Saturday, July 31, 1993

July 31, 1993 - Saturday - A distance to survive!

Christina called me last night right as I walked in the door and told me that Shar¡ hadn't called her all day, and she hadn't called me either. She knew that I worked until at least seven, though, so no big deal. We called the payphone that we had talked to her from the night before in the lobby. The receptionist said that she's probably already in the unit and gave us another phone number to call. It seemed like fifty people answered the phone before the finally got the right person on it. I didn't let Shar¡ know that I was on the phone at first because Christina was bitching at her for not calling her. I then piped up and asked her why she hadn't called me either. It was funny.

Shar¡ seemed really happy, far too happy. I asked her what's up and she kept saying that she was really glad to talk to us. They also put her on anti depressants which is a bunch of shit, but there's not much you can do about it. She told us all about the schedule that they have to go through from waking up at six in the morning to exercising and eating. She said that it reminds her too much of school. She had to go after a little while because she wanted to finish her cigarette before they closed them off form the outdoors. I was pissed at her for smoking again. I was going to eat and then they were going to call me back again later. Shar¡ and I decided that she'd call me back first so that we could talk alone for a few minutes. When she did, my supper was just finishing getting ready, so I couldn't talk long. Afterwards, I took a brief nap before they called me back.

I had said something to Shar¡ and Christina laughed and said, `This from a guy who was jealous about Scott!,' and then told Shar¡ about our conversation. Shar¡ thought it was really cute that I was worried and said that I had nothing at all to worry about. Christina said that she was the one that had to reassure me, and Shar¡ then told me that I should be entirely reinsured now. I told her that my mom just did that to my car, but I need assurance, not insurance. We all laughed about that. It was funny. We kept talking until their phone lines were cut off at eleven. Shar¡ kept saying that she really wants me to visit her today, and after saying I wanted to as well, she said she'd call me back first today. She just did and gave me the directions to the looney bin. Her visiting hours are from three to four and then from 6:30 to 7:30.

I also have been meeting a ton of girls at Busch Gardens lately. I was on break yesterday from Kumba and a bunch of people were in there. Ron was there and I kept thinking that he'll look at anything I do or say through filtered eyes since he knows about Shar¡. the gorgeous new girl named Stacy was there and she had fallen up at Python and banged her knee. She had gone to first aid and had a bandage put on the cut. I had been out at boardwalk all day long on purpose. The heat felt great and I was having fun talking to the guests and employees with no real responsibilities. I had sweated all over the front of my shirt and shorts. Ron called my name and asked if that was sweat. I said yes as everybody turned their heads and looked, including a cute girl sitting by herself. I thanked him for drawing everybody's attention to it. As I walked out Stacy joked that I smelled and I said, `Fuck you!,' and left. I knew that upset her.

She was supposed to sweep queue houses after her lunch and we met up on the boardwalk at Kumba and ended up walking around together for half an hour. I apologized for being so harsh and she complained that nobody felt bad for her because she got hurt. I told her that I did sympathize with her, but couldn't reveal my emotions in front of the guys. It was a really good excuse! We talked and were having a great time getting to know each other. We were talking about girlfriends and boyfriends and were joking about sex. A good situation arose for me to tell her that I was valedictorian. She already really likes me and sees that I am cute and far better than normal. To find out now that I'm smart just made everything more beautiful. She said that she was extremely proud of me and we continued to talk a lot. When it was time for us to part, she told me to have a good vacation and we hugged goodbye. That was awesome.

As I walked out through the Congo train Station to go home, I ran into this girl named Kristen who had pooled up at the Kumba once. I have also seen her in Vivi's and said hello to her. We always smile at each other and she is really cute. I stopped and talked to her for a few minutes and told her about having ten days off. She asked where I was going, and I told her about our cabin in the mountains, and the river and all. She said that the best vacation of her life was one in South Carolina where they went rafting. We soon said goodbye and I walked out with Sean.

As we got out to the guard station, Jennifer was walking back in. She told me that she forgot her purse and wanted me to walk back in with her. I walked with her to wardrobe in the morning because she needed a nametag and I had to turn one in. She's really cute and I like her a lot. She is a little flat chested and always jokes about it. She's really mean to herself and I don't really see that much of a problem. She said that her boyfriend was waiting to take her home in the truck right behind us and laughed as she told me not to put my arms around her. That gave me more of a reason to do so. It was fun. I told her that I will give her a ride home if he says anything and she admitted that he'll probably want to know why she was walking with that guy again. It's funny. She doesn't like the Kumba but said she would have gone on it with me right then if he wasn't waiting, but promised to go on it after I get back. She said that she would even come in on a day off if needs be.

Shar¡ called me back and we talked for another fifteen minutes a little while ago. I told her that I've decided to possibly come back home that tuesday I take all of my stuff to Gainesville and stay in Tampa as long as possible to see her. She was happy but then we were commenting about the parties and girls I'll be missing out on. I told her that I'd much rather be spending time with her than going to a bunch of stupid parties that I can go to all year long. We were talking about long distance relationships and about what will happen if I meet a girl in Gainesville. I told her that I'll make an extra effort not to meet any girls up there. I then told her that one of my roommates had a girlfriend all year down here at USF and I'll be able to take training and support from him. She liked that.

She called once more at two before I headed over to see her. She was afraid that it would take a long time for me to get there even though it's just a straight shot down Hillsborough Avenue. I left early for her to make sure that I'd get to spend the entire visiting time with her. I was half an hour early so I drove around a little bit and also stopped into Checkers and bought her a champ burger and small fries. I figured I probably wouldn't be able to sneak it in, but I wanted to give it a try.

They ended up taking the bag from me up front. They then took us through a series of locked doors and a metal detector. She had asked me to bring her a book and we decided on Cujo by Stephen King. When we finally made it in they asked us each who we were here to see. I told them Sharice Brown and then looked up to see her standing right there in the visiting room doorway. She looked really good. We went inside and sat down and did some quick catching up. I told her about the Checkers food and she was glad that I at least tried. She told me that she is supposed to get out on Monday and we joked that I could leave the food at the front desk for her until then!

She hadn't been able to shave since she first entered the hospital and her legs are getting rather stubbly. We were joking around about that. She was telling me that even though she wasn't nuts going in, she thinks she'll go insane if she has to be in there much longer. She says it's so boring and weird being around the true crazies. She said once to those baby blue puppy eyes, referring to mine. I made true puppy eyes and actually made her blush. It was really cute and she said that she's going to start calling me Puppy Eyes when she calls!

We held hands as we sat there together. She expressed some of her concerns a little bit trying to find out if I truly am going to stay true to her. Christina was talking before about how Shar¡ won't be ready for another serious relationship for a long time, and she said something to the same effect once a long ways back. I think that the responsibility that she is learning at Baylife and is taking from her father is going to cause a change in that. It seems, hopefully, that she's going to figure out that a commitment, however small, will be the best thing for both her and Cord. I'll just have to wait and see.

We were joking around again about her working for me in my own practice later on in life. She said that it'd be really cool to be so close to me all of the time! We were joking that Christina can be our paramedic and we made up a situation where we'll send her on a call two hundred miles away to get her out of our hair. It was funny.

She adjusted her rings and I jokingly adjusted mine drawing her attention to it. She was pretending that she was going to take it off, but I wouldn't let her. She commented that I'm really attached to the thing and I agreed. She told me that she wants to wear it to make sure that I'll come back to her after my vacation. I told her that I couldn't do that because I want o prove to her that I want to come back to be with her, not just to get back my ring!!! She was very impressed with my point and she laughed that I have a talent for getting out of anything by saying the right things. A few minutes later she tried to be witty, too, and told me that she wants to wear the ring so that she'll think of me every time she sees it. I gave her puppy dog eyes and asked her if that meant that she wouldn't think of me if Shar¡ I don't give her the ring! She laughed as she quickly realized her implications and once again I slipped right by her. It was quite funny. I asked her later about her true feelings on me coming back and she said that she has faith that I will.

We talked quite a bit more and the time just flew by. She said that it seemed to drag on when her dad was there and was amazed at how quickly the time went by. She was stealing me one time about their hectic schedule in the morning. After a while she said that they get to take their first smoking break. I said that must be the highlight of her morning, but she said no. She told me that comes later when she finally gets to call my phone number. That was sweet and she knows how to kiss ass, too! Before long, they kicked all of us visitors out as Shar¡ and I hugged and kissed goodbye. I walked out backwards keeping eye contact with her the whole way until I finally motioned for her to go and she smiled and turned away.

She called me back at 8:30 and we talked for a while. She told me that she's already read about twenty-five pages of Cujo and thinks it's a really good book. She forgot to ask for Puppy Eyes when she called so she made me hang up and let my sister answer the phone again! When I answered I told her that he wasn't here. She laughed and asked if he's not, and I said no, that my eyes have faded since I won't be seeing her for a week. It was sweet. She told me that there is a guy there who I saw who swears he is buying a car and then going swimming tomorrow. He keeps asking Shar¡ if she wants to come along and she just laughs. He asked her today if I am her boyfriend and she told him that you could say that. She then said that it'll get him out of her hair. I pouted and asked if she just said that to get rid of him, and she said not necessarily...

Thursday, July 29, 1993

July 29, 1993 - Thursday - Being there for her!!!

Well, Shar¡ has been the center of my attention lately. I've tried to spend as much time as possible with her at the hospital. Christina and I decided to go back over to see Shar¡ on Tuesday after I got off of work I was supposed to call her when I got off so she could meet me there. I went in to work half an hour early because I knew that Ron Jones was there and I ended up telling him all that had happened. We talked about the accidents and deaths that have happened in our families and lives for quite a while. I figured he'd be a really cool one to talk to, and I was right. Laura was being a worthless cunt and wouldn't trade Mamba for the bumper cars. Ron quickly trained me and I went into it with a good attitude. I ended up getting screwed out of my second person all day long and had to do everything by myself.

Time flew by pretty fast since I had never ran the ride before. I got a phone call from Lewanda at about four and she told me that I was supposed to go to room 544 in the University Community Hospital after work. That was good news because I knew it meant Shar¡ had been transferred out of intensive care and was doing better. When 5:30 came, Steve called me and asked if I could stay until six. I said no, and told him why. He asked if five minutes would hurt and I said no. He ended up leaving me at the fucking bumper cars until 5:55 and I really thought that the visiting hour was over at six. I tried to call him but he took forever to call me back. Fucking asshole!!! When Laura came to relieve me I ran to my car and left.

It turned out, very fortunately, that she has open visiting hours until the hospital closes at eight. I just walk in and never have to check in with any desk or nurse. I walked into the room and she was asleep. She was being watched at the time by this young black guy. I told him not wake her up yet. He told me that Christina had been there about forty-five minutes earlier. We started talking about me being pre med and about him planning on going back to school to be an architect. He said that he's going to college through the Air Force. We talked about the good places to live to work in the medical field and about a lot of other stuff. He went to Mardi gras last year and we talked about that and how it will be horrible if New Orleans gets washed out by the Mississippi flood.

