Life is cool. Life sucks. And playing God is fun.
Heh heh, heh heh, heh heh!
Shar¡ called me last night at midnight just as I had settled down for a long winter's nap. Mother answered and came and got me. The voice was a little heavy and I was expecting Leigh Anne after an earlier call, but instead it was Shar¡! She was at a pool bar somewhere which is why she could call and we talked for just a few minutes. She asked when I would be going back to school and when I told her not until Sunday she got all happy that she still has a week to get together with me. She asked if I'd like to do something like come down and shoot pool, maybe on Friday night and I said yes, of course. She then told me that I'll be surprised when I see her because she looks a lot different, "as white as a ghost" as she put it. SHe said she' shave to talk to Christina about it but thinks she'll agree because she likes me, and we laughed.
I told her about the pictures I had developed and she said she'd really like to see them. She then told me how she visited the family for Christmas and got a bunch of toys and clothes for Cord and how her dad had given her fifty dollars. She asked about mine and I told her I worked and had just gotten home when she called the other night. She thought that sucked. She had to go before long and she said that she'd call me sometime soon, maybe today.
I had called Buffy earlier in the day and asked when a good time to come and pick up my ring would be. She agreed that this afternoon would be cool but to give her a call before I come over. We then talked about Shar¡ for a while. She said that she hasn't talked to her since I'd called last time but Chad, Shar¡'s brother, has. He said that Shar¡ looks like shit right now and her face is all broken out. He said that they live in a real shithole trailer with cardboard over the broken windows. She said he saw Cord running around in very few clothes in the freezing cold and that pissed Buffy off because she had given Shar¡ a bunch of stuff for him. I told her how Shar¡ has been trying to call me and we talked for a few minutes on Christmas and Buffy said that even though Shar¡ is supposedly "dedicated" to this guy, how come she keeps calling everybody else? She also told me that Shar¡ just got out of the hospital for both a liver and kidney infection. She also complained about how Ernie gave Shar¡ money for food and we both know where that's going to go... and she mentioned a desire to call HRS on Shar¡ as well which I fully support.
I talked to mother later and she told me that a liver infection usually means hepatitis!!! I also was talking with her about all of my girlfriends and why I liked Shar¡ so much. I realized that I am a creative person that likes to make things and Shar¡ was the perfect raw material after attempting suicide. I wanted to mold and influence her into the perfect girlfriend and was doing damn well until I left. I am always going to regret having to leave her. She was getting goals and actually was starting to carry them through. It was all so perfect for a while.
I arrived at Busch Gardens early this morning and waited a while to get a spot in the public parking lot. I was at the fountain by the main entrance a little before ten and waited for Laura. I even ran inside once and looked around in the shop before going back out. at 10:17 I saw her and was glad she wasn't very late, for she did tell me she probably would be but she impressed me. I very easily could have taken her not showing up after some of the abuse I've let myself go through in the past year. We headed in and then went straight for the rides.
I then headed over to Buffy's house to find this cute little note on the door.
I pulled away from the house pissed off and suddenly wondering how I was going to explain any of this to my parents. I was pissed at Shar¡ and figured she wouldn't call me anymore since she knew I was supposed to try and get my ring today and would find out, if she had indeed taken it. I got around the corner only to look into the passing car as I always do and saw Shar¡ wave at me. I had just been thinking earlier how I had never driven out to her house before without the full intentions of seeing her, and I also was wondering how I could find out where this guys trailer is and what car he drives. Well two wishes were suddenly fulfilled. He was in an old white Trans Am with a red stripe. I pulled around the corner and headed back to Buffy's house.
There were a lot of funny things, though. Buffy had said that Shar¡ hasn't talked to her since I last called her, so why the hell is Shar¡ all of the sudden stopping by to see her. I also had told Shar¡ last night that I was going over, but later on, and I was there kind of early. I wonder if she was trying to get there before me. It's also an amazing coincidence that I even saw her because it happened at the last second as they drove by and all I saw were the hands and then went on the hunch. The timing had to be perfect for us to run into each other like that. I also realized how close Shar¡ came to finding the note before I did, which might have been better now that I think about it. I also wonder now if the guy driving the car is just one of her roommates, as she calls them, or Craig. I also thought it might be her older brother for a second but I really don't think so.
