My lover called me this morning at eleven to tell me that her dad gave her his final permission to come up to Gainesville this weekend. That was really cool! She seems so excited and happy that it's raising my spirits quite a bit as well. We only talked for a few more minutes before we got off the phone. It was really cool to hear from her though.
I received my now standard morning call from Ashley before Biology this morning and met her soon afterwards in front of her elevator. We talked for a few minutes about how Laura and I had spent an hour together yesterday and joked a little about their new roommate. She then told me all about her weekend at the sorority and how she went to Crescent Beach to see the sunrise. She's going home for the weekend and said that she won't actually be at her house on Friday, she'll be going out for a big steak dinner. I probed her a little more deeply and she told me that she'll be with this guy she knows who's coming home from the Air Force this weekend. I love having semi-background information because I think this is the guy she really likes but is trying to hide him from me in a sense to string me along. It's pretty funny. Laura and Jana were both really surprised that Ashley hadn't mentioned him on the first day she and I talked. I've kept Shar¡ hidden from her the same way, but she did look at our Adventure Island picture today.
She didn't have a class afterwards for another hour and mine wasn't for two periods. I planned on heading back to Beaty to eat but stood there and talked to her for quite a long time. It was really cool. She seemed pretty happy when I said that I am going to go start working out with her on Wednesdays and Fridays. Fun fun! We then parted and I headed home.
Chris and I both went to sleep for an hour at four. The phone rang so many times that we finally decided to just let the machine get it. That time it was Shar¡ and she left a cute message. I didn't want to rush to get it though because I'd rather her call back later than talk to me when I'm tired like she usually has to. I had just waken up again an hour later when she called back. She had Jon `wake me up' this time and we started into our wonderful talk again. She told me right from the onset that I'm really addictive!!!, and that she just wants to keep on talking to me! Damn she's sweet. She told me that she found a sitter for Cord which is cool, too. I was sitting out in the hallway in my `pajamas' and the girls came out from next door and whistled at me. It was funny.
She told me that she walked outside to see the mailman handing her dad his mail when she suddenly remembered my letter and rushed back in to get it. She did get it out to him in time which is cool. She also told me that she wants to go to Bealls tomorrow. When I asked her why she said that she wants to buy me something! For someone who has always been the one buying the stuff and so forth, I'm taking this pampering with the widest arms imaginable. It feels so damn good to see her like this. If things are truly the way they seem, I've got this girl completely wrapped around my finger, just like I am around hers...
Tuesday, August 31, 1993
Monday, August 30, 1993
August 30, 1993 - Monday - I'd call it love...!!!
It's Monday afternoon right now and I just got in from a dip in the pool. I had planned on laying out after my block of classes today in Turlington but was more than sidetracked. I first walked down to thE stadium and picked up my football season pass. I then stopped in to the bookstore to see if my books from my honors class were in yet. I saw this really cute girl standing by the section with a frustrtaed look and took the chance to pounce on her. I asked her if she was having the same trouble finding the books and she said yes. We decided to confront our professor together tomorrow in class! I then heade home for lunch. Afterwards I planned on going out but Ed called and asked if I stay for a while and show him how to use the word processor to do his report. I did and finally got out of the room with a blazing hurtful sun still in the sky.
I kind of really wished that I'd see somebody as I walked to the pool that I know just so I could brag about going to lay out. Up ahead I saw the most glorious of all prizes- Laura! She was bobbing along in her red Bud hat and I recognized her instantly. When she saw me she started talking and we were being rather nice to each other. She ended up grabbing me by the arm and saying that I wasn't going to lay out, but rather I had to come up to her room and talk to her. She had a Spanish class an hour later. We joked around and talked for quite a while and I met their new roommate. She's a freshman but is already eighteen and a half. She was really surprised to find out that both Laura and I are aloso her age but are a year further in school! I did some major ass kissing when I could. I ended up with a really awesome argument as we were parting again after walking to the pool. I told her that if I hadn't thought that I was really going to enjoy talking to her, then I would have just gone to the pool originally instead of hanging out with her. It made perfect sense and I think she liked it.
Now for the important stuff. There has been a message on the board since I got home at lunchtime for me to call Shar¡. I'm pretty sure that she got my letter today... I've waited so far to call her because I want to give her some emotionally frustrating time to herself to contemplate things and so she can create those wild thoughts and images that always happen when you are emotionally unstable. I'll see...
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I held out until my beautiful called me at 6:30. Jon and I had just been talking about her and I was showing him how to spell her name at the time. She asked me why I hadn't called and I told her that I hadn't really been in all day and I was just about ready to. She told me that she called me pretty soon after she got my letter in the mail. She did say that she read my letter three times just to figure out what I was telling her in some cases. I told her that I just wanted to confuse her on purpose. I wonder which part that was. She said that she'll bring it back up so I can read it because I really wanted to photocopy it before I sent it. Jon really wants to know what I wrote as well, saying he wants some ideas for Karen!
Shar¡ said that what I had written was really sweet and liked the part where I told her that I was just sitting there looking at the pictures and Chris joked that I must be in love! She said that she then went through my letter as she wrote me one back that she'll mail tomorrow. She also told me that she really liked the card. I really liked the way her voice sounded when we talked about doing something together or about us. It's almost starting to sound believeable! She talked to me for a good hour before we decided to get off of the phone. We also decided to start limiting our phone calls since we will be seeing each other soon. I joked about having none all together to which she quickly objected saying that she really likes to hear my voice. Cord said goodbye to his `Daddy Dan' again as Mommy got off of the phone.
We also talked some more about me moving back to Tampa. It seems like the most wonderful idea in the world right now! She asked me when I could and I asked her when she wants me to. She said tomorrow, but I explained that it's already to far into the semester for that. We then talked about how the next semester starts right after Christmas. We also talked about the pictures I sent her and she told me how she has cut each one so that it fits in her wallet so she can `show' everybody. That's cool if she is. She thought that the one where I was walking with Cord on the beach is really cute and I fully agree. She sai dthta the pictures came out really good and I told her that there are a lot more for her when she comes up that are just as good or better!
I've never been one who likes to read too much into something, but when we talk about us, she almost has a `hopeful' sound deep in her voice that I find truly fascinating... Now I wait again for the letter.
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Every time the phone has rung tonight, Chris always says that it's for me and that I should answer it. I always object, not figuring that Shar¡ was going to call me back again. The call at eleven was her. She told me that she asked for, `Dan please!' and he asked who was calling in a nice bullshitty voice. He then informed me in the same pleasant voice that it was indeed for me. I responded with an, `Is that so?' in the same manner and he affirmed my question. I then asked who it might be, and he said that it might be Shar¡. It was a pretty funny interlude and Shar¡ and I laughed about it for a while. She told me that she was lying down ready to go to sleep and was thinking about me so she decided to give me a call. I told her that it was interesting because I was thinking about her as well. We laughed that it must be that ESP thing again!
We were both talking very `excitedly' to each other. It was very apparent in her voice and I liked that a lot. She said that it is a lot quieter now referring to the fact that my roommates were no longer screaming like earlier. I agreed so in both of our cases, personally referring to the kids. We were both being extremely cute and witty. I referred to her as Boss once like I used to quite often. That stemmed off of when she would ask me to do something like get Cord's cup. She would always laugh and tell me not to forget it. I joked that she's no longer my boss and she said that she never really was in the first place. I told her that's not true because I'd do anything for her. She liked that and then said that she should have taken advantage of that. I took on a more serious tone and asked her if she'd really take advantage of me. She switched to a reassuring voice and said of course not. I then told her pretty seductively that's too bad and she laughed very slyly. I really liked the way her laugh sounded right then. I then laughed and said she just doesn't seem to be saying anything right tonight. It was funny and we laughed. We were both in damn good moods. I guess she really liked my letter!!!
I kind of really wished that I'd see somebody as I walked to the pool that I know just so I could brag about going to lay out. Up ahead I saw the most glorious of all prizes- Laura! She was bobbing along in her red Bud hat and I recognized her instantly. When she saw me she started talking and we were being rather nice to each other. She ended up grabbing me by the arm and saying that I wasn't going to lay out, but rather I had to come up to her room and talk to her. She had a Spanish class an hour later. We joked around and talked for quite a while and I met their new roommate. She's a freshman but is already eighteen and a half. She was really surprised to find out that both Laura and I are aloso her age but are a year further in school! I did some major ass kissing when I could. I ended up with a really awesome argument as we were parting again after walking to the pool. I told her that if I hadn't thought that I was really going to enjoy talking to her, then I would have just gone to the pool originally instead of hanging out with her. It made perfect sense and I think she liked it.
Now for the important stuff. There has been a message on the board since I got home at lunchtime for me to call Shar¡. I'm pretty sure that she got my letter today... I've waited so far to call her because I want to give her some emotionally frustrating time to herself to contemplate things and so she can create those wild thoughts and images that always happen when you are emotionally unstable. I'll see...
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I held out until my beautiful called me at 6:30. Jon and I had just been talking about her and I was showing him how to spell her name at the time. She asked me why I hadn't called and I told her that I hadn't really been in all day and I was just about ready to. She told me that she called me pretty soon after she got my letter in the mail. She did say that she read my letter three times just to figure out what I was telling her in some cases. I told her that I just wanted to confuse her on purpose. I wonder which part that was. She said that she'll bring it back up so I can read it because I really wanted to photocopy it before I sent it. Jon really wants to know what I wrote as well, saying he wants some ideas for Karen!
Shar¡ said that what I had written was really sweet and liked the part where I told her that I was just sitting there looking at the pictures and Chris joked that I must be in love! She said that she then went through my letter as she wrote me one back that she'll mail tomorrow. She also told me that she really liked the card. I really liked the way her voice sounded when we talked about doing something together or about us. It's almost starting to sound believeable! She talked to me for a good hour before we decided to get off of the phone. We also decided to start limiting our phone calls since we will be seeing each other soon. I joked about having none all together to which she quickly objected saying that she really likes to hear my voice. Cord said goodbye to his `Daddy Dan' again as Mommy got off of the phone.
We also talked some more about me moving back to Tampa. It seems like the most wonderful idea in the world right now! She asked me when I could and I asked her when she wants me to. She said tomorrow, but I explained that it's already to far into the semester for that. We then talked about how the next semester starts right after Christmas. We also talked about the pictures I sent her and she told me how she has cut each one so that it fits in her wallet so she can `show' everybody. That's cool if she is. She thought that the one where I was walking with Cord on the beach is really cute and I fully agree. She sai dthta the pictures came out really good and I told her that there are a lot more for her when she comes up that are just as good or better!
I've never been one who likes to read too much into something, but when we talk about us, she almost has a `hopeful' sound deep in her voice that I find truly fascinating... Now I wait again for the letter.
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Every time the phone has rung tonight, Chris always says that it's for me and that I should answer it. I always object, not figuring that Shar¡ was going to call me back again. The call at eleven was her. She told me that she asked for, `Dan please!' and he asked who was calling in a nice bullshitty voice. He then informed me in the same pleasant voice that it was indeed for me. I responded with an, `Is that so?' in the same manner and he affirmed my question. I then asked who it might be, and he said that it might be Shar¡. It was a pretty funny interlude and Shar¡ and I laughed about it for a while. She told me that she was lying down ready to go to sleep and was thinking about me so she decided to give me a call. I told her that it was interesting because I was thinking about her as well. We laughed that it must be that ESP thing again!
We were both talking very `excitedly' to each other. It was very apparent in her voice and I liked that a lot. She said that it is a lot quieter now referring to the fact that my roommates were no longer screaming like earlier. I agreed so in both of our cases, personally referring to the kids. We were both being extremely cute and witty. I referred to her as Boss once like I used to quite often. That stemmed off of when she would ask me to do something like get Cord's cup. She would always laugh and tell me not to forget it. I joked that she's no longer my boss and she said that she never really was in the first place. I told her that's not true because I'd do anything for her. She liked that and then said that she should have taken advantage of that. I took on a more serious tone and asked her if she'd really take advantage of me. She switched to a reassuring voice and said of course not. I then told her pretty seductively that's too bad and she laughed very slyly. I really liked the way her laugh sounded right then. I then laughed and said she just doesn't seem to be saying anything right tonight. It was funny and we laughed. We were both in damn good moods. I guess she really liked my letter!!!
Sunday, August 29, 1993
August 29, 1993 - Sunday - Dad Dan!, Shari, Ashley
August 29, 1993 - Sunday
My little baby called me Dad Dan when Shar¡ first put him on the phone today! I asked her what he called me when she got back on the phone and she said, `Dan Dan,' at first but then admitted what I already knew was true. She then let me hear how he says Daddy Dan like she taught him. I thought it was really cute and told her so.
I walked with Ashley on Friday morning to Biology as usual and we had a lot of fun joking around this time. She still hasn't mentioned a word about any boyfriends or this guy she supposedly likes. We were slouching in our chairs and would lean on each other at times. It was a fun way to keep warmer in that freezing class. We talked about adapting a lot again. Maybe I should tell her that our `touching' was a way of `adapting!' I pulled out my letter to Shar¡ and put some stamps on it towards the end of class. She asked me who it was to and joked that she was being all nosy. I had addressed the envelope to Mrs. Sharice Ann Carson-Brown and was really glad I did because then I said that it was to this woman I know in Brandon. It turns out that Ashley lives `two minutes' from Bloomingdale Estates where Shar¡ lives and Laura lives right in there as well!!! I joked that now I can make some really awesome worth-while trips to Brandon.
I've been thinking about how I could tell or show Shar¡ about my journal because it is a pretty important part of myself and is how I release and store all of my thoughts, experiences, and emotions in hard copy. I'd really like for them to be decent enough for her to be able to read them because I plan on letting the woman I marry read them all. There are just so many things that I write down that would be so greatly exaggerated in the jealous mind of a woman that I know I would lose Shar¡ in a second if she were to read this. It's truly unfortunate.
Ashley was on her way to the fitness center after class and I walked most of the way with her to mail Shar¡'s card and to pick up a syllabus for my classics class. I always have one free period after biology and I stood there at the mailbox talking to Ashley for quite a long time. I was really close to her and was almost looking straight down onto her. Ed popped up out of nowhere and messed with my backpack to get my attention. I was really glad to have him see me talking to the girl because I brought it up in front of the roommates later that night. She eagerly suggested that I start coming and working out with her after class on Wednesdays and Fridays. There is nothing more that I need than a little encouragement and an actual schedule to follow on working out. It's an awesome way to keep myself stuck to the trend since I'll be there anyway. I really hope it works out.
I told Noel about my emotional situation and gave him a few excerpts from the letter. I showed him a picture as well and he was kind of taken back by the fact that she has Cord. It just all seemed so sudden to him I think that I have jumped into a relationship like this. He offered no real advice like I need any anyway. I know what I want and am going to try my damnedest to keep her and Cord. Read that honey!!!
That's one thing that Shar¡ and I also do when we're on the phone. She'll come up with pet names like sweetheart or honey. However, I'm not aloud to call her dear because as she puts it, `I'm not a four legged animal with antlers!' Of course I still use `dear' periodically when the occasion seems fit. I personally don't like using pet names because they have always seemed so impersonal to me and are too often used when you are perturbed with the other person. I told my mom on Friday that I want to transfer to USF and get an apartment with Shar¡. I also told her that if we got married, just think of the financial aid I could get! I kind of brushed that part off as a joke but overall she didn't seem as surprised or negative as I really expected. That was pretty weird. I told Shar¡ that this morning when we talked and she asked kind of surprisingly but kind of hopefully if I really wanted to do that. I don't know.
All signs point to Shar¡ making a trip up my way next weekend and we have talked somewhat about that. We said something today about her doing something when she goes back. She then said that was if she goes back! I reminded her that she's leaving Cord which pretty much forces her to go back. She quickly realized her error and agreed with me. I told her about the family housing on campus and she was really surprised that they have that. I know that she would never like living up here anyway because I know I don't and I have college to keep me busy. I just had a stark realization to how much this place really sucks!!! I want to be home where I can drive, make phone calls, love and be loved. Shit this sucks...
Anyway, I told my mom about Shar¡'s planned trip and then joked that since it is Labor Day weekend, everybody is going home. I told my mom that I told Shar¡ that all of the cars would be gone and we'd have no way to get around. Shar¡ said that it's OK! which instantly points to sex. My mom kind of quickly voiced her unacceptance and said that now they're coming up! I told her to relax and that Ed's parents are coming up. She said that she wanted to call them to make sure. It was really funny. I shared the story with my roommates later. Shar¡ was still under the impression that students and guests couldn't share beds and said that it really sucked. I quickly removed that falsity from her head.
Ed, Roswitha (his girlfriend), and I all walked to the fitness center and worked out for a while on Friday night. Shar¡ had called early because she was going out with Christina to Mulligans that night. She took Cord with her which was cool. She told me that she had to go to the emergency room in the morning because she has a bacterial infection on her tonsils. They have always bothered her but the doctors won't remove them. Buffy told me the whole story one time. Anyway, I worked on my arms, chest and abdominals. My arms are still painfully sore. I spent the rest of the night creating the beginning of my new collage around the room of our room. It consists entirely of pictures of models out of magazines like Vogue. I piece the pictures together very creatively to make a very appealing look. The guys always love all of the sexy women, and the girls always love the fact that I have remained tasteful and thus appreciative. It works great both ways!
I actually went on a walk across campus early on Saturday morning. I stopped by the bookstore as a result of deciding to take a walk, but not as a reason to. I could have easily biked. I was up and wide awake at nine which really surprised Chris when he called from Jacksonville to get a phone number. I then left on my walk. I told everybody that I really am going nuts because of Shar¡ if I actually went on a walk. It's something I never ever do except in Georgia unless I have a damn good reason. It actually felt pretty good and I did it again this morning. It's amazing what this girl is causing me to do for myself!!! I then went and laid out all day, both days at the pool and swam a lot. I'm really going to take advantage of that luxury this semester. I am much darker now than I was at the beginning of the weekend and Shar¡ told me that I had better not end up darker than her!
