I guess it's about time that I write about my failures as well. I went with Melissa to Cafe Gardens over across University Avenue. I met her out in front of Library West at 5:30. She gave me a call earlier and left a message on the machine. I left for twenty minutes to pick up my car from Red D, and I knew that she would call while I was gone. I was home all day until then. When I walked in there was the little one on the answering machine. She was leaving to go to the library and wanted me to meet her there. She sounded really cute on the machine.
I'm not sure now if there is really anything for me to be upset about. It's just that we didn't seem to have too much to say to each other towards the end of dinner, and on the walk home. I have so much to say, but I went blank. I called her later and asked her if she found out what she is doing tonight. She already sounded like she was drinking, either that or she fell asleep when she got home. I told her that I was just going to ask her if she wanted to go see a movie. I then asked her what she is doing tomorrow night, and she told me that she has some things she needs to take care of. I'm trying so hard to get into her world, but I can't quite seem to fit. That's why I'm not really sure how to feel right now. It might just be that she already has plans, or something.
I'm pretty sure that it's not Richard. She said that he called this morning and she still doesn't quite know why. He was essentially said that they can still be friends down the road. She did mention though that a guy asked her to a movie last night. it was Jennifer 8, and it really sucked. We were talking about movies, though, which I think is the only reason she brought it up. I think I asked her a few too many questions about Richard towards the beginning of dinner. She was thinking about him.
For dinner she ordered some kind of grilled chicken on pita bread. I ordered a grilled hamburger on an English muffin with bacon and cheddar cheese. We also ordered a pound of French fries for the two of us. I thought that was funny. She was telling me all about this new movie that is out that is a documentary about this tremendously smart man's life, who now has a disease where his body is deteriorating, while his mind remains perfect. She has also read the book and thinks that I might find it interesting. Pity I don't remember the name.
One thing was the fact that she was still in jean shorts while I was dressed up a bit. I sort of teased her about it, which might of proven to be a mistake. FUCK!!! That's why I don't quite think I was ready to take her to dinner yet, which is why I asked her to lunch. Much more casual. I guess I should have had my Pepsi beforehand. I guess I lacked that caffeine pep to keep me attentive and interesting. Whatever. I'll find out Monday, if I can make it that far. Tonight, I seemed to have fallen into the same rut that happened with Kim. I need to hurry up and grab Melissa's attention again. I hope I'm reading too much into this... I hope, I hope, I hope!!!!!
Friday the 13th!!! My luck has fallen...
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