Be young, have fun, drink Pepsi. Reminds me of Shar¡. They had an awesome commercial during halftime of today's Superbowl XXVIII between Dallas and Buffalo. It showed a big dark research lab where two chimpanzees were given Pepsi and Coke respectively. They then said after months the monkey drinking Coke showed considerable advancements and showed him hitting colored pegs through a board with a rubber mallet. For the Pepsi drinking monkey, he couldn't be found and they showed an empty pen with smashed Pepsi cans. They suddenly cut to the Pepsi chimpanzee driving a big jeep on a beach with a load full of gorgeous bikini clad women! It was awesome. they completely made it look like a Coke commercial to begin with but I had already caught on and was hoping it would be something like that. It had to be the best commercial in the game.
I watched the game with Leigh Anne, Ed, Roswitha, and occasionally Jon. Only Leigh Anne and I wanted Dallas to win and my only reason is because I always root against the Bills. Well, the week started off good with an exciting thirty to thirteen win by the Cowboys! The halftime show was even country for one of the most publicized events of the year! That was cool, too.
Well, I just had sex with Leigh Anne for the second time today and then sent her on her merry way home. I wore a condom and thus got to come inside her for a change.
Saturday was her birthday and I pulled a very effective job of avoiding her almost entirely. We got in a fight on Friday so when my dad called Friday night and said they were coming up the next day, I completely urged them on. I was actually getting ready to call them just a few minutes after five but they did first. I never thought they'd come on a Saturday and was glad for the surprise. I also didn't introduce Leigh Anne to them and that rightfully pissed her off but I don't care. Why embarrass myself?
I woke up at ten Saturday and regretted waking up so late because I wanted to shower and all before my family got here. I knew that as soon as I got in the bathroom they would be here but nature called. Sure enough the phone rang and I had to hurry and go get them, passing that shower by. We talked for a little while and I gave Chrissy and Cathy the presents I had gotten for them at Target. They both really liked them. Cathy kept wanting really bad to go get her Barbie out of the car to put the new clothes I got her on it. They also really liked the clearance Christmas candy I got them. Everybody, even Father, wanted a hollow chocolate Santa Claus. Karen was also in the room and when she first walked in Chrissy asked quietly whose girlfriend that is because she is white. It was funny.
We then headed downstairs to play pool for s little while. We also checked out the table tennis stuff. Mother and Cathy found the piano and Mother remarked at how good it is, all in tune. Cathleen has gotten really good and can surprisingly play some songs pretty well. I was impressed. She also was playing table tennis with my parents when Chrissy and I would play pool. I was teaching Chrissy a few pool tricks that actually worked and she was grateful for. I unfortunately didn't take chalk down with me and that sucked. We then headed upstairs and I shared my leftovers with them for lunch. I made two servings of Spanish rice last night and gave everybody some to try and also cooked some pasta for Cathy. I had some black cherry ice cream Jello left that they ate some of as well.
It was dry Friday afternoon after sixth period and it started pouring and almost flooded the streets during the following hour. I had another class ninth period so I just went to Burger King for lunch instead of going home and getting all soaking wet. It hasn't really stopped raining since and it's late Sunday night right now! After lunch we headed to lake Wauburg which is run by the university and is about eight miles south. You can check out free canoes, sailboats, and paddle boats. Despite the rain, we checked out a canoe and Chrissy, Father, and I all headed out. I hadn't realized three people could go at once and that worked out well. Mother and Cathy stayed on the beach and enjoyed themselves. After we quickly gained our balance, we circled half of the entire lake's edge looking at the nature, especially for animals.
It started pouring once and we stopped under a tree for a while but soon headed on. It was really beautiful and I loved the feel of the rain sprinkling on my face and the swampy look it gave the area. The whole place really reminded me of Georgia. Once we had made it to the far side, we started hauling ass straight across the lake to the boat docks. It was lots of fun and we all had a pretty good time.
We then headed to Target and shopped for quite a while. The store's electricity went out once because of the storm. We then bought groceries and food for dinner back at the room.
I stayed up from twelve - 3:30 to 5 talking to Delisa and Aimee and we all three had an awesome time doing so!!!
Sunday, January 30, 1994
Sunday, January 23, 1994
January 23, 1994 - Sunday - Toilet paper collection
I actually had a pretty fun day yesterday running around with Leigh Anne. I called her in the morning to wake her up so we could start getting ready to do our little activities for the day. I knew it would take her forever so I could some lunch and after an hour I called her to check on her progress. She claimed that she was taking care of a personal problem but she is trying to hurry. I wasn't really worried about it and knew she would pull something like this anyway. She finally came over and got pissed that I had cooked and said that she was going to leave without me and I could meet her there. I just told myself that if she did, I'd go play frisbee with Ed. When I was finished eating me food, not rushed in the least, we headed out with Ed who was going to study. As soon as we parted from him I bitched at her for having no right for getting mad at me eating, of ALL things, when it took her an extra twenty minutes the night before to find a specific pair of shoes when four people were waiting on her.