Ed, Jon, and I went grocery shopping at Albertson's Saturday evening. I also ran into Target and bought four cases of PEpsi! to get me through a large majority of the semester. I only needed a very few things at Albertson's and they were mainly for Shar¡. I bought her favorite condiments, two two liter bottles of Pepsi, cool ranch Doritos, and big sweet pickles. I told her later and she said it was sweet. We had a really cool conversation at the grocery store about things that `melt when you lick them!' The favorites ended up being cotton candy and a woman's feelings!!! Shar¡ mentioned giving caramel candy to Cord which reminded me of that and I asked her if they melt when you lick them and then told her about our conversation. She said that it must have gotten pretty gross and I said that licking that isn't gross but I don't think she got it.
I told Jon that and he said that we probably won't do that and I asked why not? He asked me if I had done it before and I said yes and told him all about Abby. I'd love to with Shar¡! Another really cool thing is that I'm not suffering from penis envy right now because she got into my pants Saturday night and already knows exactly what to expect. Taking things into one's own hands always leaves less to one's imagination! Ha ha. Jon and I started talking about fantasies. He and I have never had this conversation and he seemed somewhat interested. I admitted to my beach fantasy that literally flopped with Abby. I then told him that just taking a shower with someone will be cool because I never have before. Another is having sex in the pit out in front of Beaty in the middle of the night. Jon added a brilliant one - in the middle of a heavy warm rainstorm!!! That would be amazing!!! Chris and I have always wanted to have sex in an empty classroom in Turlington Hall [not with each other!]. That stems off of sexual fantasies with girls during high school and so on actually during class. It would be awesome, though.
Shar¡ kind of seemed bitchy and distant on Saturday night and we didn't talk for long. She asked to call me back later if neither one of us went out. She ended up going to a really cool Pink Floyd laser light show and didn't call. I thought to myself that she'd call this morning while I was in the shower and I'd have to pay for it again when I call her back. Of course she did! I waited until after I had cooked and eaten brunch before calling her back. We then had what I consider to be one of the best phone conversations we've ever had. We just kept talking the entire time and both seemed somewhat excited. She explained in person about her guy friends and told me that she does really care how I feel about it and wants to know! It was really cool. Sometimes I can't see how it was Shar¡ who wrote the letter because she rarely shows her emotional side enough to let anyone knows she really has one. She doesn't express it easily and neither do I. In that respect we seem so much alike. When she was telling me in person today part of what she had written in the letter, I almost melted again!
I brought up the fact that she seemed bitchy he night before. She said that it wasn't at me, it was at Christina who ended up stranding Shar¡ at her house because she didn't feel like driving her home! Shar¡ had to call a friend in Temple Terrace to take her all of the way home!!! She said that she felt bad for not calling me back but she did go out. I just told her that I had no way of knowing why she was acting like that if she didn't tell me. We're both learning to express ourselves much better to each other and I'm really excited to see how she responds to my love letter...
My little baby called me Dad Dan when Shar¡ first put him on the phone today! I asked her what he called me when she got back on the phone and she said, `Dan Dan,' at first but then admitted what I already knew was true. She then let me hear how he says Daddy Dan like she taught him. I thought it was really cute and told her so.
I walked with Ashley on Friday morning to Biology as usual and we had a lot of fun joking around this time. She still hasn't mentioned a word about any boyfriends or this guy she supposedly likes. We were slouching in our chairs and would lean on each other at times. It was a fun way to keep warmer in that freezing class. We talked about adapting a lot again. Maybe I should tell her that our `touching' was a way of `adapting!' I pulled out my letter to Shar¡ and put some stamps on it towards the end of class. She asked me who it was to and joked that she was being all nosy. I had addressed the envelope to Mrs. Sharice Ann Carson-Brown and was really glad I did because then I said that it was to this woman I know in Brandon. It turns out that Ashley lives `two minutes' from Bloomingdale Estates where Shar¡ lives and Laura lives right in there as well!!! I joked that now I can make some really awesome worth-while trips to Brandon.
I've been thinking about how I could tell or show Shar¡ about my journal because it is a pretty important part of myself and is how I release and store all of my thoughts, experiences, and emotions in hard copy. I'd really like for them to be decent enough for her to be able to read them because I plan on letting the woman I marry read them all. There are just so many things that I write down that would be so greatly exaggerated in the jealous mind of a woman that I know I would lose Shar¡ in a second if she were to read this. It's truly unfortunate.
Ashley was on her way to the fitness center after class and I walked most of the way with her to mail Shar¡'s card and to pick up a syllabus for my classics class. I always have one free period after biology and I stood there at the mailbox talking to Ashley for quite a long time. I was really close to her and was almost looking straight down onto her. Ed popped up out of nowhere and messed with my backpack to get my attention. I was really glad to have him see me talking to the girl because I brought it up in front of the roommates later that night. She eagerly suggested that I start coming and working out with her after class on Wednesdays and Fridays. There is nothing more that I need than a little encouragement and an actual schedule to follow on working out. It's an awesome way to keep myself stuck to the trend since I'll be there anyway. I really hope it works out.
I told Noel about my emotional situation and gave him a few excerpts from the letter. I showed him a picture as well and he was kind of taken back by the fact that she has Cord. It just all seemed so sudden to him I think that I have jumped into a relationship like this. He offered no real advice like I need any anyway. I know what I want and am going to try my damnedest to keep her and Cord. Read that honey!!!
That's one thing that Shar¡ and I also do when we're on the phone. She'll come up with pet names like sweetheart or honey. However, I'm not aloud to call her dear because as she puts it, `I'm not a four legged animal with antlers!' Of course I still use `dear' periodically when the occasion seems fit. I personally don't like using pet names because they have always seemed so impersonal to me and are too often used when you are perturbed with the other person. I told my mom on Friday that I want to transfer to USF and get an apartment with Shar¡. I also told her that if we got married, just think of the financial aid I could get! I kind of brushed that part off as a joke but overall she didn't seem as surprised or negative as I really expected. That was pretty weird. I told Shar¡ that this morning when we talked and she asked kind of surprisingly but kind of hopefully if I really wanted to do that. I don't know.
All signs point to Shar¡ making a trip up my way next weekend and we have talked somewhat about that. We said something today about her doing something when she goes back. She then said that was if she goes back! I reminded her that she's leaving Cord which pretty much forces her to go back. She quickly realized her error and agreed with me. I told her about the family housing on campus and she was really surprised that they have that. I know that she would never like living up here anyway because I know I don't and I have college to keep me busy. I just had a stark realization to how much this place really sucks!!! I want to be home where I can drive, make phone calls, love and be loved. Shit this sucks...
Anyway, I told my mom about Shar¡'s planned trip and then joked that since it is Labor Day weekend, everybody is going home. I told my mom that I told Shar¡ that all of the cars would be gone and we'd have no way to get around. Shar¡ said that it's OK! which instantly points to sex. My mom kind of quickly voiced her unacceptance and said that now they're coming up! I told her to relax and that Ed's parents are coming up. She said that she wanted to call them to make sure. It was really funny. I shared the story with my roommates later. Shar¡ was still under the impression that students and guests couldn't share beds and said that it really sucked. I quickly removed that falsity from her head.
Ed, Roswitha (his girlfriend), and I all walked to the fitness center and worked out for a while on Friday night. Shar¡ had called early because she was going out with Christina to Mulligans that night. She took Cord with her which was cool. She told me that she had to go to the emergency room in the morning because she has a bacterial infection on her tonsils. They have always bothered her but the doctors won't remove them. Buffy told me the whole story one time. Anyway, I worked on my arms, chest and abdominals. My arms are still painfully sore. I spent the rest of the night creating the beginning of my new collage around the room of our room. It consists entirely of pictures of models out of magazines like Vogue. I piece the pictures together very creatively to make a very appealing look. The guys always love all of the sexy women, and the girls always love the fact that I have remained tasteful and thus appreciative. It works great both ways!
I actually went on a walk across campus early on Saturday morning. I stopped by the bookstore as a result of deciding to take a walk, but not as a reason to. I could have easily biked. I was up and wide awake at nine which really surprised Chris when he called from Jacksonville to get a phone number. I then left on my walk. I told everybody that I really am going nuts because of Shar¡ if I actually went on a walk. It's something I never ever do except in Georgia unless I have a damn good reason. It actually felt pretty good and I did it again this morning. It's amazing what this girl is causing me to do for myself!!! I then went and laid out all day, both days at the pool and swam a lot. I'm really going to take advantage of that luxury this semester. I am much darker now than I was at the beginning of the weekend and Shar¡ told me that I had better not end up darker than her!
Ed, Jon, and I went grocery shopping at Albertson's Saturday evening. I also ran into Target and bought four cases of PEpsi! to get me through a large majority of the semester. I only needed a very few things at Albertson's and they were mainly for Shar¡. I bought her favorite condiments, two two liter bottles of Pepsi, cool ranch Doritos, and big sweet pickles. I told her later and she said it was sweet. We had a really cool conversation at the grocery store about things that `melt when you lick them!' The favorites ended up being cotton candy and a woman's feelings!!! Shar¡ mentioned giving caramel candy to Cord which reminded me of that and I asked her if they melt when you lick them and then told her about our conversation. She said that it must have gotten pretty gross and I said that licking that isn't gross but I don't think she got it.
I told Jon that and he said that we probably won't do that and I asked why not? He asked me if I had done it before and I said yes and told him all about Abby. I'd love to with Shar¡! Another really cool thing is that I'm not suffering from penis envy right now because she got into my pants Saturday night and already knows exactly what to expect. Taking things into one's own hands always leaves less to one's imagination! Ha ha. Jon and I started talking about fantasies. He and I have never had this conversation and he seemed somewhat interested. I admitted to my beach fantasy that literally flopped with Abby. I then told him that just taking a shower with someone will be cool because I never have before. Another is having sex in the pit out in front of Beaty in the middle of the night. Jon added a brilliant one - in the middle of a heavy warm rainstorm!!! That would be amazing!!! Chris and I have always wanted to have sex in an empty classroom in Turlington Hall [not with each other!]. That stems off of sexual fantasies with girls during high school and so on actually during class. It would be awesome, though.
Shar¡ kind of seemed bitchy and distant on Saturday night and we didn't talk for long. She asked to call me back later if neither one of us went out. She ended up going to a really cool Pink Floyd laser light show and didn't call. I thought to myself that she'd call this morning while I was in the shower and I'd have to pay for it again when I call her back. Of course she did! I waited until after I had cooked and eaten brunch before calling her back. We then had what I consider to be one of the best phone conversations we've ever had. We just kept talking the entire time and both seemed somewhat excited. She explained in person about her guy friends and told me that she does really care how I feel about it and wants to know! It was really cool. Sometimes I can't see how it was Shar¡ who wrote the letter because she rarely shows her emotional side enough to let anyone knows she really has one. She doesn't express it easily and neither do I. In that respect we seem so much alike. When she was telling me in person today part of what she had written in the letter, I almost melted again!
I brought up the fact that she seemed bitchy he night before. She said that it wasn't at me, it was at Christina who ended up stranding Shar¡ at her house because she didn't feel like driving her home! Shar¡ had to call a friend in Temple Terrace to take her all of the way home!!! She said that she felt bad for not calling me back but she did go out. I just told her that I had no way of knowing why she was acting like that if she didn't tell me. We're both learning to express ourselves much better to each other and I'm really excited to see how she responds to my love letter...
Thursday, August 26, 1993
August 26, 1993 - Thursday - Shari's second 'love'!!!
I'm flying!!! I'm on a natural high that feels damn good right now. It's partially ego, mostly love!
I waited around this morning for Ashley to call so we could walk to Biology together. Chris had to meet a teacher during second period and was going to walk with me. I had my letters ready to mail home to my family and to Carey Ann. Ashley called and said that she wasn't in her room and said that I'd have to take on Biology alone. She said that she'd return the favor someday when I don't want to go to class. I walked with Chris to the postal box and then we headed our separate ways. I got to class and since Thursdays are solely discussion days, the teacher said that she would be reviewing what we had gone over the past few days for all of the newer people and won't ever teach anything new on Thursdays. I thought that was cool and left. I had started to think that today was turning into a bad day because Ashley hadn't showed up and all, because my days usually seem to follow a certain trend. I believe fate is funny that way. I knew that if I let that happen, I wouldn't receive my letter from Shar¡ or it would be much worse that I was expecting.
I decided to quickly turn things around and cheer myself up. I figured that I wouldn't have been able to leave Biology so early if Ashley had been there. That way I was able to head over to Criser and get the copy of my schedule that I needed and then head home early. I walked into the room to find a maintenance guy actually pumping out our bathtub drain. I was really surprised how quickly they responded and that cheered me up. I asked him if he could loosen up the shower head because it literally hurt to take a shower because of all of the mineral deposits in the head. We had to do that last year. He said that he'd just get me a whole new shower head!, and then I knew that my turnaround day had come true. I cleaned the bathtub to perfection after he left and was able to brag to everyone else about what I had done in the bathroom. They were all just as happy. That was about the only nuisance in our entire dorm except for the fact that the beds had yet to be bunked.
Just a little while later while Chris and I were eating lunch, they came in and bunked the beds as well! I then felt that the luck couldn't stop now so I headed downstairs to check the mail...
I had fully prepared myself for a disappointment as I was in the elevator but when I saw two envelopes in our mailbox I just knew that one was from Shar¡. I pulled them out and there it was! The stamp had a giant red heart on it and said, `LOVE.' She had written, `XXX OOO,' and, `Sealed with a lick cause a kiss wouldn't stick!!!,' across the back. I knew right then that this was going to be a good letter and I sat down to read it right in the commons. I wanted to read it to myself first without my roommates being there to harass me. She wrote the following:
I brought it back upstairs almost bouncing excitedly the entire way. I shared it with Chris and we had a long talk about Shar¡ and how she and I met. I had a class to go to eventually that is my new honors class. I took my camera and some coupons to get my film developed after class at Eckerds. I couldn't wait any longer to see them. My class ended up being pretty awesome. it was really interesting and the professor is a woman who is a little older but still attractive. I tried to flirt a little bit and even pulled her overhead screen down when she couldn't reach it. Afterwards I walked to Eckerds and put the film in and then headed across the street to McDonalds to eat and kill the hour it takes to develop the film. I sat there and read Shar¡'s letter over and over again. It just all seemed so unbelievable, like a dream. I thought to myself that I am either amazed and completely excited about what might be coming for us, or the girl is a damn good bullshitter or was trying to scare me off with the Daddy and `commitment' things. That's reading far too much into it I hope but it still does show my slight mistrust of her.
I went back to Eckerds and went shopping for a little while. I looked at all of the love cards and went through them finding each one far too mushy or lame. I then saw a beautiful one that turned out to have a brilliant message in it. I knew that I couldn't have said it better myself and was far beyond pleased with myself for finding it. Damn I was in a good mood. The card said something like, `Who?, When?, Where?, Why?' and the inside said, `You, Any time, Any place, You know why!' It was an awesome card! I looked at the pictures on the walk home and they came out rather impressively. She looks a little bigger in the pictures than she really is though. She's still gorgeous and I showed he off a lot when I got home. Even though she begged me not to, I showed the guys the one of her white butt sticking out but only gave them a quick glance at the one of her in her underwear because the way her thighs burned really emphasized her stretch marks. But between us it's a gorgeous picture the way she's holding her hair and showing off her tits.
I called her at three once everybody had left but she wasn't there. She ended up coming home just minutes later and called me not long after. We ended up not really talking about the letter to any great detail and I told her so as I wrote her a pretty emotional reply right after we got off the phone. When we talked later on I mentioned that and she said that I didn't sound like I wanted to talk about either. She really wanted me to read her my letter over the phone but I couldn't. She told me all about this talk she and her father had about me and how he really thinks she should settle down with me and mary me if things all go right! I had already heard this from Buffy because we talked for a little while before she gave Shar¡ the phone. She told me that Shar¡'s dad is really on my side and is trying to keep her from running about with her friends all of the time for my sake. That's pretty cool! Anyway, Shar¡ told me all about their talk and so on. That was pretty cool, too. She also told me that she had talked to Michael's mother the other day for the first time in six months and told her all about me. That impressed me.
Shar¡ and I also talked somewhat sexually for essentially the first time. She said that she and Christy might have a lingerie sale party and she said that she might buy something for her to wear for me when she comes up! I told her my general dislike for the things, skin is much better. She then said that it kind of... and I cut her off agreeing with her and told her to do so. I then wanted her to finish her sentence but she wouldn't. I told her about getting the shower finally fixed and she had said that she actually took a shower with Cord today. The three of us used to play this game that Cord and I were jealous of each other and always wanted Mommy's last kiss. I told her I was jealous and she promised that I'll get my turn.
Emily called me today as well! I recognized her voice almost instantly and we caught up as quick as possible. She told me that she's taking a year off from school and going to do missionary work down in Guatemala!!! I told her that I'd still take her to Busch Gardens if she wants to go as long as she drives and gives me back my Garth Brooks CD! We had a cool little talk but I had to get her off the phone when the second line beeped because I was expecting Shar¡. I gave Jenn a call and we talked for about half an hour, too. She's pretty much deciding not to pledge to her sorority until Spring and we talked a lot about that. She's still sick and wasn't really in the hyper condition to screw around like we usually do when we talk.
