laura and I were getting along really well, too. She kept cutting down Rob. One time I complained about the Muppet Christmas music, and he then agreed. Laura told him if he didn't like it he could leave and he jokingly complained that she was picking on him and not me. She then said that I am a real friend and came over and gave me a hug! I really liked that. We recommitted our engagement with a ring made out of a piece of Ashley's artificial Christmas tree. It was really cute. We also talked about our presumed date to Busch Gardens some more. Ashley and I have a little date planned for lunch when I come out to Brandon to pick up my ring as well.
Ashley then gave me a call last night from Tampa!!!
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Leigh Anne and my final words:
L - I'm tired of hearing about her, tell it to someone who cares...
D - I'm tired of hearing about us, tell it to someone who cares...
Tuesday, November 23, 1993
November 23, 1993 - Tuesday - Laura's dream!, Kimmeth!
It's been quite a while since I've written in my journal and so much stuff has happened during my period of neglect. I should really be studying for my German culture exam right now, and my brain is going nuts trying to force me to, but sometimes there are more important things in life that have to be taken care of first. Tomorrow I am going down to Tampa with Jon and his cousin for Thanksgiving vacation as soon as I get home from this exam. I've pretty much packed everything and am ready although it would mean the world to me if I could only have an extra week of time thrown in right about now. I'd like to write my little sister a nice long letter because she hasn't heard from me since the events during Homecoming week.
I just went downstairs and had Ashley replace my starter earring with my gold half inch hoop. It was a real pain in the ass the other day when I tried to get it in, and she had just as bad a time but she finally came through. I repeatedly told her how much I appreciated her helping me because I know that I often neglect to let people know what they really need to hear, and I just wanted to make sure she knew. I was originally going to have Delisa, the fat one next door, do it but she didn't answer the door. I'm glad now that I let Ashley because I trust her and she did an awesome job. She cleaned my ear with hydrogen peroxide because it started to bleed when she accidentally ripped the starter out, and it felt good that she didn't cringe away from my bodily fluids, and instead nursed my ear back to health. I was very impressed and she said that she has had practice with Daniel's ear a couple of times.
I talked to Laura for a few minutes, and Rob, who were watching the movie, Alive. Some guy named Eric who used to work at Busch Gardens called Laura and was wanting a ride home and she asked if he knew me, and he said yes, "Big Dan!" Laura asked why he called me that (like it's not obvious!) and I told her that he knows things she doesn't. She complained about that later and asked something about finding out! I wish!!! I really do! We wished each other a happy Thanksgiving and Ashley remembered to say Happy Birthday as I left.
Ashley and I have kind of been stressing out all weekend about a big biology exam that we finally took this morning. We decided ahead of time last week that we were going to buy the A Plus notes this time and skipped class under my discretion to go and get them. We didn't realize the place opened at nine, so we had about half an hour to kill. I treated us to chocolate milkshakes at McDonalds and we sat out on the patio and talked. We had a decent time and then picked up the notes on the way to the gym, where I dropped her off and headed to my other classes. I talked to her early on Saturday and we discussed when I would drop off the notes, and she told me to ask Laura if she would like some ground beef the next time I see her. She told me not to ask why, but just to do it.
Well, I stopped by Sunday night and caught Ashley, Laura, and Jana just finishing up dinner. Jana was exceptionally nice and talkative to me and was telling me stories about things that have happened lately. I was surprised that she suddenly seems to like me so much now. I joked with Ashley a little bit before asking laura about the ground beef. She got a little embarrassed but didn't hesitate a bit to tell me the story behind it. It is something that I never would expect someone to tell another person either, especially when that someone is the subject...
She told me that she had a dream that Jana was in the kitchen browning ground beef on the stove, and I was in there with her, visiting for some reason. She said that she was lying in bed and I eventually picked up the pan of beef and came into her room and dumped a big scoopful onto the middle of her floor. She got mad at me and then I held a scoop up under her chin and she said it only felt warm, not hot, but it did later leave a burn mark. She said that when she got up to wash herself off, I climbed into one of their beds and by that time she was really frustrated and went to clean up the beef off of the floor. She then said that she screamed my name at me and woke up at that instant. She said that Jana was rolling around when she did and she thinks that she really yelled out my name!!! Of course everybody teased her about that, but I kind of like it. I left saying, "Sweet dreams!" and they all liked that. She told me just a little while ago that she'll be dreaming about me. I told Leigh Anne and she didn't like that very much.
I just happened to answer the phone the other day on Sunday, which is a rarity, only to here Kimmeth's voice!!! I was quite happy to say the least!!! Of course I had told Leigh Anne that I needed to study and couldn't time with her so she got pissed that I was on the phone with Kim, especially for the length of time that I stayed on. Fuck her! I got rid of her and would again before cutting a call with Kim off early.
We had an awesome talk, too, for we both seem much happier about life lately. She got my letter and told me that she kind of figured out what was going on for that time there with Shar¡ and really liked my cute little references of how studly I was being over the summmer. She wants me to come and see her so bad and a feasible solution may have presented itself for Christmas break, but I'd hate to jinx things.
Jon and I were joking a little while ago about what my parents will say when they se my earring. I said, "I thought you were broke!," and he really liked that and said his would say the same thing!
Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne!
I just went downstairs and had Ashley replace my starter earring with my gold half inch hoop. It was a real pain in the ass the other day when I tried to get it in, and she had just as bad a time but she finally came through. I repeatedly told her how much I appreciated her helping me because I know that I often neglect to let people know what they really need to hear, and I just wanted to make sure she knew. I was originally going to have Delisa, the fat one next door, do it but she didn't answer the door. I'm glad now that I let Ashley because I trust her and she did an awesome job. She cleaned my ear with hydrogen peroxide because it started to bleed when she accidentally ripped the starter out, and it felt good that she didn't cringe away from my bodily fluids, and instead nursed my ear back to health. I was very impressed and she said that she has had practice with Daniel's ear a couple of times.
I talked to Laura for a few minutes, and Rob, who were watching the movie, Alive. Some guy named Eric who used to work at Busch Gardens called Laura and was wanting a ride home and she asked if he knew me, and he said yes, "Big Dan!" Laura asked why he called me that (like it's not obvious!) and I told her that he knows things she doesn't. She complained about that later and asked something about finding out! I wish!!! I really do! We wished each other a happy Thanksgiving and Ashley remembered to say Happy Birthday as I left.
Ashley and I have kind of been stressing out all weekend about a big biology exam that we finally took this morning. We decided ahead of time last week that we were going to buy the A Plus notes this time and skipped class under my discretion to go and get them. We didn't realize the place opened at nine, so we had about half an hour to kill. I treated us to chocolate milkshakes at McDonalds and we sat out on the patio and talked. We had a decent time and then picked up the notes on the way to the gym, where I dropped her off and headed to my other classes. I talked to her early on Saturday and we discussed when I would drop off the notes, and she told me to ask Laura if she would like some ground beef the next time I see her. She told me not to ask why, but just to do it.
Well, I stopped by Sunday night and caught Ashley, Laura, and Jana just finishing up dinner. Jana was exceptionally nice and talkative to me and was telling me stories about things that have happened lately. I was surprised that she suddenly seems to like me so much now. I joked with Ashley a little bit before asking laura about the ground beef. She got a little embarrassed but didn't hesitate a bit to tell me the story behind it. It is something that I never would expect someone to tell another person either, especially when that someone is the subject...
She told me that she had a dream that Jana was in the kitchen browning ground beef on the stove, and I was in there with her, visiting for some reason. She said that she was lying in bed and I eventually picked up the pan of beef and came into her room and dumped a big scoopful onto the middle of her floor. She got mad at me and then I held a scoop up under her chin and she said it only felt warm, not hot, but it did later leave a burn mark. She said that when she got up to wash herself off, I climbed into one of their beds and by that time she was really frustrated and went to clean up the beef off of the floor. She then said that she screamed my name at me and woke up at that instant. She said that Jana was rolling around when she did and she thinks that she really yelled out my name!!! Of course everybody teased her about that, but I kind of like it. I left saying, "Sweet dreams!" and they all liked that. She told me just a little while ago that she'll be dreaming about me. I told Leigh Anne and she didn't like that very much.
I just happened to answer the phone the other day on Sunday, which is a rarity, only to here Kimmeth's voice!!! I was quite happy to say the least!!! Of course I had told Leigh Anne that I needed to study and couldn't time with her so she got pissed that I was on the phone with Kim, especially for the length of time that I stayed on. Fuck her! I got rid of her and would again before cutting a call with Kim off early.
We had an awesome talk, too, for we both seem much happier about life lately. She got my letter and told me that she kind of figured out what was going on for that time there with Shar¡ and really liked my cute little references of how studly I was being over the summmer. She wants me to come and see her so bad and a feasible solution may have presented itself for Christmas break, but I'd hate to jinx things.
Jon and I were joking a little while ago about what my parents will say when they se my earring. I said, "I thought you were broke!," and he really liked that and said his would say the same thing!
Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne! Leigh Anne!
Sunday, November 7, 1993
November 7, 1993 - Sunday - The real fair story!
I think this deal is going to work out for a while after all. Playing with Leigh Anne has become so much more bearable in the past twenty-four hours. Just to make it look like my life doesn't need to revolve around her, I was more than happy to accept an invitation from Ashley to go to the fair with them. They were almost ready so I got dressed and showed up within ten minutes. Ashley used my fine example to rag on Rob later on when he showed up late. I walked in and said hello to Laura, Jana, and Ashley. Laura took hold of my hand and then remembered that.....
Leigh Anne is trying to rape me right now. She just came in and pulled me away from my journal, pulled down my pants and started stroking me. She told me how much she loves stroking me, after which I glided her down to the floor and started making out with her. Knock knock! came the little drunken Aimee and now I'm back.
.....is how Ashley and I have sex. She was afraid she might catch some kind of disease but I promised her that we always used Saran wrap. Because she had my hand, I almost said Laura's name when I said hello to Ashley and she caught that and acted all offended it was funny. I then walked with Ashley to get her car and told her of my little exploit with my neighbor and how her boyfriend is no longer a problem. She told me that Daniel called her Friday and told her that he isn't talking to his parents, is still going to Boston, is still buying a motorcycle, and isn't coming home for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. She then told me that she met a guy at a party the night before and was meeting him at another get together after the fair.
I rode in the front of Ashley's car along with Rob and a goofy friend of his. Rob was being a sarcastic jerk about everything all night and I made some rather interesting comments through the night as well. It took us a while to get to the fair and I must admit that it looked a lot prettier through the woods than it did up close. I decided to make use of the evening by being at Laura's side. We were already talking a little bit back at the dorms and then she told me to come walk next to her so I took advantage of it. I sat with her and Ashley while they ate and at first things were kind of quiet. Laura was kind of spacing out in the direction of all of the lights and I told Ashley that Laura is in a moth's trance and we've lost her. We laughed and then I realized that she was looking at the big greasy bald cook instead. That was pretty funny and Ashley retorted by saying at least Laura isn't sleeping with her next door neighbor. That wasn't fair but oh well.
After that we were being rather jovial and Laura was the first to pint out a ride that looked just like our Mamba. We started recollecting our thoughts about Busch Gardens and she realized how scary it is that these people are operating the rides because she knows how little we used to pay attention. I added that these people are already stoned or drunk anyway and she agreed. It was pretty funny. Rob had joked to the ticket lady at the entrance that he wanted one child's ticket, since they are cheaper and thought his joke was pretty funny. I told him the lady has probably heard that a million times and Laura and I laughed and started talking about how people would always think they were the first to tell us a job related joke although we had already heard it fifty million times. We also agreed about how you would finally make a fake laugh that you would give to the guests just so they'd feel special and not get upset. It was funny.
I had an underlying fantasy about finding either Michael or Shar¡ working as a carnie, and I looked at them all. They were really desperate for business because it had rained and there weren't that many people there. They were offering to give us all prizes if any one of three could win. Ashley fell prey to one of the guy's talk and was having trouble getting away but I saved her. One offered me a free dart and said if I didn't win, I didn't have to pay. I think they often picked up an interest in my eyes because I was looking at each of the booths, although I was looking for my ex-girlfriend and not at their bullshit setups. There were a couple of cute young girls working and one flirted back beautifully. I was in an awesome mood and was giving every girl I could my sparkling blue eyed look.
Laura and I started sticking together for a while and even put our arms around each other periodically. She told me that we should still do that Busch thing sometime. I told her that I never planned on not doing it and she said that wasn't sure I still wanted to. Of course!!! I asked her if we are still engaged, and she said no, that she broke it off for someone else, and I was crushed. It seemed like an eternity for us to realize the mistake. She thought I was talking about the other guy she used to be engaged to and said that we still definitely are!!! Perfect! I told her that if we don't get to go over Thanksgiving then we'll definitely go over Christmas. I really was enjoying the way that she was talking to me and hanging around me. That made me feel good.