I already felt bad for not getting Shar¡ any flowers. While we were talking, a man from downstairs delivered two huge bouquets each with a big foil balloon. I told him that I'd be back and I went downstairs. I found a very pretty arrangement that I really liked. It didn't have any of those tiny flowers that I hate. I like things bigger and simpler. The woman at the cash register said that it was very pretty and that it must have just been put in there because she hadn't seen it before. I wrote down on the card that I just wanted her to know that I'm always thinking about her. There was a woman buying M&Ms behind me and we were all talking for a minute. I was still wearing my Busch Gardens uniform and they got all excited because University Community Hospital just had a night function at Busch and they had gone. I had hoped to talk to some of the nurses about that.

I went back to the fifth floor and she was awake when I walked in. She seemed glad to see me. She told me that the man told her that a guy was here to see her and she asked him to describe me. When he said that I was from Busch Gardens she knew instantly who it was. I gave her my flowers and she thought the note was really sweet. The woman who was just downstairs buying M&Ms came in and took over Shar¡'s watch., She was all happy that out of the entire hospital, we ended up in the same room. It was funny. Shar¡ and I talked for quite a while and were holding hands the entire time. She felt funny because she was in the thin cotton nightgown with no underwear on. I told her that there was nothing wrong with that. She quickly found out that I knew exactly what had happened. She told me she has a knot on her chest where they pumped her stomach out. She also still had the IV needle plugged into her hand for easy medication delivery.

Her uncle, John, and his girlfriend Melanie showed up for a little while. They were the other two from that night at Tally Hos. We all shook hands and said that it was good to see each other again. they were looking at the flowers and saw the ones I had brought for her. John brought her a Whitman's sampler and she was really glad to have food besides that nasty hospital stuff. A cousin of hers named Rachel showed up with her husband, Bubba, and her two year old son. Rachel is pretty cute, not sexy cute like Shar¡, though. We all talked for a long time but I was being kind of quiet. I said that it was because I had just met everybody. Melanie made a list of things to bring Shar¡ like shampoo and other essentials. She started preaching for a few minutes about how God was with Shar¡ and how she's starting out all over again with a clean slate. I could tell that Shar¡ was thinking that Melanie was just spitting out shit, because she was. When they left, we all said goodbye and Melanie and john said that they'll be seeing me.

I kept measuring the amount of time I had stayed by the number of times she had peed. She kept getting thirsty so I'd run right outside and get her these little cups of juice or a can of soda. I always opened them for her and poured them into a cup for her. She shared a lot though and was hand feeding me chocolate every once in a while. It got later and later but she really wanted me to stay. Ed, the Air Force guy said that as long as a visitor isn't causing any problems, they won't ever come and kick you out of the room when the hospital closes. That was really cool. I ended up staying until ten, for a total of four hours. I had a really good time and tried to make it clear that I really wanted to be there with her. We kissed good night slipping a little tongue in. I had an extremely weird feeling that I was kissing a girl that shouldn't be alive right then. It made me really think for a while what I would have done and thought if she had died. I turned out her lights and shut the door. I talked to the nurses outside of her door for a second before leaving. Shar¡'s had gone outside for most of the time we were in there which was really cool.

Wednesday was Chrissy's birthday. Shar¡ called me in the morning about nine and we talked for a little while. I told her that I was going to make Chrissy a cake and then I'd come over to see her. I took her a pair of Gator boxing shorts but they ended up being too big around her waist. I teased her with her cigarettes that I still have in my bookbag because she isn't allowed to smoke in the hospital. We talked for a long time and then I watched her eat lunch. We kept joking about the food and all. It was funny. She thought that she would be transferred to Baylife sometime that day, but it never happened. They were still waiting for blood test results before they'd release her.

She really wanted to take a walk, and had for quite some time. We asked the nurse and she said that she could because they wanted to see if she could walk well enough before they transferred her. She said that she had some errands to run first, but she came back pretty soon. She brought Shar¡ a pair of non-slip booties that were really cute. We all walked once around the entire South wing. I ran into a clipboard on the wall once and the nurse jokingly made fun of me until she ran into a giant food cart. After she had seen that Shar¡ was well enough to walk, she said we could continue as long as she wanted to. We walked together and talked three more times around the wing by ourselves. We held hands parts of the time. I was really glad to be the one there with her on her first walk. We talked about the fact that I was there when she first woke up, and now this.

The nurse from Tuesday night stopped by just to say hello and remembered me as well. There was a cuter ethnic girl talking to Shar¡'s current black nurse about Busch Gardens. I wasn't in uniform and ended up breaking into their conversation and they were all happy and were asking me stuff about Busch. It was funny. This happened while Shar¡ was taking a potty break.

She decided Tuesday night, and again on Wednesday that she wanted to wear my class ring. She put it on her middle finger and said that Christina would shit if she saw it on her finger. I only let her wear it until I left, though. She's been worried about losing her tan and breaking out. We each were pointing out each other's zits. I told her that it's because she keeps touching her face, and she took her hand and held my lower jaw, thus touching my face. She asked me if she shouldn't touch her face, and I said no, she shouldn't touch her face while she was squeezing my cheeks. It came out really funny and she thought it was really cute and kept wanting to do it. She kept teasing me and I joked that I don't know how to swim. It came out as `schwim,' and we started laughing. It was funny and I was really glad to see her laughing so sensuously and truly.

Her father walked in after one and we shook hands but he seemed not to want to. I offered him my chair but he didn't want it. He ended up standing looking out the window and at the two of us for about twenty minutes without saying barely a word. Shar¡ and I continued to joke around and talk, though. Rachel showed up not long before Shar¡'s mom brought Cord in. I gave her my seat. Shar¡ was really happy to see Cord and was playing with him on the bed. She brought her sister, Pat with her who instantly seemed to like me. I impressed her and Rachel by helping them turn on the air conditioner.

Shar¡'s parents told her that she'd been Baker acted and will be at Charter for at least 72 hours up to 28 days!!! Her mom told her that she hopes they do keep her the entire time. I wanted to tell the fucking bitch that she needs to be in there right along with her, but I kept quiet. I counseled Shar¡ later telling her to spill her guts right from the start to get out of there as quick as possible. I told her that there is no worse way to piss them off that not to answer their questions, because they'll get their answers no matter how long it takes. She understood and seems to have a pretty positive attitude about the whole thing.

Pat and Rachel were getting ready to walk down to the gift shop and then Shar¡'s mom told me that the family wants to spend time alone, thus kicking me out. I said a quick goodbye to Shar¡ and parted gracefully, saying goodbye to Cord. I caught up with Pat and Rachel and Rachel said that Ann told her that she was going to kick me out of there really soon. Fucking cunt. I then told Pat that her sister really hates me and quickly filled her in. Pat thinks her sister is amazingly stupid and said that she bitched her out for causing Shar¡ to attempt suicide that night. She told me she doesn't see why in the world Ann could possibly hate me and then told me not to worry about Ann, just as long as I make Shar¡ happy! that was very reassuring advice to me. We also talked about how fraudulent Shar¡'s suicide note sounded because she left Cord with Ann. We all know how much Shar¡ was dead set against her mother having Cord and I was damn surprised that her own sister and good friend would have such suspicions about her. We said goodbye and I was really glad to have made their friendships.

Well I ended up being with Shar¡ for three and a half hours this time. I then went to work and had lunch before starting in the Kumba. When I got home last night, she called me and told me that she is still there and hadn't been transferred yet. She said that she wished I would have called her from Busch Gardens so that I could have stopped in. So did I. We talked for a little while, though. She told me that if I hadn't already been there for a while today, she would have been really pissed at her mother for kicking me out.

I kind of hoped that Shar¡ would still be at the hospital today when I got off of work at 4:15. I was very optimistic turning down extra hours just for the chance to see her. Alan really needed me to stay, to, because he had three call ins and one previously open shift. After work, I called the hospital and was relieved when the nurse said she was still there and transferred my call to her room. Shar¡ was glad to hear that I was still at work when I called and asked if I was coming over to see her. I said yes and took off.

I walked in to find her eating dinner. Her IV needle was finally out and she was glad about that. She's been craving Checker's for quite a while and I debated long and hard on the way over whether or not to get her any. She kept trying to make me eat a big bit of her salad and I finally obliged. We took turns feeding each other grapes in the ancient style. That was cool. We joked that since she treated me to diner this time, it'll be my turn now. The nurse asked how long I'd be there and Shar¡ said probably until they came to take her away. The nurse then said she'd leave us to ourselves and left. That was nice. Shar¡ told me that her father asked her today why her mother kicked me out yesterday!!! She told me that he likes me but just doesn't show it. That's really great!!!

She was only halfway through eating when these two huge security guards came into the room with a wheelchair and said that it was time to go. They shut us in the room together to get her stuff together and say goodbye. We hugged long and hard and then kissed.

The entire trip downstairs, we were both pretty quiet. I could tel that she was scared but wasn't sure if she'd admit to it. On the first floor, they started to head off in the other direction and I stopped them, asking if I could quickly say goodbye. I told her that it was nice knowing her, but then took her hand. She told me once again that she'll call me, and then we parted. The black guard told me to take care which was the first time he had really talked. then they wheeled her away...

She and Christina called me later that night on three way. Shar¡ was still in the waiting room and I asked her if that waiting time counted on her 72 hours. She said it did. She had to hang up five minutes later when they came to take them all to the dining room. I talked to Christina for a few minutes about Shar¡. She told me that Shar¡ asked her if she thought I would have gone to her funeral if she had died... I'm not quite sure what she was implying. I also talked a little bit about Scott with her. It turns out that Shar¡ talked to him at one in the morning the night she took the pills!!! It turns out that she took them right after they talked and they had only been in her system for about twenty minutes when they found her and they had already packed that big of a punch! She's damn lucky to be alive!!!

Christina could tell that I was a little jealous of Scott. I mean, his telephone number had been sitting on a piece of paper by Shar¡'s telephone every time I went over. Christina told me that I have nothing to worry about because Shar¡ talks about me far more than she does about Scott, for they're just friends. I guess. Christina also told me that she called him from the hospital and he knew her room number and all, but never visited her once!!! Good!!! I always feared he might walk in on us. Actually, that would have been funny. So it's looking like my little hospital trips have paid off like I had hoped hey would!

Shar¡ called me collect from the payphone a little while later because she had no change. She said that's why she had Christina call me earlier so I wouldn't have to pay for it. She gave me the phone number there and I called her back about twenty minutes later. We talked almost half an hour. She said that there are a lot of nuts in there and she really feels that she doesn't belong. They told her that she'll probably get out of there pretty quick since it was her first action of the sort. She admitted to being scared when they were taking her away and said that I sounded like I thought she'd never call me again when we were parting. She also told the guys in the car as they drove by the Kumba that I work there. I laughed and asked her if they cared, and she said no. It was cute.