Leigh Anne from next door had come over once and asked me if we'd help her build a computer desk later on. I obliged since I've put together lot's of those prefabricated things at home and know what I'm doing. Her cute roommate was also there when I went over and both were in their pajamas. Leigh Anne helped me separate my hardware and we had a great time being perverted about my hardware and about screwing. It got really intense and I loved it. They both kept `accidentally' flashing me to a sense and the other one would always giggle and I would smile and pretend nothing was up. It was funny. They were both amazed and extremely impressed at how quickly I created a complex and beautiful desk for them. I did a great job and they were very happy. We'll I'm off to a good start with the neighbors this year!
Ashley gave me a call at 10:30 and I called her back after Chris was done using the phone. She told me that she would definitely be going to class tomorrow morning. She said she had gone to a party on Wednesday night and got wasted and never came home. She apologized and said that she hoped I'm not mad with her. Of course not. We talked socially for a few minutes and then I asked about Laura. She had answered the phone and I didn't even say hello to her because I wasn't really paying attention that I knew anybody there buy Ashley! I got back on the phone with Laura and apologized and started talking to her and actually being pretty nice. We were being perverted, too which was quite a bit of fun. We ended up talking for over forty-five minutes!!! which really surprised me. that was really cool though. Chris didn't know who I was talking to but kept laughing at some of the things I was saying to her. It was pretty funny and ass kissy.
But only Shar¡ matters any more... this is a feeling I haven't had in a long time where I actually don't have the need to be constantly talking to a girl. I have found social satisfaction...
I waited around this morning for Ashley to call so we could walk to Biology together. Chris had to meet a teacher during second period and was going to walk with me. I had my letters ready to mail home to my family and to Carey Ann. Ashley called and said that she wasn't in her room and said that I'd have to take on Biology alone. She said that she'd return the favor someday when I don't want to go to class. I walked with Chris to the postal box and then we headed our separate ways. I got to class and since Thursdays are solely discussion days, the teacher said that she would be reviewing what we had gone over the past few days for all of the newer people and won't ever teach anything new on Thursdays. I thought that was cool and left. I had started to think that today was turning into a bad day because Ashley hadn't showed up and all, because my days usually seem to follow a certain trend. I believe fate is funny that way. I knew that if I let that happen, I wouldn't receive my letter from Shar¡ or it would be much worse that I was expecting.
I decided to quickly turn things around and cheer myself up. I figured that I wouldn't have been able to leave Biology so early if Ashley had been there. That way I was able to head over to Criser and get the copy of my schedule that I needed and then head home early. I walked into the room to find a maintenance guy actually pumping out our bathtub drain. I was really surprised how quickly they responded and that cheered me up. I asked him if he could loosen up the shower head because it literally hurt to take a shower because of all of the mineral deposits in the head. We had to do that last year. He said that he'd just get me a whole new shower head!, and then I knew that my turnaround day had come true. I cleaned the bathtub to perfection after he left and was able to brag to everyone else about what I had done in the bathroom. They were all just as happy. That was about the only nuisance in our entire dorm except for the fact that the beds had yet to be bunked.
Just a little while later while Chris and I were eating lunch, they came in and bunked the beds as well! I then felt that the luck couldn't stop now so I headed downstairs to check the mail...
I had fully prepared myself for a disappointment as I was in the elevator but when I saw two envelopes in our mailbox I just knew that one was from Shar¡. I pulled them out and there it was! The stamp had a giant red heart on it and said, `LOVE.' She had written, `XXX OOO,' and, `Sealed with a lick cause a kiss wouldn't stick!!!,' across the back. I knew right then that this was going to be a good letter and I sat down to read it right in the commons. I wanted to read it to myself first without my roommates being there to harass me. She wrote the following:
Dan,
It's only been a couple of hours since you've been gone and it seems like forever. I really miss you alot and even more as each day goes by. I just wanted to write and tell you how much I've enjoyed the time we've spent together and everything we do. I also wanted to tell you how much I've fallen in love with you and everything about you. {That fucking killed me when I read that line!!!!! My eyes grew wide and I swear I almost had a heart attack!!! I just couldn't believe my eyes!!!} I always told myself that after 5 yrs. with someone I would never fall in love again, but I have and hopefully I won't get hurt this time. Cord has also enjoyed you being around and I can tell because he has asked for you already. It really means alot to me how you and Cord get along because he's gonna need someone here for him to. I would like for you to tell me how you feel about Cord being there all the time, (and hopefully it will) but if our relationship last for along time then he will end up calling you Daddy Dan because as you know his Dad will never come and see him and Cord has only seen him 1 or 2 times so he doesn't really know him. As far as I'm concerned I don't ever want him to come around. I also want you to understand something........ While you are up there I will be going to the beach and to clubs and other things and yes it will be with with guys mostly but I don't want you to be worried about it because these guys are only friends. See while I was growing up I was the only girl around because I was the only girl cousin that lives here in Tampa and all my cousins always brought their guy friends around and that's why all my friends are mostly guys. But I friends that I do have are strictly friends and nothing else, they have been friends with me for about 4 or 5 yrs. If it bothers you I would like for you to say something because I do care what you think. I am not going to be out looking for anyone else because I have my heart and mind set on you. When I do look around and see other guys all I see is you. When you left Saturday night I cried as I watched you drive away because it hurt to see you go. But then I said if it was ment to be you will call, write, and we'll see each other. Are you coming down the 10th and stay with me at Christy's? Well I guess I'll let ya go but not for long. I'll be thinking about you and counting the days that go by.
Love, Shar¡
I brought it back upstairs almost bouncing excitedly the entire way. I shared it with Chris and we had a long talk about Shar¡ and how she and I met. I had a class to go to eventually that is my new honors class. I took my camera and some coupons to get my film developed after class at Eckerds. I couldn't wait any longer to see them. My class ended up being pretty awesome. it was really interesting and the professor is a woman who is a little older but still attractive. I tried to flirt a little bit and even pulled her overhead screen down when she couldn't reach it. Afterwards I walked to Eckerds and put the film in and then headed across the street to McDonalds to eat and kill the hour it takes to develop the film. I sat there and read Shar¡'s letter over and over again. It just all seemed so unbelievable, like a dream. I thought to myself that I am either amazed and completely excited about what might be coming for us, or the girl is a damn good bullshitter or was trying to scare me off with the Daddy and `commitment' things. That's reading far too much into it I hope but it still does show my slight mistrust of her.
I went back to Eckerds and went shopping for a little while. I looked at all of the love cards and went through them finding each one far too mushy or lame. I then saw a beautiful one that turned out to have a brilliant message in it. I knew that I couldn't have said it better myself and was far beyond pleased with myself for finding it. Damn I was in a good mood. The card said something like, `Who?, When?, Where?, Why?' and the inside said, `You, Any time, Any place, You know why!' It was an awesome card! I looked at the pictures on the walk home and they came out rather impressively. She looks a little bigger in the pictures than she really is though. She's still gorgeous and I showed he off a lot when I got home. Even though she begged me not to, I showed the guys the one of her white butt sticking out but only gave them a quick glance at the one of her in her underwear because the way her thighs burned really emphasized her stretch marks. But between us it's a gorgeous picture the way she's holding her hair and showing off her tits.
I called her at three once everybody had left but she wasn't there. She ended up coming home just minutes later and called me not long after. We ended up not really talking about the letter to any great detail and I told her so as I wrote her a pretty emotional reply right after we got off the phone. When we talked later on I mentioned that and she said that I didn't sound like I wanted to talk about either. She really wanted me to read her my letter over the phone but I couldn't. She told me all about this talk she and her father had about me and how he really thinks she should settle down with me and mary me if things all go right! I had already heard this from Buffy because we talked for a little while before she gave Shar¡ the phone. She told me that Shar¡'s dad is really on my side and is trying to keep her from running about with her friends all of the time for my sake. That's pretty cool! Anyway, Shar¡ told me all about their talk and so on. That was pretty cool, too. She also told me that she had talked to Michael's mother the other day for the first time in six months and told her all about me. That impressed me.
Shar¡ and I also talked somewhat sexually for essentially the first time. She said that she and Christy might have a lingerie sale party and she said that she might buy something for her to wear for me when she comes up! I told her my general dislike for the things, skin is much better. She then said that it kind of... and I cut her off agreeing with her and told her to do so. I then wanted her to finish her sentence but she wouldn't. I told her about getting the shower finally fixed and she had said that she actually took a shower with Cord today. The three of us used to play this game that Cord and I were jealous of each other and always wanted Mommy's last kiss. I told her I was jealous and she promised that I'll get my turn.
Emily called me today as well! I recognized her voice almost instantly and we caught up as quick as possible. She told me that she's taking a year off from school and going to do missionary work down in Guatemala!!! I told her that I'd still take her to Busch Gardens if she wants to go as long as she drives and gives me back my Garth Brooks CD! We had a cool little talk but I had to get her off the phone when the second line beeped because I was expecting Shar¡. I gave Jenn a call and we talked for about half an hour, too. She's pretty much deciding not to pledge to her sorority until Spring and we talked a lot about that. She's still sick and wasn't really in the hyper condition to screw around like we usually do when we talk.
Leigh Anne from next door had come over once and asked me if we'd help her build a computer desk later on. I obliged since I've put together lot's of those prefabricated things at home and know what I'm doing. Her cute roommate was also there when I went over and both were in their pajamas. Leigh Anne helped me separate my hardware and we had a great time being perverted about my hardware and about screwing. It got really intense and I loved it. They both kept `accidentally' flashing me to a sense and the other one would always giggle and I would smile and pretend nothing was up. It was funny. They were both amazed and extremely impressed at how quickly I created a complex and beautiful desk for them. I did a great job and they were very happy. We'll I'm off to a good start with the neighbors this year!
Ashley gave me a call at 10:30 and I called her back after Chris was done using the phone. She told me that she would definitely be going to class tomorrow morning. She said she had gone to a party on Wednesday night and got wasted and never came home. She apologized and said that she hoped I'm not mad with her. Of course not. We talked socially for a few minutes and then I asked about Laura. She had answered the phone and I didn't even say hello to her because I wasn't really paying attention that I knew anybody there buy Ashley! I got back on the phone with Laura and apologized and started talking to her and actually being pretty nice. We were being perverted, too which was quite a bit of fun. We ended up talking for over forty-five minutes!!! which really surprised me. that was really cool though. Chris didn't know who I was talking to but kept laughing at some of the things I was saying to her. It was pretty funny and ass kissy.
But only Shar¡ matters any more... this is a feeling I haven't had in a long time where I actually don't have the need to be constantly talking to a girl. I have found social satisfaction...
Wednesday, August 25, 1993
August 25, 1993 - Wednesday - Shari, Sounds like love?
I talked to my lover quite a bit tonight. She called me for half an hour at about seven. She was kind of bitchy she says because all Buffy and her dad have been doing is arguing and it's driving her nuts. She said that she wants to get a job at the pub up the street and move out pretty soon. She doesn't know if it'll be with Christina because she doesn't have a job yet. She didn't go jet skiing today like she said she might but she said she will tomorrow. She had Cord talk to me on the phone and he came on and said, `Hi Dan!' really plainly. I always ask him what he's doing and he says he's with Mommy. He then said he loves me, and kissed the phone goodbye. Shar¡ said that she got my letter in the mail today and she read it out loud to Cord. When she read, `Love, Dan!,' Cord looked at it wide eyed and pointed asking, `Dan?' She said he was all happy when he found out it was from me. That's really cute.
When we talked again at nine, she sounded much better and relaxed. She said the kids were asleep and she took a walk that took a lot of her mind. I wondered for a second what guy she stopped to see. She said that she went with a friend of hers and Cord to the park and played some basketball and what not. She told me she was sitting in the garage smoking and thinking about me then so she gave me a call. We talked about her coming up and all and I ended up giving her directions to our dorm. She said if she didn't have Cord, she'd be up here right now. I joked about her moving up to Gainesville but she really doesn't want to do that. At the end of our talk I started to say something but the changed my mind saying it was stupid. She made me ask her if she'd move in with me if I ever transfer to USF. I don't remember what she said but she told me that wasn't stupid at all.
Chris actually just told me that I sound like I'm in love with the girl. That's a surprise form his mouth. I played the video of Shar¡ through the radio. Jon asked me what I was doing and Chris said to leave daddy alone while he listens to his kid!
Ashley called me in the morning again and we walked to class. We were actually kind of playing footsies for a few minutes. It was cute. I found out that she is in honors which helped motivate me to sign up for an honors class for that empty space I have. It worked out cool because I got a history communication class that fulfills requirements that I dearly need. Plus I'll still be in the honors program which is cool. I actually NEED every class that I'm taking this semester for basic studies and I actually love every one that I've been to. This is going to be a very learning semester. I made a friend from Clearwater in my writing class, and hung out with Noel again in German Culture. We both love that class because we are so fascinated by the German's characteristics and actions throughout history. That's going to be a great class!!!
I picked out a cute girl from Monday's Psychology class and decided to meet her today. No use sitting by myself when there are girls to be had. We said hi and I instantly started talking to her. I moved over and we blossomed from there. She is a very attractive freshman sorority pledge from Bushnell just north of Tampa. Her name is Mary and we talked and joked around during class and on our walk home. She lives in Broward. Hopefully that'll be the start of something cool and at least we both have a new friend in Psych class.
I wrote my family a four page letter and also sent one along with a picture to Carey Ann. I talked with Leigh Anne, our neighbor a lot today as well. She's really cool and I don't think she knows I have a girlfriend yet. She's quite attractive and I've caught her looking at me during the few times I'm not looking at her.
Dear Shar¡,
All is fair in love, but no love is fairer than mine. - Dan
When we talked again at nine, she sounded much better and relaxed. She said the kids were asleep and she took a walk that took a lot of her mind. I wondered for a second what guy she stopped to see. She said that she went with a friend of hers and Cord to the park and played some basketball and what not. She told me she was sitting in the garage smoking and thinking about me then so she gave me a call. We talked about her coming up and all and I ended up giving her directions to our dorm. She said if she didn't have Cord, she'd be up here right now. I joked about her moving up to Gainesville but she really doesn't want to do that. At the end of our talk I started to say something but the changed my mind saying it was stupid. She made me ask her if she'd move in with me if I ever transfer to USF. I don't remember what she said but she told me that wasn't stupid at all.
Chris actually just told me that I sound like I'm in love with the girl. That's a surprise form his mouth. I played the video of Shar¡ through the radio. Jon asked me what I was doing and Chris said to leave daddy alone while he listens to his kid!
Ashley called me in the morning again and we walked to class. We were actually kind of playing footsies for a few minutes. It was cute. I found out that she is in honors which helped motivate me to sign up for an honors class for that empty space I have. It worked out cool because I got a history communication class that fulfills requirements that I dearly need. Plus I'll still be in the honors program which is cool. I actually NEED every class that I'm taking this semester for basic studies and I actually love every one that I've been to. This is going to be a very learning semester. I made a friend from Clearwater in my writing class, and hung out with Noel again in German Culture. We both love that class because we are so fascinated by the German's characteristics and actions throughout history. That's going to be a great class!!!
I picked out a cute girl from Monday's Psychology class and decided to meet her today. No use sitting by myself when there are girls to be had. We said hi and I instantly started talking to her. I moved over and we blossomed from there. She is a very attractive freshman sorority pledge from Bushnell just north of Tampa. Her name is Mary and we talked and joked around during class and on our walk home. She lives in Broward. Hopefully that'll be the start of something cool and at least we both have a new friend in Psych class.
I wrote my family a four page letter and also sent one along with a picture to Carey Ann. I talked with Leigh Anne, our neighbor a lot today as well. She's really cool and I don't think she knows I have a girlfriend yet. She's quite attractive and I've caught her looking at me during the few times I'm not looking at her.
Dear Shar¡,
All is fair in love, but no love is fairer than mine. - Dan
Tuesday, August 24, 1993
August 24, 1993 - Tuesday - Survival of the fittest!
Ashley gave me a call this morning at 8:15, just like she said she would. I then ran downstairs and met her at her door. She was wearing her heather workout outfit with her soft sport bra clearly showing through the sides of her tank top. She looked pretty damn good. She had her hair up in a pony tail and had on just the basic makeup. She had on extra eyeliner that made her eyes really sexy when she'd look at you right. We talked and joked around all the way to class. I hunted forever this morning until I found my razor and shaved. I actually dressed up a little and made myself look as good as possible. I wanted to make up for that gnarly first impression I made last night.
When we got to class we found a couple of seats towards the back of the rapidly filling auditorium. There are almost six hundred and fifty people in that class! She told me that she had her first class as a freshman in that auditorium and it scared the hell out of her because it was the typical movie's representation of college. I had a lot of small classes back then and I didn't have that experience. She's just now pledging into AXê and knows a lot of people but isn't popular enough yet to run around hugging all of the guys in the class like some of the sorority girls were. That means I got to keep the beauty to myself. I saw this girl who was roommates with Tama last year and we talked for a minute and then I talked to Fran‡oise for a few. Ashley kind of just looked at me once and smiled. I was also glad to have Fran‡oise see me with her.
We joked around the entire class time making cool and witty comments. We both really seem to be on each others level about our outlook towards things. Our teacher has that great British accent and it adds some awesome comic relief that wakes us up so early in the morning. Part of the lecture was about Darwin's survival of the fittest and we had a lot to say about that. It was really funny. We also were leaning back and relaxing by the time class was coming to an end. We turned our heads and looked at each other once very sexily. That was really cool. The time kind of flew by and we were joking around some more as we walked to Turlington together. I'd say our relationship is off to a good start. I then ran into the Hub and bought some school books and then headed home.