We went and looked at the livestock, the rabbits, cows, and chickens before heading out. We stopped be the grocery store on the way home so they could buy some fruit juice to go along with heir alcohol. I had forgotten to buy mayonnaise the other day so I picked up a jar and liked the attention I got for buying something so screwy. I told Laura and Ashley that I planned on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at the jar and they thought that was gross. We then went back to Beaty and I surprised them when I said that I'd see them later when they got out of the elevator.
Leigh Anne is trying to rape me right now. She just came in and pulled me away from my journal, pulled down my pants and started stroking me. She told me how much she loves stroking me, after which I glided her down to the floor and started making out with her. Knock knock! came the little drunken Aimee and now I'm back.
.....is how Ashley and I have sex. She was afraid she might catch some kind of disease but I promised her that we always used Saran wrap. Because she had my hand, I almost said Laura's name when I said hello to Ashley and she caught that and acted all offended it was funny. I then walked with Ashley to get her car and told her of my little exploit with my neighbor and how her boyfriend is no longer a problem. She told me that Daniel called her Friday and told her that he isn't talking to his parents, is still going to Boston, is still buying a motorcycle, and isn't coming home for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. She then told me that she met a guy at a party the night before and was meeting him at another get together after the fair.
I rode in the front of Ashley's car along with Rob and a goofy friend of his. Rob was being a sarcastic jerk about everything all night and I made some rather interesting comments through the night as well. It took us a while to get to the fair and I must admit that it looked a lot prettier through the woods than it did up close. I decided to make use of the evening by being at Laura's side. We were already talking a little bit back at the dorms and then she told me to come walk next to her so I took advantage of it. I sat with her and Ashley while they ate and at first things were kind of quiet. Laura was kind of spacing out in the direction of all of the lights and I told Ashley that Laura is in a moth's trance and we've lost her. We laughed and then I realized that she was looking at the big greasy bald cook instead. That was pretty funny and Ashley retorted by saying at least Laura isn't sleeping with her next door neighbor. That wasn't fair but oh well.
After that we were being rather jovial and Laura was the first to pint out a ride that looked just like our Mamba. We started recollecting our thoughts about Busch Gardens and she realized how scary it is that these people are operating the rides because she knows how little we used to pay attention. I added that these people are already stoned or drunk anyway and she agreed. It was pretty funny. Rob had joked to the ticket lady at the entrance that he wanted one child's ticket, since they are cheaper and thought his joke was pretty funny. I told him the lady has probably heard that a million times and Laura and I laughed and started talking about how people would always think they were the first to tell us a job related joke although we had already heard it fifty million times. We also agreed about how you would finally make a fake laugh that you would give to the guests just so they'd feel special and not get upset. It was funny.
I had an underlying fantasy about finding either Michael or Shar¡ working as a carnie, and I looked at them all. They were really desperate for business because it had rained and there weren't that many people there. They were offering to give us all prizes if any one of three could win. Ashley fell prey to one of the guy's talk and was having trouble getting away but I saved her. One offered me a free dart and said if I didn't win, I didn't have to pay. I think they often picked up an interest in my eyes because I was looking at each of the booths, although I was looking for my ex-girlfriend and not at their bullshit setups. There were a couple of cute young girls working and one flirted back beautifully. I was in an awesome mood and was giving every girl I could my sparkling blue eyed look.
Laura and I started sticking together for a while and even put our arms around each other periodically. She told me that we should still do that Busch thing sometime. I told her that I never planned on not doing it and she said that wasn't sure I still wanted to. Of course!!! I asked her if we are still engaged, and she said no, that she broke it off for someone else, and I was crushed. It seemed like an eternity for us to realize the mistake. She thought I was talking about the other guy she used to be engaged to and said that we still definitely are!!! Perfect! I told her that if we don't get to go over Thanksgiving then we'll definitely go over Christmas. I really was enjoying the way that she was talking to me and hanging around me. That made me feel good.
We went and looked at the livestock, the rabbits, cows, and chickens before heading out. We stopped be the grocery store on the way home so they could buy some fruit juice to go along with heir alcohol. I had forgotten to buy mayonnaise the other day so I picked up a jar and liked the attention I got for buying something so screwy. I told Laura and Ashley that I planned on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at the jar and they thought that was gross. We then went back to Beaty and I surprised them when I said that I'd see them later when they got out of the elevator.
Saturday, November 6, 1993
November 6, 1993 - Saturday - Off to bed!, Fair, Laura
What a meal!!! I just made my first and very successful attempt at duplicating spaghetti like "mom use to make." I really don't care for all of the spices and shit they put into already made sauces so I finally deiced to spend the extra time to make it from scratch, well almost. I cooked up half a package of ground beef and cooked it forever with a huge can of tomato soup and a can of tomato paste. The room started smelling like the house used to every Tuesday night on "spaghetti night." It can out almost identically to a batch of her best and it was so nostalgic when I took the first bite! It was also really nice to have familiar, REAL food. I fully enjoyed it and have another full helping waiting in the fridge for tomorrow night.
Well, now for my life. So much has happened in the past two days that it's almost scary. Leigh Anne went dancing Thursday night with her roommates and wasn't going to be home until late. I took the wild chance that she might actually try to come over again when she got home, so I left the door unlocked again. Chris had already left for Jacksonville so I figured only Jon might screw it up this time. I didn't really expect her to come either, and I fell right to sleep.
Well, stupid me never finished this journal in time to get all of the facts straight. By this time we had already had sex four times, three Thursday evening alone! Actually two of those were early the next morning, but what does that matter?
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December 3, 1993 - this is what happens when I don't finish a journal and try to go back to it later on. In this case, the following account of the fair is a month late, although I found out after I wrote it that I had already done so in tomorrow's entry. I'm saving both for comparison's sake...
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Tonight I decided to try and make Leigh Anne jealous, not really I just wanted to let her know I have friends of my own to go out with and also wanted to keep ties open with the others. I saw Ashley downstairs today just as Leigh Anne, Michelle, Aimee and I were heading off to see the end of the football game. I asked her if she'd give me a call if they decided to go to the Alachua County Fair. I had just laid down for a quick nap when Ashley called later on and she asked me if I still wanted to go. I said definitely and got ready in less than ten minutes by her request. It turned out that we were waiting for Rob and he took forever to come and they used my fine example to rag on his tardiness.
Laura and I were joking around quite a bit while we waited downstairs for Rob before Ashley and I headed across the street to get her car. I told her about Leigh Anne while we were gone. We then all headed off to the fair. Jamee, Jana and LAura rode in his truck and the rest of us, including a friend of Rob's went with Ashley. ROb was being a sarcastic ass and I was being nice and sweet and I think Ashley really liked that. We entered the fair and walked around for a while looking at all of the food places. They all decided to eat and I declined because Leigh Anne had just previously fixed me dinner. I sat with Laura and Ashley and we talked quite a bit. Ashley and I made fun of Laura who was in a daze at one point and was staring right at the big fat greasy fair cook. Ashley then turned on me and said at least LAura's not sleeping with her neighbor. I laughed it off but was pissed she said it so dramatically in front of Laura.
We then split up from Jamee and Jana and went to look at all of the rides and games. Laura was being a real sweetheart and kept telling me to come walk with her. The carnies were getting really desperate because of a lack of people and were offering us all kinds of deals. I knew a lot of the shit they pulled because of the stuff Shar¡ told me about the games or else I might have fallen for one or two. Ashley got sucked into one guy's bullshit and was too nice to say no. I walked up and put my arms around her shoulders like I was the big protective boyfriend and walked her away. She thanked me and told Laura how I saved her later. That as cool.
Of course I had an ulterior motive, I was desperately looking for Michael, or hell even for Shar¡! amidst the games. there were all kinds of freaks and there were actually a couple of pretty attractive girls. One really seemed to like the way I was looking at her and I had fun flirting like that. We then walked over to see the livestock, mainly the rabbits. Laura and I reaffirmed our date at Busch Gardens sometime in the future. I then asked her if our engagement is still on. She said no, that she broke it off for another one. I looked at her kind of funny and was hurt a little. We both then realized the miscommunication as she meant that she broke off the old engagement and ours is still going strong. We walked with our arms around each other for a few minutes after that.
After the fair, we stopped by Kash n Karry so they could buy fruit juice to mix with their alcohol. I bought a jar of mayonnaise because I had forgotten to the other day at the store, but the shock value was just as fun. I told Laura and Ashley after I bought it that I plan on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at my bag. They thought I was gross.
Well, now for my life. So much has happened in the past two days that it's almost scary. Leigh Anne went dancing Thursday night with her roommates and wasn't going to be home until late. I took the wild chance that she might actually try to come over again when she got home, so I left the door unlocked again. Chris had already left for Jacksonville so I figured only Jon might screw it up this time. I didn't really expect her to come either, and I fell right to sleep.
Well, stupid me never finished this journal in time to get all of the facts straight. By this time we had already had sex four times, three Thursday evening alone! Actually two of those were early the next morning, but what does that matter?
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December 3, 1993 - this is what happens when I don't finish a journal and try to go back to it later on. In this case, the following account of the fair is a month late, although I found out after I wrote it that I had already done so in tomorrow's entry. I'm saving both for comparison's sake...
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Tonight I decided to try and make Leigh Anne jealous, not really I just wanted to let her know I have friends of my own to go out with and also wanted to keep ties open with the others. I saw Ashley downstairs today just as Leigh Anne, Michelle, Aimee and I were heading off to see the end of the football game. I asked her if she'd give me a call if they decided to go to the Alachua County Fair. I had just laid down for a quick nap when Ashley called later on and she asked me if I still wanted to go. I said definitely and got ready in less than ten minutes by her request. It turned out that we were waiting for Rob and he took forever to come and they used my fine example to rag on his tardiness.
Laura and I were joking around quite a bit while we waited downstairs for Rob before Ashley and I headed across the street to get her car. I told her about Leigh Anne while we were gone. We then all headed off to the fair. Jamee, Jana and LAura rode in his truck and the rest of us, including a friend of Rob's went with Ashley. ROb was being a sarcastic ass and I was being nice and sweet and I think Ashley really liked that. We entered the fair and walked around for a while looking at all of the food places. They all decided to eat and I declined because Leigh Anne had just previously fixed me dinner. I sat with Laura and Ashley and we talked quite a bit. Ashley and I made fun of Laura who was in a daze at one point and was staring right at the big fat greasy fair cook. Ashley then turned on me and said at least LAura's not sleeping with her neighbor. I laughed it off but was pissed she said it so dramatically in front of Laura.
We then split up from Jamee and Jana and went to look at all of the rides and games. Laura was being a real sweetheart and kept telling me to come walk with her. The carnies were getting really desperate because of a lack of people and were offering us all kinds of deals. I knew a lot of the shit they pulled because of the stuff Shar¡ told me about the games or else I might have fallen for one or two. Ashley got sucked into one guy's bullshit and was too nice to say no. I walked up and put my arms around her shoulders like I was the big protective boyfriend and walked her away. She thanked me and told Laura how I saved her later. That as cool.
Of course I had an ulterior motive, I was desperately looking for Michael, or hell even for Shar¡! amidst the games. there were all kinds of freaks and there were actually a couple of pretty attractive girls. One really seemed to like the way I was looking at her and I had fun flirting like that. We then walked over to see the livestock, mainly the rabbits. Laura and I reaffirmed our date at Busch Gardens sometime in the future. I then asked her if our engagement is still on. She said no, that she broke it off for another one. I looked at her kind of funny and was hurt a little. We both then realized the miscommunication as she meant that she broke off the old engagement and ours is still going strong. We walked with our arms around each other for a few minutes after that.
After the fair, we stopped by Kash n Karry so they could buy fruit juice to mix with their alcohol. I bought a jar of mayonnaise because I had forgotten to the other day at the store, but the shock value was just as fun. I told Laura and Ashley after I bought it that I plan on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at my bag. They thought I was gross.
Friday, October 29, 1993
October 29, 1993 - Friday - Ashley calls from Tampa!
Happy birthday mom!
The entire world seems to be falling apart... everything is coming crashing down, just like that letter said... maybe I believe in fate and stuff too much but there are always so many things to make it seem so real...
Shar¡ gave up her life again...
I always liked to compare my situation with Shar¡ with Ashley and Daniel because they always seemed to coincide in a sense. It was kind of a mental way for me to cope with having to be separated from Shar¡, kind of like bullshit in my mind. But my intuition has always been better than that...
So it all begins...
Let me elaborate: The phone has been ringing off the hook the past half hour and it's after eleven on Friday night. I figured I'd let the answering machine get them just to screen the calls. I thought I was supposed to go with Ed and Roswitha to a party with April. I was more than willing to go, but since it was getting late, I decided against it and didn't want to answer a call from Ed because I knew I would give in and I just didn't feel like it. Nobody left any messages which caused me to believe it was Ed even more. I finally got sick of it and answered one of the calls.