I still like the fact that I alone have been with her through every major change in her situation. I was there when she first woke up, through her first walk, and through her transfer off to the looney bin. She told me that she really wishes that I could be there to pick her up when she gets out of Charter. I reminded her that I'll probably be in Georgia when she gets out and she jokingly told me that she'd stay in until I get back if she had to.

Tuesday, July 27, 1993

July 27, 1993 - Tuesday - Shari wakes up in ICU!!!

Christina called me last night at eight and said that her mother was going to take her to the hospital to try and see Shar¡. I was just finishing up cooking my diner and told her to call back when she was leaving. I hurried and ate and then was read to go by 8:20. The hospital ICU last visiting hour was at nine and we decided to meet in front of the hospital's main entrance. By that time I had told my family everything about Shar¡'s condition, except for the actual fact that she overdosed on purpose. They really tried to get me to tell them but I told them that I wasn't ready to tell them until I had dealt with it myself.

I pulled up as Christina and her parents were walking up. We had to then drive around to the emergency entrance because the main hospital closes at 8:30. Christina signed in for the four of us and we worked our way up to the ICU on the third floor. We walked in to the waiting room to find Shar¡'s grandmother and father, Ernie, in the waiting room. At nine, Ernie and Christina walked to Shar¡'s room and she came back to tell us that Shar¡ had waken up! She would open her eyes periodically but would then roll them and fall quickly back to sleep. Her grandmother went to see her. When she was still here she was telling Christina's parents about what had happened. I was really interested and memorized every detail. She said that Ann came home to find Shar¡ face down on her pillow and started screaming for her to wake up. Cord woke up and got hysterical as Ann called 911. I then asked her about Cord and she seemed eager to tell me how he felt and I was glad that she trusted me enough to talk about the subject with me.

I then was talking to Christina and her parents and they all fully agree that it is entirely Ann's fault that Shar¡ snapped. We talked about that for a few more minutes. At 9:20 they came out of Shar¡'s room and told us that she had fallen back asleep and it was probably best to leave her be. Christina really wanted me to at least get a glimpse of Shar¡, so she called the nurse in ICU and asked if we could go back there. I was really nervous and though I would have been content just with the information alone, and finding out that she was going to eventually be OK. I was also afraid that Shar¡ would be mad at me for some reason for showing up, possibly ashamed of what she had done.

When we saw her, I couldn't say anything but hi to her at first. Christina did all of the talking for a few minutes, but then I moved around to the front. She slowly lifted her hand out from under her sheets and took mine. We held hands the remainder of my visit and talked quite a bit. I was surprised that she was so alert. She kept wanting me to stay but our visiting time was almost up, but I promised to come back and she said she wanted me to. Christina told me later that the reason why she tried so hard to get me in there is because Shar¡ really cares about me and she figured that she would really want to see me.

Monday, July 26, 1993

July 26, 1993 - Monday - Not til death do we part

Stupid little fucking bitch had to go and make the biggest fucking mistake she possibly could!!!

Shar¡ called me last night right after I got home from work. I told her that I had just walked in the door and she laughed that she must have ESP. We talked for a little while about what day I should put in as my last day of work. I asked if I should take a couple of days off before I leave. She said yes and I asked her why. She told me so that I could spend them with her. I felt special that she actually said so herself without any coaxing. She had to go for a few minutes and I told her to give me five before calling me back so I could ask my parents when the best day would be. We decided on Friday the 13th!, which is a really cool last day. That would give me Saturday through Monday off and then I would go up on Tuesday.

When Shar¡ called I told her what was up. She was talking about a trash can party she is invited to on Saturday. She told me that if I wasn't going away to Georgia, then I could go with her! I said that maybe we won't leave until Sunday morning and then I'd love to go with her. She laughed about what my mom would think if she brought me home drunk as it was time to go on a trip! Christina just told me that Shar¡ invited her to that same party. Shar¡ had to get off the phone at 7:45 because she was going over to this guy Curt's apartment across the street. Her mom pretty much kicked her out and he needs a roommate. She was ready to move in within a couple of days and she was telling me all about what she has to pay and how she'll come up with the rent. The three of us (Christina) had already been talking about it last night and Christina joked that now she can get fucked anytime she wants to. She told her that she is full of shit and reassured me later that she doesn't want a thing to do with him. She said that her brother already said to her that he'll kick Curt's ass if Curt tries anything with her. She also had to pick up Cord and the babysitter's and said she'd call me back in an hour at about nine.

I went to sleep and talked to her at ten when she called back. Christina had called at nine looking for her because Shar¡'s mom had called her because she couldn't find Shar¡ anywhere. I told Christina what Shar¡ was up to and she asked if I'd tell Shar¡ to call her when she got back. Shar¡ asked me pretty soon what time I had to be at work in the morning. I told her that I worked the 7:30 Kumba shift and said that means a 6:00 wake up. I told her that I work until four and she said that she works from four until about nine. She said that she'd call me as soon as she got home from work. She said that she was going to let me go back to sleep so I wouldn't be too tired in the morning. I asked her about the apartment and she told me that it was OK and told me a couple of things about it. I don't remember what else, though. I think I remember her saying that she promised to call me back, and said that she did.

When I got home, there was a message from Christina that there was an emergency concerning Shar¡, and to call her. She told me that she isn't supposed to tell anybody, but for me she was going to. She said that last night at ten, Shar¡ put Cord to sleep and then purposely overdosed on some kind of pills! She heard all of this from Shar¡'s mother who called Christina today. Her mom said that she left a suicide letter and had apparently knew what she was doing because her mom wasn't supposed to come home until really late that night. When she did at 1:30, she called 911 and they took Shar¡ to the University Community Hospital. She's in the intensive care unit, now, and only immediately family can talk to her.

Christina called the hospital while I was on the phone and they confirmed Shar¡'s existence but wouldn't give out any information. Otherwise, I would have had my optimistic doubts. Christina and I talked for quite a while and just couldn't understand why in the world that could happen!!! She loved Cord more than anything and the last thing she wanted was to let her mom take him away from her. She had to of known that doing this would give him right to her!!! It's also weird to know that I was probably the last person she talked to. She did seem kind of hazy when she was talking but it didn't sound like she was tired. We had talked the night before until she almost had fallen asleep, so I know how she sounds. Christina said that maybe she had already overdosed when she called me. I really want to know what she was feeling after the fact as she laid there in bed. She did intend to follow through because she never tried to through up. They said if her mom had come home when she was supposed to, then Shar¡ would definitely be dead.

I really want to go and see her tonight. I told Christina that I would probably strangle her wanting to know what the fuck she was thinking. But I know that's the last thing she would need. I told her that I didn't know if I'd be able to make it in to see her even if I got there. The emotion might be too overwhelming and I might be afraid of what I'd find out from what she'd say. Christina told me that may be so but she'd probably be the one who want's to see me. I don't know.

It's stange how I seemed to know that something was going to drive the two of us apart. Or at least cause us not to be together as much anymore. I was joking with Laura all day and seemed to almost win her back. I was giving her the impression that Shar¡ and I are almost through. We were hugging each other and were holding hands for quite a while as she was gently pulling me to come with her even though she knew I had to go the other way. She got a little testy with me once and said something about me deceiving her. I asked if I had truly ever deceived her, and she said yes. I immediately said, `Besides that!' and really think that we were both referring to Shar¡! It seems so weird now.

Thursday, July 22, 1993

July 22, 1993 - Thursday - Shari at AI!!!, Picture

What a wonderful, beautiful woman!!! I'm growing more and more fond of that girl every chance I get to spend more time with her! She called yesterday afternoon to talk for a little while before she had to go to do her laundry. I then ended up telling my family all of those things about her that I had kept quite so far. Cathleen already knew about Cord, and she was a good little girl for not telling anybody like I asked her. Thank you! I also told them about her still being married, and Mother figured out that she had dropped out of school, but I still didn't tell her how early. They didn't take it too hard. Mother told me that it's all right as long as the kid isn't mine!

Kimmeth then gave me a call at 6:30 just to say hello and to tell me she wouldn't be coming home this weekend, so don't wait up for her. She kind of wanted me to come down today to see a Marlin's game with her and to hang out for the weekend. I told her that I really couldn't make it, unfortunately. She also found out how soon I'll be going back to Gainesville. We then talked until 8:20! I was really surprised she wanted to talk that long after we had just talked a few nights earlier. I finally starting worrying that Shar¡ might try to call so I went ahead and cut off our conversation, telling her I had to go and eat. I still was really glad to talk to her for so long. I did tell her about Shar¡, kind of. Just that I met a girl who is married and has a kid who wanted to go out. I figured it was safe leaving things at that.

Shar¡ called me a little while later to talk some more. She had cleaned her room for a while and was playing with Cord right then. She asked me why I had stayed home all day and I told her that I had really wanted to do something with her! She asked me why I hadn't said anything and I told her that I couldn't have just up and called her and she laughed and agreed. She said that she really wants to move out into a place of her own so she can give her friends her phone number.

She also told me that she wants to go back to night school to either be a nurse's assistant or maybe work with something electronic. We also had talked about what I want to be and I told her that she should go for nurse's assistant so that I can hire her when I get my practice! I asked her where she wanted to live in the long run and she said that she wants to move up North where it snows sometimes. I was turned off by that a little bit but then remembered that she is kind of a country girl and asked her how far north she meant. She said maybe North Carolina! We both then talked about traveling in that area and why we like smaller towns and stuff. I knew Mother would like that because she wants me to become a doctor in a small town (like Blue Ridge) to start off and now that idea is becoming quite attractive. Shar¡ joked about how funny it would be if we ended up working together.

She asked me what I was doing today. I told her that I wanted to go to the beach! She was surprised that I had off. I thought she worked all day but she then told me she doesn't start until four. She asked if I wanted to do something with her. We decided that she'd call in the morning so that we can go to Adventure Island. She went to file for state assisted medical insurance and daycare for Cord today. She called me after ten and I was already ready to go. I decided that it's be easiest for us to meet at the McDonalds in front of Busch Gardens. They showed up a little late, but it wasn't that bad. Amazingly, Christina volunteered to babysit Cord for Shar¡ while we went to Adventure Island together alone!!! We were so surprised that she would actually let us be alone when both she and Cord could come with us for free!

I had just finished drinking a Coke float when they pulled up. Shar¡ ran inside to go to the bathroom and I talked to Christina for a few seconds. Shar¡ told me that she hadn't been able to find a red golf shirt for her first day at Boston Chicken, so she wanted to try and call them to see if they'd let her start tomorrow instead. That would have also given us more time together. Every phone book ended up having that page ripped out of it, even the one's at Busch Gardens!!! I decided that it'd be quicker to just hurry and drive over there, so we did. We then went to Adventure Island. One of my main goals was to get our picture taken when we walked in, and fortunately the guy was still there. We put our arms around each other and smiled.