We went to the museum of natural history just of the street from our dorm because they were doing a special collectors exhibition of their wares. It was really interesting plus she got to see the museum for the very first time. They have an awesome huge Aztec adobe recreated inside plus a very realistic and big cavern. Some of the more interesting collections included marbles, barbed wire from all over the world, collector spoons, and so on. Someone even had My Little Ponies and Chrissy and Cathy would have loved that. My favorite was the toilet paper collection. There was an article on him in the Gainesville Sun that I stole from Michelle as well. He was in the military and collected toilet paper samples form all over the world and you'd be amazed and the variety of colors and textures. Berlin's was really coarse and nasty while some of Great Britain's was like waxed paper. It was neat because he had each sample identified as to which inn or place where he had collected it from. I almost want to start my own beginning with "UF dorm paper: 1) before when it was soft and 2) now when it feels like sandpaper!"
We went to the museum of natural history just of the street from our dorm because they were doing a special collectors exhibition of their wares. It was really interesting plus she got to see the museum for the very first time. They have an awesome huge Aztec adobe recreated inside plus a very realistic and big cavern. Some of the more interesting collections included marbles, barbed wire from all over the world, collector spoons, and so on. Someone even had My Little Ponies and Chrissy and Cathy would have loved that. My favorite was the toilet paper collection. There was an article on him in the Gainesville Sun that I stole from Michelle as well. He was in the military and collected toilet paper samples form all over the world and you'd be amazed and the variety of colors and textures. Berlin's was really coarse and nasty while some of Great Britain's was like waxed paper. It was neat because he had each sample identified as to which inn or place where he had collected it from. I almost want to start my own beginning with "UF dorm paper: 1) before when it was soft and 2) now when it feels like sandpaper!"
Saturday, January 22, 1994
January 22, 1994 - Saturday - Mardi Gras Gator Style
I went to Mardi Gras Gator Style last night just to have a really good laugh at the dorm area governments' attempt to even begin to imitate one of the biggest sex parties in the United States. I also saw it as a good way to take Leigh Anne out and have some fun for free, since there was no admission and I later heard that the food was free as well. We then gathered up a group consisting of Aimee, Michelle, and Edward.
Everybody got ready in a decent amount of time except Leigh Anne. She was getting to the point where she was pissing both Ed and I off a lot. She started off by changing clothes a couple of times and then couldn't find this one pair of shoes and couldn't supplement one of the other fifty pairs she owns. It was getting kind of ridiculous. All I kept thinking was about how I am the type of person who likes to be on time, or better yet really early, and she is constantly taking forever to do things and I really hate that. That alone is almost enough reason for me to never go out with her again. The way I see it, if she doesn't care enough to keep our plans, then fuck her. I would have left her last night if she isn't as useful as she is in everyday life lately.
When we got to Mardi Gras it was funny how few people were there on the outside. It was freezing cold, however, because this crowd wasn't emitting the kind of heat the real Mardi Gras crowd does. They had a bunch of little game booths set up including, but not limited to (ha ha), toss a ring on a two liter bottle, football toss, a wedding booth, and face painting. They also had popcorn and cotton candy machines. We went inside where they had set up a fairly respectable dance floor with a decent sound system and a crappy disc jockey who went to high school with Leigh Anne and fucked up way too many times. Ed quickly saw the food line and we headed over there and were lucky enough to get one of the few tables to sit at.
I took one bite of the chili and almost burned my tongue off! It was really shitty, though, because all they did was take cheap chili and add a bunch of tabasco sauce to it. They had cookies and professionally made cake which was good. We ate and then headed upstairs to their so called casino. At the entrance they would draw a big permanent blue smile on your hand to signify that you've received your five hundred dollars worth of free poker chips and five free carnival tickets. that as awesome because I didn't realize this part would be free. It was a classier atmosphere upstairs with a snack buffet and a local "jazz" band. We walked around and looked at all of the betting tables which had blackjack, acey ducey, roulette with real roulette wheels!, and rooms where poker games were being played. Ed and I then took off to see what was up outside because it all seemed so much better since it was free!
Ed found the ring toss and thought since he was a good frisbee player that he could probably do it. He overshot almost every one of them and spent all of his tickets doing so. Retard. But hopefully he had fun which is all that matters. I, on the other hand, have always been really confidant that throwing bean bags at a pyramid of cans would be really easy. I used to see it all the time at Busch Gardens but never tried it. Each ticket got you two complete tries. There was suddenly a line of about five people and only one guy was good enough to knock all but two of the cans down once.
