Monday, September 6, 1993

September 6, 1993 - Monday - Shari... I love you!!!!!

I just had what must of been the most wonderful weekend of my life!

It all started shaping Friday morning while I was working out with Ashley. Shar¡ was coming in the evening via Greyhound Bus and I wanted to buy her a present of sorts. I had thought about flowers and was secretly debating in the back of my head how many and of what kinds to get her. I pretty much knew they'd be roses. Jon and I were talking about where to find roses a ta decent price and picked out a few good places. Since Shar¡ proclaimed a hatred towards the Gators when I said I'd buy her a keychain, I pretty much ruled out the tons of stuff offered at the bookstores. Ashley told me to get her flowers, because she personally really likes to get flowers. Ashley was thinking more along the lines of a cheaper bouquet because I didn't tell her the extent of the relationship between me and the `girl who is coming to visit.' She was talking about going home for the weekend to see Daniel and said that she didn't know whether to feel happy or sad or confused. She made it sound like the guy means little to her anymore. This is only the second time she has even mentioned him to me and the other was because she was talking to Laura as well. It was cool knowing the story behind what she was saying to get the full effect of what she was saying and hiding.

I had become kind of doubty again by that time about Shar¡ and my relationship for some reason just because I was in eager anticipation of her letter and always become nervous when such deep yet unknown information is coming. I also didn't know whether or not she'd like flowers that much because they die and go away and I just wasn't sure if she is the flower type. I prayed to find her letter in the box as I walked home from my last class because I really wanted to see it before seeing her. My wishes were answered and I pulled out the envelope from our box. It said, `for your baby blues only,' and I showed that to the guys later and then asked them if they wanted to read it! It was really funny. She then had written, `Smell,' with small arrow pointing to a spot where she had sprayed a bit of her perfume so the letter would smell like her. That was pretty cool and I really liked it. She also have put quotes around the word `LOVE' on the stamp on the front.

The letter went like this:



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* Love Ya Georgious *
Dan, August 30, 93
Hey I just got your letter and I read it over and over again. I am glad every one knows about me up there so if they ever see you with anyone else they can say hey what about "Shar¡." But I don't think you would want anyone else but me. I am happy that you are "in-love" or are you? Because I know I am, more than words can say. I was also scared to show or tell you how I really felt, but then I said well if I don't then you would never know. Now that I got your letter and know how you feel.... I am glad that I did give you that letter - "I ment every word of it." At first I didn't want any real commitments but then I realized how much I cared for you when you left and how much I enjoyed you being here while you were here. I also noticed how you and Cord got along and how much he enjoyed you. Then I realized that you are the first person that wasn't out for just my body, you were also interested in me. Then my heart said, "wait a minute, you haven't felt this way in a long time so you better speak up and say something." And my mind said, "he's not only interested in you, but you're little one to, and you're not going to find to many guys out there like that." I really don't want to find another one, I am satisfied with the one I have. Are you sure you can deal with an all ready made family??? I just don't want to let my guard down and get closer to you and then you say wait a minute I am not ready for someone that has a little kid already. As far as forgetting about you, "There's no way in HELL," I have 6 photos of you in my wallet, and you're ring, and most of all you are in my heart and mind every minute of every day. Every time I think about you I get a picture and look at it for hours. I sit there and think I wish I could be there with you to hold you and kiss you, give you the affectionate a dud needs. It really ment alot to me that you were there when I was in the hospital because that was when I needed somebody and it was Daddy Dan that cared enough to come see me and be with me almost every day. You mean alot to me and Cord even though Cord doesn't really know how to tell you, but I can tell because before he gets off the phone with you he gives kisses and says oud you ("Love You") and you are the only person he does that to every time. BEsides my mother but she's his granny. Well I can't wait until this weekend. I am coming up there with or without Cord just as long as I get to come and see you. I really miss you lots and can't wait to see ya. And by the way you are right about the potential thing.

Bye sexy!!!
Love Shar¡ (heart)
P.S. I am not going to say write me because hopefully I'll be up there FRIDAY.