We went and rode the Caribbean Corkscrew and then went on one other corkscrew slide. The lines were kind of long and we were screwing around in them. We took a shower together when we first got there at the bottom of the stairs and joked that we could brag about this to Christina. I noticed another tattoo on her right outside ankle the other night when we were watching the movie and brought it up today. It's a skull climbing out of a hole in her leg. We were talking about getting that Mike tattoo off of her arm. It looks so much smaller now than it did in my mind when I first saw it. I remembered that Cord's middle name is Michael and told her that she can just tell people that it's her son's name! She said that she liked that and had never thought about that before.

We then went swimming half way around the Rambling Bayou. We were splashing each other and screwing around some more. It was a lot of fun. We then walked over to the employee line and I bought a Coke for us. We drank it on the way up to the flumes. We met these two little girls behind us in line who kept wanting to talk to us. They were about ten or eleven. They wanted to know about the slides and I joked that it's scarier than the Kumba. Shar¡ then told them about me working over there and all of that stuff. They told us that they kept meeting older people in the park through the day. The one the told us that they had seen us walking around earlier. We kind of looked at each other pretty weirdly. It was funny. After Shar¡ had departed, they asked our names and told me theirs.

I had to admit my not knowing how to swim when Shar¡ wanted to cliff dive. I let her go as I messed around in the five foot pool. I said hello to this girl named Jennifer today who works there in grounds. She is a really cute freckle face who I have seen before when I came with Cathy. I always thought she was really cute. I looked up Monday on the Mamba to see her standing at the exit waiting for someone. She looked a little younger then, but I asked her if she worked there anyway. We then started talking about going off to school and everything. I was glad to meet her and told her that I'd say hi the next time I was at Adventure Island. She brought up something from our other conversation today when I saw her so she definitely remembered me. That was cool. Ron Jones was making fun of me for hitting on all of the girls that day after he saw us. It was funny.

I also thought that I saw Xenia Batres little sister today because we smiled and started at each other for a few minutes. I later saw Stephanie Baker in the wave pool and said hello to her and we both asked what's up. I made sure that she saw Shar¡. It would make sense, too, because Xenia and Stephanie were good friends in high school. I also just remembered that I was unloading with Dayanara on the Kumba once on Tuesday. We were trying to be very seductive to each other, and were making it seem like each other's touch was the quest of life. It was fun. I was looking at her with my eyes the way I do when I try to make them sparkle. She stopped me and told me that I have really pretty eyes! Cool.

Anyway, Shar¡ and I went in the wave pool for a while and swam out to the deep part. We playfully dunked each other a couple of times and were also holding on to each other a lot. It was funny because we kept getting hit by rafts from all sides. We also were splashing each other. We then went to hang out and watch the volleyball games for a few minutes. By this time we were holding hands and each other quite a bit. We stopped and sat down where these two games were going on. One was all girls and the other all guys, something for each of us to watch. I was really hoping that maybe Sarah would be there but I couldn't see her.

We walked out soon afterward and went to look at our pictures. They had a yellow tint to them for some reason, but she looks gorgeous in them!!! I was really smiling only in one of them, and I let her have it. We joked that now we never have to talk to each other again since we have our own little pictures of us! I then drove her home and we kissed as she was getting out of the car. Now it's time to show off my new little picture!!!

Wednesday, July 21, 1993

July 21, 1993 - Wednesday - Shari!!, Kimmeth!, Carey

July 21, 1993 - Wednesday
Shar¡ called me Monday morning just after I left for work. She had already told me that she and Christina were going out that night. I was sick and barely had a voice all day as I closed on the Mamba. I worked with Ron and he was training two new employees. I told him about Shar¡ and when he found out that the party was our first date, he was extremely surprised that we were sucking face like that already. He said that she was definitely cute. One of the new employee's names is Jennifer. She's a seventeen year old blonde from King. I met her with Steve on the Python the other day. She's the type that will come to hate you really fast if you make fun of her. She already didn't like Stephen, and I was next. Ron and I were being vicious. Fortunately I have a talent for ass kissing and I had won her friendship back soon afterwards so that I was the only one she would talk to on the ride. She's even pretty cute.

I was getting a fever and headache when I got home, so I went straight to bed. I awoke at eleven to receive a phone call from Kimmeth! We talked for an hour and a half! She just got fired from her job and wanted to tell me all about it. She also kept saying that a couple of her friends told her with all seriousness hat she needs a man, so she decided to call me! We had a really cool talk and I was so happy that she called.

I worked on the Kumba on Tuesday with a bunch of the ladies. I sat in the breakroom with Stephanie, Karim, Dayanara, and some others before work. The conversation did turn to Shar¡ and I. Karim said that they noticed how the two of us were stuck together all night with our tongues down each others' throats! I was glad they were all talking. They all were dumfounded when they found out that was our first date! I think that's funny. Stephanie was saying that she was all over me. I talked alone with her later at the height stick. I told her the `bad' things about Shari and she just got more and more shocked. She was laughing that I really didn't seem the type! I then told her about the situation with Kimmeth, and how I really like Laura and that's why I was really concerned about taking Shar¡ to that party. She said that she could see why! I knew that anything I told her would be spread, but I didn't care. I stopped to say hello to this really cute girl coming out of the exit. She grabbed my arm and said if I left her that she would tell the girl I already have eight girlfriends. It was really funny.

Karim knows some of the stuff, too. We were also flirting very hard with all the cute members of the opposite sex. We were telling each other which ones we like. It was great. She showed me how she bends over to show off her tits to the cute guys and I was joking about how to grab a girls tits while she's sitting on the coaster. It was really cool. I thus benefited greatly at work in another way due to Shar¡ being at the party. Now all of the girls realize that I can get a girl much more pretty than they are and now they seem much more interested in playing around for some reason. It's funny! It's really cool, too! I saw Mark and he was mentioning his reaction when Shar¡ and I walked into the party. He said that I definitely claimed my territory from the start and he knew that she was off limits. Good!

Jennifer came into the park that day with her boyfriend. He was pretty cool. It started pouring just as they got under the height stick sign. Jennifer and I got entirely soaked. We were flirting kind of and talked most of the time. I talked to her boyfriend too and he was talking pretty mean about her. I told her later if I had said those things, she would have killed me, and she admitted that he's been an asshole lately. She said that they'd been fighting all day. We were making jokes about her taking off her wet clothes. She did have a bikini underneath but was kind of embarrassed.

When I got home I found out that only Sarah had called. After sleeping for five minutes, Shar¡ called. We talked for a long time and she said that she had taken her last days at Publix off to spend them with Cord. She was kind of tired and didn't know if she wanted to go out, but wanted to do something. She was making cord dinner and somehow she thought of ice cream and said that she really wanted something sweet. I asked her if she meant besides me, and we laughed. We talked seriously for a while. She finally told me how Christina was trying to deter her form going out with me the first time. She said that somebody on Kumba was telling her all about my girlfriend and also said that I only wanted her for sex. She then went too far over the edge and told Shar¡ that somebody told her that I forced myself on a girl one time. I was willing to kill the fat bitch right then, because how strong can someone's trust be with bullshit like that being fed into her head.

This all happened before our party! I thought for a second what happened to win her trust because she obviously wasn't too worried about it at the party. She then told me about that night we all three wayed on the telephone. She said that she came back from getting her laundry that time and Christina and I were talking together. Christina was trying to dig out of me that I only want Christina for sex. I knew that anything I said right then would be told to Shar¡. I said that I didn't, there's much more than that, and that's Christina problem for not realizing that! Shar¡ told me that she had picked up the phone early and had listened to that conversation! She also said that I really seemed much nicer than any of the things Christina had said. Her eavesdropping was the reason why she realized that Christina was so full of shit and she was laughing to herself each time Christina called to tell her something new. I hate that our entire relationship working so easily was based on such a slim chance of Shar¡ listening to us talk, but I'm really glad it happened!!!

She also told me that Christina did pull the `break up their friendship' shit. They actually hung up on each other but Christina called back ten minutes later. Shar¡ said that she was going out with me no matter what Christina decided to do. Nice.

It was my turn for an idea, so I asked her if she wanted to make an ice cream run. I said I could pick up all the stuff at a grocery store and she asked about seeing a movie on the VCR. We decided on Pet Cemetery. I went to Kash n Karry and bought a half gallon cookies and cream, a quart of Edy's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream for her, a can of whipped cream, and some really good hot chocolate topping. When I got there, her mom answered and said she was on the phone. We took the ice cream to the kitchen and put it away. I apologized to her for being so quiet at Tally Hos. We then talked about a movie on TV called Bump In the Night about a child being kidnapped. I think I had seen a bit of it in Gainesville. We watched it for about fifteen minutes through the best scenes in the movie. It was cool to be able to talk to her like that. During a commercial she went and told Shar¡ to get off of the phone. She came out in her Daisy Duke cut off jeans and a cut off Anthrax shirt. She looked good. She had just taken a shower and her hair was really pretty. We still talk all of the time about the fact that she should keep her hair straight.

We went and made us each a big sundae and ate it as we started watching the movie at eleven. Shar¡ sat on the rocking chair with me on the couch with her mom. Her mom went to sleep right after the movie started. Shar¡ eventually came over and took the other half of the couch. She's really cool because she likes to talk about the stuff happening in the movie. I hate the quite types. We got really tired before the end of the movie and decided to finish it later. It was already 12:30. We didn't kiss goodnight. I'm not sure if I was just tired or upset about finding out exactly what Christina had said about me that made me keep my distance.

I traded with Bob to work on the Mamba today. I was supposed to be on the bumper cars but there's no way in hell I'd work there. I was with Scott and a new guy named Jeff who was training. I was closing the harnesses when I kept hearing someone call my name. I looked up to see Carrie!, the girl from Orlando who took my picture on the Kumba a couple of weeks back. We said hello and talked for a little while there. Stephanie had relieved Scott for a break, so she saw me with yet another girl! Carey pulled out two really good pictures. One of me smiling from across the Kumba, and one of her and Nicole at Python. The one of me says: `You're lucky I didn't snap the picture when you ducked!! This is a much better picture anyways. Smile always!! Please!!' The other said: `You are a great friend!! I'm glad we got to meet & talk to you!! Stay sweet and don't ever forget us!! Friends forever, Carey Ann Harness.'

She told me that she was mad that Bob hadn't ever written her, because she had given him her address last time. I then told her that I was jealous that she gave him her address, and that I would have written. She really seemed to like that and hurried to write it down for me: `Write me or else!!

