I was determined last night to finally get my act in gear and start studying again full time. I also took care of my advanced registration with Leigh Anne. She brought up White Castle in a conversation a few nights before and I mentioned that Krystals is the same thing. She hadn't ever been so we decided to go after registering. We both bought four cheese Krystals and they were actually delicious! She really liked them, too, and we ended up having a really nice talk during our meal.
We eventually made it home and soon all gathered around to watch Jeopardy. I fixed myself dinner because I was starving once again and she helped me to devour my fries. Chris made a rather lengthy phone call to Marty and then after finally ripping myself loose from Leigh Anne's grip, we headed out to study for a while. Chris noticed how much she didn't want to be away from me even for a little while and was really glad that I left and didn't let her have her way. We met up with Cecil whom I had chatted with earlier on the phone and we talked for a while about all of our relationships until we were kicked out of Turlington.
I stopped to say hello at the neighbor's room and Leigh Anne told me that she fixed me something to eat and told me to go to my room so she can surprise me. I was rather impressed although I had eaten only a little while earlier. It was sesame chicken and all of the guys were jealous.
I really like Leigh Anne's roommates as well because every one of them is starting to show signs that they enjoy talking to me and telling me things. Leigh Anne and I hung out back and forth in the two rooms for a while.
We made love at three in the morning on a chair in her room.
Tuesday, November 9, 1993
Sunday, November 7, 1993
November 7, 1993 - Sunday - The real fair story!
I think this deal is going to work out for a while after all. Playing with Leigh Anne has become so much more bearable in the past twenty-four hours. Just to make it look like my life doesn't need to revolve around her, I was more than happy to accept an invitation from Ashley to go to the fair with them. They were almost ready so I got dressed and showed up within ten minutes. Ashley used my fine example to rag on Rob later on when he showed up late. I walked in and said hello to Laura, Jana, and Ashley. Laura took hold of my hand and then remembered that.....
Leigh Anne is trying to rape me right now. She just came in and pulled me away from my journal, pulled down my pants and started stroking me. She told me how much she loves stroking me, after which I glided her down to the floor and started making out with her. Knock knock! came the little drunken Aimee and now I'm back.
.....is how Ashley and I have sex. She was afraid she might catch some kind of disease but I promised her that we always used Saran wrap. Because she had my hand, I almost said Laura's name when I said hello to Ashley and she caught that and acted all offended it was funny. I then walked with Ashley to get her car and told her of my little exploit with my neighbor and how her boyfriend is no longer a problem. She told me that Daniel called her Friday and told her that he isn't talking to his parents, is still going to Boston, is still buying a motorcycle, and isn't coming home for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. She then told me that she met a guy at a party the night before and was meeting him at another get together after the fair.
I rode in the front of Ashley's car along with Rob and a goofy friend of his. Rob was being a sarcastic jerk about everything all night and I made some rather interesting comments through the night as well. It took us a while to get to the fair and I must admit that it looked a lot prettier through the woods than it did up close. I decided to make use of the evening by being at Laura's side. We were already talking a little bit back at the dorms and then she told me to come walk next to her so I took advantage of it. I sat with her and Ashley while they ate and at first things were kind of quiet. Laura was kind of spacing out in the direction of all of the lights and I told Ashley that Laura is in a moth's trance and we've lost her. We laughed and then I realized that she was looking at the big greasy bald cook instead. That was pretty funny and Ashley retorted by saying at least Laura isn't sleeping with her next door neighbor. That wasn't fair but oh well.
After that we were being rather jovial and Laura was the first to pint out a ride that looked just like our Mamba. We started recollecting our thoughts about Busch Gardens and she realized how scary it is that these people are operating the rides because she knows how little we used to pay attention. I added that these people are already stoned or drunk anyway and she agreed. It was pretty funny. Rob had joked to the ticket lady at the entrance that he wanted one child's ticket, since they are cheaper and thought his joke was pretty funny. I told him the lady has probably heard that a million times and Laura and I laughed and started talking about how people would always think they were the first to tell us a job related joke although we had already heard it fifty million times. We also agreed about how you would finally make a fake laugh that you would give to the guests just so they'd feel special and not get upset. It was funny.
I had an underlying fantasy about finding either Michael or Shar¡ working as a carnie, and I looked at them all. They were really desperate for business because it had rained and there weren't that many people there. They were offering to give us all prizes if any one of three could win. Ashley fell prey to one of the guy's talk and was having trouble getting away but I saved her. One offered me a free dart and said if I didn't win, I didn't have to pay. I think they often picked up an interest in my eyes because I was looking at each of the booths, although I was looking for my ex-girlfriend and not at their bullshit setups. There were a couple of cute young girls working and one flirted back beautifully. I was in an awesome mood and was giving every girl I could my sparkling blue eyed look.
Laura and I started sticking together for a while and even put our arms around each other periodically. She told me that we should still do that Busch thing sometime. I told her that I never planned on not doing it and she said that wasn't sure I still wanted to. Of course!!! I asked her if we are still engaged, and she said no, that she broke it off for someone else, and I was crushed. It seemed like an eternity for us to realize the mistake. She thought I was talking about the other guy she used to be engaged to and said that we still definitely are!!! Perfect! I told her that if we don't get to go over Thanksgiving then we'll definitely go over Christmas. I really was enjoying the way that she was talking to me and hanging around me. That made me feel good.
We went and looked at the livestock, the rabbits, cows, and chickens before heading out. We stopped be the grocery store on the way home so they could buy some fruit juice to go along with heir alcohol. I had forgotten to buy mayonnaise the other day so I picked up a jar and liked the attention I got for buying something so screwy. I told Laura and Ashley that I planned on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at the jar and they thought that was gross. We then went back to Beaty and I surprised them when I said that I'd see them later when they got out of the elevator.
Leigh Anne is trying to rape me right now. She just came in and pulled me away from my journal, pulled down my pants and started stroking me. She told me how much she loves stroking me, after which I glided her down to the floor and started making out with her. Knock knock! came the little drunken Aimee and now I'm back.
.....is how Ashley and I have sex. She was afraid she might catch some kind of disease but I promised her that we always used Saran wrap. Because she had my hand, I almost said Laura's name when I said hello to Ashley and she caught that and acted all offended it was funny. I then walked with Ashley to get her car and told her of my little exploit with my neighbor and how her boyfriend is no longer a problem. She told me that Daniel called her Friday and told her that he isn't talking to his parents, is still going to Boston, is still buying a motorcycle, and isn't coming home for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. She then told me that she met a guy at a party the night before and was meeting him at another get together after the fair.
I rode in the front of Ashley's car along with Rob and a goofy friend of his. Rob was being a sarcastic jerk about everything all night and I made some rather interesting comments through the night as well. It took us a while to get to the fair and I must admit that it looked a lot prettier through the woods than it did up close. I decided to make use of the evening by being at Laura's side. We were already talking a little bit back at the dorms and then she told me to come walk next to her so I took advantage of it. I sat with her and Ashley while they ate and at first things were kind of quiet. Laura was kind of spacing out in the direction of all of the lights and I told Ashley that Laura is in a moth's trance and we've lost her. We laughed and then I realized that she was looking at the big greasy bald cook instead. That was pretty funny and Ashley retorted by saying at least Laura isn't sleeping with her next door neighbor. That wasn't fair but oh well.
After that we were being rather jovial and Laura was the first to pint out a ride that looked just like our Mamba. We started recollecting our thoughts about Busch Gardens and she realized how scary it is that these people are operating the rides because she knows how little we used to pay attention. I added that these people are already stoned or drunk anyway and she agreed. It was pretty funny. Rob had joked to the ticket lady at the entrance that he wanted one child's ticket, since they are cheaper and thought his joke was pretty funny. I told him the lady has probably heard that a million times and Laura and I laughed and started talking about how people would always think they were the first to tell us a job related joke although we had already heard it fifty million times. We also agreed about how you would finally make a fake laugh that you would give to the guests just so they'd feel special and not get upset. It was funny.
I had an underlying fantasy about finding either Michael or Shar¡ working as a carnie, and I looked at them all. They were really desperate for business because it had rained and there weren't that many people there. They were offering to give us all prizes if any one of three could win. Ashley fell prey to one of the guy's talk and was having trouble getting away but I saved her. One offered me a free dart and said if I didn't win, I didn't have to pay. I think they often picked up an interest in my eyes because I was looking at each of the booths, although I was looking for my ex-girlfriend and not at their bullshit setups. There were a couple of cute young girls working and one flirted back beautifully. I was in an awesome mood and was giving every girl I could my sparkling blue eyed look.
Laura and I started sticking together for a while and even put our arms around each other periodically. She told me that we should still do that Busch thing sometime. I told her that I never planned on not doing it and she said that wasn't sure I still wanted to. Of course!!! I asked her if we are still engaged, and she said no, that she broke it off for someone else, and I was crushed. It seemed like an eternity for us to realize the mistake. She thought I was talking about the other guy she used to be engaged to and said that we still definitely are!!! Perfect! I told her that if we don't get to go over Thanksgiving then we'll definitely go over Christmas. I really was enjoying the way that she was talking to me and hanging around me. That made me feel good.
We went and looked at the livestock, the rabbits, cows, and chickens before heading out. We stopped be the grocery store on the way home so they could buy some fruit juice to go along with heir alcohol. I had forgotten to buy mayonnaise the other day so I picked up a jar and liked the attention I got for buying something so screwy. I told Laura and Ashley that I planned on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at the jar and they thought that was gross. We then went back to Beaty and I surprised them when I said that I'd see them later when they got out of the elevator.
Saturday, November 6, 1993
November 6, 1993 - Saturday - Off to bed!, Fair, Laura
What a meal!!! I just made my first and very successful attempt at duplicating spaghetti like "mom use to make." I really don't care for all of the spices and shit they put into already made sauces so I finally deiced to spend the extra time to make it from scratch, well almost. I cooked up half a package of ground beef and cooked it forever with a huge can of tomato soup and a can of tomato paste. The room started smelling like the house used to every Tuesday night on "spaghetti night." It can out almost identically to a batch of her best and it was so nostalgic when I took the first bite! It was also really nice to have familiar, REAL food. I fully enjoyed it and have another full helping waiting in the fridge for tomorrow night.
Well, now for my life. So much has happened in the past two days that it's almost scary. Leigh Anne went dancing Thursday night with her roommates and wasn't going to be home until late. I took the wild chance that she might actually try to come over again when she got home, so I left the door unlocked again. Chris had already left for Jacksonville so I figured only Jon might screw it up this time. I didn't really expect her to come either, and I fell right to sleep.
Well, stupid me never finished this journal in time to get all of the facts straight. By this time we had already had sex four times, three Thursday evening alone! Actually two of those were early the next morning, but what does that matter?
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December 3, 1993 - this is what happens when I don't finish a journal and try to go back to it later on. In this case, the following account of the fair is a month late, although I found out after I wrote it that I had already done so in tomorrow's entry. I'm saving both for comparison's sake...
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Tonight I decided to try and make Leigh Anne jealous, not really I just wanted to let her know I have friends of my own to go out with and also wanted to keep ties open with the others. I saw Ashley downstairs today just as Leigh Anne, Michelle, Aimee and I were heading off to see the end of the football game. I asked her if she'd give me a call if they decided to go to the Alachua County Fair. I had just laid down for a quick nap when Ashley called later on and she asked me if I still wanted to go. I said definitely and got ready in less than ten minutes by her request. It turned out that we were waiting for Rob and he took forever to come and they used my fine example to rag on his tardiness.
Laura and I were joking around quite a bit while we waited downstairs for Rob before Ashley and I headed across the street to get her car. I told her about Leigh Anne while we were gone. We then all headed off to the fair. Jamee, Jana and LAura rode in his truck and the rest of us, including a friend of Rob's went with Ashley. ROb was being a sarcastic ass and I was being nice and sweet and I think Ashley really liked that. We entered the fair and walked around for a while looking at all of the food places. They all decided to eat and I declined because Leigh Anne had just previously fixed me dinner. I sat with Laura and Ashley and we talked quite a bit. Ashley and I made fun of Laura who was in a daze at one point and was staring right at the big fat greasy fair cook. Ashley then turned on me and said at least LAura's not sleeping with her neighbor. I laughed it off but was pissed she said it so dramatically in front of Laura.