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Of course I was elated!!! I walked soon afterwards to a florist downtown that was offering a dozen European-wrapped long-stemmed roses for $9.95 with a coupon. That's pretty damn cheap! They were huge and looked gorgeous! I had her put in one yellow rose for friendship and I bought a card. It has and entire paragraph on the front of a shy little cat that says sometimes when someone has very strong feelings for someone but is a little shy, he finds it hard to express the way he or she truly feels... The inside then says, `Nevermind.' I loved it because I used to say that all of the time and thought it was ironically funny. I stopped by the gas station on the walk home and bought her two packs of cigarettes as well.

The traffic along 13th Street on the walk home was moving almost as slow as I was and I kept hearing remarks from the cars full of girls like, `That's sweet!' and so forth. It was really cool. I just really didn't want to run into any girls that I know. Jon was extremely impressed with the deal that I had found and said that I did a damn good job. I stood the roses in water so they wouldn't die any more. I showed them to Roswitha, Ed's girlfriend just so he'd fell even shittier about not ever getting her any. I ended up talking to Laura for a little while and told her what Ashley hasn't said to me about Daniel. She thought it was unbelievable and it was pretty funny.

At 9;30, Chris and I drove to pick up Shar¡ at the bus station. The place is in the black part of town and is pretty scary at night. We saw some prostitutes walking around on the way there and laughed about them. When we pulled into the parking lot I could see Shar¡ standing there by herself amidst all of the blacks. Chris instantly picked her out and we went and said hello. We checked her bag out and I carried it to the car and got in the back seat letting her ride shotgun. We talked on the way home about her trip and everything else. She met Jon when we got back to the room. Chris had gotten in touch with Dave and Hector and there was talk of a trip to Tampa to go clubbing. I joked to Shar¡ that we were going back to Tampa for the night right after she got here. His plans fell through, though and he and Jon decided to go to this reggae party that they had heard about. It was anything but appealing and we decided not to go along.

Jon kept telling Chris that he should sleep in Ed's bed when they get back. He didn't like the idea at first but said he would if Jon would shut up about it. That was really cool after he decided not to head to Jacksonville until Sunday morning. Shar¡ took a smoke break every once in a while and we would go downstairs to do so. The second time we walked down past the swimming pool before coming back. I fixed a big plate of French fries that she fed to me with tons of ketchup. We talked a lot about eating habits which was pretty funny. We have both told each other that we don't really like touching feet, but after pulling off our shoes I gave her an awesome foot massage that she really enjoyed! I figured what the hell since she's caused me to realize that there are so many things that can and should be enjoyed that I dislike so why not give it a try?

We also took a long time looking at the new set of pictures and talking about her new letter a little bit. She admitted that almost he entire roll came out awesome and she took about six more that I had saved for her to get when she came up. She showed me how she has cut the other six to fit in her wallet and it actually looks pretty good. She said that she was sitting next to this old guy on the trip up and she showed him all of the pictures of us. It was pretty cute. The neighbors wandered over every once in a while and Leigh Anne introduced herself to Shar¡. They wandered over periodically all weekend which accounted for some rather weird events. The big one came over once while I was standing in the bathroom and Shar¡ was in the kitchen. Shar¡ yelled for her to come in and she just stuck her head through the door and asked me what high school I went to. I told her and she was gone as quick as she had appeared. I kept a completely normal face like that was a normal event and went back into the bathroom.

It had been at least two hours since the guys had left and we had only taken off our shoes. I laughed to myself about how disappointed Chris would be if we were still dressed and sitting in the same place when they had left us alone to ourselves so generously. But that wasn't meant to be. We were both kind of tired and cold so we went into the bedroom and she hopped up into my bed and got under the covers. I kind of just stood there leaning my arms and head on the bed. I did that quite often over the weekend and she would always start laughing in disbelief that I am so tall that I can stand at a bunked bed and lean on it the way I was! I turned out the lights and shut he door before hopping up into the bed. She told me a story on the phone once last week about a camp she went to once and how she was terrified of sleeping on the top bunk. Thus she got the wall. She kept half-joking that we were going to fall off of that little bed but I knew that I wouldn't because I have a really good sense of balance, even asleep.

