I finally consented to having sex again with Leigh Anne but I made her do all of the work. I sat in a chair while she gave me a long blow job and sucked my balls into her mouth. She told me that she never used to like putting a guys penis in her mouth but for some reason she loves doing it to me! I still felt like shit for having such low willpower that I didn't dump her on her ass Sunday night like I so much wanted to. I then dreamt about Shar¡ and was restless all night long. It's so weird how I'll dream a conversation that I know is coming and how exactly my mind perceives what will happen. I then couldn't get Shar¡ out of my mind all day long, not that I wanted to though.
But Leigh Anne had promised that she would stay by my side through this whole deal because she loves me so much and would never walk out on me like she would have in the old days. She did tell me that throughout the night she kept wanting to kill Shar¡ for trying to screw up OUR lives. She even surprised me with a single wrapped rose! That was a really sweet and unexpected gesture. I then was being really nice to her after she got home from a little religion seminar and was hanging out with her in her room and talking with all of her roommates. I was especially talking to Michelle, for she has her Phi Eta Sigma inductions Wednesday night and I'd like to go with her, explaining that I might meet up with Greta again! Michelle said that Leigh Anne would probably come with us if I went, though. We also looked at yearbooks and I was picking out attractive girls from Leigh Anne's senior class, and letting her tell me if my taste was good or bad.
Cecil then knocked on the door since nobody was in my room and I went home with him to tell him all about my weekend and about Shar¡. There was even a message that Sarah from Tampa had called!!! We had played phone tag all weekend and still haven't gotten a hold of one another. After Cecil and I had talked for a while, Leigh Anne called me and bitched about when I was coming back and why I had left her for so long. I told her in a few minutes. Ashley then called and was all excited about a dance that Laura and Jana had made up so Cecil and I headed down to their room. We all talked and had a merry time for about an hour. We were all being really silly and I was trying to hit on Laura a bit. Ashley really seemed to be hanging all over me and some pretty raunchy jokes were exchanged. It was a lot of fun. We even all inspected a bottle of tequila but nobody was willing to drink any of it. It had been Jamee's when he came down for Gator Growl.
Jana and Laura were in their pajamas and were kind of embarrassed about doing their dance in front of a stranger, but we eventually convinced them to. It was a really funny portrayal of The Twelve Days of Christmas. They were proud about wiggling their tongues outside of their mouths as they walked around like birds (French hens!). It was really funny and Ashley was standing on the fouton behind me hiding her head on my shoulder because we were laughing so hard. It was great, but Cecil kind of thinks they're strange. Ashley and I decided to get up at seven thirty this morning and go park her car out in the garage and then find out our biology exam scores. We said goodbye and then headed back upstairs where Cecil and I talked for a while more.
Leigh Anne stopped by and seemed pissed since I had been gone for an hour and a half when I said I'd be right over and said we needed to talk. Cecil offered to go apologize to her and say that it was his fault but I told him not to, and he soon took off to go study. Leigh Anne then came over and bitched at me. I told her that I hadn't planned on being long and she asked why I didn't call. I said I don't know her phone number and didn't really find it that important! I had warned her the night before not to fuck with me so soon after my talk with Shar¡, but she did anyway. So I dumped her. I tried to hurt her as hard as I could without making it look like I ever did anything wrong! I told Chris what all was said afterwards, because he was on the phone with Marty, and he was shocked at how mean I was and said that he has never even come close to being as harsh as I was to that girl, but if I was going to do it to somebody, she's was the best one for it.
I thought it was cool because I have never dumped anyone before, I have always been the dumpee, so I was out to destroy her. It was also really sudden for her.... ha ha!!! She also really pissed me off by saying that she is hurt that I run around bragging to everybody about getting Shar¡ pregnant like I am proud of it. I quickly made her feel lie shit when I told her only she, Cecil, Chris, and Ashley even know. She was surprised that I hadn't even told Jon. I bitched her out that I wasn't going to stop my friendships for her or anyone. She also said once that she doesn't understand because she gave me everything emotionally and physically that she could, and even would have raised the little shithead with me, saying she has to love it because it's part me. Well that pissed me off and I told her that she just ended any hope of us ever getting back together by saying that.
She cried the whole time and kept trying to hold me but I pushed her away. She was playing with a little noisemaker and I knew she'd eventually throw it at me, so I was ready when she did. She then tried to start hitting and scratching me so I threw her down into a chair pretty forcefully and then left her there by herself. She later decided that she wasn't going to give up this easily and wasn't going to leave me because she knows I really need her to be with me right now. She then climbed into my bed. I then pulled out the big guns and told her that I still love Shar¡ and would go back to her in a heartbeat even I she's not pregnant. That worked marvelously!!!!! Chris told me later that she came crying to him out in the stairway where he was on the phone and wanted to talk to him.
She eventually opened our door again and wanted to talk. I agreed but pointed out the door as she tried to walk in and made her talk out in the hallway. I told her there are no more chances for us and kind of let her think it was her fault for sparking me off by bitching. She was then saying that she'd forgive me if only I wouldn't give up on us, because this is the best thing that's happened to her in a long time and so on. She slowly was moving toward me to try and kiss me and get me back so I hurt her again and as she rolled against the wall, crying, I grabbed her blanket and pillows from inside the room and dropped them at her feet. I then walked back into my room for good!!! I was so proud of myself!!! I finally stuck up for myself. I want to tell Shar¡ that I dumped the girl I was dating and stopped having sex as soon as she scared me on my birthday... and now I can.