I stepped up and shifted the bean bag to contour it to my palm to get better aim. I knew that speed wasn't the goal, aim is. My first toss knocked down all but one of the cans!, and my second sent them all crashing down!!! That was awesome!!! Ed was with me to see it and we were joking about the carnie. He looked like Axl Rose which was funny. When Ed saw how good I did he joked that I must be in good with some carnies and I reminded him that I dated Shar¡ so I know how to win some of these games! I kicked ass. Some more people played and one guy knocked them down. On my third try I knocked down all but one and since I played three times he let the crowd vote and since I was the only one coming even close, they gave me another fifty dollar slip. these were to be used at the auction at the end of the night. I played and one again before heading back in.
As I walked by the cotton candy machine, I realized it was free and got me a nice big one that was delicious. The girl told me to come back for more when I was done and I did. I gave the first one too Leigh Anne when I walked in the door to make up since I left her for so long. I then got another for myself. I haven't had cotton candy in so long and it was wonderful. I ended up either eating four or five huge sticks of it even though Ed or Michelle would dome by and snag a small piece every once in a while. They all wanted popcorn at one point and a big black guy had taken over. He was filling one really full because nobody was there and as I threw away my stick, he offered me another. Yum yum!
I then offered to marry Leigh Anne and she used two of our tickets to do so. We each got a certificate and a ring. We then got to throw on a hat and hold a bouquet and have a Polaroid picture taken. I had everybody get in the picture with us and it turned out awesome. The vows were only for the night and consisted of stuff like not giving your beads to any other girl. Yeah right! The picture is great because we all look really happy and are crowded together and is the kind of picture that you look back at later in life and will have some really good memories about the time you spent imprisoned here. So I made sure I had it at the end of the night.
We then headed back inside and they wanted to dance. I didn't feel like it, nor did Aimee. I talked to her a little bit and am starting to really like her now that she and her boyfriend broke up. After a while I headed upstairs and stopped by the free tokens table again. I had conveniently used excessive amounts of saliva earlier to remove their smile off of my hand and doubled my cash. I then headed back out and played bean bag toss five more times and grabbed some more cotton candy. Leigh Anne came outside once and threw one of my bean bags and actually won. They all played a couple of times after seeing me win.
I later headed back upstairs and decided to start watching the Roulette wheel and after figuring out the rules, I started placing small bets. I then got carried away and went on a roller coaster ride with my money. I eventually blew it all but had an awesome time doing so. I also was glad to have the chance to publicly gamble without really spending any money. It was a good lesson. I then realized that those fifty dollar slips could be turned in for tokens and I had accumulated nine by that time which means I won that game seven times!!! out of ten rounds. I went back and lost all of my money and found it funny as I told Leigh Anne that I gambled away all of our honeymoon money!!! I had a great time, though, and am sure that she had more fun dancing.
There were some really awesome looking girls in the place and I walked by this one whose balloon had floated to the ceiling. This guy was desperately jumping to get it for her but it seemed hopeless. I offered to get it for her and he wanted to try again to not be shown up. I laughed as his attempt failed and jumped up and grabbed it in both hands on the first try. I handed it to her and after she thanked me, I walked away. It was really funny. There's this girl named Holly who everybody next door calls a whore and Hollywould because Holy would and so forth. She can dress up rather nicely and has a great body. It's just because she runs around talking to all the cute RA's all of the time. I also make an extra effort to flirt with her and she noticed me doing so last night. That was a lot of fun. There also was a really tall girl with gorgeous breasts that I flirted with for a while, all while Leigh Anne was dancing obliviously just in front of me.
I kept trying to protect Aimee form this guy who kept making passes at her all night long. That was ind of funny and I teased her about her new boyfriend later. I then slow danced for a very short time with Leigh Anne and at the end of the night and I included Aimee as a threesome once by putting my arm around her. I have started being increasingly liberal with them all and hope that things will work out to my advantage. Well, we all seemed to have had a pretty good time last night and now I have to go make a phone call and wake up Leigh Anne.
Everybody got ready in a decent amount of time except Leigh Anne. She was getting to the point where she was pissing both Ed and I off a lot. She started off by changing clothes a couple of times and then couldn't find this one pair of shoes and couldn't supplement one of the other fifty pairs she owns. It was getting kind of ridiculous. All I kept thinking was about how I am the type of person who likes to be on time, or better yet really early, and she is constantly taking forever to do things and I really hate that. That alone is almost enough reason for me to never go out with her again. The way I see it, if she doesn't care enough to keep our plans, then fuck her. I would have left her last night if she isn't as useful as she is in everyday life lately.
When we got to Mardi Gras it was funny how few people were there on the outside. It was freezing cold, however, because this crowd wasn't emitting the kind of heat the real Mardi Gras crowd does. They had a bunch of little game booths set up including, but not limited to (ha ha), toss a ring on a two liter bottle, football toss, a wedding booth, and face painting. They also had popcorn and cotton candy machines. We went inside where they had set up a fairly respectable dance floor with a decent sound system and a crappy disc jockey who went to high school with Leigh Anne and fucked up way too many times. Ed quickly saw the food line and we headed over there and were lucky enough to get one of the few tables to sit at.