We started kissing and started caressing each other. We started to undress each other and were holding each other tight. It feels so good to feel her skin to skin and to hug affectionately the way we do.

[Big Snip!]

She told me that she's really glad that we met in a very truthful voice. I ended up by the wall and asked her if she wanted to switch even though we had just arranged the covers. She thought about it for a few seconds and then said a definite yes and we did. It was cute. We slept really good all night. I remember waking up once to see Chris asking me if I wanted him to sleep in the other room or not. I was still half asleep and didn't really know what he was saying so I said yes and effectively sent him away. I woke up at eight and she would wake up every twenty minutes and would fall asleep after we would talk for a few. She was laying on me once and told me that I look really cute in the morning. She took a picture of me laying there when she got up to pee and I took one of her running around in a sheet.

We got up towards eleven and I cooked her French toast for breakfast. It came out rather well thankfully. We took a walk downstairs in our pajamas so that she could smoke which was cool because anybody that saw us knew that we screwed because we looked fresh out of bed. We got back in the elevator with a girl and her mom and dad which was kind of funny. It's stereotypical college and probably filled there minds with doubts about the whole idea.

We then took our first shower together which was cool. She likes the water boiling hot!!! which kind of sucks but I got more than used to it by this morning. I stayed in after she got out and cooled down for a few minutes. We then got ready to go out for a while. We planned on going to McDonalds for lunch and just walking around on campus. She was fooled by the cold air in the room and put on too many clothes. We made it as far as the pool before coming back so Shar¡ could put on her bikini top. She had accidentally pulled the cord out of one of the cups and asked if I could get it back in. I used a pen and rethreaded it. I felt great to be useful and I was really glad that I was able to fix it for her. Ed's parents showed up while she was getting ready and I introduced them all. I know they looked down on her because she looked trampy and I just laughed to myself. I wanted to head out before they asked me to help them put the bar together. Shar¡ did tell Ed's mom all excitedly about the roses and showed them to her. That made me feel really good. We then left and first walked to Eckerds so she could get a hair tie and a lighter. This is the first time she has ever worn her hair up and liked it because the tie was bigger and matched her bathing suit. It was cool because Cindy Bush was walking around in Eckerds and had to have see me with Shar¡.

We then went to eat and each had a hamburger, fries, and a drink. Shar¡ asked how their banana milkshakes taste and they actually gave us a kid size sample. It tasted like melted banana pudding pops like the ones I ate in the hospital back when I had surgery. It was pretty nasty. We talked and joked around quite a bit with each other before finally heading out. We decide to walk down University Avenue to check out all of the stores and all of the stuff going on because it was a game day. She has been looking for a pair of sunglasses forever and said that she brought money and was determined to buy a pair up here. She had looked at Busch Gardens and I found something wrong with all of them. We looked in all of the shops and finally found a good pair in one of the bookstores. She wanted to walk back and get money and I decided that we'd come back right before going to the football game.

We kept looking in all of the stores and kept seeing people wearing these cool little facial stickers that were either Gators or said Gators. They were pretty cool and we looked until we found some. After a while we headed home and hung out for a while until Ed and his parents finally left to go get groceries. His mom asked if I wanted anything and I remember Shar¡ asking me if I had any deli meat. I asked her what she wanted and asked them for a pound of ham. Once everybody was gone we made out for a little bit and then put our stickers on. You have to use a damp cloth and hold it there for a while to get the thing off of the paper and onto your face. She applied one to my cheek first and then I did one on her. I told her it would look cool if there was one right between her boobs on the line her bikini makes. I pulled the fronts apart a little and applied one there.