I drove up behind them as she was trying to ring on the doorbell and I told her where Buffy was. She came and asked what's up and then said that they were going to get gas and come back. I left too and ran by Ashley's house but she wasn't home. I then went back and waited in the driveway and before long Shar¡ returned and the guy parked right behind me, blocking me in. That actually scared me a little bit and I got my knife ready and had a quick way out of the situation straight through the yard. After a little while, Shar¡ finally got out of her car and came up to my window again to start talking to me. I had just pulled out the pictures and was sorting through the ones she could see. She got excited when she saw that and wanted to look at them.
Shar¡ herself did look really bad. I have never seen her wear shitty clothes before but she was doing so. She was in these soft shorts that one would wear pregnant if her jean shorts didn't fit her anymore, but I couldn't really tell anything at all. Her face was all broken out, and my mother later told me your face breaks out and you lose some weight when you get pregnant! Great. But it happens by smoking pot every day, too. She had Cord come out too and he looked puny just because I haven't seen him in so long. I also noticed the necklace stilled tied around her neck that I gave her, and I think I remember the bracelet still being there as well. That was cool.
She looked at the pictures of her and laughed at some of them really hard. She wanted to see the ones of me as well and went through those. She pulled out this one of me lying in bed after I just woke up and told me that it looks really good. She realized what a fucking stupid face she was making in this one with the stickers on her nipples and also laughed about the one where she was running downstairs for a smoke break. She asked if there were any more and I showed her the two of us playing pool and she really liked the one of her in her black zipper outfit and thinks it was the best of them all. I agreed and said that I think the one of her in a sheet is really cute, too. She then said something about not being able to get the black shorts on anymore because she's getting too fat and we both looked at each other and laughed. That was really weird and I realized soon after that it might have been another pregnancy hint!!!
She took the pictures back to the guy in the car and told him in a somewhat singy voice to look at "me and Dan!" That kind of made me curious as well, and made me wonder if it was really Craig in the car. If I were a girls boyfriend and she did what I was doing right then, I would have kicked her ass. She's showing him pictures of her in her underwear, plus the ones of me. When she came back she asked if she gets too keep them and I asked if she wanted them all. She said yes, including the ones of me. I asked whys he wants them, and if she still has the others. She said definitely and that she still looks at them every once in a while. It might sound too overconfident but she might have said all of the time, I can't quite remember.
She then asked me if I was going to throw away the ones of her and I said no, that I always keep crap like that and smiled really big and she laughed and said, "Crap, huh?!" and smiled as she pretended to whap me with the pictures in her hand. I wish now that I would have told her that I always like to remember the things that make me happy... She then grabbed the two pool pictures from between my legs that I had taken out of my album for her.
I then asked her if she has been in the hospital lately and she looked at me with a very surprised look and asked me how I knew! I smiled and wouldn't tell her but said that I knew it was for both kidney and liver infections. She agreed and then I asked her if she knew that a liver infection is just a nice name for hepatitis. She argued that it's not because hepatitis kills you and I used my dad as an example. She then admitted that she's supposed to go back in for blood tests really soon to see if it is either an early of late stage of hepatitis that she has. I then fed her some scary bull about it being a dangerous disease and how it can come back at any time once you have it. She believes me because I'm supposed to become a doctor and I love it. I then called her a walking venereal disease and she said that I'm probably glad that I'm rid of her now that I know this...
We talked a little while longer and she asked how I did in my classes and I told her how she made me fail biology by not letting me study that weekend. She said it wasn't really her fault but I told her that she makes a damn good excuse for my parents and anybody else who asks. She thought that was just great. We talked a little longer before I told her that I was going to split before long. She agreed and went back to her car about five minutes later. I wanted her to come back up for a second so I could tell her I work Friday night and also to write me if I don't see her again over the break, but oh well. I kind of chased them out of Bloomingdale West before we made our parting ways.
Shar¡ :
Are you pregnant?
Who was the guy in the car?
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