It was Ashley!!! and it sounded like she was calling from a payphone. She left for Brandon this morning after biology class. I had a test today in my German culture class and wanted a good breakfast so I was late in meeting her at class. On Fridays, she has a first period chemistry discussion so we don't walk to class together. It was chilly but the air was really damp and I feel that if it has to be cold, this is the best kind of cold there can be. Most people don't like it but I know that it feels a lot better than dry cold after extended periods of time since I used to work outside at Busch Gardens. We joked around when I got to class and both were in a pretty good mood.
Our friend, Jason, came in just after me and we were looking for cute girls to ask out and it was pretty funny. At the end of class I admitted that our search for attractive girls was thwarted because I had looked at Ashley first and she spoiled me for any of the other girls. The fool made the mistake of cutting her down and she immediately came and hugged onto me. I walked up to the honors office with her because she had an advisement appointment.
I had gone down there yesterday and picked up a new honors course guide and found out that once you have sixty credits, you no longer have to take honors courses!!! Awesome!!! I'm finished!!! It's cool because I started with fifteen credits and didn't join until Spring so I was only obliged to take two classes although I was allowed into honors calculus my first semester. My early registration appointment letter had a nice little asterisk stating that my record had been flagged and I must have academic counseling before I can register. The lines to see your counselor are extremely long this time of the year and that was very discouraging. It wasn't until I was in the honors office that I realized that I bet I could get them to take care of it for me as one of the perks of being in honors. This girl immediately punched it up in her computer and said everything is fine and said that it was just a warning that I need to hurry up and finish general education and apply to a college. That was really cool!
Anyway, Chris and I went to McDonalds yesterday afternoon for a bite to eat. He also needed to get some batteries and I suggested Eckerds across the street. We always have a pretty cool time running about so I was more than happy to go with him despite the fact that I only had a dollar on my person. He said he'd lend me a dollar before we left and we were on our merry way. He read my letter from Shar¡ and we were commenting about her. I knew it was finally time to tell him about Shar¡ attempting suicide and how I could possibly fall in love with a girl with such a fucked up past. I kind of did it to clear my name a little, but also so he could realize what I am going through.
He (and I) agreed that she has got to be pretty damn heartless for what she did and stupid for throwing away a chance at a good life like she did. He agrees fully that if I had spent that amount of emotional effort on any "normal" girl, then she would be probably be mine forever, and there are lots of girls out there like that. But it's just so hard to make that initial spark between two people. Once it's there, we can both completely win them over, and I can do it on such a wide variety of types. I am extremely versatile, and it sometimes amazes me. I admitted that Shar¡ was kind of a challenge that I presented to myself and once I got going, there was no turning back to see how far I could take it. I just hope to someday find a girl that will be able to appreciate what I have to offer her.
Well, I put off heading to the library to study for my exam for a few minutes to be with Ashley because I wanted to tell her the whole truth about Shar¡. I think a lot of things about my relationship kind of fall into place when that last cornerstone is finally cemented in. I complained to both Ashley and Chris that it really bothered me when people asked me why someone as "good as me" was going out with a girl like that, and I could never tell them the real reason and probably the only reason why we lasted any amount of time at all. It was my humanitarian side kicking in and offering her a second and real chance at life... and once again I am separated from the girl when it is most vital that we are together. That's the story of my life...
I said goodbye to Ashley at that point and we were smiling really big at each other. She told me not to think about it too much and I truthfully told her that I wasn't, that I was just thinking about all of the crap I had to go and study then and she laughed. I proceeded to flirt with every girl I could on the walk to the library where I finally settled down and learned everything in probably twice as much detail as I needed to, for my goal wasn't only to get another A, but to impress Mr. Hasty as well.
...I heard her voice and asked her what was up. We talked for a second and she asked me if I knew who it was, and I said of course and said her name. I told her then like I have before that her voice is easy to tell and she doesn't have to tell me who it is every time she calls. I wondered why she was calling and first thought that she might of had car trouble and was calling me while she waited. She told me that she was at a 7-11 in Brandon on Kings Road. She acted a little surprised and asked why I wasn't out and about on a Friday night.
She finally got to the point of her call. She had told me that she was going out with Daniel's younger sister tonight when she got down there. She said that while she was at Daniel's house, he actually called and talked to his dad from Edmond Air Force Base. She then told me that she found out why he hadn't called all week, and why he told her he wasn't going to buy a car. She said that he had talked about buying a motorcycle a lot and had gone out and done so. On Tuesday he was in an accident and broke either an arm or a leg, some ribs, and his neck!!! Fuck!!! The way I used to be, I would have found this to be a wonderful event so I could move in on the kill... but I had feelings of sympathy that I have never felt before because I actually care about her and see her as a true friend. I think that's really rare.
We've been learning a lot of really interesting shit in psychology lately, and today he said there are only a few people that you can be your true self with, and I have found that with Ashley. I think the feeling is mutual because although she tells her emotional stories to quite a few other people, just like I do, there are certain things she tells me that I know she would never tell anybody else. We're kind of like each other's emotional dumps.
But she was telling me about Daniel and really hated the fact that she couldn't drive up there right then to be with him. She said that as soon as she found out, she got really hot and turned red and started feeling sick. Her nerves instantly kicked in. She said that Daniel didn't want to talk to anyone else but his dad and was being taken to have an MRI done right then anyway. She was so upset because she cant be with him or even talk to him, just like the last time he was in the hospital, out in Denver. At least he said that he is OK despite the broken neck! She took his sister out to a country dance club anyway and Shar¡ started getting sick. She left her there and said that she'd pick her up at midnight and then stopped to get something to drink.
I told her that I had been in my room with the radio on loud and it was really lucky that I heard the phone ring. Damn I'm glad I answered that one!!! She told me that she had called about ten minutes earlier and then just drove around for a few minutes until she stopped and called me again. She said that she didn't want to tell anybody down there because they'll just talk and start rumors and she didn't really want to talk to her roommates, so she called me!!! I felt awesome to hear her say that and told her that I'm always here and told her that now I am glad I stayed home tonight and knew there was a reason. Everything she did sounds so much like something I would do in a similar situation and it amazes me once again how much alike we are. She has the perfect romantic personality that I dream to find in a girl that cares about me... I just can't express how good it made me feel that she called ME and how much I want to be there for her.
I told her to be careful as we finally ended our talk. She was crying or almost crying and then laughed about being at a payphone in the middle of Brandon so late at night. I asked her what she was going to do for the next half hour until she was supposed to pick up his sister. She said she was just going to drive around some more to get an icee somewhere instead of a slurpee. At least she had a goal to keep her sane for the time being. Poor baby...
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I never did mention my little trip to the mall with Chris last Sunday... hell I never said anything about the entire weekend!!! And it was an awesome weekend!!! Actually my letter to my little sister kind of summed things up, but not really.
We were all hanging out with the neighbors last Friday night around seven and everybody was kind of drifting back and forth between the two rooms. Everybody was wearing dorm clothes which proved really interesting in Michelle's case. She was working on some quiz on her computer and couldn't figure some of the techniques out. Everybody pointed at me and I went in her room and helped her. I commented on what a really nice computer table they had, and asked where they got it. Leigh Anne said something about some really nice guy who built it for them. Well, Michelle was wearing this pink shirt with the neck ripped out that would kind of fall onto her shoulder quite often. I asked her out in the hallway a little later if she was wearing anything underneath that because she keeps pulling it off of her shoulder and she said no. She has a habit of not wearing bras quite often and I like that in her.
Chris had been massaging Leigh Anne's back and I was the next victim. She told me that it was my turn and I went and sat in a chair in front of her!!! She laughed and said no, that I was supposed to massage HER! I did for a while and Chris picked up later on the fact that she was extremely vulnerable that night and probably would have taken any one of us if we had wanted to. She likes to talk to me and comments every once in a while about how I always listen to her problems and she pulled me off into our room once away from everybody else to tell me why she has been fighting with Delisa.
We all ended up making plans to go out to a party and then to this nightclub called Kaos that was having the finals of their hot body contest where the girls get naked! Chris was so worried about his organic test, that he didn't even want to go. I think it's also due to the fact that he's falling for this girl named Marty and I know I would have felt the same back when Shar¡ and I were emotional. We weren't going to leave until 11:30, but I then got a phone call from Ashley at 10:30 and she asked me if I wanted to go out with them! I jumped at the chance to be with Laura and ditched Leigh Anne. I even had Leigh Anne say hi to Ashley just so she'd know I have other female friends. Leigh Anne was kind of pissed that I sold them out and I tried to talk my way out of it. I eventually did, but not until yesterday.
Laura and Ashley showed up at our room a little while later all dressed up for the night, and I introduced them to Jon and Ed and then went running into my room with Michelle for a minute just to show off. We then parted and drove to Oxford Manor to meet up with a bunch of guys. This one guy named Rob was there and was the one I met back when I gave Laura my blender. He ended up being pretty cool and I talked to him a little bit over the weekend. We drove around to almost every apartment complex in Gainesville and couldn't find a single damn party. Laura nd I were making a lot of our usual bullshit comments to each other and Laura accused me of flattering everyone, and not just her. I said that wasn't true at all and she asked Ashley, which was kind of funny.
After we dropped all of the stupids off, I pull out my party idea and we ran off to Roswitha's apartment complex where the big party of the night was. It was an awesome party, HUGE, and there were girls like Shar¡ everywhere!!! They were hot and ready and I would have loved to stay longer but the kegs were dry and Laura wanted to leave. Damn! We ended up going back to their room and Laura and I sat on the fouton together and watched the last part of Top Gun and we all talked for a while before I showed back upstairs.
Ashley and I decided to go to the biology lab review session Saturday morning. We walked over there and were very tired and really thought that the help session wasn't going to help a damn thing if we didn't know anything going into it. We decided to leave and study, and come back to Sunday's meeting. I remembered how the Florida Museum of Natural History used to have a lot of animal exhibits and suggested that we go inside. I couldn't have come up with a better idea because we ended up learning far more than we ever could have possibly learned in class and had an awesome time doing so! I joked that we should tell everybody but she said that we should keep it our secret so only we'll do good on the exam. Smart girl.
The museum had almost three-quarters of the classes we needed to learn about and was set up, it seemed, like it was tailor made for somebody learning our lab manual. We first learned all about crustaceans and sea animals and all about the special cases in each group because they were all on display as well. We learned funny cues, something we both learned about from Griggs, for some of the harder names. We then went through an exhibit with tons of live insects and we identified each and looked at the structures of the grasshopper which was much more fun on a live species because you could see them in motion rather than on a dead smelly carcass. We also went into the specimen room that has drawer after drawer full of fun things to identify. They even had these acrylic molds of worms that were really important for us to learn. I joked that this was the most use some of those exhibits had gotten in a long time. It was great and I just couldn't get over how much fun we were having and how much we were learning.
We kept naming the taxonomy on every living thing we saw and realized that we'd probably do the same once we left the museum to every animal we see. It was funny. We even went through the gift shop and identified everything we could find. The best part is that a lot of the information stuck in my mind and wouldn't have if I had just studied the book.
The museum also has an artificial cave that looks a lot like the ones we crawled in out in Newberry and I told Ashley all about that. We walked through the cave twice and stood against a railing inside once and talked in the very dim light for quite a while. We were really close and I had the instinctive urge to kiss her and we then joked about how jealous some people would be if they knew we had gone into a cave together like that. It was pretty funny. We eventually went home and I hung out in Ashley's room for a little while only to see Laura running around in her little nightgown looking more gorgeous than ever. That's so damn sexy! Ashley was in her green silk pajamas the night before which defined some very erect nipples rather nicely. I found that pretty interesting.
They called me a little while later and asked me if I wanted to go out. Of course! We went to the grocery store and bought orange juice. I couldn't help but think how much nicer it is to hang out with two attractive girls rather than the group of guys last year at Salem and Monte's apartment. We then went back to the room and Ashley made us all a drink. She made screwdrivers and fuzzy navels. I had three shots in mine and kind of guzzled it, to no avail. Chris says vodka makes him puke but I noticed nothing much for me. I sat with Laura again on the fouton and we got engaged! She broke off her engagement with the guy in the fraternity just to be my fiancee. When Ashley found out, she wanted to see the ring, and I told her that I'd have to wait until I go home for Thanksgiving to get it for her.
Jessica was there, and Rob and a few other people showed up as well. Ashley, Laura, and I took our drinks up to my room to pick out a movie to watch and I introduced them to Chris. We decided on Groundhog Day and went back downstairs. We all ended up watching the World Series and saw the most awesome ending to a baseball game ever! The Blue Jays hit a three run homer in the ninth inning to take the lead and win the game. I have never seen a happier player than the guy who hit that ball. Laura's "casual boyfriend" kept calling her an insisted that they go out and do something despite him being sick. He showed up later and Laura kissed him right in front of me. They were only simple kisses and I would bet that she was doing so just to get back at me for kissing Shar¡ at that party like I did. I completely understand.