They had been giving out these round orange stickers about two inches across out in front of the bookstores that said Gators and advertised their store. We put one on each tit like they were bright orange nipples. It was pretty funny but she didn't want to wear it out in public. We did take pictures of each other, though. We headed back out to the stores a while later and bought her glasses. We then walked to Burger King and ordered a chicken sandwich and a couple of chocolate milkshakes. We split the sandwich which was really good and talked about all of the people that were walking by. I was glad to see her getting in the spirit of the game by wearing the stickers and all. We headed over towards the beginning of the game and headed in. Ed and Roswitha had gotten our tickets in a block and Chris had shown up with one the night before. I used it to get Shar¡ through the main gate and then we just snuck past the usher and sat in seats next to each other. The others showed up soon afterwards and we watched the game.

It was pretty cool but exceedingly long and we left at the end of the third quarter with the score being 44 to 6 in our favor. Shar¡ and I walked behind everybody else and talked and hung on each other. When we got back to the room we ate and tried to figure out what to do for the night. I kind of wanted to be trapped in the room with Shar¡ all night and hoed they'd decide to do something stupid. One of the idiots mentioned Monopoly and Shar¡ joked that we should play Trivial Pursuit thinking back to that night at Wayne's apartment. Someone heard her and I offered my set to them figuring it would keep them busy and tire them out. We still kept on the notion that we'd either go to a party or dancing afterwards so Shar¡ and I slowly got ready.

While the others were in Jon and Ed's room we went and took a shower together. We listened to music on the radio the whole time off of a tape I had recorded just for the weekend. It had some dance stuff, rock, and reggae on it. We had been drinking beer while we were walking around and I carried mine downstairs in my bicycle water jug when she wanted to smoke. I wanted to just sit down for a while and talk to her but she kept running around. I know now that I should have said something. She went into the game room once and I went into mine and laid my arms and head down on my bed to rest. I was determined to wait until she came and got me. I heard when she came in the room and she then sat down on the chair. I almost lifted my head once but didn't. She finally through a lighter at me and laughed as she asked me what I was doing and said that she had been sitting there for five minutes just watching me.

When the time came around to go out once their game was over, Ed and Roswitha quickly split over to her house. Jon went to sleep and Chris was debating whether or not to go out. We sat there talking for a long ass time until he finally decided that since he was leaving for Jacksonville in the morning, he needed to go to sleep and headed off to Ed's bed. I was almost in the mood to go to a party by then but oh well. We peeled our shoes back off and I rubbed her feet a little. She then went and climbed in bed and asked for a plate of French fries. I joked to myself that we have to get our energy from something before sex, so why not let it be fries again? I went back out and started a batch and then came back in the room and talked to her while they got ready. We ate them and drank Pepsi up in my bed. I was already stripped down to just my Gator boxers which I really like now.

After we finished I killed the lights, turned on the fan, and climbed in bed. Chris was still up reading a book in the other room but he had already gotten his pillow and all which is cool. I massaged her back for a long while rubbing the tips of my fingers ever so lightly over every exposed inch of her back and shoulders. I try to imagine how I would enjoy the massage myself and in turn do that to her. I also like to slide my finger along the upper line of her shorts and where her skin touches me or the bed. It feels really good to her. She always wants me to do it more and I am more than happy to. She told me once to think of all the times I'll have to rub her back when we're living together and I corrected her saying how many times I'll GET to rub her back.

I also love how easy it is to get her out of her clothes. She knows how to move perfectly to make it really easy to get them off even when she's under you. She then told me to do her stomach and I massaged from there up around and onto her tits, down her arms, and along her shoulders and neck. I also have a massage where I'll move so lightly that it tickles over a small region and then I'll press my entire hand over the area to calm it down, I then keep continuing all over in a flowing fucking motion with my hand. That had to have felt good. We started making out and rubbing our hands all over each other.

[Big Snip!]

She looked at me and whispered, `That was awesome!' with this just-fucked smile on her face. That meant a lot. She wanted to take a cigarette break even though it was after three in the morning so we put on some clothes and headed downstairs. I only wore my boxers and there would have been no guessing to what we were doing. It was pretty bright in the hallways after coming out of the dark. Shar¡ smoked two cigarettes straight and we laughed about that. We worked our way back upstairs and had some Pepsi before going to bed.