I gave Laura a call at 12:15 so that we could head over to our chemistry class together. I walked down there to sit with her and her roommate while they ate their salads and we talked for a little while. They asked how Ashley was this morning and I said that she was alright and we actually talked all period. They both asked if she bitched all period or talked about this guy she knows and I when I said no to both they were really surprised. I think I kind of like this girl! She showed up a few minutes later to walk to class with us and a friend form her sorority came as well. We were introduced and they all joked about there being another `Dan!' The new girl then told me that it's really good to be named Dan around that room and smiled... We all then walked to class. I swore I saw Emily walking by and I made sure to let her see me with Laura and Ashley.
We were late to class and I knew there wouldn't be any seats together, especially not three. We walked in and there were a couple of empty spread out ones in the back and we just stood there for a few minutes. I took the initiative and found a row with three empty seats and went into it and made the people scoot all of the way to the end of the row so we could sit together. Laura was a little taken back and I turned to Ashley and told her that was an example of survival of the fittest. She laughed and winked at me. We made it through that class and I asked Ashley to call me again tomorrow morning. I was walking out of our row and told Laura what pretty hair she has and she was shocked that I actually complimented her. I then walked home with her and we parted just the slightest bit shakily. It's time to start being the nicest guy in the world again.
I called Jennifer Hirsch after being home for a while and she was really happy to hear from me. It turns out that there were only two A's in our German class last semester and mine was one of them. That after drinking the beer and all! Ha ha! She whined that Elaine really did love me a lot and it was really obvious. We started reverting to our awesome old conversations about goo and everything else. We both told each other how much we missed each other and having our little conversations. We both agreed that there is nobody else that either of us talk to that talk to each other the way we do. We caught up on the summer and all that's been going on. Of course I never said a word about Shar¡. I ended up eventually giving her my phone number and we promised to go out soon.
I also met the fourth neighbor named Amy while I was outside on the phone with Jenn. She seems really nice and I later told her roommate that I thought she was cute.
I fixed dinner and then gave my lover a call. She actually seemed happy to hear from me and I asked her how my most favorite person is doing. We talked for a good forty minutes and I even got a chance to say hello to Cord. She has him saying my name really well now and he was trying to kiss me through the phone without Shar¡ having to say a thing. That's cool. The kid has good taste! Shar¡ told me that he had been asking yesterday, `Where's Dan?'! That's really cute. We talked about the fact that the first time Shar¡ comes up here, she'll probably be donning Cord. She asked me how I felt about that and I told her that I think it's perfectly fine. Actually he'll be the reason we have to stay home and around campus and spend more time alone together!!!
Shar¡ told me that she did get my letter into the mail today. She warned me again that it does get pretty emotional and tells me how she feels which is exactly what I want. She did say that she thinks I'll like it but not to write to her again until I get it in a couple of days. Oh boy... She tells me that she posed a single outstanding question that I'll probably want to call her about and answer when I get the letter. I can't wait for the thing to get here!!! Right now it's the hottest thing on my mind!
When we got to class we found a couple of seats towards the back of the rapidly filling auditorium. There are almost six hundred and fifty people in that class! She told me that she had her first class as a freshman in that auditorium and it scared the hell out of her because it was the typical movie's representation of college. I had a lot of small classes back then and I didn't have that experience. She's just now pledging into AXê and knows a lot of people but isn't popular enough yet to run around hugging all of the guys in the class like some of the sorority girls were. That means I got to keep the beauty to myself. I saw this girl who was roommates with Tama last year and we talked for a minute and then I talked to Fran‡oise for a few. Ashley kind of just looked at me once and smiled. I was also glad to have Fran‡oise see me with her.
We joked around the entire class time making cool and witty comments. We both really seem to be on each others level about our outlook towards things. Our teacher has that great British accent and it adds some awesome comic relief that wakes us up so early in the morning. Part of the lecture was about Darwin's survival of the fittest and we had a lot to say about that. It was really funny. We also were leaning back and relaxing by the time class was coming to an end. We turned our heads and looked at each other once very sexily. That was really cool. The time kind of flew by and we were joking around some more as we walked to Turlington together. I'd say our relationship is off to a good start. I then ran into the Hub and bought some school books and then headed home.
I gave Laura a call at 12:15 so that we could head over to our chemistry class together. I walked down there to sit with her and her roommate while they ate their salads and we talked for a little while. They asked how Ashley was this morning and I said that she was alright and we actually talked all period. They both asked if she bitched all period or talked about this guy she knows and I when I said no to both they were really surprised. I think I kind of like this girl! She showed up a few minutes later to walk to class with us and a friend form her sorority came as well. We were introduced and they all joked about there being another `Dan!' The new girl then told me that it's really good to be named Dan around that room and smiled... We all then walked to class. I swore I saw Emily walking by and I made sure to let her see me with Laura and Ashley.
We were late to class and I knew there wouldn't be any seats together, especially not three. We walked in and there were a couple of empty spread out ones in the back and we just stood there for a few minutes. I took the initiative and found a row with three empty seats and went into it and made the people scoot all of the way to the end of the row so we could sit together. Laura was a little taken back and I turned to Ashley and told her that was an example of survival of the fittest. She laughed and winked at me. We made it through that class and I asked Ashley to call me again tomorrow morning. I was walking out of our row and told Laura what pretty hair she has and she was shocked that I actually complimented her. I then walked home with her and we parted just the slightest bit shakily. It's time to start being the nicest guy in the world again.
I called Jennifer Hirsch after being home for a while and she was really happy to hear from me. It turns out that there were only two A's in our German class last semester and mine was one of them. That after drinking the beer and all! Ha ha! She whined that Elaine really did love me a lot and it was really obvious. We started reverting to our awesome old conversations about goo and everything else. We both told each other how much we missed each other and having our little conversations. We both agreed that there is nobody else that either of us talk to that talk to each other the way we do. We caught up on the summer and all that's been going on. Of course I never said a word about Shar¡. I ended up eventually giving her my phone number and we promised to go out soon.
I also met the fourth neighbor named Amy while I was outside on the phone with Jenn. She seems really nice and I later told her roommate that I thought she was cute.
I fixed dinner and then gave my lover a call. She actually seemed happy to hear from me and I asked her how my most favorite person is doing. We talked for a good forty minutes and I even got a chance to say hello to Cord. She has him saying my name really well now and he was trying to kiss me through the phone without Shar¡ having to say a thing. That's cool. The kid has good taste! Shar¡ told me that he had been asking yesterday, `Where's Dan?'! That's really cute. We talked about the fact that the first time Shar¡ comes up here, she'll probably be donning Cord. She asked me how I felt about that and I told her that I think it's perfectly fine. Actually he'll be the reason we have to stay home and around campus and spend more time alone together!!!
Shar¡ told me that she did get my letter into the mail today. She warned me again that it does get pretty emotional and tells me how she feels which is exactly what I want. She did say that she thinks I'll like it but not to write to her again until I get it in a couple of days. Oh boy... She tells me that she posed a single outstanding question that I'll probably want to call her about and answer when I get the letter. I can't wait for the thing to get here!!! Right now it's the hottest thing on my mind!
Monday, August 23, 1993
August 23, 1993 - Monday - Back at UF, Laura's room
Well today was the first day of classes again and I had a pretty cool time. I had to wake up for an 8:30 biology class that's right up the walkway from Beaty which is cool. I decided to walk it to look at the girls and boy they looked fine! They also look back! I had a lot of great flirts today. All you have to do is smile a little and they'll melt! John from Busch Gardens saw me and called my name on the way to class and we talked for just a few minutes. I then talked with a cute girl in the class for a few seconds but nothing much came out of it. The British woman (cool!) told us that due to the new extremely self-explanatory lab books, that Monday's lecture will be cancelled for the rest of the semester!!! Awesome! That means no second period after those long weekends! I ran into Fran‡oise in my class and we talked for a minute, too. Some guy came up to me and started talking to me all the way back to Beaty. He's kind of a dork but not too bad. I wasn't that thrilled though.
I went home and ate a big meal and then started writing Shar¡ a letter. I started getting a bit emotional myself when it was time to leave for class. I walked with Kostas to Turlington and then went to my class. My writing class is about comic books which I think suck but this guys is a graduate professor and really made the stuff sound interesting. I think I'll give it a try. I then walked around the corner to my next class in the same building to find Christina and Noel sitting on the floor. It's a German civilization and culture class and I already have friends in there. Christina was looking more gorgeous than ever and was wearing a shirt that was almost showing off her entire tanned tits! Beautiful. We talked and almost even flirted. I reminded her of our run in at Adventure Island over the summer and she told me that she was really happy when she saw me thinking how cool it was that somebody actually knows her!!! It must have made her all tingly... She said that she came back once more and looked for me but didn't know if I'd be there.
She went to add the class because she had yet to get it so Noel and I were looking at the girls. There was an abundance of cute ones, not overly cute, actual fuckable girls! I was flirting with a couple. After class Noel took down my new number and we all said goodbye because Christina had come back and had successfully added the class. That's awesome!
I went home and ate a big meal and then started writing Shar¡ a letter. I started getting a bit emotional myself when it was time to leave for class. I walked with Kostas to Turlington and then went to my class. My writing class is about comic books which I think suck but this guys is a graduate professor and really made the stuff sound interesting. I think I'll give it a try. I then walked around the corner to my next class in the same building to find Christina and Noel sitting on the floor. It's a German civilization and culture class and I already have friends in there. Christina was looking more gorgeous than ever and was wearing a shirt that was almost showing off her entire tanned tits! Beautiful. We talked and almost even flirted. I reminded her of our run in at Adventure Island over the summer and she told me that she was really happy when she saw me thinking how cool it was that somebody actually knows her!!! It must have made her all tingly... She said that she came back once more and looked for me but didn't know if I'd be there.
She went to add the class because she had yet to get it so Noel and I were looking at the girls. There was an abundance of cute ones, not overly cute, actual fuckable girls! I was flirting with a couple. After class Noel took down my new number and we all said goodbye because Christina had come back and had successfully added the class. That's awesome!
Sunday, August 22, 1993
August 22, 1993 - Sunday - Making a physical bond!
Talk about a day completely devoted to sex and you'd be speaking of my last day with Shar¡. She gave me a call yesterday morning at 9:30 and we talked for a little while. She, Buffy and the kids were going up to Wal Mart and the liquor store to pick up a few things. We decided that I'd get ready and work my way over while they were shopping. She told me that if I did by chance beat them back, then to please wait for her and not leave. Of course, anything for her! It rained on the way and I ended up hydroplaning on the entrance ramp to the interstate. Luckily there was nobody around me and I quickly regained control, turned myself around, and was again on my merry way.
I got to her house at 11:15 and they weren't there. It was already well past the time she should have been back, but I didn't really care right then. A few minute later I drove past the two stores hoping to maybe see the mini van to no avail. I then headed back and took a nap in my car out in the driveway. The rain had cooled the air down a lot and I thought to myself how I would not be sitting there if it were blazing hot. At 12:15 I started to get pissed because I can't stand waiting. I decided to go get some back to school shopping done at Wal Mart instead of wasting time. Of course I passed them just down the street from her house and Buffy flashed the headlamps and I saw Shar¡ wave to me. I took another way to their house and pulled up right behind them. I quickly `bitched' at them for being so late. Buffy helped explain how they had also run into Bealls and found Shar¡ a really cool outfit to wear when we went out last night. She showed me the shorts which were black, stretchy, and tiny. There were two `convenient' zippers on the front to the left and to the right of the middle. The midriff top was low cut and also had the two silver zippers straight up from the bottom to the underside of each tit. It was pretty cool.
Buffy and Shar¡ then cooked us a quick little lunch which mainly consisted of two boxes of macaroni and cheese. I ate a lot and Shar¡ was really surprised that I finished. Afterwards, Buffy decided to take the kids over to one of her relative's house to go swimming. I really wonder if she did that so we could be alone together. Shar¡ put Cord bed for a nap and closed the garage door behind Buffy as she left. Shar¡ then went and tried on her outfit. She then came up to me on the couch and after a short verbal exchange she straddled my lap and we started making out. I haven't ever enjoyed kissing a girl as much as I do Shar¡. We pull ourselves against each other very tightly and really seem to both enjoy what we are doing. My intentions for the day were to mess around with her far more than kissing to create a physical bond that will glue our emotional bond even tighter. I really think that will cause her to see more `believability' to our relationship.
I moved my hands all over her upper body and brought them around the outer curves of her tits. through the tight polyester they felt really comfortable. We had already joked about the convenience zippers so I went for them. They were kind of hard to get unzipped, being more for show than anything else. She also had my arms pinned under hers but I managed. I reached in and put my hands on her breasts through the lace bra and then went straight for the back hoping the buckle would be there waiting. It was and soon it was free. I slid my hands under the sides of each cup and towards the front as I pulled both the top and her bra away exposing her soft tits to my hands. I kind of saw what she meant when she said that she wanted a boob job because they stretched out when she was pregnant. She also told me that her mom wouldn't let her wear a bra until she was ten even though she already had big tits and that caused them to sag. I still thoroughly enjoyed them. I cupped them in my hands and rolled her nipples each between a thumb and a forefinger. She has the tiny cute nipples that I really like.
This sounds like some kind of fucking porno story, but oh well. I was thrilled that we were already at it so early in the morning giving us the opportunity to enjoy each other all day long. She pulled up close to me after we had finished almost like she was trying to hide her tits from me. It seems like she might somewhat embarrassed of the stretch marks. She pulled her shirt back down and we then were talking about whether or not to wash her outfit to get rid of the `new' smell. We finally did and I helped her dry and hang it up so that it wouldn't get lint or wrinkles on it. She really liked the help it seemed. She kept mentioning that she wanted to take a shower and that I could come sit in the bathroom so that we could keep each other company. We were still out in the garage and Christina called. We were both sitting in a single chair and I was undressed down to my shorts. I also have never felt more comfortable undressing around somebody before. She sat there and rubbed my whole body and picked every zit I had with her fingernails. We kept laughing about it but she says it's a habit she's had for along time.
She finally went to take her shower and called me in once it was going. Christina had called again and asked Shar¡ what she was doing and I overheard her say that we were getting ready to take a shower. While I was in there she opened the edge of the curtain just enough that I could see her face and one tit for an instant. She looked good wet and her breasts are very good looking in person and bellowed out nicely the way she was leaning over! She shaved her legs while she was in there and all along I was thinking how much I'd like to be in there. I'll never hesitate again. When we were at Mulligans later with Christina, she asked me if I had a fun shower. Shar¡ blurted for her not to say anything but then Shar¡ told me that she was going to let me into the shower with her today. Christina then agreed and made fun that I was too scared to get in. Her dad ended up not going to the gym and walked in about twenty minutes after she did get out of the shower and I reminded her that he would have caught us in there and then look at what would have happened! She said that he didn't come home until after she was out but I told her that we would have been in there much longer if I was with her!!! I then sighed saying, `That sucks...' in a depressed voice and she asked me why in her curious voice. I told her it was because I didn't get to shower wit her and she smiled...
During our original kissing while we were sprawled all over each other, we would stop and talk every once in a while. We were talking about accents and how some people pronounce things differently like naked and `necked' like Kimmeth says it. She didn't quite understand what I was saying though and got this gorgeous confused look on her face. I told her that I screwed her up on purpose because she's really cute when she's confused and we laughed really hard. It also covered up my blunder really well. It was cool. Now when I saw something that goes over her head I tell her that I just wanted to see the confused look again!
Afterwards she came out of the shower and stayed wrapped up in the towel for a while. We were hugging each other tight. We were talking about her burnt butt and she pulled aside the towel and showed it to me. That was cute. I hung out with her in Emily's room for a long time while she was wearing only tiny thong underwear and her magenta bra. We started joking around and ended up taking a picture of her in it. I'm supposed to blow it up and hang it on my ceiling up here in Gainesville now!
Just after she got dressed dear old dad walked in the door. We took Cord and took off to go shopping for a while. She wanted to have a set of door keys made so she wouldn't have to wake them up to come in the house every time she went out. She also said that she wanted to run into Winn Dixie but I had to stay with Cord in the car. I asked her why and she said that she doesn't want me to see what she does. I wondered to myself what guy she was going in to see. I then hoped she was buying a diaphragm so we could screw tonight but figured it would be a card which is cool, too... because I carry condoms. She knows that because they are always in my book bag and I've seen her find them before. We went to Wal Mart and they told her she'd have to wait a while for the keys so we went shopping for me, finding some of the stuff I'd need in Gainesville. I was having fun hanging all over her.
Afterwards, we went into Bealls for a while and found her some fishnet stockings for her outfit. I thought about how I used to go shopping for stuff like that in Gainesville with Valerie but didn't say anything to Shar¡. I haven't bee in a Bealls in a long time and found some awesome clothes that I'd love to have. It was pretty cool. I was carrying Cord the whole time for her while she shopped and lifted him up in the air making him laugh. I looked up to see Shar¡ smiling very happily at me and I jokingly blushed. She said that she really likes how much I like Cord and how much he likes me. She had also said just a few minutes earlier that for a second, Cord looked a lot like me. That was interesting.
We then took off to Winn Dixie and I parked up in front of the store to wait for her. She bought a Coke for Cord to drink at the machine first and brought it back. We started talking as if we had just met and were both trying really hard to come on to each other. I asked her if she wanted to go out that night and she said yes. She complimented me on my cute kid in the back and I asked her if she wanted to get in and see him. It was a really funny exchange. She then went inside and took forever. I always have this fear that people are going to leave me and I always think that she's done so when she's late or takes too long. I'm quickly learning not to, but that's just something that's deep rooted within me and doesn't pertain to her specifically. It has a lot to do with a person's social needs and Kimmeth and I used to call it our fear of rejection. When she came out I could see that it was a card and kind of felt bad that I hadn't gotten her anything. But oh well, she does have my ring and I did buy her the Budweiser shirt.