I took one bite of the chili and almost burned my tongue off! It was really shitty, though, because all they did was take cheap chili and add a bunch of tabasco sauce to it. They had cookies and professionally made cake which was good. We ate and then headed upstairs to their so called casino. At the entrance they would draw a big permanent blue smile on your hand to signify that you've received your five hundred dollars worth of free poker chips and five free carnival tickets. that as awesome because I didn't realize this part would be free. It was a classier atmosphere upstairs with a snack buffet and a local "jazz" band. We walked around and looked at all of the betting tables which had blackjack, acey ducey, roulette with real roulette wheels!, and rooms where poker games were being played. Ed and I then took off to see what was up outside because it all seemed so much better since it was free!
Ed found the ring toss and thought since he was a good frisbee player that he could probably do it. He overshot almost every one of them and spent all of his tickets doing so. Retard. But hopefully he had fun which is all that matters. I, on the other hand, have always been really confidant that throwing bean bags at a pyramid of cans would be really easy. I used to see it all the time at Busch Gardens but never tried it. Each ticket got you two complete tries. There was suddenly a line of about five people and only one guy was good enough to knock all but two of the cans down once.
I stepped up and shifted the bean bag to contour it to my palm to get better aim. I knew that speed wasn't the goal, aim is. My first toss knocked down all but one of the cans!, and my second sent them all crashing down!!! That was awesome!!! Ed was with me to see it and we were joking about the carnie. He looked like Axl Rose which was funny. When Ed saw how good I did he joked that I must be in good with some carnies and I reminded him that I dated Shar¡ so I know how to win some of these games! I kicked ass. Some more people played and one guy knocked them down. On my third try I knocked down all but one and since I played three times he let the crowd vote and since I was the only one coming even close, they gave me another fifty dollar slip. these were to be used at the auction at the end of the night. I played and one again before heading back in.
As I walked by the cotton candy machine, I realized it was free and got me a nice big one that was delicious. The girl told me to come back for more when I was done and I did. I gave the first one too Leigh Anne when I walked in the door to make up since I left her for so long. I then got another for myself. I haven't had cotton candy in so long and it was wonderful. I ended up either eating four or five huge sticks of it even though Ed or Michelle would dome by and snag a small piece every once in a while. They all wanted popcorn at one point and a big black guy had taken over. He was filling one really full because nobody was there and as I threw away my stick, he offered me another. Yum yum!
I then offered to marry Leigh Anne and she used two of our tickets to do so. We each got a certificate and a ring. We then got to throw on a hat and hold a bouquet and have a Polaroid picture taken. I had everybody get in the picture with us and it turned out awesome. The vows were only for the night and consisted of stuff like not giving your beads to any other girl. Yeah right! The picture is great because we all look really happy and are crowded together and is the kind of picture that you look back at later in life and will have some really good memories about the time you spent imprisoned here. So I made sure I had it at the end of the night.
We then headed back inside and they wanted to dance. I didn't feel like it, nor did Aimee. I talked to her a little bit and am starting to really like her now that she and her boyfriend broke up. After a while I headed upstairs and stopped by the free tokens table again. I had conveniently used excessive amounts of saliva earlier to remove their smile off of my hand and doubled my cash. I then headed back out and played bean bag toss five more times and grabbed some more cotton candy. Leigh Anne came outside once and threw one of my bean bags and actually won. They all played a couple of times after seeing me win.
I later headed back upstairs and decided to start watching the Roulette wheel and after figuring out the rules, I started placing small bets. I then got carried away and went on a roller coaster ride with my money. I eventually blew it all but had an awesome time doing so. I also was glad to have the chance to publicly gamble without really spending any money. It was a good lesson. I then realized that those fifty dollar slips could be turned in for tokens and I had accumulated nine by that time which means I won that game seven times!!! out of ten rounds. I went back and lost all of my money and found it funny as I told Leigh Anne that I gambled away all of our honeymoon money!!! I had a great time, though, and am sure that she had more fun dancing.
There were some really awesome looking girls in the place and I walked by this one whose balloon had floated to the ceiling. This guy was desperately jumping to get it for her but it seemed hopeless. I offered to get it for her and he wanted to try again to not be shown up. I laughed as his attempt failed and jumped up and grabbed it in both hands on the first try. I handed it to her and after she thanked me, I walked away. It was really funny. There's this girl named Holly who everybody next door calls a whore and Hollywould because Holy would and so forth. She can dress up rather nicely and has a great body. It's just because she runs around talking to all the cute RA's all of the time. I also make an extra effort to flirt with her and she noticed me doing so last night. That was a lot of fun. There also was a really tall girl with gorgeous breasts that I flirted with for a while, all while Leigh Anne was dancing obliviously just in front of me.
I kept trying to protect Aimee form this guy who kept making passes at her all night long. That was ind of funny and I teased her about her new boyfriend later. I then slow danced for a very short time with Leigh Anne and at the end of the night and I included Aimee as a threesome once by putting my arm around her. I have started being increasingly liberal with them all and hope that things will work out to my advantage. Well, we all seemed to have had a pretty good time last night and now I have to go make a phone call and wake up Leigh Anne.