I woke up earlier than she did and decided to go take a shower and brush my teeth before she woke up. When I came back she rolled over to see me about ready to hop into bed. She asked me what I was doing down there and I surprised her when I said that I had been out of bed for half an hour. She said that she didn't even feel me get out. I had been extra careful that she didn't. She really likes to lay on my bare chest with her face and just enjoy me while she's waking up. She got up once when we heard Chris and Jon in the other room to pee. She came back and we started making out and got to the point where we were completely undressed except for her pajama shorts. She kept asking if I was going to get up and make her breakfast and let her take a shower when we would stop for a few seconds and I really didn't want to start screwing if she wanted to get up soon.

It was already lunchtime and I showed her the big tray of fettucini in the freezer so I made that along with ham sandwiches and French fries. It came out really good and she memorized the box so she could get it at home. That was a really cool meal. We decided to go play pool downstairs soon afterwards and she put on her convenient zipper outfit. While she was getting ready we were talking about images and she said that she knows people think she's a tramp because of the stuff she wears. She said she's not at all, it's just the way she dresses nd it's not fair. I told her that I was spared of that first impression when I met her because she was wearing what half of the girls wear to Busch Gardens and she agreed. She did say that a couple of girls had looked at her funnily because of her outfit. I did admit that my first attraction to her was physical just because of the situation we were in. We had only seen each other and I liked what I saw. There was nothing else at that time to base my opinion on until I did meet her and get to actually talk to her.

She looked really good as we went downstairs and ordered the pool equipment. I took my two new sticks and borrowed one of theirs to break with. It turns out that we are almost exactly matched as players which is really cool. I was so glad that after all summer of no playing, I was getting in some pretty damn good shots. So was she and we split the games evenly. We almost always ended up with the loser only having one or two balls left on the table. I really enjoyed playing with her.

When we started walking back upstairs we saw Ed and Roswitha sitting on a bench waiting for a pizza. I asked to borrow Ed's old bike because she wanted to go to Lake Alice via bicycle. He said yes and we went upstairs so that she could change her clothes. She put on her bike shorts and T-shirt that she had worn up on the bus. While she was getting ready I pulled out my award book and let her look at it for a second. After she had looked at the first one I moved to pull it away just in case it didn't interest her but it did and she wanted to read every one. She told me that she has a lot of awards from little school and said that she did really well when she actually went. She was really surprised to find out that I went to Potter because she did, too. I think if she would have actually been motivated in school she is smart enough that she could have kicked ass all over the place. She is really logic smart and it all pertains to the real world in her case which is probably why I enjoy talking with her so much.

I let her use my bike just in case Ed's were to fall apart. We rode down to the park and then along the boardwalks for a while. We then rode to the grassy edge of the lake and found a secluded spot under some trees to lay out a towel and just relax by the edge of the. She laid perpendicular to me and put her head against my legs. It was really peaceful and she said that she really likes it in Gainesville but only as a place to visit, not to live, and I fully agree.

She asked me once if when I read a letter from her, do I actually hear her voice as I read it. I told her to not say anymore and I pulled a flashback in my head to remember if I did or not when I got her letter on Friday. I realized that I do and told her so. She seemed really interested in that which was kind of funny. She finally said that we need to start heading back so before she gets so relaxed that she doesn't want to make the trip back. We did and took a quick look at Fraternity Row and stopped by the ATM in the Reitz Union. When we got back we looked through my photo album and at some of my yearbooks. She told me that her dad said that he likes me so much because I am rally smart and have goals yet I don't act all stuck up like I don't want to associate with normal people. I then showed Shar¡ some of my signatures in my yearbook like the one from Andrea where she called me a cocky asshole. It was kind of funny.