We then split up from Jamee and Jana and went to look at all of the rides and games. Laura was being a real sweetheart and kept telling me to come walk with her. The carnies were getting really desperate because of a lack of people and were offering us all kinds of deals. I knew a lot of the shit they pulled because of the stuff Shar¡ told me about the games or else I might have fallen for one or two. Ashley got sucked into one guy's bullshit and was too nice to say no. I walked up and put my arms around her shoulders like I was the big protective boyfriend and walked her away. She thanked me and told Laura how I saved her later. That as cool.
Of course I had an ulterior motive, I was desperately looking for Michael, or hell even for Shar¡! amidst the games. there were all kinds of freaks and there were actually a couple of pretty attractive girls. One really seemed to like the way I was looking at her and I had fun flirting like that. We then walked over to see the livestock, mainly the rabbits. Laura and I reaffirmed our date at Busch Gardens sometime in the future. I then asked her if our engagement is still on. She said no, that she broke it off for another one. I looked at her kind of funny and was hurt a little. We both then realized the miscommunication as she meant that she broke off the old engagement and ours is still going strong. We walked with our arms around each other for a few minutes after that.
After the fair, we stopped by Kash n Karry so they could buy fruit juice to mix with their alcohol. I bought a jar of mayonnaise because I had forgotten to the other day at the store, but the shock value was just as fun. I told Laura and Ashley after I bought it that I plan on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at my bag. They thought I was gross.
Well, now for my life. So much has happened in the past two days that it's almost scary. Leigh Anne went dancing Thursday night with her roommates and wasn't going to be home until late. I took the wild chance that she might actually try to come over again when she got home, so I left the door unlocked again. Chris had already left for Jacksonville so I figured only Jon might screw it up this time. I didn't really expect her to come either, and I fell right to sleep.
Well, stupid me never finished this journal in time to get all of the facts straight. By this time we had already had sex four times, three Thursday evening alone! Actually two of those were early the next morning, but what does that matter?
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December 3, 1993 - this is what happens when I don't finish a journal and try to go back to it later on. In this case, the following account of the fair is a month late, although I found out after I wrote it that I had already done so in tomorrow's entry. I'm saving both for comparison's sake...
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Tonight I decided to try and make Leigh Anne jealous, not really I just wanted to let her know I have friends of my own to go out with and also wanted to keep ties open with the others. I saw Ashley downstairs today just as Leigh Anne, Michelle, Aimee and I were heading off to see the end of the football game. I asked her if she'd give me a call if they decided to go to the Alachua County Fair. I had just laid down for a quick nap when Ashley called later on and she asked me if I still wanted to go. I said definitely and got ready in less than ten minutes by her request. It turned out that we were waiting for Rob and he took forever to come and they used my fine example to rag on his tardiness.
Laura and I were joking around quite a bit while we waited downstairs for Rob before Ashley and I headed across the street to get her car. I told her about Leigh Anne while we were gone. We then all headed off to the fair. Jamee, Jana and LAura rode in his truck and the rest of us, including a friend of Rob's went with Ashley. ROb was being a sarcastic ass and I was being nice and sweet and I think Ashley really liked that. We entered the fair and walked around for a while looking at all of the food places. They all decided to eat and I declined because Leigh Anne had just previously fixed me dinner. I sat with Laura and Ashley and we talked quite a bit. Ashley and I made fun of Laura who was in a daze at one point and was staring right at the big fat greasy fair cook. Ashley then turned on me and said at least LAura's not sleeping with her neighbor. I laughed it off but was pissed she said it so dramatically in front of Laura.
We then split up from Jamee and Jana and went to look at all of the rides and games. Laura was being a real sweetheart and kept telling me to come walk with her. The carnies were getting really desperate because of a lack of people and were offering us all kinds of deals. I knew a lot of the shit they pulled because of the stuff Shar¡ told me about the games or else I might have fallen for one or two. Ashley got sucked into one guy's bullshit and was too nice to say no. I walked up and put my arms around her shoulders like I was the big protective boyfriend and walked her away. She thanked me and told Laura how I saved her later. That as cool.
Of course I had an ulterior motive, I was desperately looking for Michael, or hell even for Shar¡! amidst the games. there were all kinds of freaks and there were actually a couple of pretty attractive girls. One really seemed to like the way I was looking at her and I had fun flirting like that. We then walked over to see the livestock, mainly the rabbits. Laura and I reaffirmed our date at Busch Gardens sometime in the future. I then asked her if our engagement is still on. She said no, that she broke it off for another one. I looked at her kind of funny and was hurt a little. We both then realized the miscommunication as she meant that she broke off the old engagement and ours is still going strong. We walked with our arms around each other for a few minutes after that.
After the fair, we stopped by Kash n Karry so they could buy fruit juice to mix with their alcohol. I bought a jar of mayonnaise because I had forgotten to the other day at the store, but the shock value was just as fun. I told Laura and Ashley after I bought it that I plan on having a lot of fun tonight and hinted at my bag. They thought I was gross.
Thursday, November 4, 1993
November 4, 1993 - Thursday - It's just you and me kid
Surprise! I'm getting rather sick of this shit that Leigh Anne is playing. I am starting to get rather annoyed.
She was fighting with the freak until about four in the morning last night. She stopped by once last night after she had kicked him out for a while and came and visited me in bed for quite a while. She started giving me a nice little hand job and I had my hand between her legs for a few minutes. She had said that she was going to go for a few minutes just beforehand and I refused to continue my hand massage telling her to go already. She keeps kissing me quite a bit but in short meaningless pecks. It's so damn obvious that I'm being dragged along so she can have me when he's not here. I'm starting to think that I'm going to just put everything on hold until he leaves.
It's kind of funny how I have the same attitude now that Shar¡ claims she had with me when I was so excited about us being together. Now it seems that I'm reluctant when the girl wants to continue... it's always bass ackwards which might be why things haven't clicked to well ever.
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Last night we all left the room at the same time, for Jon and I were taking Chris' car to get groceries and Ed and Roswitha were off to study. We walked by the neighbor's room and Leigh Anne called out Jon's name and then mine from inside. Jon answered her but I didn't and she came out really quickly and asked me why. I kind of shrugged and got in the elevator. Jon kind of mouthed to her through the closing elevator door that she must be happy now that Jerry's back and he told me that by the reaction she gave him, she's not too thrilled. I told Jon what she had said about sleeping together just to give him a general idea of what's up while we were driving to the store. He asked me if I would sleep with her and I said that I think so. When we got home we were putting away the groceries when Leigh Anne popped in and we all started talking. He asked her how her botany test was and she said she bombed it. He commented that she really struck out. I snickered and agreed, saying that she has done so three times in one day! (the test, Jerry, and me) as I walked out the door to get my last bag from the car.
When I got back, Leigh Anne had gone and changed into her silk purple pajamas and Jon said that those weren't what he was talking about. He then said that she wants some purple lingerie but I couldn't care less. She then quickly ran me into my room and shut the door, trying to hold on to me again. She told me that my roommate gave her the third degree after I went downstairs. I kind of figured that he would talk to her or I would never have told him anything in the first place.
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I stopped by the room next door after getting home from lab for a little while. I talked to Michelle and Delisa for a few minutes before Delisa called Leigh Anne out of her room where she was with Jerry. Dumb cunt. After claiming she was going to kick him out and so forth, I was pissed that he is still here. She said that he is driving her insane for a change and then asked me about getting her Enya CD back just to get us out of the room together. We came over to my room and she immediately hooked onto me. Even in front of poor little Edward who was talking about something but I don't remember a damn thing that he said. She was telling me that she had thought about me a lot today while I was gone and also asked me why we never saw what we have between us earlier. She then said that maybe we did, but we just didn't say anything about it. I offered that at least I got to know her a little bit first, and she corrected me saying that I know everything about her. She knows as much about me and I said that at least there aren't many secrets between us right now.
I also told her how sexually frustrated she is making me after four nights of playing with me with no rewards. She said that all will change really soon. She was asking me how I feel about her and I truthfully told her that Jerry is really depressing me and she said that she knows.
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As I wrote this, along came Leigh Anne. Roswitha, the only other person in the place told her I was in my room. She came in wearing a robe and a towel around her head, because she did just get out of the shower. I moved my keyboard out of my lap and she straddled me right here in front of the window. I put my hands around her back and then on her butt, which she quickly urged under her robe, a free show for all down on the street if only they had looked up. She asked me what I was thinking now, and I told her how annoying all of her questions are starting to get, and I asked her when she is going to stop. She told me as soon as I give her a strong answer because she doesn't catch on to hints too easily.
She looked at me once and told me that I really do have long eyelashes like that psychiatrist said. She then realized that I am only eighteen and was surprised that I graduated the same year she did and never skipped any grades. She then said that she better head back because she only told her roommates that she was coming to tell me when they were leaving to see the "movies on the beach" on the big portable screen down by the pool. I asked her why it matters, for it's better to keep the mystery in their minds anyway. She laughed and asked me like my roommates who she figures have no idea what's up despite her always coming over to see me.
She stood up and said that it was a shame that I had an almost naked woman over and didn't take advantage of it. I hadn't let go of her yet and told her that I didn't say she could go. She turned back towards me an untied her rode and exposed herself to me. I kissed a breasts gently as I slid my hands down and around her towards her crotch. She quivered and told me for the millionth time how much she loves the way I touch her... so gentle, and asked me if I always this way. I told her that it completely depends on the person I'm with. She asked me what I am thinking now, so I turned her questions on her. I asked her what she thinks I am thinking, and changed that to what she is afraid that I am thinking. She said that she just doesn't want me to think I am her second choice, and I questioned her about that and she swears it is true.
I moved my hand down over her crotch and started rubbing and that really got her going. She had tried just a second earlier to get into my shorts but I told her that it wouldn't do any good because I have a bathing suit on underneath. She told me that now is a good time to stop being gentle for a little bit and pushed my finger into her. I took heed and started finger fucking her. She asked me if she turns me on and I told her that if I said no, then I'd definitely be lying. I then got to use the line about her leaving me frustrated again and this time got the response I wanted. I was very disappointed at how it flopped just a little while earlier. I told her that she does turn me on, for she has left me with blue balls every night and she liked that and said that we'll have to do something about that. She asked me what I was thinking and this time I said some awesome stuff that twice kind of surprised her and said that I'm saying the right stuff now.
She asked me if I think I'll fall for her and I asked her who said I haven't already started. She really liked that but I did let her know that JErry kind of throws a wrench into my feelings. I think everything has been explained quite well at this point. She told me that she wants to make me so happy and will do everything she can to reach that goal. That was kind of interesting. This entire time I was still sliding my fingers in her, and finally I slid them out and rubbed her clit a little bit. She definitely left a happy woman. She fixed her robe and towel back and laughed as she said that it looks just like nothing every happened.
Jon was sitting in the other room watching the Simpsons and he gave her a really accusing smile which she proceeded to beat him about. When he had walked in, she jumped up for a second and closed her robe, but I told her that whoever it was wouldn't be coming in here because Chris is gone so she smiled and said, "Oh!" as she quickly flung it back open. I then asked Jon why he didn't tell me that the Simpsons were on because he knows I'll stop doing anything for the Simpsons. It took Leigh Anne a second to realize that I was referring to us screwing around and she came up to me and said, "Oh really?" It was pretty funny. In private she keeps telling me that she's really going to make me fall for her and is really glad that we will have so much time together. I told her that any amount of time isn't enough and she loved that, and then figured that we can have up to at least three more years together here in Gainesville. Yeah, right!
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Well, after a little convincing on her part, I finally agreed to go to the movies with her, Michelle, and Jerry. I was really looking forward to going with her by ourselves last night but I think things work out very much for the best. I also have never even seen the guy except for at that fire alarm with Laura. I had only seen his feet sticking out on her bed, or so forth. I finally went over to her room for a few minutes and started talking to Michelle and Jerry was in the bathroom. I talked to Leigh Anne for a few minutes as if I were only a friend going with them. She told me earlier that he already knew that I was going and I'm suddenly curious to know how much he has heard about me, if anything. Once I saw him, I realized that this might indeed be fun. I went and got ready and came back over.