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I was really glad she gave it to me and had told Bob before that I probably wouldn't write her unless she gave me the address herself when he was going to give it to me.
They kept coming back all day to ride and I would always talk a long time with Carey. Christina was supposed to bring Shar¡ and Cord to Busch Gardens today and I kept thinking that they were going to show up while Carrie and Nicole were there. That would have sucked!!! Scott was laughing that he wanted to see a confrontation! Carey wanted another picture of me and was going to take it as I walked to the exit gate. I kept telling her to wait and kept turning around until she did. She wanted to know why and I said that it's be much better if we were both in it!! She liked that! She came and leant on the gate from the front and I was behind it. Our hands touched on the bar and we kept them there for a few minutes while we talked afterwards.

They came back one last time in the evening to say goodbye. Carey made me sign the back of my picture for her scrapbook. I wrote that I am really glad that we met and hope that we keep in touch for a very long time! When they got off the ride, it was time to say goodbye. Her upper lip was twitching like mine used to when I got nervous. I had noticed it once earlier when we were looking at each other funnily. I really think she likes me. She told me to make sure that I write and maybe I can visit sometime during the year. We hugged goodbye and I came an inch away from kissing her on the cheek! What a cool new friendship I've made!!!

I sat with Jennifer during lunch today and we talked quite a bit. She was scared to get on the Kumba yesterday when they finally made it to the end of the queue and crossed over to the exit. She said that he mouthed, `Fuck you!' to her as the coaster went by her and she stomped off. She said that she was really pissed and they almost broke up. She said she was ready to walk home. I told her next time, I'd take her home. We kept talking for a while. She's really cool, but she get's kind of nervous talking. She can't look at me very long in the eyes if she's telling me a story. I looked to the side once when we were being quite only to watch her stare at my eyes the entire time. She kept blinking kind of rapidly to be ready to turn away when I looked back. It was funny. Stephanie came in and patted me on the back and smiled as she made accusing noises at me, knowing that I was hitting on Jennifer!

I also kept flirting with all of the girls on the ride. There was a gorgeous redhead with her two younger brothers on the ride. I made them sit together once, but she rode separately the next time. As I walked by she asked if I wanted to ride. I told her that I really wanted to, but couldn't. Scott told me that he would have let me because we had the trainee there. I told her when she got back and said that I really missed out. We were both being pretty seductive. It was really cool. I also had another set of girls take my picture again! I got a phone call just before eight and answered as usual, `Mamba, Dan.' She then goes, `Hey sexy! What's up?' We talked for a couple of seconds but I couldn't figure out who it was and didn't want to piss her off. I acted like I knew, though. I though at first that it might have been Stephanie, or hopefully Jennifer, but I just realized that it was probably either Karim or Laura. I don't know but I'd really like to.

If Shar¡ had come, she would have parked out front so I did as well. They said it would be later in the day and I knew they'd wait for me until closing so I could go with them. I even stole a little stuffed fish for Cord from a guy that left it in a gondola. I wanted to hurry and leave so I could catch the Skyride but Lewanda kept making me stay. Laura and karim came up. Karim parked out front as well and asked Laura to drive her up there. I then asked, too. We drove up there and all they talked about were the cute guys in the park. Dorks. I thanked her when she dropped me off and we parted.

I got a phone call froM Christina at about 9:45. She was at a payphone and I asked where they were. They said at Busch Gardens! and I asked them why. She said that Shar¡ made her drive them to Treetops to wait for me to get off of work!!!!! First of all I've never had a girl go out of her way like that just to find me. I felt awesome for that alone!!! She said that Shar¡ remembered that I closed. They sat on the bench by the guard station and waited with Cord. I asked Shar¡ If they were looking for my car, and then explained what happened. I though it was ironic that we both went way out of way to find the other, and we both screwed up! It sucked that we hadn't seen each other when I walked out, though. The employee tram had just pulled in and blocked both of our views and that's how I walked right in front of her. That's funny! They were at the Hess gas station on Busch when they called and wanted me to come go out with them.

I could hear everything Shar¡ said even though she wasn't on the phone. She said something mean and I said, `Fuck her!' Christina relayed the message, with much more seriousness though as Shar¡ later told me. Shar¡ said no way and so I told Christina to tell her that I'd see her around. She said bye, and so did I. I then said I wasn't going and Christina asked me if I'd come to at least see her. By that time Shar¡ thought something was up and she grabbed the phone and told me that she was only playing with me. I told her that I knew, and I was doing the same but I could see how it got confusing with the fat bitch in the middle! It was funny. They decided we'd meet at the big park out at the end of Waters. they were there when I showed up half an hour later. They were going to let Cord play in the playground. It was closed like I told them it would be and besides, I didn't want to get killed.

We drove across the street to the parking lot for this big baseball field. We just hung out and messed around for a while. Christina's dad is an electrician and they were going through the stuff in his truck. Shar¡ was set on making a bong and almost found all of the perfect parts to do so! We had an ice fight and were all wrestling around a little bit. Shar¡ and I sat up on the roof of my car and held hands while Christina kept complaining that she was going to leave. She said that she needed to at least get gas. We laughed as I said that the gas isn't going anywhere if you just let the truck sit there! She had to pee, too, though. We drove back to Hess!!!, and Shar¡ and I were joking around while Christina got the gas.

Shar¡ then told me that she has a really good reason for me to come to her house tomorrow. I told her if she's there, that's enough and I don't need any other reason. She finally said so that she could pay me back two dollars for the two I was going to let her borrow right then for cigarettes. I laughed that I was going to be supporting her smoking and she knew I didn't like it. I also knew that I only had two dollars in my wallet and I could use that to make her feel guilty. I pulled out my wallet and opened to let them both see that Shar¡ was taking the last of my money. Christina and I joked that there goes my lunch money. I told her that I still have a little change so I can buy a soda and a dinner roll and it worked. it was funny. I told her to go buy her cigarettes and I played with Cord for a second. We then drove back to the baseball field.

We talked a few minutes and decided that I'd take Shar¡ and Cord so that we could do some more while Christina went home. After we had Cord in my car, Shar¡ was looking for his cup (his dink!) and thought it was still in the truck. Christina was already at the stop sign way out at the road. Shar¡ told me to honk my horn but I just yelled loudly and clearly for her to come back. She laughed and said that would work, too, as Christina U-turned and drove back over. I went to look in Cord's car seat for it and it was in his hand. I told her and then realized he was awake. I asked him if he has his cup and he said no. I then asked him what was in his hand and he looked at it and smiled really big and he stuck it out to show me. It was really cute. I the told him that he has a very pretty cup and he squealed and told me something. He's such a cute little kid.

Shar¡'s mom was at home so we didn't want to go there so soon. I didn't want to risk getting killed in that area any longer so I suggested USF. There was nothing! No cool places to hang out at night just to park like in Gainesville. What a shitty place. The dorms look like a prison, all the same shape and color. It was gross! I told her that I have two dollars so we could run into Steak and Shake and get a milkshake. I then said, `Oh...,' with a big smile on my face and she quickly caught on that she had already spent those two dollars. It was funny. We then were joking about really running into the store, right through the windows. It was hilarious the way I kept going on and she was really laughing. That was really cool. We had been joking all night about hallucinating and seeing things that aren't really there. That was really funny, too. I stopped at the ATM and took out some money and we went to the drive through. The shake was smaller than if we had gone inside and we joked that we were going to ask him if we could run inside and get a bigger one instead!

We drove to the back of the parking lot and laughed that we finally can park somewhere safe because we are customers. We parked facing the restaurant so we could keep an eye on any people around us. Cord woke up right then and was fussing so she took him from the car seat and put him on her lap to sleep. We talked quite a bit and started getting really silly as we got more and more tired. It was really cool! We were making each other laugh quite a bit. We were also talking really seriously some of the times. She couldn't come to me to kiss because of Cord so she had to wait until I did so. She was looking at me with those gorgeous eyes. I leant over and kissed her. We started making out for a little while and were really getting our tongue's way into it. It made me realize how lacking Nicole was because she has such a short tongue!

We stopped once and were talking a little more. She asked me if I had every gone out with someone with a kid before. I said no, but I was enjoying it, especially if the kid's as cute as Cord. She admitted that Cord really tamed her down and I told her I figured that when she first told me that day at Busch Gardens. It is a different experience. It shows me so much maturity, though, which is what I think I really like. She seems oh so much older than eighteen. She's been breaking out a little bit lately. I told her it's because she keeps touching her face. Christina told her she's glad, because maybe that'll make me stop going out with her. We laughed. She told me her birthday was on June 18th. She's a really young eighteen!

We then started making out again. At about 1:30 I drove her home with Cord passed out on her lap. We talked about doing something tomorrow. We then quietly snuck the stuff inside because her grandfather was asleep on the couch. She whispered that she'll call me and we said goodbye. I really like her a lot!

Sunday, July 18, 1993

July 18, 1993 - Sunday - Awesome party w/ Shari!

I went to what I would say is the best party of my life last night!!! Man I was feeling good!, both socially and physically by the time it all came to an end!

As we concluded our phone call Thursday night, I told Shar¡ to give me a call Saturday morning to see about going out to Ryan's party. She joked that she was going to call me at six in the morning and was surprised when I said OK. By that time I would have found out the time and place of the party and could give her some better details. I went to Adventure Island just to lay out for a while before work on Friday. When I got home that night I found out that `the Cherry girl' had called just after I left after reading my bulletin board. My mom told me that my girlfriend kept calling and wanted to know when I got off of work. We had a night function and she told her after midnight.

I became worried that Shar¡ might have gotten confused and called me Friday morning instead of Saturday, and then wouldn't call me back when she was supposed to! I also knew that if she did call, it would be during the eleven to twelve hour when Mother always is talking with Mema on the phone! When I woke up, I found a message that they had all gone shopping, and Shar¡ did indeed call at 11:20! I was so happy to hear from hear. I knew that it would be a milestone in our relationship if Shar¡ did go out with me despite Christina's constant bitching and threats! I found out that they did have a few spats and Shar¡ argued that she really wanted to go out with me, or she wouldn't be fighting Christina so hard!!! She and I came up with all of the faults in Christina's reasoning on why we shouldn't go out, and I was glad to hear that she believe's them!

We talked for an hour until her mom woke up and wanted her off of the phone. We had a good funny conversation and then ended up making plans for the night. I told her that I'd pick her up at 8:45, figuring that would give me half an hour to change and make it to her house. She gave me directions to her house and laughed when I told her that I was using my little sister's Magna Doodle to take them on. It's cool because she lives right around the corner from Busch at Fowler and 53rd St. She was trying to tidy up her room while she was on the phone. She says that she rearranges her room all of the time because she really likes change. I thought about that not being good for relationships... Cord kept squealing and getting into trouble so she was feeding him cookies that she bought at Publix where she works. Her last day was today, though, for she has a new job at the Boston Chicken across the Street from her house. I realized that I should have told her to call my house if anything came up and I could call home before going to her house. I guess I was being pessimistic because so many things that I plan don't work out too great.