Soon after we made it to her house she went into the kitchen and wrote the card for me. She then brought it into the living room where her dad and I were sitting. I've always been embarrassed to open cards from people in front of the person giving it to me so she ran to the bathroom. The card itself said, `In the whole world, there's just one you... and you're very special to me!' She then wrote under that, `I've enjoyed the time we have spent together, and the days. Hopefully you won't go away and forget about me, because you'll always be on my mind. Study hard and keep in touch. Love Shar¡,' with a big heart where the accent should be on her name. that was really cool. When she came out she asked me if I read the whole thing and I said except for the long poem to the left. She said that I have to read that, too. I asked her of she had read it and she said yes, that she read twenty of them to find this one. It went:
It sounds just like somebody who has recovered from a suicide attempt and if she read into it what I did then I really like it. But still most important is her note which I thanked her and kissed her for. We then laid on each other on the couch for a while watching TV. It's the first time we've ever sprawled all over each other in front of her dad, we've always done it in front of Buffy.
Buffy had gone up to the store right after we got there to pick up some chips, drinks, and some other stuff for dinner. Shar¡ cooked me a delicious Steakum sandwich on a kaiser roll. We had Doritos, potato salad, and whole sweet pickles with our sandwiches. Her's was a ham, meaning she cooked just for me. While we ate, she used me for a footrest and we joked about that. We then decided to go on a walk through the neighborhood. We went barefoot and pulled Cord along behind us in a red wagon. It was actually fun and we were talking a lot. She said how cute I looked pulling Cord in the wagon and said she wished she had the camera with her. I figured out a way to pull Cord so that she and I could walk with our arms around each other on the way back to her house. It was cool. She joked about how her dad hadn't said anything when he saw her tiny little outfit drying on the clothesline. I joked that he probably thought it was Emily's since it was so small. We laughed really hard about that one and she liked to enough that she had to tell Buffy as soon as we got back.
I then went and took a shower and put on my clothes to wear out. She picked out what I was wearing from all to the clothes in the back of my car. I brought almost everything I hadn't already taken to Gainesville. Afterwards her dad got out the video camera and I figured out how to use it while Shar¡ was in the shower. She came out in her outfit and I videotaped her. She kept giggling for me to turn it off and it was really funny. We then went and hung out in the bathroom and I recorded her putting her makeup on while we talked. I had complained earlier today that stockings would suck because they would block our `easy access' zippers on the shorts. She agreed that they would and then decided in the bathroom that they looked tacky. She asked me if she should take them off and I said yes. She did and I liked her legs much much better. I recorded her some more in the kitchen while she was rubbing aloe lotion on her legs. She was saying that we should have gotten the camera out earlier in the day to record stuff. True, like her running around in her underwear. That would be a trip!
We soon headed out. Christina had called earlier and even though Shar¡ and I were sitting there, Buffy told her this big lie that we had already left and wouldn't be back until two-thirty. Oh yea, Shar¡'s dad said she could stay out until 2:30! instead of twelve since she'd be with me and it was my last day. What a surprise! Even though she put on lipstick, we were kissing at every red light. When we got to Tally Hos we found us a seat in the very front of a packed house and she sung Sister Christian. I went up and had her mom get us two cups of Pepsi. There was nobody from Shar¡'s family there and it really sucked. Christina also had called the place and did again so Shar¡ answered it. It turns out that Christina's good friend in Ohio died and she was really upset so Shar¡ let her come down. I really didn't want her to be there at all because it was our night out, and Shar¡ didn't really either, but she said that she was already bawling on the phone. We stayed a little while once she showed up but then decided to head to Mulligans where it would be easier to record Shar¡ singing The Rose.
We met up with Shar¡'s uncle John and her cousin and we were all talking an joking around. There both pretty cool. We then grabbed us a round table near the bar when on emptied and hung out for a while. The time seemed to fly by and we were both kind of quiet. I did record Shar¡'s chest for a little while and we were all laughing about that. When we walked in Shar¡ asked Christina if her `lover' was there referring to this guy named Bear who Christina is in love with. I piped up and asked Christina if the other one was there, referring to Paxton, and she said no because she'd recognize that little sports car anywhere. I don't remember Shar¡'s expression at the time and I still find it very intriguing that she knows that I know, and often wonder why she thinks I've stayed shut up about it. Maybe I should tell her that I know she knows that I know. He he.
Christina got called up first to sing and then they eventually got a duet singing Grandpa. I recorded Shar¡ from the table and she didn't even realize until the very end and she got really nervous when she found out. It started getting really late and the DJ said that at least four people were singed up to sing The Rose and he said it probably wouldn't happen. I told her that I wanted to leave early enough that we could spend some time together alone and she agreed. I told her that I don't care if I don't get her singing The Rose, I can always do it later. I wasn't really sure if she was pausing not to abandon Christina or to not give us enough time to fuck around. I hope it was just a bit of overactive pessimism coming out. Christina looked at us and asked what was wrong and I told her that we were both extremely bored with her. I was kind of kidding, but when Shar¡ said that we were splitting less than a minute later, Christina took what I said as true and stomped out of the place. Shar¡ had to go pay for Christina's tab that she left and then we walked out.
Christina waited until we got out o the cars and then she slammed on the gas and sped off. Shar¡ and I started laughing that she must be pissed off. I found it really funny. There were a whole group of people that were standing right near us that looked. Shar¡ said she won't hear from her for a week and I told her to give her until morning. We got in and I hauled ass to her house. We only had an hour and I fully planned on going to the park near her house. It's dark and pretty isolated but close enough to her house that we can finish up our time there. When we got near her house I asked her if she wanted to stop somewhere or go home, and she suggested the park. Smart girl, and I told her that's what I thought. She said to get out of the car and we hugged really tight and then started walking around on the dark courts. I thought to ask her if she's ever screwed on a basketball court, but didn't. We looked for a bench but didn't see any. We then slowly walked back to the car after standing out in the open making out.
She almost walked towards the door but I steered her to the hood and she hopped up. We started making out again and rubbing each other very sensuously. I didn't want to get into her shirt and pants in the little bit of time we had unless she would stay out so I quickly debated over which and quickly came to a decision. Leave her tits alone! I didn't want her to think that all I want is a final cheap feel before I leave. Kind of.
I have this really good slow tickle massage with the tips of my fingers that she really loves. I moved my hands just above her tits and moved my fingers over them, down her belly, and out on her thighs a bit. Our mouths were pressed so hard together and it felt awesome. She had her hands way up in my shirt and was rubbing my chest and back. I then slid my hand onto her crotch and started rubbing her up and down pressing with two or three of my fingers. I then waited a second until she had brought her hands down to the top of my jeans again. I used my hands very lightly to keep her hands down near my crotch as I unbuckled my belt. She took the push and went to work. She unbuttoned my pants and undid the zipper. She then reached in and pulled up my dick and started giving me a hand job. It felt so damn good. Her fingernails even felt good, I've learned to like small bits of pain with her.
I wonder now if I would have at least gotten a blow job if I had of let her go, but I went for her shorts. I didn't want her to have taken her stockings off for nothing. I undid the zippers and reached into her underwear. She shaves the outer sides of her bush for the tiny bathing suits she wears and I wondered before if she was entirely shaved. She's not and that's good because I don't like that much. I kept working my hands down as far as I could with her sitting there on the car like that and I didn't get as far as I wanted. I was rubbing her clit though. She kept at it slowly in my pants and we would stop as a car would drive by. The entire time we were kissing (which is the most awesome way to keep a girl from telling you to stop!) and we finally pulled our lips apart and separated our hands from each others genitalia.
She made me look at the time and we had five minutes. I sat down in the passenger seat, killed the light from the door being open. I wanted to fuck her so bad right then and asked her if she wanted to chance being late. She said that she wants to be able to se me again later so she had better not. She knew what I wanted and I knew she probably wouldn't yet. But hell, why not try? We ended up kissing a final few times and I then drove her home. I left the car on as not to wake her parents by recranking it but I did get out to help her carry the stuff in. We then walked back to the door and hugged long and hard. I'd swear to God that I saw the first hints of tears in her eyes. Nothing could have meant more to me.
She asked me to call her before I left in the morning and I said that I would. I then sped home with the bluest balls I've ever had and an incredible urge. I almost ran into the median on Interstate 4 so I turned up the radio real loud and started chugging a two liter bottle of Pepsi. All I wanted was to make it home. I couldn't help but think about what a fitting end it would be for wonderful me to die on the way home when it felt like my life was ending anyway. I just wondered how Shar¡ would feel. When I got home at 3:30 I packed the car for two hours before taking a two hour nap. I then finished packing and was about ready to call Shar¡ when she called. We talked for as long as possible until my dad got tired of telling me that it was time to go.
On the trip up we stopped in Altoona and visited Granny. Father went and picked up Sue and I saw Annie as well. We ate a big dinner and I helped Granny cook by preparing and cooking the pork chops and frying the okra and cornbread. I knew that she'd brag about me helping her to everybody she sees now and she already started to when she saw Sue and Annie. She said that I cook better than most of her granddaughters. We left after two and made it to Gainesville by four. Our timing was again perfect and we had no trouble borrowing a float or getting into the elevator. Chris showed up just as we were leaving and we saw Ed drive by in the parking lot. I spent $144 dollars on groceries and I had guessed that it would cost one forty. Father had guessed at least one seventy-five and I had to brag on my accuracy.
Just as we walked in the door with al of the groceries, the telephone rang and I made them answer it saying that it's not for me because nobody knows I'm here yet. It turned out to be Shar¡!!! I was supposed to call when I was finished but she wanted to anyway. I talked to her for a little bit but then said that I needed to put away my groceries and would call her in a little while. I then made sure to tell her to call me in an hour if I don't call just in case my long distance service had been cut over the summer. She agreed and we bid each other farewell. I called home for two seconds and told them Father would soon be leaving. When he did I called Shar¡ and we talked for half an hour. She told me she wrote me a letter right after we talked this morning. She said it is three pages and pretty emotional!!! I hope she doesn't get second thoughts about anything and change her mind about sending it before she does. I'll be waiting for the thing with nervous anticipation. I really can't wait to see what she has to say.
I had to get off the phone for the night because we all were leaving to go get ice cream with our neighbors. I met Ed's new girlfriend Roswitha who's parents are entirely German. She's pretty nice and we've talked a little. I also fit a phone call to Laura in between the time my dad left and when I called Shar¡. She seemed glad to hear from me and we talked for a little while. She invited me to a party but I didn't want to desert my roommates on the first night out. I had told Shar¡ since Satarday morning that we'd all probably go out just to see each other on our first night. She really didn't want me to go out for some reason and we talked a lot about that. We also joked a lot about how she was going to keep me from coming to Gainesville. But anyway, I also walked next door to meet our neighbors and talked to three of the girls there for a few minutes. Two of them are pretty cute and I already know the third from last year.
Well, we ended up taking the three girls out and Kostas and I sat with them in the ice cream shoppe. We talked about how the two cute ones want to become exotic dancers and that went on for a long time. We then all started talking about sperm banks and how we guys can make fifty dollars a shot. We kept talking that they could go in and dance to excite us when we go. We then told them that they can come dance for us in the room anytime. Somebody said we could run our own little sperm bank and I told the cutest one that she can come over and do all the work for us. It actually sounded better than that and was a direct suggestion that she should come over and jack me off. It was quite funny though and maybe this little neighborship will work out nicely.
I got to her house at 11:15 and they weren't there. It was already well past the time she should have been back, but I didn't really care right then. A few minute later I drove past the two stores hoping to maybe see the mini van to no avail. I then headed back and took a nap in my car out in the driveway. The rain had cooled the air down a lot and I thought to myself how I would not be sitting there if it were blazing hot. At 12:15 I started to get pissed because I can't stand waiting. I decided to go get some back to school shopping done at Wal Mart instead of wasting time. Of course I passed them just down the street from her house and Buffy flashed the headlamps and I saw Shar¡ wave to me. I took another way to their house and pulled up right behind them. I quickly `bitched' at them for being so late. Buffy helped explain how they had also run into Bealls and found Shar¡ a really cool outfit to wear when we went out last night. She showed me the shorts which were black, stretchy, and tiny. There were two `convenient' zippers on the front to the left and to the right of the middle. The midriff top was low cut and also had the two silver zippers straight up from the bottom to the underside of each tit. It was pretty cool.
Buffy and Shar¡ then cooked us a quick little lunch which mainly consisted of two boxes of macaroni and cheese. I ate a lot and Shar¡ was really surprised that I finished. Afterwards, Buffy decided to take the kids over to one of her relative's house to go swimming. I really wonder if she did that so we could be alone together. Shar¡ put Cord bed for a nap and closed the garage door behind Buffy as she left. Shar¡ then went and tried on her outfit. She then came up to me on the couch and after a short verbal exchange she straddled my lap and we started making out. I haven't ever enjoyed kissing a girl as much as I do Shar¡. We pull ourselves against each other very tightly and really seem to both enjoy what we are doing. My intentions for the day were to mess around with her far more than kissing to create a physical bond that will glue our emotional bond even tighter. I really think that will cause her to see more `believability' to our relationship.
I moved my hands all over her upper body and brought them around the outer curves of her tits. through the tight polyester they felt really comfortable. We had already joked about the convenience zippers so I went for them. They were kind of hard to get unzipped, being more for show than anything else. She also had my arms pinned under hers but I managed. I reached in and put my hands on her breasts through the lace bra and then went straight for the back hoping the buckle would be there waiting. It was and soon it was free. I slid my hands under the sides of each cup and towards the front as I pulled both the top and her bra away exposing her soft tits to my hands. I kind of saw what she meant when she said that she wanted a boob job because they stretched out when she was pregnant. She also told me that her mom wouldn't let her wear a bra until she was ten even though she already had big tits and that caused them to sag. I still thoroughly enjoyed them. I cupped them in my hands and rolled her nipples each between a thumb and a forefinger. She has the tiny cute nipples that I really like.
This sounds like some kind of fucking porno story, but oh well. I was thrilled that we were already at it so early in the morning giving us the opportunity to enjoy each other all day long. She pulled up close to me after we had finished almost like she was trying to hide her tits from me. It seems like she might somewhat embarrassed of the stretch marks. She pulled her shirt back down and we then were talking about whether or not to wash her outfit to get rid of the `new' smell. We finally did and I helped her dry and hang it up so that it wouldn't get lint or wrinkles on it. She really liked the help it seemed. She kept mentioning that she wanted to take a shower and that I could come sit in the bathroom so that we could keep each other company. We were still out in the garage and Christina called. We were both sitting in a single chair and I was undressed down to my shorts. I also have never felt more comfortable undressing around somebody before. She sat there and rubbed my whole body and picked every zit I had with her fingernails. We kept laughing about it but she says it's a habit she's had for along time.
She finally went to take her shower and called me in once it was going. Christina had called again and asked Shar¡ what she was doing and I overheard her say that we were getting ready to take a shower. While I was in there she opened the edge of the curtain just enough that I could see her face and one tit for an instant. She looked good wet and her breasts are very good looking in person and bellowed out nicely the way she was leaning over! She shaved her legs while she was in there and all along I was thinking how much I'd like to be in there. I'll never hesitate again. When we were at Mulligans later with Christina, she asked me if I had a fun shower. Shar¡ blurted for her not to say anything but then Shar¡ told me that she was going to let me into the shower with her today. Christina then agreed and made fun that I was too scared to get in. Her dad ended up not going to the gym and walked in about twenty minutes after she did get out of the shower and I reminded her that he would have caught us in there and then look at what would have happened! She said that he didn't come home until after she was out but I told her that we would have been in there much longer if I was with her!!! I then sighed saying, `That sucks...' in a depressed voice and she asked me why in her curious voice. I told her it was because I didn't get to shower wit her and she smiled...
During our original kissing while we were sprawled all over each other, we would stop and talk every once in a while. We were talking about accents and how some people pronounce things differently like naked and `necked' like Kimmeth says it. She didn't quite understand what I was saying though and got this gorgeous confused look on her face. I told her that I screwed her up on purpose because she's really cute when she's confused and we laughed really hard. It also covered up my blunder really well. It was cool. Now when I saw something that goes over her head I tell her that I just wanted to see the confused look again!
Afterwards she came out of the shower and stayed wrapped up in the towel for a while. We were hugging each other tight. We were talking about her burnt butt and she pulled aside the towel and showed it to me. That was cute. I hung out with her in Emily's room for a long time while she was wearing only tiny thong underwear and her magenta bra. We started joking around and ended up taking a picture of her in it. I'm supposed to blow it up and hang it on my ceiling up here in Gainesville now!
Just after she got dressed dear old dad walked in the door. We took Cord and took off to go shopping for a while. She wanted to have a set of door keys made so she wouldn't have to wake them up to come in the house every time she went out. She also said that she wanted to run into Winn Dixie but I had to stay with Cord in the car. I asked her why and she said that she doesn't want me to see what she does. I wondered to myself what guy she was going in to see. I then hoped she was buying a diaphragm so we could screw tonight but figured it would be a card which is cool, too... because I carry condoms. She knows that because they are always in my book bag and I've seen her find them before. We went to Wal Mart and they told her she'd have to wait a while for the keys so we went shopping for me, finding some of the stuff I'd need in Gainesville. I was having fun hanging all over her.
Afterwards, we went into Bealls for a while and found her some fishnet stockings for her outfit. I thought about how I used to go shopping for stuff like that in Gainesville with Valerie but didn't say anything to Shar¡. I haven't bee in a Bealls in a long time and found some awesome clothes that I'd love to have. It was pretty cool. I was carrying Cord the whole time for her while she shopped and lifted him up in the air making him laugh. I looked up to see Shar¡ smiling very happily at me and I jokingly blushed. She said that she really likes how much I like Cord and how much he likes me. She had also said just a few minutes earlier that for a second, Cord looked a lot like me. That was interesting.