I was rooting through their stuff on the table and was acting like I was at home in front of Jerry. I was also being very friendly with Michelle. We discovered a personality test of Leigh Anne's and she wanted to take it so we sat there reading through it together. I came up with some funny explanations for some of the questions that she liked. Leigh Anne joined in and we effectively excluded Jerry from things for quite some time. I liked that. Ed and Roswitha walked by one time and said hello. We finally headed out and had an interesting little episode in the elevator. Jerry was towards the front with Leigh Anne right behind him and me right behind her. I poked her in the butt and she started bouncing slowly onto me. Michelle joked that it was a Leigh Anne sandwich but I thought there was too much mayonnaise.
When we got outside we were joking around and that's when Jerry and I introduced ourselves. I suddenly realized the controversy that would be caused if Jerry and I were to become acquainted. That might prove interesting and extremely stressful for Leigh Anne. When we got to the movie, they spread out a blanket and I spread out my beach towel so that I could completely lay down. I sat so that Michelle was in between Leigh Anne and I, with Jerry on the far side. Both Michelle and I took off our shoes and relaxed. The movie was Sleepless in Seattle and they said a lot of stuff about finding the right person and so forth and Leigh Anne and I would look at each other at some pretty interesting moments. She would reach her arm across to nudge me every once in a while and continuously pleaded with me not to be angry with her.
I laid down once to take a quick nap and she came over and laid her head on my back. She told me a little while later that he just spent twenty minutes telling her how much he misses his last girlfriend and how they were really meant for each other. After telling me that, she went back over next to him and told him that he might as well go back to her. He got up and walked away pretty soon after that and she went after him and ended up kicking his ass out of her room and life (supposedly!) for good. She came back and told Michelle that, "It's just you and me now, kid!" I thought to myself what about me, until she came over to me and whispered the same thing.
We came back pretty soon and Leigh Anne and I realized what this all meant. They are out dancing right now, but she said that I have to leave the door unlocked so she can surprise me tonight. She said that I should of last night because she tried to come over at four but it was locked. I was pissed because I told Chris to leave it unlocked! She said that this means tonight may be the beginning of us being "together." She asked me once if "we" are going to work out. I asked her if she wants "us" to work out and she said that she does more than anything. I replied that if two people want something as bad as we both do then it's bound to happen and she loved that! I effectively summed up both of our feelings without every saying mine and thus it was clever and beautiful at the same time. She said that I always seem to know exactly what to say and I liked that.
I cooked her a little bit of dinner to eat and we played around and had a really good time. She asked me why my touch always makes her shiver, and I replied that it must be my freezing hands. She finally told me that she doesn't mean like that, she means she shivers on the inside, and her stomach seems to do flips. Who knows?
She was fighting with the freak until about four in the morning last night. She stopped by once last night after she had kicked him out for a while and came and visited me in bed for quite a while. She started giving me a nice little hand job and I had my hand between her legs for a few minutes. She had said that she was going to go for a few minutes just beforehand and I refused to continue my hand massage telling her to go already. She keeps kissing me quite a bit but in short meaningless pecks. It's so damn obvious that I'm being dragged along so she can have me when he's not here. I'm starting to think that I'm going to just put everything on hold until he leaves.
It's kind of funny how I have the same attitude now that Shar¡ claims she had with me when I was so excited about us being together. Now it seems that I'm reluctant when the girl wants to continue... it's always bass ackwards which might be why things haven't clicked to well ever.
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Last night we all left the room at the same time, for Jon and I were taking Chris' car to get groceries and Ed and Roswitha were off to study. We walked by the neighbor's room and Leigh Anne called out Jon's name and then mine from inside. Jon answered her but I didn't and she came out really quickly and asked me why. I kind of shrugged and got in the elevator. Jon kind of mouthed to her through the closing elevator door that she must be happy now that Jerry's back and he told me that by the reaction she gave him, she's not too thrilled. I told Jon what she had said about sleeping together just to give him a general idea of what's up while we were driving to the store. He asked me if I would sleep with her and I said that I think so. When we got home we were putting away the groceries when Leigh Anne popped in and we all started talking. He asked her how her botany test was and she said she bombed it. He commented that she really struck out. I snickered and agreed, saying that she has done so three times in one day! (the test, Jerry, and me) as I walked out the door to get my last bag from the car.
When I got back, Leigh Anne had gone and changed into her silk purple pajamas and Jon said that those weren't what he was talking about. He then said that she wants some purple lingerie but I couldn't care less. She then quickly ran me into my room and shut the door, trying to hold on to me again. She told me that my roommate gave her the third degree after I went downstairs. I kind of figured that he would talk to her or I would never have told him anything in the first place.
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I stopped by the room next door after getting home from lab for a little while. I talked to Michelle and Delisa for a few minutes before Delisa called Leigh Anne out of her room where she was with Jerry. Dumb cunt. After claiming she was going to kick him out and so forth, I was pissed that he is still here. She said that he is driving her insane for a change and then asked me about getting her Enya CD back just to get us out of the room together. We came over to my room and she immediately hooked onto me. Even in front of poor little Edward who was talking about something but I don't remember a damn thing that he said. She was telling me that she had thought about me a lot today while I was gone and also asked me why we never saw what we have between us earlier. She then said that maybe we did, but we just didn't say anything about it. I offered that at least I got to know her a little bit first, and she corrected me saying that I know everything about her. She knows as much about me and I said that at least there aren't many secrets between us right now.
I also told her how sexually frustrated she is making me after four nights of playing with me with no rewards. She said that all will change really soon. She was asking me how I feel about her and I truthfully told her that Jerry is really depressing me and she said that she knows.
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As I wrote this, along came Leigh Anne. Roswitha, the only other person in the place told her I was in my room. She came in wearing a robe and a towel around her head, because she did just get out of the shower. I moved my keyboard out of my lap and she straddled me right here in front of the window. I put my hands around her back and then on her butt, which she quickly urged under her robe, a free show for all down on the street if only they had looked up. She asked me what I was thinking now, and I told her how annoying all of her questions are starting to get, and I asked her when she is going to stop. She told me as soon as I give her a strong answer because she doesn't catch on to hints too easily.
She looked at me once and told me that I really do have long eyelashes like that psychiatrist said. She then realized that I am only eighteen and was surprised that I graduated the same year she did and never skipped any grades. She then said that she better head back because she only told her roommates that she was coming to tell me when they were leaving to see the "movies on the beach" on the big portable screen down by the pool. I asked her why it matters, for it's better to keep the mystery in their minds anyway. She laughed and asked me like my roommates who she figures have no idea what's up despite her always coming over to see me.
She stood up and said that it was a shame that I had an almost naked woman over and didn't take advantage of it. I hadn't let go of her yet and told her that I didn't say she could go. She turned back towards me an untied her rode and exposed herself to me. I kissed a breasts gently as I slid my hands down and around her towards her crotch. She quivered and told me for the millionth time how much she loves the way I touch her... so gentle, and asked me if I always this way. I told her that it completely depends on the person I'm with. She asked me what I am thinking now, so I turned her questions on her. I asked her what she thinks I am thinking, and changed that to what she is afraid that I am thinking. She said that she just doesn't want me to think I am her second choice, and I questioned her about that and she swears it is true.
I moved my hand down over her crotch and started rubbing and that really got her going. She had tried just a second earlier to get into my shorts but I told her that it wouldn't do any good because I have a bathing suit on underneath. She told me that now is a good time to stop being gentle for a little bit and pushed my finger into her. I took heed and started finger fucking her. She asked me if she turns me on and I told her that if I said no, then I'd definitely be lying. I then got to use the line about her leaving me frustrated again and this time got the response I wanted. I was very disappointed at how it flopped just a little while earlier. I told her that she does turn me on, for she has left me with blue balls every night and she liked that and said that we'll have to do something about that. She asked me what I was thinking and this time I said some awesome stuff that twice kind of surprised her and said that I'm saying the right stuff now.
She asked me if I think I'll fall for her and I asked her who said I haven't already started. She really liked that but I did let her know that JErry kind of throws a wrench into my feelings. I think everything has been explained quite well at this point. She told me that she wants to make me so happy and will do everything she can to reach that goal. That was kind of interesting. This entire time I was still sliding my fingers in her, and finally I slid them out and rubbed her clit a little bit. She definitely left a happy woman. She fixed her robe and towel back and laughed as she said that it looks just like nothing every happened.
Jon was sitting in the other room watching the Simpsons and he gave her a really accusing smile which she proceeded to beat him about. When he had walked in, she jumped up for a second and closed her robe, but I told her that whoever it was wouldn't be coming in here because Chris is gone so she smiled and said, "Oh!" as she quickly flung it back open. I then asked Jon why he didn't tell me that the Simpsons were on because he knows I'll stop doing anything for the Simpsons. It took Leigh Anne a second to realize that I was referring to us screwing around and she came up to me and said, "Oh really?" It was pretty funny. In private she keeps telling me that she's really going to make me fall for her and is really glad that we will have so much time together. I told her that any amount of time isn't enough and she loved that, and then figured that we can have up to at least three more years together here in Gainesville. Yeah, right!
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Well, after a little convincing on her part, I finally agreed to go to the movies with her, Michelle, and Jerry. I was really looking forward to going with her by ourselves last night but I think things work out very much for the best. I also have never even seen the guy except for at that fire alarm with Laura. I had only seen his feet sticking out on her bed, or so forth. I finally went over to her room for a few minutes and started talking to Michelle and Jerry was in the bathroom. I talked to Leigh Anne for a few minutes as if I were only a friend going with them. She told me earlier that he already knew that I was going and I'm suddenly curious to know how much he has heard about me, if anything. Once I saw him, I realized that this might indeed be fun. I went and got ready and came back over.
I was rooting through their stuff on the table and was acting like I was at home in front of Jerry. I was also being very friendly with Michelle. We discovered a personality test of Leigh Anne's and she wanted to take it so we sat there reading through it together. I came up with some funny explanations for some of the questions that she liked. Leigh Anne joined in and we effectively excluded Jerry from things for quite some time. I liked that. Ed and Roswitha walked by one time and said hello. We finally headed out and had an interesting little episode in the elevator. Jerry was towards the front with Leigh Anne right behind him and me right behind her. I poked her in the butt and she started bouncing slowly onto me. Michelle joked that it was a Leigh Anne sandwich but I thought there was too much mayonnaise.
When we got outside we were joking around and that's when Jerry and I introduced ourselves. I suddenly realized the controversy that would be caused if Jerry and I were to become acquainted. That might prove interesting and extremely stressful for Leigh Anne. When we got to the movie, they spread out a blanket and I spread out my beach towel so that I could completely lay down. I sat so that Michelle was in between Leigh Anne and I, with Jerry on the far side. Both Michelle and I took off our shoes and relaxed. The movie was Sleepless in Seattle and they said a lot of stuff about finding the right person and so forth and Leigh Anne and I would look at each other at some pretty interesting moments. She would reach her arm across to nudge me every once in a while and continuously pleaded with me not to be angry with her.
I laid down once to take a quick nap and she came over and laid her head on my back. She told me a little while later that he just spent twenty minutes telling her how much he misses his last girlfriend and how they were really meant for each other. After telling me that, she went back over next to him and told him that he might as well go back to her. He got up and walked away pretty soon after that and she went after him and ended up kicking his ass out of her room and life (supposedly!) for good. She came back and told Michelle that, "It's just you and me now, kid!" I thought to myself what about me, until she came over to me and whispered the same thing.
We came back pretty soon and Leigh Anne and I realized what this all meant. They are out dancing right now, but she said that I have to leave the door unlocked so she can surprise me tonight. She said that I should of last night because she tried to come over at four but it was locked. I was pissed because I told Chris to leave it unlocked! She said that this means tonight may be the beginning of us being "together." She asked me once if "we" are going to work out. I asked her if she wants "us" to work out and she said that she does more than anything. I replied that if two people want something as bad as we both do then it's bound to happen and she loved that! I effectively summed up both of our feelings without every saying mine and thus it was clever and beautiful at the same time. She said that I always seem to know exactly what to say and I liked that.