When I got to work, I found out that the fucking park was staying open an extra half an hour and my being on time would be severely fucked!!! I was really pissed because I had no way to get a hold of her and this wasn't a good way to start out on a first date. I just happened to be in the lounge as Christina came in and was calling Shar¡!!! She was still pissed at me but told me I could talk to Shar¡ anyway. While I was waiting, Laura came up and sat next to me. Nice... I then told Shar¡ about being late and she said it was OK. Christina invited herself to the party so we wouldn't be alone together and the was told by black Chris that it was a Congo employee party only! I tried to agree with her saying the only reason Shar¡ could go is because she would have been my date, but Christina ended up not falling for it. I was then much happier and my day passed on with less stress since I knew Shar¡ wouldn't be pissed at me. The tension built up towards the end of the work night as everybody was anticipating an awesome party!!!

I got dressed in the parking lot and then headed over to Shar¡'s apartment. It wasn't that hard to find. Of course, Christina was there, but oh well. Shar¡ was just as beautiful as I had remembered, and as I had bragged to the guys about at work. I especially told my buddy Stephen. She wore tight jeans and a cut off black top that showed off about two or three inches of stomach. Having not seen her for a few days, and since I hadn't really looked at her hips and thighs that one night, my mind had tried to play a trick on me. I remembered how beautiful she was from the waist up but figured there must be something wrong! The only thing wrong was me!!! She's beautiful!!! I stood in the bathroom with her as she got ready. I love her hair and eyes, and have told her so. Her face is beautiful and I also melt over the sound of her voice. She has a slight smoker's rasp which makes it sexy. We talked and she showed me the pictures on her walls and in her photo album. She had one from her last day of school at the end of seventh grade! She also was very fat for a while especially after having Cord. She gave me some water to drink which tasted really good after being in the heat all day, and she and I each ate a cookie. It was funny. I didn't want to take Cord's cookies at first but she insisted!

Christina then offered to drive. I wouldn't be caught dead with that psycho bitch, not knowing whether she'd try to kill me or abandon me somewhere. I also didn't want her in my car with us, and it sounded like Shar¡ didn't either. Thus we took two cars. Shar¡ and I talked the entire way over and at the entrance to the apartment complex, we actually told the security guard that Christina was with us and to let her in as well. Stupid us. When I told the guard the apartment number, he laughed and asked us if we were going to Ryan's. It was kind of funny. We wrapped our arms around each other and headed to find the apartment. We found it rather quickly and went up.

In the living room, they had set up a strobe light and an awesome stereo. It was dark and they were all dancing. Karim was on the couch and we said hello. Jenni came up and we hugged and kissed on the cheeks. Everybody was calling out my name and checking out that girl I had under my arm. I felt awesome!!! Scott and Ryan were in pajama's and told us that the keg is in the back room. A lot of people seemed really happy to see that I showed up. We walked into the dining room and saw them playing drinking Uno! We both thought they were rather stupid and wanted to know when they were going to play quarters. We ran to the back first and got some beers. It tasted damn good but I only drank two since I was driving. Landry, MArk, Tamica, Paul, Karim, Chris, Stephen, Dayanara, Jenni, Jeff, Jason and others were dancing. James, Kevin, Sean, Damien, Michael, Melissa, and some others were playing cards. There weren't a lot of people there for a party, but it was cool that almost everybody knows everybody so well. I felt much more comfortable with my baby not knowing anybody thus giving me something to do.

It took us a little bit, about a beer to get going. They finally started playing quarters and I let her get in on the game while I went around and talked. Clint, Martin, Ron, Nilsa, and Stephanie all showed up randomly. Ron and Krissie even showed up for a few minutes. We took her a cigarette break outside on the stairs after a while. We had been hanging on each other all night. The way she actually grabs a hold of me feels so awesome! We talked outside, not without Christina, though. Everywhere we would go, the lonely bitch would show up. We tried to hook her up with both Chris and Clint who were both drunk. Chris had already told me that he wanted to screw her that day she came in with Shar¡.

On our second trip outside, just to cool off. We started kissing. No farting around in this relationship. Boy have I learned!!! I overcame her smoker's breathe immediately just for the opportunity to be kissing a girl again, especially the most beautiful that I've ever been with!!! Not long after, Laura came in with her cousin, Chrissy. She introduced us and told me that she is coming to Mardi Gras as well. That's cool because she looks damn good. Boy I'd love for Shar¡ to go with me. Every once in a while when I would detach myself from Shar¡, I would sit and talk with Laura. She asked me if that was my ex-girlfriend, and I said no. Unfortunately I alienated her for a little while over a relationship that might not last long. Damn! I hope Laura hasn't talked about liking me to Chrissy only to see me making out with some gorgeous girl. Laura grabbed a hold of my arm and pulled it a little bit as she walked by us on the stairs one time, not saying a word.

We made out on the couch for a while and finished up there as well. We were squeezing each other tight and pulling ourselves as close as possible every once in awhile. True bliss! She was also kissing my chest a little bit where my shirt was unbuttoned at the top. She also had her hands all inside my shirt, both front and back, and I had mine in the back of hers. We danced to a slow song and then one really bassy one, to which I grinded her on my leg as much as was proper since I was in front of so many friends. I knew that she was enjoying that, though. Stephen came over to talk to me when Shar¡ went to the bathroom once. He said that I scored big time and he was damn proud of me!!!!! DAMN PROUD!!! He was really impressed by this one and said that all I said was true!!! I felt awesome again.

Christina took to a bottle of one hundred proof vodka to ease her `broken heart.' She was really wasted and kept wandering outside to the stairwell and we would push her back inside and plop her down on the couch. Although I really wanted her to, we figured it'd be bad if she fell down the stairs. We were also bouncing this small plastic basketball off of her forehead. It was funny. She finally told us that she doesn't care if we go out forever anymore! Thank God! Since she obviously couldn't drive, we gave her to Chris to take care of for the night. Chris tried to steal Shar¡ from me once on the couch. I quickly got up and pulled his big ugly ass away from her. She later told me that he came up to her later and asked her why she rejected him and then shows up at his house two days later!

Earlier today when Christina was on the phone, she would be secretive every once in a while and would tell Shar¡ not to tell me something. Of course she spilled her guts on her on on the stairway. She said that Christina was feeding her a bunch of shit about me having a girlfriend already and so on. I was glad that Shar¡ was honest enough to tell me what's up.

Shar¡ and I actually tried to play a game of Uno. I sat on a stool and she leaned her whole body against me. Everybody ended up ditching the game after a while, though, leaving James there by himself. I congratulated him for winning and we took off out to the couch. We were supposed to pick Cord up at twelve and I asked her around then if she was about ready. We had just gotten comfortable with her legs up across mine. She said that we'll stick it out a bit longer and we started making out. She's so great!

We split at 12:30 and drove around the corner to her brother's apartment. His girlfriend just had a newborn. He was crashed on the couch and never woke up. Cord was a little stingy because of such an abrupt wake up, but he soon settled down. I took him while she put the car seat in the back of my car. She then ran inside to get Cord some milk and I sat there and was trying to get him to talk. he's almost two and is still shy, but soon he was asking about his momma and was smiling really big. He's a really cute little kid, but he's big. We drove back to her apartment and put Cord to bed. We then went into the living room and were standing there holding each other tightly. She feels so good. She had to be at work at six in the morning and I had to be back at Busch at 7:30. She walked me downstairs and we kissed good night. She waited at the bottom of the stairwell for me to get going and she peaced me.

She asked when she could call me today and I said that 4:30 would be safe. I fell asleep when I got home but woke up fifteen minutes later as she called. I have a small cold that gave me a sore throat. I then proceeded to lose most of my voice. At times I can't even talk at all! I drank Pepsi to break up the mucus and could talk well enough to hear on the phone. She says that she went in to work this morning and ended up not having to be there until six P.M.! She says that they usually will write P.M. but not A.M., and nothing was there. She said that one of her managers then took her to breakfast. She ended up going to this park near her house with her mom and got some sun and went boating. She was bragging later that she was playing captain and was driving the boat.

She told me that her mommy wanted to meet me and is going to this little country bar called Tally Ho. She asked me if I wanted to come, and I said sure. She had to go and get ready for work and drop Cord off at the baby sitter's but she said that I could come over at ten. I then went to sleep.

I was on boardwalk today at Kumba and saw Laura coming up in street clothes. We conveniently `ran' into each other and started talking. She has an exam in that one class she is taking at USF tomorrow. She said that she was going to study today but had to stop by and get her schedule first. We talked for a few more minutes, but I felt it just wasn't the same. We bid each other goodbye as she left.

I'm really enjoying dating Shar¡. I have had two great dates and haven't spent any money except for gas! The party was all paid for, and the entertainment at Tally Hos was free. Her mom bought her a Pepsi and some popcorn that we shared a little of. They had an awesome karioke setup with laser disk videos to tons of songs. They were all taking turns singing. It sucked not being able to speak right. I said hello to her mom and her friend, and another couple there with them. We sat together to the right of her mom. I talked every once in a while with this group next to us. They asked me if I was going to sing, but then I told them I'm losing my voice. One girl asked how and I said at work and I ended up telling them about Busch Gardens on the Kumba and that I lost it screaming at the Brazilian's. they thought that was really funny.

My baby actually went up and sang. She started with The Rose, and did really well especially since it is a slow song. I was proud. She did a couple with her mom and sand Sister Christian by herself later. She's a lot better than she thinks she is! We massaged each others arms and legs the entire night when we weren't holding hands. She knows how to tickle you just right with those little fingernails. She was in a red crossover top and black pants. She had her tits stuck out nicely for me. I kept noticing the guys in the other group looking at us playing with each other. It was fun.

`Mom and Daughter' sang a final song towards the end of the night. I really liked this one. It's called Crazy. It starts off by the singer telling her mama that she's found a new kind of love, like none she's ever found before! It then says that the guy is crazy... crazy over her! It was a really cool song and I would have loved it if it had been `dedicated' to me. We were throwing popcorn up in the air and trying to catch it in our mouths. She kept screwing up and told me to do it. I threw it high and caught it with ease. I finally got her to feed me one, too. I suddenly had a strong memory of Nicole and I eating popcorn at Busch Gardens that time and had to think about that for a minute. I don't think her mom really likes me yet. I didn't get to really talk to her yet because of my voice. I would have had the whole table laughing if only I could have talked... Fuck.

We also tried to play pool. She says she is really good and was taught by the number two player in the world at the time when she was in Atlanta. that would have been fun. We went back to the really nice pool room only to have the bouncer come back and tell her that you have to be twenty-one by state law after 9:30 to be in there. I took her by the shoulders and laughed as I said, `I can't take you anywhere, can I!?!' She laughed but admitted that I could easily pass. She was telling me that she wants to get a wavy perm when her hair grows longer. I was looking at her beautiful full-bodied straight hair. It is light brown with awesome sun blonde highlights. I told her that I love her hair and really think that she should keep it straight. She asked me if I really think so and I said definitely!

