Try #1:
When falling in love is something new,
It can make you happy, make you true,
It can even scare the hell out of you!
Try #2:
I've had crushes and have been in lust,
but something different happened with us.
I've never felt this way before in my life,
and I'm asking you tonight to be my strife! Ha! Ha!
(or `wife' as the case may be!!!)
Final draft:
My secret
If you look for love,
it will never come true.
It's when you least expect it,
that it rains down on you!
I've had crushes and have been in lust,
but something different happened between us.
I've never had such feelings about anyone before,
and I hope many more are waiting for us in store.
It's like some unbelievable controlling force,
that's sending my heart on a loopy course.
I kept it hidden at first like a quite dove,
But now I'll show you that I've finally found love!
I then waited to see what the nature of my card would be from the letter I was expecting today from Shar¡. She did keep saying that I'll like this one much better, and once she added that at least she hopes I will. I was ready early for my three hour block of classes in Turlington Hall today to check the mail under the skeptical hope that the mail would actually be in before 10:30. When I got downstairs I could hear somebody already at the mailboxes and my hopes shot up. When I saw the letters in the mailbox I was overjoyed!!! I was all happy as I read it on the way to class and my smile only got bigger and bigger on the way:
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I love you HONEY!!!--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dan,
September
Hey sexy!!! This is probly the letter you were looking for Wed. instead of the one you recieved. I just got through reading your letter, you are starting to express your feeling and that's good - I like that. Anyway I very much enjoyed my weekend with you and wished I could stay up there forever and a day. I also enjoyed haveing you there to cuddle with and hold me all night, I really miss that but I can wait until next time I come up there or you transfer to USF. Dan I really miss you, I miss your every touch, kiss, laugh, everything we did together and so on and so on. Sometimes I sit and think about you, look at your pictures, hear your voice in the back of my head and it all seems weird, that I let someone inside my heart and mind in only a short period of time. I guess that's the reason why I want to take everything slow.... because I usually don't let anyone in, and when I do I usually end up getting hurt. It is going to take me awhile to comprehend everything I am feeling for you, because this time it's diffrent. You're diffrent than all the other guys and I am still trying to figure out what it is about you.......
Sorry, the kids are watching T.V. actually Winnie the Pooh tape and I got interested. Anyway I was talking about things being diffrent.... The only time I have been in love was the first 2 months of my relationship with Michael, it only lasted for two mon. because I was only looking someone to show me a good time and be with me. But then my mother and I started bitching at each other about him and that's when I said fuck ya all and left. "That was the biggest mistake of my whole life." The only thing good I got was a little boy.... Ya know what?????? I think that's it - It seems so diffrent because you actually care and love Cord. You just don't put up with him because he's there. Or do you?????
He's really a little charmer and enjoys being around you. He also needs someone that cares for him being him not just because he's there, and from what you say, you do, and that's good.........
Besides in a couple of years if not now he's gonna need a male figure and I would like that male figure to be you. He does ask about you every now and then but at least he asks. That shows me that you did make an impression on him for him to remember you.
!Subject change!
About the roses............ They were beautiful and still alive, I really didn't expect them but that is also the first time anyone has gave me a dozen of roses. Everyone else gave me one, two, or sometimes three but never a dozen. I guess that means in your eyes I am worth a dozen....... Or does it????
I would have showed them off to more people but no one else came over. This guy looked at them when I get off the bus and he said, "Oh you didn't have to," and I said I didn't! I really felt like someone special to you when you gave them to me, until you wrote me and said you do it to all your girlfriends! J/K I do feel special to you, and it's a good felling. I've really fallen head over hills for you and maybe I should come back over this way just a tiny bit. What do you think??? I still have a little bit of doubts but eventually that will fade away. It has faded a bit already and one day it will no longer be there. But you can understand that can't you??? Anyway the two fondest memories I have of our little weekend together, actually the whole weekend is wonderful memories but the two fondest is when you whispered back to me, "I love you too." I wanted to say that all weekend but I was waiting for the perfect timeing and I am glad I waited because the moment I said I love you was a moment to always remember. I ment it when I said it to, I do really love you. No other word can really express the words love you except "LOVE"! My other fond memorie is when we took "HOT" showers together. I enjoyed our « an hour showers together holding each other while the nice hot water drained down our bodies stuck together. Another memorie that is in front of all the others is every time we "made love," if those words are exceptable but I am not going to talk about that very much, because no words can really explain how that felt except "awesome." That also was really diffrent. I also think it's because we love and care for one another and it's not just a one time thing. Every thing about you is so diffrent than I and anyone else and I love it. It's also because I love and care deaply for you. I think I have finally found the person I've been looking for to spend the rest of my life with and that person is you. Does that scare you??? It doesn't scare me because I am hip with the situation. Well tell everyone I said Hi and take it easy.
I love you Deaply,
Shari {heart}
P.S. Cord says Hi and "oud you to"
Love Cord
P.S.S. Hope this letter is better than the other one!!!
P.S.S.S. I mean every thing I said to you!!!
P.S.S.S.S. {love}{peace}&{happiness}
P.S.S.S.S.S. Hurry up and transfer, we need you down here.
She also tried to draw a picture of my peace necklace and then wrote, "looks stupid but oh well." I helped her cut off the long part of the string and retie it as a permanent accessory on her neck when she was up here. I even melted the ends together with a lighter, showing her that I know what I'm doing. She simply wrote, "`Daddy Dan'," on the outside of this envelope!
On Saturday when we talked, she also told me that she talked to that guy, Kenny, at the pool again and Christina thinks he's really cute. She said that he came up to her and asked her if she is Dan Skinner's girlfriend and she said yes. He then was asking her about me supposedly being really smart and all. She was kind of rude to him and said that she doesn't really know because we don't talk about school and stuff.
Needless to say, I was a very happy person in class and was very anxiously waiting the end of my classes so I could write her back. I told everybody that in a nutshell, she wrote that she loves me, wants to be with me forever, and that I was the best sex she's ever had! It might be stretching the truth a little, but maybe not.
I just went and was reading some of her letters and some of mine. I keep photocopies of all of mine now and was really glad I did so that I could see what exactly I wrote that time she cried. I also photocopy hers so I don't mess up the originals. I guess I'm materially sentimental. But I was thinking about her and everything about her. How I really do want to be there to guide Cord along as he grows up to save him from her!!! Not really but that sounded good. She did say that Cord will need a male figure and someone there for him. I keep wanting to ask her what about herself! I've really fallen for the girl and hope we will find our path of happiness to be as easy and wonderful as it's been so far.
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