She really wanted to read my little planner because she knows that I write down the stuff that I do in it. I was reluctant to to do so but did show her a few weeks worth including the time she was in the hospital. I also showed her my computer journal. She told me that she used to write a journal on a computer that belonged to someone in Michael's family until they one day figured out her password and read it. She then found Chris' erotic porno cards on the table and was looking at them. She told me that she doesn't see what's so erotic about a chic sucking a guys dick and I said how unfortunate. When she got to the ones with two girls she got disgusted and made some cute noises to go along with it like the ones high school girls would make if you'd say something perverted. It was kind of cool to know that she isn't as sexual as she makes out to be.

We decided to walk to Burger King for dinner even though it was after dark. Ed, Roswitha, and Jon had all been in the room and Ed brought up this thing he had read about chocolate having the same endomorphines that your body produces when you have sex. That led to a really interesting conversation for Shar¡ and I. We had this coupon to get a free chicken sandwich with a whopper and I then ordered a drink and fries and a CHOCOLATE shake for her. the guy taking our order sounded like he was stoned and the other fat black guy had a Jamaican woman's voice. The whole place seemed nutty and I wondered if we had somehow gotten stoned.

We had a really good dinner. We talked about abortion again and she told me that she could never have an abortion. She also said that she would never put a kid up for adoption either because you become attached when carrying a baby around for nine months. She asked me if I saw.. and I knew instantly what she was talking about and interrupted her about the teenage guy trying to get his baby back from a family in Tampa after his girlfriend put it up for adoption. Shar¡ thought it was cool that I knew what she was talking about. She also said that it pisses her off that some girls use abortion as a means of contraception and so forth. We then started talking about her being pissed off. We have never had an argument and she told me that she hopes I never have to see her truly pissed off because she gets violent and starts throwing things. She said that she had to learn to defend herself with Michael after he gave her a black eye when she was six months pregnant with Cord!

We (actually I) have been creating a little fantasy world all weekend where we would escape to. It consists of a little hut out in Jamaica modeled after Kimmeth and my dreams. We have Shar¡'s jeep to go driving through the mountains and the three of us are all there with our awesome tans and so forth. I'd add something to the scene every time one of us would bring up a dream about the future. After she was talking about being pissed I told her that we'd have to dig a big hole out next to her jeep and fill it full of pillows and beach balls and soft stuff of the sort for her to throw tantrums in when she gets pissed. I then said that we'd call it the Nut Pit and we both started laughing really hard. It was pretty funny. She was also talking about guys in general and said that 95% of them are uncaring and are just out for sex and so on. I then fought back saying that 95% of women believe that falsity and it really hurts those of us that are genuinely nice!!! It worked out pretty coolly.

I then just stared at her once and when she asked me what I was thinking I told her that I enjoy watching her drink her sex! We then were making all kinds of perverted little jokes about liquid sex and all. I then brought up Jon's and my talk about fantasies and told her my main ones. I told her about the classroom one in GPA as we walked by hoping she's say let's go. After last night's talk I'd say let's go next time. I mentioned the beach and then we were talking about having sex in a nice warm rainstorm. I confronted her with the problem that the girl might start choking as the rain went up her nose and she started laughing really hard. It was pretty funny. She was still carrying her milkshake and when she finally finished, I asked her if she wanted to cuddle. We were almost outside of Beaty and she asked why? and I told her that she just finished having sex!!!

When we got home we went and took a shower pretty soon afterwards. We slicked up and held each other tight. It felt pretty good. She got out first so that I could cool down for a few minutes. When I came into the room she was in bed wearing her baseball pajama top and her leopard thong underwear. I put on my boxers and hopped into bed. She joked that she wanted French fries but I quickly curbed her desire. We kissed and then she asked if I'd rub her back. I intended on a full body massage this time and pulled off her shirt and underwear. I pulled the soft tickle over her entire back half. I worked down over her butt and legs which she had bent at the knees towards me to make the reach easier. I traced ever crease in her skin including the one between her butt and back thigh right down between her legs. That's the really sensitive one especially on the front.