Thursday, January 20, 1994
January 20, 1994 - Thursday - Stress relief for Leigh!
Leigh Anne is the best most patient, understanding, wonderful, caring, compassionate, violent, demented, burgundy haired, brace faced, self conscious, shit brown eyed, astrogliding, not as dumb as I look, word processing, psychotic, adoring, loving, romantic, passionate, horny, angry, urinary tract infected, demanding, questioning, scaling, Jewish, cross bred between Delisa and Chisel, attentive, unique, uncalcium fingernailed, roller blading, unappreciated, tennis slamming, obnoxious, tape recording, Prince-loving, responsive, unrelentless, potato chip breathed, country converted, occasionally thinking, egg salad hating, great cooking, unbuxomed, reproductive, lonely, proportionate, able to genetically bear twins, flat chested, good with her hands, suckable, mood swingy, erotic, crooked nosed, nymphodic, relationship craving, zitted, totally appreciative, spoiling, toe stomping, door slamming, depressed, hairy backed, hair pulling, imaginative, creative, willing to try new things (especially positions), jism swallowing, uneaten, engulfing, well dressed (occasionally), unloved (except by her family), erection craving, juggling (boyfriends), newly loyal, constipated, anal expulsive, dick tickling/licking/sucking, Bobbiting, insecure (especially cuz Dan doesn't help), yeasted, not able to achieve orgasm (worthless), diamond cutting, unshaving, incredible hustler, stupid for not just giving up (it's obviously hopeless, kiddo), unique ability to piss off geeks, unalgebraic, wet, not worth shit, uncontent, drippy (caused by Dan's jism), wild girlfriend in the world who thinks she can play pool, who kicked your ass in pool, and wants two grapefruits and a lime up her ass, and constantly places saliva in the wrong places, and is a fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you Dan! even if you don't know how to reciprocate - straight from the horse's mouth. <---Dan
Unlistening, intelligent, fertile, mean, unappreciative, uncompassionate, selfish in bed, nice (once in a Blue moon), Shari (with that stupid little accent over the i) loving, ex-girlfriend talking, selfish, cheap, poor (emotionally), insulting, unloving, smelly, hairy backed, egotistical, egg salad eating, dog breathed (bow-wow-wow), rednecked, great (sleeping) in bed (alone), comical (sometimes), great kisser (when he finally breaks down and does it), hurtful, insensitive, unforgiving, unforgetting, uncommiting (lately), relationship comparing, lacking empathy, flannel wearing, blue eyed, jean short wearing, Mustang driving (when it starts), no mail getting, no mail writing, uncompromising, immaculate, well manicured (if you can get past the stench and scruff), unshaving, better at Trivial Pursuit, condom filling, Michael Dukakis supporting :), dog hating, cat hating, breast watching, ass watching, coochie watching, megalaviziaphylic, peach fuzz covered, computer hacking, black eye pea eating, underwearless, pencil dicked, furry legged, nonagressive, nonverbal, STUBBORN, unloving, uncomplementing, always looking for something/one better, incorrigible (???), ignoring, unemotional, awesome pool player, wonderful, hospitable, beer serving, cruel (emotionally), (EMOTIONAL) roller coaster operating, unblade rollable, hungry, unbike ridable, Mac and Cheese loving, lazy, unspoiling, flirtatious, UNAPPRECIATIVE!, flat tongued, unreciprocative, racist, bigoted, black jean loving (Yeah right), sexist, Jeopardy watching (not winning), unoral (lately), unable to make up his mind and stick to it, not able to give satisfaction to Leigh Anne, Busch Gardening, self absorbed, understanding (NOT!!), human being that every girl brings their problems to!!! And extremely loving (when he wants to be). (Good bullshitter.)
Unlistening, intelligent, fertile, mean, unappreciative, uncompassionate, selfish in bed, nice (once in a Blue moon), Shari (with that stupid little accent over the i) loving, ex-girlfriend talking, selfish, cheap, poor (emotionally), insulting, unloving, smelly, hairy backed, egotistical, egg salad eating, dog breathed (bow-wow-wow), rednecked, great (sleeping) in bed (alone), comical (sometimes), great kisser (when he finally breaks down and does it), hurtful, insensitive, unforgiving, unforgetting, uncommiting (lately), relationship comparing, lacking empathy, flannel wearing, blue eyed, jean short wearing, Mustang driving (when it starts), no mail getting, no mail writing, uncompromising, immaculate, well manicured (if you can get past the stench and scruff), unshaving, better at Trivial Pursuit, condom filling, Michael Dukakis supporting :), dog hating, cat hating, breast watching, ass watching, coochie watching, megalaviziaphylic, peach fuzz covered, computer hacking, black eye pea eating, underwearless, pencil dicked, furry legged, nonagressive, nonverbal, STUBBORN, unloving, uncomplementing, always looking for something/one better, incorrigible (???), ignoring, unemotional, awesome pool player, wonderful, hospitable, beer serving, cruel (emotionally), (EMOTIONAL) roller coaster operating, unblade rollable, hungry, unbike ridable, Mac and Cheese loving, lazy, unspoiling, flirtatious, UNAPPRECIATIVE!, flat tongued, unreciprocative, racist, bigoted, black jean loving (Yeah right), sexist, Jeopardy watching (not winning), unoral (lately), unable to make up his mind and stick to it, not able to give satisfaction to Leigh Anne, Busch Gardening, self absorbed, understanding (NOT!!), human being that every girl brings their problems to!!! And extremely loving (when he wants to be). (Good bullshitter.)