We headed out at two. She was telling me about being on the phone with Christina when I got there. It turns out that she had called me at home at 9:30 and father said she was surprised that I was out. She was then on the phone with Shar¡ when I got there. I wouldn't talk to her though. She says that she and Chris fucked at his apartment. Well she got what she wanted, and so did he., but I still got the gorgeous one and he's stuck with the dog! I told Shar¡ about the events at the party after we left. they said that Ronnie finally passed out and they put talcum powder on his face to make him look dead! When Chris saw him, he ran and called 911! but Scott soon corrected the situation. There also was almost a fight when some guys from Skyride tried to come and pick up Stephanie. I had heard at lunch from Nilsa and others that this was the best party they have ever been to. I agreed and they admitted that I was rather occupied! It was funny.

We drove back to her apartment after saying goodbye to everybody. She had joked that I could spend the night with her, but she has to pick up Cord at seven and be at work later on. Her mom was also right behind us. Something that keeps surprising me is the fact that Shar¡ wears red lipstick, but I've never gotten any on me. It has disappeared both times so far and I never noticed when! We stood there in her house and she had taken off her shoes and we were laughing about our height differences. We figured out that if I sat of the arm of the couch, she would be about an inch taller, and she liked that. We held each other tight when her breast right against my heart which was racing. She noticed. We kissed and it was hard not being able to breathe out of your nose. I started working my hands into her shirt right at Mommy Dearest's car door shut! We kissed goodbye and she walked me downstairs. As I looked at her standing there, we looked really guilty, like sex starved kids. Our hair was rustled and we looked so bad. It was funny. Shar¡ told her mom that she thought she had to drop her friend off somewhere else. I knew that Shar¡ was hoping for more time for us together. Mom was being a bitch and told Shar¡ that there aren't supposed to be people in the house when she isn't there. I took off to let bitch cool off.

But I feel so great being with Shar¡! I'm really glad I met her and hope we'll go far!

Thursday, July 15, 1993

July 15, 1993 - Thursday - Getting fought over!!!

Talk about a sudden social life! I'm loving this beautiful month of July! It all started with my Mississippi pig, Carrie and Nicole taking my picture, Sarah and Amanda, and now Laura and Shar¡.

I walked out of the park last night with Laura and Clint. We were talking about the ages of people to date. Clint told her that she can pick up a guy at Despaparados. She joked that the fifteen to twenty crowd aren't her type. I complained that eighteen year olds aren't bad at all! She quickly agreed and then I told her that I prefer twenty-five year olds. We put our arms around each other and I asked if I can keep her until she's twenty-five and we laughed. She mentioned that if nobody wants to go dancing, that we should go to a movie. She said a few minutes later to Clint that if nobody is going, she's just going to go home and play with her little rabbit. I complained that her new plan excluded me and she smiled and said, `Maybe not!'

Martin and Karim had showed up from home, and Bob was really eager to go so they all decided to keep the date. They were going by Laura's cousin's house first to get ready and to pick her up. When I found out that Despaparados is right down the road where Nicole used to live, I decided to go home first and gave Laura my number to call before they left. She had given me hers earlier: 681-4914. I then headed home.

When I walked in the door, Mother was on the phone with Uncle Jon. I went and grabbed the phone and started talking to him for almost twenty minutes. He asked me why aspirin aren't black, and then said that I wanted them to work, didn't I? Cute. He's working as an estimator for Circle Electric and is making twice as much salaried as his last job. He says there's a real satisfaction in seeing a project come to completion that he planned, and that the company doesn't run without his work. He feels really important and I've never heard him so eager about anything before. that really good. Father wasn't home and I was glad to get a chance to talk to a guy about all of my exploits yesterday at Busch Gardens. HE told me to be careful with sex, though. Glad he cares. I was really glad to get a chance to talk to him and told him so.

I had received a call from Sarah while at work as well! that was really cool and was one I wasn't sure whether or not to expect. She even left her number: 971-8713. I then received my call from Laura and headed over to Despaparados. I wasn't sure if I was really early, which is more likely, or late because they didn't shoe w up in the next half hour. I didn't want to go in to the place by myself and was worried earlier that they'd get lost since they had never been before. I decided to just split and go home and eat and think about Shar¡. I didn't even really want to be there in the first place except for Laura, and Martin who had said that we'd just hang out and hit on the girls.

Cathy and I woke up early and headed over to Adventure Island. She had a blast again and I'm really glad to see her having so much fun out in public. Wouldn't want her to be a recluse like Mother is letting her be. We had a really big lunch of a huge turkey and huge ham sandwich. We rode the flumes over and over in the early morning while there was no line. They weren't using double tubes on the tube slides today so she didn't want to ride those this time. We left about three thirty.

When I got home I decided that I 'd try to call Jon from Gainesville again. He had called the other day and left a local number. He was there this time. I asked him where he was and he told me that he moved and is in his new house! He lives right around Fowler and Dale Mabry. We talked for a while and caught up on the summer. I asked if he'd gotten any postcards and he hadn't. that's funny because I've gotten a ton! Jon was jealous. We were joking that Chris ought to just collect us all together for a day and tell us all about the summer so we don't have to hear all of his stories over and over again!

I then gave Sarah a call. She was really glad to hear from me and had forgotten for a second how I got her number. She then said that she didn't expect that I would call, and I said the same about her and we laughed. We talked about a lot of stuff especially relationships for a long time. She says that she likes how I really seem to know what I'm talking about when it comes to the way girls feel! that was cool. She told me that she's a Junior at Tampa BAy Tech and is in a new medical program that is taught mainly with computers! They take a laptop home each night to do their homework! She'll be in Gainesville in two years as pre dental. She also gets her basic studies two years waived for participating in the program!!! That's fucking amazing. I wish they would have had that for me when I went to high school. One of Chrissy's friends who called tonight is in the same program.

I then told her that I foresee an end to her and Clint's relationship soon because they're so different. Maybe I can steal her!!! It also turns out that she was at Adventure Island all day playing volleyball in the Spike Zone. She says that she's there all of the time and to come see her sometime. She told me about a big party Friday night, but I work a night function. Before we hung up I made sure to tell her to call whenever she'd like and as often as possible. That was a cool phone call.

I was doing so well on the phone, that I finally decided to call Stacy. I talked to his mom for a few minutes just saying hello for she remembers me. I had to leave a message that I was just calling to say hello. He called about half an hour later and we talked for along time until we both had to go about the same time. For me, it was time for dinner. We talked about what has been up over the summer and caught up on the few people we have seen from Leto. He says that he missed Bobby the last time he was here and I told him about seeing him at Kumba that day. Another successful call to someone I haven't talked to in a long while.

I then waited for Shar¡'s phone call although I didn't really know when to expect it. I went to sleep before eight and got the call at ten. I was so glad to have gotten it, too. When I picked it up, I heard Christina's voice and realized that we were on three way. I said hello and talked to Shar¡ for a few minutes before Christina popped in. It turns out that Shar¡ left my number in the back seat of Christina's car, and Christina was the one that called for her. As of then, Shar¡ didn't have my number any longer. Since she doesn't work there that could have concluded our relationship. Christina later told me that she couldn't just call me though because I would have wondered why she had my number and Shar¡ didn't She told me that she could have just told me that Shar¡ didn't want to talk to me anymore, but she didn't. She told me that she didn't want to give Shar¡ my number and if I tried to, she'd hang us all up! I told her that I'd be extremely pissed and would definitely have my revenge if she did so and wasn't going to talk to her anymore until she gave Shar¡ my number. She broke down, thankfully!!!

Christina is still extremely pissed that her friend stole me even when she knew that she liked me. She told me that she liked me the first day she saw me and didn't try anything because Lori was always talking about me! Sweet! My ego is going to explode if I'm not careful because the girls are talking! She said that she never gives up what she wants without a fight and was ready to tell Shar¡ to fuck off for good. This was while Shar¡ had gone away from the phone for a few minutes. She was almost in tears. I told her that I don't give up easily either, and I really want something to happen between Shar¡ and me! She said that she doesn't want us to go out at all. I told her again that if she does anything, that she'll loose me as well because I won't have a fucking thing to do with her ever again. I'd be happiest if she was out of the picture for good but I don't want Shar¡ to feel bad for her and do her the favor of not going out with me. I asked her at the very end of the two hour conversation to be nice to us for me, and only me.

Now for Shar¡. I found out the full story today. She remet Michael when she was thirteen after he moved back. They started dating seriously and at fourteen she dropped out of school and they ran away to Atlanta. After a while they joined the circus and ran with them for a year. It all sounded too crazy to believe! She got married to Michael and had Cord when she was sixteen. She's still married because so far she can't afford to get a divorce! She said that they were together on and off after they split up, but she hasn't seen him for five months now. She said that he called once since then and he was drunk. She works nights now at a restaurant but is going tomorrow morning to apply for a job at either Outback our Ryan's.

They then found out that I'm going to Gainesville at the end of summer. She was a bit discouraged until I told her it's only an hour and a half away. She asked if that was all and said that it isn't that bad at all. Now I'll have Jon to travel home with which is cool. Christina said that she's worried the most about the possibility that we'll start going out for good. We were joking about letting her be the bridesmaid so that she can stand right there and watch her kiss me! Shar¡ was also fighting hard for our right to go out. She said that she really wants to go out with me which is why she didn't tell me otherwise even when she found out that Christina likes me. It felt so cool being fought over! Christina told me that she never thought that Shar¡ would come and steal the guy she likes the most in the entire area. It was funny and I couldn't help but laugh!

Christina sat there quietly like a good little girl for a long time while Shar¡ and I talked. She was talking about Cord and said that he has her eyes. We started talking about her eyes and I told her how impressed I was with them. She says they change colors and always sparkle. I know, they're gorgeous. We talked quite a bit more before It was time for both of us to go! It was awesome!!! I can only pray that worthless fat ugly bitch doesn't try to fuck us up!!!

Wednesday, July 14, 1993

July 14, 1993 - Wednesday - Suddenly my lover!!!

Explosion!!! That's an easy way to describe how my life has been going. It's beautiful! I think it has been the result of a huge boost in my self confidence as well as an avalanche of extremely good luck and timing. I just got a short haircut that I really love. Laura complimented me the first day, as did Nilsa. Nilsa thought I said that I cut it myself and said that I should quit my job at Busch and become a barber if I did! She really seemed to mean it, too. I also found a really cool pair of sunglasses on the Python the other day. They kind of look like cop glasses and fit my face really well.

Well, here goes... I was walking up the Kumba stairs from the front loading position when I suddenly heard somebody call my name. It was the fat girl, Christina, from the photo shop standing in the front line. She was in a bikini top and I was disgusted. I then noticed the gorgeous girl standing with her, also in bikini. I wondered to myself how a girl like that would associate herself with Christina, and then wondered how I could use Christina to get closer to her. I said hello to them and ten took off on break.