After going over her twice, I rolled her over and went to work on the front. She was extremely relaxed and turned on at the same time as I then moved up to her face and touched and tickled the whole thing. As I pulled my fingers away ever so slightly moving them in a slight circle almost to signify and end to the `massage' I leant over with her eyes still closed and kissed her softly. We then took each other in our arms and started kissing very passionately.

[Snip]

This time I was determined to get at least part of a massage and she obliged. She did make fun of my whit butt as I was lying there because it `glowed' so brightly even in the night. She had me roll over and after massaging my front she ended up with my dick in her hand and was kissing my nipples and licking them the same way I had done her just a little while earlier. She then came back up and started kissing me. She stopped after a bit and looked at me and I told her that she didn't have to stop. She asked if I wanted her to keep on what she was doing or to carry it further. I told her to carry it further and if she runs out of ideas she can always draw a card. It took her a second but then she started laughing. She then got a little serious and said that she draws the line at sucking a guy's dick and wanted to set that straight. It was cute although once again I'll be deprived of one of the few things I've never had done to me.

She then got on top again and I asked her if she wanted to be and she said yes. We then had the best sex of the weekend and the best sex of my life!!!

[Snip!]

I told her once that I never knew that slow sex could be so good and she really liked that. When we finished almost two hours later!!! We just lay there holding each other tight and then started talking. I asked her if I was better than the milkshake and she said definitely. We then were trying to pull stuff out of each other's heads. She then asked me if I have trouble expressing my emotions. I admitted that I am still a little shy for she had ready my gifted psychological report from 5th grade in my yearbook. Not only did Linda Horowitz say that I have very pretty eyes and long eyelashes but also that I am shy and have trouble answering questions if I am unsure of my response. I thought it would possibly be beneficial to let Shar¡ see that.

We then started talking about sex. She asked me if I talk about sex easier than my feelings and I said that we'd have to find out. I just opened up and we both essentially spilt our guts. She told me about liking to have sex for up to four hours at a time and likes to take it slow. She asked me how long I can go and asked if I should rest for say half an hour and then get back into it. I asked what time it was and then said yes I could because it had been half an hour! I said that I'd be more than willing to accommodate her lengthy desires as long as she wants to take it upon herself to take the top for a majority of the time.

She asked me how many girls I've slept with and I said two. She asked if she was the third and a million thought raced through my head during that instance. Should I tell her yes so that she won't think i'm too unexperienced or tell her the truth so I won't have to lie to her for the rest of my life? That answered my question and I said no, that she was my second. She really seemed to like that fact! I told her that I could tell her when as well and she wanted to know. I said December 28, 1993 and she exclaimed (and reminded me) that it's been nine months!!! I told her that relationship ended when her boyfriend found out and she really started laughing about that. She told me that she has been with four or five guys which was happily low on my pessimistic expectation scale. She told me that she's sorry to bring him up but she never really enjoyed having sex with Michael because he would put it in, satisfy himself, and then be about his merry business. She said that she refused to have sex with him at all the third time he came back. She told me that she really enjoys having sex and needs the affection.

She then asked me if I'm daring. I told her that I'd take her out in the pit right now and have sex with her. She was taken back a little and said that she guesses I am and then we started talking about sexual positions. She asked me what all I've tried. I said at the beach, on a park bench, on top underneath, and sitting up. She kind of got embarrassed to ask this but I made her spit it out: she asked me if I ever wanted to try it doggy style and I said yes. She told me both ways to do it, one with the girl on all fours and the other with her standing against the wall. We agreed to try it. I said that it sucks that we won't have a chance this time to try my GPA fantasy to which she said that I should have said something earlier and that there will be a next time! She then told me about all of the places she's had sex from a boat to an elevator to the table, sink, beach, shower, pool, and more. It doesn't bother me because hopefully this was mainly with Michael, her husband. We said that we'll have to start trying things.