The guy is a complete and total dork and I told her I am rather disappointed. The three of us were all on the fouton with Laura wedged in the middle. Carl was mean to her once and she said that it doesn't matter because she is engaged to me and rolled over, putting her arms around me. That was cute. We were looking at the yearbook from Bloomingdale High School and saw Laura with really short hair. The best way to describe it is silly and I love it being much longer like it is now. She complained a lot to me all weekend that it upsets her that people always complement her friends and all but they never say anything to her. I was trying to reassure her and maybe I need to be more serious when I do complement her. They eventually took off to a midnight movie and we all decided to try a party.
I rode in Rob's car with Jessica and we eventually found the party and hung out for a while. There were a couple of the guys there from the night before, Joe and Todd and we said hello. They stopped playing music about the time when we got there and Ashley and I figured that they were trying to get rid of everybody. When we finally did leave, we stopped by Taco Bell. Ashley, Laura and I had talked about Ashley and my trips to Taco Bell earlier on the way to the grocery store and Laura was saying that she is jealous and wants me to take her. I promised to do so sometime. I had told Ashley that I had only been to Taco bell about four times before meeting her and only went twice with Shar¡. We joked that we'll make her jealous by telling her we've been three times and even go at one in the morning together. It was kind of funny.
Ashley and I went to study again on Sunday and ended up sitting on these picnic tables in the middle of a small wooded area and talked about our failing relationships and how life sucks. We also were reading our newspapers, for I stole one for her when I bought mine. When we got home, Chris and I decided to head over to the mall to have our ears pierced. He was getting his second hole, and me my first. We came across the jewelry stand where Cheryl, the girl from my first semester German class works, and we ended up letting her staple our ears. She's looking pretty damn good and we joked around for quite a while. I had a "diamond stud" starter put in and Chris and I bought a nice pair of gold hoops with the twenty percent discount you get on the day of your initial piercing. When we got home, we walked past Ashley, Laura, and I think Rob, heading off to mass in Ashley's car and we said hello.
I went and studied later on and came back to Beaty only to find them under a fire drill. I walked around until I found Laura and she was still in her Church dress. She looked really good and I told her that the alarm rang because she is so hot. Jana was holding Stimpy and was sitting on this couch. Jessica and Rob were there and he had bought him and Laura both a pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. She came right up and was standing next to me against the wall and then we sat down together. Leigh Anne was running around with her new boyfriend, Jerry, and Michelle. They were joking around with me for a few minutes and I made sure they saw me with Laura. Laura started feeding me her ice cream and was finding huge chunks of nuts and white chocolate for me to try. It was really fun and I enjoyed myself.
Leigh Anne was over in the room on Wednesday night after I had gone to sleep and she came in the room with a big smile and ruffled my hair. We talked for a few minutes and she told me how upset she was at me for ditching them on Friday night. I told her that I really made a mistake and hoped that she would forgive me. I met up with her outside the room on Thursday on the way to class and we walked together the entire way. The first thing she asked when she saw me is why she felt like shit because she though relationships are supposed to make you happy. I said that I know how she feels and that they hardly ever seem to work out that way. I decided to jump in and take advantage of her fragile state when she told me that she and Jerry have fought continuously ever night this week. She said that he wants her to change a lot, like working out so she can compete with him. She asked me if I like those women with tons of muscles and I truthfully told her that it makes me sick and that I like her just the way she is. I put my arm around her as I said that and she thought it was really sweet.
She mentioned that they are getting along really crappily and they've only been going out for a week. I corrected her saying six days, and that I'll be keeping track until the day we get her back. She counted and realized I have been keeping track, although it was just some quick addition in my head, but she thought that was amazingly well put. I just kept saying all of the right things and she did tell me that she's going to get rid of him if he pulls his shit any more! That's cool. I even went out of my way to get the doors for her and she thought I was being really sweet. She commented once that sometimes she forgets that I was a valedictorian because I act kind of silly. Thanks. But I wasn't being silly then and I though to myself how versatile I can be and how I can make almost any girl very happy by telling her what she wants to hear and what I have to offer.
I almost told her that, but that would have screwed everything up. Chris and I were talking about how I should have stuck around Friday night because she was very vulnerable and I could have easily had her. Maybe I still can... and we talked about how cool it would be to have convenient sex right next door. That would be awesome, and it wouldn't stop very quickly because she is the kind of girl who really needs what I have to offer. She kind of reminds me of Abby, except I want Leigh Anne. Chris and I have also been joking around a lot about how we are constantly starving nowadays. I joked that we used to think about sex all of the time and how much we want it, now we think about food and how nice it would be to have it. We ate like animals last Friday night when we went to this restaurant named Quincys where he took me for my birthday last year. All four of us went and ordered the hot bar and tried tons of everything. I was really surprised I ate so much because I did just official find out about Shar¡ just a few hours before and I recalled how I just didn't care to eat anymore after Nicole and I broke up way back when.
I've been having an awesome time with Karen in psychology class this week. I save her a seat now with my bookbag that I didn't do the first couple of times because I didn't want to seem to eager for her to come sit with me and possibly scare her off. It's cool now that we know about each other's relationship situation at least a little bit. She came bouncing up again to the seat next to me with a big grin on her face on Friday. I smiled and slowly moved my bookbag as she laughed and sarcastically told me to hurry up. I really like just being around her and am trying my best to impress her in any way I can. She's so damn hot!
The entire world seems to be falling apart... everything is coming crashing down, just like that letter said... maybe I believe in fate and stuff too much but there are always so many things to make it seem so real...
Shar¡ gave up her life again...
I always liked to compare my situation with Shar¡ with Ashley and Daniel because they always seemed to coincide in a sense. It was kind of a mental way for me to cope with having to be separated from Shar¡, kind of like bullshit in my mind. But my intuition has always been better than that...
So it all begins...
Let me elaborate: The phone has been ringing off the hook the past half hour and it's after eleven on Friday night. I figured I'd let the answering machine get them just to screen the calls. I thought I was supposed to go with Ed and Roswitha to a party with April. I was more than willing to go, but since it was getting late, I decided against it and didn't want to answer a call from Ed because I knew I would give in and I just didn't feel like it. Nobody left any messages which caused me to believe it was Ed even more. I finally got sick of it and answered one of the calls.
It was Ashley!!! and it sounded like she was calling from a payphone. She left for Brandon this morning after biology class. I had a test today in my German culture class and wanted a good breakfast so I was late in meeting her at class. On Fridays, she has a first period chemistry discussion so we don't walk to class together. It was chilly but the air was really damp and I feel that if it has to be cold, this is the best kind of cold there can be. Most people don't like it but I know that it feels a lot better than dry cold after extended periods of time since I used to work outside at Busch Gardens. We joked around when I got to class and both were in a pretty good mood.
Our friend, Jason, came in just after me and we were looking for cute girls to ask out and it was pretty funny. At the end of class I admitted that our search for attractive girls was thwarted because I had looked at Ashley first and she spoiled me for any of the other girls. The fool made the mistake of cutting her down and she immediately came and hugged onto me. I walked up to the honors office with her because she had an advisement appointment.
I had gone down there yesterday and picked up a new honors course guide and found out that once you have sixty credits, you no longer have to take honors courses!!! Awesome!!! I'm finished!!! It's cool because I started with fifteen credits and didn't join until Spring so I was only obliged to take two classes although I was allowed into honors calculus my first semester. My early registration appointment letter had a nice little asterisk stating that my record had been flagged and I must have academic counseling before I can register. The lines to see your counselor are extremely long this time of the year and that was very discouraging. It wasn't until I was in the honors office that I realized that I bet I could get them to take care of it for me as one of the perks of being in honors. This girl immediately punched it up in her computer and said everything is fine and said that it was just a warning that I need to hurry up and finish general education and apply to a college. That was really cool!
Anyway, Chris and I went to McDonalds yesterday afternoon for a bite to eat. He also needed to get some batteries and I suggested Eckerds across the street. We always have a pretty cool time running about so I was more than happy to go with him despite the fact that I only had a dollar on my person. He said he'd lend me a dollar before we left and we were on our merry way. He read my letter from Shar¡ and we were commenting about her. I knew it was finally time to tell him about Shar¡ attempting suicide and how I could possibly fall in love with a girl with such a fucked up past. I kind of did it to clear my name a little, but also so he could realize what I am going through.
He (and I) agreed that she has got to be pretty damn heartless for what she did and stupid for throwing away a chance at a good life like she did. He agrees fully that if I had spent that amount of emotional effort on any "normal" girl, then she would be probably be mine forever, and there are lots of girls out there like that. But it's just so hard to make that initial spark between two people. Once it's there, we can both completely win them over, and I can do it on such a wide variety of types. I am extremely versatile, and it sometimes amazes me. I admitted that Shar¡ was kind of a challenge that I presented to myself and once I got going, there was no turning back to see how far I could take it. I just hope to someday find a girl that will be able to appreciate what I have to offer her.
Well, I put off heading to the library to study for my exam for a few minutes to be with Ashley because I wanted to tell her the whole truth about Shar¡. I think a lot of things about my relationship kind of fall into place when that last cornerstone is finally cemented in. I complained to both Ashley and Chris that it really bothered me when people asked me why someone as "good as me" was going out with a girl like that, and I could never tell them the real reason and probably the only reason why we lasted any amount of time at all. It was my humanitarian side kicking in and offering her a second and real chance at life... and once again I am separated from the girl when it is most vital that we are together. That's the story of my life...
I said goodbye to Ashley at that point and we were smiling really big at each other. She told me not to think about it too much and I truthfully told her that I wasn't, that I was just thinking about all of the crap I had to go and study then and she laughed. I proceeded to flirt with every girl I could on the walk to the library where I finally settled down and learned everything in probably twice as much detail as I needed to, for my goal wasn't only to get another A, but to impress Mr. Hasty as well.
...I heard her voice and asked her what was up. We talked for a second and she asked me if I knew who it was, and I said of course and said her name. I told her then like I have before that her voice is easy to tell and she doesn't have to tell me who it is every time she calls. I wondered why she was calling and first thought that she might of had car trouble and was calling me while she waited. She told me that she was at a 7-11 in Brandon on Kings Road. She acted a little surprised and asked why I wasn't out and about on a Friday night.
She finally got to the point of her call. She had told me that she was going out with Daniel's younger sister tonight when she got down there. She said that while she was at Daniel's house, he actually called and talked to his dad from Edmond Air Force Base. She then told me that she found out why he hadn't called all week, and why he told her he wasn't going to buy a car. She said that he had talked about buying a motorcycle a lot and had gone out and done so. On Tuesday he was in an accident and broke either an arm or a leg, some ribs, and his neck!!! Fuck!!! The way I used to be, I would have found this to be a wonderful event so I could move in on the kill... but I had feelings of sympathy that I have never felt before because I actually care about her and see her as a true friend. I think that's really rare.
We've been learning a lot of really interesting shit in psychology lately, and today he said there are only a few people that you can be your true self with, and I have found that with Ashley. I think the feeling is mutual because although she tells her emotional stories to quite a few other people, just like I do, there are certain things she tells me that I know she would never tell anybody else. We're kind of like each other's emotional dumps.
But she was telling me about Daniel and really hated the fact that she couldn't drive up there right then to be with him. She said that as soon as she found out, she got really hot and turned red and started feeling sick. Her nerves instantly kicked in. She said that Daniel didn't want to talk to anyone else but his dad and was being taken to have an MRI done right then anyway. She was so upset because she cant be with him or even talk to him, just like the last time he was in the hospital, out in Denver. At least he said that he is OK despite the broken neck! She took his sister out to a country dance club anyway and Shar¡ started getting sick. She left her there and said that she'd pick her up at midnight and then stopped to get something to drink.
I told her that I had been in my room with the radio on loud and it was really lucky that I heard the phone ring. Damn I'm glad I answered that one!!! She told me that she had called about ten minutes earlier and then just drove around for a few minutes until she stopped and called me again. She said that she didn't want to tell anybody down there because they'll just talk and start rumors and she didn't really want to talk to her roommates, so she called me!!! I felt awesome to hear her say that and told her that I'm always here and told her that now I am glad I stayed home tonight and knew there was a reason. Everything she did sounds so much like something I would do in a similar situation and it amazes me once again how much alike we are. She has the perfect romantic personality that I dream to find in a girl that cares about me... I just can't express how good it made me feel that she called ME and how much I want to be there for her.
I told her to be careful as we finally ended our talk. She was crying or almost crying and then laughed about being at a payphone in the middle of Brandon so late at night. I asked her what she was going to do for the next half hour until she was supposed to pick up his sister. She said she was just going to drive around some more to get an icee somewhere instead of a slurpee. At least she had a goal to keep her sane for the time being. Poor baby...
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I never did mention my little trip to the mall with Chris last Sunday... hell I never said anything about the entire weekend!!! And it was an awesome weekend!!! Actually my letter to my little sister kind of summed things up, but not really.