I cooked her a little bit of dinner to eat and we played around and had a really good time. She asked me why my touch always makes her shiver, and I replied that it must be my freezing hands. She finally told me that she doesn't mean like that, she means she shivers on the inside, and her stomach seems to do flips. Who knows?
Wednesday, November 3, 1993
November 3, 1993 - Wednesday - Balloons for Leigh Anne!
Day three went rather well, I must say. After class yesterday, during which I talked to Katie quite a bit, I walked home and started to pee. I wasn't even half way done before somebody started knocking on the door, and of course it was Leigh Anne. She said that she was sorry for not getting up to walk to fifth period with me but she didn't even really wake up until she heard me talking to Michelle before I left. I said that it was fine and then walked her to her job at this little museum gallery in the Fine Arts Building. I carried her lunch for her and made sure to get as many of the doors as possible and she thought that was really sweet.
She showed up last night just after six and asked why I was here, since I told her I'd be at the bonfire. I told her it was because Chris is on the phone with Marty. I asked her if she wanted to walk down to see the fireworks but unfortunately she had people coming over to study for her botany exam which was today. I was writing my journal and she suddenly remembered that I keep one and asked what I had written about her. I joked that I had forgotten about her even coming over! We talked for a while and before long, Cecil, Ed and Roswitha showed up. Ed called out asking anybody if they wanted to go to the bonfire and Leigh Anne nudged me and I looked at her saying that of course I was going. Chris kind of forced us, along with the commanding intervention of Roswitha to watch Jeopardy before we left. I was impressed with the fact that Leigh Anne knew a lot and we all actually came up with quite a few answers.
Leigh Anne and I sat on opposite sides of the room and acted pretty much oblivious of each other the entire time which I didn't think looked that great, but oh well. Leigh Anne's guests finally arrived and all I saw was a guy going in as we all left for the bonfire. We walked all of the way there and were having a rather decent conversation. I always like talking to Roswitha because she's pretty versed on the stuff I like to talk about and we always seem to appreciate each others ideas. When we got there we just walked amidst all of the people and I was looking and flirting hard with all of the women there.
I just had a very strong conflict of mental interest. I used to always refer to the females on campus as girls, but it just sounded wrong to me when I wrote it in the last paragraph and had to change it to women. I think it has a lot to do with me growing up and realizing that I am an "adult" now and therefore my peers must be "adults" as well. There's still the slightest bit of doubt in my mind, but I think that the whole thing stems off of the added maturity I feel just from talking again with Kimmeth.
Anyway, Ed and I walked around for a little while by ourselves "looking for women" as Roswitha "looked for men!" That was kind of interesting hearing the two of them say that as I was personally missing the good old days when Ed and I used to go looking for women during the abundance of our spare time. This is when I told Ed all about what happened between Leigh Anne and I the night before. We then got ourselves a really good up front view of the bonfire and then walked over and sat in the band's bleacher to watch the firework show. I was extremely impressed by the size of the show considering that it was only for a small college homecoming group. It was nothing compared to Boomsday but I still thoroughly enjoyed it.
Our bleacher had a large clump of orange and blue balloons tied to both upper corners. I had the thieving idea that I was going to use my razor to cut one loose to take home with me. Thus we sat blocking off the corner so nobody else would get the same idea and get to them first. there was a lot of security people but they were all from fraternities and I figured if they really cared, I would just hand him the balloons and it wouldn't be any big deal. I told them to walk through the crowd however because a security person is less likely to be a dick around other people than alone in the outskirts. After the finale, which made a lot of noise which is a must I think for any good fireworks show, I stood up and cut my clump loose. A family of four went for the others after they saw me and the mom asked if I had a knife. I leant it to them and she said that they were trying to use toenail clippers, and explained that they really like balloons. We laughed as I said that I understand, hinting at my handful of almost fifteen big balloons.
As we neared the parking lot there were these two gorgeous girls walking behind the three of us. One whispered very quietly that I got THE balloons and that she wanted one. I am so use to eavesdropping that I quickly worked one loose from the bunch and turned around and walked over handing it to her with a big smile on my face. She was really happy, and embarrassed exclaiming that she didn't think I could hear her. It was really funny and it made me feel really good to do something that nice. I love making someone's day!!!
We then stuffed all of the balloons in the car as Ed drove, very slowly, back to Beaty. As we walked by Leigh Anne's room, Roswitha pretended she was going to knock on their door and smiled at me, but I really did knock but kept walking. I could hear them yelling for me to come in, and it took a long time for them to come to the door, but fortunately she did because I couldn't have planned the surprise better. I truly did intend to surprise Leigh Anne with a huge bouquet of balloons because I knew she'd like them plus they were costless. It doesn't get better than that. Anyway, she came to the door just as I stuffed all of the balloons into my room and was just standing there. She looked at me and called me a jerk because I didn't come in and then I told her I brought a surprise for her. She perked up and started coming towards me and I pulled them out.
I have never seen her more happy as she took them and showed them off to everybody in the room before tying them up in her room. She was REALLY happy, you could just tell in her eyes. I quickly left the room so that they all could get their questions answered by Leigh Anne and also because I was a little embarrassed. Leigh Anne told me later that as soon as I left, Delisa suddenly interrogated her since Leigh Anne had slept in my bed the night before and now this! It was really funny. She came over a little while later and watched Start Trek with Jon and I. She and I were both dead tired and it was a very quiet hour and I would have loved doing anything but what we were doing.
Things finally heated up after the show as we were talking about her test today. She told me that she wished she would have gone with me to the Bonfire, and would have if she knew only that one guy was going to show up to study. I told her that it would have only ruined my surprise and was pretty glad she didn't. She mentioned that they learned how to make beer in her botany class and I pulled out my Budweiser pamphlet from Busch Gardens that showed how beer is brewed. After looking at it she exclaimed that it was the exact thing that her teacher photocopied and gave to them and she had really wondered what the pictures were of that he blanked out. It was kind of funny.
We came into my room and she went to hop up into bed but I pulled her right back down because she was still in shoes. I showed her a coupon I had found for four dollars off admissions to Busch Gardens in case we decide to go. She started looking at an article on the Kumba and I pulled out the other information I have about it to show her. Fortunately a bunch of it is in my award book so she started looking at those. I pretended like I wanted her to stop but she told me that she wanted to see how much of a nerd I really am. She also asked me if I went to a school of retards and that was why I was valedictorian! She also read my conveniently placed psychological evaluation.
I climbed up with her soon afterwards and I told her she didn't get a real backrub tonight because I really needed to go to sleep soon. We messed around for a little while and she found out that I am ticklish and was taking advantage of that around my crotch. I tried to tickle her but she claimed that she's not ticklish at all and I asked why she was the night before. She claimed that she was very turned on the night before and if that doesn't make one feel special, then I don't know what will. She also likes to say everything she feels and tells me what she wants to do for me quite often. We joked about that later and she said that she gets embarrassed because sometimes the stuff she says is really corny, but it is almost always true. That conversation was really cute.
Every once in a while I would touch her or rub her in such a way that she would moan. She told me that she really likes the way I touch her, like I actually care... so gentle. I think that's one of my best talents and the girls I have dealt with are so used to bumbling idiots that I seem so much better to them.
She was wearing a tight white shirt and I asked her if it was a leotard. She said no and asked why. I told her that I didn't want to do this if it was as I pulled it out of her pants rather quickly. She thought about it for a second and then started laughing really hard after admitting that it would really have hurt if it was. She then thanked me for asking first and then said that she was impressed that I know the real word for a leotard, instead of a body suit. It was a pretty funny little incident.
We listened to the radio for a while as we fooled around and this time she was lying on top of me. She moved down and kissed my stomach as she slid her fingers up my shorts. She then was rubbing me with both hands through my shorts and that felt damn good. She looked so ready to give me a blow job and I think I'm finally going to get one!!! That's awesome. Leigh Anne also kept thanking me repeatedly for the balloons. I kept telling her that she didn't have to do that anymore but she said that it was probably the nicest thing anybody has ever done for her because it was a surprise. Of course it made me feel awesome once again to be able to make somebody else feel so good.
Amy came over into the room once and called out Leigh Anne's name. She leant up over the edge of the bed and opened the door to answer her. It was kind of funny. She eventually decided that she needed to go eat since her stomach was growling and she needed to study a little more. I kept expressing my desire to sleep so she figured it would be best for both of us. She got a long distance call as she was leaving and came over one last time to say goodnight after she was done. She snuck in a gave me a kiss and we hugged as she said goodbye.
Ashley and I didn't make it to class this morning because she woke up really late. Fortunately I was running late and hadn't gotten dressed when she called, so I went back to sleep. I seemed to pass so many people today that I know both on the way to class and on the way home. I was very impressed. I even stopped to talk to April for quite a while.
In psychology, Karen was being especially wonderful today. I really like being with her and joking around with her. She came bouncing up once again with a big smile on her face and we started joking around right from the start. I found out that she only made a twenty-two on our exam and she was kind of upset about that. All through class we kept talking to each other and would casually look at each other every once in a while in a somewhat sexual way. There are just certain things about our looks that are different and I really enjoy them. Griggs was commenting on disorders today and he exemplified socially unacceptable behavior by saying that nobody in the class seems to have a habit of picking their noses! We all laughed and I reached over pretending to hold her arm down and asked her if she'd been putting her finger in her nose again! It was funny. It was interesting, too, because she answered by saying, "Well Dan, you know..." So she does know my name!
We were talking about schizophrenia later and she said that she hears people calling her name all of the time at work. I told her that she has a pretty common name and does work at a grocery store where lots of people come through who are named that. I just wanted her to know that I know her name as well. It was kind of funny. We then walked together after class and she got some change to do laundry with later. I joked that I spent my last dollar on a loaf of bread yesterday, and it sucks because all of my underwear are dirty so I'll have to scrounge up some change. She then stopped to get a drink and we were still talking. She then asked me if I wanted a drink!!!, and I happily declined. I just felt so special that she would have been so nice as to buy me a drink!
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And as my four days of luck run out... (Actually I'd like to think there will be some tremendously residual effects, but we'll see.) I walked downstairs with Chris a few minutes ago to send him on his way to study. Michelle from next door came walking out of the downstairs library and I quickly latched onto her gaining a free ride into her room. When we got upstairs, to my delightful surprise, I found that Jerry had indeed returned to "be with" Leigh Anne. She has warned me that he is still a part of her life (for I did interject myself the same day he left) and told me last night that she had a really good idea that he would show up today.
Of course she ran out to save face as soon as I came in and I was quick to walk out of the room, saying goodbye to Michelle. Leigh Anne almost chased me down and came into my room with me. Shar¡ said that he might stick around for a while because he got a new job that is closer to here than his house, but plans on moving in with his cousin really shortly. We were standing there holding each other while we talked and she told me that things will settle down before long. I told her that I understand and really respect the fact that she is telling me the truth. I wanted to say that I have promoted many a break up for my own benefit, and I don't see it as that big a deal. Of course it upsets me somewhat but I told her that I've waited this long, so what's a little bit longer. I am fortunately not getting attached in this case for right now because this whole idea is a sex for convenience deal.
She kissed me and kept doing so and was rubbing her hands on my lower extremities. I find it funny that she thinks every guy is so hung up on sex that she must reassure me in that manner. I do like it, but I am extremely forgiving and don't really need it. She told me that she thinks things will be a lot better once we get to sleep together and I asked her if she really thinks so. She said that I'm supposed to say how wonderful that sounds... yeah right. I did say something sweet at the end and sent her on her merry way.
Of course I'll whine to Ashley that I fucked up again by getting involved with a girl with a boyfriend. He he. I also keep thinking in patterns which are a major pattern in my life, but I have yet to figure out a relationship pattern. Someone I'd marry and really enjoyed (Nicole), sex for convenience with a girl with a boyfriend that I wouldn't stay with in a million years and actually was embarrassed to be seen with (Abby), someone I'd marry and really enjoyed (Shar¡)..... sex for convenience (Leigh Anne)????? Who knows. Or perhaps actual intercourse will come into play and like Nicole, Leigh Anne and I will fool around but never get that far. I was teased with hopes of a blow job with Nicole, like I am now with Leigh Ann... so who knows? Of course in all cases there is an underlying deep friendship persisting (Kimmeth to Ashley).