I then let Jon in on the whole weekend and later talked to Chris about it. Now I might just play confessor to Ashley and Laura by saying that I've made mistakes and want to make my life good again and so on. I might still be able to make amends and get Laura yet!!! It also felt so awesome to sleep alone again, spread out across my bed. It used to feel so good sleeping with Shar¡, but I compared Leigh Anne to having to share a bed with Ed to Chris earlier today and we laughed.
I did run out with Ashley early this morning and we stopped for our grades. I pulled out an awesome 164 out of 200!!! That pulled my compiled scores to higher than Ashley's and rather high compared to the majority of the class. I saved my ass!!!
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I had just finished dinner a little while ago as Jeopardy ended and was washing the dishes I had used when the phone rang. I was afraid it might be Leigh Anne again so I planned on making it quick. To my surprise, it was Sarah!!! I instantly recognized her voice and we started catching up on things right away. She was sorry that she didn't get to talk to me at home but she was in Ocala over the weekend. Just the fact that she was talking to me long distance proved to me she cares. Well, we ended up having an awesome talk and she seems to think about me so much more than I would have thought.
I told her about my weekend including my little illegal ID deal at Busch Gardens, and the story of my trip up to Gainesville for the football game. She was really impressed that I had front row tickets. I told her about my birthday being Wednesday and she said that she was sorry and hoped it was a good one. I told her not to be sorry because I really didn't tell her and she agreed that I did only say so once. Her birthday is July 29th, a day after Chrissy's. She asked me when I am coming home next and I told her the 17th. She said that is the same day she gets out of school and that we'll definitely have to see each other this time around. She got a job at Busch Gardens as well through school and put in for operations but doesn't know what she's got yet. That'll be really cool if we work together over the break.
She then told me that I'll have a letter waiting for me when I get home for Christmas. I asked how, and she said that her mother ran my phone number through the police department's computer and got my address!!! She also tried to do it for my address up here in Gainesville, but it doesn't work out of county. We talked about our ages for a few minutes and I let her know that I think the difference between ours is really minimal. I told her how much older she looked the last time I saw her,a nd she excitedly told me that she looks a lot different now! I was afraid for a second that she was going to say she cut it, or colored it, but she quickly told me that it's getting long and straight. I told her that's really good and she wants to send me pictures and was going to mail them with my letter. I gave her my address up here and told her to still mail the letter home, but mail the pictures up here.
Well, she said she'll put some awesome pictures of her in the mail tomorrow morning before school so I'll get them by the end of the week. I told her I'll pin them up and show them off to everybody to make all of the girls up here jealous and she liked that. I then told her how I had been dating this girl and how I dumped her just last night. She remembers meeting the neighbors and wanted to know which one. She even remembers Ed as being the guy that lives with his girlfriend and rides a bike. I was very impressed and told her so. Well, I explained that I know I don't want to spend my life with this girl and instead of wasting both her and my time, I got rid of her. I told her how harsh I was, and also how it was the first time I've ever done the dumping. I then joked that I shouldn't be telling her this (because I'd hate for her to think I'm this way if we ever go out) and she got the idea and we laughed.
We also talked about school and what she wants to do after high school and how our classes and stuff are right now. I asked her about volleyball and she said they kicked ass this season, losing only two games, but she stopped running cross country. We also asked each other where we live, and she lives in North Tampa pretty close to USF off of Bruce B. Downs Ave. We talked about her little visit up here before and she apologized again for acting the way she did when she was here.
I then regressed further as we talked about the day we first met. She said that she really looked like crap that day, and I said that she actually looked pretty cute. I was saying how I was standing out in front of the Python in the rain when I met her, and I remember her in a white shirt. It was funny. I then told her how funny it is that the last time I saw her was only the second time we had ever seen each other, but we talk on the phone like we've known each other forever. It's really cool yet pretty weird and she fully agrees. She told me how she herself had been dating some guy from the Navy recently who started getting way too possessive who wanted to marry her. She said that she tore at his heart and she ruthlessly dumped him and I see it really good that we have told each other and both made it clear that we are single now!!!
She is going on a trip to Europe over the summer and I suddenly complained that I won't get to see her and how Tampa just won't be the same. I justified myself that it's fun to kiss ass and that was funny. She then relieved me by saying it will only be for nineteen days and then I'll have her back!!! Hurrah!!! Her mom came in the room and Sarah told her that it was me and her mom said hello to me!!! That was pretty cool, too! She also complained that she has a pretty big phone bill, and a lot of it is from that sailor guy. We agreed that it sucks to have to pay for a phone bill once you know a relationship is over for good. She also was asking me if I know for sure that Leigh Anne and I won't be getting back together and I said that is definite! I liked the concern she showed!!!
After I had given her my address up here earlier, I said, "All right...," like it might be time to go and she told me that I'm not going to leave her yet! that was cool as she told me that she still wants to talk to me for a while. I told her that she shouldn't talk to me for so long if she is broke and worried about her phone bill and she quickly told me that it's very OK, especially when it's me she's talking to!!! She then said she's sorry and I asked why!, and said that we're actually complimenting each other and then apologizing for it. We laughed a lot and she said that sometimes people just don't like such compliments. Hell yes I do!!! She was thinking about when she was going to call me back again, and I told her that I will call her and she was kind of surprised and really happy to hear me say so. I think this can definitely be good! I just must be dead careful not to get her pregnant because of age...
When I got off the phone, Chris had gotten all excited that I was talking to Sarah, for he remembered her as the gorgeous sixteen year old. Jon was there and Cecil started giving me all kinds of compliments about how I have all of the girls nowadays and have become the big stud. He said he idolizes me and wanted to kiss my hand after bowing to me. He was being completely serious about what he was saying though. It really is quite impressive, I guess, and I am glad to have all of the attention. Poor Dave.
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