We were all hanging out with the neighbors last Friday night around seven and everybody was kind of drifting back and forth between the two rooms. Everybody was wearing dorm clothes which proved really interesting in Michelle's case. She was working on some quiz on her computer and couldn't figure some of the techniques out. Everybody pointed at me and I went in her room and helped her. I commented on what a really nice computer table they had, and asked where they got it. Leigh Anne said something about some really nice guy who built it for them. Well, Michelle was wearing this pink shirt with the neck ripped out that would kind of fall onto her shoulder quite often. I asked her out in the hallway a little later if she was wearing anything underneath that because she keeps pulling it off of her shoulder and she said no. She has a habit of not wearing bras quite often and I like that in her.
Chris had been massaging Leigh Anne's back and I was the next victim. She told me that it was my turn and I went and sat in a chair in front of her!!! She laughed and said no, that I was supposed to massage HER! I did for a while and Chris picked up later on the fact that she was extremely vulnerable that night and probably would have taken any one of us if we had wanted to. She likes to talk to me and comments every once in a while about how I always listen to her problems and she pulled me off into our room once away from everybody else to tell me why she has been fighting with Delisa.
We all ended up making plans to go out to a party and then to this nightclub called Kaos that was having the finals of their hot body contest where the girls get naked! Chris was so worried about his organic test, that he didn't even want to go. I think it's also due to the fact that he's falling for this girl named Marty and I know I would have felt the same back when Shar¡ and I were emotional. We weren't going to leave until 11:30, but I then got a phone call from Ashley at 10:30 and she asked me if I wanted to go out with them! I jumped at the chance to be with Laura and ditched Leigh Anne. I even had Leigh Anne say hi to Ashley just so she'd know I have other female friends. Leigh Anne was kind of pissed that I sold them out and I tried to talk my way out of it. I eventually did, but not until yesterday.
Laura and Ashley showed up at our room a little while later all dressed up for the night, and I introduced them to Jon and Ed and then went running into my room with Michelle for a minute just to show off. We then parted and drove to Oxford Manor to meet up with a bunch of guys. This one guy named Rob was there and was the one I met back when I gave Laura my blender. He ended up being pretty cool and I talked to him a little bit over the weekend. We drove around to almost every apartment complex in Gainesville and couldn't find a single damn party. Laura nd I were making a lot of our usual bullshit comments to each other and Laura accused me of flattering everyone, and not just her. I said that wasn't true at all and she asked Ashley, which was kind of funny.
After we dropped all of the stupids off, I pull out my party idea and we ran off to Roswitha's apartment complex where the big party of the night was. It was an awesome party, HUGE, and there were girls like Shar¡ everywhere!!! They were hot and ready and I would have loved to stay longer but the kegs were dry and Laura wanted to leave. Damn! We ended up going back to their room and Laura and I sat on the fouton together and watched the last part of Top Gun and we all talked for a while before I showed back upstairs.
Ashley and I decided to go to the biology lab review session Saturday morning. We walked over there and were very tired and really thought that the help session wasn't going to help a damn thing if we didn't know anything going into it. We decided to leave and study, and come back to Sunday's meeting. I remembered how the Florida Museum of Natural History used to have a lot of animal exhibits and suggested that we go inside. I couldn't have come up with a better idea because we ended up learning far more than we ever could have possibly learned in class and had an awesome time doing so! I joked that we should tell everybody but she said that we should keep it our secret so only we'll do good on the exam. Smart girl.
The museum had almost three-quarters of the classes we needed to learn about and was set up, it seemed, like it was tailor made for somebody learning our lab manual. We first learned all about crustaceans and sea animals and all about the special cases in each group because they were all on display as well. We learned funny cues, something we both learned about from Griggs, for some of the harder names. We then went through an exhibit with tons of live insects and we identified each and looked at the structures of the grasshopper which was much more fun on a live species because you could see them in motion rather than on a dead smelly carcass. We also went into the specimen room that has drawer after drawer full of fun things to identify. They even had these acrylic molds of worms that were really important for us to learn. I joked that this was the most use some of those exhibits had gotten in a long time. It was great and I just couldn't get over how much fun we were having and how much we were learning.
We kept naming the taxonomy on every living thing we saw and realized that we'd probably do the same once we left the museum to every animal we see. It was funny. We even went through the gift shop and identified everything we could find. The best part is that a lot of the information stuck in my mind and wouldn't have if I had just studied the book.
The museum also has an artificial cave that looks a lot like the ones we crawled in out in Newberry and I told Ashley all about that. We walked through the cave twice and stood against a railing inside once and talked in the very dim light for quite a while. We were really close and I had the instinctive urge to kiss her and we then joked about how jealous some people would be if they knew we had gone into a cave together like that. It was pretty funny. We eventually went home and I hung out in Ashley's room for a little while only to see Laura running around in her little nightgown looking more gorgeous than ever. That's so damn sexy! Ashley was in her green silk pajamas the night before which defined some very erect nipples rather nicely. I found that pretty interesting.
They called me a little while later and asked me if I wanted to go out. Of course! We went to the grocery store and bought orange juice. I couldn't help but think how much nicer it is to hang out with two attractive girls rather than the group of guys last year at Salem and Monte's apartment. We then went back to the room and Ashley made us all a drink. She made screwdrivers and fuzzy navels. I had three shots in mine and kind of guzzled it, to no avail. Chris says vodka makes him puke but I noticed nothing much for me. I sat with Laura again on the fouton and we got engaged! She broke off her engagement with the guy in the fraternity just to be my fiancee. When Ashley found out, she wanted to see the ring, and I told her that I'd have to wait until I go home for Thanksgiving to get it for her.
Jessica was there, and Rob and a few other people showed up as well. Ashley, Laura, and I took our drinks up to my room to pick out a movie to watch and I introduced them to Chris. We decided on Groundhog Day and went back downstairs. We all ended up watching the World Series and saw the most awesome ending to a baseball game ever! The Blue Jays hit a three run homer in the ninth inning to take the lead and win the game. I have never seen a happier player than the guy who hit that ball. Laura's "casual boyfriend" kept calling her an insisted that they go out and do something despite him being sick. He showed up later and Laura kissed him right in front of me. They were only simple kisses and I would bet that she was doing so just to get back at me for kissing Shar¡ at that party like I did. I completely understand.
The guy is a complete and total dork and I told her I am rather disappointed. The three of us were all on the fouton with Laura wedged in the middle. Carl was mean to her once and she said that it doesn't matter because she is engaged to me and rolled over, putting her arms around me. That was cute. We were looking at the yearbook from Bloomingdale High School and saw Laura with really short hair. The best way to describe it is silly and I love it being much longer like it is now. She complained a lot to me all weekend that it upsets her that people always complement her friends and all but they never say anything to her. I was trying to reassure her and maybe I need to be more serious when I do complement her. They eventually took off to a midnight movie and we all decided to try a party.
I rode in Rob's car with Jessica and we eventually found the party and hung out for a while. There were a couple of the guys there from the night before, Joe and Todd and we said hello. They stopped playing music about the time when we got there and Ashley and I figured that they were trying to get rid of everybody. When we finally did leave, we stopped by Taco Bell. Ashley, Laura and I had talked about Ashley and my trips to Taco Bell earlier on the way to the grocery store and Laura was saying that she is jealous and wants me to take her. I promised to do so sometime. I had told Ashley that I had only been to Taco bell about four times before meeting her and only went twice with Shar¡. We joked that we'll make her jealous by telling her we've been three times and even go at one in the morning together. It was kind of funny.
Ashley and I went to study again on Sunday and ended up sitting on these picnic tables in the middle of a small wooded area and talked about our failing relationships and how life sucks. We also were reading our newspapers, for I stole one for her when I bought mine. When we got home, Chris and I decided to head over to the mall to have our ears pierced. He was getting his second hole, and me my first. We came across the jewelry stand where Cheryl, the girl from my first semester German class works, and we ended up letting her staple our ears. She's looking pretty damn good and we joked around for quite a while. I had a "diamond stud" starter put in and Chris and I bought a nice pair of gold hoops with the twenty percent discount you get on the day of your initial piercing. When we got home, we walked past Ashley, Laura, and I think Rob, heading off to mass in Ashley's car and we said hello.
I went and studied later on and came back to Beaty only to find them under a fire drill. I walked around until I found Laura and she was still in her Church dress. She looked really good and I told her that the alarm rang because she is so hot. Jana was holding Stimpy and was sitting on this couch. Jessica and Rob were there and he had bought him and Laura both a pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. She came right up and was standing next to me against the wall and then we sat down together. Leigh Anne was running around with her new boyfriend, Jerry, and Michelle. They were joking around with me for a few minutes and I made sure they saw me with Laura. Laura started feeding me her ice cream and was finding huge chunks of nuts and white chocolate for me to try. It was really fun and I enjoyed myself.
Leigh Anne was over in the room on Wednesday night after I had gone to sleep and she came in the room with a big smile and ruffled my hair. We talked for a few minutes and she told me how upset she was at me for ditching them on Friday night. I told her that I really made a mistake and hoped that she would forgive me. I met up with her outside the room on Thursday on the way to class and we walked together the entire way. The first thing she asked when she saw me is why she felt like shit because she though relationships are supposed to make you happy. I said that I know how she feels and that they hardly ever seem to work out that way. I decided to jump in and take advantage of her fragile state when she told me that she and Jerry have fought continuously ever night this week. She said that he wants her to change a lot, like working out so she can compete with him. She asked me if I like those women with tons of muscles and I truthfully told her that it makes me sick and that I like her just the way she is. I put my arm around her as I said that and she thought it was really sweet.
She mentioned that they are getting along really crappily and they've only been going out for a week. I corrected her saying six days, and that I'll be keeping track until the day we get her back. She counted and realized I have been keeping track, although it was just some quick addition in my head, but she thought that was amazingly well put. I just kept saying all of the right things and she did tell me that she's going to get rid of him if he pulls his shit any more! That's cool. I even went out of my way to get the doors for her and she thought I was being really sweet. She commented once that sometimes she forgets that I was a valedictorian because I act kind of silly. Thanks. But I wasn't being silly then and I though to myself how versatile I can be and how I can make almost any girl very happy by telling her what she wants to hear and what I have to offer.
I almost told her that, but that would have screwed everything up. Chris and I were talking about how I should have stuck around Friday night because she was very vulnerable and I could have easily had her. Maybe I still can... and we talked about how cool it would be to have convenient sex right next door. That would be awesome, and it wouldn't stop very quickly because she is the kind of girl who really needs what I have to offer. She kind of reminds me of Abby, except I want Leigh Anne. Chris and I have also been joking around a lot about how we are constantly starving nowadays. I joked that we used to think about sex all of the time and how much we want it, now we think about food and how nice it would be to have it. We ate like animals last Friday night when we went to this restaurant named Quincys where he took me for my birthday last year. All four of us went and ordered the hot bar and tried tons of everything. I was really surprised I ate so much because I did just official find out about Shar¡ just a few hours before and I recalled how I just didn't care to eat anymore after Nicole and I broke up way back when.
I've been having an awesome time with Karen in psychology class this week. I save her a seat now with my bookbag that I didn't do the first couple of times because I didn't want to seem to eager for her to come sit with me and possibly scare her off. It's cool now that we know about each other's relationship situation at least a little bit. She came bouncing up again to the seat next to me with a big grin on her face on Friday. I smiled and slowly moved my bookbag as she laughed and sarcastically told me to hurry up. I really like just being around her and am trying my best to impress her in any way I can. She's so damn hot!
Tuesday, October 12, 1993
October 12, 1993 - Tuesday - Refocus on Laura, Letter
Today has been my most busy day in quite a while. As I finished everything up around nine, I walked back to Beaty and was waiting for the elevator with two other people. The door opened, and there was Laura!, my long lost friend!!! We called out each other's names in surprise. She said that a friend of hers is picking her up to go watch a football game and I should come wait with her. Like I had a choice. She looked really pretty and smelled awesome, too. I was definitely impressed. She complained right off the bat that I called last night and didn't even talk to her. I explained that at least I told Ashley to say hi, and then admitted that I was thinking about her today and how I really needed to call and talk to her. She really liked that. We caught up on things pretty quickly and hugged for some reason on the walk towards the bench near the parking lot.
All I have to do is accuse her of not loving me any more and I can get an instant hug and the prettiest brown puppy dog eyes. She told me that Ronnie called and said that he wanted to come up one day next week just to see her. She effectively brushed him off but did say that she got all the latest Busch Gardens gossip, like the Kumba is now it's own unit. I joked that we should drop out of college and go back now and she got excited and was all for it. I said that we could start every morning at 7:30 and then pool in grounds on our days off. It would be just like the good old days. It was really funny. We talked about Ashley some, such as her extreme love for Daniel, and her daily salads that she eats at the sorority house.
She then asked me how my girlfriend is and I told her that I don't care. Chris and I had been talking about Laura a few nights ago and how I should definitely reopen that channel. I tried my best tonight. I then told her that I think that was the biggest mistake of the summer, when I decided on Shar¡ over her, because it was all in one day. She suddenly remembered it all and agreed that it was the day that I broke her heart! I suggested that we should have just ditched all of those people that went to Despaparados that night and gone to a movie like we had said earlier. She remembered and strongly agreed that we should have, because then Shar¡ would never have happened. Of course this was all said with a tint of humor in each of our voices. I really want to explain to her that because we always joke around so much, I never know or knew back at Busch Gardens when she is being serious. It would be perfect!