Maybe I shouldn't be so analytical but my mind is truly overactive and sometimes I can't help it. The way it looks, since Leigh Anne and I will be so physically unavoidably close for so long, it almost (hopefully) seems inevitable...
She showed up last night just after six and asked why I was here, since I told her I'd be at the bonfire. I told her it was because Chris is on the phone with Marty. I asked her if she wanted to walk down to see the fireworks but unfortunately she had people coming over to study for her botany exam which was today. I was writing my journal and she suddenly remembered that I keep one and asked what I had written about her. I joked that I had forgotten about her even coming over! We talked for a while and before long, Cecil, Ed and Roswitha showed up. Ed called out asking anybody if they wanted to go to the bonfire and Leigh Anne nudged me and I looked at her saying that of course I was going. Chris kind of forced us, along with the commanding intervention of Roswitha to watch Jeopardy before we left. I was impressed with the fact that Leigh Anne knew a lot and we all actually came up with quite a few answers.
Leigh Anne and I sat on opposite sides of the room and acted pretty much oblivious of each other the entire time which I didn't think looked that great, but oh well. Leigh Anne's guests finally arrived and all I saw was a guy going in as we all left for the bonfire. We walked all of the way there and were having a rather decent conversation. I always like talking to Roswitha because she's pretty versed on the stuff I like to talk about and we always seem to appreciate each others ideas. When we got there we just walked amidst all of the people and I was looking and flirting hard with all of the women there.
I just had a very strong conflict of mental interest. I used to always refer to the females on campus as girls, but it just sounded wrong to me when I wrote it in the last paragraph and had to change it to women. I think it has a lot to do with me growing up and realizing that I am an "adult" now and therefore my peers must be "adults" as well. There's still the slightest bit of doubt in my mind, but I think that the whole thing stems off of the added maturity I feel just from talking again with Kimmeth.
Anyway, Ed and I walked around for a little while by ourselves "looking for women" as Roswitha "looked for men!" That was kind of interesting hearing the two of them say that as I was personally missing the good old days when Ed and I used to go looking for women during the abundance of our spare time. This is when I told Ed all about what happened between Leigh Anne and I the night before. We then got ourselves a really good up front view of the bonfire and then walked over and sat in the band's bleacher to watch the firework show. I was extremely impressed by the size of the show considering that it was only for a small college homecoming group. It was nothing compared to Boomsday but I still thoroughly enjoyed it.
Our bleacher had a large clump of orange and blue balloons tied to both upper corners. I had the thieving idea that I was going to use my razor to cut one loose to take home with me. Thus we sat blocking off the corner so nobody else would get the same idea and get to them first. there was a lot of security people but they were all from fraternities and I figured if they really cared, I would just hand him the balloons and it wouldn't be any big deal. I told them to walk through the crowd however because a security person is less likely to be a dick around other people than alone in the outskirts. After the finale, which made a lot of noise which is a must I think for any good fireworks show, I stood up and cut my clump loose. A family of four went for the others after they saw me and the mom asked if I had a knife. I leant it to them and she said that they were trying to use toenail clippers, and explained that they really like balloons. We laughed as I said that I understand, hinting at my handful of almost fifteen big balloons.
As we neared the parking lot there were these two gorgeous girls walking behind the three of us. One whispered very quietly that I got THE balloons and that she wanted one. I am so use to eavesdropping that I quickly worked one loose from the bunch and turned around and walked over handing it to her with a big smile on my face. She was really happy, and embarrassed exclaiming that she didn't think I could hear her. It was really funny and it made me feel really good to do something that nice. I love making someone's day!!!
We then stuffed all of the balloons in the car as Ed drove, very slowly, back to Beaty. As we walked by Leigh Anne's room, Roswitha pretended she was going to knock on their door and smiled at me, but I really did knock but kept walking. I could hear them yelling for me to come in, and it took a long time for them to come to the door, but fortunately she did because I couldn't have planned the surprise better. I truly did intend to surprise Leigh Anne with a huge bouquet of balloons because I knew she'd like them plus they were costless. It doesn't get better than that. Anyway, she came to the door just as I stuffed all of the balloons into my room and was just standing there. She looked at me and called me a jerk because I didn't come in and then I told her I brought a surprise for her. She perked up and started coming towards me and I pulled them out.
I have never seen her more happy as she took them and showed them off to everybody in the room before tying them up in her room. She was REALLY happy, you could just tell in her eyes. I quickly left the room so that they all could get their questions answered by Leigh Anne and also because I was a little embarrassed. Leigh Anne told me later that as soon as I left, Delisa suddenly interrogated her since Leigh Anne had slept in my bed the night before and now this! It was really funny. She came over a little while later and watched Start Trek with Jon and I. She and I were both dead tired and it was a very quiet hour and I would have loved doing anything but what we were doing.
Things finally heated up after the show as we were talking about her test today. She told me that she wished she would have gone with me to the Bonfire, and would have if she knew only that one guy was going to show up to study. I told her that it would have only ruined my surprise and was pretty glad she didn't. She mentioned that they learned how to make beer in her botany class and I pulled out my Budweiser pamphlet from Busch Gardens that showed how beer is brewed. After looking at it she exclaimed that it was the exact thing that her teacher photocopied and gave to them and she had really wondered what the pictures were of that he blanked out. It was kind of funny.
We came into my room and she went to hop up into bed but I pulled her right back down because she was still in shoes. I showed her a coupon I had found for four dollars off admissions to Busch Gardens in case we decide to go. She started looking at an article on the Kumba and I pulled out the other information I have about it to show her. Fortunately a bunch of it is in my award book so she started looking at those. I pretended like I wanted her to stop but she told me that she wanted to see how much of a nerd I really am. She also asked me if I went to a school of retards and that was why I was valedictorian! She also read my conveniently placed psychological evaluation.
I climbed up with her soon afterwards and I told her she didn't get a real backrub tonight because I really needed to go to sleep soon. We messed around for a little while and she found out that I am ticklish and was taking advantage of that around my crotch. I tried to tickle her but she claimed that she's not ticklish at all and I asked why she was the night before. She claimed that she was very turned on the night before and if that doesn't make one feel special, then I don't know what will. She also likes to say everything she feels and tells me what she wants to do for me quite often. We joked about that later and she said that she gets embarrassed because sometimes the stuff she says is really corny, but it is almost always true. That conversation was really cute.
Every once in a while I would touch her or rub her in such a way that she would moan. She told me that she really likes the way I touch her, like I actually care... so gentle. I think that's one of my best talents and the girls I have dealt with are so used to bumbling idiots that I seem so much better to them.
She was wearing a tight white shirt and I asked her if it was a leotard. She said no and asked why. I told her that I didn't want to do this if it was as I pulled it out of her pants rather quickly. She thought about it for a second and then started laughing really hard after admitting that it would really have hurt if it was. She then thanked me for asking first and then said that she was impressed that I know the real word for a leotard, instead of a body suit. It was a pretty funny little incident.
We listened to the radio for a while as we fooled around and this time she was lying on top of me. She moved down and kissed my stomach as she slid her fingers up my shorts. She then was rubbing me with both hands through my shorts and that felt damn good. She looked so ready to give me a blow job and I think I'm finally going to get one!!! That's awesome. Leigh Anne also kept thanking me repeatedly for the balloons. I kept telling her that she didn't have to do that anymore but she said that it was probably the nicest thing anybody has ever done for her because it was a surprise. Of course it made me feel awesome once again to be able to make somebody else feel so good.
Amy came over into the room once and called out Leigh Anne's name. She leant up over the edge of the bed and opened the door to answer her. It was kind of funny. She eventually decided that she needed to go eat since her stomach was growling and she needed to study a little more. I kept expressing my desire to sleep so she figured it would be best for both of us. She got a long distance call as she was leaving and came over one last time to say goodnight after she was done. She snuck in a gave me a kiss and we hugged as she said goodbye.
Ashley and I didn't make it to class this morning because she woke up really late. Fortunately I was running late and hadn't gotten dressed when she called, so I went back to sleep. I seemed to pass so many people today that I know both on the way to class and on the way home. I was very impressed. I even stopped to talk to April for quite a while.
In psychology, Karen was being especially wonderful today. I really like being with her and joking around with her. She came bouncing up once again with a big smile on her face and we started joking around right from the start. I found out that she only made a twenty-two on our exam and she was kind of upset about that. All through class we kept talking to each other and would casually look at each other every once in a while in a somewhat sexual way. There are just certain things about our looks that are different and I really enjoy them. Griggs was commenting on disorders today and he exemplified socially unacceptable behavior by saying that nobody in the class seems to have a habit of picking their noses! We all laughed and I reached over pretending to hold her arm down and asked her if she'd been putting her finger in her nose again! It was funny. It was interesting, too, because she answered by saying, "Well Dan, you know..." So she does know my name!
We were talking about schizophrenia later and she said that she hears people calling her name all of the time at work. I told her that she has a pretty common name and does work at a grocery store where lots of people come through who are named that. I just wanted her to know that I know her name as well. It was kind of funny. We then walked together after class and she got some change to do laundry with later. I joked that I spent my last dollar on a loaf of bread yesterday, and it sucks because all of my underwear are dirty so I'll have to scrounge up some change. She then stopped to get a drink and we were still talking. She then asked me if I wanted a drink!!!, and I happily declined. I just felt so special that she would have been so nice as to buy me a drink!
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And as my four days of luck run out... (Actually I'd like to think there will be some tremendously residual effects, but we'll see.) I walked downstairs with Chris a few minutes ago to send him on his way to study. Michelle from next door came walking out of the downstairs library and I quickly latched onto her gaining a free ride into her room. When we got upstairs, to my delightful surprise, I found that Jerry had indeed returned to "be with" Leigh Anne. She has warned me that he is still a part of her life (for I did interject myself the same day he left) and told me last night that she had a really good idea that he would show up today.
Of course she ran out to save face as soon as I came in and I was quick to walk out of the room, saying goodbye to Michelle. Leigh Anne almost chased me down and came into my room with me. Shar¡ said that he might stick around for a while because he got a new job that is closer to here than his house, but plans on moving in with his cousin really shortly. We were standing there holding each other while we talked and she told me that things will settle down before long. I told her that I understand and really respect the fact that she is telling me the truth. I wanted to say that I have promoted many a break up for my own benefit, and I don't see it as that big a deal. Of course it upsets me somewhat but I told her that I've waited this long, so what's a little bit longer. I am fortunately not getting attached in this case for right now because this whole idea is a sex for convenience deal.
She kissed me and kept doing so and was rubbing her hands on my lower extremities. I find it funny that she thinks every guy is so hung up on sex that she must reassure me in that manner. I do like it, but I am extremely forgiving and don't really need it. She told me that she thinks things will be a lot better once we get to sleep together and I asked her if she really thinks so. She said that I'm supposed to say how wonderful that sounds... yeah right. I did say something sweet at the end and sent her on her merry way.
Of course I'll whine to Ashley that I fucked up again by getting involved with a girl with a boyfriend. He he. I also keep thinking in patterns which are a major pattern in my life, but I have yet to figure out a relationship pattern. Someone I'd marry and really enjoyed (Nicole), sex for convenience with a girl with a boyfriend that I wouldn't stay with in a million years and actually was embarrassed to be seen with (Abby), someone I'd marry and really enjoyed (Shar¡)..... sex for convenience (Leigh Anne)????? Who knows. Or perhaps actual intercourse will come into play and like Nicole, Leigh Anne and I will fool around but never get that far. I was teased with hopes of a blow job with Nicole, like I am now with Leigh Ann... so who knows? Of course in all cases there is an underlying deep friendship persisting (Kimmeth to Ashley).
Maybe I shouldn't be so analytical but my mind is truly overactive and sometimes I can't help it. The way it looks, since Leigh Anne and I will be so physically unavoidably close for so long, it almost (hopefully) seems inevitable...