We then took off to Winn Dixie and I parked up in front of the store to wait for her. She bought a Coke for Cord to drink at the machine first and brought it back. We started talking as if we had just met and were both trying really hard to come on to each other. I asked her if she wanted to go out that night and she said yes. She complimented me on my cute kid in the back and I asked her if she wanted to get in and see him. It was a really funny exchange. She then went inside and took forever. I always have this fear that people are going to leave me and I always think that she's done so when she's late or takes too long. I'm quickly learning not to, but that's just something that's deep rooted within me and doesn't pertain to her specifically. It has a lot to do with a person's social needs and Kimmeth and I used to call it our fear of rejection. When she came out I could see that it was a card and kind of felt bad that I hadn't gotten her anything. But oh well, she does have my ring and I did buy her the Budweiser shirt.
Soon after we made it to her house she went into the kitchen and wrote the card for me. She then brought it into the living room where her dad and I were sitting. I've always been embarrassed to open cards from people in front of the person giving it to me so she ran to the bathroom. The card itself said, `In the whole world, there's just one you... and you're very special to me!' She then wrote under that, `I've enjoyed the time we have spent together, and the days. Hopefully you won't go away and forget about me, because you'll always be on my mind. Study hard and keep in touch. Love Shar¡,' with a big heart where the accent should be on her name. that was really cool. When she came out she asked me if I read the whole thing and I said except for the long poem to the left. She said that I have to read that, too. I asked her of she had read it and she said yes, that she read twenty of them to find this one. It went:
In spite of the fact we complain and lament
And view this old world with much discontent,
Deploring conditions and grumbling because
There's so much injustice and so many flaws,
It's a wonderful world and it's people like you
Who make it that way by the things that they do-
For a warm, ready smile or a kind, thoughtful deed,
Or a hand outstretched in an hour of need
Can change our whole outlook
and make the world bright
Where a minute before just nothing seemed right...
and so on...
Helen Steiner Rice
It sounds just like somebody who has recovered from a suicide attempt and if she read into it what I did then I really like it. But still most important is her note which I thanked her and kissed her for. We then laid on each other on the couch for a while watching TV. It's the first time we've ever sprawled all over each other in front of her dad, we've always done it in front of Buffy.
Buffy had gone up to the store right after we got there to pick up some chips, drinks, and some other stuff for dinner. Shar¡ cooked me a delicious Steakum sandwich on a kaiser roll. We had Doritos, potato salad, and whole sweet pickles with our sandwiches. Her's was a ham, meaning she cooked just for me. While we ate, she used me for a footrest and we joked about that. We then decided to go on a walk through the neighborhood. We went barefoot and pulled Cord along behind us in a red wagon. It was actually fun and we were talking a lot. She said how cute I looked pulling Cord in the wagon and said she wished she had the camera with her. I figured out a way to pull Cord so that she and I could walk with our arms around each other on the way back to her house. It was cool. She joked about how her dad hadn't said anything when he saw her tiny little outfit drying on the clothesline. I joked that he probably thought it was Emily's since it was so small. We laughed really hard about that one and she liked to enough that she had to tell Buffy as soon as we got back.
I then went and took a shower and put on my clothes to wear out. She picked out what I was wearing from all to the clothes in the back of my car. I brought almost everything I hadn't already taken to Gainesville. Afterwards her dad got out the video camera and I figured out how to use it while Shar¡ was in the shower. She came out in her outfit and I videotaped her. She kept giggling for me to turn it off and it was really funny. We then went and hung out in the bathroom and I recorded her putting her makeup on while we talked. I had complained earlier today that stockings would suck because they would block our `easy access' zippers on the shorts. She agreed that they would and then decided in the bathroom that they looked tacky. She asked me if she should take them off and I said yes. She did and I liked her legs much much better. I recorded her some more in the kitchen while she was rubbing aloe lotion on her legs. She was saying that we should have gotten the camera out earlier in the day to record stuff. True, like her running around in her underwear. That would be a trip!
We soon headed out. Christina had called earlier and even though Shar¡ and I were sitting there, Buffy told her this big lie that we had already left and wouldn't be back until two-thirty. Oh yea, Shar¡'s dad said she could stay out until 2:30! instead of twelve since she'd be with me and it was my last day. What a surprise! Even though she put on lipstick, we were kissing at every red light. When we got to Tally Hos we found us a seat in the very front of a packed house and she sung Sister Christian. I went up and had her mom get us two cups of Pepsi. There was nobody from Shar¡'s family there and it really sucked. Christina also had called the place and did again so Shar¡ answered it. It turns out that Christina's good friend in Ohio died and she was really upset so Shar¡ let her come down. I really didn't want her to be there at all because it was our night out, and Shar¡ didn't really either, but she said that she was already bawling on the phone. We stayed a little while once she showed up but then decided to head to Mulligans where it would be easier to record Shar¡ singing The Rose.
We met up with Shar¡'s uncle John and her cousin and we were all talking an joking around. There both pretty cool. We then grabbed us a round table near the bar when on emptied and hung out for a while. The time seemed to fly by and we were both kind of quiet. I did record Shar¡'s chest for a little while and we were all laughing about that. When we walked in Shar¡ asked Christina if her `lover' was there referring to this guy named Bear who Christina is in love with. I piped up and asked Christina if the other one was there, referring to Paxton, and she said no because she'd recognize that little sports car anywhere. I don't remember Shar¡'s expression at the time and I still find it very intriguing that she knows that I know, and often wonder why she thinks I've stayed shut up about it. Maybe I should tell her that I know she knows that I know. He he.
Christina got called up first to sing and then they eventually got a duet singing Grandpa. I recorded Shar¡ from the table and she didn't even realize until the very end and she got really nervous when she found out. It started getting really late and the DJ said that at least four people were singed up to sing The Rose and he said it probably wouldn't happen. I told her that I wanted to leave early enough that we could spend some time together alone and she agreed. I told her that I don't care if I don't get her singing The Rose, I can always do it later. I wasn't really sure if she was pausing not to abandon Christina or to not give us enough time to fuck around. I hope it was just a bit of overactive pessimism coming out. Christina looked at us and asked what was wrong and I told her that we were both extremely bored with her. I was kind of kidding, but when Shar¡ said that we were splitting less than a minute later, Christina took what I said as true and stomped out of the place. Shar¡ had to go pay for Christina's tab that she left and then we walked out.
Christina waited until we got out o the cars and then she slammed on the gas and sped off. Shar¡ and I started laughing that she must be pissed off. I found it really funny. There were a whole group of people that were standing right near us that looked. Shar¡ said she won't hear from her for a week and I told her to give her until morning. We got in and I hauled ass to her house. We only had an hour and I fully planned on going to the park near her house. It's dark and pretty isolated but close enough to her house that we can finish up our time there. When we got near her house I asked her if she wanted to stop somewhere or go home, and she suggested the park. Smart girl, and I told her that's what I thought. She said to get out of the car and we hugged really tight and then started walking around on the dark courts. I thought to ask her if she's ever screwed on a basketball court, but didn't. We looked for a bench but didn't see any. We then slowly walked back to the car after standing out in the open making out.
She almost walked towards the door but I steered her to the hood and she hopped up. We started making out again and rubbing each other very sensuously. I didn't want to get into her shirt and pants in the little bit of time we had unless she would stay out so I quickly debated over which and quickly came to a decision. Leave her tits alone! I didn't want her to think that all I want is a final cheap feel before I leave. Kind of.
I have this really good slow tickle massage with the tips of my fingers that she really loves. I moved my hands just above her tits and moved my fingers over them, down her belly, and out on her thighs a bit. Our mouths were pressed so hard together and it felt awesome. She had her hands way up in my shirt and was rubbing my chest and back. I then slid my hand onto her crotch and started rubbing her up and down pressing with two or three of my fingers. I then waited a second until she had brought her hands down to the top of my jeans again. I used my hands very lightly to keep her hands down near my crotch as I unbuckled my belt. She took the push and went to work. She unbuttoned my pants and undid the zipper. She then reached in and pulled up my dick and started giving me a hand job. It felt so damn good. Her fingernails even felt good, I've learned to like small bits of pain with her.
I wonder now if I would have at least gotten a blow job if I had of let her go, but I went for her shorts. I didn't want her to have taken her stockings off for nothing. I undid the zippers and reached into her underwear. She shaves the outer sides of her bush for the tiny bathing suits she wears and I wondered before if she was entirely shaved. She's not and that's good because I don't like that much. I kept working my hands down as far as I could with her sitting there on the car like that and I didn't get as far as I wanted. I was rubbing her clit though. She kept at it slowly in my pants and we would stop as a car would drive by. The entire time we were kissing (which is the most awesome way to keep a girl from telling you to stop!) and we finally pulled our lips apart and separated our hands from each others genitalia.
She made me look at the time and we had five minutes. I sat down in the passenger seat, killed the light from the door being open. I wanted to fuck her so bad right then and asked her if she wanted to chance being late. She said that she wants to be able to se me again later so she had better not. She knew what I wanted and I knew she probably wouldn't yet. But hell, why not try? We ended up kissing a final few times and I then drove her home. I left the car on as not to wake her parents by recranking it but I did get out to help her carry the stuff in. We then walked back to the door and hugged long and hard. I'd swear to God that I saw the first hints of tears in her eyes. Nothing could have meant more to me.
She asked me to call her before I left in the morning and I said that I would. I then sped home with the bluest balls I've ever had and an incredible urge. I almost ran into the median on Interstate 4 so I turned up the radio real loud and started chugging a two liter bottle of Pepsi. All I wanted was to make it home. I couldn't help but think about what a fitting end it would be for wonderful me to die on the way home when it felt like my life was ending anyway. I just wondered how Shar¡ would feel. When I got home at 3:30 I packed the car for two hours before taking a two hour nap. I then finished packing and was about ready to call Shar¡ when she called. We talked for as long as possible until my dad got tired of telling me that it was time to go.
On the trip up we stopped in Altoona and visited Granny. Father went and picked up Sue and I saw Annie as well. We ate a big dinner and I helped Granny cook by preparing and cooking the pork chops and frying the okra and cornbread. I knew that she'd brag about me helping her to everybody she sees now and she already started to when she saw Sue and Annie. She said that I cook better than most of her granddaughters. We left after two and made it to Gainesville by four. Our timing was again perfect and we had no trouble borrowing a float or getting into the elevator. Chris showed up just as we were leaving and we saw Ed drive by in the parking lot. I spent $144 dollars on groceries and I had guessed that it would cost one forty. Father had guessed at least one seventy-five and I had to brag on my accuracy.
Just as we walked in the door with al of the groceries, the telephone rang and I made them answer it saying that it's not for me because nobody knows I'm here yet. It turned out to be Shar¡!!! I was supposed to call when I was finished but she wanted to anyway. I talked to her for a little bit but then said that I needed to put away my groceries and would call her in a little while. I then made sure to tell her to call me in an hour if I don't call just in case my long distance service had been cut over the summer. She agreed and we bid each other farewell. I called home for two seconds and told them Father would soon be leaving. When he did I called Shar¡ and we talked for half an hour. She told me she wrote me a letter right after we talked this morning. She said it is three pages and pretty emotional!!! I hope she doesn't get second thoughts about anything and change her mind about sending it before she does. I'll be waiting for the thing with nervous anticipation. I really can't wait to see what she has to say.
I had to get off the phone for the night because we all were leaving to go get ice cream with our neighbors. I met Ed's new girlfriend Roswitha who's parents are entirely German. She's pretty nice and we've talked a little. I also fit a phone call to Laura in between the time my dad left and when I called Shar¡. She seemed glad to hear from me and we talked for a little while. She invited me to a party but I didn't want to desert my roommates on the first night out. I had told Shar¡ since Satarday morning that we'd all probably go out just to see each other on our first night. She really didn't want me to go out for some reason and we talked a lot about that. We also joked a lot about how she was going to keep me from coming to Gainesville. But anyway, I also walked next door to meet our neighbors and talked to three of the girls there for a few minutes. Two of them are pretty cute and I already know the third from last year.
Well, we ended up taking the three girls out and Kostas and I sat with them in the ice cream shoppe. We talked about how the two cute ones want to become exotic dancers and that went on for a long time. We then all started talking about sperm banks and how we guys can make fifty dollars a shot. We kept talking that they could go in and dance to excite us when we go. We then told them that they can come dance for us in the room anytime. Somebody said we could run our own little sperm bank and I told the cutest one that she can come over and do all the work for us. It actually sounded better than that and was a direct suggestion that she should come over and jack me off. It was quite funny though and maybe this little neighborship will work out nicely.
Friday, August 20, 1993
August 20, 1993 - Friday - Something to keep hidden
Information can truly be a dangerous thing. In my case, my little informant, Christina, prevented what would have been future pain with all the gory details about Shar¡ now. It turns out that my beauty cheated on me with a guy named Paxton who drives a nice little sports car. Christina said that they never went to Sarasota last Friday. She said that she finally gave in and told Shar¡ that she had invited me as Shar¡'s blind date. Shar¡ had invited a friend of hers named Rudy and didn't want me to go. He never showed up and Shar¡ ended up meeting Paxton as Mulligan's closed. Christina met up with a friend of hers named Ron and they all went back to Christina's apartment. Shar¡ had told me that she let Christina wear my ring while she was swimming. Now I know why. Christina said that she ended up walking in to find Paxton naked on top of Shar¡ who was still in her shirt and underwear. Shar¡ whined that they were just playing around and they didn't have sex. Cunt. That also was the reason for Shar¡ never looked at me the next night at Tally Ho's and at her brother's house. So many things fell into place as the last puzzle piece was found.
Christina and I ended up talking for two and a half hours. Shar¡ called me in the morning at 8:30 and we talked for quite a long time. She said that she actually tried to call me last night at eleven and tried back every fifteen minutes but finally gave up at midnight. I decided to be a bitch about the whole thing and possibly confront her.
Christina and I ended up talking for two and a half hours. Shar¡ called me in the morning at 8:30 and we talked for quite a long time. She said that she actually tried to call me last night at eleven and tried back every fifteen minutes but finally gave up at midnight. I decided to be a bitch about the whole thing and possibly confront her.
Wednesday, August 18, 1993
August 18, 1993 - Wednesday - White butt at the beach!
Shar¡ called this morning at nine and told me to get on over to her house. I gladly obliged and drove over. We ended up sitting around for quite a while until Cord woke up before eating lunch. I used my wonderful convincing skills and actually got use of my father's car for the day! We decided to head on down to Santa Maria Island or maybe Sarasota to spend the day on the beach. We drove by the Westshore Mall first and went through all of the stores it seemed trying to find her a new bathing suit. I voted for a white see-through bikini bottom at a topless beach. I think she would have worn the bottoms for me, but we couldn't find a matching top. We went into a store called body glove that had some really cute salesgirls in it and I was kind of flirting, or was I just being friendly? They had some awesome suits in the place that were all on sale for twenty bucks. I took care of Cord while she was picking some out. I found a chair and sat down and was holding him on my lap with his head hanging over my knees. He really likes that. We were also looking through the mirrors on the roof at his mommy. She again seemed impressed that Cord likes me so much.
When she asked, I told her which bikini I liked the best. It was a half black half white T-back. She planned on getting a T-back anyway so she went and tried it on. It worked out so I bought it for her and we headed to the beach. Well, Santa Maria Island was very disappointing. It's a nasty little bit of sand along with somewhat decent water. Her butt was pale white where she hasn't tanned it in a long time and I took a picture or two of it. Collectively, we ended up taking a lot of pictures of each other.
When she asked, I told her which bikini I liked the best. It was a half black half white T-back. She planned on getting a T-back anyway so she went and tried it on. It worked out so I bought it for her and we headed to the beach. Well, Santa Maria Island was very disappointing. It's a nasty little bit of sand along with somewhat decent water. Her butt was pale white where she hasn't tanned it in a long time and I took a picture or two of it. Collectively, we ended up taking a lot of pictures of each other.
Tuesday, August 17, 1993
August 17, 1993 - Tuesday - Grocery shopping!, Yelp!
I spent the entire day with my new family today. Shar¡ called at 8:30. I knew it was her and even though the call woke me up, I quickly perked up and refused to act the least bit tired. She answered my first hello with her excited inquisitive `Whatcha doing?!' line. I answered back in the same tone, `Sleeping!,' and she told me, `Well it's eight-thirty and it's time to get up!' She then told me that I didn't sound very tired and I told her that I was excited since I knew the caller was her. We talked for a while. They all were planning on doing some errands like grocery shopping and going to Wal Mart. I mentioned having to shop for my college stuff. Shar¡ always talks to Buffy while we're on the phone and Buffy said that she has tons of coupons off of everything that I can have if I want. Buffy then told me through Shar¡ to get dressed and to hurry and get my but over there. Shar¡ asked me if I wanted to come and I said yes and headed over. It was nine by then and she gave me until 10:30, although she said they'd wait anyway if I were late.
I got there at 10:05 but they weren't ready. We were both pretty glad to physically see each other. When we finally did leave, we first headed over to the food stamp office where she had put in an application and picked up her $240 worth of stamps for the month and a little bit of last month. Shar¡ sat up front for a little bit on the way over and I sat on the floor in front of the three kids. Emily and I stole Shar¡'s cigarettes and forced her to come into the back with me. We sat together and wrestled a little bit until I finally let her win and smoke. On the way home she came back and I sat in the middle of the back seat while Sean sat up front. She then sat on my lap and leaned back on me.