I also came up with a rather funny argument. I told her that my roommate (Chris) always told me to make a girl like you more, you have to make her jealous. Laura said that it's true. I then told her that's why I picked Shar¡ that night, to make her like me even more. She kind of laughed and said very sarcastically that she likes me so much more because of that. She told me how I ripped her heart out of her chest, threw it to the ground, and trampled all over it that night when she came to the party and saw Shar¡ and I sitting on the stairway together. I admitted that I didn't want to take Shar¡ there because of her, but I think that needs a little more developing for Laura to fully understand that I am serious.
Laura told me that she started seeing this guy named Carl for a couple of weeks but then quickly added that he only wanted a social relationship and they are dating other people. I thought that was cute and want to talk to her again really soon!!!
I went to the infirmary today and had a tuberculosis skin test. What used to be a little four prong pricker is now a needle! which surprised me. It only took a few minutes before I left and headed to the Hub to buy a blue examination booklet for my test in my Greco Roman civilization class. I grabbed a complimentary cup of Gatorade before I left. As I walked in, up came Ashley, my other wonderful friend! We had skipped biology this morning because she had an important exam in anthropology and needed to study. We were glad to see each other and talked for quite a while. I then walked home with her and we parted in the elevator. We both admitted that we are going nuts for our brains seem to be running way too actively lately. It was funny and we were being rather ridiculous to each other.
Oh yeah, I got a letter from my lover today... bitch. I wrote her back a somewhat demanding five page letter and sent it out already along with Cord's present. I didn't make a copy of it though, for I had already sealed the envelope and that really sucked. Maybe that will bring me better luck.
All I have to do is accuse her of not loving me any more and I can get an instant hug and the prettiest brown puppy dog eyes. She told me that Ronnie called and said that he wanted to come up one day next week just to see her. She effectively brushed him off but did say that she got all the latest Busch Gardens gossip, like the Kumba is now it's own unit. I joked that we should drop out of college and go back now and she got excited and was all for it. I said that we could start every morning at 7:30 and then pool in grounds on our days off. It would be just like the good old days. It was really funny. We talked about Ashley some, such as her extreme love for Daniel, and her daily salads that she eats at the sorority house.
She then asked me how my girlfriend is and I told her that I don't care. Chris and I had been talking about Laura a few nights ago and how I should definitely reopen that channel. I tried my best tonight. I then told her that I think that was the biggest mistake of the summer, when I decided on Shar¡ over her, because it was all in one day. She suddenly remembered it all and agreed that it was the day that I broke her heart! I suggested that we should have just ditched all of those people that went to Despaparados that night and gone to a movie like we had said earlier. She remembered and strongly agreed that we should have, because then Shar¡ would never have happened. Of course this was all said with a tint of humor in each of our voices. I really want to explain to her that because we always joke around so much, I never know or knew back at Busch Gardens when she is being serious. It would be perfect!
I also came up with a rather funny argument. I told her that my roommate (Chris) always told me to make a girl like you more, you have to make her jealous. Laura said that it's true. I then told her that's why I picked Shar¡ that night, to make her like me even more. She kind of laughed and said very sarcastically that she likes me so much more because of that. She told me how I ripped her heart out of her chest, threw it to the ground, and trampled all over it that night when she came to the party and saw Shar¡ and I sitting on the stairway together. I admitted that I didn't want to take Shar¡ there because of her, but I think that needs a little more developing for Laura to fully understand that I am serious.
Laura told me that she started seeing this guy named Carl for a couple of weeks but then quickly added that he only wanted a social relationship and they are dating other people. I thought that was cute and want to talk to her again really soon!!!
I went to the infirmary today and had a tuberculosis skin test. What used to be a little four prong pricker is now a needle! which surprised me. It only took a few minutes before I left and headed to the Hub to buy a blue examination booklet for my test in my Greco Roman civilization class. I grabbed a complimentary cup of Gatorade before I left. As I walked in, up came Ashley, my other wonderful friend! We had skipped biology this morning because she had an important exam in anthropology and needed to study. We were glad to see each other and talked for quite a while. I then walked home with her and we parted in the elevator. We both admitted that we are going nuts for our brains seem to be running way too actively lately. It was funny and we were being rather ridiculous to each other.
Oh yeah, I got a letter from my lover today... bitch. I wrote her back a somewhat demanding five page letter and sent it out already along with Cord's present. I didn't make a copy of it though, for I had already sealed the envelope and that really sucked. Maybe that will bring me better luck.
Thursday, September 2, 1993
September 2, 1993 - Thursday - We need to get together!
I had to be stupid and was being hopeful about something today. Even though both of our other letters each only took two days to get to each other, her latest one decided to go against the norm. That sucks because I based my entire morning around reading the new letter which is `similar to the first, but not as detailed.' I really hope it shows up tomorrow.
Cecil came over last night and along with Chris, we all talked about relationships and being in love until three in the morning! It was a good old-fashioned roommate talk and I thought a lot about Shar¡. I called her last night after six. She has been the one doing all of the calling for the two days prior and I knew that she'd be wondering if I was going to call her at all. That's kind of why I waited so long. She did say just that when we started talking. I told her of course I was going to call because I really missed talking to her. They were just finishing up eating and we only talked for about ten minutes.
She gave me a call back later at ten. She missed me the first time because I was downstairs putting my four loads of laundry into the dryers so she called back a few minutes later. She said that she had been thinking about things and just wanted to talk to me for a little while. I kind of pressured her to tell me what was on her mind because she had a hint of solemnity in her voice. She said that she had been thinking about all of the stuff that had happened over the summer like her being in the hospital. She later said that she was also thinking about what we'd be doing this weekend. I didn't push her any further and really can't wait to talk to her in person because we always have been able to talk better in person than over the phone. I'd really love to just hold her right now.
She told me that she's been packing already and I told Jon and we laughed that it's only Wednesday and she's ready to go. She explained to me later that she was mainly packing clothes so she wouldn't wear them and get them dirty between now and then. I asked her why she was wearing clothes, because she won't be needing them and we laughed. She said that she'd hate to walk around naked in front of the other people when she'd need to so she figured she'd bring some. She also said that she has packed her `convenient' zipper outfit so that she can wear it for me even if we don't go out. We ended up the conversation by saying that we shouldn't talk anymore between now and Friday night to save money and we said so long.
What I find rather funny is that we have both expressed our feelings for each other via letter and have confirmed that all we said was true, but we have never really voiced it over the phone. I can hear the gap in our conversation as we close up each time where an, `I love you!,' would fit magnificently but it just doesn't come. We both kind of hint at it or at least I do just like Kimmeth and I used to all of the time. I really hope this little verbal block is destroyed this weekend when we are together. She did ask me once when I am coming home, kind of rhetorically, because she wasn't just asking what weekend I'd come by but rather when I'd be with her for good! I told her that I don't know and then asked her when. She answered Monday and said that she was going to bring me back with her.
Ashley and I mutually skipped Biology discussion this morning and I slept in late until the mail arrived. After the disappointment of only finding a letter for Jon in the box, I made me a big French toast breakfast. I then got ready for my Greco-Roman culture class. I felt kind of confident and was flirting somewhat with the girls along the way. All it takes is an `interested' look and far too often I'll get a smile back. It's really cool. There are a couple of girls in my honors class that look at me and there is one really cute one that always stares and smiles. It's pretty cool.
On the way to Biology Lab tonight, my elevator opened up on Laura's floor and I see three of them getting into the other elevator. We smiled really big to each other and yelled hello as the doors shut. She waited with the door open for me downstairs and we asked what's up. She then put her arm around me and asked me where I was going. I paid her back the complement and told her. We kept talking for a while and she jokingly told me that I should skip and come hang out with them. We joked around for a minute before I had to take off. She told me to give her a call as the door shut between us.
I looked for cute girls to sit with in lab and ended up with this gorgeous girl named Eva and this guy who recognized me from that Greco-Roman class. He said that he remembered me from Tuesday as well because I was wearing my Q105 shirt and he is from St. Petersburg. We all had a pretty cool time and I was being as funny and sly as possible to Eva. Our teacher is a young lady from Colombia named Natalia. She is rather attractive but carries a heavy little accent. We were in the front row and I would looked at her intensely trying to make eye contact. I would even smile at her sweetly when she would say something kind of wrong and she would see me and laugh back a little. I did make her flutter her eyes a lot with my eye contact. I had joked with her by the end of the period and made her laugh hard once by the end of class. It was a rather flirtatious event and I think I'm going to like biology lab!
Cecil came over last night and along with Chris, we all talked about relationships and being in love until three in the morning! It was a good old-fashioned roommate talk and I thought a lot about Shar¡. I called her last night after six. She has been the one doing all of the calling for the two days prior and I knew that she'd be wondering if I was going to call her at all. That's kind of why I waited so long. She did say just that when we started talking. I told her of course I was going to call because I really missed talking to her. They were just finishing up eating and we only talked for about ten minutes.
She gave me a call back later at ten. She missed me the first time because I was downstairs putting my four loads of laundry into the dryers so she called back a few minutes later. She said that she had been thinking about things and just wanted to talk to me for a little while. I kind of pressured her to tell me what was on her mind because she had a hint of solemnity in her voice. She said that she had been thinking about all of the stuff that had happened over the summer like her being in the hospital. She later said that she was also thinking about what we'd be doing this weekend. I didn't push her any further and really can't wait to talk to her in person because we always have been able to talk better in person than over the phone. I'd really love to just hold her right now.
She told me that she's been packing already and I told Jon and we laughed that it's only Wednesday and she's ready to go. She explained to me later that she was mainly packing clothes so she wouldn't wear them and get them dirty between now and then. I asked her why she was wearing clothes, because she won't be needing them and we laughed. She said that she'd hate to walk around naked in front of the other people when she'd need to so she figured she'd bring some. She also said that she has packed her `convenient' zipper outfit so that she can wear it for me even if we don't go out. We ended up the conversation by saying that we shouldn't talk anymore between now and Friday night to save money and we said so long.
What I find rather funny is that we have both expressed our feelings for each other via letter and have confirmed that all we said was true, but we have never really voiced it over the phone. I can hear the gap in our conversation as we close up each time where an, `I love you!,' would fit magnificently but it just doesn't come. We both kind of hint at it or at least I do just like Kimmeth and I used to all of the time. I really hope this little verbal block is destroyed this weekend when we are together. She did ask me once when I am coming home, kind of rhetorically, because she wasn't just asking what weekend I'd come by but rather when I'd be with her for good! I told her that I don't know and then asked her when. She answered Monday and said that she was going to bring me back with her.
Ashley and I mutually skipped Biology discussion this morning and I slept in late until the mail arrived. After the disappointment of only finding a letter for Jon in the box, I made me a big French toast breakfast. I then got ready for my Greco-Roman culture class. I felt kind of confident and was flirting somewhat with the girls along the way. All it takes is an `interested' look and far too often I'll get a smile back. It's really cool. There are a couple of girls in my honors class that look at me and there is one really cute one that always stares and smiles. It's pretty cool.
On the way to Biology Lab tonight, my elevator opened up on Laura's floor and I see three of them getting into the other elevator. We smiled really big to each other and yelled hello as the doors shut. She waited with the door open for me downstairs and we asked what's up. She then put her arm around me and asked me where I was going. I paid her back the complement and told her. We kept talking for a while and she jokingly told me that I should skip and come hang out with them. We joked around for a minute before I had to take off. She told me to give her a call as the door shut between us.
I looked for cute girls to sit with in lab and ended up with this gorgeous girl named Eva and this guy who recognized me from that Greco-Roman class. He said that he remembered me from Tuesday as well because I was wearing my Q105 shirt and he is from St. Petersburg. We all had a pretty cool time and I was being as funny and sly as possible to Eva. Our teacher is a young lady from Colombia named Natalia. She is rather attractive but carries a heavy little accent. We were in the front row and I would looked at her intensely trying to make eye contact. I would even smile at her sweetly when she would say something kind of wrong and she would see me and laugh back a little. I did make her flutter her eyes a lot with my eye contact. I had joked with her by the end of the period and made her laugh hard once by the end of class. It was a rather flirtatious event and I think I'm going to like biology lab!
Monday, August 30, 1993
August 30, 1993 - Monday - I'd call it love...!!!
It's Monday afternoon right now and I just got in from a dip in the pool. I had planned on laying out after my block of classes today in Turlington but was more than sidetracked. I first walked down to thE stadium and picked up my football season pass. I then stopped in to the bookstore to see if my books from my honors class were in yet. I saw this really cute girl standing by the section with a frustrtaed look and took the chance to pounce on her. I asked her if she was having the same trouble finding the books and she said yes. We decided to confront our professor together tomorrow in class! I then heade home for lunch. Afterwards I planned on going out but Ed called and asked if I stay for a while and show him how to use the word processor to do his report. I did and finally got out of the room with a blazing hurtful sun still in the sky.