Tuesday, November 2, 1993
November 2, 1993 - Tuesday - Leigh Anne's big massage
Who ever said that chain letters don't work? Day one of the four luck days brought me back in touch with the love of my life, Kimmeth in quite a sudden way. First my call and then a letter quicker than I could ever have possibly hoped for. Day two brought a very high score on my psychology exam, a fun rendezvous with Karen (which really isn't that important), and one final little surprise...
Cecil showed up from Jacksonville last night and stopped by the room first thing. He and Chris ended up running off to study and I decided to stick around the room to fix a big meal and maybe straighten things up a little bit. I also had a journal entry and a quiz to take care of. Marty called for Chris at about eleven and said that it's really important that he call her back when he got in. After his return, he got ready to do so, when he suddenly ripped the phone cord out of the answering machine breaking it for good. He panicked so the two of us walked next door so he could borrow theirs.
I started to talk to Delisa and Aimee as Leigh Anne came staggering out of her room, complaining that she couldn't sleep and that her room was freezing. Her little week and a half long boyfriend had just said goodbye about five hours earlier. He reasoned that it was better this way before either one of them got too attached. Smart man. I was being very nice to her and was having a pretty cool conversation with the three of them. Leigh Anne showed us a bunch of pictures of her and ate a little microwave entre. She kept saying that it sucks having to sleep alone and I was making some nice little comments. She kept complaining so much about it being cold in her room that I told her to go sleep in one of our beds and before long she ran off to my room. I sat and chatted a little while longer with Delisa before heading over to the room, fearing Cecil might be doing something violent to Leigh Anne.
She was in fact in my bed and I was willing just to let her be but somehow the three of us got in a conversation and she said that her back hurts. Cecil told me to go give the girl a massage. I had thought about doing so, and it probably wouldn't have been long until I did, but I did realize and thank Cecil in my mind for spurring on the moment. He brought up that fact later and was kind of pleased with himself. Towards the beginning he was lying down in Chris' bed and Leigh Anne asked about this guy named Phil who had been over before. I quickly said that he is dating Chris' girlfriend's sister which is something that just barely happened over this weekend. Cecil started saying that Phil and Connie aren't serious at all and suddenly realized how he did me wrong after I kicked his bed a few times. That brought about a few laughs today as Chris, he and I discussed the outcomes of the night.
She sat up on the bed with her head on a pillow against the wall and I went to work. She was telling me that I can do it harder than I was, and I told her that I am use to giving slow and soft sensual massages which she very quickly got used to. I tried a bunch of new concepts and some of them she really liked. I was doing most of this through her flimsy shirt but I finally moved inside against her bare back. I always stop after a little while just to let the friction die down and because I love to hear a girl beg for more, it makes me feel needed. She would reach back and flip open her shirt calling, "More! More!" and gave Cecil and I both a pretty decent side view of her breasts. I went back to work and volunteered to bring a piece of ice into the picture a couple of times but she strongly denied my offer.
Jon showed up after a while and cooked nachos for the three of them and I fixed a big bowl full of fresh popcorn. I was kind of upset that he pulled her away from me because I didn't figure that she'd find her way back into my bed after getting out at that point. I had already been going for quite some time and she had told me to make sure and stop if I really wanted or needed to. I let her know how much I enjoy making my women happy. I figured the best way to get her back would be by disappearing, and I went and laid down in my bed right as I saw them finishing up with their food. I was very correct in assuming what she'd do. She came running in and told me that I can't go to sleep because I wasn't done yet and she climbed up into bed with me. She then put her knees onto my butt and started slowly bouncing up and down and got quicker and quicker. It really sounded like we were fucking and Jon came in and turned off the lights and shut the door. It was pretty funny.
I laid her down and turned on my Enya CD. She pulled her shirt up over her shoulders for me and I went to work again, slowly and surely. She would pop up every once in a while and say that she really wanted to know what I was thinking just because of the mood we had created. I stayed clamped up for quite a long time, though. Chris and Cecil came walking in eventually, and since Chris had been on the phone for four hours again, he never knew that Leigh Anne was in the room, in bed with me half naked no less. It kind of freaked him out and we had a good laugh. She had finally gotten to the point where she would arch her sides ever so slightly when I would brush daringly close to her breasts, just inviting my hands to explore. I wanted to be careful however because I didn't want to read something that wasn't there and possibly ruin a friendship with someone just next door, for that could come to haunt me.
When Chris came in we started talking and joking around. When she asked for more, Chris told me that a girl should never have to ask for more, she should be begging you to stop. Funny, but wrong! He kind of quickly got ready for bed and got into his bottom bunk. He was talking to us and asking her shit like whether or not her braces get in the way when she kisses. She and I both laughed and said that only if the guy doesn't have a clue to what he's doing. She kept popping him in the head with her teddy bear, Farenhue, and he was about ready to climb up and rape her. During the whole ordeal with Chris, she started rubbing my leg with her fingernails and that felt pretty damn good. As soon as the lights went out, we shifted positions and as I would slide my hand up her back, I made sure my elbow brushed her lower ass ever so slightly and she felt in and liked it.
I was leaning on one elbow to the side of her and I let my hand fall close to hers. She inched hers upwards and we slowly took each others hand and started playing with it. Before long she was rubbing my leg again as I continued on her back and moved ever so close, right up to the line of my rather short shorts. We started talking about what I was thinking and I slowly spit things out. We have both criticized relationships lately because you always get hurt by stupid assholes. She started realizing, which were my intentions, of how similar all of our ideas are and we were talking about how we see each other. We ended up saying how much we seem to be alike on our views of what we want and decided to carry things much further.
I continued to rub her back and her butt (that sounds so crude!) for a little while as she kept arching her back inviting my hands onto her breasts which is where they eventually ended up. Before the night was over, she had her hands in my pants and I had felt her entire body before we called it a night.
Cecil showed up from Jacksonville last night and stopped by the room first thing. He and Chris ended up running off to study and I decided to stick around the room to fix a big meal and maybe straighten things up a little bit. I also had a journal entry and a quiz to take care of. Marty called for Chris at about eleven and said that it's really important that he call her back when he got in. After his return, he got ready to do so, when he suddenly ripped the phone cord out of the answering machine breaking it for good. He panicked so the two of us walked next door so he could borrow theirs.
I started to talk to Delisa and Aimee as Leigh Anne came staggering out of her room, complaining that she couldn't sleep and that her room was freezing. Her little week and a half long boyfriend had just said goodbye about five hours earlier. He reasoned that it was better this way before either one of them got too attached. Smart man. I was being very nice to her and was having a pretty cool conversation with the three of them. Leigh Anne showed us a bunch of pictures of her and ate a little microwave entre. She kept saying that it sucks having to sleep alone and I was making some nice little comments. She kept complaining so much about it being cold in her room that I told her to go sleep in one of our beds and before long she ran off to my room. I sat and chatted a little while longer with Delisa before heading over to the room, fearing Cecil might be doing something violent to Leigh Anne.
She was in fact in my bed and I was willing just to let her be but somehow the three of us got in a conversation and she said that her back hurts. Cecil told me to go give the girl a massage. I had thought about doing so, and it probably wouldn't have been long until I did, but I did realize and thank Cecil in my mind for spurring on the moment. He brought up that fact later and was kind of pleased with himself. Towards the beginning he was lying down in Chris' bed and Leigh Anne asked about this guy named Phil who had been over before. I quickly said that he is dating Chris' girlfriend's sister which is something that just barely happened over this weekend. Cecil started saying that Phil and Connie aren't serious at all and suddenly realized how he did me wrong after I kicked his bed a few times. That brought about a few laughs today as Chris, he and I discussed the outcomes of the night.
She sat up on the bed with her head on a pillow against the wall and I went to work. She was telling me that I can do it harder than I was, and I told her that I am use to giving slow and soft sensual massages which she very quickly got used to. I tried a bunch of new concepts and some of them she really liked. I was doing most of this through her flimsy shirt but I finally moved inside against her bare back. I always stop after a little while just to let the friction die down and because I love to hear a girl beg for more, it makes me feel needed. She would reach back and flip open her shirt calling, "More! More!" and gave Cecil and I both a pretty decent side view of her breasts. I went back to work and volunteered to bring a piece of ice into the picture a couple of times but she strongly denied my offer.
Jon showed up after a while and cooked nachos for the three of them and I fixed a big bowl full of fresh popcorn. I was kind of upset that he pulled her away from me because I didn't figure that she'd find her way back into my bed after getting out at that point. I had already been going for quite some time and she had told me to make sure and stop if I really wanted or needed to. I let her know how much I enjoy making my women happy. I figured the best way to get her back would be by disappearing, and I went and laid down in my bed right as I saw them finishing up with their food. I was very correct in assuming what she'd do. She came running in and told me that I can't go to sleep because I wasn't done yet and she climbed up into bed with me. She then put her knees onto my butt and started slowly bouncing up and down and got quicker and quicker. It really sounded like we were fucking and Jon came in and turned off the lights and shut the door. It was pretty funny.
I laid her down and turned on my Enya CD. She pulled her shirt up over her shoulders for me and I went to work again, slowly and surely. She would pop up every once in a while and say that she really wanted to know what I was thinking just because of the mood we had created. I stayed clamped up for quite a long time, though. Chris and Cecil came walking in eventually, and since Chris had been on the phone for four hours again, he never knew that Leigh Anne was in the room, in bed with me half naked no less. It kind of freaked him out and we had a good laugh. She had finally gotten to the point where she would arch her sides ever so slightly when I would brush daringly close to her breasts, just inviting my hands to explore. I wanted to be careful however because I didn't want to read something that wasn't there and possibly ruin a friendship with someone just next door, for that could come to haunt me.
When Chris came in we started talking and joking around. When she asked for more, Chris told me that a girl should never have to ask for more, she should be begging you to stop. Funny, but wrong! He kind of quickly got ready for bed and got into his bottom bunk. He was talking to us and asking her shit like whether or not her braces get in the way when she kisses. She and I both laughed and said that only if the guy doesn't have a clue to what he's doing. She kept popping him in the head with her teddy bear, Farenhue, and he was about ready to climb up and rape her. During the whole ordeal with Chris, she started rubbing my leg with her fingernails and that felt pretty damn good. As soon as the lights went out, we shifted positions and as I would slide my hand up her back, I made sure my elbow brushed her lower ass ever so slightly and she felt in and liked it.
I was leaning on one elbow to the side of her and I let my hand fall close to hers. She inched hers upwards and we slowly took each others hand and started playing with it. Before long she was rubbing my leg again as I continued on her back and moved ever so close, right up to the line of my rather short shorts. We started talking about what I was thinking and I slowly spit things out. We have both criticized relationships lately because you always get hurt by stupid assholes. She started realizing, which were my intentions, of how similar all of our ideas are and we were talking about how we see each other. We ended up saying how much we seem to be alike on our views of what we want and decided to carry things much further.
I continued to rub her back and her butt (that sounds so crude!) for a little while as she kept arching her back inviting my hands onto her breasts which is where they eventually ended up. Before the night was over, she had her hands in my pants and I had felt her entire body before we called it a night.
Monday, November 1, 1993
November 1, 1993 - Monday - It all begins!, Kimmeth!
Happy, happy, joy, joy, happy... I just woke up from the best nap I've had in along time, and have the Ren and Stimpy theme running through my head for no apparent reason. Things aren't that great yet, but nothing has really been going wrong either.
I finally gave way to my grave superstitions and created my end of the chain letter that Ashley and I read some time ago. I went about it in a very ritualistic way as well. I first scanned it into a computer with the text grabber in the architecture building and then proceeded to make tons of copies. I methodically folded them, signed them with Kimmeth's traditional (peace, love & happiness) symbols, and sealed them each with a sticker. I then placed them throughout the mailboxes of the girls' rooms at exactly midnight on All Hallow's Eve.
