Shar¡ called me last night at 12:15 for half hour. She had been sleeping since seven and had just waken up and wanted to talk to me. She told me that her mom was telling her if she ever wanted to get Cord off of her shoulders for a while that she or her Aunt Carol would take him. Shar¡ knows her mom is trying to take him away from her, and I told her that she better not ever let her mom do that. She said that she definitely won't, and said that Cord is the one reason that she is still living. After a pause she added that I'm the second... but that kind of sounded fake. She also told me that her mom planned on just coming over and getting Cord so Shar¡'s grandfather could see him. She told her no and complained that neither of them ever care or cared how she feels about stuff like that and she told me that now I can see why she did what she did. I told her not really, but I understand and she laughed a little. I really wanted to and plan on telling her about my suicidal tendencies when I was younger. My reasoning was far stupider than hers but is the reason I accepted what she did so easily without any real anger at her. We were both in a serious and tired mood but I was glad to hear from her. She told me a little about her weekend as did I. I did wish her happy two months which was kind of cute.
I went to class with Ashley this morning and we were being very comforting to each other all morning. Today would have been (is?) her and Daniel's two year anniversary!!! They've had a couple of on and off times but still. She said that she wrote him a very `effective' letter and will let me read it. She read Shar¡'s new letter and I was just kind of contemplating things in class. She asked me what was wrong once and was trying to cheer me up with the little bit of cheer that she still had inside of her. She was pretty depressed about Daniel and all. I did actually tell her how it bothers me a little how Shar¡ and I don't really express our feelings on the phone at all and anyone who heard our conversation last night probably could have never guessed that we were going out. I thought to myself how amazingly easy it is to express my feelings to her and to talk to her and I hope that we will become really good friends. Ashley said that she understands and said it was the same way with Daniel. I also told her about Sarah, and mentioned Laura.
I ran into Eva on the way out of class and said hello but quickly and abruptly returned my attention to Ashley. She was going to an early chemistry lecture and asked if I'd walk with her and I said gladly. She was telling me how she burnt her fingers on a crucible in chemistry lab and I asked her if she wished she had somebody to kiss it and make it better! It was kind of mean and she splashed the last few drops of her tea on me. It was kind of funny though. She came across a girl she knows in front of class and I told her I was going to head back. For some reason she kept asking me to come to class with her but I really hoped she was joking. We did hold hands and kind of stretched until they finally fell apart. It was really cute and told each other that we'll be there for one another.
Today was Chris' twenty-first birthday. Happy Birthday!!! I bought him this perfect card that showed a rather attractive Greek looking girl with her arms raised behind her head. The only problems were the armpits full of hair. Inside it said, `Birthdays are the pits!' Everybody thought it was really funny and very appropriate, even Chris who loved it. We went and studied at eight for about three hours. Cecil showed up and we ended up taking Chris to Krystals for his birthday and bought twenty hamburgers. I ate eight of them back at the room. Along with Ed, we all ended up having a long and very sentimental and factual conversation about my situation with Shar¡.
She called at about 12:30 and we talked for quite a while. This time we were both very happy and had an awesome talk. We were quite wonderful to each other which was very good. She had gone to the dentist today and had this hole in her front tooth repaired and said it came out really good. I heard Buffy in the background laugh and say that she has been looking at it enough all day long. Shar¡ said that it just looks so different, and that she'll be able to smile now. I told her that sucked because even more guys will want her now and she denied it. She also said something about needing glasses! Ha! Ha! I told her that she should get contacts... brown ones. It took her a second and then she squealed no and asked if I don't like her eyes anymore. I told her that I love her eyes and then told her how I used to tell girls that I wanted brown contacts and they'd give me the same reaction about my eyes.
We said some really cool stuff to each other but I don't want to jinx it so I won't say anything... yet. We mentioned about our letters and she said that she hasn't written me back yet. I was hurt and told her that I've written her twice and she hasn't written me at all, I was just whining and I told her I had puppy eyes. She said that she'll write but she won't give it to me until the weekend if I come down. She asked me if I had read her last letter two or three times yet and I said of course. Last night when she called she had first apologized for calling so late and I told her not to worry about it because I was awake and reading. I told her tonight that she never asked me what I was reading. She did then and I told her it was her letter! I complained about something and wanted her pity. i said that I was depressed and she asked why. I joked that I am a manic depressive and we kind of laughed about that. It was weird. I was really glad she called and that we talked like we did, it really lifted my spirits.
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