I kind of really wished that I'd see somebody as I walked to the pool that I know just so I could brag about going to lay out. Up ahead I saw the most glorious of all prizes- Laura! She was bobbing along in her red Bud hat and I recognized her instantly. When she saw me she started talking and we were being rather nice to each other. She ended up grabbing me by the arm and saying that I wasn't going to lay out, but rather I had to come up to her room and talk to her. She had a Spanish class an hour later. We joked around and talked for quite a while and I met their new roommate. She's a freshman but is already eighteen and a half. She was really surprised to find out that both Laura and I are aloso her age but are a year further in school! I did some major ass kissing when I could. I ended up with a really awesome argument as we were parting again after walking to the pool. I told her that if I hadn't thought that I was really going to enjoy talking to her, then I would have just gone to the pool originally instead of hanging out with her. It made perfect sense and I think she liked it.
Now for the important stuff. There has been a message on the board since I got home at lunchtime for me to call Shar¡. I'm pretty sure that she got my letter today... I've waited so far to call her because I want to give her some emotionally frustrating time to herself to contemplate things and so she can create those wild thoughts and images that always happen when you are emotionally unstable. I'll see...
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I held out until my beautiful called me at 6:30. Jon and I had just been talking about her and I was showing him how to spell her name at the time. She asked me why I hadn't called and I told her that I hadn't really been in all day and I was just about ready to. She told me that she called me pretty soon after she got my letter in the mail. She did say that she read my letter three times just to figure out what I was telling her in some cases. I told her that I just wanted to confuse her on purpose. I wonder which part that was. She said that she'll bring it back up so I can read it because I really wanted to photocopy it before I sent it. Jon really wants to know what I wrote as well, saying he wants some ideas for Karen!
Shar¡ said that what I had written was really sweet and liked the part where I told her that I was just sitting there looking at the pictures and Chris joked that I must be in love! She said that she then went through my letter as she wrote me one back that she'll mail tomorrow. She also told me that she really liked the card. I really liked the way her voice sounded when we talked about doing something together or about us. It's almost starting to sound believeable! She talked to me for a good hour before we decided to get off of the phone. We also decided to start limiting our phone calls since we will be seeing each other soon. I joked about having none all together to which she quickly objected saying that she really likes to hear my voice. Cord said goodbye to his `Daddy Dan' again as Mommy got off of the phone.
We also talked some more about me moving back to Tampa. It seems like the most wonderful idea in the world right now! She asked me when I could and I asked her when she wants me to. She said tomorrow, but I explained that it's already to far into the semester for that. We then talked about how the next semester starts right after Christmas. We also talked about the pictures I sent her and she told me how she has cut each one so that it fits in her wallet so she can `show' everybody. That's cool if she is. She thought that the one where I was walking with Cord on the beach is really cute and I fully agree. She sai dthta the pictures came out really good and I told her that there are a lot more for her when she comes up that are just as good or better!
I've never been one who likes to read too much into something, but when we talk about us, she almost has a `hopeful' sound deep in her voice that I find truly fascinating... Now I wait again for the letter.
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Every time the phone has rung tonight, Chris always says that it's for me and that I should answer it. I always object, not figuring that Shar¡ was going to call me back again. The call at eleven was her. She told me that she asked for, `Dan please!' and he asked who was calling in a nice bullshitty voice. He then informed me in the same pleasant voice that it was indeed for me. I responded with an, `Is that so?' in the same manner and he affirmed my question. I then asked who it might be, and he said that it might be Shar¡. It was a pretty funny interlude and Shar¡ and I laughed about it for a while. She told me that she was lying down ready to go to sleep and was thinking about me so she decided to give me a call. I told her that it was interesting because I was thinking about her as well. We laughed that it must be that ESP thing again!
We were both talking very `excitedly' to each other. It was very apparent in her voice and I liked that a lot. She said that it is a lot quieter now referring to the fact that my roommates were no longer screaming like earlier. I agreed so in both of our cases, personally referring to the kids. We were both being extremely cute and witty. I referred to her as Boss once like I used to quite often. That stemmed off of when she would ask me to do something like get Cord's cup. She would always laugh and tell me not to forget it. I joked that she's no longer my boss and she said that she never really was in the first place. I told her that's not true because I'd do anything for her. She liked that and then said that she should have taken advantage of that. I took on a more serious tone and asked her if she'd really take advantage of me. She switched to a reassuring voice and said of course not. I then told her pretty seductively that's too bad and she laughed very slyly. I really liked the way her laugh sounded right then. I then laughed and said she just doesn't seem to be saying anything right tonight. It was funny and we laughed. We were both in damn good moods. I guess she really liked my letter!!!
I kind of really wished that I'd see somebody as I walked to the pool that I know just so I could brag about going to lay out. Up ahead I saw the most glorious of all prizes- Laura! She was bobbing along in her red Bud hat and I recognized her instantly. When she saw me she started talking and we were being rather nice to each other. She ended up grabbing me by the arm and saying that I wasn't going to lay out, but rather I had to come up to her room and talk to her. She had a Spanish class an hour later. We joked around and talked for quite a while and I met their new roommate. She's a freshman but is already eighteen and a half. She was really surprised to find out that both Laura and I are aloso her age but are a year further in school! I did some major ass kissing when I could. I ended up with a really awesome argument as we were parting again after walking to the pool. I told her that if I hadn't thought that I was really going to enjoy talking to her, then I would have just gone to the pool originally instead of hanging out with her. It made perfect sense and I think she liked it.
Now for the important stuff. There has been a message on the board since I got home at lunchtime for me to call Shar¡. I'm pretty sure that she got my letter today... I've waited so far to call her because I want to give her some emotionally frustrating time to herself to contemplate things and so she can create those wild thoughts and images that always happen when you are emotionally unstable. I'll see...
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I held out until my beautiful called me at 6:30. Jon and I had just been talking about her and I was showing him how to spell her name at the time. She asked me why I hadn't called and I told her that I hadn't really been in all day and I was just about ready to. She told me that she called me pretty soon after she got my letter in the mail. She did say that she read my letter three times just to figure out what I was telling her in some cases. I told her that I just wanted to confuse her on purpose. I wonder which part that was. She said that she'll bring it back up so I can read it because I really wanted to photocopy it before I sent it. Jon really wants to know what I wrote as well, saying he wants some ideas for Karen!
Shar¡ said that what I had written was really sweet and liked the part where I told her that I was just sitting there looking at the pictures and Chris joked that I must be in love! She said that she then went through my letter as she wrote me one back that she'll mail tomorrow. She also told me that she really liked the card. I really liked the way her voice sounded when we talked about doing something together or about us. It's almost starting to sound believeable! She talked to me for a good hour before we decided to get off of the phone. We also decided to start limiting our phone calls since we will be seeing each other soon. I joked about having none all together to which she quickly objected saying that she really likes to hear my voice. Cord said goodbye to his `Daddy Dan' again as Mommy got off of the phone.
We also talked some more about me moving back to Tampa. It seems like the most wonderful idea in the world right now! She asked me when I could and I asked her when she wants me to. She said tomorrow, but I explained that it's already to far into the semester for that. We then talked about how the next semester starts right after Christmas. We also talked about the pictures I sent her and she told me how she has cut each one so that it fits in her wallet so she can `show' everybody. That's cool if she is. She thought that the one where I was walking with Cord on the beach is really cute and I fully agree. She sai dthta the pictures came out really good and I told her that there are a lot more for her when she comes up that are just as good or better!
I've never been one who likes to read too much into something, but when we talk about us, she almost has a `hopeful' sound deep in her voice that I find truly fascinating... Now I wait again for the letter.
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Every time the phone has rung tonight, Chris always says that it's for me and that I should answer it. I always object, not figuring that Shar¡ was going to call me back again. The call at eleven was her. She told me that she asked for, `Dan please!' and he asked who was calling in a nice bullshitty voice. He then informed me in the same pleasant voice that it was indeed for me. I responded with an, `Is that so?' in the same manner and he affirmed my question. I then asked who it might be, and he said that it might be Shar¡. It was a pretty funny interlude and Shar¡ and I laughed about it for a while. She told me that she was lying down ready to go to sleep and was thinking about me so she decided to give me a call. I told her that it was interesting because I was thinking about her as well. We laughed that it must be that ESP thing again!
We were both talking very `excitedly' to each other. It was very apparent in her voice and I liked that a lot. She said that it is a lot quieter now referring to the fact that my roommates were no longer screaming like earlier. I agreed so in both of our cases, personally referring to the kids. We were both being extremely cute and witty. I referred to her as Boss once like I used to quite often. That stemmed off of when she would ask me to do something like get Cord's cup. She would always laugh and tell me not to forget it. I joked that she's no longer my boss and she said that she never really was in the first place. I told her that's not true because I'd do anything for her. She liked that and then said that she should have taken advantage of that. I took on a more serious tone and asked her if she'd really take advantage of me. She switched to a reassuring voice and said of course not. I then told her pretty seductively that's too bad and she laughed very slyly. I really liked the way her laugh sounded right then. I then laughed and said she just doesn't seem to be saying anything right tonight. It was funny and we laughed. We were both in damn good moods. I guess she really liked my letter!!!
Thursday, August 26, 1993
August 26, 1993 - Thursday - Shari's second 'love'!!!
I'm flying!!! I'm on a natural high that feels damn good right now. It's partially ego, mostly love!
I waited around this morning for Ashley to call so we could walk to Biology together. Chris had to meet a teacher during second period and was going to walk with me. I had my letters ready to mail home to my family and to Carey Ann. Ashley called and said that she wasn't in her room and said that I'd have to take on Biology alone. She said that she'd return the favor someday when I don't want to go to class. I walked with Chris to the postal box and then we headed our separate ways. I got to class and since Thursdays are solely discussion days, the teacher said that she would be reviewing what we had gone over the past few days for all of the newer people and won't ever teach anything new on Thursdays. I thought that was cool and left. I had started to think that today was turning into a bad day because Ashley hadn't showed up and all, because my days usually seem to follow a certain trend. I believe fate is funny that way. I knew that if I let that happen, I wouldn't receive my letter from Shar¡ or it would be much worse that I was expecting.
I decided to quickly turn things around and cheer myself up. I figured that I wouldn't have been able to leave Biology so early if Ashley had been there. That way I was able to head over to Criser and get the copy of my schedule that I needed and then head home early. I walked into the room to find a maintenance guy actually pumping out our bathtub drain. I was really surprised how quickly they responded and that cheered me up. I asked him if he could loosen up the shower head because it literally hurt to take a shower because of all of the mineral deposits in the head. We had to do that last year. He said that he'd just get me a whole new shower head!, and then I knew that my turnaround day had come true. I cleaned the bathtub to perfection after he left and was able to brag to everyone else about what I had done in the bathroom. They were all just as happy. That was about the only nuisance in our entire dorm except for the fact that the beds had yet to be bunked.
Just a little while later while Chris and I were eating lunch, they came in and bunked the beds as well! I then felt that the luck couldn't stop now so I headed downstairs to check the mail...
I had fully prepared myself for a disappointment as I was in the elevator but when I saw two envelopes in our mailbox I just knew that one was from Shar¡. I pulled them out and there it was! The stamp had a giant red heart on it and said, `LOVE.' She had written, `XXX OOO,' and, `Sealed with a lick cause a kiss wouldn't stick!!!,' across the back. I knew right then that this was going to be a good letter and I sat down to read it right in the commons. I wanted to read it to myself first without my roommates being there to harass me. She wrote the following:
I brought it back upstairs almost bouncing excitedly the entire way. I shared it with Chris and we had a long talk about Shar¡ and how she and I met. I had a class to go to eventually that is my new honors class. I took my camera and some coupons to get my film developed after class at Eckerds. I couldn't wait any longer to see them. My class ended up being pretty awesome. it was really interesting and the professor is a woman who is a little older but still attractive. I tried to flirt a little bit and even pulled her overhead screen down when she couldn't reach it. Afterwards I walked to Eckerds and put the film in and then headed across the street to McDonalds to eat and kill the hour it takes to develop the film. I sat there and read Shar¡'s letter over and over again. It just all seemed so unbelievable, like a dream. I thought to myself that I am either amazed and completely excited about what might be coming for us, or the girl is a damn good bullshitter or was trying to scare me off with the Daddy and `commitment' things. That's reading far too much into it I hope but it still does show my slight mistrust of her.