Thursday, January 13, 1994
January 13, 1994 - Thursday - Pool, Replacement search
Things have just kind of been drifting along lately with nothing really exciting going on. I did however receive my financial aid check today and it was just over three hundred dollars in cash, so that's a plus. I have yet to hear from Shar¡ but my ever forgiving self has a theory about that. We did hint a lot about things working out well and I did explain to her how forgiving I am and how I would probably always take her back. Because of that I don't think time right now is really that important to her and she feels that she can wait a while without losing me beyond any amount that she couldn't quickly repair. I know the feeling because of what I sometimes do to my closest friends, especially Kimmeth when I didn't make contact for quite a while. I can wait as long as she does but I just hope she finally comes through.
I've told Leigh Anne that our relationship must become one of two good friends again before it can be anything else. It that note I always answer her questions about us going out yet with a no. I feel it's a lot better that way because I'd still like to do something with her every once in a while but not constantly. We have had sex three times since Christmas break but I made it perfectly clear that it was only sex and kept putting it off saying that she would take it as more than it is and only after she promised not to did the event finally take place. I'm ruthless now, however, because I'm only doing it to satisfy myself and then I stop, no real foreplay or afterplay or anything for that matter.
We have started playing pool which is really good because I needed a partner and wanted to practice some more to keep my skills at least somewhat respectable. She claimed that she played constantly over the break and was bragging about how she'll kick my ass when we play. Well, I finally played her and easily beat her five or six games and she finally one the very last one. She had fun, though, and I'm glad to have someone who is willing to lose and still be happy and play again. Ed joined us last night for a while and I beat him in an awesome comeback but lost to him in the two following games.
I'm looking hard now for the perfect girl to take my mind off of everything and to actually make me happy again. I'd love to find a replacement for Shar¡ in my heart. I find it funny how every time I think about making love, I realize that the only time I have ever truly done so was with Shar¡. It just seems so funny that I was convincing enough to fool Leigh Anne for as long as I did. It's true that I got into it just a little bit in order to keep the thoughts of losing Shar¡ out of my mind, but Leigh Anne could have been replaced by practically any girl, as long as she was somewhat attractive, at any time and I could have continued exactly what I was doing with her. I have these interesting little thoughts every once in a while about Ashley and how wonderful she is. She could so easily be that person to take over my heart and mind just because we get along so well.
I ran into her in the stairway on Tuesday and she invited me up to her room and we talked for a long time...
I've told Leigh Anne that our relationship must become one of two good friends again before it can be anything else. It that note I always answer her questions about us going out yet with a no. I feel it's a lot better that way because I'd still like to do something with her every once in a while but not constantly. We have had sex three times since Christmas break but I made it perfectly clear that it was only sex and kept putting it off saying that she would take it as more than it is and only after she promised not to did the event finally take place. I'm ruthless now, however, because I'm only doing it to satisfy myself and then I stop, no real foreplay or afterplay or anything for that matter.
We have started playing pool which is really good because I needed a partner and wanted to practice some more to keep my skills at least somewhat respectable. She claimed that she played constantly over the break and was bragging about how she'll kick my ass when we play. Well, I finally played her and easily beat her five or six games and she finally one the very last one. She had fun, though, and I'm glad to have someone who is willing to lose and still be happy and play again. Ed joined us last night for a while and I beat him in an awesome comeback but lost to him in the two following games.
I'm looking hard now for the perfect girl to take my mind off of everything and to actually make me happy again. I'd love to find a replacement for Shar¡ in my heart. I find it funny how every time I think about making love, I realize that the only time I have ever truly done so was with Shar¡. It just seems so funny that I was convincing enough to fool Leigh Anne for as long as I did. It's true that I got into it just a little bit in order to keep the thoughts of losing Shar¡ out of my mind, but Leigh Anne could have been replaced by practically any girl, as long as she was somewhat attractive, at any time and I could have continued exactly what I was doing with her. I have these interesting little thoughts every once in a while about Ashley and how wonderful she is. She could so easily be that person to take over my heart and mind just because we get along so well.
I ran into her in the stairway on Tuesday and she invited me up to her room and we talked for a long time...
Wednesday, January 5, 1994
January 5, 1994 - Wednesday - Shar¡ calls too late...