I was working later on the button, when I heard them again in line. Christina was talking to both me and black Chris. She was hitting on the both of us. I went straight for the cute girl. I had found this really cool looking lighter on the ride and she saw it sitting on the phone box. Mark I had planned on lighting the Kumba on fire with it but she wanted to trade hers for mine. Christina asked if I'd trade the lighter for the cute girl, and I said definitely! She gave me her pink lighter. It was wet and didn't work so I went back to her and gave it back, letting her have both. Christina joked if I wanted her friend one more time. I looked at the girl and asked her if she lights up! and she said of course very seductively. I promised them I'd ride with them if they came back when I got off at 6:45.

Ryan then let me have the control panel. Mark had told me about a party that he, Scott, and Ryan are throwing Saturday night. He said that it'll be great. I talked to Laura later and she said that she might drop by. Ryan invited me himself while we were in the booth which was really cool. We then talked about girls and how to use them to the fullest! I looked down once to see the two girls riding in the back row. they were both looking at me rather intensely. I knew that they noticed my glasses by the look in their eyes. Ryan seemed quite impressed when I pointed her out to him. I then asked to be sent to boardwalk for my last half hour so that I could look for the girls. I talked to Ronnie about her for a little while, because he had seen her as well.

As I walked out the exit after I was off, I walked slowly hoping they had indeed come back. I noticed them walking quickly up the boardwalk and pretended not to notice them until I was right on them. They told me that I had to still ride with them, just as I hoped they would. I then walked over to the employee path and told them to come on. I also said that I sure as hell wasn't going to wait in that line. The three of us walked up to turnstile and walked in. We took the second row to the back. Chris was over there and Christina kept rubbing her hands all over my legs and butt. She told me later that she really likes my butt, that it feels really nice! I then essentially told her to keep her hands off. I was standing between the two of them at the time and Mark caught on really quick to what I was up to. It was great.

Christina asked me when I was going to take her out. I told her as soon as I go out with the cute girl, I'd go out with her! It was funny! After we were on the ride, Christina kept trying to put her hand on me, but I finally just grabbed her hand. She said she wanted to hold my hand so that Lori could see us on the video screens in the photo shop. I said that she could only if I could hold the cute one's hand. I took hold of it, and she held mine back. After we had passed the camera, the cute one and I continued to hold hands for most of the rest of the ride. We all walked down to the photo shop and hung out until the picture came on the screen. The cute one and I were around the corner from each other, but face to face. Once she had found it, she came back over and stood next to me. Laurie, the cute one, was giving me these cute little funny looks. Lori printed me up a copy of the picture. Thanks wonderful!

Now for a little bit about this gorgeous girl that I found. Her name is Shar¡. I didn't even find out her name until the very end. Christina kept calling her Sherice, so I'm not quite sure which way is right. She's beautiful!!! She's the most gorgeous girl I have ever pretended to go out with. I hardly remember ever talking to any as gorgeous as she is! She has beautiful shoulder length auburn hair with no bangs. Very sexy! Her eyes are also gorgeous although I haven't told her so yet. I almost remember them as a crystalline aquamarine color. She has a tattoo on her shoulder that says Michael. I touched it while we were standing at the photo shop and laughed that it was discouraging with all of the hearts around his name. She laughed and told me that it's a couple of years old and she really needs to get it covered. I asked her how old she is while we were there, and she said eighteen! Christina then asked me my age and I think Cher¡se liked the fact that I'm not a lot older like I look.

Then came the tester. She told me that she has a two year old son named Corey. I accepted her statement graciously because I'm sure that has deterred many a guy from her side. There's nothing like a little kid to soften a wild one, in her case. I told her to lean back so that I could look at her stomach. She has stretch marks but no gut, and I complimented her on that, and she was really pleased. We talked between the two of us for a few more minutes until my picture was printed up. Jan walked up with a big smile on her face and joked about me holding two girls' hands AND sticking out my tongue. I really liked showing off by standing right next to Cher¡se. I told her that she missed out and should come next time and she told me that I'll have to invite her.

They asked me what I was up to and I told them that I am supposed to go out with some friends, namely Laura, to a country club called Despaparados. I told them that I had to be back at Mamba before closing. I lied that I really didn't have anything to do at the moment so Cher¡se asked if I'd like to walk around with them. I had to change clothes so we walked over to the breakroom. Christina was still trying to snag me and kept making sexual advances and references. I kept telling her that nothing's going to happen until I go out with Cher¡se, who was taking the attention very well. Christina asked if they could help me undress. I told her later and quickly changed. Clint's dad, Clint, was in there with another electrician. He's really tall and started talking to me about how it's hard to find long enough socks and how in his day they didn't make tall shirts with extra to tuck in. I made a few good points with him but really wanted to split with the girls. My shirt was the new Q105 shirt I had just gotten. The back says, `The good time your mama warned you about!' It was funny and they really liked it when they saw it. Chrissy and mother had laughed at it, but I knew the girls, even the ones in Gainesville, will really like it.

I told them that I have to go to the ATM up front so we took the Skyride. I kept joking with Christina when she would make a suggestion that she can go right ahead, we'll be right behind her... not! She also was saying that people with jobs at Busch Gardens are stupid, so I kept calling her stupid. She started getting jealous of Shar¡ and I told her that she shouldn't have brought such a gorgeous girl with her to the park. Earlier Chris and Mark were hitting on her as well, but she wouldn't give him her phone number. Christina complained that all of the guys were looking at her friend, instead of her. She said that they saw Clint at Mamba. She also said that the guy, Jason at the photo shop, who is supposedly really cute to them, likes Shar¡ as well. That made my getting her so much more exciting! Can't wait to rub it in!

We went into the Skyride and they were actually going to wait in line again but I told them to come in through the exit with me. Even though none of us were in uniform, I showed the guy my ID and said we needed to get up front. It was no problem. I laughed with them that you should never wait in line at this place. I hopped in first, waiting to see who sat with me. Surprisingly, Christina hopped in and sat on the far side. Surprisingly again, Shar¡ came in and sat next to me! I called down to Terri at Kiddie Rides and said hi. We all joked around and talked the entire way over. After we exited, Shar¡ saw that the Questor was now open. It had been closed all day and she really seemed eager to ride. I told her that I'd definitely ride with her. I was walking behind with my tongue hanging out and Christina was yelling at me. Shar¡ was in a tiny bikini top and was wearing these Daisy Duke jean shorts with a hole on her lower butt. She had a little cut off T-shirt tucked in her butt. I pulled it out to look at it. I also said that I didn't like it because it was covering up the hole. It was funny.

Christina brought up tits for some reason, saying that all I want to really do is look at Shar¡'s. I asked her what was wrong with that, because they are very nice tits and so on. Shar¡ didn't quite catch what we were talking about, but it was still very funny. We went inside the freezing Questor building. They were still wet from earlier rides. Once we were in the prep room, she touched Christina to show her how freezing her hands were. I took them in mine, and they were indeed cold. My are usually pretty bad but they were still warm. I took them in my hands and tried to warm them up a little. She then spun around backwards and leaned up against me to watch the rest of the show. We were still hand in hand in hand and my left arm was snug across her breast. Christina laughed that this little girl in front of us was watching our hands. It felt really good to be holding a girl again, especially one so beautiful!

While we were in the waiting room each standing on our own lighted dots that each represent a seat on the ride, Christina was still trying to snatch me back. Shar¡ told me earlier that Christina tends to get pretty sexual on her dates. I personally only cared how she gets, but didn't say anything. My shoelace was untied and they both told me to tie it. I looked at Christina and she ended up tying it for me. She told me that she doesn't do that for many people. I told her that she earned a brownie point. She asked how many she needed, and I said she needs forty before I'll do anything. She asked how many she got for introducing me to Shar¡ and getting the picture and I said five. She then wanted to know how many Shar¡ has, and I said that she already has fifty for being so wonderful. She really liked that a lot. We joked around about that some more and I came up with some really funny comments that we all were laughing about.

Once we were on the ride, Shar¡ and I held hands throughout the ride. We both kept massaging one another's hand. It was really sweet. We walked out of the building with our arms around each other!!! We all meant to take Skyride back to Congo so that I could meet Laura and they could get their stuff out of their locker. It was closed by then. Shar¡ exclaimed, `Fuck, we have to walk!' I replied with, `Walk, we have to fuck!!!,' not realizing that it sounded imperative. She picked up on that first and said that it might be hard to do both at the same time. I told her that it helps for the guy to be tall so the girl's legs don't drag. It was funny. We continued with our arms wrapped around each other all of the way back to the photo shop. Her finger ended up in the back of my pants to hold on and my hand was on her upper butt cheek. Christina got pissed off at us by the time we got back because we both were being mean to her by then. She kept asking for it, though. I even picked Shar¡ up once in my arms to carry her so she wouldn't have to walk. She was laughing hard but wanted back down, afraid she was going to fall. She was a little heavier than I had expected.

Shar¡ would pop Christina in the butt with her wet T-shirt every once in a while. Christina finally went and undid the top of Shar¡'s bikini, hoping it would fall. We were apart at the moment and I then went up behind her to undo the tie around her back. She jumped and tried to stop me until she realized that it was me and then settled down very quickly. I didn't untie it, though, to be nice. We walked all of the way to the photo shop but then had to go to rapids to get into her locker. The two of us went alone down to the lockers, still holding on to each other. It took a few seconds to get the locker unlocked, but we finally worked it loose and headed back up. By then Christina had hidden all of the pens so that Shar¡ couldn't write down my phone number. We both saw Ryan walking out of Kumba suddenly and we went and borrowed pen and paper. I was glad that he saw the two of us since we had been talking about her earlier.

We walked back down to Bumper Cars and I knew that the dilemma had finally come. Where was I going out to for the night? As soon as we walked by their bumper cars, I saw Laura and quickly but gently unhooked the two of us. I told them to hold on and I went and jumped over the wall to talk to Laura. The few people that were still going were meeting out in front of the administration building near Treetops after work. Laura really wanted me to go, as did Clint although he couldn't go himself. I took Clint to the side and asked him if he remembered the girl out by the food stand. He did as he realized my sudden disinterest in Despaparados. I decided to stick with Laura, however. Clint and I walked out to say goodbye to the girls. I invited Shar¡ to come with me to Ryan's party on Saturday night and to give me a call before then. Clint didn't realize the extent of our sudden relationship until he joked about the `Good time' saying on the back of my T-shirt. She said that I am her good time and pulled me close. We stood holding each other before saying goodbye. They were leaving to walk to McDonalds where Shar¡'s sister was picking her up. It's a real shame I didn't go with her then, but it still was the most wonderfully fun day I've had in an extremely long time!!!