I went back to Eckerds and went shopping for a little while. I looked at all of the love cards and went through them finding each one far too mushy or lame. I then saw a beautiful one that turned out to have a brilliant message in it. I knew that I couldn't have said it better myself and was far beyond pleased with myself for finding it. Damn I was in a good mood. The card said something like, `Who?, When?, Where?, Why?' and the inside said, `You, Any time, Any place, You know why!' It was an awesome card! I looked at the pictures on the walk home and they came out rather impressively. She looks a little bigger in the pictures than she really is though. She's still gorgeous and I showed he off a lot when I got home. Even though she begged me not to, I showed the guys the one of her white butt sticking out but only gave them a quick glance at the one of her in her underwear because the way her thighs burned really emphasized her stretch marks. But between us it's a gorgeous picture the way she's holding her hair and showing off her tits.
I called her at three once everybody had left but she wasn't there. She ended up coming home just minutes later and called me not long after. We ended up not really talking about the letter to any great detail and I told her so as I wrote her a pretty emotional reply right after we got off the phone. When we talked later on I mentioned that and she said that I didn't sound like I wanted to talk about either. She really wanted me to read her my letter over the phone but I couldn't. She told me all about this talk she and her father had about me and how he really thinks she should settle down with me and mary me if things all go right! I had already heard this from Buffy because we talked for a little while before she gave Shar¡ the phone. She told me that Shar¡'s dad is really on my side and is trying to keep her from running about with her friends all of the time for my sake. That's pretty cool! Anyway, Shar¡ told me all about their talk and so on. That was pretty cool, too. She also told me that she had talked to Michael's mother the other day for the first time in six months and told her all about me. That impressed me.
Shar¡ and I also talked somewhat sexually for essentially the first time. She said that she and Christy might have a lingerie sale party and she said that she might buy something for her to wear for me when she comes up! I told her my general dislike for the things, skin is much better. She then said that it kind of... and I cut her off agreeing with her and told her to do so. I then wanted her to finish her sentence but she wouldn't. I told her about getting the shower finally fixed and she had said that she actually took a shower with Cord today. The three of us used to play this game that Cord and I were jealous of each other and always wanted Mommy's last kiss. I told her I was jealous and she promised that I'll get my turn.
Emily called me today as well! I recognized her voice almost instantly and we caught up as quick as possible. She told me that she's taking a year off from school and going to do missionary work down in Guatemala!!! I told her that I'd still take her to Busch Gardens if she wants to go as long as she drives and gives me back my Garth Brooks CD! We had a cool little talk but I had to get her off the phone when the second line beeped because I was expecting Shar¡. I gave Jenn a call and we talked for about half an hour, too. She's pretty much deciding not to pledge to her sorority until Spring and we talked a lot about that. She's still sick and wasn't really in the hyper condition to screw around like we usually do when we talk.
Leigh Anne from next door had come over once and asked me if we'd help her build a computer desk later on. I obliged since I've put together lot's of those prefabricated things at home and know what I'm doing. Her cute roommate was also there when I went over and both were in their pajamas. Leigh Anne helped me separate my hardware and we had a great time being perverted about my hardware and about screwing. It got really intense and I loved it. They both kept `accidentally' flashing me to a sense and the other one would always giggle and I would smile and pretend nothing was up. It was funny. They were both amazed and extremely impressed at how quickly I created a complex and beautiful desk for them. I did a great job and they were very happy. We'll I'm off to a good start with the neighbors this year!
Ashley gave me a call at 10:30 and I called her back after Chris was done using the phone. She told me that she would definitely be going to class tomorrow morning. She said she had gone to a party on Wednesday night and got wasted and never came home. She apologized and said that she hoped I'm not mad with her. Of course not. We talked socially for a few minutes and then I asked about Laura. She had answered the phone and I didn't even say hello to her because I wasn't really paying attention that I knew anybody there buy Ashley! I got back on the phone with Laura and apologized and started talking to her and actually being pretty nice. We were being perverted, too which was quite a bit of fun. We ended up talking for over forty-five minutes!!! which really surprised me. that was really cool though. Chris didn't know who I was talking to but kept laughing at some of the things I was saying to her. It was pretty funny and ass kissy.
But only Shar¡ matters any more... this is a feeling I haven't had in a long time where I actually don't have the need to be constantly talking to a girl. I have found social satisfaction...
I waited around this morning for Ashley to call so we could walk to Biology together. Chris had to meet a teacher during second period and was going to walk with me. I had my letters ready to mail home to my family and to Carey Ann. Ashley called and said that she wasn't in her room and said that I'd have to take on Biology alone. She said that she'd return the favor someday when I don't want to go to class. I walked with Chris to the postal box and then we headed our separate ways. I got to class and since Thursdays are solely discussion days, the teacher said that she would be reviewing what we had gone over the past few days for all of the newer people and won't ever teach anything new on Thursdays. I thought that was cool and left. I had started to think that today was turning into a bad day because Ashley hadn't showed up and all, because my days usually seem to follow a certain trend. I believe fate is funny that way. I knew that if I let that happen, I wouldn't receive my letter from Shar¡ or it would be much worse that I was expecting.
I decided to quickly turn things around and cheer myself up. I figured that I wouldn't have been able to leave Biology so early if Ashley had been there. That way I was able to head over to Criser and get the copy of my schedule that I needed and then head home early. I walked into the room to find a maintenance guy actually pumping out our bathtub drain. I was really surprised how quickly they responded and that cheered me up. I asked him if he could loosen up the shower head because it literally hurt to take a shower because of all of the mineral deposits in the head. We had to do that last year. He said that he'd just get me a whole new shower head!, and then I knew that my turnaround day had come true. I cleaned the bathtub to perfection after he left and was able to brag to everyone else about what I had done in the bathroom. They were all just as happy. That was about the only nuisance in our entire dorm except for the fact that the beds had yet to be bunked.
Just a little while later while Chris and I were eating lunch, they came in and bunked the beds as well! I then felt that the luck couldn't stop now so I headed downstairs to check the mail...
I had fully prepared myself for a disappointment as I was in the elevator but when I saw two envelopes in our mailbox I just knew that one was from Shar¡. I pulled them out and there it was! The stamp had a giant red heart on it and said, `LOVE.' She had written, `XXX OOO,' and, `Sealed with a lick cause a kiss wouldn't stick!!!,' across the back. I knew right then that this was going to be a good letter and I sat down to read it right in the commons. I wanted to read it to myself first without my roommates being there to harass me. She wrote the following:
Dan,
It's only been a couple of hours since you've been gone and it seems like forever. I really miss you alot and even more as each day goes by. I just wanted to write and tell you how much I've enjoyed the time we've spent together and everything we do. I also wanted to tell you how much I've fallen in love with you and everything about you. {That fucking killed me when I read that line!!!!! My eyes grew wide and I swear I almost had a heart attack!!! I just couldn't believe my eyes!!!} I always told myself that after 5 yrs. with someone I would never fall in love again, but I have and hopefully I won't get hurt this time. Cord has also enjoyed you being around and I can tell because he has asked for you already. It really means alot to me how you and Cord get along because he's gonna need someone here for him to. I would like for you to tell me how you feel about Cord being there all the time, (and hopefully it will) but if our relationship last for along time then he will end up calling you Daddy Dan because as you know his Dad will never come and see him and Cord has only seen him 1 or 2 times so he doesn't really know him. As far as I'm concerned I don't ever want him to come around. I also want you to understand something........ While you are up there I will be going to the beach and to clubs and other things and yes it will be with with guys mostly but I don't want you to be worried about it because these guys are only friends. See while I was growing up I was the only girl around because I was the only girl cousin that lives here in Tampa and all my cousins always brought their guy friends around and that's why all my friends are mostly guys. But I friends that I do have are strictly friends and nothing else, they have been friends with me for about 4 or 5 yrs. If it bothers you I would like for you to say something because I do care what you think. I am not going to be out looking for anyone else because I have my heart and mind set on you. When I do look around and see other guys all I see is you. When you left Saturday night I cried as I watched you drive away because it hurt to see you go. But then I said if it was ment to be you will call, write, and we'll see each other. Are you coming down the 10th and stay with me at Christy's? Well I guess I'll let ya go but not for long. I'll be thinking about you and counting the days that go by.
Love, Shar¡
I brought it back upstairs almost bouncing excitedly the entire way. I shared it with Chris and we had a long talk about Shar¡ and how she and I met. I had a class to go to eventually that is my new honors class. I took my camera and some coupons to get my film developed after class at Eckerds. I couldn't wait any longer to see them. My class ended up being pretty awesome. it was really interesting and the professor is a woman who is a little older but still attractive. I tried to flirt a little bit and even pulled her overhead screen down when she couldn't reach it. Afterwards I walked to Eckerds and put the film in and then headed across the street to McDonalds to eat and kill the hour it takes to develop the film. I sat there and read Shar¡'s letter over and over again. It just all seemed so unbelievable, like a dream. I thought to myself that I am either amazed and completely excited about what might be coming for us, or the girl is a damn good bullshitter or was trying to scare me off with the Daddy and `commitment' things. That's reading far too much into it I hope but it still does show my slight mistrust of her.
I went back to Eckerds and went shopping for a little while. I looked at all of the love cards and went through them finding each one far too mushy or lame. I then saw a beautiful one that turned out to have a brilliant message in it. I knew that I couldn't have said it better myself and was far beyond pleased with myself for finding it. Damn I was in a good mood. The card said something like, `Who?, When?, Where?, Why?' and the inside said, `You, Any time, Any place, You know why!' It was an awesome card! I looked at the pictures on the walk home and they came out rather impressively. She looks a little bigger in the pictures than she really is though. She's still gorgeous and I showed he off a lot when I got home. Even though she begged me not to, I showed the guys the one of her white butt sticking out but only gave them a quick glance at the one of her in her underwear because the way her thighs burned really emphasized her stretch marks. But between us it's a gorgeous picture the way she's holding her hair and showing off her tits.
I called her at three once everybody had left but she wasn't there. She ended up coming home just minutes later and called me not long after. We ended up not really talking about the letter to any great detail and I told her so as I wrote her a pretty emotional reply right after we got off the phone. When we talked later on I mentioned that and she said that I didn't sound like I wanted to talk about either. She really wanted me to read her my letter over the phone but I couldn't. She told me all about this talk she and her father had about me and how he really thinks she should settle down with me and mary me if things all go right! I had already heard this from Buffy because we talked for a little while before she gave Shar¡ the phone. She told me that Shar¡'s dad is really on my side and is trying to keep her from running about with her friends all of the time for my sake. That's pretty cool! Anyway, Shar¡ told me all about their talk and so on. That was pretty cool, too. She also told me that she had talked to Michael's mother the other day for the first time in six months and told her all about me. That impressed me.
Shar¡ and I also talked somewhat sexually for essentially the first time. She said that she and Christy might have a lingerie sale party and she said that she might buy something for her to wear for me when she comes up! I told her my general dislike for the things, skin is much better. She then said that it kind of... and I cut her off agreeing with her and told her to do so. I then wanted her to finish her sentence but she wouldn't. I told her about getting the shower finally fixed and she had said that she actually took a shower with Cord today. The three of us used to play this game that Cord and I were jealous of each other and always wanted Mommy's last kiss. I told her I was jealous and she promised that I'll get my turn.
Emily called me today as well! I recognized her voice almost instantly and we caught up as quick as possible. She told me that she's taking a year off from school and going to do missionary work down in Guatemala!!! I told her that I'd still take her to Busch Gardens if she wants to go as long as she drives and gives me back my Garth Brooks CD! We had a cool little talk but I had to get her off the phone when the second line beeped because I was expecting Shar¡. I gave Jenn a call and we talked for about half an hour, too. She's pretty much deciding not to pledge to her sorority until Spring and we talked a lot about that. She's still sick and wasn't really in the hyper condition to screw around like we usually do when we talk.
Leigh Anne from next door had come over once and asked me if we'd help her build a computer desk later on. I obliged since I've put together lot's of those prefabricated things at home and know what I'm doing. Her cute roommate was also there when I went over and both were in their pajamas. Leigh Anne helped me separate my hardware and we had a great time being perverted about my hardware and about screwing. It got really intense and I loved it. They both kept `accidentally' flashing me to a sense and the other one would always giggle and I would smile and pretend nothing was up. It was funny. They were both amazed and extremely impressed at how quickly I created a complex and beautiful desk for them. I did a great job and they were very happy. We'll I'm off to a good start with the neighbors this year!
Ashley gave me a call at 10:30 and I called her back after Chris was done using the phone. She told me that she would definitely be going to class tomorrow morning. She said she had gone to a party on Wednesday night and got wasted and never came home. She apologized and said that she hoped I'm not mad with her. Of course not. We talked socially for a few minutes and then I asked about Laura. She had answered the phone and I didn't even say hello to her because I wasn't really paying attention that I knew anybody there buy Ashley! I got back on the phone with Laura and apologized and started talking to her and actually being pretty nice. We were being perverted, too which was quite a bit of fun. We ended up talking for over forty-five minutes!!! which really surprised me. that was really cool though. Chris didn't know who I was talking to but kept laughing at some of the things I was saying to her. It was pretty funny and ass kissy.
But only Shar¡ matters any more... this is a feeling I haven't had in a long time where I actually don't have the need to be constantly talking to a girl. I have found social satisfaction...