Shar¡ finally called me on Sunday night at ten to fulfill her promise that we'd get to see each other again before I left. I had been the one who said that if things didn't work out over the weekend, then Sunday would be OK. When she called she was waiting for Christina to get to her house to pick her up. She said she had one of her roommates drive her up to a payphone so she could call me but told him she was calling her mother. She called me back a few minutes later and said they were going to Fatsos first to play a few games of pool and then were going out to Talley Hos. As she was explaining how to get to Fatsos, Christina heard and got pissed that she always has to take Shar¡ around so she can see me. Shar¡ had failed to tell Christina beforehand that I was coming so she said she'd talk Christina out of it and then call me back. Stupid me jumped the gun and then got dressed, and then finished packing my car.
When Shar¡ had first called she asked me what I was doing and I said packing. She suddenly sounded upset and asked if that meant I couldn't go out. I said no that I really wanted to go and she quickly perked up and told me what was up. I then told her that I'm not promising anything and might back out. She laughed and said sarcastically that I will go and I laughed and told her that I know! It was funny how much she knows she has me wrapped around her finger. Cool thing is, it seems like she's still kind of wrapped as well.
She and Christina ended up taking off and playing pool first and then called me from Mulligans at midnight. I had essentially given up and had just undressed and had my mother start cooking me some dinner. She said that she stayed up to make sure I didn't run off really late because we both knew I would in a heartbeat. I called Talley Hos once before she got there and also had the idea of just going out there and waiting for her to show up. That would have actually been the smartest thing. I also, since I was already dressed, had very strong urges to go and burn Christina's apartment to the ground!!!, but I decided to eat dinner instead.
When she called she seemed happy and said that she talked to Christina on the way over and she just wanted some time for the two of them to hang out alone to begin with and then she would be more than happy to see me. Shar¡ also said that she really wanted to call me back so that I wouldn't get pissed off at her and that showed to me that she cares a little and impressed me. It was very smart of her, too, because I was definitely starting to get pissed. She asked me if I was ready to come out. I remembered from before how bad the weekend ended that time when I went out with them late and even though the circumstances are completely different, they haunted me.
I told her that since she called back so late, and since I'm leaving early in the morning, I decided against going all the way over there. My ears couldn't believe my mouth!!! I did tell her that I was really looking forward to seeing her that night but it just couldn't happen. She said that she really wanted to see me again, too, but she understands. She then said that she'll write me soon and we'll have to make sure we get together the next time to come down. We then said goodbye and I was very happy at the way things worked out.
Laura and Ashley stopped by to see me Monday night when the got home but I was at the grocery store with Ed and Roswitha. I later talked to Laura on the phone before I went to study with Chris. As we returned home and were walking up to Beaty there appeared Ashley returning from her sorority. I backed up for a second like I was avoiding her and she said, "Fine!," and then I reached out my arm and put it around her. She quickly wrapped her arm around me, which surprised me a little, and we walked like that all the way to the doors which I pulled away form her and opened for her. She had claimed that she was cold, which is why we walked holding on to each other. We talked quite a bit in the elevator and I then called her for a few minutes when I got upstairs.
We said how much we are going to miss our mornings and she agreed, saying that she's going to miss me, but we will have to study and go to Taco Hell every once in a while.
Leigh Anne's been a silly little bitch lately as well. I almost didn't include her in my journal but I guess she was apart of my life and I can't hide hr forever. When she knocked at the door Monday night I was instantly wonderful and asked her all about her break despite the fact that we hated each other when we last spoke on the phone. She was nice back and we all talked for quite a while. We ended up being wonderful to each other for quite a while and ended up kissing which progressed to our taking a shower together. We didn't have sex though because she is sick and on her period and didn't feel very well at all.
I then started avoiding her. She was manic depressive again a little while ago and was all ready to go home and I made it clear that I wanted her to but didn't believe a word she was saying. She then called her mom who talked her out of it and we chatted before I told her we will just have to end up being friends and nothing more. I'm completely in the mood for something new and have sen all of the amazing possibilities walking around campus lately.
I went to my history of Western medicine class yesterday morning and was joined by Ashley and Laura's roommate, Jessica. We never seem to talk much but did at least for a few minutes. There were a hell of a lot of attractive girls in there and I loved it. The class seems really interesting as well and I'm glad to have finally gotten it after trying and failing to last semester. Both LAura and Ashley later told me that Jessica had already told them we have a class together. Laura joked that I'm making my rounds through all of her roommates, but what about her. Actually, we did have chemistry together but didn't know so.
My art experience class also seems pretty cool in the way it is taught plus the abundance of women. I was kind of afraid of having to be in there with Leigh Anne alone until I saw Jana from high school. I was busy flirting with all of the really hot girls outside before approaching her. She seemed surprised to see me and quickly said that she was going to come and sit with me. That was cool. I made sure to be really nice and listen to everything she said and to be concerned with her since I did use to be way too egotistical when I used to know her in high school. I introduced Leigh Anne to her as my next door neighbor which kind of pissed Leigh Anne off but I had pre warned her that I was going to do so. She and I were talking about her (ex)boyfriend (me!) as if he were some other guy in front of JAna and that conversation was really funny. I told her she should just dump him and go out with me and so forth. I liked it.