What urged me on was the fact that everything around me seemed to be crashing down lately (although I was amazingly still standing unscathed) and I was getting really tired of it. I got up early Saturday morning to go make copies of my schedule and paid fees to send home to my mother for insurance purposes. It was eleven when I left but I was definitely fooled because it seemed so dark. I was watching the TV before and they issued a tornado watch for north central Florida but it didn't bother me at all because that used to happen all of the time at home. The fact that is was lighting and raining urged me on even more because I love being in whether like th
at so much. When I walked outside the tower doors, I was almost blown away by the strength of the wind. I decided to head into the commons for a moment only to see an emergency broadcast in progress. This is the thing that always makes a horrible racket on TV as they announce that, "This is only a test...," except this time it was real. I was kind of happy to finally see that annoying thing being put to use! There were very few people in Gainesville this weekend anyway, and I could have easily gone and partied with Kostas in Jacksonville if I didn't have a pretty important psychology exam today. Thus the girl behind the counter and I were the only two people down there. She asked me if I would stay with her because she was scared shitless and of course I obliged, anything to be in a position to take advantage of a girl when she's vulnerable.
At one point she asked me my name, and after telling her, I reminded her that I beat her in a game of pool during last years little tournament. Her name is Riena and she said that she remembers, and has held a grudge against me until this very day, but now all is forgiven. That was cool and I'm glad I wasted the time. The wind did get really nasty and they announced that a tornado had been spotted in southwestern Alachua County!!! I found out later that it did damage to the area around our mall up near the interstate and also did a lot of damage to the house of my English professor's neighbor. That was pretty damn close now that I think about it.
I always love to scare people in times of crisis and I did so with her by telling her, truthfully, that Beaty probably wouldn't stand much of a chance in a real tornado. I admitted that we weren't any better off there because we would be right under the falling debris. I then was telling her that storms like this are kind of common in Tampa and I am use to them from Busch Gardens and told her a few stories from there. The entire time, people kept calling from upstairs and asking if they were safe, and she kept calling her superiors to find out if she should tell the people to get out or not. It was pretty interesting. I also found out that she lives in Boca Raton...
After the apparent threat had passed, I continued on towards the library and thoroughly enjoyed the rain. I couldn't help thinking how the feel of it hitting my face brings a very sensual feeling to me. I find it funny when people tell me the rainy weather depresses them, because the effect is far opposite for me. Hey, I like to be clean! He he. I wrote my mother a letter in the library and then headed home. Ed's mom had called so I figured I'd better call home just to let them know that I'm all right. I ended up talking to her for another hour about all kinds of stuff. I did make sure to tell her, however, that my major means of communication would be letter from now on. I also let her know of my less than wonderful achievements in my classrooms plus the fact that I'm broke...
I had this really stupid notion Sunday morning that perhaps Michael Brown (and hell, maybe even Shar¡) might be in town because the Alachua County Fair is in town. Ed put the whole idea into my head on Saturday night because I guess he remembers Shar¡'s background and I was quite impressed that he remembered such a trivial thing. The possibility, of course, is almost zero, but so many things just barely happened to get our relationship going in the first place that I had to look into it. I bought a newspaper on the way to the library to study on Sunday morning, and was sitting there reading when I came to the horoscopes. I was already thinking about Shar¡ because I had read the article about Guavaween and remembered that she said she'd be there. I want so much just to know whether or not she's still in Tampa...
Anyway, my horoscope said, "Don't stay too long at the fair," and hers said that, "some will say, `Don't stay away so long next time!' Sagittarian plays paramount role." That really freaked me out... enough that I packed right up and braved the freezing cold again all of the way home just to find out exactly when and where this fair is. I called Jessica, Ashley's roommate, because I heard that they were going to go. I finally found out that it doesn't start until next Friday, which is cool, and maybe they'll take me along with them.
It wasn't long before I gave Kimmeth a call. I was going to wait until later in the evening but had been planing for quite some time to call her this weekend. I was surprised that she was home in the middle of the day. She asked me if I had received her letter, and I said no in a somewhat surprised tone. She asked why and I said that I was overwhelmed that she actually wrote me a letter and was really happy. I was! I was suddenly extremely glad that I called when I did so she wouldn't think I was just doing so because she wanted me to. I made it in just the nick of time!
She told me a lot about how her life is going and I did the same for her. I then broke down and told her about Shar¡ at about the same time she told me about a little fling of hers. I let her know that Shar¡ was the reason behind me feeling the way I was the last time she called. She told me that she hasn't talked to this guy for two weeks now and said that she thinks they're done for good. She told me that they were arguing and he told her that she hasn't even seen him acting like a jerk yet, and she replied by asking him why he thought she was going to stick around for the credits!!! That was awesome and really made me laugh! She also told me an awesome way to conclude a relationship: a handshake and a, "It was a pleasure doing business with you." That was hilarious, too! She always knows when to stick a little something in for me just to make me feel better. She'll always say that, "you probably don't care, but," when she's going to tell me about Stuart or some other guy.
We were talking about needing to get together soon and I joked that I really wish I could go down and see her over Thanksgiving although it would be practically impossible. She was telling me that I really should come but her apartment is small so she'd just have to shack me up with one of her friends somewhere. My mind just kind of stopped in it's tracks and then she perked up and said just kidding!!! Bitch... really had me going there for a second. She told me that she does have a queen size bed but I wouldn't fit on it and we then started talking about how I sleep. I told her that I've learned to sleep in a fetal position after years of short beds and she really liked that.
We were talking about our little relationships again and I was making some very creative generalizations about them. I told her that what we both ended up doing was just keeping us in practice and she really liked that. I also admitted that dating a married woman is pretty much a once in a lifetime thing, for one learns from his mistakes. She fully agrees that it's a learning experience for she dated a married guy once, and has vowed never to do so again. I think it's kind of funny that Shar¡ pretty much summed up every possible trait that I always vowed never to go out with, including the fact that Kimmeth and I once told each other that we'd never go out with a smoker. But that's really not that important, just funny. I told Kimmeth that Shar¡ did come up one weekend and Kim laughed and told me that she's sure glad that she didn't decide to surprise me by showing up that weekend. That would have been bad, and I should have told her that I would have had to send Shar¡ home. I am beginning to fully understand Chris' point that perhaps by having a different girl, Kim will see that I'm capable and my like for her will seem more real and not just because of the fact that she talks to me...
She was telling me about a lot of weird dreams she's been having lately and one kind of stood out in my mind. She told me that she dreamt she was up north and was dating a guy with shorter dark hair, and so on. She said something about it making her kind of happy. I pretended not to catch on, or just didn't want to make any stupid assumptions, but the last time she saw me I had just gotten my "too short" haircut and I do live "up north." We were also talking about selective breeding again. She said that she had a dream where she married a guy who already had three kids and said that it probably has something to do with her new neighbor who has a little girl. I told her that she shouldn't marry into a family with too many kids (and I just realized that Stuart has two!!!) because then she might be putting her wonderful genes to waste. She always likes that and agreed fully. I told her after asking about Stuart's kids that my son was almost two and the girls up here were calling me Daddy Dan for a while. It was almost funny.
Well, I ended up talking to her for well over two hours but she is more than worth it. I accidentally pulled the cord out of the answering machine twice and had to call her back. That used to be a big joke between us about hanging up on people and she said that she didn't want to talk to me anymore since I had hung up on her twice! She did tell me a little about Lucinda and how they have drifted so far apart as friends and Lucinda just doesn't listen to her much anymore and doesn't really care how Kim feels when she gives her advice. I stuck up for Lucinda a little bit, making some really good remarks about the distance and the fact that she does care about her or she wouldn't give advice at all. Kim was saying that she just doesn't always have anybody she can dump her problems on and said that she really enjoys talking to me (in a sense, I was so overwhelmed I don't quite remember exactly). That was really cool though and I think my phone call did an amazing amount of good exactly when I needed to. If I had called while she was dating Tobin, the thinks I said might not have been taken as deeply as perhaps they were...
Well, I was happy after that and my Halloween became even better as my lovely neighbor came over to the room with Jon and greeted me by saying, "Hi sexy!" What she doesn't know yet is that I've had sex with every girl that's ever called me that... he he. She then told us that her "boyfriend" has decided to leave now thinking that's it's better before they get attached. Well, i'm happy to see him go and feel that it's time to start slowly working deeper into the girl. It's time to be serious...
I also got a call last night before I went out to study from Ashley. She was late for a sorority function but just wanted to let me know that she made it back all right and really wanted to thank me for being there for her. She also told me that Daniel was released from the hospital and had a broken collarbone, not neck. I essentially told her that I'll always be there for her, and reminded her that she was often there listening to me cry about Shar¡, so it was the least I could do. I didn't tell her how happy it made me that it was I whom she called to tell her problems to.
I saved Karen a seat again in psychology for our exam. She came in bitching about a cold she had caught and how the weather wasn't doing much to help. I quickly picked up that she's the kind that likes to be babied when she's sick, and she happily agreed. I keep picking up all kinds of useful information on the girl and she really seems to like talking to me, as well. I finished my exam before her, and got an amazing twenty-eight out of thirty. I was damn happy, although I wanted a perfect score... I looked up at Karen and couldn't help but think how cute she looked sitting up there and blew her a kiss just after she passed out of eyesight.
I arrived home to find my beautiful and promised letter from Kimmeth! Her new address is:
643 N.E. 18th Ave.
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33304-3451
She writes (on graph paper, no less):
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Dan... hello earth calling Dan!
I hope you are doing much better than when last we spoke - I would assume since you've not called.
I am doing well, work is boring and tedious as ever, and as ever I endure, just one more paycheck I think again and again. I miss my responsible-less, meager paychecks, they were so easy to come by and so easy to blow away. But I have a new habit to support - ME!
I'm, scary enough, quite into the domestic scene to throw pillows, finding the right patio chairs, collecting and primping plants. Ah the good life. Well at the very least my boss is comforted by the charade. HA HA.
In international news - I spoke to Stuart {I can finally spell his name!!!} again recently. I know so what, right!? As fun as ever speaking to him but no new news to report since I fought off the last violent urge to hop on a plane to England. He still says he intends to come here... I believe it when I see it I guess. Oh hold on someone's at the door... - Just kidding.
So the ugly truth is I've been (been as in has been) seeing someone, yes I had even referred to him as my "boyfriend," and yes I wasn't even thinking of seeing someone else - for a while there. Quite conflicted about the question of Stuart showing up out of the blue I must admit but not thinking of any one else but this guy.... Okay his name is Tobin... there I said it. Any way things were going great! Then they were going?! good - then well, I don't know where exactly things turned odd but we haven't spoken for about two weeks now. Hmm? Yes it's that age old game people play - it's their turn to call... then they don't call... Well I'M NOT going to call THEM.... Why aren't they calling?... Maybe I should call? NO! Fuck them if they want to talk they will call! I AM NOT GOING TO CALL THEM!!! SO FUCKING CALL ALREADY!!! {I was rather interested in her use of the pronoun "they" and was extremely glad that I called her before I got her letter!!!}
How did, of all people, I get duped into playing this jerky immature game? Peer pressure that's how, it really sucks cause he's about as stubborn if not more stubborn than I am. Fuck that I'M more stubborn damn IT!
So any way like I was saying that's all over with. I think. How am I supposed to know any way? That jerk!
Haven't been to any Dolphins games lately - kinda bummed out about Dan Marino's leg injury, I may actually have a team worth rooting for.
I signed up for a stained glass making class one night a week that I will be SO excited about if there are enough people enrolled when class starts to have a class. I've always wanted to work in stained glass. In fact last night I dreamed about stained glass!
How are classes going? And how are the lower class you call your friends (just a little snob humor there)?
Actually went out for a drink with a friend the other night.... the band sucked, I went home sober.
And that concludes this random collection of senseless dribble - I await your reply.
(peace)(love)(happiness) Kimmeth
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She then drew a rather large picture of the northern hemisphere of the earth with an arrow pointing to Gainesville with a "YOU ARE HERE" sign attached. It was rather interesting.
I finally gave way to my grave superstitions and created my end of the chain letter that Ashley and I read some time ago. I went about it in a very ritualistic way as well. I first scanned it into a computer with the text grabber in the architecture building and then proceeded to make tons of copies. I methodically folded them, signed them with Kimmeth's traditional (peace, love & happiness) symbols, and sealed them each with a sticker. I then placed them throughout the mailboxes of the girls' rooms at exactly midnight on All Hallow's Eve.