We went shopping at Food Lion and they bought $140 dollars worth of groceries. We picked up some tropical wine coolers that ended up being really cheap because we found a fifty cent coupon that the store doubled. We had quite an interesting time shopping. It's the first time in a long time that either one of us have been grocery shopping. We kept hugging all over each other. We walked around a corner once to see this fat employee coming out of the stockroom when he suddenly hiccuped really loud. Shar¡ did it back but louder than she had expected and we started laughing hysterically. It was really funny but mean to the guy. We ended up talking to him at the front of the store though. We ended up dubbing the noise a `yelp' and it caused quite a few good laughs throughout the remainder of the day. We went up to Publix later on to pick up a few things for dinner that the other store didn't have and she yelped once near the deli and boy did we have a hell of a time with that one. I acted all embarrassed and told her I can't take her anywhere again while all the while we were cracking up. I was on a roll today with my witty humor and we didn't stop laughing in that store.
We went back to her house and had dinner. It's funny how everybody always thinks I'm gross when I put ketchup on my ham or turkey sandwiches. We later sat outside while the kids played and each had a wine cooler. It was really good. I had never been to fond of them before, it just must have been the flavors I was exposed to.
I got there at 10:05 but they weren't ready. We were both pretty glad to physically see each other. When we finally did leave, we first headed over to the food stamp office where she had put in an application and picked up her $240 worth of stamps for the month and a little bit of last month. Shar¡ sat up front for a little bit on the way over and I sat on the floor in front of the three kids. Emily and I stole Shar¡'s cigarettes and forced her to come into the back with me. We sat together and wrestled a little bit until I finally let her win and smoke. On the way home she came back and I sat in the middle of the back seat while Sean sat up front. She then sat on my lap and leaned back on me.
We went shopping at Food Lion and they bought $140 dollars worth of groceries. We picked up some tropical wine coolers that ended up being really cheap because we found a fifty cent coupon that the store doubled. We had quite an interesting time shopping. It's the first time in a long time that either one of us have been grocery shopping. We kept hugging all over each other. We walked around a corner once to see this fat employee coming out of the stockroom when he suddenly hiccuped really loud. Shar¡ did it back but louder than she had expected and we started laughing hysterically. It was really funny but mean to the guy. We ended up talking to him at the front of the store though. We ended up dubbing the noise a `yelp' and it caused quite a few good laughs throughout the remainder of the day. We went up to Publix later on to pick up a few things for dinner that the other store didn't have and she yelped once near the deli and boy did we have a hell of a time with that one. I acted all embarrassed and told her I can't take her anywhere again while all the while we were cracking up. I was on a roll today with my witty humor and we didn't stop laughing in that store.
We went back to her house and had dinner. It's funny how everybody always thinks I'm gross when I put ketchup on my ham or turkey sandwiches. We later sat outside while the kids played and each had a wine cooler. It was really good. I had never been to fond of them before, it just must have been the flavors I was exposed to.
Sunday, August 15, 1993
August 15, 1993 - Sunday - Ringy reassurances...
Shar¡ spilled her guts quite readily after I asked her what she was so preoccupied with last night. She agreed that she was, and then said it was mainly about her father. I knew that he had demanded earlier that Shar¡ be home by about six yesterday afternoon. Buffy called and gave her the message but Shar¡ said she was tired of that shit and was going to carry out her night as planned. I figured she was worried about that somewhat last night and left her alone. She told me that she kept thinking when she was talking to her cousin or brother that she really should be over talking to me. that's cool because that's the only real thing that bothered me. We talked quite a bit today about keeping our relationship going while I'm in Gainesville. I really think the fact that I planned to take my ring back when I leave, and the fact that I am leaving have really put doubts into her head. She has said she is worried that I'll forget about her. I asked her about that and she said that there will just be so many girls there and then I went to work.
One of the first things I asked her is what she'll say when I tell her that I'm going to let her keep my ring! I then went on to talk about how I'll be laying out a lot and will even maybe take up some sports since I won't have to waste all of my time girl chasing like last year. She thought that was funny and I'm glad. We also talked about all of the people I was meeting last night at Tally Hos. She told me that i'll come to find out there her entire family is really friendly and will always hug you, using Melanie as an example. That's fine with me.
We talked a little bit about her bad points and she claims to have three. She says that one is the music she listens to. We talked about the image that people automatically give to rock listeners. We were talking about smoking pot. I asked her how often she still does it. She said that she has gone down from every day to about once a week. That surprised me but didn't vary my feelings about her. I remember them asking me once if I smoke but I didn't catch the hint to why she was asking. We also talked about people we've dated before. I am the first guy she has ever dated who is actually her age!!! Michael was twenty-one when she got pregnant with Cord at fifteen! I asked her what the hell he was thinking but she explained that they had grown up together [snip] and had always liked each other. She also told me how the man at the tattoo place told her that putting small roses on her tattoo will help to cover his name for good.
We went on to talk about her parents and how when they have arguments, her father will always let her have her say in the matter, but her mom won't let her get a word in edgewise. She also said that her mom always refers back to the fact that she is the one that ran away with Michael Brown. I knew that was coming and gave my opinion that it's complete bullshit for her to keep trying to use something so far in the past as proof that her argument is right. Shar¡ agreed fully with what I was saying which is cool. She also told me that after I came over Wednesday night, her father came up to her and told her that he hopes that I am not another Michael Brown. She said no, and at least he cares.
One of the first things I asked her is what she'll say when I tell her that I'm going to let her keep my ring! I then went on to talk about how I'll be laying out a lot and will even maybe take up some sports since I won't have to waste all of my time girl chasing like last year. She thought that was funny and I'm glad. We also talked about all of the people I was meeting last night at Tally Hos. She told me that i'll come to find out there her entire family is really friendly and will always hug you, using Melanie as an example. That's fine with me.
We talked a little bit about her bad points and she claims to have three. She says that one is the music she listens to. We talked about the image that people automatically give to rock listeners. We were talking about smoking pot. I asked her how often she still does it. She said that she has gone down from every day to about once a week. That surprised me but didn't vary my feelings about her. I remember them asking me once if I smoke but I didn't catch the hint to why she was asking. We also talked about people we've dated before. I am the first guy she has ever dated who is actually her age!!! Michael was twenty-one when she got pregnant with Cord at fifteen! I asked her what the hell he was thinking but she explained that they had grown up together [snip] and had always liked each other. She also told me how the man at the tattoo place told her that putting small roses on her tattoo will help to cover his name for good.
We went on to talk about her parents and how when they have arguments, her father will always let her have her say in the matter, but her mom won't let her get a word in edgewise. She also said that her mom always refers back to the fact that she is the one that ran away with Michael Brown. I knew that was coming and gave my opinion that it's complete bullshit for her to keep trying to use something so far in the past as proof that her argument is right. Shar¡ agreed fully with what I was saying which is cool. She also told me that after I came over Wednesday night, her father came up to her and told her that he hopes that I am not another Michael Brown. She said no, and at least he cares.
Saturday, August 14, 1993
August 14, 1993 - Saturday - Great fun yet distant
I'm gonna go nuts waiting for Shar¡ to call! We talked about three different times this morning cutting it off at about eleven thirty. Our final talk was the most meaningful. We talked for a few minutes about the night she attempted suicide. She was at her Aunt's house and just found out that none of her family was in the ambulance as she was taken to the hospital. She really thinks that sucks. We were talking about her being passed out and she told me that she thinks it was the ten 800mg IBUs she took that actually put her in a coma. She also took about twenty small blue pills called xylene(?) that she says give you a quick buzz and then drop you way down. they are depressants and she said they were easier because they were smaller. I tried to look them up in our physicians's reference book but couldn't find anything. I mainly wanted to know what a normal dose of each would cause and build from there.
Anyway, she went with Christina last night to her cousin's house in Sarasota for Christina's birthday. She said they came back and went to 911 last night but left really soon because Chrissy didn't like the heavy metal and atmosphere. Shar¡ says she really thinks I would hate it and probably won't take me either. They then went to Tally Hos butt they weren't doing karioke, so they went to Mulligan's and sang for a while. She spent the night at Christina's house and is with her now. that really sucks because it's killing one of the few days left hat we could have been together. She knows how I fell about it, too. I'm really starting not to like Christina at all. That's probably not a good attitude to take since they are probably going to live together someday but who gives a fuck?
I've been packing for Gainesville all day long just to kill time. Well the worthless piece of shit finally called around 8:30 and talked as if nothing were a matter. It wasn't really, so I let things slide without ever a complaint. She had been helping Christina move into her new apartment all day, and had also gotten in a fight with her dad which may prove to be a little detrimental to our week together. She asked me if I was ready and dressed to go. I said no but if we are still going, I will be very soon. She wanted me to meet them at Tally Hos at ten, but I kind of rearranged her plans for her. I decided that they would meet me at the McDonald's near there so I could eat and also so that I wouldn't have to be there by myself with her family since I knew she'd be late.
Well, they were more than late. She said to give them between ten and ten-fifteen, but they ended up not showing up until almost eleven. I was pretty pissed and figured that perhaps they just went on to Tally Hos figuring that I am smart enough to figure to go there on my own if they didn't show up after a while. I later was reassured that she isn't that way and not to worry so much. I even left once and almost went home but decided to have a heart and come back just in case. I know how the two of them can take forever doing nothing getting ready. When they showed up, I bitched at them both nicely and then sped off ahead of them to the club. I took the pictures in with me so that we could look at them. She apologized dearly for being so late and then joked that I should know better by now. Go ahead and think that bitch...
We walked in and I met a bunch of people, hugged Melanie, and said hello to her brother Wayne and his girlfriend. I was introduced to Melanie's sister and to this young cuter woman who asked me if I was Shar¡'s boyfriend. Shar¡'s mom was working behind the bar and the first thing I did was order us each a Pepsi. She had bitched the first night that I didn't buy Shar¡'s drink and that was because she had gone and gotten it before I knew otherwise. It was kind of funny having dear old mom cleaning up al of the trash on the table and all. At least Shar¡ wore her new Budweiser shirt, as did I, so that we matched. She had told me that she might wear this black see through leotard top with a black tube underneath. That's kind of like what Valerie and I were looking for at Victoria's Secret that time but she chickened out and never wore it. I was glad she wore my shirt just so her mom could see her in it. Shar¡ showed me that she has changed cigarettes again for the fourth time to Camel Lights. I asked her if she usually changes guys as often as she changes cigarettes and she replied with a quiet no.
I had a pretty cool time and I loved being able to talk this time!!! Shar¡ sang the usual two songs, especially The Rose! The pictures of us ended up making their way around the table and beyond. Melanie really liked the close up one of Shar¡ and Cord in the Skyride and I told her that she could have it if she wanted it. She was really glad. Shar¡ took a copy of the picture of us holding the parrots, the one of me holding Cord, Cord holding the pan and broom, and the two up-close ones of me in the river. Towards 1:15, the manager of the place said that Cord really shouldn't be in there anymore. We talked of going to Mulligan's where Shar¡ and I would be able to play pool. By that time, Wayne and his girlfriend were getting a ride home with Christina as well. There wasn't going to be enough room for everybody so I offered to follow behind with Shar¡ to their place. We nixed the second bar idea because they were closing at two.
Wayne said that we could all come over and hang out at the apartment for a while. We stopped and picked up a case of Bud Dry and then headed over. Shar¡ and I kissed a couple of times on the way over, nothing big. When we got there, they put Cord to sleep in their son's crib since he was still at the babysitter's. Wayne told me to pull up a chair from the table and I sat down. Christina took the recliner and this third guy that lives there was passed out on the couch. Wayne pulled up a chair right next to me and we started talking. I told him that the last time I was over here, he was passed out on the couch and he was surprised until we explained that it was the night they were taking care of Cord. His girlfriend and Shar¡ were off cleaning up and putting Cord to sleep. he asked me how old I am and I said eighteen. He was surprised again and said that Shar¡ usually brings over guys who are twenty-six or seven. I said that the last girl I dated was twenty-five and Shar¡ is my first eighteen year old in a while as well.
he grabbed me a Busch beer out of the refrigerator. I work for them but I don't think I've ever had one before. I also usually hate drinking beer out of a can, but this one was damn good. I guzzled the entire thing like I would Pepsi at the beach and actually enjoyed it. I would have easily gotten wasted if I didn't have to drive. I ended up having an awesome time socially, it was a lot of fun, but Shar¡ and I never really paid much attention to each other all night. It was a rarity for her to even look at me during the entire Trivial Pursuit game that Wayne suggested after we couldn't find a deck of cards or anywhere to play quarters. I noticed the distance, but it didn't really bother me at all because we all seemed to be having so much fun. Shar¡ and I were partners against Wayne and his girlfriend, leaving Christina to rot watching TV. By the time three o'clock rolled around, I think we could have just kept on going forever if Christina hadn't started bitching so hard. We all hated her for ruining the fun. She was complaining that she hadn't slept since Thursday morning. I laughed and told her to grab a pillow and take a nap and Wayne thought the idea was brilliant.
Wayne was being pretty perverted all night and I slipped in a few good ones but he had the advantage because he's screwed his girlfriend, and I haven't. I don't think he knew that. I came up with some great stuff though that made them all crack up. One of the questions asked how many [snip] died during some sporting event. I answered, `Not enough!,' and we all started laughing. He told me he should give me the question just for saying that. It was hilarious. Oh yea, we had a rule that we have to drink after every missed question. It was pretty cool.
When it was time to go, and we had all finally gotten it through our heads that Christina wasn't going to just go away, we got up. Shar¡ went and got Cord. Wayne told me that he had fun and anytime we want to drop by and do something, to feel free. That was really cool. Christina told Wayne to stop being so rude once, and he was defending himself that he isn't rude. He then said that mom is rude, though. Christina objected but then he pointed at me and said that I know she is rude and I agreed. That means he knows his mom's feelings about me. He talks to her a lot and I was really extremely glad to get on his good side like I did. Maybe some of this will get passed along to dear old mom. I wonder how she liked it when I was sitting at Tally Hos taking care of Cord in my lap...
Shar¡ ran back into the house one last time to get her stuff as Christina and I waited out by the car. Christina had bitched once in front of Wayne that if it hadn't been for her, Shar¡ and I would have never met. She was obviously upset at me probably for excluding her like we did. I waited for Shar¡ to walk up to me and then we hugged and said our goodbyes. She told me to give her a kiss and we kissed twice rather dryly. I just want to spend time with her alone again. that's all we need.
Anyway, she went with Christina last night to her cousin's house in Sarasota for Christina's birthday. She said they came back and went to 911 last night but left really soon because Chrissy didn't like the heavy metal and atmosphere. Shar¡ says she really thinks I would hate it and probably won't take me either. They then went to Tally Hos butt they weren't doing karioke, so they went to Mulligan's and sang for a while. She spent the night at Christina's house and is with her now. that really sucks because it's killing one of the few days left hat we could have been together. She knows how I fell about it, too. I'm really starting not to like Christina at all. That's probably not a good attitude to take since they are probably going to live together someday but who gives a fuck?
I've been packing for Gainesville all day long just to kill time. Well the worthless piece of shit finally called around 8:30 and talked as if nothing were a matter. It wasn't really, so I let things slide without ever a complaint. She had been helping Christina move into her new apartment all day, and had also gotten in a fight with her dad which may prove to be a little detrimental to our week together. She asked me if I was ready and dressed to go. I said no but if we are still going, I will be very soon. She wanted me to meet them at Tally Hos at ten, but I kind of rearranged her plans for her. I decided that they would meet me at the McDonald's near there so I could eat and also so that I wouldn't have to be there by myself with her family since I knew she'd be late.
Well, they were more than late. She said to give them between ten and ten-fifteen, but they ended up not showing up until almost eleven. I was pretty pissed and figured that perhaps they just went on to Tally Hos figuring that I am smart enough to figure to go there on my own if they didn't show up after a while. I later was reassured that she isn't that way and not to worry so much. I even left once and almost went home but decided to have a heart and come back just in case. I know how the two of them can take forever doing nothing getting ready. When they showed up, I bitched at them both nicely and then sped off ahead of them to the club. I took the pictures in with me so that we could look at them. She apologized dearly for being so late and then joked that I should know better by now. Go ahead and think that bitch...
We walked in and I met a bunch of people, hugged Melanie, and said hello to her brother Wayne and his girlfriend. I was introduced to Melanie's sister and to this young cuter woman who asked me if I was Shar¡'s boyfriend. Shar¡'s mom was working behind the bar and the first thing I did was order us each a Pepsi. She had bitched the first night that I didn't buy Shar¡'s drink and that was because she had gone and gotten it before I knew otherwise. It was kind of funny having dear old mom cleaning up al of the trash on the table and all. At least Shar¡ wore her new Budweiser shirt, as did I, so that we matched. She had told me that she might wear this black see through leotard top with a black tube underneath. That's kind of like what Valerie and I were looking for at Victoria's Secret that time but she chickened out and never wore it. I was glad she wore my shirt just so her mom could see her in it. Shar¡ showed me that she has changed cigarettes again for the fourth time to Camel Lights. I asked her if she usually changes guys as often as she changes cigarettes and she replied with a quiet no.
I had a pretty cool time and I loved being able to talk this time!!! Shar¡ sang the usual two songs, especially The Rose! The pictures of us ended up making their way around the table and beyond. Melanie really liked the close up one of Shar¡ and Cord in the Skyride and I told her that she could have it if she wanted it. She was really glad. Shar¡ took a copy of the picture of us holding the parrots, the one of me holding Cord, Cord holding the pan and broom, and the two up-close ones of me in the river. Towards 1:15, the manager of the place said that Cord really shouldn't be in there anymore. We talked of going to Mulligan's where Shar¡ and I would be able to play pool. By that time, Wayne and his girlfriend were getting a ride home with Christina as well. There wasn't going to be enough room for everybody so I offered to follow behind with Shar¡ to their place. We nixed the second bar idea because they were closing at two.