By the way, Happy New Year!!!!!
When Shar¡ had first called she asked me what I was doing and I said packing. She suddenly sounded upset and asked if that meant I couldn't go out. I said no that I really wanted to go and she quickly perked up and told me what was up. I then told her that I'm not promising anything and might back out. She laughed and said sarcastically that I will go and I laughed and told her that I know! It was funny how much she knows she has me wrapped around her finger. Cool thing is, it seems like she's still kind of wrapped as well.
She and Christina ended up taking off and playing pool first and then called me from Mulligans at midnight. I had essentially given up and had just undressed and had my mother start cooking me some dinner. She said that she stayed up to make sure I didn't run off really late because we both knew I would in a heartbeat. I called Talley Hos once before she got there and also had the idea of just going out there and waiting for her to show up. That would have actually been the smartest thing. I also, since I was already dressed, had very strong urges to go and burn Christina's apartment to the ground!!!, but I decided to eat dinner instead.
When she called she seemed happy and said that she talked to Christina on the way over and she just wanted some time for the two of them to hang out alone to begin with and then she would be more than happy to see me. Shar¡ also said that she really wanted to call me back so that I wouldn't get pissed off at her and that showed to me that she cares a little and impressed me. It was very smart of her, too, because I was definitely starting to get pissed. She asked me if I was ready to come out. I remembered from before how bad the weekend ended that time when I went out with them late and even though the circumstances are completely different, they haunted me.
I told her that since she called back so late, and since I'm leaving early in the morning, I decided against going all the way over there. My ears couldn't believe my mouth!!! I did tell her that I was really looking forward to seeing her that night but it just couldn't happen. She said that she really wanted to see me again, too, but she understands. She then said that she'll write me soon and we'll have to make sure we get together the next time to come down. We then said goodbye and I was very happy at the way things worked out.
Laura and Ashley stopped by to see me Monday night when the got home but I was at the grocery store with Ed and Roswitha. I later talked to Laura on the phone before I went to study with Chris. As we returned home and were walking up to Beaty there appeared Ashley returning from her sorority. I backed up for a second like I was avoiding her and she said, "Fine!," and then I reached out my arm and put it around her. She quickly wrapped her arm around me, which surprised me a little, and we walked like that all the way to the doors which I pulled away form her and opened for her. She had claimed that she was cold, which is why we walked holding on to each other. We talked quite a bit in the elevator and I then called her for a few minutes when I got upstairs.
We said how much we are going to miss our mornings and she agreed, saying that she's going to miss me, but we will have to study and go to Taco Hell every once in a while.
Leigh Anne's been a silly little bitch lately as well. I almost didn't include her in my journal but I guess she was apart of my life and I can't hide hr forever. When she knocked at the door Monday night I was instantly wonderful and asked her all about her break despite the fact that we hated each other when we last spoke on the phone. She was nice back and we all talked for quite a while. We ended up being wonderful to each other for quite a while and ended up kissing which progressed to our taking a shower together. We didn't have sex though because she is sick and on her period and didn't feel very well at all.
I then started avoiding her. She was manic depressive again a little while ago and was all ready to go home and I made it clear that I wanted her to but didn't believe a word she was saying. She then called her mom who talked her out of it and we chatted before I told her we will just have to end up being friends and nothing more. I'm completely in the mood for something new and have sen all of the amazing possibilities walking around campus lately.
I went to my history of Western medicine class yesterday morning and was joined by Ashley and Laura's roommate, Jessica. We never seem to talk much but did at least for a few minutes. There were a hell of a lot of attractive girls in there and I loved it. The class seems really interesting as well and I'm glad to have finally gotten it after trying and failing to last semester. Both LAura and Ashley later told me that Jessica had already told them we have a class together. Laura joked that I'm making my rounds through all of her roommates, but what about her. Actually, we did have chemistry together but didn't know so.
My art experience class also seems pretty cool in the way it is taught plus the abundance of women. I was kind of afraid of having to be in there with Leigh Anne alone until I saw Jana from high school. I was busy flirting with all of the really hot girls outside before approaching her. She seemed surprised to see me and quickly said that she was going to come and sit with me. That was cool. I made sure to be really nice and listen to everything she said and to be concerned with her since I did use to be way too egotistical when I used to know her in high school. I introduced Leigh Anne to her as my next door neighbor which kind of pissed Leigh Anne off but I had pre warned her that I was going to do so. She and I were talking about her (ex)boyfriend (me!) as if he were some other guy in front of JAna and that conversation was really funny. I told her she should just dump him and go out with me and so forth. I liked it.
By the way, Happy New Year!!!!!