She then asked me If I have a certain time of the day when I like sex. I laughed and told her that since I haven't been married I haven't had the opportunities to have sex around the clock. She liked that and we essentially said that we'd have to change that. She did say that she was trying to get me aroused this morning and I complained that I was but she kept saying she wanted to get up soon. She then told me that she puts sex before eating, sleeping, and almost anything else! We let it rest and I knew that I wouldn't let her get away in the morning without making love. I did admit to her that after sex I always get hungry. She kind of liked that and said that I could get something while she smoked so I had to go downstairs with her. She bought some Zingers and I got a Zero bar. She has never seen them before and as I pulled it out I told her that it's my prejudice candy bar because it's all white. It was pretty funny. We ate in my bed and then talked and cuddled a little more before going to sleep. I was wide awake and told her so but oh well.

I woke up early again and took a warm shower to defrost and to brush my teeth. I then slowly and gently woke her up. Once she had, she pulled off my shirt and laid on my warmth. I started rubbing her back with my hands and extending them down into her underwear. We finally started going and she was rather kissy all over my neck, chest, and mouth. I licked her all over and then went down on her. I then moved back up and started kissing her and before long I was in her. I didn't last very long but never let her know the difference as I kept on going rather quickly inside her. We had no regards for anybody else in the other room at all. I slowed down for her for a little while until I got tired. I then slowed down and started kissing her. I eventually stopped and we smiled and looked at each other. I then told her that it's half time, we have to switch courts!!! and she started cracking up. It was really funny and she was more than happy to hop up on top! We then kept going for quite a while until we finally just held each other for our cool off period. She whispered, `I love you!!!' to me very softly and I said it back to her instantly! That was awesome! I though I had heard her say it once towards my ear last night but I wasn't sure. She also called me sexy to my face while we were lying there.

We eventually got up and I cooked her a French toast breakfast while she ran downstairs to smoke a cigarette. She fed me a few bites of her food but I ate the leftover fettucini mainly. We were kind of worried about finding her a ride to the bus station by 2:30 and I was ready to call a cab. I did tell her that Ed didn't have his bookbag and would start feeling guilty after a while and should walk in. A few minutes later he did and said that he would drive us over. I was pretty happy. We then went and laid down in bed with her on top of me for quite a while just holding each other tightly and kissing. it was our physical way of saying goodbye. We then got up and took our last shower together for the weekend even though I just had one a little while earlier. She used a washcloth and washed me down with soap and I insisted that we hold each other all slimy. I thought it felt rather interesting and didn't want to let go.

We started kissing and moved into the stream of water to rinse off. She then pulled both of our heads under the water. it didn't bother me at all and I kept kissing her just as good as before but she started laughing saying that it felt weird. We then kept going for a little bit longer before getting out. I just realized that I almost forgot her best kiss! The other night she just came out with her tongue and pointed it, licking my lips and my teeth and my tongue as well. It felt awesome, almost like what she should be doing if she were giving a blow job. I told her that I really liked it when she first did it and we keep doing it all of the time now. We'll even run our tongues all over each others without our lips touching at all. It's pretty cool.

I also told her once on the phone last week that I miss her kiss. It did sound kind of corny and I didn't know how she took it after she didn't say anything about it. She was kissing me in bed once and she popped out with, `I'll miss your kiss, too!' which meant that she had listened and remembered and thought about what I had said! I liked that. We then quickly packed her stuff and met Ed downstairs. I had him leave us at the bus station and thanked him telling him that I'd walk home but if I didn't make it by seven to call the cops! Shar¡ said the same thing at the same time and we laughed. She was all excited that her roses lived as well as they did because she really wanted to take them home and show them off. That's really cool, too. We sat on a bench outside at the station and talked and kissed for our last half hour and she told me again how much she really wishes I was coming home now with her. When the bus came she boarded and I headed home.

I had a while to think on the way home. One of the best things about our relationship is our compatibility. We get along perfectly, we play pool the same, we have plenty of the same tastes, and from what I've seen, heard, and felt - we get along very well sexually. We have the potential for an awesome relationship that I hope will continue to grow to ultimate proportions.

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