What urged me on was the fact that everything around me seemed to be crashing down lately (although I was amazingly still standing unscathed) and I was getting really tired of it. I got up early Saturday morning to go make copies of my schedule and paid fees to send home to my mother for insurance purposes. It was eleven when I left but I was definitely fooled because it seemed so dark. I was watching the TV before and they issued a tornado watch for north central Florida but it didn't bother me at all because that used to happen all of the time at home. The fact that is was lighting and raining urged me on even more because I love being in whether like th
at so much. When I walked outside the tower doors, I was almost blown away by the strength of the wind. I decided to head into the commons for a moment only to see an emergency broadcast in progress. This is the thing that always makes a horrible racket on TV as they announce that, "This is only a test...," except this time it was real. I was kind of happy to finally see that annoying thing being put to use! There were very few people in Gainesville this weekend anyway, and I could have easily gone and partied with Kostas in Jacksonville if I didn't have a pretty important psychology exam today. Thus the girl behind the counter and I were the only two people down there. She asked me if I would stay with her because she was scared shitless and of course I obliged, anything to be in a position to take advantage of a girl when she's vulnerable.
At one point she asked me my name, and after telling her, I reminded her that I beat her in a game of pool during last years little tournament. Her name is Riena and she said that she remembers, and has held a grudge against me until this very day, but now all is forgiven. That was cool and I'm glad I wasted the time. The wind did get really nasty and they announced that a tornado had been spotted in southwestern Alachua County!!! I found out later that it did damage to the area around our mall up near the interstate and also did a lot of damage to the house of my English professor's neighbor. That was pretty damn close now that I think about it.
I always love to scare people in times of crisis and I did so with her by telling her, truthfully, that Beaty probably wouldn't stand much of a chance in a real tornado. I admitted that we weren't any better off there because we would be right under the falling debris. I then was telling her that storms like this are kind of common in Tampa and I am use to them from Busch Gardens and told her a few stories from there. The entire time, people kept calling from upstairs and asking if they were safe, and she kept calling her superiors to find out if she should tell the people to get out or not. It was pretty interesting. I also found out that she lives in Boca Raton...
After the apparent threat had passed, I continued on towards the library and thoroughly enjoyed the rain. I couldn't help thinking how the feel of it hitting my face brings a very sensual feeling to me. I find it funny when people tell me the rainy weather depresses them, because the effect is far opposite for me. Hey, I like to be clean! He he. I wrote my mother a letter in the library and then headed home. Ed's mom had called so I figured I'd better call home just to let them know that I'm all right. I ended up talking to her for another hour about all kinds of stuff. I did make sure to tell her, however, that my major means of communication would be letter from now on. I also let her know of my less than wonderful achievements in my classrooms plus the fact that I'm broke...
I had this really stupid notion Sunday morning that perhaps Michael Brown (and hell, maybe even Shar¡) might be in town because the Alachua County Fair is in town. Ed put the whole idea into my head on Saturday night because I guess he remembers Shar¡'s background and I was quite impressed that he remembered such a trivial thing. The possibility, of course, is almost zero, but so many things just barely happened to get our relationship going in the first place that I had to look into it. I bought a newspaper on the way to the library to study on Sunday morning, and was sitting there reading when I came to the horoscopes. I was already thinking about Shar¡ because I had read the article about Guavaween and remembered that she said she'd be there. I want so much just to know whether or not she's still in Tampa...
Anyway, my horoscope said, "Don't stay too long at the fair," and hers said that, "some will say, `Don't stay away so long next time!' Sagittarian plays paramount role." That really freaked me out... enough that I packed right up and braved the freezing cold again all of the way home just to find out exactly when and where this fair is. I called Jessica, Ashley's roommate, because I heard that they were going to go. I finally found out that it doesn't start until next Friday, which is cool, and maybe they'll take me along with them.
It wasn't long before I gave Kimmeth a call. I was going to wait until later in the evening but had been planing for quite some time to call her this weekend. I was surprised that she was home in the middle of the day. She asked me if I had received her letter, and I said no in a somewhat surprised tone. She asked why and I said that I was overwhelmed that she actually wrote me a letter and was really happy. I was! I was suddenly extremely glad that I called when I did so she wouldn't think I was just doing so because she wanted me to. I made it in just the nick of time!
She told me a lot about how her life is going and I did the same for her. I then broke down and told her about Shar¡ at about the same time she told me about a little fling of hers. I let her know that Shar¡ was the reason behind me feeling the way I was the last time she called. She told me that she hasn't talked to this guy for two weeks now and said that she thinks they're done for good. She told me that they were arguing and he told her that she hasn't even seen him acting like a jerk yet, and she replied by asking him why he thought she was going to stick around for the credits!!! That was awesome and really made me laugh! She also told me an awesome way to conclude a relationship: a handshake and a, "It was a pleasure doing business with you." That was hilarious, too! She always knows when to stick a little something in for me just to make me feel better. She'll always say that, "you probably don't care, but," when she's going to tell me about Stuart or some other guy.
We were talking about needing to get together soon and I joked that I really wish I could go down and see her over Thanksgiving although it would be practically impossible. She was telling me that I really should come but her apartment is small so she'd just have to shack me up with one of her friends somewhere. My mind just kind of stopped in it's tracks and then she perked up and said just kidding!!! Bitch... really had me going there for a second. She told me that she does have a queen size bed but I wouldn't fit on it and we then started talking about how I sleep. I told her that I've learned to sleep in a fetal position after years of short beds and she really liked that.
We were talking about our little relationships again and I was making some very creative generalizations about them. I told her that what we both ended up doing was just keeping us in practice and she really liked that. I also admitted that dating a married woman is pretty much a once in a lifetime thing, for one learns from his mistakes. She fully agrees that it's a learning experience for she dated a married guy once, and has vowed never to do so again. I think it's kind of funny that Shar¡ pretty much summed up every possible trait that I always vowed never to go out with, including the fact that Kimmeth and I once told each other that we'd never go out with a smoker. But that's really not that important, just funny. I told Kimmeth that Shar¡ did come up one weekend and Kim laughed and told me that she's sure glad that she didn't decide to surprise me by showing up that weekend. That would have been bad, and I should have told her that I would have had to send Shar¡ home. I am beginning to fully understand Chris' point that perhaps by having a different girl, Kim will see that I'm capable and my like for her will seem more real and not just because of the fact that she talks to me...
She was telling me about a lot of weird dreams she's been having lately and one kind of stood out in my mind. She told me that she dreamt she was up north and was dating a guy with shorter dark hair, and so on. She said something about it making her kind of happy. I pretended not to catch on, or just didn't want to make any stupid assumptions, but the last time she saw me I had just gotten my "too short" haircut and I do live "up north." We were also talking about selective breeding again. She said that she had a dream where she married a guy who already had three kids and said that it probably has something to do with her new neighbor who has a little girl. I told her that she shouldn't marry into a family with too many kids (and I just realized that Stuart has two!!!) because then she might be putting her wonderful genes to waste. She always likes that and agreed fully. I told her after asking about Stuart's kids that my son was almost two and the girls up here were calling me Daddy Dan for a while. It was almost funny.
Well, I ended up talking to her for well over two hours but she is more than worth it. I accidentally pulled the cord out of the answering machine twice and had to call her back. That used to be a big joke between us about hanging up on people and she said that she didn't want to talk to me anymore since I had hung up on her twice! She did tell me a little about Lucinda and how they have drifted so far apart as friends and Lucinda just doesn't listen to her much anymore and doesn't really care how Kim feels when she gives her advice. I stuck up for Lucinda a little bit, making some really good remarks about the distance and the fact that she does care about her or she wouldn't give advice at all. Kim was saying that she just doesn't always have anybody she can dump her problems on and said that she really enjoys talking to me (in a sense, I was so overwhelmed I don't quite remember exactly). That was really cool though and I think my phone call did an amazing amount of good exactly when I needed to. If I had called while she was dating Tobin, the thinks I said might not have been taken as deeply as perhaps they were...
Well, I was happy after that and my Halloween became even better as my lovely neighbor came over to the room with Jon and greeted me by saying, "Hi sexy!" What she doesn't know yet is that I've had sex with every girl that's ever called me that... he he. She then told us that her "boyfriend" has decided to leave now thinking that's it's better before they get attached. Well, i'm happy to see him go and feel that it's time to start slowly working deeper into the girl. It's time to be serious...
I also got a call last night before I went out to study from Ashley. She was late for a sorority function but just wanted to let me know that she made it back all right and really wanted to thank me for being there for her. She also told me that Daniel was released from the hospital and had a broken collarbone, not neck. I essentially told her that I'll always be there for her, and reminded her that she was often there listening to me cry about Shar¡, so it was the least I could do. I didn't tell her how happy it made me that it was I whom she called to tell her problems to.
I saved Karen a seat again in psychology for our exam. She came in bitching about a cold she had caught and how the weather wasn't doing much to help. I quickly picked up that she's the kind that likes to be babied when she's sick, and she happily agreed. I keep picking up all kinds of useful information on the girl and she really seems to like talking to me, as well. I finished my exam before her, and got an amazing twenty-eight out of thirty. I was damn happy, although I wanted a perfect score... I looked up at Karen and couldn't help but think how cute she looked sitting up there and blew her a kiss just after she passed out of eyesight.
I arrived home to find my beautiful and promised letter from Kimmeth! Her new address is:
643 N.E. 18th Ave.
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33304-3451
She writes (on graph paper, no less):
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Dan... hello earth calling Dan!
I hope you are doing much better than when last we spoke - I would assume since you've not called.
I am doing well, work is boring and tedious as ever, and as ever I endure, just one more paycheck I think again and again. I miss my responsible-less, meager paychecks, they were so easy to come by and so easy to blow away. But I have a new habit to support - ME!
I'm, scary enough, quite into the domestic scene to throw pillows, finding the right patio chairs, collecting and primping plants. Ah the good life. Well at the very least my boss is comforted by the charade. HA HA.
In international news - I spoke to Stuart {I can finally spell his name!!!} again recently. I know so what, right!? As fun as ever speaking to him but no new news to report since I fought off the last violent urge to hop on a plane to England. He still says he intends to come here... I believe it when I see it I guess. Oh hold on someone's at the door... - Just kidding.
So the ugly truth is I've been (been as in has been) seeing someone, yes I had even referred to him as my "boyfriend," and yes I wasn't even thinking of seeing someone else - for a while there. Quite conflicted about the question of Stuart showing up out of the blue I must admit but not thinking of any one else but this guy.... Okay his name is Tobin... there I said it. Any way things were going great! Then they were going?! good - then well, I don't know where exactly things turned odd but we haven't spoken for about two weeks now. Hmm? Yes it's that age old game people play - it's their turn to call... then they don't call... Well I'M NOT going to call THEM.... Why aren't they calling?... Maybe I should call? NO! Fuck them if they want to talk they will call! I AM NOT GOING TO CALL THEM!!! SO FUCKING CALL ALREADY!!! {I was rather interested in her use of the pronoun "they" and was extremely glad that I called her before I got her letter!!!}
How did, of all people, I get duped into playing this jerky immature game? Peer pressure that's how, it really sucks cause he's about as stubborn if not more stubborn than I am. Fuck that I'M more stubborn damn IT!
So any way like I was saying that's all over with. I think. How am I supposed to know any way? That jerk!
Haven't been to any Dolphins games lately - kinda bummed out about Dan Marino's leg injury, I may actually have a team worth rooting for.
I signed up for a stained glass making class one night a week that I will be SO excited about if there are enough people enrolled when class starts to have a class. I've always wanted to work in stained glass. In fact last night I dreamed about stained glass!
How are classes going? And how are the lower class you call your friends (just a little snob humor there)?
Actually went out for a drink with a friend the other night.... the band sucked, I went home sober.
And that concludes this random collection of senseless dribble - I await your reply.
(peace)(love)(happiness) Kimmeth
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She then drew a rather large picture of the northern hemisphere of the earth with an arrow pointing to Gainesville with a "YOU ARE HERE" sign attached. It was rather interesting.