Wayne said that we could all come over and hang out at the apartment for a while. We stopped and picked up a case of Bud Dry and then headed over. Shar¡ and I kissed a couple of times on the way over, nothing big. When we got there, they put Cord to sleep in their son's crib since he was still at the babysitter's. Wayne told me to pull up a chair from the table and I sat down. Christina took the recliner and this third guy that lives there was passed out on the couch. Wayne pulled up a chair right next to me and we started talking. I told him that the last time I was over here, he was passed out on the couch and he was surprised until we explained that it was the night they were taking care of Cord. His girlfriend and Shar¡ were off cleaning up and putting Cord to sleep. he asked me how old I am and I said eighteen. He was surprised again and said that Shar¡ usually brings over guys who are twenty-six or seven. I said that the last girl I dated was twenty-five and Shar¡ is my first eighteen year old in a while as well.
he grabbed me a Busch beer out of the refrigerator. I work for them but I don't think I've ever had one before. I also usually hate drinking beer out of a can, but this one was damn good. I guzzled the entire thing like I would Pepsi at the beach and actually enjoyed it. I would have easily gotten wasted if I didn't have to drive. I ended up having an awesome time socially, it was a lot of fun, but Shar¡ and I never really paid much attention to each other all night. It was a rarity for her to even look at me during the entire Trivial Pursuit game that Wayne suggested after we couldn't find a deck of cards or anywhere to play quarters. I noticed the distance, but it didn't really bother me at all because we all seemed to be having so much fun. Shar¡ and I were partners against Wayne and his girlfriend, leaving Christina to rot watching TV. By the time three o'clock rolled around, I think we could have just kept on going forever if Christina hadn't started bitching so hard. We all hated her for ruining the fun. She was complaining that she hadn't slept since Thursday morning. I laughed and told her to grab a pillow and take a nap and Wayne thought the idea was brilliant.
Wayne was being pretty perverted all night and I slipped in a few good ones but he had the advantage because he's screwed his girlfriend, and I haven't. I don't think he knew that. I came up with some great stuff though that made them all crack up. One of the questions asked how many [snip] died during some sporting event. I answered, `Not enough!,' and we all started laughing. He told me he should give me the question just for saying that. It was hilarious. Oh yea, we had a rule that we have to drink after every missed question. It was pretty cool.
When it was time to go, and we had all finally gotten it through our heads that Christina wasn't going to just go away, we got up. Shar¡ went and got Cord. Wayne told me that he had fun and anytime we want to drop by and do something, to feel free. That was really cool. Christina told Wayne to stop being so rude once, and he was defending himself that he isn't rude. He then said that mom is rude, though. Christina objected but then he pointed at me and said that I know she is rude and I agreed. That means he knows his mom's feelings about me. He talks to her a lot and I was really extremely glad to get on his good side like I did. Maybe some of this will get passed along to dear old mom. I wonder how she liked it when I was sitting at Tally Hos taking care of Cord in my lap...
Shar¡ ran back into the house one last time to get her stuff as Christina and I waited out by the car. Christina had bitched once in front of Wayne that if it hadn't been for her, Shar¡ and I would have never met. She was obviously upset at me probably for excluding her like we did. I waited for Shar¡ to walk up to me and then we hugged and said our goodbyes. She told me to give her a kiss and we kissed twice rather dryly. I just want to spend time with her alone again. that's all we need.
Friday, August 13, 1993
August 13, 1993 - Friday - Last day!, Laura LaRussa
I was having fun at work because it was my last day and I was spending it with Stacy. She even asked me if I know that when I sweat, it makes my eyes that much bluer! I talked to her a lot all throughout the day and we'd probably become really good friends if I weren't leaving. I never got up the balls to ask her for her address but I did get a big goodbye hug from her as I left. I then ran and found my friend Jennifer who did give me her address.
Laura LaRussa came in with yet another cute friend into line at the bumper cars today. She called my name and we said hi. I then went and stood there talking to her until their turn came to ride. We were being all wonderful to each other again and were asking each other all about going back to Gainesville. She wanted to know when I'm going to get up to Gainesville. When I told her my new plans to come back after taking my stuff up on Tuesday, she was exasperated. She kept telling me to come up on Sunday so that we can hang out. I said that I really want to do all the things down here that you can't do in Gainesville like go to the beach and stuff. She told me that there are beaches close enough up there and she'd even go with me! I also told her that I would be lonely all week if I were there by myself in my dorm. She said that I wouldn't be alone, because she'll be there to keep me company. I told her that she wouldn't be in my room living with me and she said that I never know! It was really funny.
She told me that I better call her when I go up and she gave me her number after she rode. I then had a sip of her frosted lemonade. Her friend was going to give me hers but I wanted Laura's more. I didn't say a word about Shar¡ and won't mention her again to Laura for a while.
I called Shar¡ today at lunch again and had an interesting little conversation. Shar¡ then called my house right as I walked in the door, again!!! Third time! I told her that it's starting to scare me because she does it so much. We used to joke about having ESP but now I said she must have a camera at my house since she did joke once that she was keeping an eye on me. She agreed and we laughed.
Laura LaRussa came in with yet another cute friend into line at the bumper cars today. She called my name and we said hi. I then went and stood there talking to her until their turn came to ride. We were being all wonderful to each other again and were asking each other all about going back to Gainesville. She wanted to know when I'm going to get up to Gainesville. When I told her my new plans to come back after taking my stuff up on Tuesday, she was exasperated. She kept telling me to come up on Sunday so that we can hang out. I said that I really want to do all the things down here that you can't do in Gainesville like go to the beach and stuff. She told me that there are beaches close enough up there and she'd even go with me! I also told her that I would be lonely all week if I were there by myself in my dorm. She said that I wouldn't be alone, because she'll be there to keep me company. I told her that she wouldn't be in my room living with me and she said that I never know! It was really funny.
She told me that I better call her when I go up and she gave me her number after she rode. I then had a sip of her frosted lemonade. Her friend was going to give me hers but I wanted Laura's more. I didn't say a word about Shar¡ and won't mention her again to Laura for a while.
I called Shar¡ today at lunch again and had an interesting little conversation. Shar¡ then called my house right as I walked in the door, again!!! Third time! I told her that it's starting to scare me because she does it so much. We used to joke about having ESP but now I said she must have a camera at my house since she did joke once that she was keeping an eye on me. She agreed and we laughed.
Wednesday, August 11, 1993
August 11, 1993 - Wednesday - Visiting Shari!, Stacy
I had a pretty cool last day on the Kumba. I decided to work on the boardwalk all day long today as well as yesterday. My legs, feet and hands all hurt but it was well worth it. There is no responsibility and you have all of the freedom in the world to talk to the guests and other employees. Those of us that can stand the heat love it out there. I had one hour in the control panel each day, but that was the only other place that I really worked. The guests were extremely talkative and were in very good moods all day long. that was great. I kept receiving compliments about the park and everything. I also had quite a few in depth conversations with people about where they are from and so forth. I really liked that.
I talked forever on both days with this girl in the Kumba gift shop named Jeanette. I used to talk to her before but never seriously. I was amazed to learn that she is only sixteen, and not the eighteen or nineteen that she looks! She told me that most guys just leave when they find out. My wonderful self kept coming back and I think she really like that. We joked around a lot and she helped to make my days go by much faster. I also talked for a couple minutes with a almost every girl in the food shops around our area. It was fun.
My main little fling today was Stacy. She couldn't keep her hands off of me. I seem to always be there at a time when somebody is making a rude comment to her. I quickly pick up the pieces and she loves me for it. I was thinking about it before and realized that my talent is being able to know exactly what to say to somebody to pick up their self confidence when they are in a time of need. I did it with both Emily and Jennifer in Gainesville and have won over Jennifer and Stacy at Busch gardens by doing so. It's a special talent that I cherish. Anyway, we were being very nice to each other all day long and were having quite a bit of fun. It was cool.
Shar¡'s early morning phone call didn't catch me in time. I left early to go pick up my pictures from Albertson's at 9:30 and I didn't have to be to work until eleven. My pictures weren't ready yet, but I had another errand. I took the Skyride to the front of the park and after withdrawing some money from the ATM, I bought Shar¡ and my matching Budweiser pool shirts. I also bought a deck of Budweiser cards to add to our bar in Gainesville. I rode back to Congo and talked with Stephanie for twenty minutes about Shar¡ and girls in general before going to work. She seemed surprised to find out that I've told my parents everything that I've told her about Shar¡ and more! Oh well.
I went to Das Festhaus and bought my ham sandwich and drink and took it back to Vivi's. I planned on putting it in the refrigerator and calling Shar¡ for the remainder of my lunch and eat later on break. Amazingly there was nobody on the phone, and she was home. We talked until I was about ten minutes late and then I split. We both have a way of saying something very sweet to each other just when we need it most. It's weird but it's also really cool. She was talking about something and then told me that it proves that nobody loves her! I told her that I do!, and was later thinking about the deeper implications of her statement and back to when she tried to kill herself. I hoped that I was reassuring.
Brad Farber has come back to work from his three week trip to Israel and we talked about that for a few minutes. We get along much better now than we did before. I just never really cared to talk to him before. he was there at lunch with James when Shar¡ I got on the phone. James was telling him about my woman, and then told him that she's pretty cute! A compliment like that from a conservative upper crust like James means to me, the girl is gorgeous!!! I really appreciated the compliment. I told Shar¡ to give me a call tonight at ten when I got home from work and she said ok.
By the way, I've just decided that writing the term `OK' in capital letters just ruins the continuity and fluidness of my writing. It looks so ugly and big just sitting there. Rather that distract myself and the reader with such an ugly blemish, I will now use `ok' henceforth.
While I was on the control panel at Kumba, operations called and gave me the message that I need to call Shar¡ as soon as possible. She then asked me if I wanted her to connect me since I was at the phone anyway and I said yes and gave her the number. Shar¡'s dad answered but said that he was on the phone with a realtor and asked if I'd call her back. I explained that I couldn't because I am at Busch Gardens and asked him to give her my phone number and he did. Jimmy walked in and I let him answer it as she called back. He told me later that I'm not supposed to give people the direct number, that it's better to have them call through operations. I told him what had happened and that it's my last day on Kumba anyway, so who cares and he agreed.
Shar¡ wanted to know if I'd come over after work to see her. I was kind of reluctant because I was dirty and smelly and had nothing to change into. I also had planned on picking up the pictures of us at Albertson's on the way home and I also didn't have any gas. But just the chance to see her was incentive enough for me to find myself cruising over to her place after work. I found an old but clean tank top in my locker that I threw in there once and wore that. I made it over there by 9:30 only to pull up to a pitch black house. The garage was open and suddenly I see my baby walking out on her cordless phone. I got out and we hugged long and hard. I apologized for my appearance but I don't think she cared. We talked very spiritedly to each other for a long time. It's amazing how well we get along when we talk. We always have a blast and never run out of things to say. We often find ourselves laughing bubbly. Shar¡ is the first person that I've ever been able to talk to more easily in person than on the telephone, except for possibly Laura. But that was just ass kissing and Shar¡ and actually get engulfed in conversation.
Her dad was taking the kids on a walk and he showed up at ten. he seemed really pissed off and me being there so late added furl to the fire. He said that she need to tell him when visitors are coming to the house and their curfew at the house is ten o'clock. He then said that he hopes he need not say any more. We talked a few minutes more and she said that she was sorry that I had to leave so soon. We said our goodbyes and I gave her the new shirt.
When I got home she called and told me that she was wearing it already and really likes it. She also told me that her dad couldn't really see that it was me with her in the garage because it was dark and thought I was probably some scummy old friend of hers. She told him it was me and he later told Buffy that, `That asshole Dan came over tonight!' Buffy got pissed off at him and asked him if he has ever met me. He said yes that he saw me at the hospital and she said that she meant if we had ever sat down and talked. He said no and she went on to tell him that I graduated from high school, am going to be a doctor, and that I probably have a higher IQ than both of them put together. She also said that I am the most decent guy whom Shar¡ has ever brought home. He then asked what I am doing with a girl like Shar¡, which was mean. Shar¡ said that he started feeling like shit and felt worse and worse as buffy talked about me. he then said that he was sorry and would apologize the next time he talked to me. We laughed that things are cool with dad again!
I talked forever on both days with this girl in the Kumba gift shop named Jeanette. I used to talk to her before but never seriously. I was amazed to learn that she is only sixteen, and not the eighteen or nineteen that she looks! She told me that most guys just leave when they find out. My wonderful self kept coming back and I think she really like that. We joked around a lot and she helped to make my days go by much faster. I also talked for a couple minutes with a almost every girl in the food shops around our area. It was fun.
My main little fling today was Stacy. She couldn't keep her hands off of me. I seem to always be there at a time when somebody is making a rude comment to her. I quickly pick up the pieces and she loves me for it. I was thinking about it before and realized that my talent is being able to know exactly what to say to somebody to pick up their self confidence when they are in a time of need. I did it with both Emily and Jennifer in Gainesville and have won over Jennifer and Stacy at Busch gardens by doing so. It's a special talent that I cherish. Anyway, we were being very nice to each other all day long and were having quite a bit of fun. It was cool.
Shar¡'s early morning phone call didn't catch me in time. I left early to go pick up my pictures from Albertson's at 9:30 and I didn't have to be to work until eleven. My pictures weren't ready yet, but I had another errand. I took the Skyride to the front of the park and after withdrawing some money from the ATM, I bought Shar¡ and my matching Budweiser pool shirts. I also bought a deck of Budweiser cards to add to our bar in Gainesville. I rode back to Congo and talked with Stephanie for twenty minutes about Shar¡ and girls in general before going to work. She seemed surprised to find out that I've told my parents everything that I've told her about Shar¡ and more! Oh well.
I went to Das Festhaus and bought my ham sandwich and drink and took it back to Vivi's. I planned on putting it in the refrigerator and calling Shar¡ for the remainder of my lunch and eat later on break. Amazingly there was nobody on the phone, and she was home. We talked until I was about ten minutes late and then I split. We both have a way of saying something very sweet to each other just when we need it most. It's weird but it's also really cool. She was talking about something and then told me that it proves that nobody loves her! I told her that I do!, and was later thinking about the deeper implications of her statement and back to when she tried to kill herself. I hoped that I was reassuring.
Brad Farber has come back to work from his three week trip to Israel and we talked about that for a few minutes. We get along much better now than we did before. I just never really cared to talk to him before. he was there at lunch with James when Shar¡ I got on the phone. James was telling him about my woman, and then told him that she's pretty cute! A compliment like that from a conservative upper crust like James means to me, the girl is gorgeous!!! I really appreciated the compliment. I told Shar¡ to give me a call tonight at ten when I got home from work and she said ok.
By the way, I've just decided that writing the term `OK' in capital letters just ruins the continuity and fluidness of my writing. It looks so ugly and big just sitting there. Rather that distract myself and the reader with such an ugly blemish, I will now use `ok' henceforth.
While I was on the control panel at Kumba, operations called and gave me the message that I need to call Shar¡ as soon as possible. She then asked me if I wanted her to connect me since I was at the phone anyway and I said yes and gave her the number. Shar¡'s dad answered but said that he was on the phone with a realtor and asked if I'd call her back. I explained that I couldn't because I am at Busch Gardens and asked him to give her my phone number and he did. Jimmy walked in and I let him answer it as she called back. He told me later that I'm not supposed to give people the direct number, that it's better to have them call through operations. I told him what had happened and that it's my last day on Kumba anyway, so who cares and he agreed.
Shar¡ wanted to know if I'd come over after work to see her. I was kind of reluctant because I was dirty and smelly and had nothing to change into. I also had planned on picking up the pictures of us at Albertson's on the way home and I also didn't have any gas. But just the chance to see her was incentive enough for me to find myself cruising over to her place after work. I found an old but clean tank top in my locker that I threw in there once and wore that. I made it over there by 9:30 only to pull up to a pitch black house. The garage was open and suddenly I see my baby walking out on her cordless phone. I got out and we hugged long and hard. I apologized for my appearance but I don't think she cared. We talked very spiritedly to each other for a long time. It's amazing how well we get along when we talk. We always have a blast and never run out of things to say. We often find ourselves laughing bubbly. Shar¡ is the first person that I've ever been able to talk to more easily in person than on the telephone, except for possibly Laura. But that was just ass kissing and Shar¡ and actually get engulfed in conversation.
Her dad was taking the kids on a walk and he showed up at ten. he seemed really pissed off and me being there so late added furl to the fire. He said that she need to tell him when visitors are coming to the house and their curfew at the house is ten o'clock. He then said that he hopes he need not say any more. We talked a few minutes more and she said that she was sorry that I had to leave so soon. We said our goodbyes and I gave her the new shirt.
When I got home she called and told me that she was wearing it already and really likes it. She also told me that her dad couldn't really see that it was me with her in the garage because it was dark and thought I was probably some scummy old friend of hers. She told him it was me and he later told Buffy that, `That asshole Dan came over tonight!' Buffy got pissed off at him and asked him if he has ever met me. He said yes that he saw me at the hospital and she said that she meant if we had ever sat down and talked. He said no and she went on to tell him that I graduated from high school, am going to be a doctor, and that I probably have a higher IQ than both of them put together. She also said that I am the most decent guy whom Shar¡ has ever brought home. He then asked what I am doing with a girl like Shar¡, which was mean. Shar¡ said that he started feeling like shit and felt worse and worse as buffy talked about me. he then said that he was sorry and would apologize the next time he talked to me. We laughed that things are cool with dad again!